NEWMOON's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NEWMOON NEWMOON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Diet Rage - HULK SMASH :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763766 GRRRRRR. I have PMS and I want chocolate and salty crunchy things and then more chocolate. Chocolate-covered salty crunchy things. <BR> <BR> So, I'm sitting here, trying to be all Zen about it, talking to myself about what I want more...to be healthy, to have mobility, to travel again...and then the food addict in me says "EFF THAT! All you have is today, and today I want PLEASURE and you know how good it all tastes. Why are you depriving yourself of something that makes you happy?" <B... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 18:46:59 EST My current "intentional activity" plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5763066 Going from completely sedentary to doing some kind of "intentional activity" (I can't use the word exercise without wanting to hide somewhere) is a challenge. <BR> <BR> I have never enjoyed doing it for the sake of doing it. When I was active and healthy, I played tennis, walked everywhere, rode a bike, rode horses, went dancing, etc. My physical activity was FUN. <BR> <BR> Until I weigh less and can move easier, I've come up with my own personal plan that is DOABLE. Some people might ... Tue, 19 Aug 2014 17:37:49 EST Tool Box for Recovery - Added 10 and 11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761962 These are the things that have helped me with recovery from compulsive eating. <BR> <BR> I'll repost it when I add to it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/0/l50950882.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1. Write about it. Blog, journal, whatever. Get it out there for accountability, for support, for the sake of speaking it and not holding it in. <BR> <BR> 2. Music. If you already have an emotion identified that's causing the urge, pick something that either matches it, or will c... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 08:55:05 EST Tool Box for Recovery - Revisted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761421 Time to revisit and update my Tool Box. <BR> <BR> These are the things that have helped me with recovery from compulsive eating. <BR> <BR> I'll repost it when I add to it. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l593982152.jpg"> <BR> <BR> 1. Write about it. Blog, journal, whatever. Get it out there for accountability, for support, for the sake of speaking it and not holding it in. <BR> <BR> 2. Music. If you already have an emotion identified that's causing the ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 12:29:47 EST Plus ca change, plus c'est la meme chose http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761302 The more things change, the more they stay the same. <BR> <BR> And so it goes. <BR> <BR> In the almost 4 months I've been gone, I've lost weight and gained weight. I've been in a hole of panic, anxiety, and depression. <BR> <BR> I've stuck to a healthy eating plan for a few weeks, and then something extremely stressful happens, and I stress-eat. <BR> <BR> I've been losing and gaining the same 20 pounds literally for years now. <BR> <BR> I know what needs to be done. <BR> <BR>... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 08:58:39 EST Where I've been and where I'll be http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5682259 First of all, thank all of you who have been checking in on my page. Your concern and support mean the world to me. <BR> <BR> Here's what's going on. <BR> <BR> When I filed our Federal Income Tax (online), the IRS rejected it, and after talking to them, I found out that someone used my name, date of birth, and social security info to file a fraudulent tax return (based on some imaginary job/income) in order to receive a fraudulent refund from the IRS. <BR> <BR> I've since learned that in... Mon, 28 Apr 2014 10:12:34 EST Time to stop borking around http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5667332 " 'Borking' is not a word", you say? Feel free to insert your favorite. <BR> <BR> While I haven't been free-range binge eating, I started doing the math in my head instead of tracking, making less-than healthy choices for a meal here and there, and getting sloppy with just about everything. <BR> <BR> All a recipe for disaster. <BR> <BR> So, time to get serious again, and do what I know works. Track my food, count the calories, watch the sodium, plan meals, cook pretty much everythi... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 11:33:18 EST April 8 through April 14-Orange/Yellow Fr/Veg Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666682 NOTE: If you copy/paste this somewhere else, please be kind enough to give me credit. I worked many hours to gather the nutritional info and to put this list together, and it is original work. Thanks! <BR> <BR> Here are the rules: <BR> 1. You eat a min of 3 different Orange/Yellow fruit/veg during the week of 4/8-4/14 <BR> 2. You eat a min of 1 Orange/Yellow fruit/veg daily. <BR> 3. You eat a min of 5 fruit/veg daily (including your daily Orange/Yellow fruit/veg). <BR> 4. Blog about it (opti... Mon, 7 Apr 2014 16:18:40 EST Week one Eat a Rainbow results http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5666472 I ate at least one purple/blue fruit of veg a day. <BR> I ate at least 5 servings of fruit/veg a day. <BR> The purple/blue fr/veg I ate this week: <BR> Blueberries <BR> Eggplant <BR> Purple Cabbage <BR> Purple Onion <BR> <BR> YAY <BR> <BR> <em>242</em> <em>277</em> <em>242</em> <em>284</em> <em>242</em> Mon, 7 Apr 2014 11:45:52 EST April 1 through April 7 - Purple/Blue Fruit/Veg http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658492 NOTE: If you copy/paste this somewhere else, please be kind enough to give me credit. I worked many hours to gather the nutritional info and to put this list together, and it is original work. Thanks! <BR> <BR> <BR> Here are the rules: <BR> 1. You eat a min of 3 different Purple/Blue fruit/veg during the week of 4/1-4/7 <BR> 2. You eat a min of 1 Purple/Blue fruit/veg daily. <BR> 3. You eat a min of 5 fruit/veg daily (including your daily Purple/Blue fruit/veg). <BR> 4. Blog about it (... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 10:08:58 EST Here is the Challenge, should you accept it... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5658466 I developed this Challenge for the Chair Exercise Team, but if you want to join me, go for it. <BR> <BR> Just make sure you give me credit for, OK? No stealing it and posting it on a team somewhere without saying where it came from! Yes? Yes. I spent many hours on researching this, so R-E-S-P-E-C-T. Thank you! <BR> <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Every week in April, you focus on a specific color family of Fruit/Veg. <BR> <BR> Green is a gimme, since we're all probably getting green veg o... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 09:37:57 EST "I'm going off the rails on a crazy train" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5656269 Yep, that was me for about the last week. Not tracking my food, not counting calories, and eating whatever I wanted. <BR> <BR> I made those choices consciously. I knew when I had the sub, fries, pizza, etc., that the food wasn't healthy for me. <BR> <BR> I have lots of reasons, no need to list them. <BR> <BR> The bottom line is that I need to take myself by the hand and guide myself back on track. <BR> <BR> Had a healthy bfast and lunch, and the food is tracked. Need to figure out dinner,... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 14:06:53 EST Moving forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5651527 So, between TOM and then an intestinal virus, my food choices have not been the wisest and I just noticed that I haven't tracked my food since the 12th. <BR> <BR> While I have not been binge-eating or emotional eating, my meals have not been the healthiest. <BR> <BR> Moving forward. <BR> <BR> The past is gone and there's no need to look backward. All I have is this moment, and the choice is mine. <BR> <BR> Today, I will track. Today, I will choose healthier options for my meals. ... Wed, 19 Mar 2014 11:44:46 EST COOTIES! I got 'em! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5647640 Intestinal, that is. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was ugly. No one needs the details. <BR> <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Not tons better today, but I think the worst is over. <BR> <BR> Going to spend today recuperating and hydrating. <BR> <BR> Much love to all you wonderful SparkFriends for your ongoing support. <BR> <BR> Keep rockin' it! <BR> <em>252</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> Fri, 14 Mar 2014 10:27:45 EST I can barely stand myself right now LOL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5646312 I'm so grouchy from hormones that it's almost funny. ALMOST. <BR> <BR> I'm struggling with wanting to eat everything that's not tied down. <BR> <BR> I won't do it, but I really really really want to. <BR> <BR> I'm distracting myself by watching old episodes of Project Runway through my Roku, so there are very few commercials, and fortunately none have been food-related. <BR> <BR> Tim Gunn is comforting to me. So is really bad fashion. <BR> <BR> So, I'm curled up under a soft ... Wed, 12 Mar 2014 16:00:12 EST Mini Rant http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5645325 This has been working my last nerve: <BR> <BR> Since Jan 29 2014 I have been on this site somewhere every single day. <BR> <BR> BUT...if I don't spin the stinkin' wheel, it's as if I wasn't here. <BR> <BR> I logged my food, blogged here, posted on someone's page, answered sparkmail,and/or any combination of things, BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. <BR> <BR> One day without spinning the &*&$#($#&#@ wheel, and I lose CONSISTENCY???? <BR> <BR> I have more important things to do here than worry ... Tue, 11 Mar 2014 12:03:47 EST Feeling grouchy, resentful, etc. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5644522 I know it's mostly hormones, but my attitude is just plain horrible today. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we had no internet, which was fine, but no blog post here from me, which kind of threw me a little off track. <BR> <BR> I don't know why it should bother me that I couldn't post. Probably that all-or-nothing thing I'm cursed with. <BR> <BR> Regardless, in spite of having a bunch of negative feelings like frustration and anger, I didn't eat from it all, so that's good news. <BR> <BR> I th... Mon, 10 Mar 2014 13:47:13 EST Blurgghh. Feeling sick, but somehow glad about it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642377 Had a light breakfast and thanks to losing track of time, lunch came and went, and I had a bunch of calories left for today. <BR> <BR> I haven't had ribs in a long time. Had the calories for them, so why not? <BR> <BR> They're sitting in my stomach like a rock. When I think about them now, I'm legitimately disgusted. All the things I loved about them before, are just totally revolting now. <BR> <BR> SO, I sit here, feeling ill. <BR> <BR> But, I'm glad because it means that my bo... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 18:31:59 EST This is my blog for March 6th - Moderation? Wasssat? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5641910 Yep, had the darn thing all typed up, got distracted and never hit the "post blog entry" button. <BR> <BR> Filling in for the leaders (TEMPORARILY!!) for The Chair Exercise Team happened for a reason. Actually more than one reason. I'm not a person who thinks every tiny thing that happens to me is the result of some Universal Event, BUT, I KNOW that some stuff lines up all at the right time, right place and whammo, you've got some learnin' to do. <BR> <BR> So, what are these lessons? ... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 07:56:34 EST Hectic Day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5640021 I don't know what I expected from today when I woke up this morning, but somehow I'm now acting co-leader of the Chair Exercise Team. <BR> <BR> Helping out while the 2 leaders take a break for health reasons. <BR> <BR> I'm excited about it, but I have a lot of reading and catching up to do, as I have not yet started to exercise again, so I haven't been active on the team page. <BR> <BR> I DO know that it's an excellent place for support and information on getting a workout when faced wi... Wed, 5 Mar 2014 01:06:50 EST More stuff I learned that helps me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5639025 Just some random thoughts as I get ready for bed at the end of day 33 without emo eating. <BR> <BR> > Learning to accept that people will act they way they act. I am learning to stop expecting people to do X if I do Y. It helps with feelings of disappointment and frustration, which are 2 big emo eating feelings for me. The less I feel disappointment and frustration, the less I have to battle the emo eating. <BR> <BR> > It's NOT about me. LOL, that's a hard one. Of COURSE it's ALL ... Mon, 3 Mar 2014 22:24:33 EST GAAAAHH ads are harshing my mellow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5637883 All the ads here are making it next to impossible for me to navigate around the site. <BR> <BR> Yes, I know the ads are revenue to keep the site running, and I love this site, so yeah... <BR> <BR> BUT, it's to the point now that they're locking up my laptop and I'm getting so frustrated that it's almost to the point that I don't want to come in here anymore. <BR> <BR> ALSO...many of the ads are for FOOD, and it's not healthy food. Pizza, breadsticks, pasta, whatever from Pizza Hut or ... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 17:24:06 EST What I learned in 30 days of recovery from food addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5636102 1. You have to have support. <BR> <BR> 2. You cannot always find/get support. <BR> <BR> Of course I learned much more than that, and I've blogged here about all of it. But, those 2 things stick out more than anything else. Maybe because that's what I personally need the most? <BR> <BR> This site is fabulous for support. There are so many wonderful people here who keep me going hour by hour. I honestly believe that I would not have 30 days behind me if it were not for the folks her... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 12:35:13 EST 29 days with no emo eating http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634842 Thank you to everyone who reached out on my earlier post about loneliness. Just wanted to report that I made it through witbout eating. <BR> <BR> Special thanks to Reyafae for the friendship and support tonight. <BR> <BR> I hope you all truly know how special you are! Wed, 26 Feb 2014 23:23:18 EST Nope. Not going to emo eat from loneliness. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634560 Feeling lonely right now and my addiction wants food for "comfort", but I know how my addiction lies. <BR> <BR> Any nano-second of enjoyment that comes from food is certainly not going to take away this feeling. If anything, a lot of the loneliness I'm feeling right now is due to emotional eating. My size restricts my mobility, and I've created a situation where it's difficult to so many of the things I used to do before the ME/CFS and subsequent emo eating weight gain of 200+ lbs. <BR>... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 16:54:21 EST A breakfast from around the world :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634396 Here are some pics (no instagram) of one of my breakfasts. <BR> <BR> USA (2 eggs) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l788793919.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Greece (yogurt) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l1220109867.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Mexico ("Mexican" cheese blend) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l413925073.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Thailand <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1111376944.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Take a moment to ... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 13:12:01 EST A sobering sight and a reminder to make each moment count - Warning: Sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5634242 I was on Facebook this morning and saw a pic posted by an old school friend. <BR> <BR> It was snow, but there was a patch of bare ground. It was where he found his dog last night, who had apparently been killed by a hit-and-run driver. The bare patch of ground was the silhouette of his dog. <BR> <BR> I immediately started to cry. I'm crying now. I haven't seen this person in 30 years and he lives out of state. <BR> <BR> That picture, with the dog-shaped bare patch of ground in t... Wed, 26 Feb 2014 10:36:05 EST FOOD TIPS - EGGSELLENT Breakfast Mugs from Hungry Girl http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5633339 Oh, Breakfast. I know you're important, but you are a challenge for me. I'm not at my best and I don't want to think about you too much, and I just want it healthy, and I want it easy. Oh, and I don't want a bunch of dishes to wash, either. <BR> <BR> I just remembered an ancient post from Hungry Girl, about egg mugs! Basically, you take a mug, spray it with non-stick stuff, add eggbeaters, some other stuff, and you throw it in the microwave. <BR> <BR> There are a bunch of variations, ... Tue, 25 Feb 2014 10:41:43 EST I got nuttin. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5632861 For a change I have nothing to talk about. Spent the day doing bills, etc. and I think I'm just burned out. <BR> <BR> All is well. Mon, 24 Feb 2014 20:46:18 EST Adding to my Recovery Tool Box (adding #'s 7 & 8) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631881 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l815802430.jpg"> <BR> <BR> ***UPDATING 02/23/14 - ADDING 7 & 8*** <BR> <BR> Last night I successfully fought off a very strong urge to eat leftover pizza simply because it was there. I used several tools to get me through and I just realized I should probably start a list and have it handy for the next attack. So, I'll start here and update when I think of more. <BR> <BR> 1. Write about it. Blog, journal, whatever. Get it out there ... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 19:15:46 EST Week 2 in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631854 I had a few goals for my second week, but I kept them to myself. I have found that sometimes I sabotage myself if I post goals (yeah, I know, what's up with that?), so this week I decided to keep them off my blog. <BR> <BR> I'm happy to report that I accomplished all 3 of them. <BR> <BR> They were: <BR> 1. Log food every day <BR> 2. Stay within calories range for the week <BR> 3. Get through 7 days without a binge <BR> <BR> I've got to double-check, but I'm pretty sure I have been... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 18:41:02 EST Catching up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5631794 This weekend has been hectic. <BR> <BR> First of all, just want to post that I've been on track with my food and there have not been any bouts of emotional eating, which is MAJOR considering the stress. <BR> <BR> I ended up in at Urgent Care Friday when a scratch from my cat suddenly started to look ugly and red stripes started travelling away from the wound. NOT GOOD. So, I had to shower (at my size is quite the production), get dressed (also quite the process for "street clothes") a... Sun, 23 Feb 2014 17:10:44 EST More about this whole "Success Story" thing and the definition of success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629935 SUCCESS: <BR> suc·cess noun \s&#601;k-&#712;ses\ <BR> <BR> : the fact of getting or achieving wealth, respect, or fame <BR> <BR> : the correct or desired result of an attempt <BR> <BR> : someone or something that is successful : a person or thing that succeeds <BR> <BR> I think that this is important. REALLY important. Because there are far too many of us working way too hard every hour of every day to be healthy. SOO many of us are fighting so many things that led to where we are ri... Fri, 21 Feb 2014 09:21:56 EST 02/20/14 Food Log http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5629530 2 eggs <BR> 1/4 (dry) grits <BR> 1/2 T light marg <BR> 4 slices turkey bacon <BR> <BR> 2 LC Chicken Parm <BR> 2 c cuc <BR> 1 c shrooms <BR> 3 T light Greek dressing <BR> <BR> Wawa roast beef whole wheat shorti, no cheese, all vegs <BR> Dove Dark Chocolate <BR> <BR> CALS 1808 <BR> FAT 70 <BR> CARB 181 <BR> PROT 109 <BR> CHOL 522 <BR> FIBER 16 <BR> SODIUM 5027 (PREPARED FOOD-IT'S CRAZY!!! There should be FDA regulations!!) Thu, 20 Feb 2014 19:29:12 EST So, wait! You mean I'm not ALREADY a "success story"??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628987 Warning: Mini-rant. <BR> <BR> I just glimpsed something on my Start page here, I think it was called "Become a Success Story!" <BR> <BR> Before I continue, congratulations to all who have done the hard work to reach their goal weight, etc. We all know what it takes every single day to keep going and I would imagine when you get to that magic number (or whatever the goal is), it is FABULOUS and the hard work continues in order to maintain. <BR> <BR> BUT. BACK UP THE TRUCK, CHUCK!!! Ma... Thu, 20 Feb 2014 08:32:03 EST 02/19/14 Food Log http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628670 Please see my other blog entry for today regarding the overages. PLEASE NOTE: I'm completely ok with it. I'm a human and one day will eat under my ranges, and one day might eat over. The important thing is that when you look at the overall picture, am I eating an average within my range in one week? And also, am I learning something? And how am I handling it? Am I ok? Or am I freaking out, thinking I did something "bad" or "wrong"??? I am ok. Actually, I'm more than ok. I'm absolut... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 20:42:47 EST I forgot I ate!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5628636 Finishing up tracking my food for today. All looks good, except sodium was a little high due to the processed food. <BR> <BR> BUT... <BR> <BR> Then I remembered I ate microwave popcorn today but I didn't track it right away, and when I figured out what I could have for dinner...well, let's just say I'm over my cals for today, and WAAAAY over my sodium. <BR> <BR> I'm fine with it, though, because I've been under my cals and I have more than enough to cover today's slip-up. <BR> <BR... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 20:05:46 EST 02/18/14 Food Log http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627887 2 Lean Cuisine Thai Style Chicken <BR> 1 bag Hanover Sugar Snap Peas <BR> 6 oz Light Blueberry Yogurt <BR> <BR> Subway BMT Salad w/Prov Cheese, spinach, lettuce, tom, onion, cuc, blk olives, banana peppers (no dressing) <BR> 3 Tablespoons Gazebo Room Light Greek Dressing <BR> 6 oz Light Strawberry Yogurt <BR> <BR> Diet Green Tea <BR> Water <BR> Black Coffee with Sweet & Low <BR> <BR> CALS 1433 <BR> FAT 32 <BR> CARBS 137 <BR> PROT 77 <BR> CHOL 117 <BR> FIBER 19 <BR> SODIUM 2432 (SUBWAY!... Wed, 19 Feb 2014 00:54:38 EST Paint by numbers for grownups! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627766 Those of us of a certain age remember when paint-by-numbers kits were really popular. <BR> <BR> They're still available, and for people like me, they're great for feeling like you're a little bit of an "Artiste" if you don't quite have the talent for the real thing. <BR> <BR> You can find them on Amazon, and here's another website that sells them: <BR> <link>www.herrschners.com/department.aspx?<BR>id=596&utm_source=google&utm_medium=cp<BR>c&keyword=g++paint++by++number+b&gclid<BR>=CL... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 22:07:35 EST Starting to fill my Tool Box for recovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627746 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l815802430.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Last night I successfully fought off a very strong urge to eat leftover pizza simply because it was there. I used several tools to get me through and I just realized I should probably start a list and have it handy for the next attack. So, I'll start here and update when I think of more. <BR> <BR> 1. Write about it. Blog, journal, whatever. Get it out there for accountability, for support, for the sake of s... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 21:42:24 EST "So what's next?", my therapist asked. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5627462 AGH! THERAPY!! <BR> <BR> I told my therapist about my last accomplishment, The Week of all Promises Kept, and she was all "congrats" and "way to go" and "I'm so proud of you" and jumped right to "SO WHAT'S NEXT?". <BR> <BR> I wanted to pinch her. Good thing it was a phone session. <BR> <BR> I said, "Ummm, how about ANOTHER week of the same promises kept? You know, get them a bit under my belt more before I go ahead and ADD something?" <BR> <BR> So, she says "You are capable of so ... Tue, 18 Feb 2014 14:55:36 EST Update on The Great Battle of Feb 17 - Newmoon vs Food Addiction http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626869 Since my last post, I did the following: <BR> <BR> 1. Meditated: Used this vid from YouTube <link> http://youtu.be/mbQEu1LZW3U </link> Personally, I didn't enjoy the man's voice as some of the other vids avail, but I did enjoy the messages and the sound of the ocean was relaxing. I had my eyes closed, so I can't speak for the images. It helped and that's what matters. <BR> <BR> After the meditation, I was more relaxed and I was more back in my own head, feeling like I had a litt... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 22:14:45 EST Nope, not gonna do it. "Write it, don't bite it", and other stuff. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626770 Here we go. Addiction is calling. I know there's a piece of leftover pizza in the fridge (my husband's pizza, not mine). It's not even GOOD pizza. Some nasty "self rising" monstrosity from the grocery store's freezer aisle. I'm in the North East. We have good pizza pretty much at any local joint. The stuff he bought has a lot of nerve even calling itself pizza. <BR> <BR> But I wanna eat it. Why? I'm doing an emotional inventory, running down a checklist of feelings, and nothing is... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 20:11:51 EST 02/17/14 Food Log http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626700 Today was our delayed Valentine's meal. I wouldn't recommend eating one huge meal a day on a regular basis, but once in a while it's ok. It was early enough in the day (3pm). It's the TOM for me, and I NEEDED a steak. <BR> <BR> I went a little over in fat (15g) and protein 6g (a smidge), but all other info is in line. I actually have 144 cals left, so if I get hungry later, I'll have a LF yogurt. <BR> <BR> outback 12 oz sirloin <BR> outback sweet potato with honey butter & brown su... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 18:14:20 EST Interesting article about Emotional Eating - 16 Feelings Confused with Physical Hunger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626061 Thought I lost this. I posted this in 2008 on the Emotional Eaters Team forum and I want to make sure I have this somewhere. SO glad I found it. <BR> <BR> A great article about Emotional Eating... <BR> **************************************** <BR> <BR> Dr. Doreen Virtue - "Emotional Eating" <BR> <BR> Listed below are the 16 feelings that Emotional Eaters most often confuse with physical hunger. <BR> <BR> Be as honest as you can with yourself when reading this list, because self-awar... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 02:36:35 EST 02/16/14 Food Log http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5626053 <BR> Pizza, cheese, rising crust, frozen, 1/4th of pizza (What? You don't eat pizza for breakfast??) <BR> <BR> gazebo room lite greek dressing, 4 tbsp <BR> Spinach, fresh, 4 cup <BR> Mushrooms, fresh, 1 cup, pieces or slices <BR> Chicken Breast (cooked), no skin, roasted, 3 ounces <BR> Cucumber (with peel), 1 cup slices <BR> Goldfish Baked Snack Crackers Cheddar, 1.1 oz <BR> <BR> Lean Cuisine Butternut Squash Ravioli (Spa Cuisine), 2 serving <BR> Hanover Premium Sugar Snap Peas, 370 gram(... Mon, 17 Feb 2014 01:58:21 EST Where I've been and a wake-up call. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625790 Just when I started to get on a groove again... <BR> <BR> A few days ago I got up, did my daily weigh-in and discovered that I had somehow gained TWENTY POUNDS overnight. <BR> <BR> No mechanical malfunctions. I went from 427 to 447 overnight. I noticed that my legs, which are always somewhat swollen, were extremely swollen. <BR> <BR> I had not had a high-sodium day or did anything that would explain it, although I stopped taking my diuretic months ago because I was having intestinal pr... Sun, 16 Feb 2014 19:14:40 EST Snowpocalypse, Snowmaggedon, etc. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621370 UGH. Just saw forecast and we're looking at a minimum of 12" starting Weds night. This is not good. <BR> <BR> Now, I'm sort of in panic mode because I suddenly need to plan meals and make a grocery list because I have a feeling we are going to be snowed in for a day or so. There's already a ton of it on the ground, and in huge mounds from plowing previous storms, which haven't melted due to constant cold temps. <BR> <BR> Guess it's off to SparkRecipes and Pinterest and then a shoppin... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 13:02:48 EST I did it! 7 days, all promises kept, 9 pounds gone :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5617882 I spent most of yesterday offline, just relaxing, because I needed to unplug, so no blog post from me yesterday. <BR> <BR> HOWEVER, I did complete 7 days of blogging, taking my meds on time, and sticking to the meals planned and counted. I'm really proud of me!! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1529812380.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Oh, and 9 pounds took a hike. Hope they get lost and never find their way back LOL. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople... Fri, 7 Feb 2014 13:30:10 EST Choices http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5615492 I'm not feeling particularly inspired to write right now, but I DID promise to blog daily, so here I am. :) <BR> <BR> Today was a challenge. My husband is home from work for 2 days (supposed to be trying to control his stress level) but he's complaining about everything. <BR> <BR> It's really hard listening to him all day long, without letting his attitude effect me. I'm trying to let it bounce off me, but I can feel the stress inside me, and it makes me want to eat. <BR> <BR> I've b... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 00:04:29 EST