NARNIAROSE2003's SparkPeople Blog NARNIAROSE2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community No Excuses - I Need Sparkpeople! Hello, SP friends! I'm still here. Let me get the following excuses out of the way: <BR> <BR> 1. I wasn't here because I was SO BUSY at work. <BR> 2. I didn't have time to be on SP because I was TOO TIRED after working so much. <BR> 3. I was taking a break from SP which is OK, right? <BR> <BR> OK. Let's look at each objectively: <BR> <BR> 1. YES, I was busy at work. I was on call for the weekend and worked all day Friday until 11:00 pm, Saturday from about 7:00 am - 8:30 pm, and Sun... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 10:06:44 EST Thanks and Happy Friday! Thank you all so much for your birthday wishes to my hubby! I read every one to him and he was very grateful. You guys are the best! <BR> <BR> I have to work this weekend, but I'm counting the days to my new job. Won't be long! Hope everyone has a safe and healthy weekend. Plan something fun and active! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 17 Mar 2017 11:11:44 EST Happy Birthday, Gary! Today is my husband's 64th birthday. I am SO LUCKY to have found this man. We just got married last year - and I'm 55. I met him in 2012 thinking that finding love at my age was probably just a girlish fantasy. I was also terrified of choosing another man who would treat me badly (my first husband was awful) so I didn't even allow anyone to get close. I broke up with Gary 3 times! Thank the gods he was patient and willing to take me back. He has truly been the best! It took me forever... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 10:42:02 EST Day Off! Having a lovely day. Went to water aerobics today. Then shopping for hubby's birthday tomorrow. Then to lunch with my water aerobic class. Then home to relax. Hoping you all are having a wonderful day! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 15 Mar 2017 16:32:25 EST Today Took a pic today for posterity. This is where I started: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is today: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I don't think I'll ever "feel" the way I look. Don't get that at all and it's really frustrating. But the important part is not how I look, but what I can DO now and how I FEEL. <BR> <BR> I ... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 13:38:09 EST Back to Work 14 more days to be on call... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 13:54:30 EST Music! Had a great time last night hanging with some new friends and some old friends. I played music for a couple of hours and it felt great! They have a gorgeous house right on the water - huge sailboat tied up to their private dock, baby grand piano in the living room, truly a home from a magazine. But they are very nice and unpretentious folks. It was so fun! <BR> <BR> Today hanging with some other friends and watching the "blizzard" we are expecting. LOL. Happy Sunday all! <BR> <BR> I ... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 10:03:34 EST Side Planks! Started the day with yoga. I actually did SIDE PLANKS! When she was first talking us into the move, my body was like, "Yeah, right. You can't do that!" But I pushed up and to my surprise, I PLANKED! <BR> <BR> In other news, we went out last night. I took my guitar and songs. It turns out that there were several other musicians already set up, so I just decided to sit it out. Still struggling. But tonight we're going to a new friend's home (she has a baby grand piano!) and w... Sat, 11 Mar 2017 12:50:33 EST Snow? Are You Serious? It's been in the 60's, 70's and even up into the 80's....and yet, this weekend, when we SPRING FORWARD.... are calling for SNOW. <BR> <BR> Seriously? O_0 <BR> <BR> Welcome to North Carolina..... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 10 Mar 2017 15:45:58 EST LITTLE Things Make a BIG Difference! Got a Spark Trophy today for being on SP for 200 days straight! That was straight through the holidays, straight through a lot of stress, and straight through even some days where I didn't always make the best choices. <BR> <BR> But I SHOWED UP. Every day. It's a habit now - and I almost panic if I think about missing a day on Spark. I know that even on a low day, I will see something or learn something that will KEEP me here. Education from an article that will help me. Encouragement f... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 12:45:34 EST Counting the Days... Only 16 more days to be on call. It's like the on-call gods know that and they are using me to the max. Busy weekend. Back call the next two days, but then I get a three day weekend. Looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> On another note, I've been practicing and I think I'm going to join a friend at the local pub to play a little on Friday. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 7 Mar 2017 18:01:11 EST Grrrr.... Just going to leave this here.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 6 Mar 2017 10:22:24 EST The Importance of Letting Others In I am so blown away by the constant and wonderful support I get on this site. I try to acknowledge everyone's comments, but I am sure sometimes I miss one. So please know that I SO APPRECIATE each and every one of you! I can definitely see why having a support group is in the top 5 characteristics of those who lose weight and keep it off. For those of you who have been hiding in the shadows, not reaching out to others for whatever reason ("I'm not committed enough and I don't want anyone t... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 10:11:43 EST Just Relax... I realized today that I need to RELAX. I constantly feel stressed or like I'm a failure if I haven't done an hours' worth of exercise a day, or ate entirely on plan. But you know what? I'm doing GREAT. I'm steadily losing weight, I feel good, my clothes are looser...and it's because I HAVE made my healthy choices my lifestyle. No, I don't do 100% everyday. But on the days I don't do 100%, I'm still doing at least 90%. Holy cow, that's amazing! It's kind of like walking a long distanc... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 12:23:31 EST I GOT THE JOB!! I got the call yesterday and they offered me MY DREAM JOB! I am so very excited! This is truly the pinnacle for me in my career. The one position I have always wanted. I am beyond excited. I am now a full-time Social Work Trainer with the NC Division of Social Services! I start on March 20th. I will be traveling quite frequently, so I am amping up to be able to continue my healthy lifestyle on the road. It's going to be great! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 28 Feb 2017 09:41:05 EST Wisdom of Friends I had posted that I'm really struggling with my confidence and what I want to do with my music. I have lots of friends who play music and they do a lot of stuff that people seem to love, but it's not the kind of music I like or sound good doing. For example, Allman Brothers, Eagles, John Mayer, etc. I think that's been a big part of my problem. I like and sound better doing more "ballad-y" stuff - stuff that moves me when I sing it. So I asked my friend for some ideas of what songs I sho... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 09:20:19 EST Beach Bound! It's a little chilly but the sun is gorgeous today! Going to head to the beach to walk and hang out with the hubby. Have a great day all! I GOT THIS! Sun, 26 Feb 2017 09:47:58 EST Breathe In, Breathe Out We went out to see some friends last night. My friends REALLY wanted me to get up on stage and sing. My husband REALLY wanted me to get up on stage and sing. Even some people in the audience that recognized me from my old band REALLY wanted me to get up and sing. I REALLY wanted to get up and sing, too. But I didn't. I still don't know what's up, but I can't seem to get my confidence mojo back. *sigh* I think I'm going to add "practice music" back to my goals. I have a hard time not ... Sat, 25 Feb 2017 12:45:02 EST Three Day Weekend!!! 'Nuff said. Enjoy!! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 24 Feb 2017 10:50:58 EST Loving This Weather! It's been nice enough the last two days to do outside fitness! My favorite! Hiking yesterday. Today I went on a 6 mile bike ride and then a walk with the hubby and critters. Lovely! I'm on call tonight, but then off for the three day weekend. Can't wait! We're going out both nights to hang with friends and do music. We have a neighborhood "meet and greet" on Saturday afternoon. I'm doing yoga Saturday morning and we're going to ride down to the beach on Sunday! Feeling blessed. <BR... Thu, 23 Feb 2017 11:55:26 EST The Danger Zone: All or Nothing ... Excuses I was in the danger zone over the weekend. Worked almost 40 hours in 3 days and it was some heavy stuff. So there was fatigue and emotion and ... too much going on. I had a "slip" here and there - didn't pack my food so I was eating out. Started out making good choices, but it is dangerous when you have those choices and you're in the danger zone already. By yesterday (my birthday gave me another excuse) I was pretty much in the "I don't care" and "I'll just make it up later" zone. Not ... Wed, 22 Feb 2017 09:48:31 EST STILL a Crazy Work Weekend! Only time to say hi.....HI! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 19 Feb 2017 17:44:17 EST Crazy Work Weekend! Was in three different counties last night! Have 5 cases today. But just one more day on call! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 18 Feb 2017 11:00:53 EST A GOOD Doctor's Visit! OK, so whatever was up with my tummy resolved last night. Thank goodness! The even better news is that my doc appt went great! She said she couldn't believe that even over the holidays (including Valentine's Day) I managed to lose an additional 15 pounds! My BP was 124/86. I told her about reconfiguring the Paleo diet and going back to my low carb thing and she was fine with that. It was so neat to have my doctor just keep saying, "I'm so proud of you!" I can hardly wait until my next ... Fri, 17 Feb 2017 13:34:20 EST Doctor Today Already had an appointment for routine stuff. Not sure if my tummy is resolved because it's fasting, but hoping! Hope everyone has a great day! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS! Thu, 16 Feb 2017 08:53:32 EST Consequences Haven't had this happen in a long time, but my tummy is blocked. It's a consequence of gastric bypass surgery that hasn't ever gone away (even though all the weight came back). Sometimes, inexplicably, something gets "stuck" and I can't get anything down, not even water. I get nauseated and the only thing that helps is making myself throw up. Gross. Trying an old remedy now - drinking meat tenderizer. Yeah, I know. That's gross, too. It will suddenly dislodge, though, and I'll be fine... Wed, 15 Feb 2017 18:46:31 EST The Voice of Reason Remember the other day when I blogged about the "voices" I hear when I'm at the pool? I always work REALLY hard at water aerobics, while the other ladies seem to be there more for socializing. So the voices try to tell me "they're looking at you! They think you look stupid! They think you are trying to be all that and you're not!" etc. <BR> <BR> Well, today - I heard the voice of reason. One of the ladies in the class stopped me after and said, "You are doing great! I think you work ha... Tue, 14 Feb 2017 12:22:07 EST This IS My Happy Weight! Today on SparkCoach Becky was talking about "your happy weight." Most of us have determined that our "happy weight" is related to a specific number on the scale. Things like BMI charts don't help - we learn those numbers and think, "Holy cow - is it even POSSIBLE for me to be that small? I'll look like a refugee from a third world country!" Ok, well.. that's what I think. But the good news is that these are just NUMBERS. Our "happy weight" should be about other things. Becky encouraged... Mon, 13 Feb 2017 12:14:47 EST Checking References! I heard from all three of my references for the Dream Job. They all got a call! That's a good sign because they don't bother to do that until they have decided on the ones they want. I'm trying hard not to get my hopes too high, but this is encouraging! <BR> <BR> Today I'm going to ride my bike to the gym and do the elliptical. Haven't done that in a LONG time and I like to switch things up. The weather is supposed to be gorgeous - sunny and in the 70's! May take a drive down to the be... Sun, 12 Feb 2017 08:22:30 EST Yoga! Yoga! Yoga! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Great way to start your day! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 11 Feb 2017 12:07:28 EST Stop It!! I read something the other day that really resonated with me. It was about NOT worrying so much about the scales - especially if you're maintaining! I haven't lost in a MONTH but I haven't binged and I'm actually doing very well! It GETS SO FRUSTRATING. But wait! Aren't I the one who always says DON'T WORRY ABOUT THE NUMBERS? The one whose page says, "It's not a diet, it's a LIFESTYLE? Yep, that's me. I think I need some reminders... <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.... Fri, 10 Feb 2017 07:58:44 EST Amp It Up! I live in what has traditionally been a retirement community. The median age has been probably about 65. I go to a water aerobics class at our local recreation center and love it! But because I am significantly younger (both in years and attitude) than the others in the class, I really have to "amp it up" to get what I think is a good workout. It's not difficult to do. I do at least twice the repetitions (or more) of each exercise. I add in weights a lot. I add jumping and running to a... Thu, 9 Feb 2017 11:12:00 EST New Hiking Trail One thing I have learned about myself is that I get bored easily. I have to have a variety of fitness options or I get SO BORED. So I googled hiking trails (mostly sunny and in the 70's today!) and found a new one. Heading out with Clancy to do about 3 miles. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 7 Feb 2017 12:43:53 EST Off Today! I was all psyched to go swimming, but there's something going on with my tummy. Going to take some Pepto and then try to do something outside later. Supposed to be sunny! I would much rather do outdoor exercise anyway. <BR> <BR> January was a rough month and I haven't lost anything at all. I don't fixate on numbers, but I know I didn't do everything the way I should. Going to do some evaluating and maybe make some changes. <BR> <BR> Happy Monday all! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 6 Feb 2017 07:44:11 EST Work Day! Packed my lunch and I'm working all day. Going to work in some walking when I can. One more day! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 4 Feb 2017 10:53:39 EST Happy Friday! Ready for the weekend, even though I'm working. Looking forward to having the yummy healthy foods that I prepared ahead of time - so much to choose from and so far it's all good! Several breakfast casseroles, chicken casserole, shrimp and sausage casserole, paleo bread, paleo muffins, meatloaf, stuff peppers, stuffed portabellas. Yum! <BR> <BR> Hope everyone has a fun and fit weekend! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 3 Feb 2017 12:42:41 EST What's Right For Me! So it seems like ever since I joined some teams and started my "30-Day Challenge" that I've been struggling again. Now, I totally understand that my mood and mojo may have absolutely nothing to do with those two things, but I do think there is some validity to it. I noted that I was working myself into that "all or nothing mentality." If I didn't meet the challenge totally or wasn't the best person on the team, or didn't eat TOTAL Paleo I felt like crap and a failure. So that made me depr... Thu, 2 Feb 2017 11:49:34 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Twenty-One Worked late. Crazy case. Even after 25 years, it's amazing what people come up with in the name of parenting. *Sigh* <BR> <BR> Anywho - today is going to be sunny and warm and I'm off! Will be some kind of outdoor fitness, some shopping and spending time with my hubby whom I adore. Yay! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 1 Feb 2017 09:39:37 EST 30-Day Self Challenge: Day Twenty Whew! Whatever dark cloud of a mood has been weighing me down seems to be gone today! I actually feel "normal" again. I wish I could explain it, but I can't. Nonetheless, I kept checking in on SP, kept to my eating plan and managed to do some exercise if not all that I usually do. I call that a win! <BR> <BR> Heading out to water aerobics in a few. On call tonight. Tomorrow is supposed to be sunny and in the 60's so I will definitely do something outside! Hope you all have a great da... Tue, 31 Jan 2017 08:58:23 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Nineteen Still struggling with moodiness. Yesterday was pretty good in that I followed my plan to spend the day cooking some new recipes since I've been getting bored with what I am eating. I've somewhat enjoyed learning about the Paleo food plan, because it's different, but I'm slowly becoming convinced that it may not work for me. The thing I don't like about it is that it is restrictive. It keeps me from enjoying certain foods that are healthy. Low carb was working very well for me. I haven't... Mon, 30 Jan 2017 11:14:36 EST 30-Day Self Challenge: Day Seventeen Hey guys. Been struggling this whole week and, of course, beating myself up about it. I took a step back today to try to see what's going on. The whole thing started when I had a let down at the beginning of the week regarding a music opportunity. Then the stuff with my stepfather. He's still not responsive, but not totally brain dead; so my Mom has been going through the roller coaster of hope, no hope, preparing herself to make a decision about life support, then not. Then the stuff a... Sat, 28 Jan 2017 15:17:51 EST 30-Day Challenge: Not a Good Day Definitely not the worst mood I've ever been in, but not the best either. I have totally determined that being tired is my worst enemy. I am in the bed watching TV with my pets. Having coffee and being quiet. My husband and I had already committed to going out tonight to see a friend play. I think that's a good thing and just what I need to get myself free energized. I'm not giving up the ship. I have been on this journey long enough to know that these days come and go. I also know that these... Fri, 27 Jan 2017 13:53:49 EST 30-Day Challenge: Day Sixteen I think the universe is doing its best to test my stress levels. I worked till about 11 o'clock last night. Then I couldn't sleep well for thinking about all the things I need to do today. I am planning to help a friend with a catering event and still pick up a client by 2 p.m. to take him to an appointment and then I have to be on call again tonight. Its 8:39 a.m. and I'm sitting in traffic literally stopped because the bridge is out due to an accident for something. No way to turn around. I... Thu, 26 Jan 2017 08:40:57 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Fifteen Best cure for depression I know.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. <BR> <BR> Wed, 25 Jan 2017 14:02:34 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Fourteen Really struggling with depression for some reason. Just out of the blue. Fortunately my husband is a great resource for helping me stay on track. But it pisses me off that I even feel this way. I know IT WILL PASS though. I am just going to stay the course. Eating on plan and did water aerobics today. Strength training later. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 24 Jan 2017 15:57:27 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Thirteen I am still doing a great job working my challenge. When I'm on call it's tough. I did get a great workout in 2 of the 3 weekend days, so I'm pleased with that. Today I did Zumba. Feeling a little moody today. I think it's the weather. It was beautiful earlier, but the clouds are coming in and it's getting dark. No matter - my mood will no longer dictate my actions. It's just that - a feeling. It is NOT the part of me that makes my choices. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 23 Jan 2017 15:54:02 EST Tired! Emotional weekend - one drug baby, one broken baby, one dead baby and one overdose. Tired. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 22 Jan 2017 09:08:48 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Ten On Call this weekend. I am lucky to have a job I love and I never want to lose sight of that. It can be very stressful, and no, it's not my dream job - but I love it nonetheless. That's a blessing. <BR> <BR> They had put my stepfather into a state of hypothermia to see if they could halt any brain damage from his lengthy time without oxygen. They started bringing him out yesterday, but it could take several days before we know the outcome. Thank you all for your prayers and good thoug... Fri, 20 Jan 2017 12:05:56 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Nine Feeling fantastic! I rocked my interview - and what's even better is that I am NOT stressing over it. None of that "did they like me?", "was I good enough?", "what if I don't get the job?" stuff going on in my head. I also saw my therapist and was telling how good I'm doing. He said, "You are finally believing that you are GOOD ENOUGH already." OMG. I didn't even realize that was where I'm getting, but IT IS! That's so exciting! It is so exhausting to go through life constantly worryi... Thu, 19 Jan 2017 16:17:27 EST 30 Day Self-Challenge: Day Eight THERE ARE NO BOUNDARIES. I probably have a blog titled this somewhere already. No matter. I'm reminding myself of this right now, when there are many things trying to sway me from my goals. Yesterday was challenging. I woke up at night with my foot hurting from the gout. I decided not to do the intense cardio I had planned since I was going to see the doctor. I had to be at the office at 8:30 am. So I worked for three hours, then took a break and went downtown to do a little walking si... Wed, 18 Jan 2017 14:53:41 EST