NEWNIKKI50's SparkPeople Blog NEWNIKKI50's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Embracing the Change!! Whoop Whoop! I wanna dance! Here is what I have been hearing today from different people that ARE NOT related to me - and it feels great! <BR> You're losing weight! What are you doing? <BR> You LOOK great! <BR> I'm loving your natural girls, you really rock em'. <BR> You look like a rock star are you in a band? (I am wearing RED converse low tops with a short dress today...) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here's what I have been doing to get here: <BR> Boost my... Tue, 9 Apr 2013 14:50:08 EST Savor the Good! It is amazing how much good I am able to find in a day when I choose to focus on smiling instead of complaining. I am learning to remind myself that the little frustrations and annoyances in life just make the good even sweeter. <BR> <BR> I was so SALTY early this morning because the 6:30 am commuter bus for my community has not been showing up on Friday's - for NO reason! I'm telling you it set me in a downward spiral of anger and negative energy. <BR> Then I remembered how much I like so... Fri, 5 Apr 2013 11:01:50 EST I'm Back! Wow! I took a bit of a break and didn't even realize it! <BR> I beat that bronchitis back to where ever it came from (LOL) and I feel fabulous again - slowly getting back to my walking routine. Did I ever tell you that I have a HOT Pink FitBit! I love it. When I was not getting my "conscious walking practice" in it kept me reminded that every step counts! <BR> <BR> I'm simultaneously working on some amazingly creative projects right now. <BR> I'm downright giddy about it! <BR> These are pro... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 14:32:39 EST Today IS My Friday - Feeling emotionally strong and safe in my own skin today. <BR> I've not been eating as many veggies as I should be and I'm paying the price for it. <BR> Made a commitment to myself to do better. <BR> Excited about getting my blog launched before the end of April after it was delayed due to my lack of coding skills. Had to go back to the drawing board. <BR> I have a long weekend to enjoy starting tomorrow. <BR> All in all life is good. <em>459</em> <BR> <BR> Thu, 28 Mar 2013 11:45:30 EST Sick Days Today is my first day back to work while still fighting a nasty bout of bronchitis. <BR> It laid me out and I could barely get out of bed to pee much less keep up my daily workout goal of 12K steps!! <BR> So, what's a perfectionist, die hard, never give up girl to do? <BR> Listen to my body, that's what! <BR> I am treating myself with gentle compassion, being aware of the tightness in my chest, following my doctor's orders to drink extra fluids and ride out the cough with over the counter ex... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 09:40:33 EST The Power of NOW Sometimes I read several books at once. Right now I am reading "A Year of Living Consciously" by Gay Hendricks and "The Power of NOW" by Eckhart Tolle. <BR> <BR> It always amazes me how whatever I am reading compliments each other even though I do not consciously plan it that way. <BR> From "The Power of NOW" I am learning that any thoughts, emotions, pain spent on the past. Or anxiety, fear, fantasy spent on the future does not really help me in the now. From "A Year of Living Consciously" ... Tue, 12 Mar 2013 10:04:36 EST International Women's Day Celebrate by treating all the women in your live with respect and dignity every day. <BR> From your sister, mother, wife, daughter, friend to the waitress that serves your food or the woman on the other end of your customer complaint call...send love and grace into the universe and see what comes back. <em>361</em> Fri, 8 Mar 2013 09:32:48 EST Snow Day, No Beating Yesterday was a snow day for the DC Metro Region - the Federal Government office of personnel management (OPM) and all the agencies that follow their policy were closed for the day. The office where I work is one of those agencies. <BR> <BR> I stayed home and ate way too much chicken, watched a couple of good movies, never even opened my laptop, hemmed some pants and shot a video of the huge beatiful snowflakes from the comfort of my front porch (tried to load the video for you but it was to... Thu, 7 Mar 2013 10:58:45 EST Ch,ch,ch - Changes Changes - David Bowie <BR> <BR> <BR> My outlook and approach to life has changed so much in the past 6 months that I can hardly recognize myself. Having the courage to look at and sort through all my baggage, revaluate and reconsider my goals and life's purpose. <BR> <BR> It has been a hella lot of work! <BR> <BR> Having found the courage to offer forgiveness and compassion, breaking the cycle of long term emotional bondage/baggage, maintaining a daily spiri... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 10:26:41 EST Gratitude Today is Monday. <BR> Not very much unlike any other of the millions of Monday's we all experience. <BR> Except that for me, my thought process and outlook and behavior have changed since I made the committment to never, ever again break any agreement I have with myself. <BR> <BR> I agree to KNOW and TRUST myself better than anyone else <BR> I agree to LOVE, HONOR and CHERISH myself <BR> I agree to be KIND to myself <BR> I agree to be WHOLE, HEALTY and COMPLETE <BR> I agree to NEVER abando... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 08:39:34 EST Seeing the Change for the Very First Time! My circle of family and friends is very small and tight knit. <BR> These are the people that see me at least twice a month if not everyday. <BR> Some of them have recently said to me that they see a change in me, for the better! <BR> <img src=""> <BR> My daughter in law said, "Mom, you're glowing!" and my daughter said "the extra that you had on your belly is disappearing, you look a lot lighter, Mom!" <BR> <BR> Today I was in the cafe... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 12:34:01 EST The Wisdom of Instant...not On January 2nd, 2013, I signed up for SparkPeople because I had been making major changes and overhauling my whole life as I approached my 50th Birthday. <BR> I got clear on the fact that I was overweight and that it was not going to just melt away because I kept wishing that it would. I deeply examining all my relationships. Painfully facing that one major long-term relationship was irreparably broken and needed to be discarded once and for all with all the dignity that I could muster and ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 12:10:26 EST Beautiful People I've been blessed to know some very beautiful people. <BR> I'm not speaking of societies definition of beauty, the false flash and glamour that is standardized beauty. <BR> I'm talking here about the internal spark and truth that has nothing to do with how one looks on the outside. <BR> I'm talking about people who are not caught up in possessions or the acquistion of such or of using other people to get what they want. <BR> I'm talking about people who have an awareness of clarity to know e... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 09:40:10 EST The Wisdom of No Escape The universe allows us as many chances as we need to grow into our highest and greatest good.-NewNikki50 <BR> <BR> Last year I made a poor choice that didn’t even take six months to cause me a whole lot of heartache, suffering and pain. Finally, looking honestly at the situation I had to take 100% responsibility for attracting the relationship to me. <BR> In the throes of grief from losing two very dear friends who had recently passed on and being steeped in the fear of losing my adult daugh... Tue, 5 Feb 2013 15:45:00 EST Loving Myself The Best February is a month marked for it's romantic holiday full of cards, gifts and tokens of intimate love. What is one to do if they are recently out of a romantic/dramatic relationship, perhaps due to recent divorce, seperation or death of their life partner? <BR> <BR> Well friends, I'll tell you what I am doing! <BR> I have marked the month of February for 28 days of unabashed, shameless acts of being "Madly In Love With Me". I've renewed my committment to loving myself even more each day and ... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 14:14:28 EST My Best Decade So Far I don't know what it is about turning 50. <BR> Is it the age of self-knowledge, mixed with the feeling that I have no more time to waste? Could it be that the ability to say NO when needed and YES to exactly what I want has finally kicked in? <BR> <BR> I have always been responsible, stable, hard working. <BR> And now I realize that life does not have to be hard. <BR> I have given birth to two children, raised them and let them go into the world. <BR> I am acquainted with the grief of far to... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:54:43 EST My 1st 10,000 Steps! I just earned a 10K BADGE on for tracking my first 10,000 STEPS! <BR> Whoop Whoop! I am so PROUD of myself. <BR> <BR> I have come a long way baby. All the way from a sad toxic relationship, sedentary lifestyle, horrible eating habits and negative "scarcity"outlook about life, relationships and love. When I finally put my foot down and declared that enough is enough. I realized that this my 5th decade would be my very, very best. <BR> <BR> For me, this first 10,000 steps represen... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 20:39:17 EST The Whole Package I usually take time to look inward every year around the same time that "New Year Resolutions" get made. But for me it has never been about New Year Resolutions; because we all know how easily they are broken before January even has a chance to be over. <BR> <BR> For me, the annual deep look inward is more like Spring cleaning for my soul. This year I happened to be turning 50 in January so my look inward was a major milestone and extra rewarding. In late August I had started to examine al... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 10:01:18 EST Investing In ME! I purchased a pretty magenta (bright pink) FitBit Zip and it arrived yesterday, (appx $55 bucks on It was a breeze to set up on my lap top and it automatically started tracking my progress right away. <BR> <BR> From the first day that I joined SparkPeople, I had been using a pedometer app on my android smartphone to track my steps. I quickly noticed that it was logging every little giggle of the phone as a step. This was leading to inaccurate step counts no matter how hard I tr... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 08:39:51 EST Successful Week Last Monday was my first day back at work after a lovely long stay-cation. <BR> I thought it would be difficult to keep up with my commitment to a healthier lifestyle. WRONG! <BR> <BR> I totally forgot that: <BR> #1. - My office is on the 5th floor so to go anywhere else or do anything else in the building I can take the stairs round trip. <BR> Also, the pedometer app on my SmartPhone keeps me motivated as it tracks every single step. <BR> #2. - The salad bar in the cafeteria is fully stocke... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 10:55:17 EST You Are Enough - by Ariana Schoelhorn You Are Enough (a letter of self-worth) <BR> <BR> Dear One, <BR> Yes you, you who thinks you are not enough. <BR> You who tries tirelessly <BR> to do everything you can to show that you are deserving of love, <BR> worthy to be here in this world, <BR> but always worrying that it is not enough. <BR> You that feels it is what you are able to do that shows your value instead of who you are. <BR> This letter is for you. <BR> Because here is the thing – <BR> the day you were born the world sang; ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 11:10:41 EST 2nd Day - Choosing the Woo Hoo! Could any of you tell that I was skipping through the clover happy, <BR> Supercalifragilistic-expealadoshush excited about my first day yesterday? Whewww. The energy was contagious and I got a lot of goal setting and trophy winning done. <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> Then after being treated to a fun dinner, I realized I had ate 1007 calories over my goal for the day on my very first day! wompwomp. <BR> <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Well, me maties! <em>221</em> I can look at this in on... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 09:57:13 EST 1st Day Baby Steps! Wow! I joined SparkPeople today! <BR> I set my goals, made some SparkFriends, read some motivational articles, joined a challenge, customized a weight goal ticker for my page, exercised and gave myself a HUGE high five and a hug! <BR> <BR> There is no greater love than loving oneself enough to take care of oneself. <BR> I always knew I had it in me but after what seemed like miserable failures at relationships, false starts and plain old giving up on myself I had almost forgotten. <BR> <BR>... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 11:57:11 EST