NESSY759's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NESSY759 NESSY759's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ enjoying my bike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5399972 Hubby bought me a bike and im sure enjoying it a couple times now I have biked back and froth to work so its 8 k each way for total of 16 k for the day but that is split up with me working in between . Yesterday we did 12 k split up with shopping in between but today I did 13 k non stop wow im beat but its all good <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/2/l424190288.jpg"> Mon, 24 Jun 2013 09:18:43 EST for Mary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5250707 i know this is a little late but better late then never. so without further a do here ya go my friend. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1739801618.jpg"> Thu, 14 Feb 2013 18:09:28 EST what a great feeling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5215620 i was pretty excited the other day when i pulled out one of my favourite jeans out of my closet and thought ....ahhhh why not go ahead and try them on you might just be surprised. Well guess what i sure was surprised when they fit and not just barely they fit perfect. I could feel the smile that quickly emgered on my face what a great feeling it was i had worked so hard for this moment, and with nearly 30 pounds almost removed i had definatley earned it too. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 13:36:03 EST Visit with friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5115981 Today our freinds Mary and Jim stopped by for a visit before they head out on thier hunting trip. It was nice to sit and chat. Im so happy that they are getting to spend some MUCH needed time alone as they dont get that too often as life can get a little crazy at times. Jim was so sweet to bring Mary by since it was after all thier anniversary and im sure they could have spent it other ways lol. Anyways here are a few photos from our visit. <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpe... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 20:14:09 EST a different kind of motivation for MARY- WARNING NOT FOR THE FAINT AT HEART OR PEOPLE AGAINST HUNTIN http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5104632 Hi mary guess my brother got to get out and do one of the things he loves best and he posted pics they made me think of you. Thought maybe if you could see them it would help motivate you and hubby to get on your way. I know how much you missed it last year and how excited you must be to get out and do what you both love too. so heres something to get you motivate to get out there. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l376943826.jpg"> Fri, 19 Oct 2012 08:01:04 EST having a little fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929134 video isnt the clearest but had to share its one of my dear friends we met over the weekend having a little fun dancing . Sat, 16 Jun 2012 15:28:48 EST Trip to London http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929127 Last weekend my mom and i travelled to London to meet two very special ladies and spark buddies. It was so wonderful to finally put a face to the posts and voices i had heard but never met. We had a blast and the memories and laughs we had will last us a life time. While we were there we also took part in the Walmart walk for childrens hospitals and although it was a very hot day and i was beat at the end of the 5ks its wish nice to know we were helping to make a difference in a childs life.T... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 15:24:58 EST In honor of Mary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728414 Mary today is your special day now is your time to shine. You are very special to me and so many others and deserve only the best wishes. May all of your hopes and dreams come true and may the day be as truly special as you are to us all. Love ya buddy. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l817112584.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l308506201.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l667470012.jpg"> <BR> ... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 08:05:44 EST my special gift http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4636215 As Christmas is quickly approaching and in fact only 2 days i way i wanted to share something with all of you. I have wanted to blog about this a couple days ago but things have been pretty busy . It all starts with a dear spark buddy of mine ( i wont mention names for privacy sake) who i have developed a friendship with yet have never met her face to face. For you see this year things have been kind of tough on this family and financially it hasnt been an easy year. Now i know we ALL have h... Fri, 23 Dec 2011 13:36:50 EST A moment of strength http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4615349 As i type this blog im sitting in the movie theatre watching the previews waiting for our movie to start. I love going to the novies and well who doesnt love movie theatre treats. For me though i had come prepared with my own healthier snack from home so i didnt need to indulge in useless calories. Well when we arrived mike got his usual bag of buttery popcorn. He asked if i was going to have some i said no. Then i said well get a sharing bag and maybe i ll have a little. Well they gave us to... Tue, 6 Dec 2011 19:16:30 EST time to stop making excuses http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4582746 Well this week wasnt the best of weeks for me. It did consist of exercise and a fair bit , it also consisted of unhealthy eating followed by that inner voice telling me "just start fresh tomorrow" well its time for me to give my head a shake , if i keep going down the same path then very soon i will simply run out of Tomorrows. Like seriously what am i waiting for, maybe a heart attack, or diabetes . Its time to start making better choices. Why is it so hard this time, i did so well for sooo... Sun, 13 Nov 2011 20:33:50 EST Did I do it??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4563346 Good afternoon fellow sparklers, how is everyone feeling today? Today I'm feeling BEAT ........but did i do it????you betcha baby what a way to start off November. As many of you know i have been doing alot of walking. Things here in Sudbury are very stretched out so you need to take a bus or car ,or if your name is Lesley you walk lol. One day i decided for something to do i would walk from my house to the store where my husband works ,for me that would be 7.5 k walk now for many of the mor... Tue, 1 Nov 2011 13:48:18 EST saw these and thought of you Mary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4551169 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/7/l979811016.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/7/l270154251.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l386723580.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l323210129.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l868512346.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l152971233.jpg"> Mon, 24 Oct 2011 16:34:06 EST determination or just plain craziness lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4551115 So last night before heading to bed i decided i would go for my 7.5 k walk in the morning after my daughter got off to school. well when the first alarm went off for my hubby it sounded like rain outside and i thought ohhh no not rain to hamper my walk today. I then thought i will go back to sleep till my alarm and maybe the weather will have changed. Well when i got up it was still raining...not as hard mind you but still raining. well once my daughter went to school i made the decision tha... Mon, 24 Oct 2011 15:55:21 EST You never know who you might inspire http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4509263 I was very proud of Marissa today. You see she is pretty picky when it comes to meat and such specially chicken and fish i have made chicken a 100 ways and still she wouldnt eat well this week she ate chicken and fish and didnt fuss at all. So if that wasn't something already to be proud about we told her she could get a treat tonight at tim hortons. Well when we went to the drive thru she shocked us all when she chose yogurt and berries instead of a donut. I was stunned what a great choice s... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 21:06:51 EST can you see the difference http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4503664 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l174786829.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l311192582.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The first picture was taken july.16th the second was taken today sept.25th both 2011 . Jo when you said i was melting before your eyes it made me want to compare pictures to see if there was an noticable difference. So what is your take ??? Sun, 25 Sep 2011 20:54:55 EST what a beautiful day for a hike- Killarney ontario http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4503597 Today my family and i went to Killarney and what a beautiful day it was. We packed a picnic and ate first then we headed out on one of the trails for a hike. The trail was of moderate level and was approximately 2 k . The sign said it takes between 1.5/ 2 hrs long to complete. i thought wow how is it possible it would take that long to complete such a short trail . well once we started hiking it was veru evident why it would take that long to complete it. In a lot of parts it felt more like r... Sun, 25 Sep 2011 20:22:20 EST For Mary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4497596 Today my mom and i were out shopping at Home sense and we found some pictures the one i thoughto myself " oh i would love to send this to Mary" im sure it would have cost a heafty price just to send so i did the next best thing. Here Mary this is for you. Hope it will provide you with the motivation to keep going. <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l468533748.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l888950956.jpg"> Wed, 21 Sep 2011 22:22:52 EST for my friends who may be struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4489887 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l463330383.jpg"> <BR> <BR> That one is my favourite <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l536317157.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l349554068.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l266209318.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l986325326.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I know this is a blog of little words but sometimes pictures are ... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 16:33:55 EST just a small clip of daughter and grandson http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4489526 enjoy Sat, 17 Sep 2011 11:18:25 EST Lake Laurentian http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467924 Well we have finally completed this trail after our second attempt. First time we brought the dog and it was quiet hot outside and the dog just couldnt go no more so we turned around and went back. This time its much cooler and we left the pooch home . Took us 110 mins to complete the trail that is about 3.5 k each way. some points were quite pretty and it took all the way to one of the beaches. The only things was there was alot of up and down hills but just think of the calories we burned.... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 17:45:04 EST Langdon park trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467884 we did this trail yesterday . It too was a small trail so it only took about 20 mins to complete . I cant wait getting closer and closer to completing our goal of walking all the trails. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/8/l987431528.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/4/l745518711.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/8/l885780526.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/6/l86668404.jpg"> <BR> <img sr... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 17:20:26 EST sugar bush trail and Howards nature trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4467870 we did these trails while my mom was visiting us they were very long trails i think they both around 1k or so. This is why we were all to do two trails in one day. Nothing too exciting about either of these trails but its nice to have two more trails completed off the list. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l758534099.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/1/l611325363.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l726864902.jpg... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 17:08:23 EST My Moment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4466152 so today was another one of those days where ya have that feel awful about yourself moments. Today i decided i was going to go the the plus size store and look for a few deals as i have some discount coupons i can use. I was looking for a pair of pants. Well after trying on numerous pairs i was tired of trying on pants and seeing what i saw. i said to myself" does God know im only suppose to have one REAR in the rear not in the front too" i know to some this may sound funny but its very dep... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 18:06:40 EST Hahahah having fun while burning our calories http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4455207 dont mind any brief moments on indecent moments my top doesnt like to stay put but seriously its all good have a laugh on us. Mon, 29 Aug 2011 19:26:45 EST coppercliff trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4449734 well the other day we walked another trail so its another one off the list. This one wasnt all that exciting trail it ran along side the highway for parts of it but its done none the less. Aparently pictures speak a thousand words and upon reviewing the photos there were a pair of clowns in the back ground making faces at me. Hahaha i wasnt in the best of moods that day , good ole hormones so they thought it would be fun to be goofy didnt know till like i said looked at the pictures. Alot of ... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 13:20:05 EST What an accomplishment (Onaping Falls take 2) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4440282 Most of you who read my blogs are aware that back in July my family and I went for a hike at Onaping Falls. This was not your basic hike it involved alot of hills and climbing both up and down alot of rocky ridged terrain and for me at my size this was not an easy task. Well not long after that i got the idea in my head that i wanted to walk all of the rainbow routes and so i set this as my goal to walk them all by summers end . Then i went to the mall and obtained a map to find out where all... Sun, 21 Aug 2011 17:30:27 EST 3 year sparkVersary http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4440212 Three years ago today i was merely surfing the web looking for a website to give me tips or ideas on different strength exercises to help guide me on my weight lose journey . Who would have known that what i would find would not only offer me tips and ideas but would provide me with the very foundation to build a new me and a new healthier way of life. That day 3 years ago it was like someone threw me a life raft that would help keep me to float on those days that were difficult ,it was a sit... Sun, 21 Aug 2011 16:41:28 EST Robinson Lake trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4435199 Did this trail last night. Its wasnt a long trail i think 1k each way and it only took about 20 mins but its another one off the list. I found the view along the trails to be pretty and we did it in the evening and the colours in the horizon were so beautiful. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l81570479.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l719747512.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l588414234.jpg"> <BR> <img... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 16:51:01 EST SELKIRK TRAIL FINALLY DONE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4435178 I have to say this trail was one of my least favourite. its wasnt a long trail or one that was suppose to be any great challenge, however the challenge was that it wasnt marked well. It started out being easy to follow but turned into a very long trail because we simply didnt know which way to go . Needless to say after doing the trail twice and with alot of headaches we finally completed it. Our first attempt was when my mom was visiting and somehow we ended up off the trail part and ended u... Thu, 18 Aug 2011 16:38:37 EST Having fun while getting fit http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4430139 My mom came to visit us and my daughter and her we re dancing to get fit. Thought it was cute so i made small video . Enjoy. Tue, 16 Aug 2011 10:23:52 EST Nolin Creek trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4429856 Well got another trail done on Sunday when mom was here. It wasnt a long trail as most of the ones we have left to walk a\rent long but it was 1.3 k so ever bit counts. Got a few pictures to share so here goes. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/8/l284482253.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l174890959.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l558874115.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l6449... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 08:00:00 EST Garson Park trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4413240 well todays trail was not the most exciting or challenging but its seems as we have done the longer more scenic and challenging trails so most of them are smaller ones. None the less the goal was to complete them all so thats what were doing. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/3/l331051953.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/4/l244944052.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/4/l345089740.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photo... Sun, 7 Aug 2011 22:41:35 EST Meat Bird trail and Kelly Lake trail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4410582 First i ll talk about Meatbird trail since there's not really much to tell. It was kind of a joke after some of the trails we have walked. This trail looped around a little pond type lake and was 1 kn in length. In fact it took us a whole 10 mins to walk . we did get a few photos however there on my moms camera so i dont have any to post. We completed this trail on July.30th, 2011 <BR> <BR> Now On to Kelly Lake and all i have to say is wow What a hike. None like i have ever experienced. I di... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 11:23:04 EST Junction Creek http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4410500 Now this trail actually has other trails that overlap this one but this part of junction trail was actual a 2 k walk that we completed july.29th,2011. My mom was visiting so she got to come with us which was nice . everyone getting out and getting healthy together. its nice having the support of my family. This trail starts in the downtown core of the city, i know hard to believe but its true .Heres just some of the photos we took . <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 10:40:31 EST HILLFIELD TRAIL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4410473 Ok so i know im a little behind in my trail blogs been a little busy . We walked the hillfield trail back on July.26,2011. In the description it was said to be one of the most scenic rainbow routes and indeed it was. I think to date this has been my favourite trail. It was said to be of moderate level and at times it was a challenge but one that i was up for. I ll let the photos speak for the rest. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l14002303.jpg"> <BR> <img src="h... Sat, 6 Aug 2011 10:24:58 EST Bell Grove Hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4383655 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/9/l994771005.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/1/l719694464.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l655634319.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l160512055.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/4/l146352794.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l388418200.jpg">Well tonight we went another one of our hiking trails. it was listed as a moderate trail and wh... Sun, 24 Jul 2011 21:41:52 EST BETHEL LAKE HIKE http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4377071 We went and hiked around bethel Lake yesterday and it turns out its actually part of the trans Canada trail not really the rainbow routes but still a hike worth doing. The beggining part of the trail wasnt too bad but then we came to a rock cliff and we we re goign to attempt to climb but after checking it out further we deemed to not be safe enough for us specially with our 10 year old daughter. We did attempt it though and i when i had to come down once we realized we could go up the rock c... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 12:49:27 EST Blueberry hill hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4377015 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l41272438.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/3/l23419537.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l750396575.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/5/l958843952.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l777315044.jpg">I know im a couples days behind in posting my hiking blogs . These pictures are from the climb up blueberry hill. The view was amazing up there. Beginning at 270 me... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 12:23:12 EST Learning what weight lose and a healthy lifestyle are all about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4376790 For me learning what weight lose and a healthy lifestyle are all about is important. To me knowledge is power, the more you know the better equipped you will be to face challenges when they may arise . I first learned this when i quit smoking. I had to inform my self of the risks and what the damage would be if didn't stop smoking, i had to equipped myself with the tools and the right support system in order to be successful. In order to be successful in meeting my weight lose goals i too h... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 10:50:27 EST Today's Hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4367130 So today i decided that i was going to set a new goal for myself. We just recently moved to our city where we re currently living and we re just getting to know the city and its surrounding. The city has many different hiking trails that are part of the rainbow route so i decided why not make it a goal to walk them all by summers end. The trails are of various lengths and level of experience and there not just level walking trails . We re talking rugged rocks and lots of climbing. Pure wilde... Sat, 16 Jul 2011 21:59:13 EST tough day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4365530 Today was a tough day for me but i keep on climbing upwards and onwards despite the rocky path . <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/5/l350720232.jpg"> Fri, 15 Jul 2011 22:49:55 EST one step at a time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4354852 enjoy Mon, 11 Jul 2011 09:32:59 EST Sparkpeople and the power of its community http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4350357 Ever since i started sparkpeople i knew it was a great thing. It has everything and so much more anyone looking to regain control of there lives and and wanting to start a healthy lifestyle. Everything from tracking tools, information, exercise videos, nutritional plans, motivational pages and so much more i could go on for hours. I think one of the most powerful tools on spark people is simply just that "THE PEOPLE". The motivation and support the Sparkpeople community provides is truly amaz... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 21:56:49 EST I dont WANNA but I WILL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4349534 As i was lying on the couch this morning feeling extra sleepy today i was thinking what will i do today. it was one of those days where i could barly keep my eyes open and it was gloomy outside to boot.I thought to myself i should get out for a walk or hop on the elliptical for 10 mins . Then there was another voice that came along that said but i dont wanna. I woke up this morning i have eaten on track and i have had some of my daily intake of water so far so im doing good.....right. So i g... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 13:28:21 EST I dont WANNA but I WILL http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4349533 As i was lying on the couch this morning feeling extra sleepy today i was thinking what will i do today. it was one of those days where i could barly keep my eyes open and it was gloomy outside to boot.I thought to myself i should get out for a walk or hop on the elliptical for 10 mins . Then there was another voice that came along that said but i dont wanna. I woke up this morning i have eaten on track and i have had some of my daily intake of water so far so im doing good.....right. So i g... Fri, 8 Jul 2011 13:27:58 EST BELIEVE IN YOURSELF http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4346795 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l572914346.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Believe in yourself! Have faith in your abilities! Without a humble but reasonable confidence in your own powers you cannot be successful or happy. <BR> <BR> Norman Vincent Peale, author <BR> <BR> If you think you can, you can. And if you think you can't, you're right. <BR> <BR> Mary Kay Ash <BR> <BR> Your belief determines your action and your action determines your results, but first you have to believe. <B... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 10:15:37 EST WHY DO I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4332354 WHY DO I WANT TO LOSE WEIGHT <BR> <BR> WELL THAT'S A VERY GOOD QUESTION. OF COURSE LIKE PROBABLY EVER OTHER WOMAN ON THE EARTH WHEN I THINK ABOUT BEING THIN AND LOSING WEIGHT INSTANTLY THINGS POP INTO MY MIND LIKE BEING ABLE TO WEAR ALL THE CUTE CLOTHES OUT THERE AND LOOKING GOOD BUT FOR ME THAT'S ONLY THE VERY SMALL BONUS OF BEING THIN. <BR> <BR> FOR ME ITS MORE THEN THAT,ITS ABOUT CHOOSING LIFE OVER DEATH. I KNOW IF I CONTINUE DOWN THIS PATH OF SELF DESTRUCTION THAT I AM BASICALLY GIVING ... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 09:04:16 EST some things to think about http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4327838 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l793515286.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/4/l645330406.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/3/l530428636.jpg"> Tue, 28 Jun 2011 09:59:01 EST IS IT TOO LATE??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4129633 Here i sit feeling very overweight and drained like someone has sucked the life right out of me. I'm not liking what is happening to me and I'm getting so scared. Lately i have been crying alot and as many of you know I'm stressed out with all the stuff from our upcoming move. I havent been crying as much about that as i have about how i look and how i feel. I Look in the mirror and all i see is ugliness. I see a fat girl in a warn out body that feels like i cant even move it any more. Before... Wed, 30 Mar 2011 15:43:41 EST