NARNIAROSE2003's SparkPeople Blog NARNIAROSE2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Catching Up...Quickly For some reason I'm not that keen to blog, but much has happened. Here's a quick run down: <BR> <BR> Stepmother died suddenly from a heart attack. <BR> Father died from cancer. <BR> Granddaughter was diagosed with autism. <BR> <BR> Obviously, there is much more to each of these stories and I'll write more later. I'm back taking care of myself for the last three days. That's helping me so much. Thanks for all your faithful following. <BR> <BR> I GOT, really... I DO. Fri, 13 Oct 2017 10:50:12 EST Win! Made tons of healthy choices yesterday and feeling good about things! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 20 Sep 2017 12:31:10 EST Healthy Choices I know it's been awhile since I was on here. Thank you to everyone who sent me messages or post it on my page to check on me. I'm sorry I haven't been in touch. It's been a rough several weeks. Had a couple of deaths in my family then some other stressors. But this morning began to make good choices for myself again. I've decided that that's going to be my challenge through the holidays. Healthy choices. Choice I make I'm going to give myself a check. That includes both physical and mental he... Tue, 19 Sep 2017 06:57:57 EST In Control Today Had a great day! Last night after blogging, I had a small episode where I suddenly wanted to eat something. I had some trail mix and ate that, but I didn't stop at one portion. Probably more like 3 (1/4 cup each) which is too much and made my stomach hurt. <BR> <BR> Today I have NOT had those cravings. I started the day with 30 minutes on the treadmill. After work, I went shopping so got in over 13,000 steps today. I also did my 15 minutes of yoga tonight. Ate on plan and feeling grea... Tue, 8 Aug 2017 21:04:33 EST I'm Back Wow. It's been three weeks since I blogged. About that long since I did any concerted exercise. I've been "mini-binging" and pretty much eating whatever for several weeks. It's been 6 months since I lost any weight. In fact, I have re-gained 9 pounds. My ankles are swollen. I've been having trouble sleeping. My left ankle just started hurting and so does my back. <BR> <BR> DUH. <BR> <BR> The only reason ANY of those things have happened is because I CHOSE IT. No idea why. Why? W... Mon, 7 Aug 2017 19:41:47 EST Heat Scary heat! Stay hydrated, folks. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 13 Jul 2017 06:30:59 EST Friday! This has been a great week! Back in control and back to the basics of healthy living. I feel great. This weekend we are going to see some friends play music and then I have a gig on Sunday afternoon. Can't wait! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 7 Jul 2017 08:25:38 EST Words on a Wednesday She walks...deliberately; <BR> Eyes fixed ahead <BR> On her goal. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such power. <BR> Such grace. <BR> <BR> <BR> She lives...deliberately; <BR> Mind all made up <BR> To be more. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such focus. <BR> Such thought. <BR> Such...passion. <BR> <BR> She loves...deliberately; <BR> Seeing the value <BR> In them all. <BR> <BR> It's hard to look away. <BR> <BR> Such comfort. <BR> Such softness. <BR> ... Wed, 5 Jul 2017 07:18:52 EST Happy Fourth! Rode my bike several miles this morning. This was part of the view. Cooked breakfast for Gary and the doggies. Then we went out to look at some furniture and had a lovely lunch at our favorite seafood place. I quit halfway because I was full. So great to be back in control! Last night instead of snacking, I had a protein shake which took care of my night time cravings. <BR> Looking forward to a restful day. Happy Fourth of July! <BR> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 4 Jul 2017 14:35:29 EST July - 317 Days Back on Spark! Today marks 317 consecutive days that I've checked in to Spark. Have I had 317 days of perfect choices? NO. Am I healthier today than I was 316 days ago? YES. I am about 40 pounds lighter than I was on that first day. It's not about every small choice - it's about staying the course, no matter what. <BR> <BR> I'M STAYING. <BR> <BR> I'm not on the road the next two weeks (except for one day). My goals are to do at least 30 minutes of morning cardio and about 20 minutes of strength t... Mon, 3 Jul 2017 07:59:27 EST Don't Let BUSY Dictate How You Handle Your BUSINESS Whew! Last week was a whirlwind. First was the news about the new band and getting into high gear to learn ALL the music for three albums. Started a new training curriculum. Went out of town on Monday to do the new training. Drove three hours (round trip) to rehears with the new band while out of town training. Drove straight to SC (4 hours) to see my Dad on Friday. His last visit with his cancer doc wasn't good. They are starting him on a new treatment, hoping to give him at least 1... Sun, 18 Jun 2017 12:00:12 EST ...and Sometimes the Best Things Happen! I wrote my last blog about "Doing the Best Thing For Me." I have been slacking off on my healthy habits and not always making the best choices. I could see that I was declining and had to come up with a new mantra to stop that progression. It is definitely helping! Still struggling with some evening munchie attacks, but I can do this. I'm going to be on the road for the next couple of weeks, and I have that DOWN. <BR> <BR> The other thing I have been struggling with for several months... Sun, 11 Jun 2017 07:15:05 EST Doing the BEST Thing I just noticed that I haven't blogged since June 4th. That says a LOT about where I am right now. I also haven't done any concerted exercise since.... days ago. I'm not eating right all the time. I'm having back pain. I'm stressed. <BR> <BR> I'M NOT BEING THE BEST ME. <BR> <BR> And that's NOT who I am anymore - which is why it feels so uncomfortable! That is SO GREAT, isn't it? So...what the hell is your problem, self? Geez, we can be so stubborn, can't we? I know HOW to do this, ... Fri, 9 Jun 2017 08:14:05 EST What I Really Want to Say... ...I can't. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. <BR> <BR> Sun, 4 Jun 2017 06:23:09 EST The Ritual of Eating So after doing SO GREAT while traveling, I get home and struggle. It's still the evening stuff. I have had the habit of waiting until my hubby goes and gets a snack, because my thought is that it must be "normal" to snack at that time since he is. He would notice "what" I'm eating since I have told him the things I try to stay away from. But he doesn't pay attention to how much I'm eating, so I can happily throw back way more than I should if I desire. For some reason, I DESIRE that stuf... Tue, 30 May 2017 07:40:21 EST Catching Up I was on the road this week and I am happy to report that I had another successful time. I planned​ head and packed my lunch and snack each day. I ate breakfast at the hotel since it was free, but fortunately they had plenty of items that worked. They have boiled eggs, turkey sausage, yogurt and fruit. It was quite yummy! Since I was in the city I used to live in, I connected with friends every night and went out to eat. I Love Sushi and we don't have any good sushi restaurants where I live n... Sun, 28 May 2017 07:21:27 EST Saturday Fun Day Went yard sale-ing this morning. Found some more things for my Fairy Garden. Getting my toes done now. Heading to the Beaufort Music Festival tonight with friends! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 20 May 2017 11:00:40 EST I'm a Baller! Never really liked that term...and that's NOT what I'm talking about. I'm talking about SNOWBALLING. No, no the cold, icy kind. I hate snow. Southern beach bunny girl here! But today I was reminded (again) that when I make just one healthy SNOWBALLS. Especially if I start my day out healthy. Then the rest of the day, all I want to do is keep up the momentum and do well. Not just in eating and exercise - but in everything. I want to pick up things and put them away. I wan... Thu, 18 May 2017 07:18:11 EST Update Had a regular doctor appointment yesterday. I told her I was having a bit of trouble with my mojo. I only lost 1 pound in the last two months. But you know what? She said, "I'M PROUD OF YOU. Don't sell yourself short. Look at all the progress you've made!" What a great doctor! She adjusted my insulin-resistance meds and that's pretty much it. I'm still doing pretty well overall. Plus I will be traveling a lot in the next four months, so it's great to know I already have that plan do... Tue, 16 May 2017 16:35:08 EST Friday! It's overcast and the forecast is for rain today and tomorrow, but I actually feel better. Still struggling with my mojo, but I know it will come back. We're going to our Downtown Art Walk tonight (weather permitting) and I'll play some music with friends. Tomorrow we may go to an antique car show (again weather permitting) and a plant sale. I'm going to start the day with yoga, too. Sunday is supposed to be beautiful! Since all my kids are unavailable, we're going to the beach. Can't ... Fri, 12 May 2017 12:10:25 EST Roller Coaster Not sure what's up. My moods and my motivation have been crazy wonky! Up one minute and down the next. The weather has been a little weird so that might be it. I hate it, though. Time to fake it until I can make it! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 11 May 2017 13:35:52 EST I Have a "Relationship" With Food? - WTH? Many times I have heard, read and even thought about "having a relationship with food." But recently I began to really think about what that means - because I DO. WTH? Why in the world would anyone have a "relationship" with food? Let's consider this further. <BR> <BR> Definition of relationship <BR> 1: the state of being related or interrelated studied the relationship between the variables <BR> 2: the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: such as <BR> a : ki... Sat, 6 May 2017 07:45:53 EST Beauty's Where You Find It Another Edition of "In BED With Tracey" 4/28/17 Fri, 28 Apr 2017 07:10:18 EST In BED With Tracey 4/27/17 My first video blog! BED stands for Binge Eating Disorder. Thanks for watching! Thu, 27 Apr 2017 19:44:26 EST Thank You, Kanye Never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth. But this morning AFTER my power walk, I decided to walk the 4 flights of stairs back to my room. By the third floor I was tired...But then "Stronger" by Kanye West came on my iPod. It gave me the boost I needed! Thanks,Kanye! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 26 Apr 2017 08:00:00 EST An Epiphany or Two... I realized something today about myself. I compare myself to EVERYONE...LITERALLY. I am in a training this week in preparation to deliver the training. As part of the process, everyone in the room was introducing themselves and talking about their experience. I was listening intently when it suddenly hit me...I AM COMPARING MYSELF TO EVERYONE. Someone would say, "I did this for x number of years" and my brain would say, "Oh, it's OK. You did it longer." That went on with every single p... Tue, 25 Apr 2017 20:35:35 EST Travel Starts in Earnest Tomorrow! OK, Spark friends - I need you now! I've started my new job and was at home most of last week. Tomorrow I am on the road for 4 days, then 4 days the next. It will probably be busy like that for most of the next 4 months. I need all your great ideas, all your mojo, prayers, and good thoughts because this will be a challenge! I am very committed to continuing to make healthy choices, but I know that being on the road can certainly and EASILY trigger bingeing for me. I did have one cool ide... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:27:32 EST Gardening Fun! Today was our neighborhood Garden Club Spring Plant Sale. I got there are 7:00 am to help set up tables, set out plants, etc. Then I stayed to help sell. I also got my own plant shopping done and spent 4 hours in the yard planting today. Boy am I exhausted! But the yard is really starting to shape up. It still needs mulch in the beds and more plants, but here are some pics of my progress: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 22 Apr 2017 17:23:41 EST Friday! Fun weekend planned. After court today, we are going to pick out flooring and get a final estimate. Yay! Then to mulch place. Tomorrow is the plant sale. Up at 7 to help with that! Happy weekend everyone! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 21 Apr 2017 08:49:26 EST Court Tomorrow Well, my old job just won't let me go. One of the cases I had is in court tomorrow and they subpoenaed me to testify. *sigh* Oh, well. I get to wear a pretty new dress! LOL <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 20 Apr 2017 19:49:19 EST I'm a Mentor! A good friend of mine went to the doctor this week and got some bad numbers and a lecture from his doctor. Well.... he called me! He has been seeing the difference that my healthy habits have made in my life, so he asked for my help. We went over for dinner (he's a chef - I know, right?) and then I pulled out a SP article and shared some insights to get him started. I gave him some homework to do two small goals (start eating a healthy breakfast and exercise just 10 minutes per day). It... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 20:55:06 EST Weekend Highs and Lows This weekend was my first time traveling. The low was that on Sunday night I was in full binge mode. The good news is that the universe was watching out for me. I went to Chili's and ordered fajitas with no tortillas (not a bad choice), but also ordered guacamole dip and chips. I had every intention of eating it all. I got back to the room and guess what? The guacamole wasn't there. Yep, they forgot to put it in and I didn't notice. LOL. So - I didn't really binge. But later that ni... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 08:43:38 EST Tired but Happy Will write more tomorrow. I can tell I made a great decision to change jobs! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 17 Apr 2017 21:54:44 EST Happy Easter! Skyping with my son in Germany and spending the day with my other son. If only I could talk to my daughter today.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 16 Apr 2017 06:48:51 EST Beauty and the Beast My son and I went to see Beauty and the Beast and it was fabulous! What was even more fabulous was the movie theatre we went to. They had RECLINERS for all the seats! It was off the chain sweet! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 15 Apr 2017 19:45:22 EST Traveling Let the traveling begin! I pledge to myself that I will not let being on the road, Easter weekend, or celebrating special times become excuses to treat myself poorly. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 15 Apr 2017 05:27:42 EST Easter Weekend I am looking forward to the weekend. Meeting my younger son in Raleigh tomorrow to spend a couple of days together. Then I start the new job on Monday. Today I did car stuff (oil change, inspection, fill the tank), did some shopping, bought a new desk and put it together for my home office, made fried chicken for my husband and I, and we took the doggies for along walk. This week off has really been nice! I feel very accomplished and also destressed. <BR> <BR> Happy Easter everyone! <BR... Fri, 14 Apr 2017 19:22:07 EST Continuing the Productive Streak Another productive day. Got my office/diva/music room cleaned out and ready for my new job. Got the house cleaned. Got a little shelf painted and it's now in the kitchen. Now for some chill time! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 13 Apr 2017 17:23:57 EST More Gardening Today! Our Garden Club is having a plant sale on April 22. Some of the plants we sell are donated from residents who allow us to divide plants they already have. I'm on the Division Team and today we are going to different residents to dig up and repot plants. Another good way to get in some activity and have fun! It's also a great way to be with some Master Gardeners who can teach me how to make my own yard beautiful! Looking forward to it. The weather is supposed to be beautiful again. <BR>... Wed, 12 Apr 2017 07:16:49 EST Yard Work Has Kicked My ... Butt! My goal today was to get the front yard down to bare bones so we can landscape with new plants, etc. We did it all in about 4 hours! Raked, pruned, cut down a couple of small trees - Gary Brenneman is convinced I'm trying to kill him for the insurance money. LOL. Now we are going to do the design and buy plants. Can't wait! I'm also excited about having another "active" hobby. It all makes working out fun. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 11 Apr 2017 15:14:53 EST Pay Attention! Today I realized that there is a correlation between how active I am and what kind of food I crave. When I am a slug, I crave carbs and "comfort" food (I hate that word - what's "comfortable" about eating until you're sick?). When I have started the day active, I want to eat healthy food. Sometimes it's more because I don't want to undo all the hard work I've done. But I've also noticed that the longer I go without eating heavy carbs, the less I want them. It's pretty cool! <BR> <BR> A... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 18:54:23 EST Day at the Beach! Had a lovely day at the beach today. The water was a bit too cool for swimming, but we walked a long way and I easily got in over 10,000 steps. Love my friends! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 9 Apr 2017 18:26:04 EST Happy Anniversary to Me! (And Other Assorted Happy Things) Today is our one year anniversary! I love my Gary so much. A couple of our friends now have said that we are "that couple" that they strive to be, and it's such a blessing to finally have that in my life. He was 59 and I was 50 when we met, so believe me - it's never too late to find your true love! We had a lovely day today. All I wanted for our anniversary was to go to Lowe's and put down our payment for an estimate on new floors - LOL. So we did that, and also did some shopping for t... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 17:34:10 EST Two More Days! Just tonight and tomorrow and I will be done with on call! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I cleaned my closet and purged winter clothes. I will NOT be in that size next year! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 5 Apr 2017 13:15:00 EST Long Day... Tired. That is all. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 1 Apr 2017 20:13:06 EST Last On-Call Weekend Begins Today! Really excited to be going into my final weekend for on-call. It's pouring rain and I'm thinking the on-call gods will be merciless to me. So, just in case, I started with a good water aerobics workout. I'm also going to wear one of my pretty new dresses and go into this weekend with a super positive attitude and healthy food and snacks. After this weekend, I have two more days at this job and I'm done! They are having a farewell lunch for me on Friday, which is really sweet. Hope you a... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 11:36:56 EST I Tried On Clothes...and I Liked It! Last year at the end of the summer, I gave away almost all of my summer clothes. I was determined that I wasn't going to "plan to fail" by keeping clothes that I never intended to wear again. So...40 pound later and ready for the new spring season, I needed some new clothes! I love dresses and Ross is my go-to store to find lots of pretty, flowy fashionable dresses. We went yesterday and I had fun going through the racks and putting a ton of dresses in my cart to try on. I got to the dre... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 09:40:29 EST Six More On-Call Nights... 'Nuff said.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 28 Mar 2017 10:50:19 EST A Binger's Paradise Will Now Be a Healthy Haven! So it's been about 5 years since I was on the road for my job. During that time, it was a binger's paradise. You're on the road and someone else is paying for your meals. You are alone for all three meals a day. Plus everyone usually brings snacks into the training, so no one will think anything about it if you snack during the training. You can eat until you're sick. You can eat in bed watching TV. You can EAT, EAT, EAT and no one will know. <BR> <BR> WOW. That sure as hell doesn't... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 12:13:06 EST RIP Beautiful Gracie Cat Yesterday was a very sad day. We took our Gracie cat to the vet because she had a swollen place on her face. We were expecting to hear that she had a bug bite or maybe some kind of dental issue. I never in a million years thought I would be hearing the words "tumor" and "you will have to make a decision." When your baby is in pain, there's really no other decision to make. We had to say goodbye to our beautiful, everlasting Gracie. She was with me for 21 years through so many things, and she ... Sun, 26 Mar 2017 14:34:22 EST