MY_TIME_2_SHINE's SparkPeople Blog MY_TIME_2_SHINE's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Being Let Go In times of war in my life, I always pray that He would give me the strength to let go. But as my dear sister pointed out; if that has been my pray, I've already let go. Then she said that maybe my prayer should be for ME to be the one that is let go of. That was deep but not just that, I had just spoken those words right before I received the message! I pray for results and I pray for acceptance and I also-in this case- pray to let go. That has been a vicious cycle in my life for almost 13 ... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 08:37:31 EST I'm Feeling It Well, I finally decided to blog. Thought about it like everyday for the last 3 wks but I just hate sitting down to type. Anyway, I have lots to say, lots to be thankful for, lots to update on. But I'm going to make this short I think. <BR> <BR> Anywhoo, I've been back active and tracking some food and all fitness since April 1st. I joined another challenge that isn't on sparkpeople, but there are 69 other women in the challenge. I have to say that I have a love/hate relationship with this ch... Tue, 23 Apr 2013 18:00:36 EST Back injury advice Ok so I'm having trouble with my lower back & I don't know why. It started around Wed night after I had finished doing my son's hair. I figured it was just the way I was sitting and my body being tired. So it hurt all the next day whenever I would move, but it didn't keep me from doing things. So as the week went on, the dull pain subsided and I started to feel better and forgot about it. So I haven't exactly been in my BLC groove this past week and half & I said yesterday that I was going to... Sun, 28 Oct 2012 18:14:38 EST Committed 3-6-5 Biggest Loser Challenge Starting Pictures, Weight, & Measurements Hey peeps, I took these pictures on September 17, 2012 when I 1st learned of the challenge. Now I warn you the aren't pretty, HOWEVER they are a motivation to me and maybe someone else who has farther along in their journey to go than I do. I have looked back on my past pictures and the recent ones & they always change. My weight is constantly up & down. But seems like no matter how many times I have fallen, I have tried just as hard to get up, dust myself off , & keep it moving!! .... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 03:53:05 EST Time to Let it Out I have had a couple of stressful situation come against me in the past few weeks, but yet I stayed positive. I was doing so well, I wasn't stressing or overthinking. I got sick & that went all the way into Mother's day, but I still tried to stay focused. Now I will say, that threw me off. However; I was still THINKING about exercising & being productive. I dragged myself to my babies school for their reading presentation to me-still super sick, but that's what mom's are supposed to do. Well... Wed, 23 May 2012 10:00:03 EST Celeb Status....DGOTD <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is me & how Im feeling after yesterday!!! I can't tell you sparkfamily how much you all bring out the absolute best in me!! <em>304</em> so much for giving me the honor of being Done Girl of the Day!! But let me tell you how "slow" I am. <BR> <BR> Since I have been back exercising & attempting to track EVERYTHING consistently for the last 3wks <em>244</em> , I am eager now to get on here & check on my tea... Fri, 4 May 2012 09:35:53 EST Random I just got some advice from a fellow spark friend about journaling & taking pictures to track my progress. I do this from time to time but I always seem to lose focus & momentum when I can't "SEE" my progress. So I guess it is time I start writing down how I am feeling daily as a reminder of my lifestyle changes I am so desperately trying to make. <BR> <BR> When I look back at where I used to be, I kind of get discouraged because I have gained back most of the weight that I lost. However, i... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 15:54:02 EST Disgusted I don't even know what to type. I just heard that when you are going thru something, if you write about it you feel better. SIGH. That's all I keep doing is just blowing out lots of air!! Is it working, is the blogging working?? No but I will continue to do it anyway. I'm so upset that I can't even show any emotions!! How do you have what I call a breakthru & a disaster all at the same time?? I mean is that even possible...well before I tried to be productive & start my day???? <BR> <BR> SM... Fri, 2 Mar 2012 18:50:49 EST Valentine's Day Well Im just sort of rambling. I have joined several challenges trying to get a jumpstart on my weight loss again & I have set goals. But for some reason, I can't bring my body & my mind together to do the same things. I know what I need to do & I have the desire to do it. But what happened to the drive??? I can see my clothes fitting tighter, face spreading, arms starting to sag again & that isn't the motivation that I need to get back on the good foot!!! <BR> <BR> Ok so what is it??? Wh... Tue, 14 Feb 2012 18:46:16 EST Not Cut Out For This Maybe I'm not cut out for this...THIS is the plan that has been set out before me. My heart is just heavy. I wanna tuck my tail & run, but I know I can't <em>46</em> Too many people depend on me. I CAN"T go back & I'm not just talking about my weight! I mean I REALLY CAN"T go back to my old habits, old lifestyle <em>46</em> <em>46</em> . I know what has to be done. Being alone is one thing, but to actually have someone & FEEL alone is totally different on the mind. I just want to hideout f... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 23:57:24 EST Ok I did it!! Finally I have set a few goals for the day & actually hit them dead on today!!! <em>104</em> Stayed within my calorie range <em>248</em> , drank 8-10 glasses of water plus some coffee lol <em>248</em> Finally completed 60min of cardio for today...actually 61 HA <em>248</em> Actually trying to shower & be in the bed by midnight... now this is just too much!! <em>248</em> Man I am on it today!!! Now let's see if I can just do this for 21 more days LOL <em>104</em> <em>216</em> <em>326... Thu, 30 Jun 2011 00:47:39 EST No Do Overs!!! Soooo, it's the first of the month, baby sis' birthday, new starts, new challenges, new day!!! RIGHT?? For most, yes all of those things are true. BUT for me I refuse to start over!!! By saying that I don't mean that I give up on changing my life. I am simply saying to myself that THIS point where I am, I will not consider this starting over. This is a continuance. True, I was doing soooo well. Looking better, feeling on top of the world, trying not to stress and learn to just give it all ov... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 07:55:07 EST Reality!! I was texting my fiance once again & all of a sudden it felt like I had an epiphany. At this moment he really is my biggest fan & I love him soo much for that! When I traveled this road back in '05, we weren't doing so well & I didn't really have his support. Now he is awesome. The reality is that he believes in me more than I believe in myself sometimes & that should be motivation enough for anyone! <BR> I was telling him how I think I'm finally going to win this thing & even though he ... Sun, 17 Apr 2011 21:13:45 EST Getting back started (workout) It was great. I did alot and hopefully I won't be too sore the rest of the week. Im trying to stay focused on winning one day at a time. I often sulk when I don't complete EVERYTHING that I set myself up to do instead of focusing on what I did do. I'm just going to use what I have and know and just make the best out of it each day. If I focus on healthy habits and ensuring that they get done for that day; even if I slip up or lose my momentum~I should still see results. Whether it is in losin... Fri, 15 Apr 2011 05:55:54 EST Organization is a wonderful thing!! Man I have to say that getting organized is a beautiful thing....for real. Seems like it was going to take me forever and a day to do this. It was a lot of blood, sweat, tears, arguing, cursing, and praying; but it finally got done. Now I am no where near done, however I can say that going back to the basics and just throwing stuff away did some good. I seem to have more time to just sit and THINK about what to clean up next other than having 1 million things to clean and not wanting to! ... Sun, 19 Apr 2009 18:28:13 EST Going down, down, down and I'm not talking weight All I can do is sigh as I sit here and try to figure out why I can't seem to be consistent and get this weight off of me as I know I should. I have so many things going on that it is just all too overwhelming to put in perspective. I have my stepchildren and then my children, my fiance, and finally myself. My mother and my sister have hypertension as well as my future mother in law. Diabetes, cancer, you name the illness; I know at least one family member or friend who has/is dealing with... Mon, 30 Mar 2009 01:17:44 EST Ready to get back on track! Well once again I took a vacation from eating heathier, exercising, and being consistent for no good reason!! I ate everything that I knew I wasn't suppose to and of course, I have gained. I'm not down or sad about it at all. I am not giving up nor am I looking back in shame. I am just ready to start back to eating better and getting my rear in gear for some major slimming. My fiance has to do very heavy lifting and he is tall and thin. Would you belive he is asking me to help him gain ... Mon, 16 Jun 2008 12:14:56 EST All this slacking!!! All this dang on slacking hasn't done anything but cost me precious time that I do not have. I started the wk off Sunday totally "in the zone" . By Tue. I was like, "zone...what's that?" I got up and put the ole' workout clothes on, got the people out the house except for the baby and ready to get back into gear! What was that? Get BACK into gear.. here we go again!!! Like round 286 of "getting back in gear". I'm tired of that man! I checked my little weightloss calendar only to find ... Fri, 9 May 2008 09:34:48 EST A DETERMINED DIVA who is so DONE!!!!!! (image may offend you, it did me!) Man when is the baby due...YEAH RIGHT LIKE 2 YRS AGO!!!! Hello, hello, hello!! I am Christina, 28( soon to be 29 June 8), mommy of 4, soulmate to one great individual, and Jack of all trades!! This is the 2nd wk of the Fighting temptations and Fabulicious fit club challenge and the 1st wk of the Swimsuit bootcamp challenge. My goals are really really simple. I want, need, desire, to be fit, fine, healthy, and worry free. No really my goal for the Swimsuit challenge is to at least come o... Sun, 4 May 2008 17:27:38 EST I think I need to be stopped Okay, okay yesterday I had a birthday party for my oldest who turned 8 on the 20th. We had a blast!!!! <em>236</em> But the problem is there is some "junk" left over from the party. Now I am not really big on candy anymore or even the cake, but there are some darn brownies that are to die for that I just can't keep my hand off of. Now I don't want to throw my babydoll's stuff away because I can't control my temptations so I am looking for you all to give me some suggestions. I had that t... Thu, 1 May 2008 15:39:50 EST Seriously need to rest Oh my goodness I am beat. Hell of a 2 days and I am so tired. Yesterday, I completed my workout as planned. But I think I did something to my foot and my darn knee is acting up as well. Today, I haven't tried to do anything yet because of the foot, knee, and staying up all night rearranging my home for my carpet shampooing. Needless to say, I could use a bit of a nap and some pain reliever. I am kind of ticked off though because I have been exercising so well this wk. Now I don't think... Fri, 11 Apr 2008 14:34:50 EST Pre have got to be kidding!!!! Well when it rains, it pours. Yesterday after having a wonderful Easter with my children and fiancé', I took the kids to get their Easter stuff. Well I tried Rite Aid first thinking that maybe some of that stuff would be marked down already, but was sadly mistaken. So the eldest girl had to use the restroom which is in the back of the store by the pharmacy. So while she was in, I decided to check my blood pressure. Now the story behind that is, last wk I had a headache for like 3 days wh... Mon, 24 Mar 2008 13:35:26 EST There goes that stinkin' wake up call AGAIN!!!! I saw it again, just a few minutes ago. Here I am waking around the house cleaning, straightening, hanging up clothes when.....all of a sudden a caught a glimpse of myself in the darn mirror. Now I have on my workout clothes because I was going to attempt to go walking/jogging before noon after I dragged the clothes to the laundry room of the apartments next door. Also, while everyone was sleeping in including my hubby to be. Well it didn't happen with the workout, but I did eat the right... Sat, 22 Mar 2008 19:16:36 EST Oh the road is rough..... Wooo, they always say that situations get worse before they get better...right? Why is this? Man I am STILL STILL trying to hang in here. I know you guys probably say that is has only been some days and I'm already complaining about how hard it is. Nothing new to me, remember. Well I get easily distracted when I feel like I'm not in control. Example: I am a SAHM of 4, but one doesn't live with us. On the holidays my stepdaughter(who lives with me and her dad) has to go back to her "o... Thu, 20 Mar 2008 13:57:46 EST Hmmm, let's make this official Alright, let's call this day two. Not really, more like day 9,842 of my new lifestyle that I am so desperately trying to obtain. I did well yesterday, but I didn't get those cardio minutes in a form of aerobics but house cleaning. I feel pretty good today and I am glad that I decided to give it another shot. I still have a long way to go, so much more to learn, and several awesome people to meet. I am going to try to commit to a new task daily until I become persistent. I read somewhere ... Fri, 14 Mar 2008 14:48:23 EST Just another day Okay, so I have been at this dieting thing now for about 5 mons. I know, I know that is a long time to keep starting and stopping something that is so beneficial to life. Well I think I had an ampiphony after taking some pictures of myself the other day that really disgust me. I can't do this eat a little here, workout there, and then think I am suppose to see some results. Don't get me wrong, I have learned so much from being on SP and I love the people. But it is only so much one can b... Thu, 13 Mar 2008 12:45:37 EST One More Day Okay it is November 17, 2007. This isn't my first time trying to lose weight and from visiting other sp member pages, I am not alone. This is also not my first time wanting to give up either, but I think I am going to give it one more day. For some odd reason or two or three, my life is a little too hectic to actually dedicate myself to perseverance- Steady persistence in adhering to a course of action, a belief, or a purpose; steadfastness. I cannot give %110 or even %50 half of the time... Sat, 17 Nov 2007 14:38:08 EST