MYANTEK8's SparkPeople Blog MYANTEK8's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Week 22 - It Was Going So Well... I suffered a running injury this week. I was just running along, Listening to Runner 10's observations on zombie behaviour when something in my right calf went 'pop'. Ouch. I tried to walk it off. It was not walk offable. I had to call my husband to come rescue me. <BR> <BR> Luckily, work this week was on the side where I don't have to run back and forth to meet customer needs. I can pretty much stand in one spot. My pharmacist for the day immediately asked what I'd done to myself when... Sun, 4 Oct 2015 15:17:15 EST Week 21 - Maintaining a Positive Outlook I'm trying to look on the bright side this week. Last week was a bit of a failure. I let outside factors affect my weight loss journey. Stress and exhaustion and someone else letting me down let me make the poor choices I've been trying to avoid. That's the thing that I'm trying to learn not to do. <BR> <BR> This week I plan to make better choices. Starting today. I'll track the whole day. I'm not having fast food for lunch (although I may treat the kids) and I will exercise and make ... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 10:43:50 EST Week 20 - Getting There See that profile image up there <em>49</em> . That's 20lbs in 20 weeks. It's not my goal. I wanted to lose 2lbs a week but at least it's consistent losses. It's also a fifth of the weight I need to lose. I've started and stopped so many times. This time feels different. This time feels like I'm making changes that can stick. Changes that will see me reach a healthy weight. So it's not as fast as I was hoping it would be. Big deal. The more important thing is that it's happening.... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 10:54:55 EST Week 19 - It Has Begun Hockey season that is. And school and music and... <BR> <BR> I had a nice routine. Now I'll have to work to stay on it. My youngest has a couple of 5:30am practices and that throws the day out of whack. Adding in games and music lessons on Saturdays and it's going to be a challenge to maintain my workout schedule. Sun, 13 Sep 2015 15:34:19 EST Week 18 - Broke the Streak I'm a little disappointed in myself. I broke my streak. I had 8 glasses of water 126 days in a row, usually more, and then on Friday I only had 7. I fell asleep on the couch and had to drag myself up to walk the dog. I'd been planning to have the last glass after that walk. Instead, off to bed I went. *sigh* <BR> <BR> On the positives I challenged myself to start a couch to 5K program this week and I did it. I went out after work. Exercising at the end of the day has always been a pr... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 10:35:53 EST Zombies, Run! Week 1 Introduction It's a good thing that zombies shamble. Otherwise, I'm dessert. <BR> <BR> First, things first. I'm proud of myself for lacing up my sneakers and getting out there today. Work was really busy. I was running nearly the whole day. I left with things undone. I had to take the bus home because my youngest son had hockey practice too late for me to be picked up. That means I had a longish walk ahead of me right after standing all day. I had to make dinner once I got home so everything was ... Mon, 31 Aug 2015 23:39:06 EST Week 17 It was a short visit to Wonderland. I don't know what I did to gain 2lbs this week but that's what happened. I think it was stress but it happened and all I can do is keep moving forward. This week I start running. Scared and excited at the same time. <BR> <BR> I'm doing a couch to 5K from the Zombies, Run! app. It looks like fun. Sun, 30 Aug 2015 12:01:47 EST Week 16 - Onderland! I did it! <BR> <BR> 199.2lbs. So happy to be out of the 200s. That's the point where I always feel terrible about my weight and my body. <BR> <BR> I still need to work at it though. I didn't meet all of my goals this week and I still have over 80lbs to lose to no longer be obese but I feel like I'm making progress. Sun, 23 Aug 2015 11:20:28 EST Week 15 - Need to Maker Better Choices So last week I was frustrated because I've been in a plateau. That led me to make some poor food choices and didn't motivate myself to exercise as much as I should have. The result is exactly what I expected. I need to make better choices this week. It may not show up on the scale but I've got to make the effort. Sun, 16 Aug 2015 12:06:19 EST Week 14 - Stuck I'm stuck. I know plateaus happen. I'm looking for non-scale victories. I feel fitter. I'm walking better. I don't hurt as much at the end of the day but my goal line is rapidly disappearing. <BR> <BR> If I were meeting my goals I would be 190lbs today. I'm 10lbs higher than that. I want to start running at the beginning of September. I was really hoping to be under 200lbs when I started that. I don't know if that's going to happen. I feel like I'm making the right food choices mos... Sun, 9 Aug 2015 10:38:53 EST Week 13 - Disappointing Shopping Trip Why do sports bras have under wire? It seems like it would be incredibly uncomfortable. I don't need my bosom shaped while I exercise I want it contained so it doesn't hurt. <BR> <BR> I went to the plus size active store yesterday because I needed a new sports bra. The one I have is too small and really, really old. There were no plus size specialty stores when I bought it. I thought it would be easy. I looked online and the store had a whole line of sports bras. I saw a bunch with re... Sun, 2 Aug 2015 10:55:37 EST Week 12 - Getting Back to Routine Getting back from vacation is almost as hard as being on vacation. I didn't meet my exercise goals this week. Just couldn't get back in the habit. I use the excuse that my work schedule was different (I lost a half hour in the morning where I do yoga three times this week) and that I really needed to make that phone call (I did) but I should have been able to motivate myself to work out in the half hour that I gained in the evening. <BR> <BR> Oh well, still lost 0.5lbs. This will be a ne... Sun, 26 Jul 2015 10:50:30 EST Week 11 - Best Laid Plans... Back from vacation. I had planned to exercise in the gym at the hotel. I even brought some workout clothes. Even brought my swim suit to use the pool. Did not do either. I thought that I'd get enough steps just being a tourist. That worked most days but because we took the subway and such there were days that were a lot more sedentary than they felt like. <BR> <BR> All in all though, I only gained 0.6lbs. I'm taking that as a win. I thought it was going to be much worse. Getting to ... Sun, 19 Jul 2015 10:31:22 EST Week 10 - On Vacation I don't have a weigh in this week because I'm no where near my scale. That's a little hard. I've been tracking but I'd like to have confirmation that I'm doing OK. I had planned to walk the treadmill in the hotel gym but that's not happening. I am walking lots. And lots and LOTS though. Eating is a little harder as we're with a picky kid that limits where we stop. Still, I think I'll get out of these 10 days not gaining anything and I'll call that a win. Sun, 12 Jul 2015 08:27:48 EST Week 9 - Going on Vacation! I'm so excited! I get to spend 10 days with my brother in Toronto. I haven't seen him in 2 years. Our last family vacation was in March but was half vacation and half hockey tournament so it's just nice to be able to get away with no real plans. The bonus of seeing family is bonus. <BR> <BR> It is the first vacation I've taken since rededicating to Spark. I'm a little concerned. I can still log food, that's not the problem. I'll be getting plenty of walking in, because that's the best... Sun, 5 Jul 2015 11:04:28 EST Week 8 - Not Where I Hoped I'd Be So I'm at the 2 month mark and I've lost 11 pounds. That's about a pound a week. I've set up the program to lose two pounds a week. This month was super slow and I'm not sure why. I'm beginning to fear that I'm not eating enough. <BR> <BR> I think I am. There are days where I think I could have eaten more but most days I'm comfortable. Yesterday I didn't move much but ate into my exercise calories and was very, very full (but the Greek salad was oh so good). I'm still looking for that... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 15:45:21 EST Week 7 - Getting a New Scale Getting a new scale is tough. I know every scale is expected to have a certain accuracy but a scale I've had for 10 years and never changed the batteries always makes me wonder how accurate it was. This new one reads to the 0.1 (not the 0.5) and has a body fat calculation. I'm excited. It makes me feel like I'm making progress. Sun, 21 Jun 2015 12:20:56 EST Week 6 - Weight Loss is Hard I know I've stayed in my calorie range this week (near the top but the exercise calories say I'm fine) but I didn't lose. There's no reason I can think that I didn't lose. I exercised. I didn't overindulge. I was "good". I did add another workout to my routine - yoga. I'm not sure if I'm overestimating exercise calories or underestimating consumption calories or if it's just one of those things. I'm leaning towards one of those things. <BR> <BR> I'm going to pay more attention to what... Sun, 14 Jun 2015 13:01:27 EST Week 5 - Time for Some New Goals As of today I finished my 2 week goal: walking the dog twice a day, every day except Tuesday, and strength training 3 times a week. It took 3 weeks to get two full weeks because of an illness set back but I did it. Now I want to add something. <BR> <BR> I want two full weeks a yoga three times a day (Wednesday, Thursday and Saturday) and 10, 000 steps. I don't know if I'll make it the first week. I have to change my morning routine a little to get the Wed, Thurs thing going and the first... Sun, 7 Jun 2015 10:50:11 EST Week 4 - Ignoring the Scale I didn't lose anything this week. I didn't change anything that I was doing but I didn't lose. I know there's going to be weeks where that happens - for whatever reason. It's hard not to be disappointed. It's hard not to be discouraged. But, my clothes are fitting better. I'm getting stronger in my walks. I'm working at things the way I want to work at them and things are getting better. This week I have to think of positives that don't have a numerical equivalent. Sun, 31 May 2015 12:29:36 EST Week 3 - A Loss is a Loss Sheesh... try to lose one pound a week and lose three; try to lose two and lose one. <BR> <BR> Intellectually I know there are going to be weeks where I don't meet weight loss goals. There's plenty of reasons why the scale doesn't always match perceived effort. This week I had a stomach bug that sent me home from work and kept me home a second day. My sick day I didn't move more than 1000 steps (I regularly hit 12,000 on a week day). I'm still recovering. <BR> <BR> Yesterday the dog sto... Sun, 24 May 2015 10:40:23 EST Week 2 - Moving the Goal Posts So, I'm two weeks into my newest Spark and I'm pretty pleased with how things are going. <BR> <BR> It's not the weight I've lost (though 6lbs in 2 weeks is awesome), it's that I'm setting goals and meeting them. I've always low-balled my goals on Spark because I figured that I didn't meet them it wouldn't matter because I'd do better next time. That obviously went nowhere. These last two weeks I've been meeting my calorie and exercise goals and I've been succeeding. So why not make them ... Sun, 17 May 2015 10:43:43 EST Week 1 - Again I've done this Spark thing for a while. Not well, but I've been here. This week was different. I tracked like I did the first time. This week I made the choice to eat healthy. This week I made the choice to go out and walk the dog. There were plenty of things that came up that would have made it so easy to not make those choices. I didn't let that happen this week. Now to do that next week too. <BR> <BR> Biggest challenge this week was actually eating enough calories. I was over twi... Sun, 10 May 2015 10:37:36 EST Why Wait? I was going to start trying to lose weight again in the new year. Why wait? <BR> <BR> I've been doing that to myself a lot lately. I'll start tomorrow. I'll wait until after I go away. Next week would be better. Why wait? <BR> <BR> I'm not waiting anymore. I'm tired of being the big girl. I'm tired of feeling frumpy. I'm tired of being tired. Why wait? <BR> <BR> The answer is: don't. There's nothing I can start tomorrow that I shouldn't start today. Sun, 21 Dec 2014 10:44:37 EST Why Can't I Do This I'm tired of constant failure. I've gained so much weight lately after having been stalled for so long. I need to make changes. I just turned 40. That\ll make everything harder. It's time to get hard on myself. I can't keep going the way I am. I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror. I'm tired all the time. I hurt. I'm sure most of it is because of what I've done to my own body. <BR> <BR> Today is the day. Today is the day that I start making changes that I know I need to make. Sun, 20 Oct 2013 09:32:44 EST Hurdles Well, I've started (again). I wasn't planning to blog this time because it doesn't seem to help but I need somewhere to whine a minute. <BR> <BR> I have three hurdles that I must overcome today: <BR> <BR> 1. getting to work. Yesterday was a terrible day and I'd like to believe that today will be better but I'm having trouble. I have to correct some mistakes, I have to finish some work I didn't get to and it's the busiest day of the month. My 6 year old woke me at 5am and I want to crawl... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 10:56:31 EST Day 18 I have not been a good Sparker these last few weeks. I did track my breakfast yesterday, but nothing else. I have to actually think about what I'm doing. I need to lose the weight this time. Wed, 25 Jul 2012 09:38:12 EST Day 15 (Week 2) I don't get it. I didn't exercise this week, I didn't track what I was eating and I didn't drink enough water and I lose 2.5 lbs. I'm not complaining. It's just hard to justify doing all those good habits when they don't seem to get me as far. The only explanation that I have is that since I wasn't tracking, I was eating less because I wasalways sure I was going over. <BR> <BR> New week, anyway. Keep this train rolling. Sun, 22 Jul 2012 10:10:24 EST Day 13 *sigh* <BR> <BR> I'm seriously considering just calling this week a bust and starting fresh. I won't. I will keep trying. I will put yesterday behind me and look at today with fresh eyes. Fri, 20 Jul 2012 10:11:18 EST Day 12 Today? Is today the day that I get myself back on track? <BR> <BR> I'm trying. I really am. I don't want to exercise today, but I really, really, ought to. Thu, 19 Jul 2012 10:30:23 EST Day 11 I'm having the hardest time getting motivated this week. I just can't seem to get myself back into the groove. And I haven't even been trying again that long! <BR> <BR> I am paying attention to what I eat. I just haven't logged it. That usually means that I'm eating way more than I should, but I have been making the effort to just eat food and not junk. I've been indulging in Starbucks in the morning since my coffee maker broke. (Last morning for this little treat.) And we've been hav... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 09:24:24 EST Day 10 Ugh. Yesterday I did the work of 1.5 techs by myself. Only a few minor errors. One was mostly a misunderstanding (that if the customer hadn't been one of those types that are wound so tight they're about to snap wouldn't have been a big deal at all), one that should have been caught by the half tech before it got to the pharmacist (grabbed the wrong drug - an XR instead of a SR), one where I forgot to move something from one basket to the other and one where I gave the delivery driver the ... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 09:36:59 EST Day 9 I didn't do much yesterday, but I DID do some weight training. And for that I'm proud of me. I really, really didn't want to do it but I made the time and I put in the effort. <BR> <BR> This week I'm focusing on staying on track. I want to improve on my efforts from last week and build some good habits. I'm starting at a disadvantage because my work schedule changed for the week. I can't work out this morning and I can't make it up in the evening. I'm going to have to do some extra phy... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:28:28 EST Day 8 (Week 1) So... Um. I sort of forgot that I was Sparking yesterday. I have a bunch of excuses as to why I didn't but I'm just going to say I didn't pay attention and leave it at that. <BR> <BR> Weekly round up: <BR> <BR> Calories: I was in range 4/7 days. Not bad. I can certainly improve there. <BR> <BR> Exercise: weight training - 2/3, cardio - 2/3. Considering I wasn't really planning to get in any exercise the fact that I got this much in makes me happy. I should have gotten more, but I did... Sun, 15 Jul 2012 10:37:58 EST Day 7 Work, yesterday, kicked me hard. I was running from the moment I got there until the moment I left. By the time I got home I was exhausted and seriously considering crawling in to bed at 7:30. However, I stuck to my eating plan. I knew that Friday was going to be a hard day and I knew I wanted to chill a bit with some potato chips, so I made sure there was room for them. I wasn't as good with the water consumption but we've all got to start somewhere. Sat, 14 Jul 2012 13:08:24 EST Day 6 So, I forgot to track yesterday. It was one minor convienence after another and I just didn't want to write it all down. I even went to food as my comfort item. I figured I'd blown it anyway. This morning I put in everything I hadn't yesterday. I'm fairly certain that I remembered everything. I was plesantly surprised that I came in on target. <BR> <BR> I even exercsied yesterday morning! Sure, it didn't burn a lot of calories but I was sweating and panting and, most importantly, movi... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 11:06:42 EST Day 5 So close! I was one glass of water short of making my 8 glasses a day. It's tempting to cheat and count the can of Coke as "mostly water". <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a pizza day. It just felt like one. I did limit myself to just one piece and I dabbed all the grease off the top before I ate it. By the time I got home I had planned to just forget trying to stay on target and enjoy some potato chips too. But I didn't. Dinner was still a bit bigger than it should have been but I didn't comp... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 10:44:35 EST Day 4 I can't believe how sore I am! I didn't exercise yesterday and I went over my goals (by just a little but I'm still bummed I went over). If I'd said "no" to that second cookie I would have been fine. Dinner was a bit more calorie intensive than I'd planned but my husband decided he didn't want to cook dinner. That left takeout. <BR> <BR> I've had more calorie intensive takeout. This was actually a good blend of meat, vegetables and starch. Our local Greek restaurant does meals for take... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 09:47:52 EST Day 3 Yesterday I exercised. I didn't think I'd over done it but today I'm sore. My arm especially, but my back and legs don't feel too hot either. I want to do another weight day either today or tomorrow. If I feel up to it, I should really do it today as I have a tendancy to keep putting off exercise. I really don't like to do it. <BR> <BR> My husband was unsurprisingly unhelpful. He asked how I felt after exercising. I told him how I felt terribly out of shape. He replied, "Well, you're... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 09:36:49 EST Day 2 Yesterday went pretty much the way I wanted it to. I did get my water in (yay!) and I even managed to do some exercising. My evening was thrown into chaos with the sudden need to dose both boys for lice (boo!). <BR> <BR> Today my goal is to just track everything. I intend to stay in my calorie range today. Mon, 9 Jul 2012 10:36:21 EST Day 1 (again) I've tried so many times that this seems so redundant. I really do what to live a healthier lifestyle but I can't seem to make the changes that I want to see in myself. <BR> <BR> Unfortunately, my weight has gotten to the point where it is starting to affect my health. I have to lose weight now, or I won't be able to enjoy the future. Sun, 8 Jul 2012 11:02:34 EST January 4, 2012 Yesterday was absolutely slammed at work. I'm now farther behind than I'd hoped to be. If I were going in tomorrow I think I might be able to catch up but I'm almost disappointed that it's my holiday. I think about work too much. <BR> <BR> Yesterday also saw complete failure of my new healthy ways. I'm not even going to bother to try logging my day yesterday. I'm going to put it completely behind me and start fresh today. Thu, 5 Jan 2012 11:13:39 EST January 4, 2012 I'm getting closer. I didn't have that salad for lunch yesterday, but I did have whole wheat sushi. I didn't have wine with dinner, I searched the menu for something that wasn't too heavily loaded, but I did choose to have a small piece of pie for dessert. <BR> <BR> It's Wednesday and I have to get on track. Tonight I have to do strength training in the evening and I have to stay away from all the sweets on display at work today. Wed, 4 Jan 2012 09:53:34 EST January 3, 2012 As expected I failed just at the finish line yesterday. I was doing fine until it was time to go home again. I'd been dealing with a headache most of the day so I just wanted something salty to help make it go away. So I grabbed potato chips before I left as a snack. Then once I'd eaten those I let myself believe I'd blown it for the day so I might as well eat as much chinese take out as I wanted, rather than how much I actually needed. I ended the day 400 calories over, no exercise and ... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 10:17:42 EST January 2, 2012 Yesterday I met nearly all my goals. I got a headache near the end of the day and couldn't quite finish everything I set out for myself but I'm pleased with how the day went. My husband saved me from eating that last piece of birthday cake because he had two pieces so I was even under my calories. <BR> <BR> Today's challenge is the calories. I'm going to work today and so is DH. That means no time to exercise this morning and probably take out for supper. I have to plan my breakfast and... Mon, 2 Jan 2012 10:27:47 EST January 1, 2012 It's a new year and typically time for new year's resolutions. I hesitate to actually make any resolutions because they always fail. But I would like this year to be the one that I make some real progress into living healthy. It's a symbolic start to new things and I'm taking the opportunity to start fresh and think positive. Sun, 1 Jan 2012 11:19:18 EST December 11, 2011 I'm having such a hard time with motivation. I just can't seem to stay on track. I'm going to try to do better thiss week. But I'm starting the day with a headache and I'm not confident I can make it through the day. Sun, 11 Dec 2011 10:49:24 EST Day 17 I have to turn things around today. This is what usually happens. I have a really good week and then a poor one, and then a really poor one. I have to turn this really poor week into at least a poor week, if not a good one. Tue, 6 Dec 2011 09:44:56 EST Day 15 So I gained half a pound this week. I considering how I ate and didn't exercise this week. I have zero motivation right now too. It's going to be work to eat well today instead of slipping into bad habits. Sun, 4 Dec 2011 11:33:25 EST Day 13 Um, yeah. So failure yesterday. I went way over calories, I didn't exercise and I lost my 8 glasses of water a day streak. I had two cans of Coke, when I usually don't have any. It was just a poor decision day all round. Today I have to do better. Fri, 2 Dec 2011 10:11:24 EST