NANALISA-4's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=NANALISA%2D4 NANALISA-4's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Learning on my AF journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5621767 I have been AF now for 721 days. In 9 days I celebrate 2 full years of sobriety. Along this journey to stay AF I also discover things about who I really am and how I got to where I am in my life. But none more then the one discovery I made on Sunday evening. As I had dinner with my husband, one of the waitresses that I am familiar with came over to talk with us and say "hi". As we spoke she relayed something that was told to her from my own sister. Without getting into detail, it was somethi... Tue, 11 Feb 2014 21:25:38 EST Is it? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5612901 Is honesty really the best policy? Is it better to tell the truth then to hold back so as not to hurt those that you love? Is it better to stay where you are needed and depended on in life, then to go where your heart desires? Is it selfish to want those that say they love you in so many beautiful words, to understand that actions speak louder then words? Is it selfish to want the same as you give to others? Honesty...it hurts and I don't like to hurt others. Yet, I'm told its the best policy... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 10:13:07 EST My Anger http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5468292 Anger takes over and I kinda let it <BR> It's there and it's creating a terrible mess <BR> It wonders throughout and builds as it goes <BR> When will it stop...nobody knows! <BR> <BR> It's taking control of my inner self <BR> Making its home amongst my thoughts <BR> Creating a terrible stir in my actions <BR> Making for quite and unsightly attraction! <BR> <BR> I try to stop it from invading within <BR> But it is so much stronger than I could ever be <BR> It doesn't care that I don't want n... Tue, 27 Aug 2013 21:49:40 EST Our Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5467355 Walk with me as I take this journey <BR> Hold my hand and we will lead each other <BR> Lean on me and I will carry you <BR> Along the ups and downs we must go thru. <BR> <BR> Catch me if I fall and can not stand <BR> Hug me when I hurt or just need support <BR> Step up with me and we will reach <BR> That place out there that we both so seek. <BR> <BR> We will never look back at our past <BR> Onward and upward with a smile <BR> No regrets, only dreams that come true <BR> Together we can mak... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 23:07:31 EST Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466170 The path I take is mine to make. <BR> If I sit still and do nothing, nothing will happen. <BR> I open my heart, my mind, and my soul. <BR> My health and my life is my only goal. <BR> <BR> I look to the skies for it's there that will lead me. <BR> The word and the sound of all around. <BR> Nature and life are what guides the way. <BR> To my happiness and wellness today. <BR> <BR> I will never give up I will keep on fighting. <BR> I will push I will scream till I am there. <BR> Giving up wil... Sun, 25 Aug 2013 21:51:26 EST I remove the "Ish" from my "Self"... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5369142 I shared this with one of my favorite Sparkteams this morning and feel it is important enough to blog to all: <BR> <BR> Here is another of my daily emails that I wanted to share with you because I really believe this was me when I use to drink: <BR> <BR> <BR> "Self-centeredness <BR> Selfishness -- self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles. <BR> Driven by a hundred forms of fear, self-delusion, self-seeking, and self pity, <BR> we step on the toes of our fellows and t... Mon, 27 May 2013 10:00:54 EST My Secret Place http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5362230 Sweet and subtle <BR> Calming and content <BR> That's what this place does for me <BR> For this, it is meant <BR> <BR> Relax and enjoy <BR> Escape into a dream <BR> Go where I want to <BR> Where rainbows through sunlight beam <BR> <BR> Fantasize and wander <BR> Through imagination I see <BR> A world like no other <BR> A world meant for only me <BR> <BR> This is what this place gives me <BR> I come here for all of this <BR> Here I can get away <BR> And find the things I so miss <BR> <BR> S... Mon, 20 May 2013 12:03:03 EST Without It I Still Feel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5330835 I haven't done this in a very long time <BR> I lost the feeling months ago <BR> I've search within and cannot find it <BR> Where it went, I do not know. <BR> <BR> I've tried so hard and looked within <BR> But maybe it was never mine <BR> Maybe it didn't come from me <BR> Maybe it was only the wine. <BR> <BR> I have feelings deep inside me <BR> Feel them all just like before <BR> But I can not find the words <BR> They just don't come to me anymore. <BR> <BR> I love the words when they appea... Sun, 21 Apr 2013 17:55:14 EST Todays Special Visits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5327994 Did my first assistant living/nursing home visit today representing our office and adjusted glasses for those elderly patients who are unable to get to our office. I had a WONDERFUL time and made some fabulous friends! I can't wait to go back and see them again! Felt the presence of a dear friend who use to live at one of those places a few years ago and is no longer with us. Miss you Mary Anna, so glad you were there with me today! Thu, 18 Apr 2013 20:36:42 EST Life's Tragedy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5325180 Tragedies like yesterdays, really make me think about my own life and what's going on. There is so much missing and I can not get it back. The one thing I lost and can not find, is my friendship with my one and only sister. I distanced myself from family a little, about a year or so ago. The reason for this was because of some healing I needed to take care of in my own life. I sent an email to them all explaining what I was doing in hopes that they would understand. I don't think my sister di... Tue, 16 Apr 2013 12:20:08 EST Long Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5314974 I haven't written a blog in a long time...obviously it wasn't missed. <em>211</em> <BR> My positive daily words came to an end and I gave in. This time of year, along with fall, are not the easiest for me. But now with the snow all melted and the warmer spring breezes and longer days, I am coming around once again. <BR> Today I have a word, like no other, that I want to concentrate on.... <BR> <BR> TREASURE...and the one definition I want to use to describe this word is... <BR> <BR> "One... Sun, 7 Apr 2013 19:11:35 EST A few of my favorite things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5297416 I'm ready for spring and summer!! BRING IT ON!! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1163525805.jpg"> <BR> My new rain boots (I purchase an umbrella that matches perfect) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/2/l320044757.jpg"> <BR> A closer view <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/5/l551085642.jpg"> <BR> My new bike <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1592819353.jpg"> <BR> And danged if I didn't find yet another purse... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 16:55:11 EST I wish I had the... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5274017 ANSWERS... <BR> <BR> 1. a reply, either spoken or written, as to a question, request, letter, or article <BR> 2. a reaction or response in the form of an action <BR> 3. a solution <BR> <BR> Sometimes it's hard when I don't have the ANSWERS. Sometimes it frustrates me when I can not give a solution to the problem or question asked of me. This is when I back away and pray. Maybe the ANSWER isn't mine to know...not yet anyway. Sometimes I just need to accept, believe, trust, and move on. Toda... Tue, 5 Mar 2013 09:23:35 EST A Lifetimes Not Too Long To Live As... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5266875 FRIENDS... <BR> <BR> Michael W. Smith put it perfectly in his song... <BR> <BR> Packing up the dreams God planted <BR> In the fertile soil of you <BR> Can't believe the hopes He's granted <BR> Means a chapter in your life is through <BR> But we'll keep you close as always <BR> It won't even seem you've gone <BR> 'Cause our hearts in big and small ways <BR> Will keep the love that keeps us strong <BR> <BR> And friends are friends forever <BR> If the Lord's the Lord of them <BR> And a friend... Thu, 28 Feb 2013 07:37:07 EST Share and Share Alike... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5263683 SHARE... <BR> ...to divide and distribute <BR> ...to partake of, use, experience, occupy, or enjoy with others <BR> ...to tell (as thoughts, feelings, or experiences) to others <BR> <BR> Sharing can be one of the most unselfish acts around. As long as what you are sharing is good. SHARE your love, your help, your time, and just SHARE yourself. Holding back and not giving of oneself is wasting away all the good you have and good that could help another! But when you SHARE unhealthy thoughts ... Mon, 25 Feb 2013 16:55:53 EST Saturday Sadness and http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5261571 Sorrow <BR> <BR> ...the characteristic feeling of sadness, grief, or regret associated with loss, bereavement, sympathy for another's suffering, for an injury done. <BR> <BR> I have not had a very good couple of weeks lately. My job has been very stressful. To the point where I may need to quit. My granddaughter was very sick and hospitalized for a couple of days. I have gotten myself so run down with stress and lack of sleep that I too have become ill and very depressed. Then today I find ... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 22:57:38 EST As I Look Back I Embrace... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5253389 SERENITY... <BR> <BR> ...The state of being calm, peaceful, and untroubled <BR> <BR> I read something given to me just the other day that read: <BR> <BR> "Serenity is not the absence of conflict but the ability to cope with it." <BR> <BR> As I quickly approach my one year anniversary, I take this quote very seriously. SERENITY is a word I have concentrated on for many months now. My sobriety and lifestyle change came with a very emotional start. I said good bye to not only the alcohol, ... Sun, 17 Feb 2013 09:13:57 EST A Word That Calms... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252365 GENTLE... <BR> <BR> 1. Considerate or kindly in disposition; amiable and tender. <BR> 2. Not harsh or severe; mild and soft <BR> <BR> As I sit here this morning at my kitchen table, drinking my a.m. cup of java, I look up and out my back window. What a beautiful sight I consume. The most GENTLE snowfall of all. Big, huge snowflakes slowly falling from above, only to gently land on the ground below. Why can't we be more like the snowflakes I admire this morning? Why can't we be a little more... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 08:26:43 EST What do you think of... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5239757 VALENTINES (DAY)... <BR> <BR> ... A sentimental or humorous greeting card sent to a sweetheart, friend, or family member, for example, on Saint Valentine's Day. <BR> ... A gift sent as a token of love to one's sweetheart on Saint Valentine's Day. <BR> ... A person singled out especially as one's sweetheart on Saint Valentine's Day. <BR> <BR> The other day while talking with my adult daughter she spoke of Valentine's Day. She surprised me with what she said, yet what she said really made sen... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 07:01:29 EST There's No Place Like... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236879 HOME <BR> <BR> 1. A place where one lives; a residence. <BR> 2. The physical structure within which one lives, such as a house or apartment. <BR> 3. A dwelling place together with the family or social unit that occupies it; a household. <BR> <BR> That's what Dorothy claimed in "The Wizard of Oz". She tapped her shoes together and repeated this statement in hopes of going back home. <BR> Home...a place of belonging...a place where a person feels comfortable and welcome. <BR> Our actual "HO... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 09:47:43 EST Have I told you lately how much I... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5236304 APPRECIATE... <BR> <BR> ...To be thankful or show gratitude for <BR> ...To admire greatly; value <BR> <BR> Have I told you lately how much I appreciate you?! I reached out for inspiration, support, and help the other day and what I got was more than I had ever expected. Thank you Sparkpeople for all you do for me! I truly appreciate each and every one of you! <BR> <BR> GO SPARKPEOPLE....YOU ALL ROCK!! <BR> Sun, 3 Feb 2013 21:59:02 EST I really need some... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5234372 MOTIVATION... <BR> <BR> 1.The reason or reasons one has for acting or behaving in a particular way. <BR> 2.The general desire or willingness of someone to do something. <BR> <BR> I have always regarded myself as being the one to motivate. The one to help others get moving and on the right track to reaching their goals in life. Yet today, I don't feel it. Today I have this weight that just won't be lifted from within and I can't shake it. I can't even ignore it. For it is holding me down and... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 10:53:18 EST How many do you learn in a day? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5229856 LESSON... <BR> <BR> Something to be learned <BR> <BR> I swear I learn at least one a day, if not more! But in the past couple of years there is one LESSON that I learned that out weighs all others. You see I have spent most of my life worrying about myself, and thinking that I was unwanted, that I was unloved. Throughout all that has happened to me I have learned that the more I worry about me loving you, and the less I worry about you loving me, the happier I can and will be! The LESSON I ... Wed, 30 Jan 2013 08:22:41 EST Why do I do these... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5228628 ...BLOGS... <BR> <BR> ...A Web site on which an individual or group of users record opinions, information, etc. on a regular basis... <BR> <BR> Not only do I write this blog, but I write it with one word in mind each time. This one word I carry with me throughout my day. But before I do, here on this blog, I turn it into a positive....no matter what the word. Today I write this blog with the word BLOG...why? Because I want to remind myself as I go thru this day (my least favorite of the wee... Tue, 29 Jan 2013 11:23:55 EST It's okay to be... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5227997 ...IMPERFECT... <BR> <BR> ...Not perfect; faulty <BR> <BR> I try so hard to be perfect. I don't want to hurt anyone. I only want to please all. I don't want to make mistakes. I just want everything I say and do to turn out 'perfect'. But as hard as I try, it will never happen. Why? Because I am IMPERFECT....and that's okay....it's really okay. <BR> I read a quote/prayer this morning that read: <BR> " Give me the courage to be imperfect." <BR> I just have one thing to add to that: <BR> "And... Mon, 28 Jan 2013 23:09:01 EST Not much soothes me more than... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5225435 WATER... <BR> <BR> ...the liquid that descends from the clouds as rain, forms streams, lakes, and seas, and is a major constituent of all living matter and that when pure is an odorless, tasteless, very slightly compressible liquid oxide of hydrogen H2O which appears bluish in thick layers... <BR> <BR> I love water and all the forms in which it comes to me. Water is soothing, relaxing, meditating, and healing. I like to drink it, bath in it, dance in it, swim in it, listen to it, and just l... Sun, 27 Jan 2013 10:24:47 EST It is a long time... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224005 FOREVER... <BR> <BR> 1. For everlasting time; eternally <BR> 2. At all times; incessantly <BR> <BR> Do you ever use the word FOREVER in a conversation? I do, yet, I don't really pay attention to the true meaning of this word. For if I did, I wouldn't include it in my vocabulary. When I would say the word FOREVER as I spoke, my husband would always respond "Forever is a long time". I would get annoyed by this and carry on with my conversation. Yet, lately I listen to that word and I really p... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 07:55:12 EST Thursday...... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5221316 THANKFULS... <BR> <BR> 1. Aware and appreciative of a benefit; grateful. <BR> 2. Expressive of gratitude. <BR> <BR> I have so many things to be thankful for: my family, my friends, my life, my health, butterflies, daisies, angels, fairies, gnomes, mornings, the moon, the stars, so veeeeerrrrrry many things! <BR> This Thankful Thursday, I keep in mind all that I have, all that I strive for, and all that surrounds me. THIS is what I am so ever Thankful for! But most of all I am Thankful for Y... Thu, 24 Jan 2013 09:15:51 EST Grab Ahold of This!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5219692 DETERMINATION... <BR> <BR> ... Firmness of purpose; resolve: approached the task with determination and energy. <BR> ...A fixed intention or resolution. <BR> <BR> Its a strong word. One that asks for your strength and your will. It requires loyalty and never giving up. This is the perfect word for me to carry with me today! Actually, I'm going to hang on to this one for some time to come. For I am determined to make sure all of my goals in my life stick and are accomplished! If not complete... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 08:15:16 EST Baby its... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5218254 COLD (outside)... <BR> <BR> ...Having a low temperature. <BR> ...Having a temperature lower than normal body temperature. <BR> ...Feeling no warmth; uncomfortably chilled. <BR> ...Lacking emotion <BR> ...Designating a tone or color <BR> ...Having lost all freshness or vividness through passage of time <BR> <BR> Cold seems to describe many a things. When I googled the definition, I was originally thinking about the weather. The weather, because here in Mn we are having very COLD and frigid t... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 09:11:50 EST Remember the movie... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216822 PAY IT FORWARD... <BR> <BR> Pay It Forward is a 2000 American drama film based on the novel of the same name by Catherine Ryan Hyde. It was directed by Mimi Leder and written by Leslie Dixon. It stars Haley Joel Osment as a boy who launches a good-will movement, Helen Hunt as his single mother, and Kevin Spacey as his social-studies teacher. <BR> <BR> This was one of the BEST movies created....EVER!! What a wonderful story! What a wonderful idea! What a wonderful child! Today I take this st... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 10:23:57 EST It feels good to know... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5216160 Meaning... <BR> <BR> ...Something that is conveyed or signified; sense or significance. <BR> <BR> What a feeling. What I relief...of sorts. To have figured out what something of great confusion truly means. A dream I had a few days or so ago, which brought much distraught and sadness to my life, has made itself clear to me. After doing research on dreams and doing a lot of soul searching, I have found the MEANING. It may not be a meaning that I want to hear, but one I am ready and willing t... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 21:37:38 EST Sometimes There's a Need to Hear the... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5214123 UNSPOKEN... <BR> <BR> 1. Not uttered or expressed. <BR> 2. Understood without the need for words. <BR> <BR> Sometimes I capture my thoughts, feelings, hurts, pains, happiness, etc, within me and decide to keep them there. Yes, some belong within, for spoken or shown, they could only cause more harm. But some really do need to come out. Whether it is expressed in words or actions, they need to be brought to surface. I too, want others to do the same for me. Express your thoughts, bring out w... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 10:21:12 EST It Speaks to me in so many ways... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5212217 MUSIC... <BR> <BR> 1. The art of arranging sounds in time so as to produce a continuous, unified, and evocative composition, as through melody, harmony, rhythm, and timbre. <BR> 2. Vocal or instrumental sounds possessing a degree of melody, harmony, or rhythm. <BR> <BR> Music...just the word alone makes me smile and relax. I LOVE music. Music brings so much joy to my day. A favorite song, lyrics that speak to me, a beat that gets me movin', a rhythm that makes me sway, drums that make me wa... Thu, 17 Jan 2013 22:12:22 EST My Visit From.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5209653 Michael... <BR> <BR> ...The guardian archangel of the Jews in the Hebrew Scriptures <BR> ...My middle child <BR> <BR> Two nights ago I had a dream. A dream so surreal, yet so unbelievably true. It has haunted me since I awoke, yet I can hardly wait to go to sleep every night since, in hopes of it happening again. Let me describe this dream. <BR> <BR> I was walking in my parents backyard late in the evening. I looked up to the sky, because I absolutely LOVE the evening sky. As I looked up, ... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 09:08:46 EST What? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207991 HONEST... <BR> <BR> ...Free of deceit and untruthfulness; sincere... <BR> <BR> Why does it hurt so much? I try it and all I do is hurt people I am honest with. Then I turn on the TV and find out someone who I claimed to be my hero at one point in my life, Lance Armstrong, was honest! Why does it hurt when you are honest? Not just you but others as well? My honesty was not that I lied and then told the truth...just that I could not endure the hurt inside and needed to express how I felt....m... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 08:40:14 EST By George, I think I've got it!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5206553 TEA... <BR> <BR> 1.A hot drink made by infusing the dried, crushed leaves of the tea plant in boiling water. <BR> 2.The dried leaves used to make such a drink. <BR> <BR> So, I have what's called GERD's and lately it has gotten SO extremely bad! Mornings would be okay, but by mid to late afternoon, it would start to get so bad that I could not sit without discomfort and pain. So last night, as I'm sipping my evening tea (a BIG HUGE mug) I decided to do some internet searching as to why I fee... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 11:31:08 EST Is there anyone that you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5204887 ADMIRE... <BR> <BR> 1. To regard with pleasure, wonder, and approval. <BR> 2. To have a high opinion of; esteem or respect. <BR> <BR> I have so many people that I admire... <BR> <BR> My dil for one. Those of you who have followed my blogs, know her story. She is an amazing woman, with an amazing heart. <BR> <BR> Another person I admire is a good friend of mine who nearly lost his life last summer. His fight and want to live and get better takes a lot of will power and inner strength. <BR... Sun, 13 Jan 2013 11:12:31 EST There is nothing quite like that feeling of... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5203356 BELONGING... <BR> <BR> 1. A personal item that one owns; a possession. <BR> 2. Acceptance as a natural member or part. <BR> <BR> There is an aloneness, with that awful ache, so deep in the heart of everyone. The need for that ache to be gone and never to return again. <BR> We all yearn for a sense of belonging, of being wanted and needed and loved. <BR> <BR> I get that wonderful feeling of belonging every time I go to the gym. If the owners or workers are on duty, I can not pass within th... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 09:40:56 EST What is Your... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5201743 FANTASY... <BR> <BR> ...The creative imagination; unrestrained fancy <BR> ...Something, such as an invention, that is a creation of the fancy <BR> ...An imagined event or sequence of mental images, such as a daydream, usually fulfilling a wish or psychological need. <BR> <BR> Fantasies...we all have them, we just don't all share or admit them. I have them. I daydream a lot! I sometimes play out my fantasies in my mind and think, this could really come true! But STOP! THIS is where I get mys... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 08:20:29 EST Yes I am... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5200051 PROUD... <BR> <BR> Feeling pleasurable satisfaction over an act, possession, quality, or relationship by which one measures one's stature or self-worth <BR> <BR> Yesterday while talking with a coworker I was telling her how long it had been since I quit drinking. I said, "It's nearly 11 months since I have had an alcoholic drink of any kind. One more month and it will be a whole year! NEVER...NEVER in my entire life, did I ever think I would be saying that! NEVER!" My coworker looked at me... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 08:22:36 EST I need this in every day... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5198301 SUNSHINE... <BR> <BR> ... The light or the direct rays from the sun. <BR> ... The warmth given by the sun's rays. <BR> ... A location or surface on which the sun's rays fall. <BR> ... Radiant cheerfulness; geniality. <BR> ... A source of cheerfulness. <BR> <BR> All of these definitions are necessities for my daily life. I LOVE the sunshine and I LOVE what it does for me. Some days when I feel a little down, I will walk outdoors, sit down in the direct sunlight, lay my head back, close my ey... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 08:16:11 EST I hope to have lots of this.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5197786 TIME... <BR> <BR> ...The indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. <BR> <BR> A few of my favorite quotes and ones I try to remember and live by... <BR> <BR> "The secret of fulfilling my potential is in acknowledging my limitations <BR> and believing that time is a gift, not a threat." <BR> <BR> "Time is a very healing place, one in which you can grow." ~Denise Tanner <BR> <BR> "Pick my left pocket of its silver dime, but... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 21:50:08 EST Today is the day!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5194631 BIRTH... <BR> <BR> ...the process of bearing young <BR> ...the act or fact of being born; nativity <BR> ...the coming into existence of something; origin <BR> <BR> As I type this blog, my dil is being prepped and possibly started with the procedure of bringing to this world not one, but two miracles! And when I say miracles, I truly mean MIRACLES! The birth of these twins will bring an instant family to the couple she carries them for. Today is the day her part ends and mom and dads begins.... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 09:46:05 EST Where did this go? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5192826 POETRY... <BR> <BR> "Poetry is an imaginative awareness of experience expressed through meaning, sound, and rhythmic language choices so as to evoke an emotional response. Poetry has been known to employ meter and rhyme, but this is by no means necessary. Poetry is an ancient form that has gone through numerous and drastic reinvention over time. The very nature of poetry as an authentic and individual mode of expression makes it nearly impossible to define." <BR> <BR> I use to write poetry ... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 10:03:09 EST This Word Means So Much To Me... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5191311 UNDERSTANDING... <BR> <BR> ... The quality or condition of one who understands; comprehension. <BR> ... Individual or specified judgment or outlook; opinion <BR> ... A reconciliation of differences; a state of agreement <BR> ... A disposition to appreciate or share the feelings and thoughts of others; sympathy <BR> ... Compassionate; sympathetic <BR> <BR> I suppose this word, like yesterdays word, is another word I have really learned to deal with more since my sobriety. I've always been on... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 10:01:43 EST My level of this is slowly growing... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5189578 TOLERANCE... <BR> <BR> ...The capacity for or the practice of recognizing and respecting the beliefs or practices of others. <BR> ...The capacity to endure hardship or pain. <BR> <BR> I received this yesterday in a daily email that I get. <BR> <BR> "We can try to stop making unreasonable demands upon those we love. <BR> We can show kindness where we had shown none. <BR> With those we dislike we can begin to practice justice and courtesy, <BR> perhaps going out of our way to under... Fri, 4 Jan 2013 08:18:21 EST Today I Honor Someone Very.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5186874 UNSELFISH... <BR> <BR> ...Willing to put the needs or wishes of others before one's own: "unselfish devotion". <BR> <BR> Those of you who know me, or follow my blogs, know the story of my daughter in laws Unselfish act. She is doing something that is extremely unselfish. Something that only a person with the most caring and loving heart would do. My daughter in law is a surrogate for her very dear friend. She is carrying not one, but TWO babies for a couple who has struggled to carry their ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:57:14 EST I Am So Lucky To Have... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5184717 TODAY... <BR> <BR> ...this day, as distinct from yesterday or tomorrow <BR> <BR> Yet, I have the luxury of being able to cherish the memory of yesterday and to wait for the unexpected tomorrows. <BR> I have been granted today! What a wonderful day it is! If by chance, I don't see tomorrow, please know that I enjoyed having you in my yesterdays, today, and dreams of tomorrows! <BR> So I go to bed tonight knowing just how blessed I am...how happy I am to have had TODAY! Tue, 1 Jan 2013 20:21:18 EST I look up for beauty, advise, and memories.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5180728 For when I look up I look at the... <BR> <BR> MOON... <BR> <BR> ...The natural satellite of the earth, visible (chiefly at night) by reflected light from the sun. <BR> <BR> ...Behave or move in a listless and aimless manner <BR> <BR> This may be the denifition of the "word" moon. But my definition of the moon is so much different. It's more like this: Love, Peace, Beauty, Bright, Togetherness, and did I say LOVE? <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1168539309.j... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 10:31:37 EST