NATALIEGENZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NATALIEGENZ NATALIEGENZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 67 - Why Would You Say That? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5094209 I don't like riding bikes. I never have. It's not that I don't know how, or that I'm not good at it. I just don't like it. I don't like always feeling like I have to catch my balance. I don't like feeling out of control if I go down a steep hill. I don't like being physically unable to make it UP steep hills. I just always feel uncomfortable. <BR> <BR> I also feel like everyone is staring at me thinking, "look at that fat dork on the bike." I do not think people who ride bikes are dorks, and... Wed, 10 Oct 2012 15:28:48 EST Day 58 - 1st of the Month and I'm Recommitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5082527 So it's October 1st, which means I've been active on SparkPeople for nearly two months, and I don't have much to show for it. I feel like so many of the articles I read on here talk about how the weight and inches fall off so easily at first and then eventually you hit a plateau. Well in the last two months not only have I not lost weight, even a little near the start, but I haven't plateaued either. I've gained weight. Not a ton, but an overall gain is NOT the goal. In total, since August 5t... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 16:38:20 EST Day 57 - Not Gaining, Not Complaining http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5080680 This morning my weight and body fat percentage were exactly what they were last Sunday morning. To the tenth of a pound and tenth of a percentage point. The goal is to lose weight, yes, but I have done nothing but steadily gain gain gain little by little since starting this program, so a week at exactly the same place as the week before is actually progress for me. <BR> <BR> Also, I know I haven't been following my program to the letter. Early in the week I got a craving for chocolate chip ... Sun, 30 Sep 2012 14:25:16 EST Day 53 - An Addendum http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5076005 I was in a hurry when I wrote my blog post earlier today, and I don't think my opinions about fat shaming came across correctly, so I would like to make an addendum. What I said earlier is still true, but there's more to it than that. <BR> <BR> The most important thing about fat shaming is that it is wrong. Why? Because it is hurtful, unproductive, and generally detrimental. Even well intentioned fat shaming (e.g. the Georgia Strong4Life campaign) is ineffectual. It may aim to create a healt... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 15:48:56 EST Day 53 - I'm Here! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5075817 It's been a week and a half since I last blogged, and about a week since I gave my all to a work out, but I'm not counting this as a starting-over, it's just that I wasn't doing great for a little while, but now I can do better. I may need to ease myself back into my workouts a little, but, for instance, tonight I can commit to either walking 40 minutes on the treadmill as part of my training program for the Trick-or-Treat Trot, or I will do a Cardio Blast workout, since I don't totally feel ... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 13:12:25 EST Day 43 - Week Seven Check In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5061469 I can't believe I've been committed to SparkPeople for six full weeks now. I've only missed spinning the SparkWheel once this whole time, and that was because this week was horrible and even though I was logged on to SparkPeople I guess I just forgot. <BR> <BR> But today was my week seven weigh in, and no surprises here, I've gained weight. Not a lot, mind you. I was at 181.8 last Sunday morning and this morning I hit 182. Really a .2lb fluctuation is probably more a result of the scale bein... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 11:39:50 EST Day 42 - The Winn-Dixie Dilemma http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060561 Grocery shopping for me is always a double edged sword, which is maybe why I avoid it like the plague (or maybe I just hate walking back to my apartment laden with groceries). On the one hard, grocery shopping lets me make healthy choices about what I'm going to eat and acts as a motivator to eat better, on the other hand, it is an ambush of all the delicious things I want to eat that I know I shouldn't. Maybe one serving of potato chips or one chocolate chip cookie from the bakery wouldn't k... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 15:59:08 EST Day 42 - Looking Up? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5060448 So I still feel like crap, but I'll be damned if I'm not trying my best to put this week behind me. <BR> <BR> Today I woke up, feeling miserable, and told myself I was going to fight through it. Miserably, haha. <BR> <BR> I made some coffee, ok a lot of coffee, and fooled around online a bit. I did my SparkCoach program for the day, and one of the sections is check-ins, where I had to admit that yesterday my nutrition, fitness, motivation, and overall "sticking to my plan" levels were all 1... Sat, 15 Sep 2012 13:42:45 EST Day 41 - Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5058851 Ok so these are some things that are on my mind, though in no particular order. <BR> <BR> 1. I realize I have been a grump lately, and generally no fun to be around. My blog posts have been less than inspirational. There are a couple things I need to say about this. First off, is that I hate being the grump. Whining and moaning are no fun for me, and I know how un-fun I am for everyone else, and that makes it even worse. But the thing is, I just can't fake positivity when there's none to be ... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 09:56:49 EST Day 39 - Natalie's PSA of the Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5055917 I just read this featured article from the front page of SparkPeople: <BR> <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/nutriti<BR>on_articles.asp?id=1703 </link> <BR> <BR> It's all about binge eating. What's normal, what do to to prevent it, what to do if it happens anyway, etc. <BR> <BR> I have never been a binge eater. I admit I eat out of boredom or when I'm feeling lonely, but I don't binge eat. While there is no technical definition of binge eating, since it really depends on the indiv... Wed, 12 Sep 2012 11:26:14 EST Day 37 - I'm Here, But I'm Going to Shut Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5053057 I've made a good habit of blogging every day so I'm not going to let being cranky stop me from keeping that going. <BR> <BR> I realize things in life don't always work out the way you want them to. Things don't always come easy. Yeah, I get that. But when I feel like s**t I'm not going to pretend I don't. I'm going to try to deal with it in a healthy way and let myself feel emotion if I get emotional. <BR> <BR> So this is not a bubbly blog post where I talk about getting back on track and e... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 18:03:02 EST Day 36 - Sorry, Bone to Pick http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5051574 First off, sorry about my super whiny blog yesterday. Well, not sorry really, because a) I meant everything I said, b) it was important to me, and c) it's not like I MADE you read it or anything. I guess I just mean, I ACKNOWLEDGE that it was whiny, and that's unfortunate, but everyone's entitled so their emotions and sometimes when you just have to let them out, putting them out there on the internet is a good, cathartic option. <BR> <BR> With regards to yesterday's post, which, if you didn... Sun, 9 Sep 2012 20:49:57 EST Day 35 - Can't Even Come Up With a Title http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5049685 So I was scrolling through my facebook newsfeed just now, like I do once or twice a day, never paying too much attention to it, when a picture of my ex pops up...and I started sobbing. <BR> <BR> This is not exactly a rational response. My ex and I broke up (and note that *I* dumped *him* and not the other way around) back in November 2010, almost two years ago. We'd been dating for almost two years and were living together, but his drug problems were out of control (I can deal with someone c... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 11:59:44 EST Day 34 - Good Use of a Rest Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5048931 So today is a rest day for the SP Bootcamp DVD, and I decided to follow through with that and let my body recover, so the only exercise I did was walking around campus, and even then not too, too much. But I decided to take advantage of it being a rest day and do something productive that is a lot easier to do when you don't have to worry about working out when you get home. <BR> <BR> I donated blood! <BR> <BR> I have to get blood drawn every two to four months because the cocktail of medic... Fri, 7 Sep 2012 19:08:05 EST Day 33 - Keep On Keepin' On http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5047711 Nothing long, insightful, or revolutionary today. <BR> <BR> I've known for a long time that one key to keeping myself from eating the entire kitchen is to just keep busy, especially my fingers. So today during my long afternoon break during which I go home (it's like 3.5 hours), I did eat what amounted to pretty much a second lunch, but I also got in my Cardio-Scult for Bootcamp. Also, for one of my classes (Language Disorders Across the Lifespan) I have to choose three books from a list of ... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 21:35:34 EST Day 32 - Restraint! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5045934 So I have to face the facts that I'm been eating more than my calorie range "allows" most days this past week. It's also worth noting I've been getting in a lot more exercise than I originally expected I would do back when my calorie range was set, so there's a tiny bit of wiggle room there. <BR> <BR> But still, I've been going over it, so I need to not be so shocked when I step on the scale and the number goes in the wrong direction. <BR> <BR> I just went to the grocery store to pick up a ... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 17:43:36 EST Day 31 - Rest Day (Boring) and Super Exciting Awesome Thing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5044426 So I've pretty much decided to let today be a rest day. Despite the long weekend, I didn't give myself much of a break. I stayed super active (getting some serious use out of Gold's Gym for Wii and hey, I've already met my walk-five-miles-or-more-a-week goal and it's only Tuesday) and I stayed relatively engaged with my schoolwork. Plus therapy on Sunday, which can be exhausting. I wouldn't do it if it wasn't sort of suggested by the Bootcamp DVD. There's no Day 3 program. Half of me says, "J... Tue, 4 Sep 2012 18:56:46 EST Day 30 - Why? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5042586 So SparkCoach today is asking me to write down WHY I want to lose weight. Not just "oh I want to eat right and exercise," but why do I want to change my lifestyle? I feel like in as much blogging and journaling as I do daily, I have never really addressed the real reasons why, and I think I know why that is. I think it's because there's no one reason I want to lose 50 pounds, or eat right, or exercise daily. The "why" is this conglomeration of a whole bunch of things, some of which may seem ... Mon, 3 Sep 2012 14:37:20 EST Day 29 - Eating Intuitively http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041640 When I was in treatment for my eating disorder a big emphasis was placed on "eating intuitively." Calorie counting, while helpful to the average Joe trying to lose weight, can be a scarily dangerous symptom of anorexia, which meant nutrition labels were often ripped off, blotted out, or taped over. At first we had to pay strict attention to meal plans (making sure to get one serving of dairy at each meal, one vegetable at lunch and one at dinner, fruit at every meal, etc.) but eventually it w... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 21:06:59 EST Day 29 - Walking and 28 Day Bootcamp DVD http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5041441 So this is a fun fact: I just started with a new therapist here in Gainesville. Her office is 1.8 miles away from my apartment. I do not have a car, or even a bike for that matter (that second part it my choice, I just don't feel comfortable riding bikes in the street). That means I walk 3.6 miles every Sunday. I walk about 3 miles an hour, sometimes a little speedier, but it's super hot out, so it's about 35 minutes each way. While the negatives include having to wake up pretty early on a Su... Sun, 2 Sep 2012 17:13:47 EST Day 28 - Sep 1st Can Only Mean... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039956 ...monthly check-ins! <BR> <BR> Ok yeah, technically I started on August 5th, not the 1st, but my OCD tendencies are insisting that I do all my monthly check-ins on the first of the month. It's only a few days difference, and it will only be this one month. So I'm just going to go ahead and put all the numbers out there and then tell you what I think about them. <BR> <BR> WEIGHT (technically my weekly weigh-in is tomorrow morning, but again with the OCD, I needed a complete monthly record, ... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 12:00:57 EST Day 27 - Looking Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5039127 Ok first off, thank YOU for being so supportive when I've been so down these last few days. Yes, YOU. Mostly the YOUs who commented so helpfully on my blog entries, telling me things weren't completely ruined but also being realistic and not ignoring that I had had a couple bad days. Your comments helped immensely to get my head screwed on straight. But even if YOU didn't comment, thank YOU anyway just for being a member of SparkPeople, because it is the community aspect of this website that ... Fri, 31 Aug 2012 17:40:18 EST Day 26 - Ready for Bed, Pretty Much Always http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5038025 There is some small part of my brain that is rational, and that part of me knows that going (significantly) over my calorie range two days in a row does not mean that all the work I have done has been for naught, nor does it mean I shouldn't try again tomorrow. Yes, that part of my brain exists. <BR> <BR> But let me tell you, most of my brain is strictly emotional, and that very large portion of my brain "knows" that after last night's mini-binge of pizza and beer, today HAD to be a pick-you... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 21:28:01 EST Day 26 - Thanks SparkCoach http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5037291 Ok, so I just logged into SparkCoach, and this is the Daily Visualization: <BR> <BR> For today's visualization, think about the last time you got off track with your diet. What caused you to get derailed from your good intentions? Imagine rewinding the memory, but taking a different path where you make better choices. Think of this exercise the next time you're in danger of falling off the wagon. <BR> <BR> It's just too fitting after what happened last night. Presumably the rest of SC today... Thu, 30 Aug 2012 11:00:57 EST Day 25 - Fail http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036667 I just feel like a complete failure. I just had a bad day. Just felt crappy and down all day long. Like I said, I had an exhausting psych appointment, and I don't know, I just couldn't get my energy up at all for the rest of the day. <BR> <BR> I did walk a few miles to/from my appointment, I did my bootcamp video, and I even did a Cardio Blast video. <BR> <BR> But tonight when it came to dinner, I was just craving pizza. And not Smart One's pizza, but like, serious, super greasy, super deli... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 22:00:17 EST Day 25 - Can I Go to Bed? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5036275 I'm just not feeling it today. I'm really not. I had to wake up super early to get to an 8am appointment with my new psychiatrist. I ended up having to walk about a mile even after getting off the bus. The appointment itself was just exhausting, because it was two hours long and we had to go over my whole mental health history, including all the medications I've ever been on and how I reacted to them, and all my hospitalizations and manic episodes, plus my history with anorexia and how that's... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 15:53:16 EST Day 24 - Love is in the Air, Just Not the Air in my Vicinity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5034460 Being back on a college campus means having my #1 confidence buster in my face CONSTANTLY. And by that I mean dating. In all shapes and forms. I'm living in a town of 50,000 students and while I know this isn't true, it feels like every single person I walk by is holding hands with their bf/gf, or is out getting laid at frat parties, or is enjoying the perks of having a friend with benefits (SP won't let me use profanity). One of the girls in my cohort is even happily married. I know a few of... Tue, 28 Aug 2012 10:31:27 EST Day 23 - Mac and Cheese! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5033649 I'm treating myself to good old, out of the box, mac and cheese tonight, and a Blue Moon. Ok seriously, I had a really good day nutrition wise, I want to share. <BR> <BR> Breakfast: 1/2 cup 1% cottage cheese, 1/2 cup raspberries, 2 cups coffee w/ skim milk and 1 tsp sugar <BR> <BR> Lunch: 1 serving pita chips with 2 tbsp roasted garlic hummus, 1 large granny smith apple, 1 low fat string cheese, 8 oz V8 V-Fusion <BR> <BR> Snack: 9 baby carrots (1 serving), 1 oz Greek yogurt with ranch <BR>... Mon, 27 Aug 2012 19:36:54 EST Day 22 - Scales and Therapy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5031878 Stepped on the scale this morning for my "official" Sunday morning weigh-in, and I'd actually gained .6 lbs since last Sunday. That means that in three weeks working my butt off at this program I've lost less than half a pound total. <BR> <BR> And you know what? It's irritating. I can't lie and say it doesn't bother me a little, because it does. I'd like to see progress on the scale. But luckily I have part of my brain that lives in a rational world, along with all the resources on SparkPeop... Sun, 26 Aug 2012 15:40:04 EST Day 21 - Further Proof That the Scale is a Liar http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030630 I've always known (well, I say always, I mean ever since entering recovery from an eating disorder) that scales are liars. At best, they offer one possible and very inexact means to measure progress, at worst they flat out lie. Yesterday I blogged about how I know this new healthy lifestyle is affecting me, despite not seeing the number on the scale change. Today I blog about how the scale just lies. <BR> <BR> So when I woke up this morning and wandered into the bathroom, I stepped on the sc... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 14:57:48 EST Day 20 - Screw the Scale http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5029281 Today's SparkCoach action step (yes I'm still doing SparkCoach, I like it, what can I say?) is to blog about the ways I can tell things are looking up without looking at the scale. What's funny is that I weighed myself unofficially (I only record my Sunday morning weigh ins for consistency's sake) and I had lost about half a pound, so something, but not the full pound I'm counting on. So I figure this will be a good exercise. It'll prepare me for this Sunday when I will most likely still be a... Fri, 24 Aug 2012 12:10:36 EST Day 19 - Practically a Record http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5028361 Ok well first I'll say this: I had pizza for dinner. Papa John's. It was awesome. I just love trashy food. I can't help it! But here's the thing: I had one slice of pizza for dinner. Not two. Not half a pizza. Not a whole pizza. If I were to tell you I'd never eaten an entire pizza in one night I would be lying. It's happened. But tonight I just enjoyed my one slice of delicious delicious cheesy goodness. <BR> <BR> Now I'm home eating a Caesar salad and indulging a little with a glass of win... Thu, 23 Aug 2012 19:43:29 EST Day 18 - I'm a Graduate Student Now! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5027028 I finally had actual classes today. Monday and yesterday were just orientation days for my department. Today I had a three hour "bootcamp" in the morning, followed by a Fundamentals of Hearing course, followed by an Intro to Statistics class. Somehow I made it through all of high school and college without taking a stats class, and apparently that's not ok. <BR> <BR> So yeah, the classes were mostly just going over syllabi, but I feel like a student again. And not an undergrad! Sure I'm taki... Wed, 22 Aug 2012 21:45:41 EST Day 17 - Looking Up, Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025386 I am feeling great. <BR> <BR> Ok no. I'm still feeling rotten. My head cold is just as bad as ever. The cats are drowning in used tissues that I've been throwing on the floor because the trash can is too far away. <BR> <BR> But really, I feel so much better! <BR> <BR> I ate some ramen (not the healthiest, but it's kind of like chicken soup, right?) and got a little burst of energy, so I did my cardio! I did one of the workouts from Cardio Blast. I planned on doing two, but the ten minute k... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 20:10:21 EST Stage 2? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025226 Hey guys, I have a question to throw out there to anyone who might know the answer. When and how does one advance beyond the Stage 1 or "Fast Break" stage in the SparkPeople world? I thought Fast Break was two weeks long, but I've been active longer than that now, and I'm curious as to what comes next. Will it put me in the next phase automatically or do I have to do something? Tue, 21 Aug 2012 17:04:12 EST Day 17 - Help! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5025067 I'm putting out a general appeal for help here. I don't know what to do at all. <BR> <BR> I have a MISERABLE head cold. I know everyone's had one of these before. The kind where it takes everything in you to get out of bed and do what is minimally required of you. It's not the flu, it's just a cold, so you can't just say "well, I've got a roaring fever and I need to stay in bed." But still, everything sucks. <BR> <BR> First off, I want junk food. And lots of it. Not junk food so much as com... Tue, 21 Aug 2012 14:38:11 EST Day 16 - Sick and Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5023837 Well, I have internet, but no wireless. Hopefully that gets settled tomorrow. For now I'm parked in the kitty litter corner because that's where the ethernet cable goes. At least I am SO SICK with a MISERABLE COLD that I can't smell it. <BR> <BR> Today was the first day of classes for me here at the University of Florida (officially a graduate student! woo!). Technically it was only "orientation" but since it was run by my professors, I had to take notes, and lasted almost seven hours, I'm g... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 18:56:40 EST Day 15 - Belated! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5023804 August 19th, 2012 @4:57 PM <BR> <BR> I am writing this because I feel like blogging motivates me, but I won't have internet until tomorrow at the earliest, so I guess I'll post it then. <BR> <BR> So I'm all moved in, as mentioned previously. Everything is unpacked. I went to Target and got all that little stuff you never realized you needed and blew nearly $400 and then went to the grocery store and went through another $200. At least that chunk that went towards groceries went to wholesome... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 18:33:09 EST Day 14 - All Moved In! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021204 Some good news and some bad. <BR> <BR> Bad news, I didn't get my bootcamp workout in today, and I ate about 100 calories over. And part of the bootcamp challege is doing an extra workout video this week, something besides the 10 minute videos and the cardio. I definitely didn't this week, but maybe if I squeeze it in tomorrow I can pretend it counts. <BR> <BR> Good news, I DID manage to get in my cardio tonight! I went for about a 20 minute walk with my dad. Nothing super rigorous, but some... Sat, 18 Aug 2012 23:05:35 EST Day 12 - Prioritizing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5018381 Ok, so it's 4:45 and I have to face it. Doing my cardio is not an option today. I did my bootcamp strength video, and I will do five minutes of stretching before bed since that's sort of become my nighttime routine, but the cardio is not going to happen. <BR> <BR> 1. I can't do my walk/run like usual because it's been thunderstorming all day. Even if it did let up and I thought it was safe to go out for half an hour, my road would be drenched. I live out in the middle of nowhere on a dirt ro... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 16:52:37 EST Day 11 - ADLs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5016671 ****This is a very long entry. If you don't want to read the grimy details, skip down to the very last paragraph where I summarize and make my point.**** <BR> <BR> Do you know what ADLs are? I didn't. Not for a long time. Back when I was in an inpatient facility for my eating disorder this one counselor would talk about how important it is to do your ADLs every single day. I just stared at him blankly most days when he said this but eventually asked another patient what on earth he was talki... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 13:03:37 EST Day 10 - It Just Happens http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5015573 Despite my low cal day yesterday and the best walk/jog I've done yet, the scale is stuck firmly at 180. Better than gaining I guess, but still not great. <BR> <BR> Today started slow. Couldn't bring myself to do my bootcamp video this morning (still need to fit it in tonight), and I just didn't have any motivation to do anything for most of the day. Plus the heat. UGH. <BR> <BR> But I had an eye appointment at the vision center in Wal-Mart this afternoon, and afterwards, I decided to go gro... Tue, 14 Aug 2012 19:14:06 EST Day 9 - Crazy! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5014217 Guys, an amazing thing happened today. It got to be near 9pm and even though I wasn't starving, or even very hungry at all, I'd only eaten around 800 calories all day! I was shocked. I didn't feel like I was depriving myself. I had a huge (ok normal, but it felt huge) bowl of oatmeal for breakfast and didn't skip the brown sugar, and all day I'd been munching on berries and grapes. I'd been snacking on some low fat cheese, too, and for dinner I made two mini pizzas out of a whole wheat Englis... Mon, 13 Aug 2012 21:10:02 EST Day 8 - Am I Cheating? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012211 I have a dilemma, and I could use some advice. <BR> <BR> Here's the deal. In the SparkCoach (I'm taking advantage of the free trial) video today Coach Nicole talks about SMART goal. That is to say "Specific, Measurable, Attainable, Realistic, Timely" goals. In the video, I forget if she was talking about the A or the R, but whatever, she mentioned that maybe while we would like to lose 2 lbs a week until we reach our goal, that might not be attainable. Or realistic. I forget. Again, whatever... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 14:43:34 EST Day 7 - Going Strong http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5011479 So last day of what I have dubbed "My Last Ever Return to SparkPeople" and I'm holding up ok. Here are some things worth mentioning: <BR> <BR> 1. I am going to weigh myself tomorrow morning but I don't anticipate having lost any weight. In fact, it's likely that I'll have gained a pound or two. I'm ok with this. There are a lot of factors involved, not the least of which being that Saturday is my "day off" or "rest day" or whatever, where I don't do any cardio at all, but I still have the sa... Sat, 11 Aug 2012 22:48:29 EST Day 6 - The Grocery Store http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5010237 So things have been pretty consistently ok in the fitness department this week. Today I stepped back and realized I really need to look at not really how much I'm eating, because I don't eat that much food in general, but at what I'm eating. <BR> <BR> I eat JUNK. Let's face it, when the healthiest thing you can say about yourself and your eating habits is that you get all your protein from milk and cheese...well, uhoh. <BR> <BR> So today I asked my mom, whose eating habits I have always adm... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 21:17:40 EST Day 5 - Shopping! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5008815 Started the day out by trying my mom's Bar Method dvd. I hated it. I did stick it out for 30 minutes, but it was just unpleasant and I don't think I'll be doing it again. <BR> <BR> I had a dentist's appointment this afternoon, so I put off doing anything else until after that. But what did I do immediately after that? I went out and bought myself a ton of work out clothes that I feel comfortable in. Sports bras and tank tops and capri cut yoga pants that I can run (ok walk) in. <BR> <BR> I ... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 21:05:33 EST Day 4 - Long Live Cornball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5007122 So after my last blog entry about an hour ago, I decided to man up and face the elements. Unfortunately, I could not find my shoes anywhere. Wait...wait...that's another story, and not the point of this entry, so I'll put the my-mom-and-the-passive-aggressive-shoe story aside and just say I ended up going for my walk. <BR> <BR> I really have something to say!! <BR> <BR> As I was walking, about a third of the way through my Couch to 5K app, I started talking to myself. Like, out loud. Well, ... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 18:37:25 EST Day 4 - Slow and Steady, Right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5007049 I restarted (after a year) my SparkPeople program on Sunday, and weighed in and did three or four measurements. My goal was to only weigh in every week. Like every week, but only once a week. Yesterday after working out and really feeling my heart rate up for 30 minutes, I took a shower to cool off and decided to jump on the scale just to see if any of this had been paying off. Well, instead of losing a pound like I was on track to do, I had gained three and a half pounds. How is that even po... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 17:10:28 EST Day 3 - High Five Worthy... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5005478 ...but not over yet. <BR> <BR> After I did my strength training video for the bootcamp challenge, I wanted to go straight out and do my cardio. I knew I was going to compromise and just speed walk instead of even trying running intervals, but I felt like that was ok since I knew I'd still get my heart rate up and that's what matters. I wanted to get it over and done with since my motivation was trickling away. Problem was, it was the hottest part of the day. I live in Florida, and in August,... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 17:35:35 EST