NETTYBREAD's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NETTYBREAD NETTYBREAD's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Thanks for the support http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5923354 Making progress. Thank you to all my spark buddies that post comments. Nights definitely are the hardest for me. I want to tune out and snack. I went to yoga and started using essential oils again. While in treatment the essential oils actually really really helped calm me down and ground me. Music is super helpful too. Each day is precious. I am happy to be me. A little funny and silly. Maybe even a little crazy but I am happy to be me. Thanks for reading this. I hope you are happy to be... Tue, 5 May 2015 22:44:38 EST Happy Birthday To Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5920666 April 30 - was my 39th Birthday <BR> <BR> Again..., Trying to get back on track. <BR> <BR> I had a great spring break a few weeks back. I was able to think about me and post to Spark People and do some self care. Then it was back to work and the busy-ness of the world. <BR> <BR> I have a new therapist, doctor, and nutritionist. I am trying a new medication that is actually for seizures but helps with eating disorders (interesting/willing to try) <BR> <BR> Feeling-optimistic. I am proud of... Fri, 1 May 2015 08:49:08 EST Keep it Positive http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5914421 I went back to work after a week long spring break and lost my great routines that I had developed that week. <BR> <BR> There are 7 weeks of school left. My goal is to make it to summer... haha <BR> <BR> Stay Positive - Focus on the things going well <BR> <BR> Reflect on Negative - Change what I can let the other stuff go <BR> <BR> Enjoy the Journey <BR> <BR> Another goal is to Spark just a little each day. And gain inspiration from other *Sparkers* <BR> Mon, 20 Apr 2015 08:59:31 EST How do you celebrate Easter? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905862 I asked this question on the general message board. I LOVE THIS response: <BR> <BR> <BR> Playful 1S said: <BR> <BR> Pray and always be grateful for the little things and never let go of the Easter Bunny. ..😇 the child inside should never die. .. Happy Easter! Enjoy your day! <BR> <BR> Another Friend's Blog Post JStester: <BR> Thank you Thank you!!! <BR> "Every day will get a little brighter, <BR> No need to be afraid~ <BR> Every day is clearer <BR> Serve the Lord today!" <BR> <BR>... Sun, 5 Apr 2015 13:09:30 EST Happy Easter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5905799 It's Easter Sunday. I was trying to post my favorite song about Jesus. <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?t=67&v=ea-TRh5<BR>RYCY </link> <BR> <BR> I think it finally posted. Comment if it's not working. Love this song. <BR> <BR> Sun, 5 Apr 2015 11:10:07 EST You are... BEAUTIFUL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904703 Please watch this... it is great! <BR> <BR> <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=S4s4xpTw3UQ </link> <BR> <BR> Each and every-one of us is *Uniquely* Beautiful ... JUST THE WAY WE are! No changes necessary. <BR> <BR> We must believe we are inside and out... Or maybe it's just me... I <BR> <BR> I <BR> <BR> I <BR> <BR> I need to... believe I am beautiful. <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> Netty Fri, 3 Apr 2015 09:43:46 EST Support Team #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904682 Posted this as a comment to a friend's blog / it goes along with support team thoughts... <BR> <BR> Hi, It's me... Ironman-Netty and... I am somewhat of a mess nutritionally / physically... That said, you have continued and fought the fight. I have been in darkness on and off the past 2 years even sought in-patient treatment last summer - didn't work. What does work - Honesty - Willingness - Loving Myself at the Place that I am at - And... SPARK-PEOPLE... <BR> <BR> With all the therapy and ... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 09:18:36 EST Support Team http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5904121 Spark Coach Thought: Don't let emotions like fear, anxiety or embarrassment stop you from asking for help and support. No one can reach their goals without the assistance of others--not even the world's greatest athletes. <BR> <BR> Today... I reached out to my support group. I am thankful to have my mom, husband, and several wonderful friends as part of my support team. <BR> <BR> I also have my Spark - Friends .... THANK YOU! The past few days have been great. Checking in and getting words ... Thu, 2 Apr 2015 09:48:50 EST Day 3 - Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903633 Positives - <BR> <BR> Exercised all 3 days / slowly / Surely <BR> <BR> Aware of my eating <BR> <BR> Hopeful <BR> <BR> ----------------------------------------<BR>---------- <BR> <BR> Working on - <BR> <BR> Accepting my belly / body / weight gain - Thankful for a pretty healthy body all things considered... <BR> <BR> Night - Time Eating / Urges <BR> <BR> Positive Thoughts - Night-Time <BR> <BR> ----------------------------------------<BR>----------------- <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> <B... Wed, 1 Apr 2015 14:42:48 EST Hope... A Brand New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5903037 Blog... <BR> <BR> Positive Energy - But not completely fake / wishful thinking Energy. <BR> <BR> I have always been one to "keep it real" and won't stop that now. <BR> <BR> I have been completely numb for the last 8 months. I am not sure how much I want to share on this blog but... I have not thought much about much for awhile. <BR> <BR> Prior to 8 months ago June 2014-August 2014 I was at an Eating Disorder Treatment Center. <BR> <BR> I need to say this so people know a little bit abou... Tue, 31 Mar 2015 15:05:48 EST Who's Still Around? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5902281 Hi Spark People! <BR> <BR> Who is still using this program? I am really reflecting on what has worked in the past. I would love to reconnect with some Sparkers... <BR> <BR> Comment and let me know how you've been doing. <BR> <BR> As for me... I am again pushing the reset button as many of us do. #1 goal to stay positive and hopeful. <BR> <BR> Moderate - food and exercise, but I need some goals. I am just a super goal-oriented person and need some focus. <BR> <BR> I hope all of you are... Mon, 30 Mar 2015 11:51:50 EST Coping Skills http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224586 <em>334</em> Day 24 Binge Free and Day 4 Prozac <BR> <BR> This week has been a VERY emotional week. I am so proud of myself for using healthy coping skills when feeling: Sad, Hurt, Angry, Frustrated, Fearful, Bored, Tired, Etc... <BR> <BR> Deep Breathing w/ eyes closed... <BR> Listen to Music <BR> Go for a drive <BR> Sit at the library <BR> Sit in basement room <BR> Stretch / Light hand weights <BR> Text Friends <BR> Email Friends <BR> Call Friends <BR> Spark-People Blogs / Message Board... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 16:20:56 EST Reflection: http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221195 <em>67</em> Yes, today is a brand-new-day. I feel so much better this morning, and I am ready to reflect on yesterday. <BR> <BR> THANK you so much to EVERYONE who made comments on my blog. I truly FELT your love, support, and prayers. Having people cheering for me was so helpful. <BR> <BR> I woke up yesterday hungry. I ate a piece of bread about 2:30 A.M. (45 calories) I think the bread hurt my stomach. I woke up with a sharp pain in my stomach. I don't usually need to eat much before my ... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 07:43:36 EST tough day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5220543 Hard day... <BR> <BR> I ate 5 hard candies (no big deal really) I added them to my nutrition tracker. <BR> <BR> Just feel sad... Don't want to spin back into total anxiety / craziness that I was in 2 weeks ago. Uggg... <BR> <BR> But.... I hope you all had a great day!!! <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> Netty Wed, 23 Jan 2013 18:24:23 EST Got Prozac? I do... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219199 Just got back from the doctor. I am anxious and nervous. Just need some love and support. <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Tue, 22 Jan 2013 20:55:57 EST V Blog Therapy 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217206 Hopefully this will work.... I know it takes a little while to upload. SO, check back later if it isn't working yet. *HUGS* Mon, 21 Jan 2013 14:56:28 EST Make IT Happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216652 Things are going well for me. This is Day 19 No Binge / Purge. I have lost weight and "Stopped" crazy eating so many times. <BR> <BR> So, what's different this time... <BR> <BR> My HEAD... <BR> <BR> I am finally ready to tackle the "real" issues that cause me to over-eat. <BR> <BR> Today is Day #1 with a new therapist. I am very excited, but I am also scared and nervous. <BR> <BR> I hope you all have a great day!!! <BR> <BR> Make it HAPPEN. <BR> <BR> <em>26</em> <BR> Netty <BR> ... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 08:37:08 EST To Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215101 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l347641300.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I had a very bad trigger last night... A Person. Wanted to eat. Did NOT eat. Had a piece of gum and put on some essential oils and went to bed. Yay! Me <BR> <BR> Trying to Change-Mature-Create-Endlessly <BR> <BR> I like this quote. It's a great way to think of change. All of us are trying to become "better" people. We don't like practicing our bad habits over and over. <BR> <BR> What would I like to create Endl... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 05:03:32 EST Baby Step Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212558 Daily Visualization <BR> <BR> For today's visualization, focus on the next small milestone you'd like to accomplish. Sometimes, thinking about the baby steps (the next five pounds) can be much more manageable than always focusing on the long-term outcome (reaching your goal weight). Remember this whenever your weight-loss journey seems overwhelming. <BR> <BR> Obviously my daily, short-term, mid-range, and long term goals have everything to do with no binge-ing. But... I wanted to set 1 mor... Fri, 18 Jan 2013 07:33:01 EST Hair-Cut and... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212159 Day 15 <BR> <BR> I am so thankful for all the love and support my friends, family, co-workers, church friends, spark-friends, I am overwhelmed still by all the love and support. I truly wish I could see what you all saw in me a long time ago. But... so better NOW than Never. <BR> <BR> I had debated about making Ben and Whitney videos of me so they had something (crazy thoughts) but now... I feel like I am really going to be ok and make it through this. Still one-day-at-a-time. <BR> <BR> I... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 21:34:33 EST The Good and The Bad... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5210807 The Good: <BR> <BR> Day 14 No binges <BR> Healthy Eating <BR> Moderate Exercise <BR> Running... <BR> MUSIC :) <BR> Feelings... <BR> Some Peace <BR> Day School <BR> No crying <BR> Positive Attitude <BR> Lots of Support <BR> Lots of Hugs <BR> Lots of LOVE <BR> Family <BR> Friends <BR> Phone Call <BR> Evening Chats <BR> Spark People <BR> New Book (from friend) <BR> New Bracelet (from friend) <BR> No Diet Coke <BR> Lots of WATER <BR> Strawberries <BR> Bananas <BR> Spinach <BR> Tasting Food <B... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 23:01:06 EST No more... SCALES http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5208790 <em>192</em> <BR> I told my husband this morning to throw out the scale. SERIOUSLY... <BR> <BR> I have felt really good the past 13 days of no binge-ing. I haven't really had any urges to overeat. I have had all kinds of feelings, and I have been trying my best to feel them and deal with them appropriately. I am identifying my triggers and learning coping skills to deal with them, etc... <BR> <BR> So, DH is trying to eat healthier also. He is weighing in once a week. I, of course, was ob... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 17:49:15 EST Power of Prayer http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207586 <em>67</em> Day 12 Binge-Free <BR> <BR> I believe in the power of prayer. Thank you to all those who have prayed for me the last week. I feel your love and prayers. Today was the first day in a long, long, long time that I felt like just "Netty". <BR> <BR> Last night, I went to an LDS 12-step meeting and was so overwhelmed by evil feelings and just broke down and said so at the meeting and expressed how LOW I felt and how ready I was for these feelings to leave my body. <BR> <BR> The ... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:56:10 EST Future Netty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204684 Daily Visualization <BR> <BR> Today, imagine your "future self" giving your past (or current) self a hug. See your future self thanking your past self for having the courage to move forward in this healthy lifestyle journey. How does it feel to look back on your former self with new eyes? <BR> <BR> ***This was today's Spark-Coach Visualization*** <BR> <BR> Future Self to Netty Now: Thank you for having the courage to move forward in this healthy lifestyle journey. <BR> <BR> How does it ... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 08:58:14 EST I am Bulimic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203161 <em>220</em> <BR> <BR> Sadly or Proudly I say: Hi, I am Lynette, and I am bulimic. <BR> <BR> I am trying to proudly saying, "Hi, I am Lynette." But so sadly I say, "I am bulimic." I have been bulimic the past 10 years. After my 2nd child was born, I weighed 225 pounds. I went to WW and lost 90 pounds and yo-yo’d up and down a little. When my weight started really creeping back up, I panicked thinking about becoming “heavy” again. I would go months without an episode, usually when I ... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 06:16:29 EST Retiring Marathoner http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201720 I, Lynette Miller, am retiring from Marathon Running and All Triathlons <BR> <BR> With a very, very heavy <em>26</em> I am announcing my retirement from ALL Marathon Running and ALL triathlons. <BR> <BR> To some... this may seem extreme. Why all and aren't these healthy activities? <BR> <BR> In a Nut-Shell: <BR> As I reflected on what "triggers" my E-D Long-Distance Training came to mind. <BR> Why? When I train, my food intake HAS to change from my normal every day eating. <BR> <BR> ... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 08:01:40 EST Miracle and DH http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199727 Truly a Miracle. <BR> <BR> The past two days have been pure hell. My DH and I were barely talking I wasn't sure how he was feeling. He just seemed bugged and angry at me, and he even mentioned angry at himself in our brief conversation after I dropped the bomb on him that I am a raging alcoholic in the form of bulimia and have a serious ED. I was starting to seriously worry if our marriage was in danger. I was totally thinking that I should have just continued on with my ED and that it wasn'... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 23:42:27 EST Spark Coach Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198233 Daily Visualization <BR> <BR> Let's start with a quick visualization exercise. For 30 seconds, imagine yourself sitting alone on a beach, listening to the waves crashing along the shore. Let the calming sounds, sights and smells center you and help you focus on the goals you would like to accomplish today. <BR> <BR> Just what I needed today: <BR> Peace <BR> Calmness <BR> <BR> Today's goals to accomplish: <BR> <BR> To have patience. <BR> To Listen <BR> To use healthy coping skills <BR> <... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 07:22:28 EST Very Sad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197825 <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> I don't know why I'm writing this...... I am hoping more so that one day I can remember and learn from this experience. When I am at peace with my Eating Disorder. Where I could even possibly thank it??? for shaping who I am in the future. <BR> <BR> I wonder if posting things on a Spark-Message-Board or on a Blog is wise or self-serving or something negative. I worry that maybe I will be mis-judged or mis-under-stood, BUT... <BR> <BR> I do believe this is the right... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 22:11:52 EST Worst Resolutuion... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5196232 I saw an article titled: "Worst New Year's Resolution You Could Make" and all I immediately thought was: <BR> <BR> *No Resolution* <BR> <BR> If you don't have hope and actually set a resolution, then how can you reach your goal, your dreams, your BEST YOU. <BR> <BR> *I haven't read the article yet. Now, I have to go read it and see what it says. <BR> <BR> I'm back... just went and read the article. <BR> <BR> So, it's about "Revamping" and really setting better resolutions. Continue to re... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 01:50:53 EST Positive Energy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194385 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/8/l1862714380.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Oh boy! Do they ever <em>41</em> <BR> <BR> Spark-Coach-Daily Visualization: <BR> ***I didn't like the daily visualization question today, but I loved the woo-hoo quote above. <BR> <BR> I am so thankful to be a teacher and to go back to work today. I have my own 2 wonderful children at home and have enjoyed them so much over the past 2 weeks, but I am so ready to go and serve and love my classroom kids too. <... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 07:23:25 EST Spark - Book http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5193953 Spark Book and Daily Reflections <BR> <BR> I bought the Spark awhile ago. I actually have a real copy and a copy on my phone. Today, I discovered the book - bonus site and it motivated me to actually read and maybe apply some of the things I am learning from it. <BR> <BR> I decided to try to recruit a few people to read the Spark Book with me in-person. I am really hoping this will work out. A few members from the Utah Spark Team and a few friends I know that want to get going on Spark-Peop... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 22:14:46 EST Daily Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192729 Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> Today, picture yourself at your goal weight, working out effortlessly alongside your former self. You see your former self struggling with exercises that have now become easy. How does it feel to see yourself on both sides of your journey? What habits can you work on today to get one step closer to your future, improved self? <BR> <BR> *Interesting Thoughts Today* <BR> - This is my STRENGTH <BR> - I understand this and am so PROUD of my exercise accomplishme... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 08:54:48 EST Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192146 What's Working: <BR> <BR> *Mental and Planning* <BR> - Logging in to Spark-People in the morning... planning the day. <BR> - Following the Spark-Coach Steps <BR> <BR> *Fitness* <BR> - Exercising at least 30 minutes in the morning <BR> <BR> *Nutrition* <BR> - Eating a Healthy Breakfast with FATS and Protein <BR> - Eating Healthy Snack with FATS and Protein <BR> - Eating a Healthy Lunch with FATS and Protein <BR> - Eating a 2nd Healthy Snack with (you got it) FATS and Protein <BR> <BR> ***T... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 20:34:09 EST Daily Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191524 Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> Picture five things you want in your life, whether they are people, goals, experiences or things. How will reaching your small goals today help you achieve those dreams, too? <BR> <BR> 5 Things I want IN my life: <BR> <BR> People = Family, Friends, Students <BR> Goals = Balance / Contentment / Spiritual Fulfillment <BR> Experiences = *** I think this important and something I haven't spent a lot of time thinking about. What kind of experiences would I like i... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 12:16:21 EST Binging or Bingeing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5190275 So... I've sadly been writing about bingeing or binging a lot lately, and it has been really bugging me whether you spell binging or bingeing (both seem to be correct) and here was the definition and spelling: <BR> <BR> binge (binj) <BR> n. <BR> 1. A drunken spree or revel. <BR> 2.a. A period of unrestrained, immoderate self-indulgence. <BR> b. A period of excessive or uncontrolled indulgence in food or drink: an eating binge. <BR> <BR> binged, bing·ing or binge·ing, bing·es ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 15:35:45 EST Today's Visualize and Yesterday's Success http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189544 Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> Close your eyes and imagine all of your goals laid out in front of you on a giant billboard. Why do you want to reach those goals so badly and how will they change your life? What choices should you make today to get you one step closer to those goals? <BR> <BR> *I actually don't want to imagine ALL my goals laid out in front of me... just 2-3 would be fine for now. <BR> <BR> What are those goals? <BR> <BR> Why do I want to reach those goals so BADLY? <BR> ... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 07:48:05 EST Response To Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5188638 Q: How am I making my future self proud? <BR> <BR> I immediately thought, "Isn't this what mothers, teachers, coaches, etc think every day?" I think most humans think of having children be proud of them. <BR> <BR> I am making my future self (and my children) proud by: <BR> Being a great mother. <BR> Being a great teacher. <BR> Trying to be a nice person to all God's children. <BR> Trying to make wise decisions and asking others and God for forgiveness when I do not. <BR> Spending time with ... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 17:38:35 EST Daily Visualization Question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5187604 Daily Visualization <BR> <BR> Let's start with a quick visualization exercise. Imagine yourself as an elderly person reflecting on what you've done with your life. Think of the path you're on now. Are you making your future self proud? What can you do today to help live a life you can be proud of? <BR> <BR> **This one stings a bit and will be hard. <BR> <BR> I will contemplate this today and mostly focus on the POSITIVE things I am doing with my life. <BR> <BR> But, there are a few negat... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 07:31:54 EST Implementing "Just Right" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186582 Now, My next questions... <BR> <BR> What are Netty's "Just Right" nutrition and fitness guidelines and... <BR> How do I implement my "Just Right" nutrition and fitness? <BR> <BR> SO... that I can FEEL successful. <BR> <BR> THE PLAN: <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> ***I wish we could just save blogs before we post them*** <BR> I guess I can just go back and edit them :) Wed, 2 Jan 2013 16:30:50 EST Response Daily Visualization http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186470 Today, imagine that you live in a world where scales do not exist. How would you measure your success? How would you know if you were healthy and fit? <BR> <BR> It wouldn't matter if I lived in a world with or with out scales at this point. I have weighed myself so much in the past that I know almost exactly how much I weigh at any given time without the scale. <BR> <BR> AND... Maybe it's worse that I feel YUCKY even when the scale is being "Nice". <BR> <BR> I have always resented or hated... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 15:31:23 EST Daily Visualization Question http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185515 Today, imagine that you live in a world where scales do not exist. How would you measure your success? How would you know if you were healthy and fit? <BR> <BR> I am going to contemplate this today and write a response later. <BR> <BR> Have a great day! Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:50:28 EST A Brand New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5185493 <em>411</em> <BR> <BR> Back to some structure today. I go into work for 1/2 day today. I am working with a small group of kids on math / reading skills. I LOVE my job as a 5th grade teacher. <BR> <BR> Today's Healthy Eating Plan: <BR> <BR> Planned Meals with enough calories to feel satisfied. <BR> Will Meditate, Pray, and Do My own version of Yoga. ESPECIALLY right when I get home. <BR> Will EAT a healthy dinner. <BR> Do Light, Light evening exercise (either elliptical or treadmill at ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 07:33:59 EST binge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184900 So.... I made it to about 4:30 before my first binge today. <BR> <BR> On the positive.... I am exercising regularly again. <BR> I am being honest about binging. <BR> I am going to blog and fess up to my mistakes. <BR> I binged today because I believe I am in really bad habits again, and it's going to take a little while to establish new healthy habits. <BR> <BR> I know I can do this. I pray for forgiveness. I know I am addicted to food and am willing to be honest and try my best to change. ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 21:43:29 EST Village Inn Breakfast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184206 I usually hate going out to eat. It seems to be a "trigger" for me, and I eat terribly the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> I am trying hard not to let that happen today. <BR> <BR> I went out to breakfast at Village Inn and looked up the menu ahead of time. I saw the nutrition facts for the veggie omlette, fruit, and multi-grain pancakes. They were really delicious. I feel mostly satisfied. I drank water instead of diet coke. Our waitress didn't ever fill up our water, it was busy, but that was ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 15:30:24 EST Spark Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183261 My Spark-Goal - Lifelong Healthy Eating. Find Peace with Food. No more binge eating. <BR> <BR> Finding Peace with food absolutely means finding peace with myself. That's why as I try to set a healthy eating goal it has to be connected with my spiritual goal as well. Finding peace with my inner spirit and with God. I need a support team that supports my need to have God and Spirituality in my life. Meditation, Prayer, Any way that I can get out of SELF and turn things over to God. <BR> <BR>... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 07:50:44 EST Today I feel Sad... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183113 <em>39</em> <BR> <BR> Truth is... I feel like I keep fooling those around me but not myself and not God. I am trying to forgive myself and love me for me... it is sometimes easier said than done. I do have hope for a brighter new day and new year. Happy~New~Year <BR> <BR> 1 Day ... 1 Second at a Time. I believe God and my Support Groups can help me be just a better, happier, kinder person. One without E-D or any other addiction. If I must be addicted to something it must be PRAYER, Medi... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 02:46:47 EST Christians and Spark People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182650 I love that there are so many religious people on Spark People. I feel like that is a huge part of my success... when I can find balance spiritually and physically. <BR> <BR> I have a hard time sharing my religious beliefs in my every-day life... I feel like I've made such a 180 and a lot of my friends do NOT believe in or want to talk about God. I am thankful that I can talk about physical and spiritual things on Spark People <BR> <BR> Truly... Happy~HappY~NEW YEAR!!! Mon, 31 Dec 2012 18:25:41 EST Happy New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5182392 <link>www.nettybread.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> I've been blogging a little on my other blog. Lots of thoughts and ideas for 2013. I added in my signature a list of my PRIORITIES rather than just goals. I would like to focus more on what matters most and find the ever eluding ~Balance~ in my life <em>41</em> Mon, 31 Dec 2012 14:43:09 EST Boston ~ Qualifier http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4888916 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/4/l54322814.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I qualified for Boston today at the Ogden, Utah Marathon. My time was a 3:29:25. I needed to be under 3:40:00 SO... I am going to Boston!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l200519225.jpg"> Sat, 19 May 2012 19:46:37 EST