NED333's SparkPeople Blog NED333's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community So close... It's been awhile since I've blogged but it's been an interesting journey these past months. I feel like I've learned more about my body and what I really want more then ever before in my life! <BR> I've realized that I don't want to be a certain weight but that I want to be strong and healthy. I want to treat this amazing machine (my body) well and give it the respect it deserves! I've embraced 'rest' days and have been eating clean 80% of the time. Now I'm so close to my first 'goal' wei... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 14:47:44 EST Choices... ...have always scared me. Just to be honest here. <BR> It has been safer to live my life choiceless. The victim. Being controlled by everyone around me or what I think they think of me. <BR> Lately, though, God has been challenging my thinking. My husband and I have been doing this parenting/relationship series that talks about being a powerful person. <BR> <BR> Powerful people always have a choice. <BR> <BR> Powerful people can't control anyone but themselves. <BR> <BR> This thi... Thu, 6 Oct 2011 17:05:47 EST My sister is having a baby!! I can't really tell anyone else in my circles yet but I feel like I'm going to burst!!! <BR> My beautiful sister (two years older than me) is having another baby. They have three kids already 9, 7 and 4. They adopted their four year old from Haiti and picked her up in Ottawa right after the earthquake. My sister always wanted another baby but her husband was done. So done in fact that he had booked his vasectomy. Well, I guess this baby is supposed to be on this earth because...whoopsi... Sat, 1 Oct 2011 17:55:14 EST I'm confused!? But I'll take it! After a week of seeing NO movement in the scale or my tape measure I finally saw a drop! <BR> Two pounds!! <BR> <em>104</em> <BR> The confusion comes in the disappointment I had after a successful eating and fitness week and seeing no change last time I weighed in. In fact I didn't record it but the scale actually jumped up two pounds and then fluctuated all week! I was more than a little discouraged. I kept on but didn't feel near as motivated. <BR> This past weekend I had NO time to ... Mon, 26 Sep 2011 13:18:57 EST Interesting weekend.... I went back to my childhood home this weekend for a visit with my family. Could I be anymore self-aware?! It was remarkable to see all the bad habits I'd been raised with and how many changes I've made. They're definitely adding up! :) <BR> I was able to eat smaller portions and exercise even though it seemed to make my family upset. <BR> Small victories! It made me aware that I don't want to go back! <BR> It was incredibly fun to run past my old elementary school with my kids in tow (on ... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 12:06:30 EST It's time to grow up! OHHHH!! Is there some way to stamp my feet and throw a tantrum virtually!! That's what I feel like doing!! The past couple of days have been SO challenging! <BR> In some ways I'm encouraged because the going got tough and I was able to stick to most of my new habits but... <BR> I hate the feeling of wanting to soothe myself with food. I have been struggling with resentment towards a family member and even as I type this I can feel anger welling up inside of me. In the past I would find ... Tue, 13 Sep 2011 15:05:00 EST I did it! I am exhausted!! Five full days of lines, animals, kids shows, rides, rodeo and lots of volunteer hours... <BR> My whole family was here and all 17 of us (including kids aged 10 years to 9 months) are now recuperating. It's always bittersweet because you know the end of the fair is the end of summer break for us here. As much as I am looking forward to the routine of school, I really am going to miss the lazy, extremely fun days of summer. <BR> The good news is... <BR> I lost a pound! I a... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 18:55:18 EST It's fair time....but I have a plan!'s fair time!! Around here, fair time has always meant lots of family time, rides, making memories and of course, indulging in far too many delectable, unhealthy treats! In years past, my focus would be on trying to get the most amount of food in to every day. <BR> <BR> But this year...I have a plan. <BR> <BR> Instead of every meal at the fairgrounds being crazy unhealthy I'm planning on packing fruit and veggies along and indulging in one or two things a day. My other plan is to... Wed, 31 Aug 2011 02:00:42 EST It's WORKING!!!! I don't totally know why I'm so in shock... <BR> I stepped on the scale this morning and I'm down another 2 pounds!! WHAAAT!! <BR> It's been an amazing journey so far and tonight demonstrated how important this community is for me. <BR> I was on a bike ride and had to come up a couple of large felt like mountains and I found myself chanting 'Just one pedal at a time...just one step at a's not about the destination but the journey...' and do you know that I made it up bo... Thu, 25 Aug 2011 02:28:07 EST New to me.... I haven't ever done anything like this before but in reading 'The Spark' it looks like the most successful "lifestyle changers" immersed themselves in this community. So here is my effort to give it my all and see how things progress. <BR> I'm feeling such a difference already in the small changes I've made and absolutely agree that the momentum builds and builds. I'm surprised in how my attitude to try new things and dream of higher goals has changed. I've started biking and swimming. In... Tue, 23 Aug 2011 18:15:49 EST