NANCYSINATRA's SparkPeople Blog NANCYSINATRA's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community November Ok, I have had 4 days of pity party and withdrawing from SP, so it's time to get back on track and post some goals for the month. But first a recap of last month. <BR> My goals last month were to not go for perfection, and not throw the carton of eggs on the floor with one mistake. For the most part, I did OK with that. I had two really bad spells during the month but had several days that I "cheated" with my food, or didn't get in fitness, but didn't throw the entire day down the drain, ... Mon, 4 Nov 2013 10:03:37 EST Fun Runs?? As the Turkey Stuffer 5K is fast approaching, I have been reflecting on my journey these past two years. Two years ago if someone would have asked me if I would be interested in doing a 5K I would have laughed in their face, especially since I was over 300 lbs. <BR> Seven months after joining Sparkpeople In April of 2012, I entered my first 5K weighing in at 234 lbs. Once I had signed up, I decided I wanted to be able to jog some of it because I really did NOT want to finish last, so I ... Fri, 18 Oct 2013 17:52:13 EST Binge Disclaimer: This is a post for me to vent and try to sort out some thoughts, so sorry if you're reading and it seems confusing. <BR> <BR> So yesterday was a planned day of rest. I got up, did my spark stuff and was thinking about taking the dogs for a walk. Then I get a text message about an update on the Nike challenge I'm part of. I excitedly go to see the updates. and find there is a new site for the cornholios that have taken cornholio pictures. I'm excited because I sent mine in to ... Fri, 11 Oct 2013 18:26:20 EST Nutrition Tracker linked with Fitness??? Is anyone using it? Yesterday i decided I REALLY needed carbs. lol. My go to crave food is either chocolate, or bread. Yes, I'm kind of a bread-a-holic. So last night I decided I was going to feed my craving by having soup (SP acorn/broccoli soup) and some crispy rustic honey wheat artisan bread. Mmmm. Of course I ended up eating almost the entire load, so my dinner calories were very close to 1000. It ended up throwing me over my calories for the day. I thought since I'd gone for a 4 mile walk maybe I was... Wed, 9 Oct 2013 14:48:44 EST Fall 5% Challenge My exercise commitment for the Fall 5% Challenge is <BR> <BR> 1. Walk at least 15 miles a week <BR> 2. Complete the SP 5K Walk/Jog program so I can jog the Turkey Trot <BR> 3. Complete 2000 fitness minutes each month <BR> <BR> My nutrition commitment for the Fall 5% Challenge is. <BR> <BR> 1. Track my food 80% of the time, good or bad!! <BR> 2. Eat within my calorie range 80% of the time. <BR> 3 Try a new recipe once a week <BR> <BR> <BR> I WILL do this!!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> I'm also sup... Wed, 2 Oct 2013 17:01:10 EST October Time for me to get some goals down on paper (lol). Last month was the first month is quite awhile I didn't gain weight. I'm not real happy with the 2.5 lb loss, but it is still better than a gain. To assure I have a better month this month, I am going to post my goals. <BR> <BR> First, I am not going for perfection. I will NOT beat myself up if I make one bad choice and then just give up for the rest of that day. In other words, i will NOT throw the entire carton of eggs on the floor if/... Tue, 1 Oct 2013 17:27:58 EST Today is a New Day I am back and starting again. How I hate to say that over and over. I have that card up in my house that says if you're tired of starting over, quit stopping, yet I stop over and over again. <BR> I started this journey two years ago this month. When I started I was at 302 lbs. A year later i was down 84 lbs to 218. A year after that (this month) I am up 58 lbs to 276. How did this happen? Why have I had to start over so many times just to fail again after having so much success? <B... Sun, 1 Sep 2013 10:26:14 EST A great way to start over 258.4 <BR> I think the biggest reason I have been struggling to stay on track is I keep comparing where I am to where I was, then I feel defeated and give up. As my aunt says, when I drop an egg, I just throw the rest of the carton on the floor too. <BR> ***I get up to go for a walk, and after a mile I think I can't do this, why am I hurting so bad when I use to walk 4-7 miles a day? Then I come home and eat ice cream. <BR> ***Then I try to jog and can't , and I think I jogged an entire 5K ... Mon, 17 Jun 2013 10:37:49 EST Trying to find my MOJO again Yesterday I got up with intentions of going for a walk, but the day before when I got back from my walk and was stretching I messed up my back pretty bad. Yesterday i could hardly get out of bed, so going for a walk didn't happen. I thought I could still make good food choices since 80% of weight loss is about food. Well, I did until dinner, then it just kept getting worse and worse after a trip to Safeway with chocolate cake and coffee cake. <BR> This morning I'm in bed thinking how do I ... Sat, 8 Jun 2013 11:58:13 EST Day one, for the last time. 266.2 <BR> Amazing how much can change in just three days. Not sure how it all started, but I think the number on the scale going up a few ounces had something to do with it. Then I needed to go grocery shopping so decided to go out to eat first, at Red Lobster. Spent 70.00 on a dinner I didn't even enjoy. (loved the dessert though) Then just couldn't seem to get back on track again. Of course I blamed school and the prepping for finals, but those are just excuses. I can still make good ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 10:39:38 EST Day Seven of the restart 258.0 <BR> Today will make it one week I've been back on my journey. Not real happy with the scale today, but I did have a bit more sodium that I should have. My carbs were higher than normal but still within range, so not really sure what is going on. <BR> OK, yesterday I met my goals, didn't go for a walk, but a day off is OK. Already dressed and ready to take dogs for a walk this am though. Last day of my first three goals: <BR> <BR> 1. TRACK ALL FOOD <BR> 2. TAKE VITAMINS <BR> 3... Mon, 3 Jun 2013 09:44:41 EST Day Six of the restart 256.8 <BR> I'm still loving this one to two pounds a day loss. What's funny is that I'm completely amazed by it because I'm not working that hard at it. The last few days I've gotten in short walks with the dogs so I've gotten my sweat on, but no where even close to where I use to be. I'm only walking 2-4 miles, trying REALLY hard to keep my pace between 15 and 16 minute miles. My calorie range is 1500-1800, so a little lower than what it was when I was jogging and working out 1 1/2-2 hou... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 11:10:35 EST Day FIVE (woo hoo) of the restart 259.0 <BR> I'm so happy to be out of the 260s. Had a very good day yesterday. Stayed within my calorie range, no binge, and got in some fitness time. I know I'm not going to continue to see a pound or more a day come off. I know right now my body is just adjusting and cleaning out all the sodium and crap. But man it feels good. :) I just have to be mentally prepared for when the scale stops moving daily. <BR> <BR> The next two days are going to be homework intensive, so I have to mak... Sat, 1 Jun 2013 10:41:02 EST Day FOUR of the restart 262.0 <BR> Bad part of yesterday, I went WAY TOO LONG without eating. I didn't get my water in until the end of the day, and I ate almost 2/3 of my calories at dinner. <BR> The good, I met all three goals. <BR> Today I have already filled in most of my tracker, and I'm getting ready to take the dogs for a brisk walk before starting on homework. I'm also adding one more goal today. I have a problem with losing track of time once I sit down at the computer. I get started on homework, and th... Fri, 31 May 2013 09:42:32 EST Day THREE of the restart 263.2 <BR> Mixed feelings today. On one hand I'm really down, because the scale is up, and I went on a bit of a binge last night after hubby went to bed. (I should have gone too) On the other hand though, I met all three of my goals. Even though I pigged out on stuff I shouldn't have been eating, I put it all in the tracker. I'm trying to pat myself on the back for eating good all day. ( I only blew it after 9 pm) Also, I'm still here. I didn't give up after the binge last night. That i... Thu, 30 May 2013 12:16:50 EST Day TWO of the restart 262.6 <BR> Woo Hoo, Day one and behind me and it was a success. I started to stress out around 1 pm when I still hadn't made it out for a walk with the dogs, but then I just took a breath and said "it's ok". I struggle so much with the all or nothing mentality that if I eat one thing wrong I tend to binge, or if I don't get in any fitness time, I eat chocolate. So even though I didn't make it out for a walk yesterday, it was a huge WIN!! I stayed within my calorie ranges, and I hit all thr... Wed, 29 May 2013 10:24:34 EST Day ONE of the restart 266.8 <BR> Time to start over. I was so close to ONEderland, now it seems like forever away. Yesterday I had to go buy new clothes again. This time my clothes not fitting is NOT a good thing. I cried so much yesterday trying on some size 22W that was too tight. I was almost out of the W clothes. How I wish I knew how it got so bad. I'm almost back to where I started. <BR> <BR> SO, time to start from scratch. I have three goals this week. <BR> 1. TRACK ALL FOOD!!! Every bite, even if... Tue, 28 May 2013 09:31:14 EST December Goals Yes, the month is half over, so why am I posting goals? i really need to stay focused and get on track. Once again my life feels like it is totally out of control, so I have to do something. I made a new chart (erasable this time) now I need to continue to use it. So every Wednesday I will update my progress for the week. I NEED accountability!!! <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> <BR> Walk/Jog 30 miles a week <BR> <BR> ST 4 times a week, even if it's only 10 minutes at home <BR> <BR> 500 fitness... Fri, 14 Dec 2012 18:29:36 EST The Turkey Squash I'm not real sure what this blog is going to be about, but someone asked me to post one about the race, so here goes. <BR> <BR> I think the main reason I joined the race is so I wouldn't have to cook Thanksgiving dinner. This is my second Thanksgiving since starting on this journey, and I still feel like I don't really want to cook a bunch of stuff I shouldn't be eating. And the leftovers are killers. Last year I got roped into it the week before Thanksgiving, so this year I had a great e... Tue, 27 Nov 2012 18:26:08 EST November Goals The first week of the month is almost over, and I have finally gotten back on track. So now it's time to set some goals. <BR> As much as I hate to set weight goals, by not setting them, I haven't really been losing weight. I am up and down with the same 10-15 lbs for MONTHS now. SO, my goal for November is to get down to 210 lbs. That is a fairly aggressive goal, but maybe that's what I need right now to stay focused. <BR> I will continue to weigh in only once a week. <BR> I will track... Thu, 8 Nov 2012 16:46:22 EST October Scavenger Hunt Last month on one of teams I'm on they added a scavenger hunt to our monthly mileage tracker. I must say it was quite fun. Normally I do all my walking on a logging trail, so not much to see besides nature (and the occasional WILD cows). This hunt got me out of my comfort zone and out riding my bike more. Ended up on several trips to the gym on my bike just to make sure I could get in and see all the items while getting in fitness minutes. <BR> Here's the first list. <BR> <img src="htt... Sun, 4 Nov 2012 12:04:02 EST BL Restart- Mid-Round Slump I just took a look at my BL goals again. As I sit here looking at my chart, the first 3 1/2 weeks looks great. I did what i was suppose to do. How is it we are 6 weeks into this? I knew I went on vacation for a week, but what about the other two weeks? Where did they go? Looking at it, I now realize how quickly time goes by. <BR> The week before vacation my mind had already left. that's why only 3 1/2 weeks of tracking. That last half week I was TOTALLY off course. I had an almost ... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 10:56:10 EST October Goals Goals for October. <BR> <BR> Biggest Loser is still going on for the entire month, so my goals are going to be about the same. <BR> My focus is NOT going to be the scale, but my effort. <BR> <BR> Fitness: <BR> <BR> walk/jog 20 miles a week <BR> ADD bike 90 minutes a week <BR> Total fitness minutes each week 500 for a weekly calorie burn of 4000. <BR> <BR> Nutrition: <BR> <BR> Track 80% of time <BR> Eat in range 80% of time, with two 7 day streaks during month <BR> daily deficit of ... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 11:37:00 EST Positive things?? This is the hardest blog I have ever written. Even posting the video of me trying to get into those jeans was a cake walk compared to this. Part of my BL team challenge this week is to write 4 positive things about yourself. Sounds easy right? Not for me. Funny thing when I was talking to my step daughter about the challenge this weekend, she got it. Her husband asked what the big deal was. She looked at him and said, "positive feedback is not something Darlene does". That was hard to h... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 10:04:07 EST BL 20 Goals with pics UpDated! My goal always seems to be to lose weight. Even though that is ultimately what I want to happen, it is no longer something I will set as a goal. Instead, my goals will be measurable things, completely in my control, that will help me to lose weight. <BR> Sticking with the Spark idea, I will set goals around fitness, nutrition and motivation. <BR> <BR> Goals: <BR> <BR> Fitness: Goal 80% (10 of 12 weeks) <BR> 1. 500 fitness minutes a week with a minimum of 30 minutes a day. <BR> 2. Burn ... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 11:12:49 EST One year on Spark I just sat here reflecting on the past year, and reading through my old blogs. It has made me want to reach out to some people that very supportive of me in the early stages of my journey. Some are still here, others have left Spark. I wish I had a way to contact them and let them know to NOT give up, EVER. I know when I first joined my fear was that I would give up after a month or two, because that is what I normally do. I was pretty excited when I had been here for three months. LOL.... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 17:40:57 EST I will NOT quit pledge. I came across this today on someones blog. This week is my one year anniversary on Spark, and with things going on in my life, I have felt like giving up, so this was perfect timing. <BR> <BR> Tuesday, September 11, 2012 <BR> <BR> "Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and downs I pass through, I will continue on my journey. <BR> <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, and forgive myself for my past, and to stop being so critical of myself. ... Tue, 11 Sep 2012 12:01:48 EST My morning walk with the dogs Watch for a good laugh Stupid dog just had to bark as the cows. Totally cracks me up to see this. You can see the hair on her back raised. She thinks she is so tough, but did you see her RUN!!! LOL Fri, 7 Sep 2012 18:34:33 EST My get into jeans. Will try these on again the end of Septemeber. Planning on wearing them on the rides in October. i sure hope I did this right. LOL Wed, 29 Aug 2012 23:40:58 EST Getting on a bike again after 10+ years. With pics. LOL A spark friend has been doing some triathalons, and got me to thinking about doing one, in a year or so. I spoke with DH about maybe taking some swim lessons, since I can swim around the pool and lake playing pretty well, but really have no form. Next step was to get on a bike again. I mean it has been over 10 years since I've been on one. <BR> So, Monday we get new bikes. Tuesday too tired to do anything with them. Wednesday put bikes in back on truck to go to path with the dogs for sh... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 00:43:52 EST My Money Jar Motivation <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here is my money jar. It has helped my find my spark again. Woo Hoo!! <BR> <BR> Here's how it works: <BR> <BR> Every day I am within my calorie range= Earn one dollar <BR> Each day I'm in range on the weekends= Earn two dollars <BR> Each day I track my food in advance= Earn one dollar (must already be in tracker before I get up in the morning) <BR> Each day I track my food in advance on weekend=Earn two dollars... Thu, 16 Aug 2012 16:00:25 EST August Goals Wow a blog two days in a row? Really? <BR> OK, so last time I made made goals public, I totally failed on all accounts. I can make the excuse that I hurt my back and was down, but I still felt like a failure and am REALLY afraid of posting goals again. But like they say, if you fall off that horse (or wagon), you have to get right back on. So here goes. <BR> <BR> Since I am starting over, I have very simple goals that are totally in my control. <BR> <BR> 1. Eat every 2-3 hours <BR> 2... Wed, 8 Aug 2012 11:30:10 EST Breaking the Plateau Been awhile seen I posted a blog, so I think it's about time. I started one months ago and it was about doing this more often so I have a record of my progress, but as I was trying to post it, it was deleted so I gave up. So, it's time for an update. <BR> <BR> I popped over here to update my page for a team challenge I saw then that I had lost 70 lbs in May. It is now August, and I am still at a 70 lb loss. Am I stuck on a plateau? Not in the traditional sense. I think I'm stuck on ... Tue, 7 Aug 2012 18:13:52 EST 7lb loss in 4 days??!!?? After my three weeks of inactivity because of my back, I finally got on the scale Monday morning, really hoping to see nothing over 238 after all the poor food choices I had made the last 3 weeks. Luckily the scale was at 234, only a 4.4lb gain. Wednesday I had a weigh in with my BL team, so I was really focused on nutrition Monday and Tuesday, Totally watching my carbs. Taking advice I've heard about no "starchy" carbs after lunch, and limiting them extremely even in the AM, but not goin... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 11:44:47 EST BL 19 Goals To be able to jog an entire 5K without walking. <BR> Will accomplish by completing 5K training program. Walk Run on MWF. <BR> Reward=Zombie obstacle course 5K run <BR> <BR> Stay within calorie ranges 90% of the time. <BR> Will accomplish by planning meals in advance and sticking to them. <BR> Reward=pressure cooker <BR> <BR> 200 ST minutes weekly minimum <BR> Will accomplish by ST in gym MWF, and daily core exercises at home. <BR> Reward=new workout clothes <BR> <BR> Change up cardio ro... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 01:11:31 EST Excuse or Excess? My former boss says to me all the time I over-think things. Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Don't we all wear those Rose colored glasses at times? So isn't questioning why we do things a good thing? LOL Again, I think the point is OVER thinking it. <BR> This weekend I get sick. I can hardly breathe. I spend all day sleeping, except when I get up to eat. Last night I felt my head clearing up and decided I was going to go to gym today. I get up and it's all moved to my chest. I'm... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 16:25:40 EST Self Sabotage Why do I do this to myself? <BR> <BR> I love watching The Biggest Loser. The question that always comes up is "how did you get to this point?" I have asked myself that question so many times, and just don't have an answer. Do I deserve health and happiness? HHmm?? I would think so, but maybe that's it. Why is it that every time I have a success, I have to do something REALLY stupid and take away that good feeling? Am I just crazy? Do I need psychological help? <BR> <BR> This past... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 13:50:03 EST A new name A Spark friend suggested this name for me since I do so much walking. Couldn't think of a better one (that wasn't already taken that is), so Hateputer is now NancySinatra!! The reason??? To be positive!! It seems the only time I blog is when I'm down and having a problem. I truly want to be happy and content with me. That has to start with a positive new name. So out with the HATE, and in with the WALKING!!! <img src=""> Tue, 20 Mar 2012 11:21:27 EST Thank you Sydney!!! I fell off the wagon on Christmas Eve. I have a lot of excuses I could use, but I just lost my motivation. So after a month I decided it was time to get going again. I must say I was rather surprised when i got on the scale and it was under 250. OMG,, how did that happen when I wasn't walking or working out? It was the changes I had made in my life. I have learned so much on SP, and those changes have been incorporated into my life without me even realizing it. So that should have moti... Thu, 9 Feb 2012 14:21:18 EST A bad weekend Where do I start. Maybe I should start with this morning. I was feeling down, and pretty bad about my weekend, and the end of last week. I signed on to SP, which I had not been on for days, and I see several comments on my SP page, and previous blogs. It brought tears of joy to my eyes. I thought I needed to sit down and write a blog to all those supporters I have here on SP, thanking them. So a big THANK YOU to all of you!!! <BR> So last week I got a bit behind on my walking and fitnes... Mon, 19 Dec 2011 11:41:53 EST 3 months in Today is my 3 month anniversary on SP. I have lost 45lbs, and am right on track to hit my goal of 53 lbs by the end of the year. I have lost 6" in my waist, 7" from my hips, a whopping 5" from my thighs, and 2 ' from my upper arms. <BR> So as much as that sounds, I look in the mirror and still see that fat person. I am still ashamed for my husband to see me naked. I have that wonderful belly flop that my mom refers to as a "man hole cover". As much as I have been working out in the gym,... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 11:44:40 EST The dreaded scale So I have come to really hate the #&*#*)! scale. Today is no different, but for a different reason. I know the number is not correct. There is absolutely NO WAY I lost 6 lbs in 5 days. So why does this upset me??? Because i can't get the 258 out of my head!! I'm sure when i get back on the scale Thursday for my real weigh in, it is going to be a 260 something again, and THEN I'm going to cry, thinking I did something wrong. I have gotten on that *#*#&$@ scale 4 times today, just waitin... Mon, 5 Dec 2011 15:04:25 EST What was I thinking???? So a month ago I started to stress over Thanksgiving. No plans had been made, so I thought the two of us would just have a little something at home and kind of skip turkey day. Ya right. <BR> So first my sister in-law calls to ask what the plan is. I tell her not much, and she gets upset. Both of them have to work, so they want me to cook. I tell her it will be a healthy dinner then. She complains and starts in about the homemade bread, stuffing, cheesy noodles, cauliflower with cheese,... Tue, 22 Nov 2011 11:17:33 EST Two months in Yesterday I was out on a 5 mile walk and had an AHA moment. <BR> Two days earlier I had my two month anniversary on SP, and was not very happy. My first month I lost 21lbs. Several people told me that a goal of 20lbs a month was a steep goal, and I should think about lowering it. So I did. I set my goal at 15lbs for month two. Well, I only lost 12lbs. I was feeling pretty down. I mean I have upped my calorie burn A LOT. I walk 6 days a week, I work out and do strength training 5-6 da... Wed, 16 Nov 2011 16:33:37 EST November 9th. A GREAT DAY!! So I was not going to get on the scale until Sunday. Yesterday at the gym one of the trainers asked how I was doing, and if I had increased my calories. I told him I had, but was discouraged because I gained three pounds, so I lowered them back down. He said he "knows" the secret is to increase calories. I laughed and told him "I just told you I gained weight, and you want me to increase my calories? Good luck getting me to buy into that one." <BR> So, I am going to try and increase my c... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 17:25:30 EST November 1st. Day ONE I love the first of the month. It's a great time to start over. Ended up gaining back three pounds, BUT, still ended up 11 lbs lighter than I started the month. I WILL be at 250 by the end of the year!!! Tue, 1 Nov 2011 18:33:30 EST A New Day Up early, and finally in good spirits again. Heading off to the beach for the weekend. Hoping to get in at least 15 miles walking this weekend. I LOVE the Oregon Coast!! Fri, 28 Oct 2011 11:13:33 EST Why am I unhappy with the scale?? So there are still 5 days left in the month, and today I hit 15lbs lost this month, so why am I not happy with that. That was my goal for this month? <BR> I am working my butt off in the gym, and walking 5+ miles a day, so I feel it should be more. I really want to be happy about the number on the scale today, but I'm not. It makes me just want to work out that much more!!! Thu, 27 Oct 2011 12:16:09 EST I CAN DO IT!!! I Know I Can!!! I think I can So to weigh or not to weigh???? That is the question. <BR> If I weigh on Thursday and don't see results again, am I going to feel like giving up again? Should I just wait until the end of the month? HELP <BR> <BR> Anyone else??? I have to make a decision tonight so my husband can bring the scale out of hiding. I really want to know, but not if it is going to just discourage me again. Tue, 25 Oct 2011 22:36:45 EST Feeling like giving up I know the scale is not the only measurement to use when on a weight loss journey, yet today I let it get the best of me. Forget that I have lost 11 pounds this month already, I lost nothing in the last two days, even after hard workouts in the gym, and cardio DVD workouts. I have also continued to walk everyday, and make sure I stay within all my food ranges. <BR> So why try so hard???? I am sitting here crying, unhappy with the scale. I want a snickers ice cream bar. I want a peanut bu... Thu, 20 Oct 2011 15:12:36 EST