MYBLUEIRIS's SparkPeople Blog MYBLUEIRIS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 5 Months Down the Drain I gave up, gave in and stopped trying to lose weight 5 months ago. Now I am hesitantly going to try again. I don't know how I got so intimidated and freaked out (and then ashamed of myself for reacting that way). It was a vicious cycle, and I'm trying to fight it off and get off my tush and try again. <BR> <BR> I'm so scared that I'm going to fail again, give up again, fall flat on my face again. I know I just need to get out in the SparkPeople community and get motivated and inspired again... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 17:39:10 EST Struggling with my Calorie Intake I'm struggling with my calories today. Just thought I'd throw that out there. Some days I can be fairly certain before they're over that I've eaten too much and am not going to make the calorie count. Today is one of those days. <BR> <BR> I'm sitting here at a little after 5 pm, and I only have 194 calories left for the day. I'm bummed out because it feels like I did everything right today. I'm not sure where all the calories came from. I wasn't snacking mindlessly. I ate plenty of freggies... Fri, 22 Jun 2012 17:15:08 EST My Vision Collage I made my vision collage today. It's a collage of pictures of things that represent how I'd like myself and my life to be. Things I put on it: <BR> <BR> <BR> a woman doing a handstand (healthy and strong with a butt that's as fab as hers is!) <BR> <BR> flowers (there's always room for flowers in my life) <BR> <BR> a butterfly (to symbolize my creativity) <BR> <BR> a naked woman, strategically posed to hide her girl parts, of course (I'd like to comfortable with my body when I'm naked) <B... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 15:02:01 EST Not Quite a Slacker So today was one week since I last saw any progress with the scale. I've officially dubbed either Thursdays or Fridays my weigh-in days. Since I didn't want to wait until tomorrow, I went ahead and hopped on it today. The good news is that I didn't gain anything, but the bad news is that I didn't lose anything either. <BR> <BR> So, I went back and looked at my numbers for the week, and I saw that I've been over on my calorie count almost every day. Since I saw results so quickly the first t... Thu, 21 Jun 2012 09:58:43 EST Watermelon Is there any more perfect food than watermelon? Seriously, watermelon is juicy, sweet, easy to serve... It's excellent cold. It's great for a picnic or a barbecue. It's low in calories and high in hydrating juiciness! I LOVE IT! <BR> <BR> ** yes, I totally did just devote a blog entry to the sheer deliciousness and yummyness of watermelon... Are you laughing yet? ;) <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 20 Jun 2012 15:43:06 EST I Have a Cold It started out as a cough and progressed to a runny nose. Last night, I was congested and coughing. I ended up taking cough syrup so I could sleep. I'm really bummed out. Just when I was getting into the swing of things, I have this setback. <BR> <BR> I hope I feel better soon so I can get off my tush and exercise more. With being sick, exercise has definitely fallen by the wayside. <BR> <BR> Just gotta bust out this fever and cough and start feeling better. <BR> <BR> Things I can still... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 16:54:40 EST How to Get 5 Freggies in Each Day This is a brainstorming blog for me because I've noticed that I'm having difficult getting in my freggies. I can regularly get in 3 or so, but today I only got in 1! Ack! It's time to formulate a plan and stick with it. Below you'll find my list of ideas. Feel free to add your own ideas in the comments section! <BR> <BR> <em>303</em> <BR> <BR> * wash and slice/cut up freggies and store them in the fridge where they're ready to be grabbed any time I need a snack <BR> <BR> * boil more t... Wed, 13 Jun 2012 20:55:58 EST Struggling with Weight Obsession & the Blues I'm struggling with staying away from the scale today. It's not my day to weigh in. I'm doing weigh ins every week on Fridays. That's three days from now. However, I am obsessing over my weight a little bit. I know that's not healthy. I know I need to focus on my life and not on my weight, but sometimes it's hard for me to not obsess. ACK! <BR> <BR> I'm also feeling a little hungrier today than I'd like. I had breakfast. Then I had half a cucumber to try to fill up a little more. Still feel... Tue, 12 Jun 2012 13:01:56 EST Pineapple Salmon Teriyaki -- Recipe I made this recipe for dinner tonight. It was my first time trying out a Hungry Girl ( recipe. I didn't find the recipe on the website. I actually checked out Hungry Girl 1-2-3 from the library and got the recipe from there. It's super simple and totally yummy! Here's my slightly altered version of the recipe, if you want to try it: <BR> <BR> Pineapple Salmon Teriyaki (serves 1) <BR> <BR> Ingredients: <BR> <BR> 1 4-ounce salmon fillet <BR> 1 tablespoon teriyaki sauce <... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 21:58:38 EST My Second Trip to the Grocery Store I went to the grocery store today for the second time since I've been on the SparkPeople site. This time, it was a lot less stressful and a lot more fun. I had some items that I'd enjoyed eating this past week, so I made sure to pick those up. I also picked up a couple of new items that I haven't tried before. <BR> <BR> Some of the items in my cart: <BR> <BR> red seedless grapes <BR> a whole pineapple <BR> Greek yogurt (you all know how addicted I am to this stuff!) <BR> mini bagels <BR> t... Fri, 8 Jun 2012 18:02:41 EST Sticky-Noting and the Blahs I feel like I have a case of the blahs today. I don't feel particularly down so much as I feel blah. I want to be excited about losing weight and learning to have a healthier lifestyle, but I just can't get up the energy today. In all fairness to myself, I am on my period, and this is always a difficult time of the month for me. <BR> <BR> I've eaten a little more than I like today, but I'm still on track for the day if I'm careful toward the end of the day. <BR> <BR> One thing I accomplis... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 18:28:38 EST More Spice in My Life For lunch today, I tried a frozen diet entree. This wasn't the first time that I've tried one, and it wasn't even the first time that I really liked one, but it was the first time that I took a bite and said, "Wow! Now that is good!!" The meal I tried was Smart Ones' Thai Style White Meat Chicken & Rice Noodles. It come with this amazing peanut sauce that makes the dish. Trust me. It would be nothing without the peanut sauce. <BR> <BR> The reason I'm so excited, though, isn't so much that I... Tue, 5 Jun 2012 14:10:55 EST Strength Training for the First Time This is my first week on the SparkPeople website, and I'm really taking the weight loss and lifestyle changes seriously this time around. I'm determined that this is going to be a lifestyle change, not just something that I do for a little while and then slack off on. <BR> <BR> I have to admit that I had reservations about doing the recommended strength training exercises, but I read somewhere that strength training helps build up muscles, so I figured I'd give it a try. Oh my god! Let me j... Mon, 4 Jun 2012 16:35:35 EST Shopping and a Trip to the Park Yesterday I went shopping and got a bunch of goodies to help me start eating right. Today I went to the store again and picked up a few more things. Here are some of the goodies that I've got in my fridge right now: a whole fresh pineapple, green grapes, mini bagels, hummus, Greek yogurt, bananas, Healthy Choice meals, and low fat cottage cheese. <BR> <BR> I have pretty much figured out how to eat breakfast. I've also got the snacks pretty much down, but I have a long way to go before I lea... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 20:49:37 EST First Full Day Today is my first full day on the SparkPeople website, first full day really working on losing weight. I'm gonna have to work on my tendency to nibble things during the day. Not full portions. Just little bits and pieces, bites here and there. The only thing is that all of those bites add up. <BR> <BR> I actually went out and walked today for the first time in months. I pushed myself to walk fast enough that I was slightly out of breath and that talking on the phone was a little bit of a st... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 14:02:48 EST