NARNIAROSE2003's SparkPeople Blog NARNIAROSE2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Catching Up....and Revelations Good morning. I'm going to start with the hard part. No matter how long I'm on this journey, there is always something to learn. No matter how far I come, no matter how much progress I make, there is still ME. That's the name of a book I just picked up today and started reading - "It Was Me All Along" by Andie Mitchell. I have barely started it, and it has already been life-changing. She begins the book talking about her 20th birthday. She is making a chocolate cake and she goes into de... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 11:25:31 EST Still Here! Hello to all my faithful Sparkfriends! I am still here, just been crazy busy (I know you are all surprised to hear that!). Doing well - still dealing with some ridiculous personnel stuff at work, but they are so pleased with how I'm handling stuff that on my 90 day mark I will not only be permanent, I'm getting a raise! Also had band practice last night and that went really well. I purposely did NOT bring work home this weekend and I've turned off my work phone. I spent the morning casua... Sat, 16 May 2015 09:54:16 EST Long but Productive Monday Got to the office before 7. Didn't leave until almost 6. But good day. My Team is starting to warm up to me - tough crowd because they've had several managers and they have fallen into some bad work habits. But I think they are starting to respect my knowledge and believe I truly want us to be successful. My two "problem children" were both very receptive today. I even had a "wellness moment" in the Team meeting. Guess what I shared? Yep -! Hope this trend continues. ... Mon, 11 May 2015 20:27:07 EST Happy Mother's Day! Good day. Went shopping for groceries with Gary. Cooked bacon and eggs for breakfast. Worked about 5 hours. Organized my closet when I unpacked my luggage. Practiced keyboards about 45 minutes. Happy Mother's Day everyone! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 10 May 2015 20:10:38 EST A Hell of a Week.... I was at a conference this week in Wilmington. The conference was good, but I did not plan ahead well and I failed in my goals...epically. Actually binged... several times. I don't even remember the last time I binged, and I had recently talked about how good it was that I didn't even think about eating like that anymore. A good lesson for all of us with addictions... it never fully goes away. I can certainly find stressors that probably triggered it - my boyfriend's constant pain and im... Sat, 9 May 2015 08:56:39 EST Happy Sunday! Worked 6 hours today but pleased with my project. Didn't have rehearsal as a band member has a sick mom (get well soon!). Cooked fried fish, asparagus and sweet potatoes with Gary Brenneman​ which turned out delicious! Enjoyed the beautiful weather sitting on the deck with the critters. Ready for another busy week! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 3 May 2015 18:08:58 EST Energizer Bunny Is Losing Energy... Exhausted. Worked 46.5 hours on my regular job, attended 1.5 days of training in Washington, DC, for my Federal contract (not counting travel time), packed for the yard sale last night, unloaded two loads of stuff for the yard sale at 5:30 am this morning, and reloaded one load that I didn't sell (but I still sold over $200 worth of stuff!). I still have a project that has to be ready at 9:00 am on Monday, so tomorrow I'll have to work about 4 hours plus I have band practice. I leave Tuesday ... Sat, 2 May 2015 19:13:04 EST I Got the Runnin' On Empty Sittin' at the Airport with the Power Runnin' Out on My Laptop Blues.. LOL. If I had my guitar with me, I'd totally break into song. Trying to stay awake and do some work while on this layover in Charlotte, NC. Won't get to my hotel until after midnight tonight, then have to be up and ready to catch the shuttle to the training site at 7:30 AM. Somebody remind me that I'm over 50.... <em>40</em> Mon, 27 Apr 2015 20:33:44 EST And....Here We Go! I have a Federal contract that I've had for some time as a child welfare expert reviewing the practice of State DSS agencies. Just after I started my new job, they culled the list of contractors and I made the cut! Then they scheduled training for two days in April. I can't take leave until my 90 days is up, but my boss is allowing me to flex my time this week so I can attend the training in DC. So I worked some today, will work tomorrow, catch my plane to DC in the evening and get to DC ... Sun, 26 Apr 2015 20:12:03 EST Be Ye! So my lovely friend Vic was blogging yesterday about having an imperfect day. I totally get where she was coming from, but it set me to thinking. PERFECT. What exactly does that mean? So...I looked it up. "Perfect - having all the required or desirable elements, qualities, or characteristics; as good as it is possible to be." Hmmm.... am I EVER going to be "as good as it is possible to be?" Is that really what I want? If I'm already there, then what's the point of living? Learning is... Sat, 25 Apr 2015 15:19:54 EST Prayers and Positive Energy Requested Hello, dear friends. I got a call from my oldest son tonight. He said that my daughter-in-law had some kind of irritation on her face. She went to the doctor and they said it was shingles. Due to that diagnosis, they did an ultrasound. Apparently, there is a possibility that she has a blighted ovum. He said they are not 100% sure and are going to do another ultrasound next week. If it is, that would mean a miscarriage, but would not mean that they should have any issues conceiving in t... Fri, 24 Apr 2015 20:14:22 EST Crazy Busy...but it's almost Friday! Wow, work is nuts. Fortunately, I love my boss and the work. AND tomorrow is Friday! Plus I'm in love. My boyfriend is the best and makes me so happy. Oh, and I got a new keyboard in the mail for the new band! So excited! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 23 Apr 2015 21:14:05 EST A Donkey Story I really like my new boss. She's a very direct, no frills kind of boss - the kind that used to terrify me because I have such a hard time with even constructive criticism. But she has learned me quickly, and I've seen her soften up just to help me. I really appreciate that kind of boundary setting that commands respect, teaches and still makes the person approachable. Anyway, at our Management Team meeting this morning, she shared this story <BR> <BR> One day a donkey fell into a well. ... Wed, 22 Apr 2015 19:44:30 EST Tired... Worked until 8:30. Tired. Still hanging tough....just tired. Hope you all had a great day. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 21 Apr 2015 21:02:26 EST Confession (Again) Alright, so I'm looking at the scale - which is why I knew that I lost 3 pounds over the weekend. But I had read an SP article where recording your weight daily was helpful to someone else. So I'm making peace with the scale. I think it's fine if I feel the need to weigh frequently (even daily) because I KNOW that it can fluctuate - often - even when I'm still making all the right choices. In fact, one of the things that I've learned is that when I make sure and eat MORE as SP suggests wh... Mon, 20 Apr 2015 19:33:27 EST Love Meeting My Goals! Today I had four goals when I woke up: 1. Finish some HR stuff for work. 2. Cut the grass. 3. Rehearse with the new band. 4. Have drinks with my friends. Feeling great because I accomplished all four! Got the HR stuff done quick. I really enjoyed cutting the grass - not a lot but it gives me a good short workout. The new band looks like a fit! Felt so good to be playing and singing again. This will be a new challenge as well. There is another girl singer already in the band, so I'll still be ... Sun, 19 Apr 2015 21:00:34 EST Man Up! Today was a great day. My agency has a Male Involvement component focusing on engaging and empowering fathers. Today we had our first ever Man-Up Conference! We had great speakers from our community partners, from fathers and from mothers who we also hosted to encourage them in supporting the males in their children's lives. Such an honor to be involved in this, and it does my heart and spirit good to once again be doing the kind of meaningful work I love. <BR> <BR> In other news, I ha... Sat, 18 Apr 2015 19:53:28 EST Finding the Music Again! Some time ago, I had a falling out with my band in Raleigh. So it's been awhile since I was playing and singing regularly. That is without a doubt my biggest love - and I miss it. So I placed an ad on Craigslist to find new friends in the music scene in New Bern. Got quite a few responses and I'm going Sunday to check on of them out! Will let you know how it goes. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 16 Apr 2015 20:44:51 EST Exciting News! My son called me a little bit ago - he had called me three times, but I didn't have the phone on. "MOM, I've been trying to call you! Did you get the picture?" I looked at my phone and saw a text from my daughter-in-law. It had a picture of TWO pregnancy tests and they were POSITIVE! I'm going to be a Grandmother again! This is their first child so he is ecstatic. He is going to be 28 in June so his biological clock has been a-ticking! LOL. Very happy news. I was also the first one ... Wed, 15 Apr 2015 21:14:13 EST Manic Monday SO MUCH going on at work right now, but I'm going with the flow. Continuing my healthy habits because I know when life gets hectic, the worst thing I can do is fall off the wagon. There was cake, chocolates and a cupcake just for me (late birthday present from my employer) and I didn't eat ANY of it. I even rode home with the cupcake (took it to my boyfriend) and didn't touch it. GO ME! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 13 Apr 2015 20:22:15 EST Cooking Up Some Stuff! Did some chores. Enjoyed the beautiful sunshine outside with a cup of coffee, my puppies, and some binoculars so I could watch the birds. Boiled eggs and packed stuff for healthy lunches this week. Going to cook flounder for dinner - fried in panko for Gary and sauteed for me. Will also make some fresh spinach and spaghetti squash. I have never cooked spaghetti squash but found a recipe in Sparkrecipes to bake it in the oven with Garlic and Olive Oil: <BR> <BR> <link>recipes.sparkpeop... Sun, 12 Apr 2015 14:39:18 EST A Good Reminder <img src=""> Sat, 11 Apr 2015 19:08:25 EST Long Hours Worked about 10 hours today. Tired but content with the work I did this week. Not going to do anything I don't have to this weekend. Looking forward to spending some time with my love. Hope everyone has a great weekend! Fri, 10 Apr 2015 21:00:26 EST Double the Fun! So I got an email from the iFit people today and they are going to send me a new one! So I'm going to wear both the iFit and my Spark tracker - see if they are measuring the same. Worked late today and have to work late tomorrow, but it's so good to be back doing work with families. I am enjoying my job and starting to relax a little - getting over my PTSD from the last job. It's a good feeling! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 9 Apr 2015 20:30:47 EST SparkFit! So I decided to go ahead and order a SparkFit regardless of what happened with my iFit. I think they are going to replace it - so this way I will always have a back up if one of them gets sick again or needs charging. Here's to healthy planning! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 8 Apr 2015 19:58:51 EST iFit is Sick.... I haven't been able to wear my iFit for the last few days. That totally sucks since I've worn it every day this year. *sigh* I have contacted tech support and I hope they can fix it. If not, I think I'm going to get the SparkFit. It would be nice to have something that syncs with the website. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 7 Apr 2015 19:59:18 EST Confession.... OK....I cheated. I broke down and stepped on the scale. The good news is... it was good news. BUT I'm going to try my best not to peak again before April 30. On to healthy living! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 6 Apr 2015 20:20:41 EST Feeling Content Quiet and happy day. Went for a drive towards Oriental. I so love being near water all the time now. Then to New Bern to have soft shell crab for lunch. Came home and made ham and sweet potatoes for dinner with deviled eggs. Also made a carrot cake and going to eat a small piece in a bit. Beautiful weather. Couldn't ask for more. Happy Easter all! Sun, 5 Apr 2015 19:18:47 EST Happy Easter! Spent the day unpacking some boxes and putting family pictures into frames. Just the way I wanted to. Happy Easter everyone! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 4 Apr 2015 21:22:07 EST Waiting to Weigh. I decided that the scale was getting too much attention from me. I was more worried about what I WASN'T doing and what the scale WASN'T doing, than focusing on what I AM doing. I AM making good nutrition choices. I AM moving when I can and doing exercise regularly. I AM doing my Sparkpoints. I AM planning for future and my fitness goals are always first and foremost. I AM a success story already, even if I never lose another pound. EVEN IF I NEVER LOSE ANOTHER POUND. So scale, I'll se... Fri, 3 Apr 2015 16:49:10 EST Cha Cha Y'all! I love my Sparkfriends - thanks to PJ and Cruisegal for your ongoing support and for "dancing" this dance with me! I love the "Cha Cha" thing that PJ shared - two steps forward, 1 step back...but just keep on dancing, right? <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 31 Mar 2015 20:07:33 EST Shot a Blaze of Glory <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> Yeah - 7 day exercise streak, 30 day login streak...and on Friday I got shot down.... <BR> <BR> But it's ok! Because I'm up again. Not going to dwell. I think it was a combination of fatigue and hormones. Those will come and go. It's what I do the majority of the time that is the deciding factor...and..... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 30 Mar 2015 20:28:59 EST Day 7 and 10,000+ steps! It has always been so hard for me to do the everyday exercise during the work week. Just too easy to "talk myself out of it" on the way home. Well, making the commitment to do 30 minutes and continuing to say it out loud is keeping me on track. Day 7 under my belt! So glad tomorrow is Friday. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 26 Mar 2015 20:32:58 EST Busy Night, Priorities Right On the way home, I was stressing in my brain about doing my walk. Nipped it in the bud and went straight for my tennis shoes and the doggie leashes and got it done. After, I intended to do some work to get caught up for tomorrow, but my son called and really needed to talk. An hour later, I decided that doing my Sparkpoints was more important - all work and no play, right? There's a lot of sense in that simple saying. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 25 Mar 2015 21:26:46 EST Staying the Course I got a 5-day streak going today, despite the cold that is trying it's best to get me down. Going to bed early tonight. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 24 Mar 2015 19:38:59 EST The Best Laid Plans.... ...will get you where you need to go! I HAD thought that this would be the title of my blog because I was NOT going to meet my goals for the day. Well, I DID! The day at work was incredibly busy and I am fighting off a cold. I didn't get to take a lunch hour and on the way home, I begin to think, "I need to do work tonight to stay caught up... I can't possibly fit in exercise...I am getting sick....blah blah blah." Then I thought, "You made a commitment to yourself. It's ONLY 30 minutes.... Mon, 23 Mar 2015 21:21:19 EST Saying it out Loud One of the key things for me in staying accountable is making sure that I "say out loud" to as many people as I can, that I am committed to making healthy choices. That way I know they are watching to see if what I do and what I say go together. I also love the added bonus that many people seem to get motivated and inspired to make their own changes - makes me feel good to hear them say that. My current "out loud" message is that I am trying to reinstate my everyday practice of 30 minutes ... Sun, 22 Mar 2015 11:58:13 EST Sunshine and Shopping! Took off from the house at 7:00 AM. Drove up Hwy. 55 toward Oriental, NC - and there isn't much happening that way as far as cool treasure-hunting stores. So we had breakfast at a local restaurant and headed back toward New Bern. Went to my favorite furniture store (Samantha's!) and the antique mall. Found some lovely Cape Cod water goblets in peacock blue for my dining room! May have found some end tables and a coffee table for the living room but not sure yet. Took the doggies for a wa... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 16:35:29 EST Friday! Had a great week. Yesterday, for the first time since January 5th, I forgot my iFit!! OMG - I felt so bad. It was like leaving a friend behind. But I still kept my healthy habits. My son (who also struggles with eating issues, although he is in denial) is visiting and I actually got him to do a 30 minute walk with me and the doggies - beautiful weather this afternoon after the rain poured all morning. Supposed to be sunny tomorrow - and we're going treasure-hunting! Looking forward to s... Fri, 20 Mar 2015 17:22:58 EST Fitness and Food Blog? Oh, yeah.... I've been so caught up in other things, I totally forgot that I'm really supposed to be talking about my fitness and healthy lifestyle habits here. The good news is that I have thus far this year, pretty much consistently stuck with my goals. I have worn my iFit every day and counted my steps, been making healthy eating choices, doing the "little things" (parking farthest away, drinking my water, etc.) for the ENTIRE YEAR. Feeling pretty darn good about that too! I was worrying about the ... Tue, 17 Mar 2015 19:37:37 EST Happy Birthday, Gary! Today is my sweetie's birthday! Mon, 16 Mar 2015 19:51:13 EST Beautiful Day Today Tomorrow is my boyfriend's birthday, so we basically celebrated today since I have work tomorrow. We went for a drive down to the beach and did some thrift store shopping along the way. Found some neat things for the house, had lunch, and really enjoyed the sunshine! I cannot WAIT for it to get warm again permanently. Sun, 15 Mar 2015 20:28:57 EST An Inspiring Week! I'm back from the convention I attended this week for my new job. Really tired! But will share much more with you tomorrow. There were so many moments that not only inspired me for my job, but also for my personal journey. Pics and more to come! Fri, 13 Mar 2015 20:05:46 EST Such a Beautiful Day! The weather today was GLORIOUS. I still spent all day cleaning and unpacking boxes, but I had the windows open and sat out in the sunshine with the doggies while taking breaks. Got the office/craft/music room mostly done so that feels good. Exceeded my 10,000 steps again, too! This week I have two days in the office and then I go to RALEIGH (who'd a thunk it?) for a conference for three days - LOL. Looking forward to that. We are having a formal affair on Thursday night to honor a lady ... Sun, 8 Mar 2015 20:04:19 EST Another Busy Saturday Didn't get it all done yet. *sigh* But I think my expectations are unrealistic. I spent all day cleaning bins in the garage, sorting, stacking and moving stuff around again. Got in WAY over my steps goal (16,000+) and feeling really tired. Tomorrow I hope to get the office in order and get a couple of pictures hung. Tonight we get to sleep in the new king size bed! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 7 Mar 2015 19:18:29 EST Glad It's Friday! Going to continue the quest to unpack the rest of the boxes and get some art on the walls. I hate blank walls! Fri, 6 Mar 2015 19:27:05 EST Ice.... again. Oh, well. At least it's going to be Friday and I'm going to be close by at a conference. Hope everyone has a fun weekend planned! Thu, 5 Mar 2015 19:41:57 EST Back to Work Tomorrow! So the last three days I have exceeded my 10,000 daily steps AND had tons of exercise due to all the moving and cleaning. Feeling very accomplished. It's not all done yet, but at least things are relatively organized. Just have several boxes that still need unpacking and placing AND I can't wait to put up pictures and wall art. I will take pics when I'm all through decorating! Back to work tomorrow... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 3 Mar 2015 19:20:48 EST EXHAUSTED... ...but we're here! Some of the furniture has been delivered, some boxes unpacked. Kitchen is in order. Working on clothes and bathrooms. Still waiting on our bedroom mattress to be delivered, so we are sleeping on the guest bed. LOVE THE NEW HOUSE. Can't wait until all has been done. I have tomorrow to work some more on the house, then back to work on Wednesday. No more energy to write more now.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 2 Mar 2015 20:18:15 EST MOVING DAY TOMORROW! So I know now I'll have to come up with a better strategy should I travel again. I packed my workout clothes, packed food for lunches for work, and basically had it all planned out. What I DIDN'T plan for, was for work to be cancelled due to weather and to be stuck in the hotel room BORED out of my skull. I kept saying to myself, "go exercise." But the weather made me depressed and it was too easy to give in to old habits. Epic fail. I did finally get to start work on Thursday at 11:00 ... Sat, 28 Feb 2015 09:16:23 EST