NANILEE40's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NANILEE40 NANILEE40's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ New Slate http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183886 I woke up this morning decided to start new and fresh. I was not happy how I ended the year. I gained 11lbs within 2 months. I got relaxed into my old ways. I felt the difference, in my clothes and health. I realize sometimes you fall but in my case it takes me a while to get up. Today I need to get control of everything around me. I decided not to let the words I can't take over. It will be I can with strength, confidence and faith. I just needed the kick, Here I go on a new jou... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 13:00:24 EST Appointment left me unsure about my weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4873963 A few months back, I was on Dr Oz website were he was giving away for testing on cholesterol, glucose and weight. So I manage to win one. My appointment was yesterday. I was glad I did it. I fasted 8 hours before, weighted myself 147.8 not bad. I get there they take my blood pressure which is high of course, then they take my blood for the different test. Then send me to another person who did my waist, height and weight. I get on the scale for her to weigh me it says i weigh 141.2. ... Wed, 9 May 2012 12:50:13 EST I feel like i am going back a step instead of forward http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4773757 I feel lately that I am in a fog. I have so much going on. Its a flash back to the same time when i had the same feelings. I dealt with it by gaining all my weight back. It feels like I am interrupting everyone's schedule when i want to do something like walk in the park for a couple of hours. Its the only place i love to go to relax and relieve some stress. I keep saying to myself don't do it. You got this far don't give up. I don't want to take a backward step. I want to keep going and ... Tue, 6 Mar 2012 12:49:47 EST Happy Birthday To Me. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755105 I can't believe its my Birthday. I am so happy with myself from last year until know. Weighing a total of 230 lbs starting this journey from last year, as of today 157 lbs <em>334</em> . I sure have come a long way. One thing I am grateful for is how sparkpeople have made this journey a learning a experience. I have my confidence back thought I lost it. It was there waiting for me. Now I can tackle life's challenges a little better. My journey is still not complete but I know, I can d... Fri, 24 Feb 2012 13:14:03 EST Focusing http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4680293 Almost half way thru january and I feel that I am loosing my momentum. I am very proud that I was able to loose 63 lbs last year. I never thought I be at 167. That I was destined to be fat. This year I need to start focusing again. I have been focusing but not enough. Today I decided that I need to step it up. Not let other people's words get to me. I am doing this for me. Reminder is a good thing. Its something I want and I can do. Just need to keep faith and endurance. Sat, 14 Jan 2012 13:47:16 EST Walking in the park http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4594182 Today I walked in the park. Its not far from my home. I usually walk my grandson to school and back, that was my daily walk. So I needed to find a new route for day when I don't have to walk him. The park was my best choice. As I walked to the park, I remember, how I use to get tired just getting there. Today it was invigorating. I felt calm, happy and enjoying the view. I did two laps around the park watching a few people walking or running. while others just sat in there cars and ate.... Mon, 21 Nov 2011 15:51:15 EST Scales http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4556073 I went to take my grandson to the doctors. Not feeling well at all. So I watch as they weighed him. I said to myself I am going to check my weight on there. So I get on with my sneakers says I weigh 183 wow I did loose weight. Then I took them off says I weigh 181.2. I was jumping up and down. So I did it again to see if both results were the same just waiting 5 minutes. I got the same results. I checked to see on the doctors scale when was the last time they made sure it was calibra... Thu, 27 Oct 2011 15:01:41 EST Feeling Scared http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4536995 I sit here wondering if i let my past dictate my future again. I am at the same point with my weight i was 3 yrs ago. I always let my emotions get the best of me. I let my past sometimes dictate the way i should go. I gained my weight back in one yr plus additional 20 lbs . The additional was with someone who i thought was there to support me on my journey to weight lost. Now I am thankful that I channeled my anger toward my weight loss. Now I am scared that what is going on around me w... Sat, 15 Oct 2011 16:17:27 EST Moving http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4524450 Now I am worried that when we drive to down to Florida. What are we going to eat? I am worried that I will not pick the right foods. Since we are driving down, most likely stop at a restaurant to eat. I don't know what to do. I have been thinking about this a lot. <em>39</em> Fri, 7 Oct 2011 16:15:50 EST