NARNIAROSE2003's SparkPeople Blog NARNIAROSE2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community The Strengths Perspective I train social workers and part of today's module was about strengths- based family assessments. Basically, it's learning to not just focus on the family's challenges but to look for and build on their strengths. So I'm going to evaluate my day yesterday using the "normal" way my brain would consider it and then using the strengths perspective: <BR> <BR> NORMAL: Today I totally screwed up. I was really tired from not sleeping well so after work, I decided I was going to skip the gym and go ... Thu, 1 Feb 2018 07:08:12 EST Travel Plans Heading to train for the week tomorrow. I cooked and packaged healthy meals to take with me. I've determined there is a Planet Fitness there. I have already planned my days so that I go straight to the gym after training daily, then a healthy dinner after. Had (and will continue to have) discussions with myself that binging is NOT an option this week. Looking forward to a successful week! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 28 Jan 2018 18:10:10 EST A Few Recordings... Recorded some songs for a songwriting contest today. Hope you enjoy! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>W3FLGK8 </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>VS0Tibs </link> <BR> <BR> <link><BR>xGZXjNo </link> <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 28 Jan 2018 15:11:14 EST Planning Ahead for a Win I didn't sleep great last night and yesterday I ate carbs I wasn't planning, so I was a little down this morning. Upon waking, my "depressed" mind wanted to forego going to the gym. Thank the gods for my wonderful husband who said, "You're going to the gym today, right?" When I hesitated, he gave me a great pep talk. All of this is with my permission. He loves me no matter what, but I've asked for his help to remind me during just such a time as this morning. It was just what I needed. ... Sat, 27 Jan 2018 18:34:28 EST Cooking and Planning Tomorrow I'm out of town next week for work, so tomorrow I'll be spending some time with my Sparkpeople Cookbook. Going to cook some healthy things to take with me for lunches. Going to save money AND calories. Win win! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 26 Jan 2018 21:26:19 EST Still good! Another great day. Took advantage of the nice weather to take two walks - one with hubby and the dogs, then a longer power walk on my own. Cooking all kinds of goodies for hubby and son, but NOT eating them. Go me! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 23 Jan 2018 17:33:21 EST Challenges I got the email from Spark Guy about his new challenges - and I'm doing them all! Not overwhelming since they are all a part of my normal regimen anyway. Today was a great day. I cooked turkey dinner for the fam, but only ate a 1/2 cup of potatoes (instead of a metric butt ton). I also made a crock pot of yummy chicken and dumplings and will be eating NONE. Totally ate on plan today and will do the same tomorrow. I also went to the gym and increased my time on the elliptical as well as ... Mon, 22 Jan 2018 21:42:04 EST Working to Make Healthy Choices the First Think So the weekend has been...interesting. Friday was great. Worked a half day, then went to the grocery store with my hubby. Got a lot of food since my younger son Joshua was coming to visit for the week. Oh! And I also bought a Sparkpeople Cookbook! I got a lot of ingredients for the recipes I found there and I'm pretty excited about trying them. I'll let you know what I make and how it turns out. Then I went to the gym and had a great workout. Since I got back on the horse, working out... Sun, 21 Jan 2018 20:40:57 EST Home Training was cancelled. Made it home ahead of the storm. Still got on the treadmill early this morning. Expecting 2-4". <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. <BR> Wed, 17 Jan 2018 16:55:12 EST Snowed In? Had a good day today. Woke up early and went ahead and did my workout this morning since I was planning to have dinner with a friend this evening. Training today went well. Good class and some really nice folks. It looks like we're getting some snow so they went ahead and canceled training for tomorrow. Which means I'm stuck in my hotel room until Thursday morning when it is hoped that we can resume our class again. So I had A nice dinner and then went to the fresh market and got some health... Tue, 16 Jan 2018 22:14:02 EST On the Road Again! I'm out of town until Friday. I went to the gym today before I left town and met with my trainer. She gave me a really good four days straight training plan that I think will be very simple at first. I have noticed that clearly I've lost some ground as far as fitness, but the good news is I know that that doesn't last long. So I'm not going to let that discourage me. Tonight on my way to the Hotel, I ordered something from Panera bread. They have some good healthy options. I've also realized... Mon, 15 Jan 2018 19:51:32 EST Emotional Crash Not sure what happened yesterday....ok, well, actually that's a lie. I know exactly what happened. Sometimes my husband gets impatient when we are doing things and in his frustration says things like, "Don't do that, why did you do that?" Not a big deal and he always is so sweet afterwards, but I just CRASH. I immediately get my feelings SO hurt and find myself saying things like "Because I'm stupid, I guess!" and then just going into total pout mode. <BR> <BR> Yep - let me introduce you t... Sat, 13 Jan 2018 09:21:46 EST Going Strong into the Weekend I got home yesterday from being out of town and am pleased to say that I was victorious in keeping my healthy choices. That's HUGE because being alone in a hotel room with TONS of opportunities to eat anything I want... well. You do the math. Anyway, yesterday I rejoined Planet Fitness and today I went. Did the 30 minute express workout which kicked my butt, I'm sad to say. But I know I'll get back in shape quickly. Still doing great on eating. Bought myself some nice workout clothes a... Thu, 11 Jan 2018 15:01:32 EST I'm Enough I don't feel like getting into it too deeply, but I really, really been struggling with not relying on how other people react to me as the measuring stick for my value. I have struggled with that my entire life and just when I think I've gotten better, I realize it's still always under the surface. However, the good news for today is that I'm not allowing that to influence how I treat myself. I'm talking back to the voices in my head and continuing to live with my healthy habits. I'm turning ... Tue, 9 Jan 2018 12:28:14 EST Rocking it! Doing really great. I left home yesterday to come to Raleigh for business. I got here early enough to head over to a local park and walked 2 miles around the lake even though it was in the 20s. I kept my eating plan last night and all day today. When I got done early from work I went straight to the fitness center and worked out. Now heading out to meet coworkers for a healthy dinner. Not sure why, but when I'm in, I'm in. I hope everybody else is having a fabulous week. <BR> <BR> I GOT TH... Mon, 8 Jan 2018 17:54:49 EST Musings and Decisions About July of this past year, I "fell off the wagon." Ok - not really. I SLID off - slowly. Then I made a decision. I decided to STAY off the wagon. At first it was more of just ignoring the voices in my head that reminded me of the healthy habits I had embraced. Then I set time frames - "OK, eat what you want for a couple of weeks, then we'll get back on." I also weighed myself a lot - and when I realized I wasn't gaining weight, that only set the time frames out even further. It the... Sun, 7 Jan 2018 10:51:02 EST Catching Up...Quickly For some reason I'm not that keen to blog, but much has happened. Here's a quick run down: <BR> <BR> Stepmother died suddenly from a heart attack. <BR> Father died from cancer. <BR> Granddaughter was diagosed with autism. <BR> <BR> Obviously, there is much more to each of these stories and I'll write more later. I'm back taking care of myself for the last three days. That's helping me so much. Thanks for all your faithful following. <BR> <BR> I GOT, really... I DO. Fri, 13 Oct 2017 10:50:12 EST Win! Made tons of healthy choices yesterday and feeling good about things! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 20 Sep 2017 12:31:10 EST Healthy Choices I know it's been awhile since I was on here. Thank you to everyone who sent me messages or post it on my page to check on me. I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. It's been a rough several weeks. Had a couple of deaths in my family then some other stressors. But this morning began to make good choices for myself again. I've decided that that's going to be my challenge through the holidays. Healthy choices. Choice I make I'm going to give myself a check. That includes both physical and mental he... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 06:57:57 EST In Control Today Had a great day! Last night after blogging, I had a small episode where I suddenly wanted to eat something. I had some trail mix and ate that, but I didn't stop at one portion. Probably more like 3 (1/4 cup each) which is too much and made my stomach hurt. <BR> <BR> Today I have NOT had those cravings. I started the day with 30 minutes on the treadmill. After work, I went shopping so got in over 13,000 steps today. I also did my 15 minutes of yoga tonight. Ate on plan and feeling grea... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 21:04:33 EST I'm Back Wow. It's been three weeks since I blogged. About that long since I did any concerted exercise. I've been "mini-binging" and pretty much eating whatever for several weeks. It's been 6 months since I lost any weight. In fact, I have re-gained 9 pounds. My ankles are swollen. I've been having trouble sleeping. My left ankle just started hurting and so does my back. <BR> <BR> DUH. <BR> <BR> The only reason ANY of those things have happened is because I CHOSE IT. No idea why. Why? W... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 19:41:47 EST Heat Scary heat! Stay hydrated, folks. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 13 Jul 2017 06:30:59 EST Friday! This has been a great week! Back in control and back to the basics of healthy living. I feel great. This weekend we are going to see some friends play music and then I have a gig on Sunday afternoon. Can't wait! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 7 Jul 2017 08:25:38 EST Words on a Wednesday She walks...deliberately; <BR> Eyes fixed ahead <BR> On her goal. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such power. <BR> Such grace. <BR> <BR> <BR> She lives...deliberately; <BR> Mind all made up <BR> To be more. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such focus. <BR> Such thought. <BR> Such...passion. <BR> <BR> She loves...deliberately; <BR> Seeing the value <BR> In them all. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such comfort. <BR> Such softness. <BR> ... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 07:18:52 EST Happy Fourth! Rode my bike several miles this morning. This was part of the view. Cooked breakfast for Gary and the doggies. Then we went out to look at some furniture and had a lovely lunch at our favorite seafood place. I quit halfway because I was full. So great to be back in control! Last night instead of snacking, I had a protein shake which took care of my night time cravings. <BR> Looking forward to a restful day. Happy Fourth of July! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 4 Jul 2017 14:35:29 EST July - 317 Days Back on Spark! Today marks 317 consecutive days that I've checked in to Spark. Have I had 317 days of perfect choices? NO. Am I healthier today than I was 316 days ago? YES. I am about 40 pounds lighter than I was on that first day. It's not about every small choice - it's about staying the course, no matter what. <BR> <BR> I'M STAYING. <BR> <BR> I'm not on the road the next two weeks (except for one day). My goals are to do at least 30 minutes of morning cardio and about 20 minutes of strength t... Mon, 3 Jul 2017 07:59:27 EST Don't Let BUSY Dictate How You Handle Your BUSINESS Whew! Last week was a whirlwind. First was the news about the new band and getting into high gear to learn ALL the music for three albums. Started a new training curriculum. Went out of town on Monday to do the new training. Drove three hours (round trip) to rehears with the new band while out of town training. Drove straight to SC (4 hours) to see my Dad on Friday. His last visit with his cancer doc wasn't good. They are starting him on a new treatment, hoping to give him at least 1... Sun, 18 Jun 2017 12:00:12 EST ...and Sometimes the Best Things Happen! I wrote my last blog about "Doing the Best Thing For Me." I have been slacking off on my healthy habits and not always making the best choices. I could see that I was declining and had to come up with a new mantra to stop that progression. It is definitely helping! Still struggling with some evening munchie attacks, but I can do this. I'm going to be on the road for the next couple of weeks, and I have that DOWN. <BR> <BR> The other thing I have been struggling with for several months... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 07:15:05 EST Doing the BEST Thing I just noticed that I haven't blogged since June 4th. That says a LOT about where I am right now. I also haven't done any concerted exercise since.... days ago. I'm not eating right all the time. I'm having back pain. I'm stressed. <BR> <BR> I'M NOT BEING THE BEST ME. <BR> <BR> And that's NOT who I am anymore - which is why it feels so uncomfortable! That is SO GREAT, isn't it? So...what the hell is your problem, self? Geez, we can be so stubborn, can't we? I know HOW to do this, ... Fri, 9 Jun 2017 08:14:05 EST What I Really Want to Say... ...I can't. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. <BR> <BR> Sun, 4 Jun 2017 06:23:09 EST The Ritual of Eating So after doing SO GREAT while traveling, I get home and struggle. It's still the evening stuff. I have had the habit of waiting until my hubby goes and gets a snack, because my thought is that it must be "normal" to snack at that time since he is. He would notice "what" I'm eating since I have told him the things I try to stay away from. But he doesn't pay attention to how much I'm eating, so I can happily throw back way more than I should if I desire. For some reason, I DESIRE that stuf... Tue, 30 May 2017 07:40:21 EST Catching Up I was on the road this week and I am happy to report that I had another successful time. I planned​ head and packed my lunch and snack each day. I ate breakfast at the hotel since it was free, but fortunately they had plenty of items that worked. They have boiled eggs, turkey sausage, yogurt and fruit. It was quite yummy! Since I was in the city I used to live in, I connected with friends every night and went out to eat. I Love Sushi and we don't have any good sushi restaurants where I live n... Sun, 28 May 2017 07:21:27 EST Saturday Fun Day Went yard sale-ing this morning. Found some more things for my Fairy Garden. Getting my toes done now. Heading to the Beaufort Music Festival tonight with friends! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 20 May 2017 11:00:40 EST I'm a Baller! Never really liked that term...and that's NOT what I'm talking about. I'm talking about SNOWBALLING. No, no the cold, icy kind. I hate snow. Southern beach bunny girl here! But today I was reminded (again) that when I make just one healthy SNOWBALLS. Especially if I start my day out healthy. Then the rest of the day, all I want to do is keep up the momentum and do well. Not just in eating and exercise - but in everything. I want to pick up things and put them away. I wan... Thu, 18 May 2017 07:18:11 EST Update Had a regular doctor appointment yesterday. I told her I was having a bit of trouble with my mojo. I only lost 1 pound in the last two months. But you know what? She said, "I'M PROUD OF YOU. Don't sell yourself short. Look at all the progress you've made!" What a great doctor! She adjusted my insulin-resistance meds and that's pretty much it. I'm still doing pretty well overall. Plus I will be traveling a lot in the next four months, so it's great to know I already have that plan do... Tue, 16 May 2017 16:35:08 EST Friday! It's overcast and the forecast is for rain today and tomorrow, but I actually feel better. Still struggling with my mojo, but I know it will come back. We're going to our Downtown Art Walk tonight (weather permitting) and I'll play some music with friends. Tomorrow we may go to an antique car show (again weather permitting) and a plant sale. I'm going to start the day with yoga, too. Sunday is supposed to be beautiful! Since all my kids are unavailable, we're going to the beach. Can't ... Fri, 12 May 2017 12:10:25 EST Roller Coaster Not sure what's up. My moods and my motivation have been crazy wonky! Up one minute and down the next. The weather has been a little weird so that might be it. I hate it, though. Time to fake it until I can make it! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 11 May 2017 13:35:52 EST I Have a "Relationship" With Food? - WTH? Many times I have heard, read and even thought about "having a relationship with food." But recently I began to really think about what that means - because I DO. WTH? Why in the world would anyone have a "relationship" with food? Let's consider this further. <BR> <BR> Definition of relationship <BR> 1: the state of being related or interrelated studied the relationship between the variables <BR> 2: the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: such as <BR> a : ki... Sat, 6 May 2017 07:45:53 EST Beauty's Where You Find It Another Edition of "In BED With Tracey" 4/28/17 Fri, 28 Apr 2017 07:10:18 EST In BED With Tracey 4/27/17 My first video blog! BED stands for Binge Eating Disorder. Thanks for watching! Thu, 27 Apr 2017 19:44:26 EST Thank You, Kanye Never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth. But this morning AFTER my power walk, I decided to walk the 4 flights of stairs back to my room. By the third floor I was tired...But then "Stronger" by Kanye West came on my iPod. It gave me the boost I needed! Thanks,Kanye! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 26 Apr 2017 08:00:00 EST An Epiphany or Two... I realized something today about myself. I compare myself to EVERYONE...LITERALLY. I am in a training this week in preparation to deliver the training. As part of the process, everyone in the room was introducing themselves and talking about their experience. I was listening intently when it suddenly hit me...I AM COMPARING MYSELF TO EVERYONE. Someone would say, "I did this for x number of years" and my brain would say, "Oh, it's OK. You did it longer." That went on with every single p... Tue, 25 Apr 2017 20:35:35 EST Travel Starts in Earnest Tomorrow! OK, Spark friends - I need you now! I've started my new job and was at home most of last week. Tomorrow I am on the road for 4 days, then 4 days the next. It will probably be busy like that for most of the next 4 months. I need all your great ideas, all your mojo, prayers, and good thoughts because this will be a challenge! I am very committed to continuing to make healthy choices, but I know that being on the road can certainly and EASILY trigger bingeing for me. I did have one cool ide... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:27:32 EST Gardening Fun! Today was our neighborhood Garden Club Spring Plant Sale. I got there are 7:00 am to help set up tables, set out plants, etc. Then I stayed to help sell. I also got my own plant shopping done and spent 4 hours in the yard planting today. Boy am I exhausted! But the yard is really starting to shape up. It still needs mulch in the beds and more plants, but here are some pics of my progress: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 22 Apr 2017 17:23:41 EST Friday! Fun weekend planned. After court today, we are going to pick out flooring and get a final estimate. Yay! Then to mulch place. Tomorrow is the plant sale. Up at 7 to help with that! Happy weekend everyone! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 21 Apr 2017 08:49:26 EST Court Tomorrow Well, my old job just won't let me go. One of the cases I had is in court tomorrow and they subpoenaed me to testify. *sigh* Oh, well. I get to wear a pretty new dress! LOL <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 20 Apr 2017 19:49:19 EST I'm a Mentor! A good friend of mine went to the doctor this week and got some bad numbers and a lecture from his doctor. Well.... he called me! He has been seeing the difference that my healthy habits have made in my life, so he asked for my help. We went over for dinner (he's a chef - I know, right?) and then I pulled out a SP article and shared some insights to get him started. I gave him some homework to do two small goals (start eating a healthy breakfast and exercise just 10 minutes per day). It... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 20:55:06 EST Weekend Highs and Lows This weekend was my first time traveling. The low was that on Sunday night I was in full binge mode. The good news is that the universe was watching out for me. I went to Chili's and ordered fajitas with no tortillas (not a bad choice), but also ordered guacamole dip and chips. I had every intention of eating it all. I got back to the room and guess what? The guacamole wasn't there. Yep, they forgot to put it in and I didn't notice. LOL. So - I didn't really binge. But later that ni... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 08:43:38 EST Tired but Happy Will write more tomorrow. I can tell I made a great decision to change jobs! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 17 Apr 2017 21:54:44 EST Happy Easter! Skyping with my son in Germany and spending the day with my other son. If only I could talk to my daughter today.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 16 Apr 2017 06:48:51 EST