NELLBELLA26's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NELLBELLA26 NELLBELLA26's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Another Hike! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5256658 Since yesterday was President's Day, my husband had off work. We decided to gather the dogs and go up to Griffith Park. We have been there multiple times before, but we decided to try a new trail. <BR> <BR> It turned out to be a beautiful day. I'm getting stronger each day. I haven't lost the amount of weight that I thought I would by now, but I have lost some. I'm trying to be patient with myself and continue healthy habits. <BR> <BR> What did you guys do this past weekend? <BR> <BR> ... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 20:27:32 EST The A-Z of Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5230978 Borrowed from LIBELULITA found on LBFROMBUFAD's sparkpage. <BR> <BR> A - Available or married: Married for almost two years as of the 13th. <BR> <BR> B - Book: I'm really loving Self Help Books lately. Wayne Dyer and Deepak Chopra. <BR> <BR> C - Cake or Pie? : Neither anymore, if you would have caught me 6 months ago, I would had said Red Velvet Cupcake. <BR> <BR> D - Drink of Choice: Water in my pink tumbler. <BR> <BR> E - Essential Item: My Iphone and Lipstick <BR> <BR> F - Favor... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 22:57:23 EST Be Your Own Role Model http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221945 How many times do we look to other people for motivation and inspiration? Sparkpeople is full of these wonderful success stories and inspirational people. I'm so incredibly grateful for the friends I have made from this site and the support it provides. However, I know that if I am ever to be truly successful, I have to become inspiring to myself. I have to be the person I always wanted to be, the person I know I CAN be. <BR> <BR> I joined Overeaters Anonymous in November after trying it ou... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 17:00:53 EST Committing to Excellence- Recapping The Year and Looking Ahead http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177166 As the new year approaches, I'm sure most are thinking about how the new year is going to bring hope for a better job, a better relationship, a better situation, a better YOU. I know that I often get wrapped up in the excitement and think the same things. But I also know that I don't have to wait until the new year. I've spent the last seven months working toward those goals and will continue the progress. Each and every day, I pray for the courage and strength to work through the things I ne... Wed, 26 Dec 2012 22:42:12 EST I'm not running a marathon anytime soon, but I'm still working toward a goal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5068546 I see so many blogs here on Sparkpeople that are all about training for something physical, but I rarely see someone get down and dirty about the emotional turmoil, the spiritual journey and how to be present in your mind and body during this process. It is my true belief that until you dissect and analyze what led you to gain the weight in the first place, you won't have lasting success. Without awareness of behaviors and making changes to all aspects of your being, you're only creating more... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 23:44:21 EST Is Beauty valued above all else? Do Men value anything else? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050473 So this has been an exceptionally hard week for me. I found out that my husband has been communicating with other women online and telling them how attractive they are. At first I was a little annoyed because it was just comments on twitter feeds on their pictures. I thought, " Okay, men just like to look at pretty things." I was hurt and told him so, but he told me I didn't have anything to worry about and that he just thought the picture was cute. <BR> <BR> I wasn't completely convinced, ... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 00:42:11 EST Why Spark Friends Make the Best Friends http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025410 I am truly blessed to have found Sparkpeople. I originally joined in a misguided attempt to lose weight to fit into my dress for my wedding. I say misguided because I joined for truly superficial reasons and Sparkpeople along with some other great resources and people have twisted my view about weightloss and health in general. The most I figured I would get from the site was a tracker for my food and some recipes that I might want to try out. <BR> <BR> I had no idea about the community par... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 20:31:20 EST Yoga-Themed Nail Polish http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5020111 I am huge fan of painting my nails. I just feel like it's a simple way to add a pop of color and express yourself. It also makes me feel feminine and girly. My favorite brand is Essie, so imagine my surprise when I opened my Self Magazine and saw their new collection! <BR> It's called Yogaga and the names are fitness themed. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l326070019.jpg"> <BR> <BR> With my birthday coming up, I think I need these! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://phot... Fri, 17 Aug 2012 23:11:33 EST Being Authentic http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014029 It's amazing the little lies we tell each other and ourselves. I'm not talking about shocking, devastating lies that could hurt someone. I'm talking about those little lies that pile up when we refuse to just be honest to save face, not make ourselves uncomfortable, or just because we're so used to saying them. <BR> <BR> It can be something as simple as saying you are fine or that your day is great when someone asks how you are doing when in fact you are not fine. I'm the type of person who... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 18:30:41 EST My Nine Year Anniversary- Getty Villa http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5002011 So yesterday my husband surprised me by choosing to go to the Getty Villa in Malibu. We had already been at the Getty Center and loved it very much. I'm so glad he chose this to go to because it turned out to be a beautiful and educational day. We did a culinary garden tour through their herb garden. They had a plant called lemon balm that when you rubbed it, it made your hand smell like lemons. I've never heard of it before, but then again I haven't heard of many things because I'm the anti-... Sun, 5 Aug 2012 13:45:58 EST Hiking http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4994089 So yesterday my husband and I decided to tackle Will Rogers again. It's a state park here in the Los Angeles Area ( more specifically Pacific Palisades). We started at the Temescal Canyon Trail and were told that the trail we were doing was 1.9 miles both ways. However, we took a side trail that took us straight up a mountain side. It definitely tested me. Eventually we weren't sure if this side trip was going to lead us anywhere so we turned around. <BR> <BR> It's always an adventure with... Tue, 31 Jul 2012 00:53:10 EST Women, Food, and God- You're not unhappy because you're fat, you're fat because you are unhappy. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4992031 So I've gotten some books from the library about eating, particularly emotional and compulsive eating since I've finally admitted to myself that exercise (while I could do more) is not my problem. My problem is my unhealthy relationship with food. One of the books I checked out from the library is Women, Food, and God by Geneen Roth. I'm only a few chapters in since I just finished another book, but WOW! Every time I read another passage I'm thinking, " I'm not the only one that does this? Is... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 18:21:25 EST Emotional Eating---Using eating as a coping mechanism. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4987882 So last night I attended my very first meeting for compulsive overeaters. I had been contemplating going for a few weeks now but couldn't get past the fact that I'd have to be honest with myself and with other people that I just wasn't managing and haven't been for a long time. So finally I got past that roadblock, got into my car and drove my butt to a meeting. Boy was I glad that I did. <BR> We're all at different stages of our weight loss and I've seen many lose weight, only to gain it ba... Thu, 26 Jul 2012 13:10:25 EST Gathering Inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4493904 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/1/l318082103.jpg"> <BR> Ready to get there! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l493382147.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/5/l858082786.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/3/l135065523.jpg"> Mon, 19 Sep 2011 23:03:44 EST Mantra http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4433831 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/6/l263081625.jpg"> Wed, 17 Aug 2011 23:47:55 EST Blogs that give me inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4431614 These two blogs I found are blogs I check daily. <BR> After my last blog, I went looking for beauty that was more than just the standardized view that we see in most magazines. <BR> <BR> These ladies are trying to bring awareness to the fact that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. <BR> <BR> http://mybodypeaceofmind.tumblr.com/ <BR> <BR> and <BR> <BR> <BR> http://curvyisthenewblack.tumblr.com/ <BR> <BR> Hope you enjoy them as much as I do! Tue, 16 Aug 2011 23:37:15 EST Never Pretty and struggling with consistency http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4425263 I've struggled with my weight for years. I've fluctuated up and down, up and down. I've played sports in elementary and junior high and then in high school and college, I abandoned all of that to focus on my academics. <BR> <BR> I've always been the chunky one, or the overweight one. I've always been the smart one, but never the "pretty one." I was talking to my husband about this concept... how weight distorts how people view you. How weight seems to be a roadblock for beauty. It truly is ... Sat, 13 Aug 2011 21:53:50 EST Day 3 of Detox- Caution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4359088 So it's the evening of the third day of detox and I am so HUNGRY! So hungry that everyone in the office couldn't figure out why I was so grumpy since I am usually happy, helpful and bubbly. I was snapping at everyone, including clients. It was BAD! <BR> <BR> I also felt dizzy and had a headache all day long. BUT.... I was told this would happen. With toxins being released from your system and learning to not be addicted to food, this is bound to happen. I liken it to a drug addict who is g... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 23:05:40 EST Day 2 of Detox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4356659 So it is Day 2 of my juicing detox and I have to say that I knew it would be hard, but I didn't know it would be this hard. I never realized how addicted to food I am. I also never realized how many commercials about food there are on television. It almost makes me not want to watch tv, which is good because I should get my butt outside and do something active. ( even though working an 8 hr day with a 2hr commute is exhausting enough most days). <BR> <BR> I've already lost 4.4 lbs. The peop... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 22:30:41 EST 50 Questions and Answers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4354209 I saw this on another sparkie's blog and wish I could remember who so I could give them credit. <BR> I will try to find it again, so I can give credit where credit is due. <BR> <BR> 1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? <BR> Coco Chanel <BR> <BR> 2. YOUR FAVORITE SONG? <BR> I don't have a favorite. I love music. <BR> <BR> <BR> 3. Name the states you have lived in <BR> California and Pennsylvania <BR> <BR> 4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER? <BR> Calla Lily <BR> <BR> 5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? ... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 23:24:59 EST Day 1 of Detox http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4353513 Disclaimer- This is an idea I found useful and helpful. I am in no way advocating that others should try this. The narrator of the film even says that you should consult a doctor if you want to try this detox. Learning to live a healthy lifestyle is something that has growing importance to me. I figure that if I can reboot my system and dispose of some toxins, then I can in a sense "start over." <BR> <BR> <BR> So my husband and I watched a Documentary on Netflix last night called, Fat Sick... Sun, 10 Jul 2011 17:31:38 EST Fun in the sun? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4324547 Will I ever be comfortable enough to not want to cover myself up in public? At the beach today, I wore long pants, a sweater over my tank and just felt like while all the others ladies were in bikinis and sundresses.... I would NEVER get there. <BR> <BR> I recently posted a blog with a picture of me in my swimsuit and each time I look at it, I want to cringe. But everyone has to start somewhere, right? <BR> <BR> I'd love to actually get a tan at the beach instead of sitting there trying t... Sun, 26 Jun 2011 22:00:21 EST What I am.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4262172 I've been struggling with confidence and consistency. I have allowed others to determine my self esteem and how my day is going to go. I have taken things personally instead of realizing that their problems are NOT my own. <BR> <BR> So I decided to write a blog about What I am and WHO I am..... <BR> <BR> I am an ambitious person. I have always had something inside of me that told me to push further, try harder, and keep GOING. ( even if I struggle with insecurities now and then) <BR> <B... Sat, 28 May 2011 21:17:42 EST Motivational Images http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4252232 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/9/l895136249.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/2/l126171915.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l653103625.jpg"> Mon, 23 May 2011 23:47:21 EST You're not GOOD ENOUGH! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4234813 So besides the loop I've been playing in my own head of " You're not good enough, strong enough, mentally prepared enough..." I've had some tough times with others commenting on my weight and my looks lately. <BR> <BR> Today I commented to my husband that my blood sugar must be out of whack again because I've been feeling generally fatigued and dizzy all the time. His comment: " Maybe you should go to the gym and you'll feel better." I burst into tears with his lack of sensitivity of me not... Sun, 15 May 2011 21:06:06 EST Inspirational Song Lyrics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4156580 Courtesy of MetroLyrics. <BR> <BR> KEEP ON SINGING MY SONG- Christina Aguilera <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning with a smile on my face <BR> And nobody's gonna bring me down today <BR> Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately <BR> But I decided right here and now that my outlooks gonna change <BR> <BR> That's why I'm gonna <BR> Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried <BR> And everytime somebody hurt my pride <BR> Feeling like they won't let me live life <BR> And take th... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 21:31:48 EST Our Newlywed Shoot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4091927 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l162026012.jpg"> <BR> <BR> All credit goes to Sheila Arkee of Arkeeology Photography. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/7/l478649907.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l46053684.jpg"> Mon, 14 Mar 2011 21:34:15 EST Wedding Pictures- Sneak Peek! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4031520 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/1/l212460358.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Will upload more tomorow.... Sun, 20 Feb 2011 00:52:15 EST Head Games! Altering the Inside along with the Outside. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3971160 When you begin your weight loss journey, you tell yourself that you need to make the physical changes, but how many of us forgot that it not only changes your outside but the inside as well. I feel like a completely different person than I did before. I am not only much lighter in weight, but in spirit as well. I used to let everything overwhelm me where now I try to have a positive outlook and take on the world one day at a time. <BR> <BR> I used to be the person who was the complainer. Al... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 09:37:50 EST My Wedding Gown doesn't fit!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3967515 So an update to my previous entry about my wedding attire. I changed my mind about the dress. I found a gorgeous dress on unique vintage that had the rosette skirt that I've been eyeing on a gown at Davids Bridal. <BR> <BR> So I purchased the dress on tuesday and had it overnighted. I even ordered a size larger than I normally wear. I wear a 16, but ordered an 18. I figured that most gowns are a size or two smaller and went by my measurements. <BR> <BR> Well I went to try the dress on tod... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 22:28:03 EST She inspires me! PICS http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3951430 Whitney Thompson, winner of ANTM inspires me. She is a beautiful plus size model. I'd love to get my body to look like hers in the next six months. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/2/l225526768.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/3/l435116586.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Source: Google Images. Sat, 22 Jan 2011 22:39:58 EST Wedding Attire for my Civil Ceremony http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3934455 I am getting married in Vegas next month! <BR> <BR> Here is the dress I'm going to buy on payday! <BR> <BR> http://shop.nordstrom.com/s/adrianna-pap<BR>ell-v-neck-lace-sheath-dress/3117178?o<BR>rigin=category&resultback=2162 <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/2/0/l200186392.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l171145224.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Bought these shoes yesterday at DSW! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l521644879.j... Mon, 17 Jan 2011 17:51:26 EST I'm the National Average..... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3926282 Thought this was a great picture representing men's ideal size for women vs our ideal for ourselves vs the national average. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/9/l498371294.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Source: http://rachelsetzer.blogspot.com/ Fri, 14 Jan 2011 23:05:27 EST A New Year- An Improved You http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3877437 I love the start of a new year, it's so full of new ambitions and high hopes. Fresh expectations and just an overall feeling of refreshment. <BR> <BR> So I beg all of you to take hold of that feeling and keep it going through all your days. especially those days when you just want to slip back into old habits and give up on all those goals that sometimes seem so hard to reach. <BR> <BR> We can do this!!!! Happy New Year! Sat, 1 Jan 2011 15:53:00 EST Don't be afraid to make mistakes! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3772828 <BR> To swear off mistakes is very easy. All you have to do is swear off having ideas. <BR> <BR> - Leo Burnett, advertising pioneer <BR> <BR> This quote was in my Sparkpeople Healthy Reflection email this morning. <BR> <BR> I think that as humans we are so afraid to fail at anything, that sometimes we forget to even try. We think it's better to not even put ourselves out there than to try our best even if we fall short. <BR> Do you think that those that have had success have first not ... Tue, 9 Nov 2010 12:31:13 EST Things that have changed since joining Sparkpeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3766013 <em>334</em> I love this site so much. I love telling people about it and seeing them enjoy the benefits of such great tools and resources available for free online. Chris Downie and Coach Nicole.... I never met you... but I'll just make you honorary BFFs. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> Changes that I've made since joining: <BR> <BR> - I track my food. I no longer mindlessly stuff my face because I know when I see those awful calorie counts staring back at me, I'm going to have to face the gui... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 12:50:22 EST Things that make me smile.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3763191 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/1/l416475236.jpg"> <BR> My puppy, Gatsby! Look at that smile. Now does that not just bring a smile to your own face? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/8/l587939006.jpg"> <BR> My brother and new sister-in law. Married in Sept. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/5/l752861287.jpg"> <BR> Bumble from Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. It's becoming that time of year again. I have Bumble ornaments, a s... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 00:42:09 EST Trouble Goal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3755988 So part of my program tells me to journal about a goal I'm having trouble achieving or a part of my regime I'm having a hard time sticking to. <BR> <BR> My trouble goal is doing 30 minutes of exercise a day. Sometimes I'm great at doing this by taking my dogs for two walks a day. Other times, I'm tired from work and have my fiance take them for walks. Sometimes I'm great at working up early to do some yoga and some stretching. Other times I just want to relax and watch the morning news befo... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 01:15:45 EST I feel pretty, Oh so Pretty! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3750414 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l40075935.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I finally bought a dress! What do you all think? Sat, 30 Oct 2010 15:42:34 EST Tough times http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3740194 There are times in life when things happen that make you go UGH! <em>33</em> <em>39</em> <BR> This past Friday was one of those days. My fiance was laid off from his job. <BR> So the wedding we were planning, the apartment we were planning to move into, and a variety of other major decisions were put on hold. Any progress that was being made came to a screeching halt. <BR> Now that I've had the weekend to digest it all, I can see that it's not the end of the world. It's still upsetting, ... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 21:23:30 EST I feel comfortable in my own skin. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3567175 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l691307278.jpg"> <BR> I remember six months ago how disgusted I was with myself. I was eating poorly, I was stressed out at my job, I didn't even know what exercise was aside from picking up the remote to turn on the tv after an exhausting day at work. I would go day to day just getting by and not really enjoying my life or anything in it. I didn't appreciate all the joyous people and things in it because I wasn't comfortable in my own skin.... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 19:11:33 EST Weight Loss Quotes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3508112 One should eat to live, not live to eat. ~Cicero, Rhetoricorum LV <BR> <BR> Reality check: you can never, ever, use weight loss to solve problems that are not related to your weight. At your goal weight or not, you still have to live with yourself and deal with your problems. You will still have the same husband, the same job, the same kids, and the same life. Losing weight is not a cure for life. ~Phillip C. McGraw, The Ultimate Weight Solution: The 7 Keys to Weight Loss Freedom, 2003... Thu, 5 Aug 2010 23:47:10 EST Inspiration from the furbabies.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3508069 I've adopted two dogs. One very recently and the other last year. I've found that they motivate me to get more exercise as they need two walks a day and they like to go to the park and to the dog beach. I love being able to spend time with them and enjoy the exercise that I can get while playing with them. <BR> <BR> Make it fun and it becomes that much easier! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l652009344.jpg"> Thu, 5 Aug 2010 23:32:38 EST Starting.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3479886 The hardest part is starting to implement the changes that you know you need to make. Here I am @ my current weight of 233 lbs. <BR> <BR> I have a long way to go. So I'm posting a pic now and will go back and edit in a pic when I've lost enough to reach my goal of 187. <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/6/l660774444.jpg"> Wed, 28 Jul 2010 20:21:02 EST My Virtual Model Motivator http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3451179 So when I was browsing through the Sparkpeople Secrets of Success, I found one that said to visualize your future self by creating a virtual model on www.mvm.com. <BR> <BR> I first created one at the weight I am now ( 234 lbs): <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/4/l942264206.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Then I created one at my goal weight (187lbs): <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/0/l905765007.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I love how you can also see how clothes look... Tue, 20 Jul 2010 13:34:52 EST Lost 30 Lbs... have 60 to go... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3449172 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/7/l77324244.jpg"> <BR> <BR> The above picture was taken in September 2008, a few months after a very special person to me passed away. It was my stepfather and he was a big influence in my life and seeing him wither away to nothing and die was one of the most heartwrenching experiences I have ever had to go through. I also found out my father had throat cancer in 2007 and he had been going through treatment. I had moved to California in 2006 s... Mon, 19 Jul 2010 23:10:48 EST