NEWTINK's SparkPeople Blog NEWTINK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Running scared with apologies On a Tuesday morning in January an accident at my home left me with yet another injury . My left Achilles tendon was severely damaged pulled sprained thankfully not torn though. Being shorthanded at work I could not be off work, home obligations meant no rest there . I had to adept to the injury and i did my best. Week after week passed and the foot was worst not getting any better . They thought a blood clot had set up in it and this changed things for me . <BR> <BR> Six weeks after the in... Thu, 22 Mar 2018 10:36:04 EST 10 days in : not looking good In November I was sitting thinking back over all that had happened in 2017 and I remember thinking if i can just get out of the Holidays I will be fine . The stress of the holiday season with finances, work, oh my god the weather and a sports injury was about all I could take . I did this with one thought a New year is coming and once we get out of the holiday season then everything will calm back down Well 10 days in and apparently my thought process was flawed . For me it is the after str... Wed, 10 Jan 2018 05:39:05 EST 2018 : The Year of Flame Welcome aboard It is 3 am and the alarm is blaring . The battle begins with oh god no i am not going to do , hit the snooze button for 6 more minutes , close my eyes and see 2017 going by on my eye lids , the alarm sounds again and No i am not going yes i am going .. **** explicit words **** fine i am up and i am going . Its cold and the streets are empty as i drive to that place . I pull in and there is no one there it is cold and I am alone as i step out of my car . I reach in and grab that unfamiliar ... Sun, 31 Dec 2017 21:03:56 EST Empowering This past May when my stomach basically just stopped working , I became scared to death . I panicked for a few days as the fear took over . My emotions running out of control , I was sinking fast but what to do . <BR> <BR> Six years ago this person started this journey of a lifetime . <BR> <img src=""> <BR> She was scared and alone , but one step at a time she became something different . She fought through mo... Fri, 6 Oct 2017 22:25:49 EST a question you should ask yourself ? Not many know of the health issues I have been having and I am not here to discuss that, but it is where my trainer asked me to download an app for motivation. The PepTalk it is a daily dose of motivation or whenever I feel like I am struggling to much . Let me tell you I like the energy of the app however I have never thought in the past six years to look for motivation . I get up everyday no matter what and ask myself while brushing my teeth " what am I am going to do today to make me bette... Thu, 6 Jul 2017 20:10:04 EST Back in control My birthday came and went this past week without me meeting the goal. I had set the goal to be 250 pounds by June the 25, and I didnt do it actually was up in weight. This is something that is always hard for me to swallow. When I set a goal i do everything i can do to meet it and I never set one that is not achievable . I set the goal in May when I was eight pounds away from it . A couple of weeks later i started noticing a swell in my abdomen area everyone said I was crazy but if i dont kno... Thu, 29 Jun 2017 20:40:20 EST The Transformation Story that made me cry From day one of this journey I focus on the now not the then . Somethings are to painful or to easy to go back to so i stay in the present . I was asked by my trainer who I have the utmost respect and admiration for, to write my transformation story for her growing client page . So I have done so. It was painful to write for me and very emotional. but yesterday I finished it with the taking of the now picture . When I compared the before and now I cried not tears of joy but more like I realiz... Sat, 4 Mar 2017 20:55:57 EST The most important Valentine Dear my better half , This is going to be more of an apology to you my most special Valentine . On January 10 we set out with a plan and I asked you to push harder do more be stronger . Together we worked out we watched in the mirrors that surrounded us as every rep went into the process . We have soaked in countless epsom baths as you were so tired and sore from all I put you through . We grimaced and fought back tears from blisters and Calluses formed and went away . I asked the impossible ... Tue, 14 Feb 2017 20:48:31 EST The wait In December I talk my trainer I just dont how much longer i can do this .. brow beat myself into the ground with the no results or not substantial one . She said take the holidays and we will strart over in with new plan in January . I made no resolutions only goals for myself . I spent many hours debating what i had been doing what needed to be done and where to go from here . <BR> <BR> When I met her on January 9 for measurements I was not sure of anything . All I knew is something had to... Sun, 12 Feb 2017 18:56:14 EST The most awesome number In October of 2015 the doctors and the Physical Therapist agreed that I could not do any fitness of any sort as to give my IT band time to heal . For three months i hobbled helpless on a leg that would not heal . Finally in December i was told i could go back to my fitness . December 26, 2015 I stepped on the scale and my heart broke when the number 299 shown its ugly head 27 pounds in three months but worst I was inching back to 300 pounds and i vowed i would never see the other side of that... Sun, 29 Jan 2017 21:51:50 EST My take on the best challenge on Spark Well now today is the last challenge day of the 2016 Fall 5% Challenge . I have been part of the 5% challenge for almost as long as I have been sparking on here . I cant recall one time I actually lost my 5% goal; However that has very little do with I am In the challenge to this day . I started out a Cloverleaf all them years ago but in my first I was told i was going to undergo extensive foot surgery and so it was highly suggested that i try the casual travelers . So the challenge i switch... Fri, 18 Nov 2016 19:56:13 EST Early morning Gym After battling through being sick and a ton of home drama this week, last I said i am going to the gym early tomorrow that way non of your plans can interfere with what i need to do. If they are not going to take my gym seriously then I am going to force feed it to them till they do. Can i work out at home why sure I can and I do sometimes because of life getting in the way. The difference is Gym time is uninterrupted time . It is headphones blaring music sweaty intensity . It is powerful and... Thu, 17 Nov 2016 21:10:46 EST No Fun I am sick today . My voice has been gone for two days . I ache every where and not sure what happened so quickly . My voice is showing signs of coming back at the moment but I have to work tonight at 10 pm so not sure how long it will last once the talking starts . I got up and i babysat my grand daughter this morning . I did the cleaning and declutter even though i did not want to . I went to the gym and did the Strength progression 1 which consist of chest and triceps . Now i am getting rea... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 20:56:02 EST Its the small things When I started out on this journey some years ago I thought by now i would be basking in the 100 land of success . Everyday I stepped on the scale and watched as i lost more than the weight of oldest grandchild. I have had plenty up and downs on the journey . Injuries by far. I have learned and taught i think but i have never given up . <BR> <BR> Have i reached my weight goals not at all . I wont say that doesnt matter because some days it is all i can think about; However I am a success st... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 20:48:11 EST The long mile as they say Not many are prevy to what I am fixing to say so bare with me . On the very first day of the Fall % challenge I can home from work to find my home is total dismay . My son was upset my other one was upset and packing his clothes to leave . And he did He left with his belongings and went to his mother's house . How nice that must be to be able to go see your mother because i sure can not do that !!! He has been unemployed since August . I was shaken but not for the reasons that everyone might... Sat, 12 Nov 2016 21:23:20 EST Saving Neverland Life is crazy for me right now . A terrible work schedule . A house full of family that includes my three small grandchildren who spend most of the evening hours screaming at each other. My other one has lost his job and that has led to a lot of uncertainty financially. Other marital issues have led to an uncertainty of the state of this marriage. <BR> <BR> In the past all things unhealthy have been my saving grace. curling up and hiding from the world while indulging in boxes of junk . b... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 21:41:42 EST Push to Pull Sum five years ago I started a journey of a lifetime. Every step of the way I have pushed to insane limits to find a stronger healthier me. I was sedentary but had no idea what that meant till I decided to move . The first gym or fitness center I ever went to scared the heck out of me . I felt so out of place and intimidated. I did not let that stop me I was determined if not obsessed with becoming a healthy me . Well not entirely true, it was my feet that drove me. The doctors all said if i ... Thu, 25 Aug 2016 08:59:02 EST The experiment I have a friend that comes in where I work every morning . He is delightful always so happy and smiling . We are forever discussing fitness and diet. Last week he let it slip that he only eats solid food every other day . This thought racked my mind for days . How can a person go without eating food that is slightly insane. <BR> <BR> The thought stuck with me so I decided to give it a try . This past Saturday I went day one without actually eating anything. That is chewing food of course. I... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 10:14:50 EST The lost factor Two weeks on Monday I took my trainer pics and as i compared them to the last ones taken on July 4 i was sadden by the loss of tone in the pic . I pushed harder if that is even possible. I move every minute of the day that is physically possible and i eat right so i ignored the pics and went on .. Just do more is what is said to myself. The week went on my with my grueling work schedule of overnights I said no matter what i get to the gym i will do the work Just push harder . I felt my body ... Sat, 6 Aug 2016 20:54:13 EST Me Time This past Saturday morning I made a post in my challenge team that came across horribly but I didnt realize till later . Since December the 26th I have pushed and pushed hard between work and family and fitness there hasn't been a lot of me time. Not to mention the out right stress of my life . Yesterday after an extremely busy day at work my body went crazy on me like it has never done before. I wasn't sure if i was having a heart attack , if my sugar for some reason had bottomed out on me, ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 20:42:08 EST Perhaps the most profound question ever asked I watched a new television program last and on this program someone asked the most profound question I had ever heard in my life . Let me give you some details here. <BR> <BR> The show is called " Fit to Fat to Fit " it is a reality television show where a trainer that has been fit his whole life gains weight so they can better understand how their obese client feels and how the challenge of loosing weight is different for a fat person. The trainer last night was a 31 year old male that had... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 20:37:11 EST Because it matters It's 4:36 am . I am asleep when the phone rang .. I look at the phone and it is my son that is in Texas ... I quickly answer the phone as I am sitting straight up in my bed after all it is 430am . I say what is wrong ? Which I think is a completely a reasonable question . <BR> <BR> He says what are you doing ? I said well normal people are sleeping at this time of morning whats wrong ... He laughed and said you always think something is wrong . Again it is 430 in the morning .. He said we... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 20:31:34 EST 2016 word of the year . Last year I waited on most things . I found myself waiting right into a black hole so I have decided that as I start off 2016 the new word for the year is PROACTIVE. I spent to much time being a reactor to things last year . I saw them coming and I got lost in the inevitable . Proactive : In organizational behavior and industrial/organizational psychology, proactivity or proactive behavior by individuals refers to anticipatory, change-oriented and self-initiated behavior in situations, partic... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 22:00:06 EST The gym numbers In May of 2013 I had just finished another round of physical therapy after my last foot surgery . Once i was finished and released I was clear to join the fitness center. My gym is called Singing River Healthplex . It is state of the art and centered around fitness and health not buff up steroid bumming muscles. When My spark tracker broke last year I replaced it with a similar one called the pebble. The pebble syncs up with my gym along with my strength training and it is all recorded there ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 21:48:18 EST The fiscal goal . When I was little my brother and I shared a room . In this room was this really long closet that had shelves at one end of it and that was my desk. I would take all mail that my mom didnt want or need and work diligently in my office organizing and filing and taking care of the paper. I have always had a problem throwing out paper or paperwork . I am probably one of the few people of the world that truly love paperwork . As i have stated the last year was tough for many reasons . <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 20:56:31 EST Measuring up 2015 <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have done the soul searching and come up with the hard truths about the year that is ending . I have seen the damage on the scale and have accepted it for what it is . I have come to terms with what I have to do to make things right again . <BR> <BR> As I look back over the past year I come to realize that it was not all bad . I had success in the gym early on and really enjoyed the HIIT... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 20:54:34 EST They are staring ? At the gym you can tell the holidays are over because everyone is crammed in there trying to suck up the motivation to get back on the healthy track . Wouldn't it be nice if we stopped taking the last two months of every year and adding a little weight for good measures . <BR> <BR> It is an interesting time because among the old faces that you are use to seeing around the gym there is also those new ones that look petrified and not sure at all. They are excited on the inside and scared to d... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 21:40:38 EST When it storms In the past any time I was trying to loose weight and I had a sudden large gain I reacted one of two ways . Either I gave completely up or I pounded so hard my body gave up for me . I am not in this for a weight loss I started this changing my life and in order to do that then I need to prepare for the storm . <BR> <BR> Few know this but I petrified of bad weather . I have been scared of it for most of my life but since Katrina in 2005 it is real test of wills to survive the weather . The o... Tue, 29 Dec 2015 21:23:02 EST Fall from Grace Since day 1 of this journey some four years ago I knew it wasnt going to be easy , after all I had a lifetime of bad choices to try and change . The first three years went pretty good some set backs but I was always to able to pull it back under control till the last three months . I fought for most of this year and battled hard but it all caught up with me and now it is time for some stone cold honesty . <BR> <BR> Truth #1 This past Saturday December the 26, 2015 I stepped on the scale and... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 21:37:54 EST For the Bras ! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today was the Fifth Annual Bras across the bridge walk in Moss Point, Ms. It was a beautiful day for the walk . Although I have my own opinions about Breast Cancer awareness it is important to support certain causes for no other reason that it is the right thing to do . There were survivors and a lot of people just out to support . The walk was approximately a 5k although that is just accord... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 20:03:36 EST Exhausted temptations When I started this process some three years back now I did it like the show " the biggest looser". I was alone in New Orleans with just the hubs . I spent 98 % of my time alone . In that time I fashioned my life around that alone time and it was so much easier . Once I moved back To Mississippi things became a little more difficult but I over came them . Things have changed and I am struggling not with my program but with my will power and my mental anguish. <BR> <BR> When my oldest son... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 22:16:42 EST The big five of the last 8 weeks !!! It has been the summer challenge for the Casual Travelers and the 5% challenge . This challenge has been a little different as it has really paid attention to Nutrition as a whole . So in eight weeks I have looked closely at my nutrition and my eating habits . <BR> <BR> First off I have found that I am still very much a stress muncher . As the stress grows in my life the more I tend to munch and not so much meals . As sad as it is to say Sometimes it seems like I am stuffing something in m... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 17:36:36 EST Back then Recently I was thinking about what fitness as become to me . This week I have been redesigning a comprehensive strength and cardio program I will be starting on Monday . Man , it is a lot of work to design one of these plans . It takes research and time to make sure that you are getting the right exercises for the right muscle groups . It takes time to decide what cardio will be done on each day within your own limitations . All this led me to back when fitness was just what we called fun . ... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 08:47:45 EST Fun ? hmmm maybe not This morning as I was signing up for the Summer 5% challenge . I went to the introduction thread. But I couldnt fill it out. I can tell you who I am but most know me already. I will eventually fill it out but some of the questions got me to thinking . Two fun facts about You ? what do you do for fun ? <BR> <BR> The truth of the matter is I dont think there is anything fun about me. I have a great sense of humor but that is wrapped up in a whole bunch of seriousness. In my world I have to be... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 07:12:03 EST Possibly the funnest workout ever ! I grew up in a world of boys . I am the only girl of three children. I have two brothers and two sons. I have two grandsons . See what I mean there isnt a lot of girlie junk in my world. I can be and am very famine but I also am very tough and strong . <BR> <BR> Growing up I watched boxing and football with my dad and brothers. I am not scared of getting dirty and sweaty but I absolutely hate to break a nail lol . As most know my workouts are designed by me to make me sweat. I am never ima... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 15:43:51 EST just random update It has been a while so i thought I would post a updated blog. <BR> <BR> I am still having knee issues that are not likely going to go away anytime soon. I can not have an MRI because my insurance wont cover it and the hospital wants 5000 up front for it. I dont have that kind of money. So until I figure something out I will just handle it the best way I can. <BR> <BR> In March I started " BE lean" at my gym . That is a program where I meet with a small group twice a week to do HIIT. We t... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 05:50:03 EST Hippity Hop For your heart and pics . March the 21st was the Hipity Hop for your heart 5K in Lucedale Ms. It was an important one to me because I was walking with my brother. I was hurting because of a knee thing but there was no way I wasnt walking with him . Randy is my everything , he has been the constant in my life since the day I was born. He never ask anything of me so when he asked me to walk this with him the only answer was yes. <BR> <BR> Neither of us knew the route till we were walking it . It was a lot of hills a... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 19:02:14 EST I am DONE ! To say 2015 started out horrible is a vast understatement. There have been lots of on going issues in my personal life a lot of which I choose not to discuss here on spark people However the little I have talked about I really appreciate the support that I have received. Having said that it is time for a change. I am DONE !!! <BR> <BR> I am done with all the daily stress interring with my personal goals. <BR> I am done with rearranging my schedule so to accommodate everyone else. <BR> I... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 18:48:56 EST outsmart your appetite I get a weekly newsletter from my gym it is called " keeping fit is a lifestyle" . This weeks was particularly interesting because it dealt with 10 ways outsmart hunger and cravings. So I thought I would share it in my blog and also to have it as a reference point. <BR> <BR> Healthy Lifestyle Tip: 10 Ways to Outwit Your Appetite <BR> Follow these ingenious tips to keep your appetite under wraps: <BR> 1.Feed it protein for breakfast. You'll be less hungry later on. <BR> 2.Make it climb a fl... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 11:26:30 EST new Resolutions It is New Year's Eve and we are suppose to be thinking of the next year and what or where we wont it go . People will start settling on the New Year Resolutions. A resolution is something you want to change or end. I stopped making New Year Resolutions a few years back and Now I make New Life Resolutions. <BR> <BR> New year resolutions are defeating. You set the most unrealistic goals for yourself. You have any plan to reach them and then when the first bump comes along you beat yourself up... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 08:04:51 EST Catching up for 5% So this is a catch all blog to see if I can catch up on several things all at once. In the next week or so we will be starting up the 5 % winter challenge and I am way behind on the pre challenge activities <BR> . Always there is a need to prepare for the eight week challenge. Preparation is the key to success in the search to loose weight. <BR> <BR> During the challenge my exercise plan will consist of cardio at least 45 minutes a day. I will do various HIIT at least three times a week. ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 08:51:15 EST 12 Trophies of hope I woke up early this morning. Well it isnt early to me but to the rest of the world it is early. Yesterday I took down that tree and literally threw it out of the door. Putting and end once and for all to the Christmas season of 2014. This month brought lots of gifts and not all of them were of the glitter and sparkle variety However this morning I was awarded with the last christmas gift of the year. <BR> <BR> Last January I bought me a spark tracker. This little black pebble is just like ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 06:37:31 EST A humbling year In the grand scheme of things I dont believe my life is much worst than others. However having said that I really need 2014 to end.. Everything has seemed to be compounded here at the end. Money issues , marital issues, car troubles more work hours and the loss of a special friend who I depended on more than I thought. But the year keeps giving and I have now woke up with the onset to a cold or something. It is hard to breath and the coughing and sneezing will drive you insane but I am not g... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 07:42:47 EST possibly an answer I started out this year with a serious skin issue. They called it stress induced eczema, As the year went on several things were added here . I became increasingly moody and depressed, Stomach issues and I have had a headache for most of the year. I stopped going to see my doctor because I honesty believe that she was convinced i was a hypochondriac. All I knew is i never feel good. My body is tired all the time Everything has been a will to do. The doctor said stress, remove stress. Outside ... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 07:15:06 EST functional fitness and beyond lol There are things that I fight so very hard for . I have been through a lot in life some of it shared here some of it not. But I try very hard to stay positive. I never want to be one of those tired old angry people. <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning while I was at work i waited on someone from way back in my past. She hasnt changed much at all she is still a very angry spiteful woman. I do manage to muster a smile and a thank you and have a good day while keeping all my composure. She hasnt chan... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 11:54:38 EST 10 Golden rays It has been a week of trials for me. Everyday has brought something that I have to deal with and with the loss of the most important part of my support system it has not been very good. However this is not about all that. Earlier in the week i was watching a Holiday program , I dont recall the name it was on HallMark . Mostly for noise in an otherwise quiet house. I caught part of a conversation on the screen. <BR> <BR> On a boxcar there is a homeless man at dawn with a bright stream of gol... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 07:10:29 EST Control issues Most people would tell you that I am a control freak which is probably the most accurate thing they can say. i have to be in a certain amount of control and there has to be order. These very two things have probably led to the reason this year has been so hard for me. <BR> <BR> The loss of control in my personal relationships has been the hardest which led to some health issues that led to the loss of control in my fitness. the loss of control in fitness has led to the loss of control of my... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 13:41:03 EST 11/18 Affirmation Yesterday all goals were met except 10 minutes. On the arc. I only did 3.5 minutes but it was last in the workout and my thighs were toast by then . All in all it was a good day despite an early morning spell with my stomach. Since it has been a while since I did weights I dropped the weighting by half and increased the reps . <BR> <BR> Step goal to reach step goal of 4028 at work in 5 hours . <BR> Gym goal HI IT training along with 20 minutes on bike 5 minutes on arc <BR> Nutrition goal ... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 03:37:03 EST 11/17 Affirmation Taking the step to get back to a centered progress. In the beginning everyday was a goal and affirmation. I taught myself to believe past the pain and doubts. So today we go back to the beginning <BR> <BR> Step goal : to reach my step goal at work in five hours 4028. <BR> Gym goal: 10 minutes on arc, 20 minutes on bike , leg and tabs on machines <BR> Nutrition goal 1300 calories <BR> <BR> Affirmation : What I have validated in myself is real and I don't need the validation of any p... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 03:38:11 EST Thank you Yesterday morning I woke to the honor of being a leader in the spotlight for the 5% challenge. I would like to say thank you to everyone for all your well wishes , thoughts and spark goodies. What very few know is that yesterday I also I had a scope done of my upper GI for stomach issues. Nothing serious was found but it was still a scary procedure to me . I hate when they have to put me to sleep or do anything that concerns my stomach. It was great to have all of you along with me even if y... 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