NEVERMORE74's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NEVERMORE74 NEVERMORE74's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 5: A day of forced rest http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5623475 <em>425</em> I woke up this morning and there were large fluffy flakes falling daintily from the sky with tropical storm force winds knocking them sideways... <BR> <BR> <em>425</em> By 11am that all turned to slush-a steady mix of snow and rain started falling causing the crosswalks all around NYC to become 6 foot long/wide moats. Some crosswalks were deceiving, they look harmless enough until you put you entire foot in and sank to the pavement up past your ankle... I was tempted to purc... Thu, 13 Feb 2014 21:29:55 EST Day 4 - Accountablity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5622702 <em>315</em> I just saw an SP article with the title Declare Your Independence from the Gym: <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/fitness<BR>_articles.asp?id=1650 </link> <BR> This is the first time I have joined a gym and I have to say that while there may be people that can do that, I for one, need the accountability that the gym provides. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> I had to pay for that gym membership, it wasn't free, or a perk for another payment that I have to make. Having to take out t... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 23:12:17 EST Day 3 of the Gym and food reform http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621819 <em>315</em> Don't let the emoticon fool you, I don't run, at least not yet. I don't believe my knees will support the abuse just yet, they hurt enough with having to deal with the frigid temperatures that keep plaguing the North-East. But not even the cold will stop me. I have always gone for a lunch-time walk, no matter the weather and today was no exception. It was a balmy 26º and I walked for half an hour with snow boots, a winter coat and a 6lb purse (messenger bag)! <em>334</em> ... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 23:16:59 EST Finally got a gym membership! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5620808 <em>315</em> It's been a long time coming but I finally took the plunge! I am so excited to finally have a gym membership and the best thing is that it is only 4 blocks from my house! <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> It's not a big chain but it does its job. They have all the machines. A large area for free weights, at least 15 treadmills, 4 ellipticals and an aerobics room where they teach different types of classes. All in all it serves it's purpose. <BR> <BR> <em>315</em> My first day was ... Mon, 10 Feb 2014 21:42:26 EST First week back on SP and already failing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5560478 <em>460</em> I confess, I haven't even looked at SP since this past Friday. I mean I even have the app and everything on my phone... what a mess. To be honest I did try to eat consciously and not overindulge which I think i was a little successful at since I am not bloated or feeling sick to my stomach today. But the thing is that for weight loss to work you have to be held accountable, you have to track, review and make sure that you are following the program all day, every day, not just M... Mon, 9 Dec 2013 11:44:50 EST A year in review http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5557099 <em>460</em> As this year wraps up I see how I just gave up. I was so focused on eliminating my stress and its causes that I suffered last year that I just burned out. <BR> <em>460</em> I have accomplished a lot, even at the expense of adding more work to my life but I am very proud of all that I have accomplished this year. To break it down, I work as an Admin in a real estate office and since last November I had been working on getting my real estate license. I am proud to say that I f... Wed, 4 Dec 2013 21:15:57 EST Been a while, looking back at last year... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189730 I just read my last post from October 11, 2012 and I must say that its the first time that I look back on a blog or a journal page and really like what I wrote and not wrestle with myself to remove it... I love that post, it made me feel happy and I know that I have made some progress towards the type of person that I said I wanted to be back then. <BR> <BR> I feel calmer, more alert, more confident. I haven't lost any weight and I have had really bad indoor allergies this past few weeks bu... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 09:43:03 EST Gotta move on...A promise to myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5095104 I have been working really hard on my self esteem and how I interact with people around me for the past 2 weeks. I look at this weight loss journey as a time to change all of me, just not my weight but my attitude in general. <BR> <BR> For many years I was a pushover, always doing what others wanted, never saying "no" to a request. Then I went to the other end of the spectrum and lashed out at the world and couldn't give a fig what anyone wanted. I was wounded, crying out for help and yet sn... Thu, 11 Oct 2012 10:26:12 EST What was I thinking this morning??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093889 BREAKFAST: <BR> Milk, 3.25%, 10 fl oz 183 <BR> Devil Dog, 1 serving 170 <BR> Milk, 3.25%, 2 fl oz 37 <BR> Regular Coffee, 1 cup (8 fl oz) 2 <BR> Granulated Sugar, 2.5 tsp 41 <BR> Croissant, 1 croissant, medium 231 <BR> total breakfast calories 656 <BR> <BR> Fitness before lunch: Walking: 2.85 mph (21 minutes per mile) for 15min (commuter walking) 78 calories burned. <BR> <BR> I really nee... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 11:13:09 EST thank goodness for exercise... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5093246 <em>475</em> Today would've been a horrible calorie day for me if it wasn't for exercise... I didn't really eat well but because of my habits I knew that I was not going to go over...but of course things never go as we plan...my boss decided to purchase cupcakes from Crumbs and 340 calories later, aided by the 190 calories of pepsi I went over. <BR> <em>311</em> since I live in NYC its easier for me to get exercise in...I take public transportation, it takes me 45 minutes to reach my job ... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 21:33:43 EST A better weekend than usual...a weekend in review. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5091516 <em>465</em> This weekend was a such a lovely change from what I usually do every other weekend, with the exception of Friday since I attended my group's presentation but I am happy to say that I didn't drink like I normally do. Only had 3 beers and went home to sleep! <BR> <BR> <em>337</em> Saturday was even better. My husband and I attended our friends' wedding and although I ate like there was nothing better to do I couldn't help it, the food was just delicious! I felt that I ate s... Mon, 8 Oct 2012 15:40:19 EST Pleasantly exhausted http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5086853 <em>465</em> So since Friday of last week my free time is now nil. I have been trying to juggle work, the dance group I volunteer for and now the parade committee that I also volunteer for. But you know what? I say bring it on. I live for this. I can keep juggling as long as I don't have someone stressing me out with stupidity. I feel more alive, more in control and to top it off, I make sure that I make time for everyone, even if its a few minutes a day. This is why dinner is such an impor... Thu, 4 Oct 2012 16:52:26 EST Split personality...wtf??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5077189 <em>24</em> How is it that I can feel totally happy and yet have a dip in my self esteem today? It doesn't make any sense...usually when my esteem takes a hit or tanks it throws me for a loop and it brings my whole sense of self down, makes me blue and uncommunicative. I feel saddened by some carelessly made comments by co-workers today and yet I still feel like I am riding that high off of my zumba class from last night (which I must admit was fabulous!) <BR> <em>253</em> Well I guess I... Thu, 27 Sep 2012 13:52:43 EST Disappointed but still Upbeat! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075935 <em>192</em> I don't have a scale at home at the moment so to weigh myself I walk as fast as I can during my lunch hour to Bed Bath and Beyond which is 6 loooong blocks away from my job... It generally takes me 20 minutes to make it back and forth and another 7 minutes to get to the back of the store where the scales are... So yes I was able to fit that into my 30 min power walks that I take during my lunch breaks every day. <BR> <BR> <em>39</em> Anyway, you can probably guess where I a... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 14:45:26 EST Finding things are just a little bit hard... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075049 <em>4</em> Having a hard time trying to keep within my calorie count. I find myself always in the upper range or surpassing it by two -three hundred calories. It doesn't help that I totally go off the wagon on the weekends so not being able to do this is getting kind of hard. <BR> <BR> <em>40</em> To top it off I saw recent photos of myself today, I am usually the one behind the camera, not the subject so I was horrified to see myself as others see me. Heavy. To make it worse in almost ... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 22:19:23 EST Happy Monday! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072651 <em>33</em> I have to admit that although the title is happy and chipper that is not how I feel right now. Like usual its Monday which means that I totally went off track this weekend but not as bad as I usually do! Saturday was a great day... I didn't go out, I was able to clean, cook, go food shopping, get laundry done, had movie night (the avengers-finally and The first Lord of the Rings- also finally lol) and played a dice game all without a drop of alcohol. Now its not to say that all ... Mon, 24 Sep 2012 09:49:15 EST Day 4 of feeling great! :0) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068969 <em>465</em> I am totally feeling the best that I have felt in a long time. I have to say it is because of SP that I feel like this. Don't get me wrong, I have so many problems right now that I should be my usual grumpy, sarcastic, bitchy self but amazingly I am not. <BR> <BR> <em>465</em> This week I made the decision to let go, to stop sweating the small stuff and to finally, after 21 years, put myself first. I have been so happy, smiling all week and being very courteous to everyone ... Fri, 21 Sep 2012 10:10:26 EST I feel amazing.... and sore lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067763 Wow, I never thought that I could feel so good after a workout but amazingly I do. That zumba class that my friend gave last night was absolutely what I needed. I totally hate any form of exercise but the choreography that she did and her playlist was fabulous! Not to mention that it was great to be able to experience this with friends! We all knew each other and we were in a familiar environment which made it that much easier to let down our guards, not to mention our inhibitions lol <BR> <... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:42:25 EST Excited about tonight! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066439 So tonight is my first ever Zumba class, now normally I wouldn't be excited by any stretch (pun included) about exercise but since a good friend of mine is debuting as a Zumba instructor at least I know that it will be fun (and a killer). <BR> <BR> Ha ha now I gotta rush home, cook something for the family, change into exercise gear and rush out the door to get to class in time! But I look at it as something positive, something for me and I know I will have a great time because my friend has... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 13:34:07 EST keep it going - no matter what! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5065452 I just got back my spark last week and I already screwed up this weekend. Lets just say that I had a really good time and thoughts of this website just flew out of my head. <BR> <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> So I am pretty proud of myself to just start right back up again today... striving to regain my spark. No matter how many times I fall I have to keep getting back up. <BR> <BR> Tomorrow is my first ever zumba class taught by a good friend of mine and tailored towards music that her follo... Tue, 18 Sep 2012 21:05:21 EST Soooo sleepy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057769 Yaaaawwwn... sorry, just so tired... I couldn't sleep last night, it was like my brain was hard-wired to my body while I was sleeping and I started moving my limbs like I was in my dreams! That was crazy... I was also having phantom pains in my ankle that wouldn't be there when I woke up but they felt so real that it caused me to wake up. On top of that I felt like I was suffocating and itchy all over...wth. <BR> <BR> So today I feel crappy, tired, cranky and lousy...Still, I went for my wal... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 14:31:37 EST Hopefully can keep the momentum going... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055820 Its been a long time since I have felt the urge to try to lose weight again. Don't get me wrong, everyday I lament about how I look, especially about how I feel!! I hate being this weight. I am tired of always being tired. Also, I suspect that my weight gain is starting to wreak havoc on my hormones because my cycle is going haywire with no actual rhyme or reason that my gyn can pinpoint... <BR> <BR> Since yesterday I have begun tracking my food again. I am even trying to keep track of how m... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 10:26:33 EST Finally Measured Myself and I Was Pleased. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4810333 I haven't measured myself since I started SP and last night I finally remembered to do it. I must say that I was pleased. Even though I haven't haven't lost weight in the past 2 weeks I have noticed that my clothes were fitting differently and last night I confirmed what I thought all along! <BR> <BR> I dropped 1" each in my waist and my hips and 3" in my arms and thighs! I have also noticed my jaw starting to peak out again from the roundness that was my neck lol. Overall I am very happy, m... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 09:25:18 EST Not hungry but don't feel exactly full http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809554 I am having one of those days that no matter how well I eat I still feel hungry. My day started with <BR> <BR> 1. 1 cup cheerios with 1/2cup lactaid lowfat milk. <BR> 2. 20 of DD coffee light and sweet <BR> 3. 2 - 1 cup servings of 5 ingredient soup - yum! <BR> 4. one plum, one banana <BR> 5. snickers bar (sorry, by 5pm I was starving!!!!!!!!) <BR> 6. 1 cup of yellow rice and 1 cup of homemade beef stew. <BR> 7. 5 cups of water throughout the day. <BR> <BR> According ... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 19:58:30 EST A quote that is very true. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4809209 Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing. -Anais Nin <BR> <em>129</em> Wed, 28 Mar 2012 14:48:44 EST Losing Control of my eating habits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4787020 This week has not been very good for me eating wise... <BR> <BR> I have been able to drop almost 10 pounds since I stated with SP but as soon as I reach 214 its like I want to start eating like crazy. I don't understand it. I liked the way I felt when I was losing the weight, it was amazing. But last night was a wreck. I ate well throughout the day but when I got home and starting cooking I just started to eat whatever I could get my hands on and still proceeded to eat dinner when it was do... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 10:01:31 EST Hopping back on the wagon after a little slip http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4763142 Wow I never thought that just a little over a week after I started my diet that I would already be slacking in my efforts! I have the best of intentions of dieting however if I just get sidetracked even the tiniest bit I could lose interest entirely. How awful! <BR> <BR> Well I am back to tracking and watching what I eat but now I understand what has made me so overweight and its the beer that I socially consume over the weekends. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I feel so good about myself. For t... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 10:22:11 EST Hung Over but Happy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4759542 This weekend was filled with ups and downs but I am not going to write about it because I would rather forget it. Overall I feel like I achieved a lot. I feel happy and I lost weight even though I drank my way through the weekend with one party after another. Still my body is now punishing me but what can I do? I am going to spend the rest of the day re-hydrating myself and eating well. <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> Mon, 27 Feb 2012 10:48:46 EST Positive Reinforcement http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4752825 When I log in every morning I make it a habit first to spin the log-in wheel (a la wheel of fortune style) then start to track my food intake followed by changing my status on my personal page. <BR> <BR> What struck me immediately after posting my status change was a quick glance at my side bar and I see my goals posted under my profile. It is such a positive reinforcement to see them there and I realized that I would hardly see them if it wasn't for the fact that I have this routine. <BR... Thu, 23 Feb 2012 08:57:48 EST A little relief around the waistline... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4749175 Wow, ok this is my first blog. It is just a little intimidating knowing that others will be reading this. However this is one of many goals that I must set for myself in order to become the person that I want to be. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, as my title states - yes I am starting to feel a little bit of relief around the waistline. It's barely been a week since I discovered and started with SparkPeople.com but I have already noticed that I am not bloated and that my pants are no longer digging into ... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 09:33:41 EST