NANCY-'s SparkPeople Blog NANCY-'s Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community One Hot Mess Okay perhaps the "hot" should have been left out. The last six weeks have been a drama laden, pity party. <BR> <BR> 1. Just before Christmas, hubby got laid off. Oh yes and we were hosting both Christmas Eve Dinner and Christmas Day Dinner. So now he has decided to retire he finally wants to figure out what to do with his retirement accounts. Really now? "Oh Well." <BR> <BR> 2. My insurance has gotten really outrageous and with the layoff, now is the time to find something that is afforda... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 12:34:41 EST Here comes the Stupor Bowl First of all I am not a big sports fan to begin with. I have never understood why massive quantities of greasy and calorie laden food need to be consumed surrounding a sporting event. It's not like the fans will be expending energy like the athletes. Beer flowing to wash all the food down, post game stomach bloat elicits thoughts like "he looks pregnant." Lethargy sets in. <BR> <BR> Glistening greasy wings, dip, chips... my stomach is starting to turn already just thinking about it. I'm goi... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 11:07:22 EST Ton of Fun Weigh-in! Made it to the weigh-in, it was good to see familiar faces and a bunch of new. There were some new partners for this challenge too. Feeling a bit weak, I just took the info and return home. Still doing mostly the BRAT diet thing, Bland is good, as I really cannot taste anything anyway. <BR> <BR> Okay enough pity pot. I know there are many things that I still need to do and the priority is to establish and ingrain a sustainable healthy lifestyle. <BR> Chicken soup is the soup du jour. Wed, 7 Jan 2015 09:16:42 EST Oh Crap!!! Weigh is tomorrow! My weight is down three pounds since December 18th, 2015 hasn't been very kind so far, and having tons of mucus, a sore throat and the worst case of conjunctivitis, my doctor has ever seen, has not left me with much of an appetite lately, Okay now that I have probably grossed you out, I do not think any of us want to lose weight that way. <BR> <BR> So why wouldn't I be happy? <BR> I've joined the "Ton of Fun" Challenge and tomorrow is the first weigh-in. When I feel better my weight will... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 12:57:04 EST Baby New Year's First Steps ... SPLAT!?!? Off to a great start. Not. Nothing planned for today but a cheese tray. All I am interested in is the bland carbs. Perhaps dome apple sauce will help. The Boy Scout motto would have been great to implement, if I only had thought to "be prepared." Actually I was somewhat prepared and had healthier options to select from. <BR> <BR> See how hard I am on myself. Day One of 2015 and I am already expecting perfection?! For the way I was feeling, It was good enough. And I give myself credit fo... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 15:34:52 EST Closing Out 2014! Welcome 2015! Really another year gone by already?! Oh my! Did I achieve my dreams, no! Have I made progress towards my dreams? YES!!!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> My self-improvement agenda for 2015 is to do Fleet Feet's Ton of Fun Challenge again, that will tale me up to April. I will continue to expand my horizons and what other opportunities come my way. <BR> <BR> I've got some sort of virus (gift from my son) so I will be spending New ... Wed, 31 Dec 2014 15:49:15 EST Tidings of Comfort and Joy! It’s a wonderful time of year to remember that EVERYTHING IS A GIFT. Even if it doesn’t seem that way at the time. - Lorie Marrero <BR> <BR> Well I made it through hosting Christmas and Christmas Eve. <BR> Christmas Eve dinner - Wigilia is the big one. <BR> 1. Rolls/Rye BU&#321;KA / CHLEB <BR> 2. Herring &#346;LED&#377; <BR> 3. cucumbers Mizeria <BR> 4. Salad w/ mushrooms SA&#321;ATKA z GRZYBEK <BR> 5. Beets buraczki marynowane <BR> 6. Broccoli and cheese BROKU&#321; z Serem <BR... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 14:15:47 EST You have the same amount of hours in a day as ... (Beyonce's name was listed, but I prefer Ghandi, Mother Teresa) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Thankfully we do get to choose how we spend those hours. Sure there are parameters we need to work within, but we still have a lot of choice. <BR> <BR> In regard to food and weight: <BR> If we focus on resisting temptations then it is a battle, struggle. <BR> If we focus on maintaining our health, then there is a calm acceptance. Peace. T... Mon, 22 Dec 2014 09:47:27 EST Sometimes Things can be a bit Overwhelming. being another year older. <BR> That wasn't so bad. Yes I did indulge, but not overindulge. Two celebrations took place, one family which included a decadent boozy cupcake that I split in half. The other was going out my Wine and Whine Mother's From Hell group. I observed my one drink rule, ate until 80% full and was somewhat disappointed with both my drink and meal. No I wasn't impressed. I didn't eat like it was my last supper. What I did enjoy was the company of my wonderful ... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 20:40:05 EST When you're happy and you know it, eat a snack For those of you who haven't seen the new Weight Watchers ad: <BR> <link><BR>uSx_06U </link> <BR> <BR> Usually I'm not a a fan of commercials and marketing hype, however this ad made me smile as it touched on a truth for me. Can we say Emotional Eater? Although I have been getting better, I think this commercial should air multiple times nightly to serve as a reminder not to eat with our emotions. <BR> <BR> ( I have never been to or affiliated with W... Fri, 12 Dec 2014 07:56:46 EST Declare and Believe.... What Sparktacular inspiration is abounding here on SP. <BR> <BR> First I saw WATERMELLEN's comment about temptation: <BR> "Distraction, avoidance, substitution: all better for me than noble resistance. Resistance is futile!! " <BR> <BR> That says it all in a nutshell. Have a plan to deal with that wretched temptation. <BR> <BR> <BR> Then I read SWEDE_SU's comment on another Sparkpage. <BR> "claim being vegan because then you can convince yourself and the world that you don't eat chee... Sat, 6 Dec 2014 09:31:45 EST Found One More Thing to Be Thankful For WARNING <BR> *If you are in a good mood you may not want to continue reading* <BR> <BR> Now that Thanksgiving is over, all the leftovers are gone, my hosting duties are over until Christmas, my stress level has dropped. <BR> And you know what comes after being on high alert or finishing a big project.... sometimes we get hit with an illness. <BR> Now I am not looking for sympathy, just need to vent. Last night my digestive issues took a turn for the worse, I felt like I was doing a prep ... Wed, 3 Dec 2014 13:15:20 EST My thoughts on Mindless Eating tips Some tips from Brian Wansink, PhD on Mindless Eating: <BR> <BR> 1. Serve meals on nine- to ten-inch plates. Any smaller and you'll be going back for seconds; larger, and you'll pile on more to begin with. <BR> <BR> 2. Take the serving bowls off the table! The only exception: the ones containing vegetables. <BR> <BR> 3. Drink from a skinny glass. Your mind perceives height more readily than width, so you'll think you had more. <BR> <BR> 4. Choose a small serving spoon: In one Cornell study... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 10:28:14 EST Do we have enough? It was surprising that there were so many leftovers from our Thanksgiving dinner. There was worry about the turkey being small. We had a smoked turkey this year. Uh, turkey shrinks when smoked. but there was more than enough. One request was broccoli with cheese-like product as I like to call it. I would like to find a healthier recipe using real food. <BR> A few tweaks and now to plan our traditional Polish Wigilia Christmas Eve dinner. I will also be planning a smaller Christmas Day Dinne... Sat, 29 Nov 2014 07:02:37 EST What am I Thankful For... What am I thankful for: <BR> <BR> My wise and supportive friends here at SP. EVIE4NOW and DSHONEYC had it right, my sister is caught in hanging on the the past and is a little sad. TRAVELGRRL, she did finally let go the meat stuffing. <BR> <BR> My son and his family will be coming to dinner. <BR> <BR> We will be getting only about 5 inches of snow in the next 24 hours or so. <BR> <BR> The roads should be clear so we can pick up dinner on Thanksgiving morn. <BR> <BR> While the future m... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 08:31:33 EST Thanksgiving? Alrighty... just need to vent. <BR> Hosting has fallen to me over the past few years... mind you I had skillfully avoided this for decades. There will be 12.5 attending and yes I ordered dinner and planned what else was needed. <BR> My problem lies within my sister. I see it as her trying to hang onto the past, not wanting to let go. She made our mom's meat stuffing for year seven though only two of the crowd ate it anymore. she has a hard time letting go. <BR> We are opposites. I have an ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 07:43:21 EST Feeding the Soul Instead of the Stomach. Gotta say, there's a connection between the "comfortable life" and "comfort food". - WATERMELLEN <BR> <BR> Ah yes feeding the soul instead of the stomach. Yesterday was a day for that. Special Olympics held the Fall State games, so the mom's had a bit of freedom. Our children are now adults, and it was wonderful to have a respite of the caregiver role, <BR> <BR> It started with breakfast.... some protein, veg. A spinach/feta omelet seemed to fit the bill. It was a lot of food, but the conv... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 08:57:27 EST Hoping the Storm Will Clear Birds sing after a storm. Why shouldn't we? <BR> --Rose Kennedy <BR> <BR> I have been dealing with digestive issues for over two years now. My A1c has gone from 5,7 to 8. Having a 7 is what is the usual goal. Getting those numbers can be achieved by diet, exercise and medication. <BR> Although my issue is a legitimate challenge, I have been using it as an excuse. There are still things I can do. <BR> <BR> I want to sing. Tue, 18 Nov 2014 06:48:19 EST Welcoming Change There has been much talk about change lately. And many changes have taken place. <BR> Yet I still cling to the familiar that isn't working for me. <BR> <BR> Like the freshly fallen snow I awoke to this morning, I need a new perspective. I have changed, what I need to do has changed. <BR> <BR> This is not a bad thing... it's just different, My needs are different than what there were when I was a teen in high school. I am now a blessed grandmother. We all can lead a happy, healthy life to ... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 08:15:58 EST Empathy/Focus Thank you for all the kind and supportive comments on yesterday's blog and for that matter on all my blogs. One thing this past Veterans Day taught me was to have a little more empathy, Not only to those that have served, but to to all mankind. That includes myself. <BR> That empathy is not pity, it is a call to action. To show some kindness, extend a hand. <BR> Fortunately neither my husband or I have withdrawn, but we remain open to possibilities. <BR> I have been doing the Oprah/Chopr... Thu, 13 Nov 2014 08:52:52 EST Veterans Day The day offered many opportunities for expressing gratitude for service by our veterans. My sweetie rarely speaks of his service. Upon his return home he was not welcomed, but was greeted by protests and shunned. Of course this only added to the horrors that those had been in battle needed to endure. After all the years it is still painful for him. <BR> But this year was a break through, I got him to go out. It did help that he was offered a 1/2 rack by his fav BBQ restaurant. (Kansas City ... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 09:28:56 EST I still can do what I can do. It's been a bit of a struggle as of late with my digestive issues. I have fallen back into old ways of eating and adopted adaptive behaviors in order to get things done. <BR> For example: <BR> I'll have breakfast after going out and running errands. This way I avoid gastric distress while I'm out. <BR> The BRAT diet is loaded with carbs. <BR> <BR> However reading WATERMELLEN 's blogs on Back to Beck has reminded me that even through I have challenges right now, I can minimize the "damage"... Thu, 23 Oct 2014 10:07:50 EST Well that didn't work! Went back to my doctor and have yet another pill. ARGH!!! If this doesn't work it's off to the GI doc. What is infuriating is that usually folks with GI issues lose weight, me not so much. <BR> So ... <BR> What's a girl to do. Exercising has gone to the back burner while I try to quell my abdominal discomfort. The pool is out too. Walking done just a bit. My diet has become laden with mild white carbs. Yuck! <BR> So my life has changed... that means my needs have changed. While relieving pres... Sat, 18 Oct 2014 11:42:02 EST Pumpkin here, Pumpkin there, Pumpkin everywhere. Whatever happened to moderation! <BR> <em>147</em> <em>147</em> <em>147</em> <em>147</em> <em>147</em> <BR> The almighty pumpkin should share it's marketing agent with apples, beets, turnips and all the other bounty of the autumn harvest. <BR> <em>465</em> <BR> Here's one of my Fall Favs <BR> Cider-Braised Cabbage with Apples, Onion and Caraway <BR> <link><BR>l.asp?recipe=1412745 </link> <BR> <em>465</em> <BR> What's your Fall Favorit... Sat, 11 Oct 2014 09:36:17 EST Adaptive Behavior Yes I did go to the Doctor and received yet another pill. UGH! I'm giving it some time, but am disappointed that the source of my digestive system distress is still a mystery. <BR> I would like to thank all my Spark friends who have urged me to address this issue. When not feeling well it is challenging to be a self advocate. Succumbing to resignation is not what I desire, Resolution is. <BR> This weekend I attended the Coventry Regional Farmers' Market with my husband. He had never been a... Mon, 29 Sep 2014 11:18:57 EST Ran away from home.. I decided to put my stuff on hold and go see the grand kids, Yes I did adaptive stuff that really wasn't in my best interest, like not eating until 2pm. However that helped me get through the ride without incident. <BR> Now I that I have settled back in from the weekend away, I will contact my doctor and pursue this digestive issue. Being away made me realize how much this issue has impacted my life. It was good to get a fresh perspective. <BR> Now to take action. Thank you my dear Spark Fr... Wed, 24 Sep 2014 06:39:01 EST Facing Challenges I am an adaptable creature. Finding what works, the easiest route. <BR> <BR> For example: Since my digestive issues are such that I need to stay near porcelain facilities, my solution, not eat until after running errand. Then come home to eat breakfast. Sometimes that means having breakfast at noon. <BR> My blood glucose had been running high and I have noticed an impact cognitively. - Solution? Fall back to old familiar habits. NOT good!!! Even simple tasks are .... <BR> <BR> I have been... Wed, 17 Sep 2014 08:23:32 EST Great News!!! The Ton of Fun Challenge will be repeated in January!!!! <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <BR> Wow I've already got plans for 2015!!! How wonderful! <BR> <BR> Now to address September -December. Got my son's activities mapped out, Special Olympics Bowling and the Teen/Adult Socials. Good news is I know that I can walk around the exterior of alley while he bowls. That starts on Saturday. <BR> Tonight I think I will go and find out my award for P... Wed, 10 Sep 2014 08:45:56 EST Stuff Happens .."Oh Well" Yesterday I composed a wonderful blog about Music, as I was about to post when my computer crashed. "Oh well" <BR> Having that "Oh, well!" response that Dr. Judith Beck suggests helps me to move forward. Yes that may have sucked, but what can I do now. What's past is past. What counts is what I do now. Tue, 9 Sep 2014 08:20:55 EST Missed the ToF Picnic. Bummed about not making it to the Ton of Fun Challenge Finish Line Potluck last night, my body made other plans for me. I really wanted to see the smiles on the faces as their award(s) were announced. I still do not know mine and will share once I know. Attending would have been a mice way to close out this wonderful experience. <BR> <BR> There will be an upcoming newsletter about ongoing programs and weekly Wednesday night walks. The walks sound very doable to me. <BR> I still need to se... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 10:01:11 EST Final Weigh-in! Went for my final weigh-in. <BR> Disappointed that I didn't meet my goals. :( <BR> Disappointed that my digestive tract issues have returned, :( <BR> <BR> However after 11 weeks I have lost 11 pounds. <BR> A pound a week! Woo Hoo! :) <BR> I have gone out of my comfort zone, tried new exercises and found I can do more than I thought I could.. :) <BR> I made myself more of a priority. :) <BR> It is easier to get up off the floor. :) <BR> I am stronger. :) <BR> <BR> Would love to do it again. Thu, 4 Sep 2014 07:35:41 EST So Confused...need to find raison d'être. I really want to make changes. I do, I do, I do! <BR> I really don't want to make excuses. <BR> However I feel like a battle is being waged within. <BR> <BR> "Focus on Why You Want to Change <BR> Dr. Segar says, "It determines our quality and level of motivation for persisting in the behavior." If you focus on something more specific, such as the energy you'll feel if you exercise more and eat healthily, you will receive far more motivation to succeed." <BR> <BR> While being in pain al... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 09:26:23 EST What Gives! (Whine Alert) <BR> Going for my final weigh-in this coming week and what happens .... my body decides to make things interesting. Digestive issues are back, fasting glucose reading are up. <BR> REALLY?!?! Sometimes there is just no rhyme or reason, stuff just happens. <BR> <BR> Yes the summer was going well, I've got one more workout with the Ton of Fun Challenge. I will find a way to make that happen, the heck with my issues. <BR> <BR> As for this weekend, the rest of it is supposed to ... Sat, 30 Aug 2014 13:30:14 EST New Addition to the Family Here's our Li La <BR> (lee la). <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Playing with Li La, instead of munching, is one of the perks of adopting her. Tue, 26 Aug 2014 07:42:48 EST Lunch on the Verandah Over the last few years my sister and I have done a road trips to the shore for her birthday. This year was a bit different as she has some mobility issues. Since I am the instigator, I plot out the day. <BR> First stop was for lunch in Rhode Island on the Verandah overlooking the Atlantic Ocean. Since it was a birthday treat we had (the best ever) clam chowder with crispy pancetta. I don't know if the salt air and the sounds of the ocean waves made it taste better. But I want to go back. H... Sat, 23 Aug 2014 21:08:07 EST Winding down or Amp it up The final weigh in is on September 4th. <BR> <em>192</em> <BR> That's just 15 days away. <BR> <BR> Last night at WOW (workout of the week) we were half joking about fasting to get better results on the scale. With my meds, fasting is out of the question. I am not near my goal, so should I chuck it all in, NO. I have made progress, I am more fit. Yes folks, it is easier to get off the floor. Do I want to go back to where I was in mid-June, NO! <BR> Yes I still have to work on work on r... Wed, 20 Aug 2014 10:29:26 EST Gotta learn not give in to impluse/temptation Great news... this week's weigh in I was down. Now it's a total of 12 pounds. There are only three more weigh-ins left. My original goal was to be down 27 pounds over the 12 weeks. Sure I could probably drop 15, but it probably would not be healthy. Besides working toward a sustainable lifestyle is my goal. <BR> <BR> Logging my food although a great idea, really hasn't happened. I do plan my meals and maybe should put more of a focus on that. <BR> Yesterday's trip to Costco, lead me to mak... Sat, 16 Aug 2014 11:30:59 EST My Dear Spark Friends, you may be right. Right about what you may ask? Looking forward to that boot camp that I swore never to return to. <BR> The last few day I have had much better fasting blood glucose numbers. Stressing, building muscular strength and endurance, oh my! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> There are only three more weeks that I can use the Ton of Fun passes. Thu, 14 Aug 2014 08:27:50 EST Achy Breaky My body has been asking "What the heck are you thinking?" since last Friday. The aquatics workout left me feeling sore all weekend and finally on Monday the soreness abated a bit. But it was time for another aquatics session. Awoke Tuesday morning with soreness yet again. ARGH!!! so I though I would take it easy during my Tuesday Aquatics session and just go and observe the Bootcamp session at Work In Progress(WIP). My aquatics instructor states she noticed changes in the shape of my body, ... Wed, 13 Aug 2014 08:45:42 EST The Giver I was raised to be a giver. I have always given to everybody, except to me. My needs were considered secondary. It is not selfish to take care of oneself. <BR> <BR> What do I need for my own well-being? <BR> What to I need to give to myself? <BR> <BR> These simple questions need answers that I was not taught. Now I need to answer and give to myself what I need. Slowly I have been making the shift and making myself a priority. <BR> <BR> It is time to commit to me and put myself on my to-... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 08:36:34 EST My ToFJourney looks like... looks more like an EKG than a downward slope. <BR> Down, down, up, up, down, up. <BR> Hopefully next week will be down. The overall trend is still toward the down. My body is getting stronger.(after the soreness fades) <BR> Even with the work I am enjoying this challenge. Fri, 8 Aug 2014 10:00:35 EST Sun, Sand, Surf and Salt Air A trip to the beach was on the agenda for yesterday. Though I was a tad concerned about the rip tides because of the tropical storm heading up the coast. Thankfully the out going tide was just a bit more forceful than usual and only sweep me off my feet once. It was a struggle to get back up finally I did. What amazed me was the enormous amount of sand that found it's way into my bathing suit. Ew... I know TMI. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <B... Thu, 7 Aug 2014 10:14:32 EST A Minute seems like Forever Workout in the pool, home for dinner, then off to WOW(Workout of the Week) <BR> What I love about WOW is that the exercises only last for a minute. <BR> I CAN do anything for ONLY a minute. But OMG when doing it in proper form, it is killer, and I keep thinking: <BR> "Are we done yet?" <BR> "It's been a minute already, right?" <BR> "My ____(insert body part- thighs, arms, etc.) are burning.... Can we stop NOW!!!" <BR> <BR> Today my body is saying, "what were you thinking!" <BR> So it is a... Wed, 6 Aug 2014 08:03:13 EST ToF Week 7 begins - Expectations What I expected to happen on this 12 week challenge, has not. The first six weeks were an adventure. Weekly weigh-ins, two disappointing ones, three happy ones. Workouts, I have never done before and surviving. <BR> <BR> Ah but I am expanding my horizons and making progress. At the 1/2 way mark, I think I have done pretty well. I'm stronger and down 11 pounds. I do/did have a goal of 26.2 pounds and I am not too sure that I will make that. But what I do know is that I am trending in the dire... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 09:54:35 EST Happy Hour OMG it was so good. I'm so glad I went to Happy Hour last night. <BR> <BR> But first was the ToF weigh-in. The last two weeks were disappointing as the scale was headed in the wrong direction. My expectations for this week were, let's just say I wasn't optimistic. After two weeks of going up, I am down all of that plus another pound gone. Woo Hoo! <BR> <BR> Then off I went to Happy Hour, it did promote relaxation and aid in general muscle recovery. "Everyday tips and tricks to add massage ... Sat, 2 Aug 2014 10:08:42 EST "Fooducate" update Shhhh....took my hubby's tablet to Trader Joe's and quickly found out that the app is better on a cell phone, as the tablet couldn't find a wi-fi connection. DUH! <BR> <BR> But I'm still having fun scanning at home. Done with the frig and so far most of the stuff is graded A's and B's for the condiments and dressings, peanut butter, jam... pickles. <BR> It's nice to get that affirmation that I AM making the better choices. Sun, 27 Jul 2014 11:10:58 EST "Fooducate" app helps me with label reading hell. No smartphones here yet, but we do have tablets. Well the free app wasn't available for my tablet, but it was for my hubby's. I convinced him to download it, and the fun began. The app allows you to scan the UPC code and gives a health grade for the item. The app also lists healthier alternatives. Woo Hoo! Finally some guidance. Thank you Fooducate. <BR> <BR> So around the kitchen I went scanning to see how well I have chosen. So far my choices haven't been too bad. There have been a few sur... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 11:29:47 EST Weigh-in Disappointment / Smart Decisions Mapped out my day! <BR> Whole Foods <BR> Weigh-in <BR> Reward <BR> Anniversary Sale <BR> Trader Joe's <BR> <BR> At Whole Foods just got what was on my list, It was on the way to my weigh-in. Had to wait for the store to open, so I began to fantasize about the additional pound or two I would be down. Well I got a dose of reality and the following self conversation ensued: <BR> "WHAT!!! I'm up four pounds? How can that be?" <BR> "Uh look at your food log sweetie, that will tell you how it can... Sat, 19 Jul 2014 12:54:28 EST ToF Week 4 Day 3 - Making Myself a Priority. Little did I realize what a treasure this 12-week program would be. There are challenging workouts, encouragement... what a wonderful opportunity. I would be a fool to not take advantage of what is before me. This is my shot. The first few weeks gave me that jump-start I needed. I'm not too sure what the next few weeks hold for me, but I intend to make the most of it. <BR> Last night, was one of those opportunities I had doubts about. I was assured that I could do it and it was presented in a... Wed, 16 Jul 2014 08:55:50 EST ToF Week 4 Taking Away the Fear. So the first three weeks have been pretty good. I have been making myself log my food, because it is only a short term goal. It is a challenge, so I can play along for the short term. Besides one of the benefits is it is helping me be more mindful about my choices. I know many Sparkers need to do a food log to stay on track during maintenance, I may up up needed to do that too. The resistance that I had to logging was because of the fear: <BR> The fear of: <BR> ... truly being honest about wh... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 09:10:55 EST