MYANTEK8's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MYANTEK8 MYANTEK8's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Day 1: I Didn't Want to Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6307208 I've been trying so hard to just keep moving forward. Last week I finally fell behind. I lost my attendance streak. After almost 2 years I forgot to at least log in to Spark. I've been struggling with trying to keep motivation. So today I have to finally admit that I'm starting fresh. Here's to a new streak. Sun, 29 Jan 2017 11:13:37 EST Well... That Didn't Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6288569 Trying again to try again. I know I can do this. I just need to do it! Sun, 1 Jan 2017 10:56:03 EST This Christmas I'm Giving Myself Healthy Living http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6285186 I've had a bad month... I've had a bad season to be honest and I've gained back nearly 10lbs. I need to stop fooling myself and buckle down and just do it. I figured Christmas Day was as good a point as any to restart. I've tried doing a little, I've tried doing a lot but I just need to try. I've got my goals in place and I need to find the willpower to make things happen. <BR> <BR> So, at 191.5lbs, I declare Dec.25, 2016 to be my new beginning. Again. Sun, 25 Dec 2016 11:29:49 EST Week 84 - Tearing it Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6279412 I've been off track so long that I'm lost in the wilderness. Time to tear it down and get back to basics. This week I'm going to focus on light activity and food tracking. I need to find my way back. Sun, 11 Dec 2016 10:50:45 EST Week 82 - Stress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6269778 Stress is coming. I can feel it. <BR> <BR> DH just found out on Friday that the contract for his position was not renewed. The city has been hemming and hawing for months on whether they would extend it and decided this week that they wouldn't. Come December he loses his regular job and gets placed on the alternate list. He might get picked up for something more permanent relatively quickly, but he might not. Christmas might be a bit lean this year. My paycheque is not big enough to ... Sun, 20 Nov 2016 11:23:55 EST Week 80 - This May Be Rock Bottom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6262883 October was not a healthy month. I ate too much and I didn't exercise and I have no excuse. November has to be better. This is my new Day 1. Sun, 6 Nov 2016 17:10:32 EST Week 78: Struggling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6255810 I'm having the worst time getting back on track and staying there. I just can't get motivated. I tell myself everyday, "OK, this is the day to get serious again!" Everyday I come up with some excuse to not exercise or to give myself that treat. Something. So, once again, today is the day to get serious! Sun, 23 Oct 2016 10:57:59 EST Week 77 - My Son and I Have A Lot in Common http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6252480 We're both very hard on ourselves. I took him to his hockey game this morning. He had a great game. Great hustle, lots of hard work. Two of his coaches made special mention that this is maybe the best game they've ever seen him play. He was on fire! Unfortunately, he missed two good scoring chances. His whole team was behind him (and that's saying a lot for a group of 10-12 year old boys) but he can't see it. He doesn't see the success; he only sees the chances he missed. <BR> <BR> I... Sun, 16 Oct 2016 16:03:40 EST Week 76 - No More Excuses! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6249320 I've been letting life get in the way of weight loss. I know it can happen, but I haven't done enough to keep the momentum going. I've been spiraling and I need to make it stop. I've come to far to let myself quit. Mon, 10 Oct 2016 11:23:58 EST Week 75 - Making it Happen http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6245196 Too many weeks sliding through. This week I need to be more focused. I'm not as sick, not as hurt and not looking for a new car. Schedule is still flippy but I can make it work. Sun, 2 Oct 2016 15:00:12 EST Week 74 - So Tired http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6241648 I have a cold. Stupid beginning of the school year plague. It's taking so long to get anything done and there's so many things I need to get done. Pushing through. Sun, 25 Sep 2016 16:05:04 EST Week 73 - Restarting the Restart http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6237828 I was starting to buckle down and refocus on SparkPeople, and then stuff happened and I didn't. Today I will. I probably have a too ambitious plan set up but there's a lot of things I want to change in my life right now. Sun, 18 Sep 2016 10:48:04 EST Week 72: I Had High Hopes For This Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6233931 I felt like I was getting back on track. I felt like I was about to make my next milestone of 20% loss. Instead, I got in a car accident. No was seriously injured, and I'll ever be thankful for that, but I am being forced to take it easy to heal. I'm trying to give myself a week. The stiffness should be gone by then (nearly gone now) and most of the bumps and bruises should have healed (I've got some serious shades of purple and green right now). I don't want to push myself further back... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 11:26:47 EST Week 71: I've Been Doing This a Long Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6229950 This restart is 71 weeks (and I could've restarted a couple of times in there but I at least kept going). I've had this account at Spark since 2011 (and I have a couple of dead accounts from before then). I was on MyFitnessPal for a while and let that fall away. I was on Weight Watchers Online before I found Spark. Plus all the times I tried to do it alone. My mother brought me to Weight Watchers when I was 13. It's been a long time this weight loss thing and I'm still not there. I beg... Sun, 4 Sep 2016 10:54:38 EST Week 70 - Persistence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6225898 I work in a pharmacy and this month we are being audited by one of the insurance companies to which we direct bill prescriptions. Near the end of July they sent us a list of over 200 prescription numbers that they wanted us to locate in our files, photocopy and send to them by Aug 31. The prescriptions were filled from January 1-March 31. Our pharmacy fills about 200 prescriptions a day so our filing system gets pretty big pretty fast. We generate about a file box a week (we use the mid-s... Sun, 28 Aug 2016 11:50:48 EST Week 69 - Needed a Break http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6222024 And I took it. I'm not going to feel guilty about it. I just needed a break from tracking and exercising and everything. So... it's sort of a day one again today. Sun, 21 Aug 2016 15:10:18 EST Week 67 - Could Do Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6217746 I felt I did all the right things last week. I was home by myself so I had planned meals, didn't bring home salty snacks and had to step up walking the dog. And then I got discouraged. I was doing all the right things but the scale was moving up. <BR> <BR> Then I realised that a project at work was going to fall to me because the person who started it had no planning and had attacked it inefficiently. I tried to help her fix it but I got the blank stare. The stare that she gives me wh... Sun, 14 Aug 2016 11:02:49 EST Week 66 - Or Is It Day 2? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6213674 I've been coasting for too long (and it showed up on the scale) so yesterday I made a real effort. I tracked as the day went by, rather than trying to remember everything at the end of the day. I also made conscious choices to keep within my calorie limit. It doesn't do me any good to track if I'm not paying attention to the numbers. I pushed to get my exercise goals in. And then I got an extra walk in before bed. I set goals for the day and I met them. Can I keep this pace up indefini... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 10:45:24 EST Week 65 - Two Bad Weeks in a Row http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6209847 Time to turn this train around. I don't like the heat but I can't let it stop me. Sun, 31 Jul 2016 15:31:03 EST Week 64 - The Less Said the Better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6205791 Last week was not a good week. It was a bad week. I didn't track well, I didn't exercise as much as I should have and I definitely didn't get enough sleep. This week must be a better week. I've come too far to slip back. A bad week every now and again isn't terrible. I just can't do it two weeks in a row. Sun, 24 Jul 2016 10:59:29 EST Week 63 - No Red Squares Take 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6201938 I almost did it last week. I earned only 3 reds. 1 - I was exhausted and decided sleeping was better than running. 2 - I ran out of time. We went out for the evening and got home much later than expected so I didn't have time for one more walk before midnight. 3 - I was lazy. No excuse. <BR> <BR> I'll try again this week. It was Thursday when I got the first one this week so I'll at least try to earn the green that day. Sun, 17 Jul 2016 10:48:58 EST Week 62 - No Red Squares http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6198004 A few weeks ago I downloaded a motivational app because I was lacking in motivation. It's just a calendar and a list of things I want to accomplish each day. I set how often I want to complete the goal and add checks if I do or an x if I don't. The checks turn into green boxes and an x turns into a red box. I've been getting too many red boxes lately. This week the goal is - no red boxes. <BR> <BR> I'm also aiming to fill up my activity minutes on my FitBit. Not a problem during the we... Sun, 10 Jul 2016 10:48:07 EST Week 61 - So Much to Do... So Little Motivation to Do It http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6194062 I have a list of things that I need to accomplish today and I just don't want to even look at it. Motivation is just not there today. It's going to be a struggle. I'm hoping that once I get started the momentum will keep me going. Sun, 3 Jul 2016 11:19:01 EST Week 60 - So Close... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6189922 I'm so close to 30lbs lost. I should get there this week. That makes me really excited. I'm getting back into numbers that I haven't seen for years and I'm doing it in a way that I think I can sustain. I'm not depriving myself. I'm changing myself. It's slow. Oh so slow, but it feels like it's going to stick. Sun, 26 Jun 2016 11:33:12 EST Week 59 - Happy Fathers' Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6185655 I miss my dad today. He's been gone 6 years now and I don't often miss him anymore, but I do today. I know my mom is missing him too and I think that's the problem. Her brother was just diagnosed with cancer and I know she's having a tough time. She needs someone to support her but both my brother and I are provinces away. Sun, 19 Jun 2016 10:51:12 EST Week 58 - It Seems Like I Keep Doing This http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6181395 I have a really great few weeks and then I lose all motivation. I'm in that cycle again. I just have to work on it being a small "blip" rather than a downward spiral. Sun, 12 Jun 2016 11:40:37 EST Week 57 - Almost Forgot http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6177051 This hasn't been the most "on point" week. I had one of those weeks where two little changes in my schedule threw me completely off. I'm trying to get back on schedule now but the heat is making it hard. Summer is my least favourite season. I did get my mother on Spark. She came out in April and was very surprised by my weight loss. She always thinks that you have to cut everything out to lose weight. That's what she's done in the past and she's kept it off but it always comes back. S... Sun, 5 Jun 2016 17:58:19 EST Week 56 - Keeping on Track http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6172399 I'm on a roll. I've been exercising consistently and I've been keeping my calories within a range that's comfortable. I've been getting results. And not just on the scale. <BR> <BR> I feel like I can do this. I've been able to focus on some of my hobbies that I just haven't had the energy to tackle. Success in my health goals has led to me feeling more confident to do other things. I'm excited! Sun, 29 May 2016 10:46:05 EST Week 55 - Hmmm... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6168087 I'm at a loss for blogging this week. I had a good week, pretty much stayed exactly where I wanted to, made my goals and even lost some weight. I don't have a new plan to try to figure out. I'm still working on the old one. I have no triumphs this week because I did what I set out to do. It's just me being boring. Sun, 22 May 2016 11:11:42 EST Week 54 - Ups and Downs http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6163395 It's been a weird week. I've been overeating calories most of the week (cravings are killing me) but I've been pretty consistent with exercise. If I can combine the two I might actually see some weight loss again. <BR> <BR> I had quite a few non-scale victories this week. I've moved down a size in work shirt. It's a little tighter than I'd care to wear but it's not embarrassing. I told my boss that I'd moved down and she was quite happy for me. She said that she and her husband (they o... Sun, 15 May 2016 11:42:23 EST Week 53 - And Now a New Year Begins... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6159321 So... it's been a whole year for my latest weight loss attempt. And while I didn't end up where I hoped to I'm going to call it a success. <BR> <BR> I wanted to lose 50 pounds this year. That was a pound a week, factoring in some weeks where I'd lose more, and many where I'd lose less. I lost 25lbs. Give or take. But I kept them off. I've been staying steady for a few months now and rather than quitting and giving up I've kept trying. I've only really gained back 2 or 3 lbs each tim... Mon, 9 May 2016 10:51:24 EST Week 52 - This Weight Loss Thing is Hard http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6153965 Last week started off really well. It didn't end that way. I just lost the motivation to exercise and to pay attention to what I was eating. I just wanted to be me. Not the new me. The old me. <BR> <BR> It was easier to be the old me. There's no effort in that. Sit around, read, play games. Not a whole lot of doing. The new me has to do things. Things that are good for me. The old me can eat whatever she wants. The new me can eat some things that the old me wants; but not all t... Sun, 1 May 2016 11:06:31 EST Week 51 - Almost Back to Normal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6149170 My foot's finally healed. My house guest leaves on Wednesday. Almost back to normal. There will be less tempting food sitting around. I won't feel bad about exercising in the evening. I won't have to deal with someone being worried if I go out after dark. Maybe I can kickstart myself again. Sun, 24 Apr 2016 10:24:23 EST My Mini Triumph http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6147216 Yesterday my youngest son was involved in an activity that prevented my husband from picking me up at work. I had planned to take the bus home. It's a two bus trip for me: work to downtown, downtown to home. I only take the bus rarely so there's no sense buying a monthly bus pass. On April 1st the city bus changed their policies regarding transfers. No longer would you be able to get on a bus, request a transfer and then board the second bus without paying the fare. Now the bus drivers ... Thu, 21 Apr 2016 11:28:32 EST Week 50 - I Won't Back Down http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6144158 So I essentially stayed the same weight this week. Not entirely surprising as I didn't meet my calorie goals on most days. My goals for this week are the same as the goals for last week as I didn't meet my goals. <BR> <BR> I did get my daily steps and water and I did the three strength training exercises that I set out to do. I didn't get an hour of activity every day but I did come close. Sun, 17 Apr 2016 10:47:29 EST Week 49 - Just Keep Going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6139057 So it wasn't the best week. But it wasn't the worst either. I made my step goals every day. I made my water goals every day and I made my strength training goal for the week. I didn't get the calorie counting right. I wanted to see 191 on the scale this week but I didn't. <BR> <BR> So the goal for this week: make the steps, drink the water, do 3 sessions with the weights, keep near the bottom of my calorie range and walk the dog twice a day (aiming for at least 60 active minutes in othe... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 10:49:56 EST Week 48 - It Could Have Been Worse http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6133872 So it wasn't the best week, but it wasn't the worst either. I'm trying to build on the positives and get myself back on track. I feel like I've been off track for so long that I'm really starting over. Sun, 3 Apr 2016 10:28:50 EST Week 47 - I'm Not Quitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6128580 I'm not quitting. I feel like it. I haven't been exercising. I haven't been paying attention to calories or water or anything. I'm blogging today because if I don't blog I'll have officially quit and I don't want to do that. <BR> <BR> So... foot is still injured, which puts a bit of a wrench in, but I'll start with the basics again. Even if I don't lose weight for a bit longer I at least have to stop gaining it. Sun, 27 Mar 2016 10:48:38 EST Week 46 - Seriously!? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6123517 Every time I feel poised to make progress something happens to kill it. I was on vacation this week. I knew I would fall on the calories but felt I could hold steady with activity. I took my running stuff with me. I ran on 2 of the 3 days available. I even tackled a hike that took me 4km around with an 85m elevation gain! So what happens? On the morning of the last day I went for a walk. I stepped in a hole and rolled my ankle. Thought I could walk it off. I was wrong. I have a req... Sun, 20 Mar 2016 11:10:29 EST The Accidental Hike http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6122140 We're vacationing in a wilderness area right now. The days are spent swimming in hot spring water, taking a walk along a lake or through a wooded area and enjoying family time. Yesterday, with much protest from the 10 and 12 year old we set off on a nature hike. The boys decided to leave the path and explore just inside the woods while husband and I stayed on the gravel path. All of a sudden we hear the call of the boy who's just discovered something he thinks is nifty. We look up. Way ... Fri, 18 Mar 2016 10:40:27 EST Week 45 - Progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6118129 I had a pretty good week. I fell down near the end, and I'm not sure I can start this one off on the right foot but I'm going to try. We're going on a little family vacation this week. I plan to bring my running stuff with me. Today and tomorrow the plan is just to get through them. Sun, 13 Mar 2016 12:13:15 EST Week 44 - I Feel Like Quitting http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6112895 I won't. It's just getting harder and harder to put any effort into the weight loss thing. I know I should, that's why I blog my failures, but I really don't want to try any more. <BR> <BR> Instead, I'm going to post my "stats" here and I'll check back on them in 4 weeks and hopefully notice a change. I always look at the weight and ignore the measurements and that may be the problem. I'm really going to focus on food and exercise in these next four weeks but I'm not going to forget abou... Sun, 6 Mar 2016 20:25:45 EST Week 43 - So, How Are You Doing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6106687 This year at work our floor supervisor was slow to order T-shirts for the Pharmasave Canucks calendar promotion. She had to order just plain Canucks T-shirts instead. She ordered a few with this logo: <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/13233a2d-b768-4de6-b9b1-c4b9247cf16a.png"> for the guys, and a bunch with this logo: <img src="http://photosaws.sparkpeople.com/guid/fd1c4cd3-9765-4e73-81c8-db52bd1334eb.png"> for the girls. The girl T-shirt did not fit me, it almost did. I w... Sun, 28 Feb 2016 10:47:16 EST Week 42 - Making the Commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6101187 This week I'm determined. Make the commitment, change the momentum, get it done. <BR> <BR> The only thing that I'm concerned about it the possibility of injury. I've done something to my leg. My Achilles tendon is really tight. I think if I give it a good stretch every day I can make it through. Last time I tried to run I got about halfway and had to walk. The next day I was limping but it was better by the third. I don't want to hurt myself into low activity again. That's what start... Sun, 21 Feb 2016 11:04:37 EST I Feel Guilty http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6098073 I feel guilty this morning. Instead of getting up and doing my morning walk I set the alarm for an extra hour of sleep. I needed the sleep more. I had to pick my husband up from work at 12:30am and my youngest child had a nightmare and needed to snuggle in with us for a while. I moved him back to his own bed at 4am but restful sleep is not something I got last night. I didn't even get the full hour this morning that I'd set aside. The same child that needed snuggling came in to ask why ... Wed, 17 Feb 2016 10:27:11 EST Week 41 - Where's All That Change I Made? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6095620 I thought I had made changes that had become habits. I go off the rails for a little while and I feel like I'm back to where I started. It's two weeks in a row with a gain and that is not a streak I want to be on. So, once again, I have to buckle down and put in the work and make the changes that I know I can make. This time I've got to make them stick. Sun, 14 Feb 2016 11:01:20 EST Week 40 - Ugh! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6089983 I had no motivation last week and gained nearly a pound. The one is related to the other. I was doing so well. I'd nearly broken through this plateau, a lot of the exercise things I was doing had become routine and healthy eating a habit. All things that will help me keep the weight off if I ever actually lose it. <BR> <BR> "If" I lose it is becoming a thought again. It was "when" I lose it but I'm not sure I was just destined to drop 20lbs and then be stuck forever. As the weeks go ... Sun, 7 Feb 2016 10:40:58 EST Week 39 - Finding Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6086697 I'm having such a hard time getting going this week. I keep telling myself today is the day I get back on track... and then I don't. I'm at least saying "today" and not "next week". That's something. <BR> <BR> So... today's Wednesday. I will get motivated. I will do this. I can't afford not to. Wed, 3 Feb 2016 10:46:57 EST Week 38: Well, That Didn't Work http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6077968 I was supposed to add more activity back into my schedule this week. I didn't. Circumstances at the beginning of the week threw me off-kilter and I never really righted myself. <BR> <BR> This week I'm going to try cascading goals. There's one thing I absolutely want to accomplish (tracking) every day this week. Each morning I'm going to give myself a list of things I want to accomplish that day. Tracking, water, 12,000 steps, two dog walks and then maybe one or two exercise goals. The ... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 15:45:45 EST Week 37 - Need to Add More Activity http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=6072612 More like I need to add back in the activities I was doing before I got hurt and started my long plateau. I've been using injury, busy weekends and early mornings as excuses (somewhat legitimately) but I really need to get back on track. Mon, 18 Jan 2016 10:55:37 EST