NEWTINK's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NEWTINK NEWTINK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ My take on the best challenge on Spark http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6269106 Well now today is the last challenge day of the 2016 Fall 5% Challenge . I have been part of the 5% challenge for almost as long as I have been sparking on here . I cant recall one time I actually lost my 5% goal; However that has very little do with I am In the challenge to this day . I started out a Cloverleaf all them years ago but in my first I was told i was going to undergo extensive foot surgery and so it was highly suggested that i try the casual travelers . So the challenge i switch... Fri, 18 Nov 2016 19:56:13 EST Early morning Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6268639 After battling through being sick and a ton of home drama this week, last I said i am going to the gym early tomorrow that way non of your plans can interfere with what i need to do. If they are not going to take my gym seriously then I am going to force feed it to them till they do. Can i work out at home why sure I can and I do sometimes because of life getting in the way. The difference is Gym time is uninterrupted time . It is headphones blaring music sweaty intensity . It is powerful and... Thu, 17 Nov 2016 21:10:46 EST No Fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266970 I am sick today . My voice has been gone for two days . I ache every where and not sure what happened so quickly . My voice is showing signs of coming back at the moment but I have to work tonight at 10 pm so not sure how long it will last once the talking starts . I got up and i babysat my grand daughter this morning . I did the cleaning and declutter even though i did not want to . I went to the gym and did the Strength progression 1 which consist of chest and triceps . Now i am getting rea... Mon, 14 Nov 2016 20:56:02 EST Its the small things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6266401 When I started out on this journey some years ago I thought by now i would be basking in the 100 land of success . Everyday I stepped on the scale and watched as i lost more than the weight of oldest grandchild. I have had plenty up and downs on the journey . Injuries by far. I have learned and taught i think but i have never given up . <BR> <BR> Have i reached my weight goals not at all . I wont say that doesnt matter because some days it is all i can think about; However I am a success st... Sun, 13 Nov 2016 20:48:11 EST The long mile as they say http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6265883 Not many are prevy to what I am fixing to say so bare with me . On the very first day of the Fall % challenge I can home from work to find my home is total dismay . My son was upset my other one was upset and packing his clothes to leave . And he did He left with his belongings and went to his mother's house . How nice that must be to be able to go see your mother because i sure can not do that !!! He has been unemployed since August . I was shaken but not for the reasons that everyone might... Sat, 12 Nov 2016 21:23:20 EST Saving Neverland http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6240842 Life is crazy for me right now . A terrible work schedule . A house full of family that includes my three small grandchildren who spend most of the evening hours screaming at each other. My other one has lost his job and that has led to a lot of uncertainty financially. Other marital issues have led to an uncertainty of the state of this marriage. <BR> <BR> In the past all things unhealthy have been my saving grace. curling up and hiding from the world while indulging in boxes of junk . b... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 21:41:42 EST Push to Pull http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6224207 Sum five years ago I started a journey of a lifetime. Every step of the way I have pushed to insane limits to find a stronger healthier me. I was sedentary but had no idea what that meant till I decided to move . The first gym or fitness center I ever went to scared the heck out of me . I felt so out of place and intimidated. I did not let that stop me I was determined if not obsessed with becoming a healthy me . Well not entirely true, it was my feet that drove me. The doctors all said if i ... Thu, 25 Aug 2016 08:59:02 EST The experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6222432 I have a friend that comes in where I work every morning . He is delightful always so happy and smiling . We are forever discussing fitness and diet. Last week he let it slip that he only eats solid food every other day . This thought racked my mind for days . How can a person go without eating food that is slightly insane. <BR> <BR> The thought stuck with me so I decided to give it a try . This past Saturday I went day one without actually eating anything. That is chewing food of course. I... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 10:14:50 EST The lost factor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6213429 Two weeks on Monday I took my trainer pics and as i compared them to the last ones taken on July 4 i was sadden by the loss of tone in the pic . I pushed harder if that is even possible. I move every minute of the day that is physically possible and i eat right so i ignored the pics and went on .. Just do more is what is said to myself. The week went on my with my grueling work schedule of overnights I said no matter what i get to the gym i will do the work Just push harder . I felt my body ... Sat, 6 Aug 2016 20:54:13 EST Me Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6085233 This past Saturday morning I made a post in my challenge team that came across horribly but I didnt realize till later . Since December the 26th I have pushed and pushed hard between work and family and fitness there hasn't been a lot of me time. Not to mention the out right stress of my life . Yesterday after an extremely busy day at work my body went crazy on me like it has never done before. I wasn't sure if i was having a heart attack , if my sugar for some reason had bottomed out on me, ... Mon, 1 Feb 2016 20:42:08 EST Perhaps the most profound question ever asked http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6074860 I watched a new television program last and on this program someone asked the most profound question I had ever heard in my life . Let me give you some details here. <BR> <BR> The show is called " Fit to Fat to Fit " it is a reality television show where a trainer that has been fit his whole life gains weight so they can better understand how their obese client feels and how the challenge of loosing weight is different for a fat person. The trainer last night was a 31 year old male that had... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 20:37:11 EST Because it matters http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6067936 It's 4:36 am . I am asleep when the phone rang .. I look at the phone and it is my son that is in Texas ... I quickly answer the phone as I am sitting straight up in my bed after all it is 430am . I say what is wrong ? Which I think is a completely a reasonable question . <BR> <BR> He says what are you doing ? I said well normal people are sleeping at this time of morning whats wrong ... He laughed and said you always think something is wrong . Again it is 430 in the morning .. He said we... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 20:31:34 EST 2016 word of the year . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6060527 Last year I waited on most things . I found myself waiting right into a black hole so I have decided that as I start off 2016 the new word for the year is PROACTIVE. I spent to much time being a reactor to things last year . I saw them coming and I got lost in the inevitable . Proactive : In organizational behavior and industrial/organizational psychology, proactivity or proactive behavior by individuals refers to anticipatory, change-oriented and self-initiated behavior in situations, partic... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 22:00:06 EST The gym numbers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6059382 In May of 2013 I had just finished another round of physical therapy after my last foot surgery . Once i was finished and released I was clear to join the fitness center. My gym is called Singing River Healthplex . It is state of the art and centered around fitness and health not buff up steroid bumming muscles. When My spark tracker broke last year I replaced it with a similar one called the pebble. The pebble syncs up with my gym along with my strength training and it is all recorded there ... Sun, 3 Jan 2016 21:48:18 EST The fiscal goal . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6057385 When I was little my brother and I shared a room . In this room was this really long closet that had shelves at one end of it and that was my desk. I would take all mail that my mom didnt want or need and work diligently in my office organizing and filing and taking care of the paper. I have always had a problem throwing out paper or paperwork . I am probably one of the few people of the world that truly love paperwork . As i have stated the last year was tough for many reasons . <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 1 Jan 2016 20:56:31 EST Measuring up 2015 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6056366 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/aa738744-2803-4207-a0c6-2d6c115e8dc9.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I have done the soul searching and come up with the hard truths about the year that is ending . I have seen the damage on the scale and have accepted it for what it is . I have come to terms with what I have to do to make things right again . <BR> <BR> As I look back over the past year I come to realize that it was not all bad . I had success in the gym early on and really enjoyed the HIIT... Thu, 31 Dec 2015 20:54:34 EST They are staring ? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6055667 At the gym you can tell the holidays are over because everyone is crammed in there trying to suck up the motivation to get back on the healthy track . Wouldn't it be nice if we stopped taking the last two months of every year and adding a little weight for good measures . <BR> <BR> It is an interesting time because among the old faces that you are use to seeing around the gym there is also those new ones that look petrified and not sure at all. They are excited on the inside and scared to d... Wed, 30 Dec 2015 21:40:38 EST When it storms http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6054950 In the past any time I was trying to loose weight and I had a sudden large gain I reacted one of two ways . Either I gave completely up or I pounded so hard my body gave up for me . I am not in this for a weight loss I started this changing my life and in order to do that then I need to prepare for the storm . <BR> <BR> Few know this but I petrified of bad weather . I have been scared of it for most of my life but since Katrina in 2005 it is real test of wills to survive the weather . The o... Tue, 29 Dec 2015 21:23:02 EST Fall from Grace http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6054278 Since day 1 of this journey some four years ago I knew it wasnt going to be easy , after all I had a lifetime of bad choices to try and change . The first three years went pretty good some set backs but I was always to able to pull it back under control till the last three months . I fought for most of this year and battled hard but it all caught up with me and now it is time for some stone cold honesty . <BR> <BR> Truth #1 This past Saturday December the 26, 2015 I stepped on the scale and... Mon, 28 Dec 2015 21:37:54 EST For the Bras ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6012823 <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/41b14d26-0c63-4d36-ad5d-16c3c713a37e.JPG"> <BR> <BR> Today was the Fifth Annual Bras across the bridge walk in Moss Point, Ms. It was a beautiful day for the walk . Although I have my own opinions about Breast Cancer awareness it is important to support certain causes for no other reason that it is the right thing to do . There were survivors and a lot of people just out to support . The walk was approximately a 5k although that is just accord... Sat, 10 Oct 2015 20:03:36 EST Exhausted temptations http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5996887 When I started this process some three years back now I did it like the show " the biggest looser". I was alone in New Orleans with just the hubs . I spent 98 % of my time alone . In that time I fashioned my life around that alone time and it was so much easier . Once I moved back To Mississippi things became a little more difficult but I over came them . Things have changed and I am struggling not with my program but with my will power and my mental anguish. <BR> <BR> When my oldest son... Sun, 13 Sep 2015 22:16:42 EST The big five of the last 8 weeks !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5978521 It has been the summer challenge for the Casual Travelers and the 5% challenge . This challenge has been a little different as it has really paid attention to Nutrition as a whole . So in eight weeks I have looked closely at my nutrition and my eating habits . <BR> <BR> First off I have found that I am still very much a stress muncher . As the stress grows in my life the more I tend to munch and not so much meals . As sad as it is to say Sometimes it seems like I am stuffing something in m... Sat, 15 Aug 2015 17:36:36 EST Back then http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5977730 Recently I was thinking about what fitness as become to me . This week I have been redesigning a comprehensive strength and cardio program I will be starting on Monday . Man , it is a lot of work to design one of these plans . It takes research and time to make sure that you are getting the right exercises for the right muscle groups . It takes time to decide what cardio will be done on each day within your own limitations . All this led me to back when fitness was just what we called fun . ... Fri, 14 Aug 2015 08:47:45 EST Fun ? hmmm maybe not http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5937678 This morning as I was signing up for the Summer 5% challenge . I went to the introduction thread. But I couldnt fill it out. I can tell you who I am but most know me already. I will eventually fill it out but some of the questions got me to thinking . Two fun facts about You ? what do you do for fun ? <BR> <BR> The truth of the matter is I dont think there is anything fun about me. I have a great sense of humor but that is wrapped up in a whole bunch of seriousness. In my world I have to be... Mon, 1 Jun 2015 07:12:03 EST Possibly the funnest workout ever ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5907819 I grew up in a world of boys . I am the only girl of three children. I have two brothers and two sons. I have two grandsons . See what I mean there isnt a lot of girlie junk in my world. I can be and am very famine but I also am very tough and strong . <BR> <BR> Growing up I watched boxing and football with my dad and brothers. I am not scared of getting dirty and sweaty but I absolutely hate to break a nail lol . As most know my workouts are designed by me to make me sweat. I am never ima... Wed, 8 Apr 2015 15:43:51 EST just random update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905140 It has been a while so i thought I would post a updated blog. <BR> <BR> I am still having knee issues that are not likely going to go away anytime soon. I can not have an MRI because my insurance wont cover it and the hospital wants 5000 up front for it. I dont have that kind of money. So until I figure something out I will just handle it the best way I can. <BR> <BR> In March I started " BE lean" at my gym . That is a program where I meet with a small group twice a week to do HIIT. We t... Sat, 4 Apr 2015 05:50:03 EST Hippity Hop For your heart and pics . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5899619 March the 21st was the Hipity Hop for your heart 5K in Lucedale Ms. It was an important one to me because I was walking with my brother. I was hurting because of a knee thing but there was no way I wasnt walking with him . Randy is my everything , he has been the constant in my life since the day I was born. He never ask anything of me so when he asked me to walk this with him the only answer was yes. <BR> <BR> Neither of us knew the route till we were walking it . It was a lot of hills a... Wed, 25 Mar 2015 19:02:14 EST I am DONE ! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5890649 To say 2015 started out horrible is a vast understatement. There have been lots of on going issues in my personal life a lot of which I choose not to discuss here on spark people However the little I have talked about I really appreciate the support that I have received. Having said that it is time for a change. I am DONE !!! <BR> <BR> I am done with all the daily stress interring with my personal goals. <BR> I am done with rearranging my schedule so to accommodate everyone else. <BR> I... Tue, 10 Mar 2015 18:48:56 EST outsmart your appetite http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5888094 I get a weekly newsletter from my gym it is called " keeping fit is a lifestyle" . This weeks was particularly interesting because it dealt with 10 ways outsmart hunger and cravings. So I thought I would share it in my blog and also to have it as a reference point. <BR> <BR> Healthy Lifestyle Tip: 10 Ways to Outwit Your Appetite <BR> Follow these ingenious tips to keep your appetite under wraps: <BR> 1.Feed it protein for breakfast. You'll be less hungry later on. <BR> 2.Make it climb a fl... Fri, 6 Mar 2015 11:26:30 EST new Resolutions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841750 It is New Year's Eve and we are suppose to be thinking of the next year and what or where we wont it go . People will start settling on the New Year Resolutions. A resolution is something you want to change or end. I stopped making New Year Resolutions a few years back and Now I make New Life Resolutions. <BR> <BR> New year resolutions are defeating. You set the most unrealistic goals for yourself. You have any plan to reach them and then when the first bump comes along you beat yourself up... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 08:04:51 EST Catching up for 5% http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5841092 So this is a catch all blog to see if I can catch up on several things all at once. In the next week or so we will be starting up the 5 % winter challenge and I am way behind on the pre challenge activities <BR> . Always there is a need to prepare for the eight week challenge. Preparation is the key to success in the search to loose weight. <BR> <BR> During the challenge my exercise plan will consist of cardio at least 45 minutes a day. I will do various HIIT at least three times a week. ... Tue, 30 Dec 2014 08:51:15 EST 12 Trophies of hope http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839150 I woke up early this morning. Well it isnt early to me but to the rest of the world it is early. Yesterday I took down that tree and literally threw it out of the door. Putting and end once and for all to the Christmas season of 2014. This month brought lots of gifts and not all of them were of the glitter and sparkle variety However this morning I was awarded with the last christmas gift of the year. <BR> <BR> Last January I bought me a spark tracker. This little black pebble is just like ... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 06:37:31 EST A humbling year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5836688 In the grand scheme of things I dont believe my life is much worst than others. However having said that I really need 2014 to end.. Everything has seemed to be compounded here at the end. Money issues , marital issues, car troubles more work hours and the loss of a special friend who I depended on more than I thought. But the year keeps giving and I have now woke up with the onset to a cold or something. It is hard to breath and the coughing and sneezing will drive you insane but I am not g... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 07:42:47 EST possibly an answer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835741 I started out this year with a serious skin issue. They called it stress induced eczema, As the year went on several things were added here . I became increasingly moody and depressed, Stomach issues and I have had a headache for most of the year. I stopped going to see my doctor because I honesty believe that she was convinced i was a hypochondriac. All I knew is i never feel good. My body is tired all the time Everything has been a will to do. The doctor said stress, remove stress. Outside ... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 07:15:06 EST functional fitness and beyond lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834405 There are things that I fight so very hard for . I have been through a lot in life some of it shared here some of it not. But I try very hard to stay positive. I never want to be one of those tired old angry people. <BR> <BR> Yesterday morning while I was at work i waited on someone from way back in my past. She hasnt changed much at all she is still a very angry spiteful woman. I do manage to muster a smile and a thank you and have a good day while keeping all my composure. She hasnt chan... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 11:54:38 EST 10 Golden rays http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831779 It has been a week of trials for me. Everyday has brought something that I have to deal with and with the loss of the most important part of my support system it has not been very good. However this is not about all that. Earlier in the week i was watching a Holiday program , I dont recall the name it was on HallMark . Mostly for noise in an otherwise quiet house. I caught part of a conversation on the screen. <BR> <BR> On a boxcar there is a homeless man at dawn with a bright stream of gol... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 07:10:29 EST Control issues http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830339 Most people would tell you that I am a control freak which is probably the most accurate thing they can say. i have to be in a certain amount of control and there has to be order. These very two things have probably led to the reason this year has been so hard for me. <BR> <BR> The loss of control in my personal relationships has been the hardest which led to some health issues that led to the loss of control in my fitness. the loss of control in fitness has led to the loss of control of my... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 13:41:03 EST 11/18 Affirmation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818688 Yesterday all goals were met except 10 minutes. On the arc. I only did 3.5 minutes but it was last in the workout and my thighs were toast by then . All in all it was a good day despite an early morning spell with my stomach. Since it has been a while since I did weights I dropped the weighting by half and increased the reps . <BR> <BR> Step goal to reach step goal of 4028 at work in 5 hours . <BR> Gym goal HI IT training along with 20 minutes on bike 5 minutes on arc <BR> Nutrition goal ... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 03:37:03 EST 11/17 Affirmation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5818070 Taking the step to get back to a centered progress. In the beginning everyday was a goal and affirmation. I taught myself to believe past the pain and doubts. So today we go back to the beginning <BR> <BR> Step goal : to reach my step goal at work in five hours 4028. <BR> Gym goal: 10 minutes on arc, 20 minutes on bike , leg and tabs on machines <BR> Nutrition goal 1300 calories <BR> <BR> Affirmation : What I have validated in myself is real and I don't need the validation of any p... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 03:38:11 EST Thank you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5816692 Yesterday morning I woke to the honor of being a leader in the spotlight for the 5% challenge. I would like to say thank you to everyone for all your well wishes , thoughts and spark goodies. What very few know is that yesterday I also I had a scope done of my upper GI for stomach issues. Nothing serious was found but it was still a scary procedure to me . I hate when they have to put me to sleep or do anything that concerns my stomach. It was great to have all of you along with me even if y... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 10:48:12 EST Committed http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5811458 The scale read 271.2 this morning. It should after last night small group HIIT. That lady sure believes in squats. I am lucky that my body springs back quickly these days. I have done enough over the last few years that it doesnt hold a grudge any more. <BR> <BR> Today I went for run training and a pool workout. I was thinking back to when I was scared of the gym well really fitness in general. Not that it was going to hurt but that people would make fun of me. But if i may embark a piece ... Wed, 5 Nov 2014 16:51:42 EST Analyze it out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5810636 This mornings weigh in was 272.4. When you find yourself tempted by things like junk food there is a reason behind it. You dont just suddenly loose your all your will or at least I didnt. For me stress took over and one day i found myself home worrying about marital issues , financial matters my special friend that is having health issues and all that had to be done before my son arrived home. Worrying doesnt fix tomorrow it just robs today. At any rate my stomach was hurting and i needed som... Tue, 4 Nov 2014 10:54:02 EST Confession and forgiveness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5809950 This morning as i stepped on to the scale and gazed at the red numbers I thought to myself it is time for a confession. The Scale blinked and tossed around the numbers till it finally told me 273.8. This was no surprise to me as it is Monday and for weeks I have been caring on a emotional love affair over the weekends. <BR> <BR> I know shocking , disgraceful and oh so shameful of me. A cheater of all things un natural. It started out innocent enough Just one little fling for old time sake. ... Mon, 3 Nov 2014 11:33:26 EST 10/31 thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808098 Every day I get up and spend most of my day puttering around alone. I have grown accustomed to being alone. I use to worry if i wasnt around people because i needed them to validate me as a person. That certainly is not the case any more. When I made the decision to change my weight for good there was so much that I had to change. However there were things that I could not change and that is where the problem is coming in at. <BR> <BR> You can change yourself and views of the world but you ... Fri, 31 Oct 2014 11:10:18 EST Motivating the motivator http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5796167 I dont walk with strength. <BR> I dont talk with strength . <BR> I am strong. <BR> <BR> I dont walk with beauty. <BR> I dont talk with beauty. <BR> I am beautiful. <BR> <BR> I dont walk with confidence. <BR> I dont talk with confidence. <BR> I am confident. <BR> <BR> On Thursday I wrote a blog but only a small portion got to read it in entirely because I edited most of it. That is very unlike me since my blog is for me and while talking with Susan from spark people I realized that... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 05:28:22 EST Coffee Please http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5795400 I dont know about everyone else but for me when things are going to good i have this little thought in the back of my mind that goes " steady you know what is coming ". Since my gall bladder attack things have been well lets say going better than normal. And the voice was there and I was like just shut up why dont you. Well it has been a week. for sure . <BR> <BR> On a happy note My grandsons are coming to stay the night tonight . It will be nice to have them here I have so missed them. <... Thu, 9 Oct 2014 16:57:43 EST A champions tale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5788229 June of 2011 I was scared into making some life changes. Each day since that day I have put all i have into becoming the healthiest me i could possibly be. During the past three years I have pushed, scarified, I have taught myself how to keep going. I have learned to take victory and defeat with the same grain of salt. In October of 2011 I walked my first humiliating 5k walk. I was over 300 pounds and didnt know anything so I walked it with very little training and honestly with the thought i... Sun, 28 Sep 2014 06:49:48 EST The day before !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5787483 Well it is the day before the Tryatlon. What does one do the day before something major? Me well i have declared it a day of rest . I have trained hard and now it is time to let the body chill for a bit before I push it to the extreme tomorrow. <BR> <BR> It is also a day of reflection. This time three years ago my biggest fear was coming to pass I had become that nearly 400 pound person that was headed to something terrible. I have thought back to those first few months when tears flowed li... Fri, 26 Sep 2014 16:49:04 EST Differing Perceptions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5785227 Loose a pound gain two pounds loose three pounds gain five pounds no one ever said that this was not a roller coaster. Funny how people see you and see things differently. <BR> <BR> I was told recently that if i had some sort of surgery with my fitness level that i would not suffer so much . That this process would be easier. Well first off for over 40 years I made bad choices that lead to my weight problem yes some of it is genetics but i promise there were no feeding tubes over feeding me... Tue, 23 Sep 2014 05:32:47 EST Back to it !!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5783333 The past week has been very stressful with lots of unanswered questions to running about. This is a catch you up blog. <BR> <BR> When I started my 5K training my core began to hurt and well I chucked it up to implementing a new thing. I know my core god knows i have done enough work on it. Last Saturday I woke up and my entire core was hard as a brick and pained. Now step out of the core this was not muscle pain this was something else. I went to the clinic and they said that it could be an... Sat, 20 Sep 2014 05:40:25 EST