NAESREALITY's SparkPeople Blog NAESREALITY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Jealousy Okay, it is totally irrational. I do not want to do weight loss surgery, I feel like I need to lose this weight by getting my "head" right. I have had a handful of people I personally know that chose to do weight loss surgery this past November and December. <BR> <BR> I wish I didn't feel those pangs of jealousy......when the 5 people I know who have had surgery report thier massive losses. 25 pounds,30, 50, 55 & 100 pounds all gone. The jealousy doesn't last, but I do feel it briefly. ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 16:25:22 EST I am pleased My official weigh in day is Sunday. Today I weighed and have lost 3 pounds. I started in again at 271 and today I am at 268! <em>244</em> Even better than the 1 pounds per week goal I have for myself! I have moved out of the 270's and into the 260's. I am excited! <BR> <BR> IN the past I would have been depressed that I was still a hundred pounds overweight. But I realized, truly realize, that it is one pound at a time. And this week was 3! <em>104</em> Sun, 11 Jan 2015 14:02:41 EST Sucess one at a time I am truly excited today. I have lost two pounds this past week through exercise and eating better. I am no longer in the 270's! I weighed in Thursday at 269 and today was 267 but today isnt my official weigh in day so we will see what Sunday shows. <BR> <BR> I think i finally have my head wrapped around the concept of "how to eat an elephant" 1 bite at a time. If I follow my promise to myself of just 1 pound a week I will be 52 pounds lighter next year. That is actually pretty amazing... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 15:52:50 EST Mumblings to myself <img src=""> <BR> Jan 2015 I am currently between the 45% and 40% images. I am 42.4% <BR> <BR> As an estimate I will need to lose 15 pounds to reach the 40% mark. <BR> <BR> This means 110 pounds to be in the healthy range of 25%. <em>33</em> Of course these are estimates. I know I was 170 out of boot camp and was in the healthy range. Obviously that was 25 years ago and I was very athletic and strong. A good amount of muscl... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 20:46:56 EST 2015 Ready Set Go! Here is what I call my "wall of shame". I understand that it is important to see progress so I am going to post my Beginning photos. It was truly an eye opener. I am still surprised that I really look like this. Guess I am still in denial about how heavy I have gotten. <BR> <BR> Seeing these pictures I realize just how I have let myself go. How I have put everyone ahead of myself. It is time to regain "ME". <BR> <BR> Jan 2015 Beginning weight 271 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sp... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 19:58:51 EST Sobering Reality I ran my reports for my weight for the last four years that I have been on It was very Sobering. <BR> <BR> I have lost and found the same 20 pounds over and over every year. I do great from December through Mar, sometimes even May, then I begin to gain it all back. I do not check in on SP during the summer and around September I check in sporadically until December hits. <BR> <BR> I know the December trigger is my birthday and the promises I make to myself that I will... Tue, 23 Dec 2014 12:10:16 EST YAWWNNN Well tonight I go for a sleep study. Hubby is sure I have sleep apnea, I think I just need my own bedroom! I guess we will see what the sleep lab says tonight. <em>176</em> Wed, 23 Jul 2014 07:54:55 EST Note to Self I know you aren't comfortable blogging or doing a journal. However I think they must be right about this. I know when I have logged everything in the past I stayed on track. I know when I look at the past data it helps me to put things in perspective. <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> So, here we go. We aren't going to be concerned about what people may think about our thoughts and feelings. We are going to just work on consistency. So...Self here is to Day 1 of blogging/journaling and day 3... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 08:49:37 EST Nae's Reality and being honest with myself March 31,2010 272 <BR> March 31,2011 260 <BR> March 31,2012 263 <BR> March 31,2013 270 <BR> March 31,2014 255 <BR> <BR> This is a snap shot of the numbers that have been my last 5 years of weight each March 31st. <BR> <BR> I found SparkPeople in 2010. I was trying to find a way to get my weight under control and get healthier. I was dealing with lose of my favorite aunt to complications of diabetes, strokes, hypertension etc. You see... my mom's family carries about 30-50 pounds of e... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 20:16:22 EST 2014 Dallas Blacklight Run <img src=""> <BR> I took my two oldest daughters with me last night to the 2014 Dallas Blacklight Run. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> I am so proud of them! The oldest finished her first ever run. No she didn't run it, but she did show up and complete it! My middle daughter ran her first public run. I think she has been bitten by the bug <img src=" Sun, 23 Mar 2014 11:05:52 EST Wise.... Vincent Lombardi: The good Lord gave you a body that can stand most anything. It's your mind you have to convince. <em>521</em> Tue, 4 Mar 2014 15:46:50 EST Motivation for weight loss "Motivation for Weight Loss" <BR> <BR> M-make short term goals <BR> O-out with the negative thoughts <BR> T-think of why you want it <BR> I-imagine how you will feel <BR> V-visualize the future you <BR> A-acknowledge your successes <BR> T-treat yourself with respect <BR> I-investigate new ideas and foods <BR> O-observe your healthy lifestyle <BR> N-never give up and never give in <BR> <BR> Author: unknown Thu, 20 Feb 2014 07:40:26 EST Missing teen --FOUND!! Thank you all so much for the support and prayers. After missing for 5 days, he has been found! We canvased his "stomping" ground with posters all day yesterday and he called his mom. He is safe this morning! Praise God. I really appreciate the support and prayers! <em>198</em> Sun, 16 Feb 2014 09:34:32 EST Prayer Needed- Missing teen I just wanted to let you all know that I will be unavailable for a while. A friend of mine has a 16 year old cousin that has been missing since Tuesday. NO information or contact since. His phone hasn't pinged since Tuesday at noon. Today I will be out with other volunteers canvasing the neighborhood passing out flyers. Your prayers are appreciated. Sat, 15 Feb 2014 09:06:44 EST Props to all of you weathering the snow and cold I currently live in Northern Texas and we have had our share of cold days this year. The usual that goes with all that, ice and snow etc. I am from Northeastern Oklahoma where the weather is much worse than here. The winter is mild here compared to "home". That being said.....I love it here! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> My preference would be northern Florida but that just never worked out. Anyway, I never realized how much I dislike the cold and ice. <em>425</em> I have ached for two... Wed, 12 Feb 2014 18:55:05 EST BRRRRR Okay so I am doing the walk/jog 5 k program. It has been cold but I was determined to stay on track. I went out this morning and exercised for 30 minutes outside. When I came in my Husband was awake and looked at me like an idiot. HE says.....Where were you? I reply...Outside exercising. HE shakes his head and hands me his phone. The weather app says it is 13 degrees F. I knew the wind was miserable <em>40</em> <BR> <BR> Okay so maybe I won't go out tomorrow morning. Ill just s... Wed, 5 Feb 2014 18:29:59 EST When people notice People have started noticing the results of my new healthy lifestyle. It has been great to hear people tell me how good I am doing while walking for 30 minutes of my lunch break each day. Especially when they ask what time I walk everyday and comment about joining me. <BR> <em>311</em> <BR> <BR> However, This week after 6 weeks of hard work and determination people have started to tell me I am looking good. Yesterday I was asked by 4 different people How much weight I have lost. 2 ... Tue, 4 Feb 2014 07:03:08 EST 16 down 99 to go... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Just checking in. It has been 6 weeks since I committed to change for good. I have lost 16 pounds and 9 inches. My energy is through the roof and my attitude is great! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This time I have used all the SparkPeople tools together. I have committed to the Spark Activity Tracker, the Spark Coach, and serious accountability. <BR>... Sun, 2 Feb 2014 07:24:30 EST I was too slow.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Okay so my family has been sick for two weeks. I have been dosing the vitamin C and eating veggies and fruits and sleeping at least 8 hours a night along with daily exercise. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> I must have been too slow because it CAUGHT Me! <BR> <BR> <em>527</em> <BR> <BR> Good news is.. Dr says it is not the flu <BR> ... Thu, 30 Jan 2014 06:39:42 EST Like a kid...... <em>309</em> Well the day started out with taking the girls to ride bikes. This was no small feat considering the 22 year old hadn't ridden in over 10 years. And the 8 and 17 10/12 th's daughter have never ridden a bicycle. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> They were very quick learners, I am so proud of them! Within 2 hours they were riding on their own! We all had a great time and no blood or bruises! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> After lea... Sun, 26 Jan 2014 20:28:15 EST One Month <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I weighed in this weekend I was a bit disappointed! I have been working really hard. But the scale did not budge! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I am so grateful that I am using the Spark Coach because it has been fantastic at reminding me the scale is not the BE ALL END ALL. It is only ONE measure. I have lost 10 pounds in the last 30 days which... Mon, 20 Jan 2014 10:52:35 EST Hello Friday! <em>523</em> Friday!! <BR> <BR> Whew! What a week. After being off work for two weeks, this was a tough one. I also increased my exercise to a 30 walk during my lunch break to go along with my daily 30 min treadclimber activity and weight training 2-3 days a week. <BR> <BR> It also seems like everyone in Texas either has a Virus or the Flu. I have been dosing up on veggies and fruits and Emergen-C all week but I think it finally caught me. Allergy medication isn't helping so I am... Fri, 10 Jan 2014 16:47:16 EST Monday <em>150</em> made it through Monday! I actually got 30 minutes of walking in at lunch to go with my 30 min of tread climber this morning. Work wasn't so bad everyone is talking about how much weight they have gained and they are all getting on the health wagon. This is great, it means people aren't bringing in baked goods everyday. A couple people asked if they could start walking with me at lunch. <BR> And of course my friend Kelley is there and is a great inspiration! It is nice to... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 20:17:04 EST Week 3 Okay, I have been off work for two weeks getting prepared for my new lifestyle. I return to work tomorrow and we will see if my body has adjusted to my new schedule. <BR> <BR> I wake at 0500 and workout for 30 minutes then have my SP time, eat some breakfast and get ready for work. I will be walking for 30 minutes during my lunch hour and I have my meals planned out. The goal is no eating out. I haven't done this for the past two weeks and plan to keep it up with the exception of ever... Sun, 5 Jan 2014 19:44:07 EST Weigh in day I am super excited! I lost 3 pounds this week with exercise and staying within calorie range. I am looking forward to this coming week. I am feeling the benefits of exercising consistently for the last two weeks. I wake up with energy and am not quite as "crabby". <em>104</em> <BR> I am going to move my weigh in to Saturday mornings as my whole family is on board with me now! Woot Woot! So weigh in and measurements are going to be a family thing on Saturday mornings around here for... Fri, 3 Jan 2014 08:21:50 EST 2014 Goals I have never made resolutions because I never expected to keep them for 365 days. That is a long time! Today I will make my 2014 Goals, as long as I can stay in my new frame of mind I know I can achieve them. New frame of mind being I can only control my choices for today, worrying about tomorrow or next week or month overwhelms me when it comes to areas of weakness. <BR> <BR> Okay my areas of weakness are: weight, savings, church attendance. I am not sure why but I struggle with thes... Tue, 31 Dec 2013 17:13:32 EST Exercise First thing in the morning BEFORE your brain knows what it is doing! Okay.....I totally stole this title from a motivational picture on SP. I must say I LOVE it! It really rang true to me. When I first wake up and feel like I just can't motivate I go get on the Treadclimber and begin my exercise. Now...I do start SLOW lol only like 1.2 miles per hour. But as soon as my body starts waking up and I stop yawning I kick it up. It has worked well for me this past 10 days. I am on a streak! <em>231</em> Sun, 29 Dec 2013 07:02:39 EST Back on Track I work for the school system here in Texas and we are on break for 2 weeks. I took this opportunity to RESET myself. After 1 week, I have weaned myself off of all soda and cut the sugar down considerably. I have decreased the fat intake and increased the exercise to 30 minutes per day minimum. I have set my alarm to wake at 5:00 each morning to get a new schedule that will work when I return to work. <BR> <BR> This may not sound like a great vacation, but I feel so much better and only a... Fri, 27 Dec 2013 09:44:52 EST TreadClimber Success I am so Excited! I got my new treadclimber on Friday night. We put it together and I tried it out! My hips and knee were sore, BUT not painful. <BR> <BR> I am loving this piece of exercise machinery. I have it set on Med high resistance and the time I used it I managed to do 15 minutes in the morning and then 15 minutes that night. The next day I increased it to 20 minutes. This morning I made 30 minutes without stopping! I am so excited and proud of myself! <BR> <BR> I have no ... Mon, 23 Dec 2013 08:37:48 EST Dear Food Dear Food, <BR> I truly do love you. I feel I can not get enough of you. You make me feel content. I have been known to enjoy your company and when I could no longer endure anymore I would cuddle up in my bed with my blankie and partake of my favorite activity...............Sleep. There is nothing better than a full tummy, a warm blanket and Sleep! Now, I know... My mother tells me that she and my father used to put me to bed as a babe with a chunk of red meat to chew on. I assure you,... Sat, 21 Dec 2013 19:05:43 EST Never Quit Pledge Today, I promise I will not quit. <BR> I pledge that no matter, how many ups and <BR> downs I pass through, <BR> I will continue on my journey. <BR> I pledge to make a NEW START today, <BR> and forgive myself for my past, <BR> and to stop being so critical of myself. <BR> I pledge to take control of myself, <BR> To Stop making excuses, <BR> And stop blaming other people or situations. <BR> I pledge to treat myself as I would my Best <BR> Friend, <BR> Because that is who I am. <BR... Sun, 29 Apr 2012 05:27:33 EST Bump in the road I haven't been feeling well this past month. <BR> We had a lot of financial stress and other things going on and I just thought that my thyroid medicine wasn't quite right. (I can't get into my new PC until Late June for a new patient appt!! Made the appt in Feb. Crazy!!) I was feeling like I did before I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. Extreme fatigue, depression, really weak, just not well. I got a huge fever blister on my lip it lasted two weeks. Now I just have a scar from it. ... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 09:55:03 EST John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosover belieth in him, should not perish , but have everlasting life. <BR> <BR> One of my favorite scriptures. Tue, 3 Apr 2012 22:35:41 EST New concept We ate out a lot this weekend. On our way to our youngest daughters first cheering event our car broken down and we had to have it towed. Of course that is never fast and after the few hours of dealing with that we grabbed lunch out at a chinese restaurant. My fortune from the fortune cookie was very appropriate. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Monday is my daughters 16th Birthday and our schedules are full so we opted for celebrating her... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 11:14:05 EST Perspective I was very down this past week. I did continue to track and exercise, but my food choices were not the best. Last nite I ate 4 slices of pizza for dinner!! I made myself go for my virtual 5K that I had signed up for earlier. I truly did have to MAKE myself go do it , it was like that! <BR> <BR> Afterward I felt so much better!! It was my first 5K, and I did it walking - not up to running yet. I made it in 52.54! <BR> <BR> Today is the last day of the month so I weighed for my Spar... Sat, 31 Mar 2012 08:38:12 EST April Goals Okay..... my goals for April are listed below. <BR> <BR> 1. Do Resistance Training 3 days per week every week. <BR> 2. Continue to Walk each day. <BR> 3. Continue to Track my food and exercise daily. <BR> 4. Attend the Spark Live meetings and participate weekly. <BR> 5. Lose 10 pounds following this goals. <BR> <BR> Look out April, here I come. <em>252</em> Fri, 30 Mar 2012 13:10:22 EST Fat percentage Okay, I don't get it. <BR> <BR> I have an Omron fat loss monitor it says that my fat percentage is 44.7, my scale(EatSmart) also has a fat reader and it says I am 54.3 Percent. I know I am fat, but come on!! I wanted to measure my fat percentage along with weight so that I can console myself when the scales are not kind. I know I am making proper changes to calorie intake and exercise increases so I realize I won't always show weight loss on the scale but should see fat loss. My sca... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 10:30:39 EST Week 2 BL challenge -Indigo Rules Well, Week 1 was awesome as I lost 3.8 pounds. Week 2 wasn't so kind in the weight loss department. I didn't even lose a whole pound! <em>29</em> Even though it is a bit disappointing I know I did well tracking and exercising so I will just wait and see what next week brings. My goal was to lose 2 pounds a week and if you add Week 1 and Week 2 together I achieved that goal. So, I am A okay with my progress so far. <em>321</em> <BR> Wed, 28 Mar 2012 16:05:17 EST Nice weather <img src=""> It is Spring!!! I love Spring and Fall. The two times of the year that I simply can not get enough of being outside. Of course the dog and kiddo are totally okay with this!! <img src=""> I have been swimming, even though the water is still a bit too cold. It should be warmer in the next couple weeks for a comfortable swim. <em>237</em> The weather was warm enoug... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 19:14:40 EST Reminder to Self Today is a new day. No worrying about tomorrow or my weigh in for this week. Just focus on today and making good choices. Weigh ins will fall in line over time, the important thing is gettting healthy and in shape. Don't focus on the scale. <em>306</em> <BR> <BR> No need to reply....I just needed to remind myself that it will all be okay just stay focused. Mon, 26 Mar 2012 18:19:09 EST SUN day Well, it is Sunday and the kids and I spent all afternoon outside. It is 85 degrees and awesome. Megan and I went for a 3.5 mile walk and then Megan Zoe and I went for a swim. The water is still very chilly <em>425</em> The kids are tanned and I am sunburnt. OH the joys of being White and Freckled!! Oh well, it was a nice SUNday and now I will have to go buy stock in sunblock. <em>189</em> . I usually don't have to buy it until May. Obviously we will be needing it most of the year s... Sun, 25 Mar 2012 18:37:16 EST I hate being sick!! I hate being sick!! I have strep and it is kicking my tail. I am so drained and just want to do nothing. I have been forcing myself to walk everyday and stay on my eating plan. I think I am taking a day off from exercise today to just rest and recuperate. <em>24</em> Have a blessed day my SP friends. Fri, 23 Mar 2012 08:54:15 EST Week 2 BL challenge Woot! I am so excited!! I lost 4 pounds this past week on the BL challenge. Indigo team rocks!! I plan on continuing the same principles that I employed last week and hopefully losing another 2 pounds this week. The plan is to consistantly lose 2 pounds a week. With the decreased calories and increased activity this should be acievable. <BR> <BR> So, have a blessed day all my SP friends! Wed, 21 Mar 2012 15:24:21 EST To my couch Dear Couch , <BR> Okay, so Today I woke and it is still storming, torrential rain and my throat is sore. <em>39</em> Today will be a challenge for me I feel like snuggling up and hibernating. As much as that is appealing to me, I am not the old lazy Nae anymore. Yes, you keep calling out to me and I want to comfort you but I can not. I will be doing my exercise in doors today and you will have to witness it. After I complete my workout and shower I will come visit you for a few minut... Tue, 20 Mar 2012 09:11:38 EST Good day Today was a good day. I tracked all my food, did my exercise and even got a nap!! <em>102</em> I am still struggling to get all my water down. I tend to go back and forth between struggling with it and loving it. Tomorrow I will get started earlier on my water intake. Mon, 19 Mar 2012 19:31:51 EST My new buddies <em>236</em> <em>345</em> <em>223</em> <em>236</em> <BR> <BR> I have two new Spark Buddies, and I am so excited!! Since relocating to Texas I don't really have any friends or family here and my oldest daughter is moving back to Oklahoma so I was kinda depressed about it. But, I have two new spark buddies and we are doing a challenge this week to help stay accountable! I just want everyone to know how much I appreciate my new friends, SugarBeaches and MomaT828. <BR> <BR> Have a Bles... Sun, 18 Mar 2012 17:39:30 EST Thoughts It is so much easier to workout in the Spring time. I love to be outside and nice weather makes it even more enjoyable. I am living my life as each day is a NEW DAY. So it doesn't matter how well or how poorly I did the day before, nor do I need to worry about future days. <BR> <BR> I am working on being consistent and it is hard for me, but I am doing it. I am trying to focus on the baby st eps. I didnt gain all this weight in a big binge, it happen over years of wrong choices and habi... Sat, 17 Mar 2012 21:16:42 EST Sore Whew! I need to go kayaking every day!! My stomach is so sore today. <em>33</em> <BR> <BR> It is a good kind of sore though. We had such a good time on the lake yesterday and great exercise. Especially for me since I carry most all my weight in my mid section. I need to work those abs more. <BR> <BR> I am a bit disappointed with my weight this week, I got on the scales yesterday and it has increased since the first of the week. I am struggling with my food intake. I have to get mo... Fri, 16 Mar 2012 11:15:32 EST Kayaking I am so excited!!! Today I am taking my girls all kayaking. They have never been. I love it, great exercise, peaceful. hmmmmmmmm. It should be interesting, The two oldest will be in a tandem and then the baby will be with me in a tandem. I havent ever gone in a tandem before so I am looking forward to the experience and to having some sore muscles tonite <BR> <BR> . <em>27</em> Hoping it doesnt start raining. There is a 20% chance of thunderstorms. <BR> <BR> Update: <BR> <BR> <... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 09:46:20 EST Random <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Totally random picture, but I thought it cute. I want my nails done like this. <BR> <BR> I am rested and back on track today. God is good! Let us Praise him! <BR> <BR> I hope all my friends have a blessed day! <BR> <BR> <em>652</em> <em>296</em> <em>458</em> Wed, 14 Mar 2012 13:00:13 EST