NERAUS's SparkPeople Blog NERAUS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Who wants in? It is time ladies to deal with the issue that many of us face- incontinence. Yup it is time. If you are sitting on your couch in slightly damp undies it is time. If you have to wear some kind of pad every day of the month then it is time. If you have any pain or pressure when you relieve yourself it is way past time. Talk to your doctor. Don't let embarrassment stop you. Your doctor has seen every orifice in your body and nothing you can tell them will surprise them. The average woman... Wed, 9 Mar 2016 22:05:35 EST How to reboot I posted last week that I needed to reboot my life. I have spent a week thinking about it and I am stumped. How!!!!! I don't even know what my first step should be. Does anyone have any ideas for just getting started. I am sure once I start it will all start moving along but that first step is alluding me. <BR> <BR> I have done little things like try to go to bed earlier each night. I know I am way too tired most of the time. I went to the library and got some books so I am not ALWAYS... Sat, 6 Feb 2016 09:49:42 EST Time for a reboot As usual I have I postponed doing something important until I don't really have the time to do it well. I procrastinate. A lot, all the time, big time, all those phrases fit. And now that I have found my life not at a dead end but more of a cul de sac I need to regroup, refocus, reflect and reboot. I am not where I want to be in life physically, emotionally, professionally you name it and I have some how missed my correct station on this journey called life. <BR> <BR> You want to know... Fri, 29 Jan 2016 10:46:34 EST Another oldie but goodie moved forward. I had completely forgotten about this experience because I ended up giving the elliptical away. But it is a memory to good to be forgotten. <BR> <BR> How I spent my summer vacation or dumpster diving for beginners. <BR> <BR> Wednesday, July 02, 2008 <BR> <BR> I realized I had not blogged for awhile and was wondering what to chat about. Well I just had one of the most surreal experiences of my life and felt I had to share it. Hang on this one gets goofy. <BR> <BR> I have been looking fo... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 12:37:18 EST Well now how did that month go by so fast. I have been trying to blog more often but it seems a month and a half has gone by with out some new cyber gem(whining) being put forth. For some reason blogging eludes me. I think of a good idea at work and by the time I get home I have either forgotten it(thanks menopause) or it doesn't seem like such a good idea. Or I use my famous I will do it later but later never comes. <BR> <BR> Some ideas for blogs that never materialized: <BR> 1. Why is my idea of friendship so different from the... Sun, 5 Oct 2014 12:15:52 EST Blog rerun I was rereading some of my old blogs and I thought I would copy one and bring it forward. This was back in 2008 when my sense of humor hadn't taken a vacation yet. Timely subject we can still a relate to today. Enjoy <BR> <BR> Well I thought it was time to give all of you people another peek inside of my brain, so buckle up it is going to be a bumpy ride. <BR> <BR> Let's start with underwear. I have been wearing briefs,aka grannie pants,since I can remember. I decided this week that I ... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 09:24:19 EST What do you do different??? Okay while I am blogging about my journey of self awareness I thought I would talk about something a little more fun. What things did you grow up doing or saying that when you were older realized not everyone did? <BR> <BR> My big example is that I grew up playing Duck Duck Gray Duck. I was quite surprised later in life to find out that is a Minnesota thing. Almost everywhere else it is called Duck Duck Goose. We have had some spirited discussions about this at work with us Gray Duck peo... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 08:55:51 EST I had no pattern So as I was laying in bed trying to sleep my mind was drifting over some of the issues I have been thinking about lately. (Just a tip don't do this. While trying to get to sleep is really not the time for emotional review.) I realized that it wasn't surprising I have trouble maintaining friendships due to how I was raised. <BR> <BR> My parents didn't really have friends. My dad had coffee at the coffee shop in the winter with some of the other farmers but I never really saw them interact... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 19:50:11 EST I procrastinate do you? Hello world I procrastinate. Need proof ? I have been meaning to blog again for quite awhile. But it has in fact been over 8 months since I have blogged. Why because I am too tired, too busy or I just don't feel like it today. I am just so tired of feeling like my life doesn't work but yet I can't take 10 minutes to do anything about it. So now I am planning on doing some self examination to figure out the why of a few of my behaviors. Your welcome to come along as I try to make sense ... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 22:42:33 EST Somebody should have to suffer for this besides me!!! I hope that the twit or twits who are responsible for the fact that women's clothing is not univerisal in size be sentenced to a life of trying on clothes. Oh wait that seems to be my fate and the fate of every female. <BR> <BR> I wear size 16 pants not happy about that but it is what it is. So I went shopping for another pair or two. After having tried on more than a dozen size 16 pants from different companies I am so depressed. One pair fit, sort of. This is nuts that sizes can vary ... Sun, 1 Dec 2013 15:16:32 EST I can still run. Today was the day I had marked as the restart of my running career. I have pretty much given up on it like most of my fitness/healthy routine. But after my moment of enlightenment on top of the bluff (doesn't that sound better than puking up my lunch LOL!!) I knew I had to get back at it. <BR> <BR> I was up and ready to go by 8:30am. Unfortunately being a champion procrastinator it was 9:30am before I started. But outside I went which in itself is a big deal. I have not been outside to ... Sun, 7 Jul 2013 11:50:17 EST Truth comes calling!!!! Okay as usual if you have sensitive nature or delicate stomach you might want to skip this blog!!!!!! <BR> <BR> I am the master at lying to myself. I have gained back all the weight I lost but I was still telling myself that I was still healthier than I use to be. That I still retained some fitness and endurance. Well let me tell you the truth hit me with quite a bit of force today. Do you know when you can't lie to yourself anymore? Well when you are standing on the top of a large hill... Thu, 4 Jul 2013 17:07:16 EST I rejoined a gym - really and on the first day!!!! I rejoined a gym because I miss having a pool. I found a place I could join for $10 a month. On the first day I almost left again. Look at my pictures of myself on my page. Is there some hidden message there that I can't see. Something that says to people talk to me when I am naked in the dressing room. Please stop!!!!! Unless you are trying to tell me I am on fire there is nothing you need to tell me that can't wait until I have my clothes on. Or you have your clothes on. My momma ta... Mon, 2 Jul 2012 19:51:37 EST Time to stop lying to myself Okay I realized a few things this early morning and I am going to share them with you lucky people. <BR> <BR> I stepped on the scale for the first time in 5 months. Yes it has been that long. I always had an excuse for not doing it but I was just lying to myself. The scale tells the truth and the truth is I have gained 6 pounds. Yup I have gained a pound a month. I am only 12 pounds below where I started this whole sparks journey. <BR> <BR> You may be asking how could such a gal who ... Sat, 9 Jun 2012 09:50:50 EST Note to self I read a very good blog on what someone would say to their younger self. It really made me think of what my younger self would say to my current self. <BR> <BR> Dear Current Self <BR> I couldn't help but notice how much you have changed. It is great to see that with maturity I have lost some of that awkwardness and the tendency to talk first and think later. But did you have to leave so much of yourself behind? Where is that creative person that spent a whole week working on a story abou... Sat, 21 May 2011 10:38:40 EST Make way I am coming through. I had my long run today. Long being a word that has a variety of meanings. For me long is about 2.65 miles. It was a great late afternoon. I had survived another family gathering with my siblings. Not always a sure deal. The sun was shining for the first time in about a month and it was far above freezing for a change. Add to that the sugar buzz you can only get from eating about 5 special k bars and you can imagine my euphoria. <BR> <BR> As I was running I was contemplating my runnin... Sun, 24 Apr 2011 21:56:54 EST It can only happen if you are a woman. A thought occurred to me this week that certain things can only happen to a woman. How did this thought occur to me? When the adhesive strip on my feminine product got in the wrong place and I gave myself an unexpected Brazillian. After this I thought what other events can women take sole claim of? <BR> <BR> 1. Snapping yourself with your bra. I have managed to hit myself in the face but then I am unusually klutzy. <BR> <BR> 2. Getting a shaving cut on your ankle. <BR> <BR> 3. Getting ... Sat, 12 Mar 2011 08:43:16 EST What not to do when feeling "fat"!!!! The othere saturday I woke up feeling fat. I know you can't "feel" fat that it is more of a state of mind. However the scale went up and my clothes seemed to have shrunk in the last couple of weeks. Physical data seemed to indicate I was plumper and the mental part of the equation agreed. I made some mistakes that day and I want to pass on to you what I learned. <BR> <BR> 1. Don't leave the house with out fixing your hair. I do my hair everyday for work but decided it still looked okay ... Sat, 5 Feb 2011 21:33:09 EST Stupid Steelers But Thank You It has been a rough week. Getting ready for Xmas party has played havoc with my food and exercise and sleep. But today I thought I am getting in some quality time on the treadmill. <BR> <BR> I like to run while watching football. The game gives me something to visually distract me while my ipod gives me something to listen to. I cover the timer with a rag so I don't play mind games with the time. I start at the beginning of the second quarter of the Steeler's game. <BR> <BR> Now you ... Sun, 19 Dec 2010 18:16:49 EST Confessions of a Bike Hi my name is Betsy and I am Karen's bike. We have been together for about 22 years. It hasn't always been good times. When she first bought me she lived where there were big hills in every direction. Karen doesn't do hills so I stayed in the garage alot. But then we moved and there were no hills. Karen and I explored quite a bit. <BR> <BR> Then the child was born and we moved again. This time a nice house with a big garage. We went through a dry spell where Karen and I didn't get o... Thu, 9 Sep 2010 21:00:14 EST Words of advice to my 16 year old son. After my son made a pretty bad joke at my expense and I discussed with him why this wasn't a good idea I realized there were some hard and fast rules I could pass on to my son. Just maybe his future wife or girlfriend will thank me. LOL!!! <BR> <BR> 1. Never make jokes about a women's facial hair. Wether she has it or not NO woman will find it funny, EVER. <BR> <BR> 2. Never make jokes about a woman's weight. Even if she makes jokes about it YOU are not allowed, EVER!! <BR> <BR> 3.The ... Tue, 11 May 2010 22:22:14 EST You have got to be kidding me!!! Potty talk ahead. Consider yourself warned. <BR> <BR> I went to weigh in this morning. I was kind of depressed because it hasn't been a good week for food and exercise. I usually weigh in after I do all of my morning business however this morning business was down so I went ahead and weighed anyway. Okay I gained a pound. I think well it is TOM and I only exercised twice this week. This is to be expected. <BR> <BR> I start doing laundry and being on the computer. I still haven't had ... Sat, 8 May 2010 10:04:20 EST Shoes, Shoes wonderful shoes!!!! I haven't given you guys a shopping blog lately and today just seem made to blog about. Enjoy!!! <BR> <BR> I have become a tad obsessed lately with shoes. I don't quite know why. It could be that I can now see my feet so what I am wearing on them is more important. Maybe I have finally realized you can't go through life with one pair of running shoes,one pair of dress tennis shoes and one pair of black heels that are kept in the back of the closet and only brought out for funerals and we... Sat, 3 Apr 2010 22:39:34 EST How have I changed. I got to thinking the other night how I have changed since starting Sparks over two years ago. Here are the things that occurred to me. <BR> <BR> 1. Calmer and mood swings are not as common. I still can get worked up but not like I use to. <BR> 2. Actually plan my exercise and make a point of fitting it in. <BR> 3. Enjoy my exercise most days. Sometimes it is just something to get through but usually if I don't exercise for a few days I miss it. <BR> 4. Actually enjoy some vegetables now.... Sun, 10 Jan 2010 17:53:06 EST It is resolution time. Yes it is that time of the year when we try to look at the things we want to change and make goals and resolutions. Here is my list of what I am going to be working on this year. <BR> <BR> 1.Staying healthy and active has been on my list for the last couple of years. I have made lots of improvements but there are still things that can be improved. <BR> <BR> 2. Enjoy what I am doing when I am doing it. <BR> <BR> 3. Stop saying I should have.... I do this all the time. If I sit and watch... Sat, 26 Dec 2009 17:41:20 EST The nature of forgiveness. As I was going about my holiday season this year one thought has been bumping around in my mind quite a bit. My Dad. It would seem this issue is in need of being dealt with. This blog probably won't be funny but here is hoping there is something useful from doing this. <BR> <BR> My father passed away when I was a sophmore in college. He had a year long battle with cancer. I realized the other day that I have lived longer with out a father than with one. And the most shocking thing I re... Sun, 20 Dec 2009 11:10:08 EST What???!!!!!! I am a bit behind on my blog a week goal but I am getting a bit better. Here is my experience at the gym tonight. <BR> <BR> I was looking at joining a gym because they were supposedly having a sale on the membership fees. But their flyer was a bit misleading and while they don't have a joiner's fee they charge a lock in fee. They charge $60 to lock your fees in at the rate you join. Seems a bit of a racket but they offered me a seven day trial membership so I thought I would give it a sh... Tue, 1 Dec 2009 22:34:20 EST Hey I am a girl. Who Knew!!!! You know it is kind of embarrassing to not find out you are a girl until you are 46 years old. I use to think I was a tomboy and didn't like girly things. I always wore "comfortable" clothes, no make up and my hair was any old way it dried. <BR> <BR> It all started with a trip to a "nicer" salon. The lady said what do you want done with your hair? I said heck if I know. I haven't been able to do anything with it for years and in the past the most adventurous I got was a curly perm. (the... Sat, 21 Nov 2009 20:08:43 EST I am going to do this more often. Okay gang I love to write blogs. And you guys love to read them. However you will notice I am not very prolific at it. I always think I have to be in the right mood or feel pretty strongly about something for me to write. I think I am afraid if I write more often it might not be as funny. Well I made this goal a year ago and promptly blew it off. I am now renewing that pledge of writing at least once a week. So gang some may be good,some great,some inspiring and some just plain goofy.... Sat, 14 Nov 2009 11:01:35 EST Runners enjoy pain Huh????!!!! Someone told me this today-Show me someone who runs and I will show you someone who likes pain. This person said this to me knowing that I run. I didn't challenge her because I just didn't want to go there but I have to say I am irked. <BR> <BR> Okay when I didn't run I probably thought the same thing. Who is crazy enough to run when it is cold,dark,hot,raining,humid? Well I guess I am because I have run in all those situations. But do I like pain? No I really don't think so. <BR> <B... Sat, 3 Oct 2009 17:41:40 EST What the heck is going on??? I weighed this morning and I am 178!!!!!!!! In 7 months I have slid back and gained 10 pounds. I have been doing more cardio and added running to my routine. I don't get it. I have almost backed out of the 170's. This is scarying the sh-- out of me because I don't seem to know why this is going on. The odd thing is my clothes don't fit like I have gained 10 pounds back. I was just thinking yesterday I thought I was losing again because this one pair of pants felt looser. So either the... Sat, 1 Aug 2009 09:34:28 EST My sister in law is a twit!!! Okay this has been bugging me since it happened. My DH's youngest sister is 44 and she should know better. To let us know that our niece was in the hospital and might be going to hospice-SHE TEXTED MY HUBBY. Who the heck gives that kind of info in a text??? Of course my hubby had a million questions and had to call her back. She doesn't answer. AAAARRRRGGGHHH!!!! Text messages have their place but you don't tell someone that a loved one is dying in a text message. I told my hubby the ... Mon, 20 Jul 2009 21:19:11 EST It is so unfair!!!! Thanks for the kind thoughts and prayers for DH's niece. It seems so unfair. At 19 she broke her neck and had to wear this halo thing screwed in to her head for a year. She recovers and leads a basic normal life. <BR> <BR> She gets married and two months later they find the first tumor. After she beats it and has two young kids her hubby runs out on her. Too busy doing drugs he has let his company go and plunged them in to big time debt. He just plain disappears for 5 months. With the... Sat, 18 Jul 2009 23:17:28 EST Poem Was the day before Christmas and all through the house, <BR> only one creature stirred and it wasn't my spouse. <BR> Though he screamed and he cried when the rugs weren't dry, <BR> He couldn't be bothered so I did it and sighed. <BR> The floor is now clean and the dishes all done, <BR> except for the ones just now left by my son. <BR> I guess I can get up early and finish my chores, <BR> It is better than listening to my spouse snore. <BR> I have done all that is needed to decorate a tree, <B... Tue, 23 Dec 2008 13:44:24 EST Confession This blog may be a little hard for some of you to read. It isn't pretty. It is gritty and honest and makes no apologies for what it is. If you are a bit squeamish you may want to pass this one by. <BR> <BR> It has been a gray grumpy day and I found myself in the middle of a convience store. I decide I want a treat. I use one of my handy 652 rationalizations on why I deserve said treat. You know them all: I am tired,I am unhappy, I deserve it etc. The last one is my favorite. Accordin... Thu, 4 Dec 2008 14:03:09 EST You want a blog? You can't handle a blog!!!! Okay for all you fans out there here it is. <BR> <BR> I was driving yesterday and saw a sign by a strip mall that said "personal training sessions 20 for $30" I thought wow that is a pretty good price but I had no time to stop that day. I went back today with my hubby because he is finally thinking about doing some exercise. Never mind that we have a treadmill,exercise bike and elliptical all at the house. You wouldn't want to start on equipement that was free to use now would you? Any... Thu, 20 Nov 2008 14:58:09 EST The great Sports Bra hunt!!!! Hey everybody I hope that things are going well in your healthy living lifestyle. I became aware that my current under garments were not up to my newer level of intensity while working out. Plus I am really being encouraged to try running. So the old underwire bra just doesn't quite cut it. Support isn't so bad but the straps falling down all the time is driving me nuts. I have a couple of days off from work so I thought it would be a good time to get a new sports bra and try this runn... Thu, 16 Oct 2008 14:05:25 EST Rants from the corner!!!!! This really has nothing to do with my healthy living journey and everything to do with my job as a school crossing guard. I had a few thoughts today as I was standing on the corner and I thought I would share them. <BR> <BR> 1. Your life is not that important that you can't wait 30 seconds for me to cross these kids safely. If your life was that important you would be driving a vehicle with lights and a siren. But your not so get over yourself. <BR> <BR> 2.Hello when you are making a rig... Mon, 22 Sep 2008 22:07:31 EST A talk every girl, woman should hear. I was listening to the radio and was hearing about a woman who had wrote a book on female self esteem/weight. It made some thoughts in my head kind of gel and this is the results. This is a talk that should be given to every female in the country. <BR> <BR> Okay every female in the country listen up. It is time to hear some things that you may not like. You woke up this morning and looked in the bathroom mirror and thought wow I am no Cindy Crawford, yikes. Well girlfriend wake up and s... Wed, 20 Aug 2008 18:48:46 EST It's been awhile guess what I have been doing. Okay people I realize it has been almost a month since I have blogged but my hubby lost his job in July unexpectedly and that kind of knocked the funny out of me. But even though he is still unemployed I felt it my duty to let you all know just what kind of hi jinks I have been up to and ooh girl they have been plenty. <BR> <BR> It starts with the fact that since the hubby is laid off insurance goes away at the end of July so it is game on trying to get everything done before then. It does... Thu, 14 Aug 2008 22:48:26 EST How I spent my summer vacation or dumpster diving for beginners. I realized I had not blogged for awhile and was wondering what to chat about. Well I just had one of the most surreal experiences of my life and felt I had to share it. Hang on this one gets goofy. <BR> <BR> I have been looking for new ways to exercise and get out of this plateau. Last week at a garage sale I saw an elliptical machine for sale for $70. I was told by fellow Sparkers that that was a good deal. However a very busy weekend schedule and an innate cheapness kept me from getti... Wed, 2 Jul 2008 11:25:10 EST Okay Undies went so well let's try bras!!!!! You all had so much fun going underwear shopping with me I thought you might all want to tag along as I try to buy bras. Yippee let the ride begin and keep your hands inside the car at all times. <BR> <BR> I don't know how many bras most of you own but I am down to one. That is right one lonely little bra that has to do all the work. I had bought new bras this fall but since boob fat seems to be one of the quickest leaving fats they soon became too big. Also when I bought new bras this f... Wed, 4 Jun 2008 14:12:59 EST This time it is a transformation. A thought has been niggling in my brain for awhile and I need to get it out and examine it. So come along for the ride if you want. <BR> <BR> After my son was born,15 years ago, I was over 200 pounds. When he was about 4 months I started dieting and I lost weight. I was down to 155 pounds by the time he was a year old and stayed there for about 2 months and then started to slowly creep back up. So I have lost a lot of weight before and I realize that this time it is very different. <BR> ... Sat, 24 May 2008 21:39:59 EST Granny Pants Lite or Do these make my Butt look Big??? Well I thought it was time to give all of you people another peek inside of my brain, so buckle up it is going to be a bumpy ride. <BR> <BR> Let's start with underwear. I have been wearing briefs,aka grannie pants,since I can remember. I decided this week that I am to sexy hot now to have such drab underwear. So off I go to Target to see what I can find. First off I didn't realize how many variations of undies there are. There are briefs,hipsters,boy pants,thongs to name a few. Also ... Wed, 21 May 2008 12:23:04 EST Random thoughts from a very tired sweaty person. What better time to write a blog then when one is just back from a trip to the trainer. I am so tired I can barely keep my head up. But the lack of oxygen(ormaybe it is too much oxygen)to the brain has caused several random thoughts to fire across my brain and I thought I should share them. <BR> 1. Since loosing weight I feel taller. My husband says I am nuts but I do feel like I am taller. I can't explain it but there it is. If you are looking for explanations or even cohesive sentenc... Fri, 2 May 2008 14:10:03 EST Swapping one problem for another!!! This is a post I recently put on one of my team threads and I realized it might be something others have encountered. So I am making a blog of it so maybe more people will see it. <BR> <BR> I thought I was doing pretty good with my emotional eating. I still do it on occasion but I am aware of what I am doing and I thought being aware is the first step. Eventually I will get so I don't do it at all. Well imagine my surprise when I came back from a shopping trip and it dawned on me that I ... Thu, 10 Apr 2008 20:01:59 EST Granny was right- Warning may be gross!!! I had an elderly German grandmother. My Mom was the 8th of 9 kids and I was the last of 7 kids so my grandmother was old when I was born. I don't know if this is a charming German habit or what but I can remember my Grandmother asking my Mom if we were eliminating regularly. She would then offer several rememdies or suggestions to make sure that our BM's continued right on schedule. I thought it was odd and rather gross but I was also only about 9 years old so I thought that about most ad... Mon, 31 Mar 2008 14:07:57 EST I am getting use to it but still come on!!!!! I am stuck in the 180's and it feels like a pit of quick sand I can not get out of. It is kind of driving me crazy but I am getting use to it. My body has changed I can feel that clothes are looser. My father in law who asks every time I see him(God bless him for caring but please I see him almost weekly)asks how much weight I have lost. When I told him I have not lost any in over three weeks he was surprised. He said I was looking thinner. So there is confirmation that things are still... Sat, 22 Mar 2008 17:38:44 EST I guess this is where I stop. It has been three long weeks of trying and adding strength training but I guess 182 is where my body wants to stop. I don't know at this point what more I can do. I hear cut calories, add calories, cycle calories, fast, exercise harder, longer. My mind is swirling with everything. Don't tell me weight isn't the only factor of health because I haven't lost any inches in two weeks either. So I can't loose weight or inches and here I sit while others zoom by. Why am I working out 6 days a ... Wed, 5 Mar 2008 11:33:48 EST Family differences Okay I go thrift store shopping with my Mom and sister about once a month. We were all the same size so we always were shopping the same part of the stores. Well yesterday I realized I no longer am a plus size and I was looking for way different clothes than they were. I felt so sad that we had lost this thing in common. Later when ice cream was suggested I didn't get any. Okay I did help my Mom eat her's but it was only a few bites. I feel like I have so little in common with my family... Sun, 2 Mar 2008 10:45:10 EST