NEEDTOLOOSE1's SparkPeople Blog NEEDTOLOOSE1's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Are you Searching? <img src="" <BR> <BR> I really can relate to creating my own strength and willpower. I have to "put on my workout clothes" if I am going to workout. <BR> <BR> <BR> Tue, 15 Oct 2013 22:06:53 EST Goals for BLC Goals for BLC <BR> <BR> 1) Track everything that goes into my mouth <BR> 2) Strive to exercise daily even if it's just 10 minutes <BR> 3) Get at least 6 hours of sleep at night <BR> 4) Continue to keep my attitude in check <BR> 5) Work on work/home balance <BR> <BR> Mon, 14 Oct 2013 22:00:15 EST What is a worthwhile goal? <img src="">' <BR> <BR> What is a worthwhile goal? <BR> <BR> There are all kinds of goals at there, everyone has a different idea on how to set those goals. I have people at work setting goals for me, which is not so effective, I have to own the goal, believe in the goal. A goal is not something that I can just sit down. <BR> I have to have a clear mental picture of what I want to achieve <BR> I have to break the goal down in bite ... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 22:19:16 EST Who are you <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Keeping positive is not always easy. But Who am I? Do I hold myself back, I sure do. When we exercise at work my first thing is "I am a grandma" I can't do that stuff. " They kindly reminds me that I can do anything if I have the right attitude and do not beat myself down before I try. <BR> "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" A great promise from my Savior. Tue, 8 Oct 2013 23:54:26 EST When do we begin? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I looked at this today and thought, yes I am very much like this. I think that everything has to be just so perfect or it will not come out with the outcome I want. So who says it has to be about me? I need to put one foot in front of the other and go for it. What's the worst thing that will happen - I may have to try again. <BR> Mon, 7 Oct 2013 22:07:01 EST Do you have time? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is so true. I need to take time daily to do something for myself. Exercise is a great way to spend time on myself. <BR> <BR> Sun, 6 Oct 2013 23:18:49 EST How Far? <img src=""> <BR> How true it's easy to see that I have so far to go, so why try anymore? Just eat what I want and move on. <BR> But when I look in the mirror and see the results on how far I have come it is amazing. It is renewing and helps me to "walk one day at a time". <BR> Thu, 19 Sep 2013 22:15:30 EST Praising God My 5 month old granddaughter Megan was taken to the ER today. They were at the dr. office and he wanted her taken to ER. She was having problems breathing, they have her 5 breathing treatments. When she arrived her lungs were only at 50%. <BR> All sorts of things went through my mind, they are in Florida and I am in Iowa, I can't go. That hurts so bad because I want to be there to help out. I started praying, yes there is something that I can do. God will take care of her. <BR> Hope... Wed, 18 Sep 2013 22:12:08 EST Don't Give Up When I have eaten something I shouldn't I think that I should just give up and eat everything that I can find. Then I remember : <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 17 Sep 2013 23:26:10 EST Half Way I always enjoy when I get off work on Wednesday's. I look forward to our ladies Bible study. Sharing with y sisters it so rewarding. <BR> Wed, 11 Sep 2013 23:08:34 EST Where do you get your strength <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I am ready to give up and throw in the towel, I get this amazing strength to walk on. <BR> His strength is like no other. <BR> <BR> Mon, 9 Sep 2013 22:50:16 EST Who were you created to be? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I found this quote and really needed to share. God has a plan for each and everyone of us, we don't always know what the plan will be. I do know however that God never gives me more than I can handle, sometime I think I can't do it, but God gives me the strength that I need to go forward. I am so grateful today. Thu, 5 Sep 2013 22:33:42 EST Wednesday - Pruning our branches Tonight we had our Bible Lesson from John 15:1-9. It was truly wonderful. The gal that teaches the class brought in some flowers from here garden they were so beautiful. We talked about what happens when the flower get's broken from it's branch - it withers, but if we stay in Christ, read our Bible it will nourish our bodies. We talked about pruning and the purpose, how God prunes us to be the person He wants us to be. But everything is contingent on staying in Christ not withering out. ... Wed, 4 Sep 2013 23:41:47 EST Where did the weight go? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> It's a good feeling when the pounds come off and they get lost. I know for this to happen I have to hold up my end of the deal. That's my tracking, fitness, water etc. Tue, 3 Sep 2013 22:58:50 EST Monday It's September not sure where all the time has gone. Our summer has been a bit strange this year. My husband cracked a bone in his foot. That means he is not driving, which means we have had few rides on the motorcycle. We went to a specialist on Friday and they put him in a cast, he goes back in three weeks to get the cast taken off and xrays. The dr. anticipates that he will have to be in a total of 6 weeks. He said that it's healing very slowly. I get to mow the grass and use the we... Mon, 2 Sep 2013 22:48:43 EST Wednesday For some reason work was just really busy today. Everyone wanted their stuff right now. By the end of the day I did accomplish all my tasks. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. <BR> It reminds of my changing lifestyle it's putting one foot in front of the other and walking the walk. Making good food choices and tracking them everyday, drinking my water and making sure that I get the exercise that I need. <BR> Wed, 28 Aug 2013 23:20:48 EST BLC Goals Looking at my goals over this past 12 weeks. <BR> 1. I didn't loose the 10lbs as I thought I would <em>39</em> <BR> 2. I have lost 1" on my waist not 2" <em>39</em> <BR> 3. I have been taking care of myself <em>248</em> <BR> 4. Track my food - <em>248</em> <BR> 5. Exercise - <em>248</em> <BR> 6. Drinking 100 ounces of water a day <em>248</em> <BR> 7. Get required sleep <em>248</em> <BR> I am pleased that I have met my goals for the most part. Learning t... Wed, 28 Aug 2013 00:06:26 EST Thursday Tonight was our professional woman's group tonight. It was on fighting stress, and how it is so harmful to our bodies. I had the opportunity to try zumba, and yoga it was good. They talked about making sure that you take time for yourself. That you need to put your exercise in your planner, that you have a planned time and it is as important as everything else in your life. It was really a great reminder that it is important to take care of myself. Thu, 22 Aug 2013 23:00:53 EST Tuesday Had a great weekend at the Little League World Series. I enjoyed working the booth and getting to see the games in the evening. But.. I am so tired. I didn't get much more than 4 hours a sleep Friday, Saturday and Sunday evenings. <BR> If anyone has a Fitbit I would like to know if you feel that they are accurate. I think the steps that I take are very close. I just didn't know about the sleep <BR> If you have one please let me know Tue, 20 Aug 2013 23:05:37 EST Little League World Series I getting my things packed for a fun packed weekend. I am going to the Little League World Series. The company that I work for is a sponsor and we are going to be working in the booth. Thu, 15 Aug 2013 23:54:05 EST Wednesday (Comfort Zone) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I decided it was time to change it up a bit. The more I thought about the saying, the more it made me think. What is considered your comfort zone? My comfort zone is no allowing people into my space, it's not trying new things, it's staying where I am and not making progress. <BR> <BR> After thinking for a bit on this, I will go places and do things, tell others who I am. I am not the person I use to be an... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 22:52:18 EST Tuesday Staying Positive It was a wild day at work today, our system was down for most of the day. I had to send my bid documents through my private email. I was lucky enough to have everything saved in a drive where I could get to it. I didn't realize how much I depended on the computer. I have a feeling tomorrow it's going to be a wild day. <BR> <BR> My mom's insurance agency called me this morning at 7:20 when I has trying to get out of the house to go to work, she didn't pay her car insurance so she is no lo... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 00:20:18 EST Monday, Monday Back to work today. Had an appt. for my wrist, surgeon said that I had fluid built up and he took it out. Wow that really hurt and it's pretty tender tonight. He once again reminded me that they had to do more work than expected. <BR> My husband had his foot x-rayed hopefully they will call tomorrow with the results to see if his foot is healing. <BR> My mom really went after my husband today about her living with us. She wants to go home, she wants to drive. I know that this is reall... Mon, 12 Aug 2013 22:29:18 EST Half Way Point So glad it's Wednesday, I didn't get to church last night for my Celebrate Recovery and tonight I missed mid week worship. I really miss the fellowship with my Christian brothers and sisters. <BR> Things should be back to normal next week - whatever normal is. It's a great training and having the time to catch up with some people I have not seen for quite a long time. Wed, 7 Aug 2013 22:04:43 EST Meetings This week I have been in meetings. I have to eat lunch at work with everyone, I brought my back up food just in case there was not anything for me to eat. I have managed to eat lunches with everyone else, they have had a lot of salad and chicken breasts, so I can make a meal out of it. We also go out for supper and have night activities. This cuts down on my exercise time. <BR> But next week will be a new week and I can get back to my routine. Tue, 6 Aug 2013 23:04:55 EST Life goes On It's been awhile since I posted a blog. I remember when I would post everyday. I feel bad but there are times when I would just like to be a lone for a bit. My mom is getting worse and just can't remember things. It's hard sometimes to remain calm. <BR> My mom and my husband went to the cabin and he hurt his foot. I had to go pick them up, he couldn't drive. After he x rays we found out that he fractured his foot. He is in a "boot" and pretty restricted to what he can do. Our motorc... Sun, 4 Aug 2013 22:32:02 EST BLC22 Goals I am on the Midnight Mustangs for BLC22.. I have working on setting my goals for the next 12 weeks. The most important thing will be to carry this our as a part of my new lifestyle, that's how I know I have accomplished my goals. <BR> <BR> 1. I will lose 10 lbs by Aug. 28th <BR> 2. I will lose 2" off my waist <BR> 3. I will take care of myself <BR> <BR> 1) Nutrition - track all my food daily, which includes making the right choices. <BR> 2) Exercise - track my exercise, find a bala... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 21:20:55 EST She has been born <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> God has given me a precious new granddaughter today. On Wednesday I will be able to see her. She is healthy and mommy is doing well. I think she is beautiful of course. And I sometimes wonder why this journey is so necessary. It's so I can enjoy these great gifts that I have been given from God. <BR> Her name is Megan Rae Fri, 10 May 2013 20:43:12 EST What Kind of Memory Will I Be? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I was looking for something to post on my blog tonight an came across this one. It really did make me think. My grandchildren are miles away from me, but yet they are very close to my heart. There is not a day that goes by that I do not shed a tear looking at pictures on facebook of them. I love fixing them up with "care packages". Just little things that I buy on sale from time to time that I know that they e... Sun, 5 May 2013 21:21:22 EST Wednesday I had a nice day at work today. It was another nice day about 80 outside. But tonight it's already down to 48. Tomorrow it's only going to be 50. We are not suppose to be warm all weekend. It seems like the weekends are always cold and rainy. <BR> Have a great Thursday everyone <BR> Wed, 1 May 2013 23:04:06 EST Tuesday Tonight was Celebrate Recovery, we are just starting our group at church. I also need to spend some time on my spiritual goals and figure out what I need to do to continue with my spiritual growth. <BR> I have been able to walk outside the last two days at work which was really nice. Tomorrow it's suppose to get cold and we are going to do our strength training inside. If it's bad on Thursday I will go to the Y. <BR> Tue, 30 Apr 2013 22:42:15 EST Wednesday Had a busy but good day at work today. I know that tomorrow is going to be busy tomorrow but one task at a time. Tomorrow is strength training day looking forward to the workout. <BR> I was kind of low today, not sure why. I was wearing my emotions on my shirt sleeve. Sometimes when you work close with people it's kind of hard to hide our emotions. But we all have emotions and I am learning that it's ok when I show them as long as they are not inappropriate. <BR> One of the gals that... Thu, 25 Apr 2013 00:00:14 EST Monday Back to work today, not really a bad day. Things were pretty busy, but I did get up at 12:30 and went for my mile walk. I just walked on the track at work since it nice. It was 60 here today however tomorrow the temps are dropping all day tomorrow and we are suppose to see snow flakes tomorrow night. Oh boy doesn't that just sound grand. Tomorrow is our strength training at work so I have my bag all packed and ready to go. I have my lunch packed, and I have my work clothes ready for thr... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:35:23 EST Friday Had a great workout today. Today was our strength exercise routine at work. I was able to do a lot more today then I was able to do on Wednesday. The gal that sits beside me in my pod and I decided that we are going to start going to the Y next week since the weather here is suppose to be cold and rainy. Looking forward to getting back into the grove of getting away everyday on my lunch hour. <BR> Hope everyone has a great weekend. Sat, 20 Apr 2013 00:27:27 EST Friday Had a great workout today. Today was our strength exercise routine at work. I was able to do a lot more today then I was able to do on Wednesday. The gal that sits beside me in my pod and I decided that we are going to start going to the Y next week since the weather here is suppose to be cold and rainy. Looking forward to getting back into the grove of getting away everyday on my lunch hour. <BR> Hope everyone has a great weekend. Sat, 20 Apr 2013 00:27:27 EST Thursday I am not sure where the week went, I have not stayed really late at work this week. One night I was there till 5:30 which is not too bad. I took my lunch everyday except for one. I have been getting up and walking around to get away from my desk. Tomorrow they are telling me that I am going to be leaving at 4:00. We will see if that happens. <BR> Not sure what we are doing to do this weekend, hoping that it is low key. Thu, 18 Apr 2013 23:10:23 EST Tuesday My first day at work went pretty good, I just ran out of time to get my Sparking done. I spent time riding my bike because it was raining at lunch and I didn't leave to go to the YMCA. I should have left but I just didn't have enough energy to change my clothes and go. When I got home I rode my stationary bike for 30 minutes. <BR> On Wednesday they are going to do the strength training, I am going to go ahead and try that tomorrow. I talked to the other gal I used to walk with on my mor... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 23:40:51 EST Sunday It's back to work tomorrow, not sure if I am really all that excited to go back. I have been off since Wednesday, I have not been on a schedule, I have been pretty laid back. I sleep when I want, I basically do what I want when I want. I talked to one of the gals that backed me up and one of my reps kept her very busy. I know that it is going to be a busy day and it will take me some time to catch up, I have done some of the work at home. <BR> I hope that everyone has a fantastic Monday Sun, 14 Apr 2013 21:15:45 EST Saturday I managed to clean out the refrigerator today and started to get my lunch items ready for work next week. I have my clothes packed and ready to go the YMCA on Monday, unless it's nice and then I will walk outside at work. I will also have to wait to see how I am feeling. <BR> I have been working on my work emails and getting things caught up so I am not so far behind when I go back. <BR> Sun, 14 Apr 2013 00:34:59 EST Long Weekend I have been off since Wednesday so I have had a really long weekend. I have been doing pretty good at relaxing, something that is really hard for me to do. I am an active person that really doesn't sit too much. I did do a few things around the house today, and hope to get a few more things done tomorrow. <BR> I am pretty excited about starting up my exercise on Monday, I know that I will feel better once I get back into my routine. <BR> Hope everyone has a great weekend. <BR> Fri, 12 Apr 2013 23:32:08 EST Wednesday I had my heart procedure today and everything came out ok, I have no blockages. I want to thank everyone for all the prayers that were said. I am just praising God for the answer to this prayer. The medicine that they gave me was pretty strange. <BR> I have to make an appt. with my physician in a week or two to discuss our next course of action for the pains that I am having in my middle back. Not sure what other tests they are going to want to do, but I would like to wait a few weeks ... Wed, 10 Apr 2013 23:44:02 EST April 9th Today was a pretty good day at work. Was glad to get a lot of things done today, trying to clean up my calendar. <BR> Tomorrow night our core group is getting together for Celebrate Recovery. I am looking forward to working through the steps of recovery and deepening my relationship with God. <BR> Mon, 8 Apr 2013 22:25:26 EST April 7th Today was my son's 34th birthday. It doesn't seem possible that it has been 34 years ago today that he was born. It has been a pure delight. We have had our ups and downs but we are very close. I can always depend on him to be there for me through thick and thin. He like me was very close to my father. We both loved my father more that words can describe. It was a love that words can't explain. I remember the day at my father's funeral when he got up and spoke about my father- it was s... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 23:14:47 EST Stress Test Results When I went Monday for my Stress Test they kept asking me if I was ok was I having chest pains, are you ok. They had three people in the room watching me to make sure that I was going to be ok I kept telling me my chest was just a little tight. I knew when the nurse came in the room and looked at the EKG readout and said I will be back and brought two nurses back with her there was a problem. While I was resting my blood pressure was 168/100. My heart rate was over a 100 and that was resting.... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 22:50:55 EST Be a Good One? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Pretty simple words but not so easy to accomplish. It's always giving my all in everything that I do. I look at different areas in my life and I either am or I am not. There is no gray areas for me. <BR> I either give it everything I have or I don't put anything into it. I use this as my defense to hold people and things out of my space. <BR> <BR> Tue, 2 Apr 2013 21:28:08 EST Stress Test Tomorrow is my last test which is my stress test. I need to be there at noon and they have indicated that this will take four hours. They will inject radioactive into my blood and they will take pictures of my heart while I am resting. <BR> They once that is completed they will inject some more and will put me on the treadmill and take some more pictures of my heart. <BR> Not sure when I will get any results from the ultrasound on my stomach, my heart and stress test but will be glad whe... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 22:16:28 EST What Are You Doing? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I know that I can't just sit and watch the world go by and expect a better life. I have to play an active role if I expect to make changes in myself. The changes need to be for a lifetime. The changes that I make need to be lifestyle changes. These would be changing the way I eat - not starving myself - not using a fad diet, but a sensible eating plan that is healthy and good for my body. <BR> I would also nee... Sat, 30 Mar 2013 23:18:18 EST Do you set SMART Goals? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> We all talk about our goals. Our goals are suppose to be <BR> <BR> S- specific <BR> Setting up my action steps of my goals - example: I will eat 1200 calories each day <BR> <BR> M - measurable <BR> I can measure my goal by logging all the food that I eat each day <BR> <BR> A- attainable <BR> Do I have everything I need to make this goal happen - computer, time to track my foods etc. <BR> <BR> R- relevant <BR... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 22:19:21 EST Do You Have A Disability? <img src=""> <BR> I have never thought of a bad attitude as being a disability. But it really is when you think about it. <BR> I know when I have a bad attitude I am not willing to give a 100%. <BR> 1) I pull down everyone around me <BR> 2) I am not committed to eating healthy <BR> 3) Exercising is few and far between <BR> 4) I have a tendency to pull away from my support system and those who support me <BR> 5) I don't sleep we... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 22:32:57 EST Are You Successful? <img src=""> <BR> <BR> That is telling me that I have to believe in myself. I am not sure about others but that is one trait that I have a hard time with. It's easy for me to believe in other people but not in myself. One of my first assignments in recovery was to look at myself in the mirror and tell myself first that I liked myself and then to tell myself that I loved myself and etc. Then I had to write 5 good qualities about mysel... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 22:26:42 EST