NARNIAROSE2003's SparkPeople Blog NARNIAROSE2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Saturday Fun Day Went yard sale-ing this morning. Found some more things for my Fairy Garden. Getting my toes done now. Heading to the Beaufort Music Festival tonight with friends! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 20 May 2017 11:00:40 EST I'm a Baller! Never really liked that term...and that's NOT what I'm talking about. I'm talking about SNOWBALLING. No, no the cold, icy kind. I hate snow. Southern beach bunny girl here! But today I was reminded (again) that when I make just one healthy SNOWBALLS. Especially if I start my day out healthy. Then the rest of the day, all I want to do is keep up the momentum and do well. Not just in eating and exercise - but in everything. I want to pick up things and put them away. I wan... Thu, 18 May 2017 07:18:11 EST Update Had a regular doctor appointment yesterday. I told her I was having a bit of trouble with my mojo. I only lost 1 pound in the last two months. But you know what? She said, "I'M PROUD OF YOU. Don't sell yourself short. Look at all the progress you've made!" What a great doctor! She adjusted my insulin-resistance meds and that's pretty much it. I'm still doing pretty well overall. Plus I will be traveling a lot in the next four months, so it's great to know I already have that plan do... Tue, 16 May 2017 16:35:08 EST Friday! It's overcast and the forecast is for rain today and tomorrow, but I actually feel better. Still struggling with my mojo, but I know it will come back. We're going to our Downtown Art Walk tonight (weather permitting) and I'll play some music with friends. Tomorrow we may go to an antique car show (again weather permitting) and a plant sale. I'm going to start the day with yoga, too. Sunday is supposed to be beautiful! Since all my kids are unavailable, we're going to the beach. Can't ... Fri, 12 May 2017 12:10:25 EST Roller Coaster Not sure what's up. My moods and my motivation have been crazy wonky! Up one minute and down the next. The weather has been a little weird so that might be it. I hate it, though. Time to fake it until I can make it! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 11 May 2017 13:35:52 EST I Have a "Relationship" With Food? - WTH? Many times I have heard, read and even thought about "having a relationship with food." But recently I began to really think about what that means - because I DO. WTH? Why in the world would anyone have a "relationship" with food? Let's consider this further. <BR> <BR> Definition of relationship <BR> 1: the state of being related or interrelated studied the relationship between the variables <BR> 2: the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: such as <BR> a : ki... Sat, 6 May 2017 07:45:53 EST Beauty's Where You Find It Another Edition of "In BED With Tracey" 4/28/17 Fri, 28 Apr 2017 07:10:18 EST In BED With Tracey 4/27/17 My first video blog! BED stands for Binge Eating Disorder. Thanks for watching! Thu, 27 Apr 2017 19:44:26 EST Thank You, Kanye Never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth. But this morning AFTER my power walk, I decided to walk the 4 flights of stairs back to my room. By the third floor I was tired...But then "Stronger" by Kanye West came on my iPod. It gave me the boost I needed! Thanks,Kanye! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 26 Apr 2017 08:00:00 EST An Epiphany or Two... I realized something today about myself. I compare myself to EVERYONE...LITERALLY. I am in a training this week in preparation to deliver the training. As part of the process, everyone in the room was introducing themselves and talking about their experience. I was listening intently when it suddenly hit me...I AM COMPARING MYSELF TO EVERYONE. Someone would say, "I did this for x number of years" and my brain would say, "Oh, it's OK. You did it longer." That went on with every single p... Tue, 25 Apr 2017 20:35:35 EST Travel Starts in Earnest Tomorrow! OK, Spark friends - I need you now! I've started my new job and was at home most of last week. Tomorrow I am on the road for 4 days, then 4 days the next. It will probably be busy like that for most of the next 4 months. I need all your great ideas, all your mojo, prayers, and good thoughts because this will be a challenge! I am very committed to continuing to make healthy choices, but I know that being on the road can certainly and EASILY trigger bingeing for me. I did have one cool ide... Mon, 24 Apr 2017 07:27:32 EST Gardening Fun! Today was our neighborhood Garden Club Spring Plant Sale. I got there are 7:00 am to help set up tables, set out plants, etc. Then I stayed to help sell. I also got my own plant shopping done and spent 4 hours in the yard planting today. Boy am I exhausted! But the yard is really starting to shape up. It still needs mulch in the beds and more plants, but here are some pics of my progress: <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sat, 22 Apr 2017 17:23:41 EST Friday! Fun weekend planned. After court today, we are going to pick out flooring and get a final estimate. Yay! Then to mulch place. Tomorrow is the plant sale. Up at 7 to help with that! Happy weekend everyone! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 21 Apr 2017 08:49:26 EST Court Tomorrow Well, my old job just won't let me go. One of the cases I had is in court tomorrow and they subpoenaed me to testify. *sigh* Oh, well. I get to wear a pretty new dress! LOL <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 20 Apr 2017 19:49:19 EST I'm a Mentor! A good friend of mine went to the doctor this week and got some bad numbers and a lecture from his doctor. Well.... he called me! He has been seeing the difference that my healthy habits have made in my life, so he asked for my help. We went over for dinner (he's a chef - I know, right?) and then I pulled out a SP article and shared some insights to get him started. I gave him some homework to do two small goals (start eating a healthy breakfast and exercise just 10 minutes per day). It... Wed, 19 Apr 2017 20:55:06 EST Weekend Highs and Lows This weekend was my first time traveling. The low was that on Sunday night I was in full binge mode. The good news is that the universe was watching out for me. I went to Chili's and ordered fajitas with no tortillas (not a bad choice), but also ordered guacamole dip and chips. I had every intention of eating it all. I got back to the room and guess what? The guacamole wasn't there. Yep, they forgot to put it in and I didn't notice. LOL. So - I didn't really binge. But later that ni... Tue, 18 Apr 2017 08:43:38 EST Tired but Happy Will write more tomorrow. I can tell I made a great decision to change jobs! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 17 Apr 2017 21:54:44 EST Happy Easter! Skyping with my son in Germany and spending the day with my other son. If only I could talk to my daughter today.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 16 Apr 2017 06:48:51 EST Beauty and the Beast My son and I went to see Beauty and the Beast and it was fabulous! What was even more fabulous was the movie theatre we went to. They had RECLINERS for all the seats! It was off the chain sweet! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 15 Apr 2017 19:45:22 EST Traveling Let the traveling begin! I pledge to myself that I will not let being on the road, Easter weekend, or celebrating special times become excuses to treat myself poorly. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 15 Apr 2017 05:27:42 EST Easter Weekend I am looking forward to the weekend. Meeting my younger son in Raleigh tomorrow to spend a couple of days together. Then I start the new job on Monday. Today I did car stuff (oil change, inspection, fill the tank), did some shopping, bought a new desk and put it together for my home office, made fried chicken for my husband and I, and we took the doggies for along walk. This week off has really been nice! I feel very accomplished and also destressed. <BR> <BR> Happy Easter everyone! <BR... Fri, 14 Apr 2017 19:22:07 EST Continuing the Productive Streak Another productive day. Got my office/diva/music room cleaned out and ready for my new job. Got the house cleaned. Got a little shelf painted and it's now in the kitchen. Now for some chill time! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Thu, 13 Apr 2017 17:23:57 EST More Gardening Today! Our Garden Club is having a plant sale on April 22. Some of the plants we sell are donated from residents who allow us to divide plants they already have. I'm on the Division Team and today we are going to different residents to dig up and repot plants. Another good way to get in some activity and have fun! It's also a great way to be with some Master Gardeners who can teach me how to make my own yard beautiful! Looking forward to it. The weather is supposed to be beautiful again. <BR>... Wed, 12 Apr 2017 07:16:49 EST Yard Work Has Kicked My ... Butt! My goal today was to get the front yard down to bare bones so we can landscape with new plants, etc. We did it all in about 4 hours! Raked, pruned, cut down a couple of small trees - Gary Brenneman is convinced I'm trying to kill him for the insurance money. LOL. Now we are going to do the design and buy plants. Can't wait! I'm also excited about having another "active" hobby. It all makes working out fun. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 11 Apr 2017 15:14:53 EST Pay Attention! Today I realized that there is a correlation between how active I am and what kind of food I crave. When I am a slug, I crave carbs and "comfort" food (I hate that word - what's "comfortable" about eating until you're sick?). When I have started the day active, I want to eat healthy food. Sometimes it's more because I don't want to undo all the hard work I've done. But I've also noticed that the longer I go without eating heavy carbs, the less I want them. It's pretty cool! <BR> <BR> A... Mon, 10 Apr 2017 18:54:23 EST Day at the Beach! Had a lovely day at the beach today. The water was a bit too cool for swimming, but we walked a long way and I easily got in over 10,000 steps. Love my friends! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sun, 9 Apr 2017 18:26:04 EST Happy Anniversary to Me! (And Other Assorted Happy Things) Today is our one year anniversary! I love my Gary so much. A couple of our friends now have said that we are "that couple" that they strive to be, and it's such a blessing to finally have that in my life. He was 59 and I was 50 when we met, so believe me - it's never too late to find your true love! We had a lovely day today. All I wanted for our anniversary was to go to Lowe's and put down our payment for an estimate on new floors - LOL. So we did that, and also did some shopping for t... Sat, 8 Apr 2017 17:34:10 EST Two More Days! Just tonight and tomorrow and I will be done with on call! <BR> <BR> Yesterday I cleaned my closet and purged winter clothes. I will NOT be in that size next year! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 5 Apr 2017 13:15:00 EST Long Day... Tired. That is all. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Sat, 1 Apr 2017 20:13:06 EST Last On-Call Weekend Begins Today! Really excited to be going into my final weekend for on-call. It's pouring rain and I'm thinking the on-call gods will be merciless to me. So, just in case, I started with a good water aerobics workout. I'm also going to wear one of my pretty new dresses and go into this weekend with a super positive attitude and healthy food and snacks. After this weekend, I have two more days at this job and I'm done! They are having a farewell lunch for me on Friday, which is really sweet. Hope you a... Fri, 31 Mar 2017 11:36:56 EST I Tried On Clothes...and I Liked It! Last year at the end of the summer, I gave away almost all of my summer clothes. I was determined that I wasn't going to "plan to fail" by keeping clothes that I never intended to wear again. So...40 pound later and ready for the new spring season, I needed some new clothes! I love dresses and Ross is my go-to store to find lots of pretty, flowy fashionable dresses. We went yesterday and I had fun going through the racks and putting a ton of dresses in my cart to try on. I got to the dre... Thu, 30 Mar 2017 09:40:29 EST Six More On-Call Nights... 'Nuff said.... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 28 Mar 2017 10:50:19 EST A Binger's Paradise Will Now Be a Healthy Haven! So it's been about 5 years since I was on the road for my job. During that time, it was a binger's paradise. You're on the road and someone else is paying for your meals. You are alone for all three meals a day. Plus everyone usually brings snacks into the training, so no one will think anything about it if you snack during the training. You can eat until you're sick. You can eat in bed watching TV. You can EAT, EAT, EAT and no one will know. <BR> <BR> WOW. That sure as hell doesn't... Mon, 27 Mar 2017 12:13:06 EST RIP Beautiful Gracie Cat Yesterday was a very sad day. We took our Gracie cat to the vet because she had a swollen place on her face. We were expecting to hear that she had a bug bite or maybe some kind of dental issue. I never in a million years thought I would be hearing the words "tumor" and "you will have to make a decision." When your baby is in pain, there's really no other decision to make. We had to say goodbye to our beautiful, everlasting Gracie. She was with me for 21 years through so many things, and she ... Sun, 26 Mar 2017 14:34:22 EST No Excuses - I Need Sparkpeople! Hello, SP friends! I'm still here. Let me get the following excuses out of the way: <BR> <BR> 1. I wasn't here because I was SO BUSY at work. <BR> 2. I didn't have time to be on SP because I was TOO TIRED after working so much. <BR> 3. I was taking a break from SP which is OK, right? <BR> <BR> OK. Let's look at each objectively: <BR> <BR> 1. YES, I was busy at work. I was on call for the weekend and worked all day Friday until 11:00 pm, Saturday from about 7:00 am - 8:30 pm, and Sun... Sat, 25 Mar 2017 10:06:44 EST Thanks and Happy Friday! Thank you all so much for your birthday wishes to my hubby! I read every one to him and he was very grateful. You guys are the best! <BR> <BR> I have to work this weekend, but I'm counting the days to my new job. Won't be long! Hope everyone has a safe and healthy weekend. Plan something fun and active! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 17 Mar 2017 11:11:44 EST Happy Birthday, Gary! Today is my husband's 64th birthday. I am SO LUCKY to have found this man. We just got married last year - and I'm 55. I met him in 2012 thinking that finding love at my age was probably just a girlish fantasy. I was also terrified of choosing another man who would treat me badly (my first husband was awful) so I didn't even allow anyone to get close. I broke up with Gary 3 times! Thank the gods he was patient and willing to take me back. He has truly been the best! It took me forever... Thu, 16 Mar 2017 10:42:02 EST Day Off! Having a lovely day. Went to water aerobics today. Then shopping for hubby's birthday tomorrow. Then to lunch with my water aerobic class. Then home to relax. Hoping you all are having a wonderful day! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Wed, 15 Mar 2017 16:32:25 EST Today Took a pic today for posterity. This is where I started: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is today: <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I don't think I'll ever "feel" the way I look. Don't get that at all and it's really frustrating. But the important part is not how I look, but what I can DO now and how I FEEL. <BR> <BR> I ... Tue, 14 Mar 2017 13:38:09 EST Back to Work 14 more days to be on call... Mon, 13 Mar 2017 13:54:30 EST Music! Had a great time last night hanging with some new friends and some old friends. I played music for a couple of hours and it felt great! They have a gorgeous house right on the water - huge sailboat tied up to their private dock, baby grand piano in the living room, truly a home from a magazine. But they are very nice and unpretentious folks. It was so fun! <BR> <BR> Today hanging with some other friends and watching the "blizzard" we are expecting. LOL. Happy Sunday all! <BR> <BR> I ... Sun, 12 Mar 2017 10:03:34 EST Side Planks! Started the day with yoga. I actually did SIDE PLANKS! When she was first talking us into the move, my body was like, "Yeah, right. You can't do that!" But I pushed up and to my surprise, I PLANKED! <BR> <BR> In other news, we went out last night. I took my guitar and songs. It turns out that there were several other musicians already set up, so I just decided to sit it out. Still struggling. But tonight we're going to a new friend's home (she has a baby grand piano!) and w... Sat, 11 Mar 2017 12:50:33 EST Snow? Are You Serious? It's been in the 60's, 70's and even up into the 80's....and yet, this weekend, when we SPRING FORWARD.... are calling for SNOW. <BR> <BR> Seriously? O_0 <BR> <BR> Welcome to North Carolina..... <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Fri, 10 Mar 2017 15:45:58 EST LITTLE Things Make a BIG Difference! Got a Spark Trophy today for being on SP for 200 days straight! That was straight through the holidays, straight through a lot of stress, and straight through even some days where I didn't always make the best choices. <BR> <BR> But I SHOWED UP. Every day. It's a habit now - and I almost panic if I think about missing a day on Spark. I know that even on a low day, I will see something or learn something that will KEEP me here. Education from an article that will help me. Encouragement f... Wed, 8 Mar 2017 12:45:34 EST Counting the Days... Only 16 more days to be on call. It's like the on-call gods know that and they are using me to the max. Busy weekend. Back call the next two days, but then I get a three day weekend. Looking forward to it. <BR> <BR> On another note, I've been practicing and I think I'm going to join a friend at the local pub to play a little on Friday. <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 7 Mar 2017 18:01:11 EST Grrrr.... Just going to leave this here.... <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Mon, 6 Mar 2017 10:22:24 EST The Importance of Letting Others In I am so blown away by the constant and wonderful support I get on this site. I try to acknowledge everyone's comments, but I am sure sometimes I miss one. So please know that I SO APPRECIATE each and every one of you! I can definitely see why having a support group is in the top 5 characteristics of those who lose weight and keep it off. For those of you who have been hiding in the shadows, not reaching out to others for whatever reason ("I'm not committed enough and I don't want anyone t... Fri, 3 Mar 2017 10:11:43 EST Just Relax... I realized today that I need to RELAX. I constantly feel stressed or like I'm a failure if I haven't done an hours' worth of exercise a day, or ate entirely on plan. But you know what? I'm doing GREAT. I'm steadily losing weight, I feel good, my clothes are looser...and it's because I HAVE made my healthy choices my lifestyle. No, I don't do 100% everyday. But on the days I don't do 100%, I'm still doing at least 90%. Holy cow, that's amazing! It's kind of like walking a long distanc... Thu, 2 Mar 2017 12:23:31 EST I GOT THE JOB!! I got the call yesterday and they offered me MY DREAM JOB! I am so very excited! This is truly the pinnacle for me in my career. The one position I have always wanted. I am beyond excited. I am now a full-time Social Work Trainer with the NC Division of Social Services! I start on March 20th. I will be traveling quite frequently, so I am amping up to be able to continue my healthy lifestyle on the road. It's going to be great! <BR> <BR> I GOT THIS. Tue, 28 Feb 2017 09:41:05 EST Wisdom of Friends I had posted that I'm really struggling with my confidence and what I want to do with my music. I have lots of friends who play music and they do a lot of stuff that people seem to love, but it's not the kind of music I like or sound good doing. For example, Allman Brothers, Eagles, John Mayer, etc. I think that's been a big part of my problem. I like and sound better doing more "ballad-y" stuff - stuff that moves me when I sing it. So I asked my friend for some ideas of what songs I sho... Mon, 27 Feb 2017 09:20:19 EST