MUTANTQUEEN's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MUTANTQUEEN MUTANTQUEEN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Setting New Goals for 2013 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5183436 Well, it's the 1st, and of course, that time of year when we find ourselves reflective. I did not make my goal of being in 'Onederland' by the end of the year. In fact, I've gone up slightly. 'Twas the holiday season what got me. Aye, there's the rub. <BR> <BR> But it's a new year, and a new opportunity to get it right. I've grappled with my disappoinment for weeks now, and I've finally come to the conclusion that it doesn't matter. All that matters is that I'm energized and renewed and foc... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 09:47:42 EST Official 6-Month "Before and During" Pics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5113717 I thought I would take the occasion of my official 6-Month Weight Loss Anniversary to post my 'before/during' weight loss photos. Keep in mind, the first full body shots were taken when I had lost 17 lbs. already -- 3 months in -- (July 2012). The ones dated 3/12 or 2/12 are probably a more accurate representation of how I looked at the start. Looking forward to the 9 month & 1-year updates! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/8/1/l814588222.jpg"> <img src="http://photo... Fri, 26 Oct 2012 13:01:27 EST 6 Month Update with Pics -- A Week of Milestones http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109900 6 months ago, I didn't know where I would find the resolve to address the weight issues that have plagued me for so long. I was not at my highest weight, but I was creeping slowly towards it. I began seeing numbers on the scale that I had not seen in some time, and I knew the inevitable was happening -- I was returning to the ways of the past. I had gained weight and lost it, and gained and lost it, and I was on my way to returning to my highest weight, and probably surpassing it. I knew I co... Tue, 23 Oct 2012 12:19:58 EST Great Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5108140 I wanted to pass along a couple of links that have helped me start to get that 'Mojo' back. <BR> <BR> A podcast I follow called "Half Size Me" where a woman who's lost 170 lbs. interviews other successful 'losers' and discusses strategies, mindsets & challenges rather than just assessing the latest diet craze. Episode 36 was particularly helpful. So, so good. Subscribe on iTunes or Stitcher. <BR> <BR> http://www.halfsizeme.com/036-the-half-s<BR>ize-me-show/ <BR> <BR> The 'Diary of an Aspi... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 09:15:52 EST Where's my Mojo? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5103098 Well, it's been awhile since I blogged. Not sure why. I feel my 'mojo' has been a little off. I'm about 15 lbs. from breaking the 199 barrier, and maybe I've been a little spooked. I've started craving foods that mean me no good. I have kept up my daily exercise routine, and for that, I'm grateful. It's been my saving grace. <BR> <BR> I made a commitment on 4/26/12 to exercise daily for 6 months, and see what effect it had. I'll do a true 'summary' update on that commitment on the 26th of t... Wed, 17 Oct 2012 22:03:19 EST 20 Week Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5057237 Today marks the 20th straight week of daily workouts for me. <BR> <BR> I toggle between feelings of pride and accomplishment, and the desire to do better. I traveled last week for a family funeral, so I just stuck to 10-minute body-weight strength training exercises. I've been toggling between that and jogging this week. It's a great feeling to know that life changes, travel and upended schedules can't deter me from keeping my word to myself. <BR> <BR> I'm still following a Paleo plan dur... Thu, 13 Sep 2012 08:25:30 EST 4 Months Complete http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5030696 Tomorrow makes month 4 of my current weight loss effort. Despite moments of sheer joy immediately yielding to moments of sheer panic, I'd say things are going pretty well. <BR> <BR> Week 3 of Paleo went well. I lost 3 lbs. Had my 16-week marker at Weight Watcher's today. I didn't quite hit my 10% goal, which is loosely where they want you to be by this point. I'm 2 lbs. shy of that. Not bad, but I could have done better. Slow and steady wins the race, though. This is my 3rd time joining Wei... Sat, 25 Aug 2012 16:08:36 EST This Giant Will Fall http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5021593 This will be a bit of a 'stream of consciousness' post, so you'll forgive me. <BR> <BR> I haven't blogged in the last few days, because I haven't had much positive to say. I did another Paleo week, and came out 1 lb. heavier -- partly because I've been drinking hot chocolate in the mornings, and probably due to eating too much beef, which always seems to interfere with weight loss. It's also been 'that time' for me, which usually doesn't have a major affect on my weight loss, but may have t... Sun, 19 Aug 2012 09:46:43 EST Paleo Week Results & Basking in the 'New Hottness' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012332 Paleo week went great! We had a variety of food, didn't get bored, and my husband didn't complain everyday like he did with raw vegan week. I also broke a 2-Week long plateau, and lost 2.3 lbs. So I think it's a keeper. <BR> <BR> This week, we're doing theme days. Japanese (I'm experimenting with making sushi for the first time), Chinese, Greek, Mexican and Pacifica. I'm working on a meal plan right now. It should be fun. <BR> <BR> I did a different workout everyday last week! Big jump fr... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 16:48:37 EST Switch! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5003964 If you read my blogs, you know I get bored easily (except with my TaeBo workout). I like to keep things interesting -- from juicing to a raw vegan week, to intermittent fasting. I like to keep different flavors flowing, and test out different eating lifestyles. I don't think I could settle into any one of them for too long. I like to give myself variety to keep things interesting, and continue to tweak my weight loss efforts. <BR> <BR> So, in that spirit, I'll be doing a Paleo week this wee... Mon, 6 Aug 2012 19:27:46 EST 100 Days of TaeBo! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5000882 Today marks my 100th straight day of TaeBo Basic. That's really an accomplishment considering I was in the hospital yesterday. I had really bad stomach cramps after finishing my run on Thursday night. I hardly slept, and the cramps just got worse on Friday, so I had my husband take me to the emergency room. They don't know exactly what was causing them -- either a virus, or my calorie restriction along with not drinking enough water. I can definitely do better on the water end, and work on ge... Sat, 4 Aug 2012 15:23:14 EST End of the Honeymoon? Could it Be? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4998552 Preparing to go out on my evening jog. Stomach is hurting a bit, so it might be more of a walk, but I'm looking forward to a little alone time with my podcasts. This was day 98 with TaeBo Basic, and I'm starting to think our honeymoon period is coming to an end. I'm starting to get that 'stale' feeling, which is usually the point where I drop off. Instead, I'm going to be exploring some options for other workouts I can do in the mornings. I hate to let go of my TaeBo streak, but I think it's ... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 20:29:07 EST A Little Cuter http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4995075 Well, I pulled out my slightly cuter workout clothes to run in last night. I don't know if I felt any better or not. They're not only cuter, but they're tighter, and a little more revealing... but they match. I guess I figure I'd rather be noticed for being plus-sized in cute clothes, than sloppy-looking in my 'bum around' get-up. <BR> <BR> Hey, I got my running speed for 2 miles down by 2 minutes... it can't be all bad! Tue, 31 Jul 2012 16:38:09 EST Quit Looking at Me! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4991649 Well, yesterday I went on my 2nd jog this week here in my neighborhood. If you read my blog regularly, you know I'm a devoted TaeBo fan. I do it every morning, and I've pledged to keep doing it (or any other form of exercise) for the next 3 months (6 months total), and then I'll reevaluate and determine what my regimen needs to be after that. <BR> <BR> I've decided that I need to add some jogging 3x a week in the evenings to up my cardiovascular endurance. I've actually enjoyed the 2 joggin... Sun, 29 Jul 2012 12:06:19 EST Halfway There! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4986216 Today is the 3-Month Anniversary of my 6-Month commitment to exercise EVERYDAY! <BR> <BR> So far, I've stuck with TaeBo Basic in the mornings. I've persevered through sickness, schedule irregularities, baby births, vacation, touring schedules, interruptions by well-meaning family and friends, juicing, eating raw vegan, scale fluctuations... you name it. <BR> <BR> I told myself that I would stick to daily exercise for 6 months, then evaluate my progress. I wouldn't ask, "why?", or, "Is this ... Wed, 25 Jul 2012 11:25:03 EST Triumph over Travel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983278 Well, I've been out of town for a week or so, and AWAAAAY from the scale. Yes. AWAAAAYY. That's what it feels like, because as I have stated in previous blog posts, it's difficult to be AWAAAAYY from the scale. I obsess about it a bit, but it keeps me in line. <BR> <BR> I was in NYC performing and slightly vacationing, so as you can imagine, I walked a lot. Up and down subway stairs, up and down Broadway -- in 100 degree heat, no less. I stuck to my TaeBo every morning, despite the fact tha... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 13:18:11 EST Raw Vegan Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4970304 <BR> Well, the raw vegan experiment is done. The results? Inconclusive. I have a lot of fruit allergies, so I dealt with a lot of congestion/sniffling/sneezing this week. I slept more than usual, but it's possible I wasn't taking in enough calories. That's hard to do when you're just consuming fruits and vegetables and a few nuts. My skin looks better than it has in years, though. Lost a couple of lbs., spent more time than I ever have in the kitchen. Grocery bill was actually slightly lower... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 17:55:41 EST Day 2 Recap -- 5-Day Raw Vegan Experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4966310 Day 2 went well. I probably overdid it on the nuts, because I went up a lb. Oops! But they were great! Cashews, sunflower seeds, almonds... and AVACADOS! <BR> <BR> I took it easier today, so I expect better results tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I experimented with new juicing recipes, and had a great salad in the evening. Enjoying it thus far... <BR> <BR> Thanks for following! Wed, 11 Jul 2012 22:27:37 EST Day 1 Recap -- Raw Vegan Experiment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963889 Well, day one went stupendously. I had no hunger, no lightheadedness, no cravings whatsoever. I find this much more 'doable' than juice fasting -- with most of the benefits. <BR> <BR> I was asked if I would be ditching the scale during this time. Actually, I don't think so. I want to see what the effects of this lifestyle will be on my weight. When I have sufficient evidence that it's helping and not harming, I think I will feel a lot more comfortable with putting the scale away -- at least... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 12:40:28 EST Taking the Plunge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4962313 Today I begin an experiment with the raw vegan lifestyle. I've been attracted to this way of eating for a while now. I did a juice fast about a month ago. I intended to do it for a month, but only made it 7 days in all. But I loved the idea of not having to worry about whether or not what you were eating was healthy. I think committing for shorter periods of time is also a good idea. My mind and body need to be able to keep up with my ambition. The spirit is willing, but sometimes the flesh i... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 13:45:40 EST Ditch the Scale? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4953910 I'm thinking of ditching the scale for a while. The last few days have not given me good news. I've been in the habit of weighing myself pretty much everyday for the last few years. I never used to. I didn't grow up with a scale in the house. My mother never weighed herself. She's always been overweight, and I'm inclined to think that's a big part of the 'why'. <BR> <BR> I don't want to repeat history. Right now though, I'm doing all I can to lose weight. I'm sticking to a 1500 calorie diet ... Tue, 3 Jul 2012 17:12:18 EST No Questions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4949130 I had a successful weigh in day at Weight Watcher's today. Down 4.4 lbs. this week, and I got my '5% of your body weight lost' sticker. I was asked to say a few words to the group about what the most important part of my progress has been thus far. <BR> <BR> My answer was -- consistency. I started out at the beginning of this journey -- 4/26/12 -- telling myself that I would work out each morning, come rain or shine, for 6 months straight. I said that I would not evaluate the effectiveness ... Sat, 30 Jun 2012 15:34:29 EST What Did I Do Right? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4933879 It's occurred to me recently that I tend to focus entirely too much on what DIDN'T go right in my weight loss journey on any given day. <BR> <BR> I have what I refer to as my 'Pillars of Weight Loss Success'. These are the things that over the years, have helped me to lose weight in one way or another. They've been effective in the past, but I've never used them all at the same time -- until now. They include things like Attending Weight Watcher's meetings, watching inspirational weight los... Tue, 19 Jun 2012 22:00:52 EST Important Milestone http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4915873 Today marks 6 straight weeks of TaeBo for me. It's hard to believe how difficult it was to get through the first few workouts. I committed myself to 6 months of working out everyday. I said that after that, I woould evaluate my progress, and determine what my regimen needed to be. <BR> <BR> Well, I'm going strong 6 weeks in. It's been difficult at times, particularly when I've traveled, but I've made the time for it. I've had to break the workout up into two parts a few times, just to make ... Thu, 7 Jun 2012 08:09:52 EST Diet is (Almost) Everything http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4914354 Just wanted to check in and say I'm finally getting my eating habits back on track after suspending the juice fast and doing some traveling. Travel is probably the toughest thing for a weight loss regimen, because scheduling is everything. <BR> <BR> I'm finally back to consuming mostly healthy calories (thanks in part to a newly-discovered soy allergy), and limiting my calorie intake to 1500-1700 per day. Even with working out everyday, I really wasn't seeing much weight loss. Now after watc... Wed, 6 Jun 2012 08:16:53 EST Juicing Journey http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905202 I had to suspend the juice fast for a variety of reasons -- travel, mostly. I also started dealing with body aches, dry, cracked lips and fatigue. My first comittment is to my workouts, and I felt it was impeding my ability to workout each morning. I still plan to incorporate many fresh juices into my daily diet, and I'll probably be doing a fast day once a week -- we'll see. Until then, I'm going to focus on cleaning up my diet and getting in as many fresh fruits and vegetables as possible. Thu, 31 May 2012 01:17:35 EST 30-Day Juicing Journey -- Day 6 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4892104 After deciding to take the weekends off, I'm back to juicing, and I have to say, it was difficult to get back into the swing of things. I'm still dealing with pretty serious cravings -- for chicken McNuggets of all things??? <BR> <BR> It helps not to allow yourself to get too hungry. I know I didn't drink enough fresh juice today. But my appetite for juice usually goes up the longer I'm drinking it, so I'm sure the rest of the week will go better. Hopefully. <BR> <BR> I tried Smoothie King ... Mon, 21 May 2012 21:58:07 EST 30-Day Juice Journey -- Weekend Edition http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4889976 Just a quick note to say that I decided to do a 5-day a week fast for a month rather than 30 days straight. I've been hearing so much about the 'bounce-back effect' where people put on weight after juice fasts because they've been deprived for so long. So, we're taking it easy on the weekends, and I'm actually looking forward to getting back to juicing tomorrow. See you then. <BR> <BR> Here's to happy juicing! Sun, 20 May 2012 16:33:11 EST 30-Day Juice Journey -- Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4887002 Well, I'm sitting here sipping my orange/pineapple/strawberry ginger juice this morning, and I have to say mornings are always a highlight for me. The juice is better. My energy is higher (except during my TaeBo workout), and I'm not experiencing hunger. <BR> <BR> I've gone down about 4.5 lbs. total since I started. Not bad at all. Honestly, I haven't observed any health benefits yet. I'm still kind of sluggish, and my allergies are still rearing their ugly head. But it's only day 5, so I'm ... Fri, 18 May 2012 10:10:22 EST 30-Day Juice Journey -- Day 4 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4886587 Hello there, <BR> <BR> Checking in for day 4 of my 'juice feast'. Day four was a little better than day 3. I've been watching lots of YouTube videos on juice fast/feasting, and many people report experiencing headaches, moodiness, irritability, etc. on days 3 & 4. I experienced none of these things. I have experienced sluggishness, listlessness and achiness. I feel as though I have a low-grade flu. When I get really still, I feel an overall achiness in my body like when you're getting sick. ... Fri, 18 May 2012 00:17:38 EST 30-Day Juice Journey -- Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4884869 Well, I've mostly made it through day 3 of my juice feast, and I have to say, it's been an interesting one. <BR> <BR> I woke up this morning feeling alright. I started my TaeBo workout, and I found that I just didn't have the energy I normally did. I drank a little juice to get me going, but I never really felt my 'power boosters' kicking in. Around 11am I was terribly sluggish, and had to take a nap. I woke up an hour or so later feeling like I had taken a sleeping pill. I had deviated fro... Wed, 16 May 2012 22:03:31 EST 30 Day Juice Journey -- Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4882767 Well, I decided to keep a log of my experiences during my 30 day juicing journey. I recently watched a film called, "Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead" that was very eye-opening for me. In it, a man named Joe Cross goes on a trip through the United States while drinking fresh fruit and vegetable juices only for 60 days. He was able to shed 80 lbs. and rid himself of a chronic skin condition in the process. <BR> <BR> I have been incorporating more fruits and vegetables into my diet for the last few w... Tue, 15 May 2012 14:59:35 EST Operation Juggernaut http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880681 I'm realizing this whole thing is a journey of greater magnitude than I thought. I've watched so many stories of weight loss on YouTube, here on SparkPeople and other places, and they all have one thing in common -- Everyone struggles to keep the weight off. EVERYONE. Juicers, Weight Watchers, fitness enthusiests, WLS patients, Biggest Losers -- EVERYONE. <BR> <BR> So, what to do? Give up? Resign ourselves to being overweight the rest of our lives? No, sir. This is not the way I was meant t... Mon, 14 May 2012 10:52:42 EST Back in the Saddle http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3955739 I'm not going to say much today. Just that I'm working on getting my groove back. I never stopped working on losing. I've just been trying to do it without depending on calorie counting and Sparking consistently. I guess I'm not quite up to that yet. So, I'm admitting I still need the help of this site and my fellow Sparkers. It's not easy, but I'm getting back up in the saddle. I'm going to work on re-losing the 5 lbs. I've gained, and then setting new goals. I'm looking forward to progress.... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 11:00:02 EST 5 Things I'm Doing Right http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3762204 Well, I've had some very slow progress here recently, but in the last week or so, my progress has picked up tremendously. So, I thought I would jot down a few notes on what I'm doing differently right now just in case I need a jump start in the future. Here's the game plan: <BR> <BR> 1. I'm waiting until I'm truly hungry in the mornings to eat. <BR> <BR> I know the going wisdom is to never skip breakfast, and I normally try to have something, just out of habit or obligation, but I've notic... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 15:35:53 EST Proud of Myself http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3756543 I feel quite accomplished today. I had a 'dreaded' family dinner last night. These events always make me nervous, because I normally stop eating around 4 in the afternoon to give my food time to digest before I go to bed. I also get cravings when I eat late at night, so I've figured out that's it's just easier to stop eating before all the madness starts. It's been going well now that it's become a habit. <BR> <BR> Well, we had one of those special family occasions, and I had to go to dinne... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 10:06:31 EST Milestone Reached http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3737956 I reached an important milestone today. I officially weigh less than my husband. I've been trying to get him to weigh in regularly so I could figure out when the switch-over happened. He kept losing (for no good reason, like most men), so when I thought I was below him on the scale, I would turn out to be a lb. or 2 above him. Grr. Well, today he finally weighed in at .5 lbs. above me. Yay! Of course, he does not know this. I'm waiting 'til I'm down at least another 25 lbs. to let him in on h... Mon, 25 Oct 2010 00:11:02 EST Finally hit the 30 lbs. Lost Mark! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3707935 Well, the title says it all. I've finally hit the goal that's been eluding me, not only for the past few weeks, but for the past few years. The last time I lost weight, I stalled out at 29 lbs. lost, and slowly (actually, quickly) started to regain the weight. The time before that, I lost about 33 lbs., and regained that, plus more. The 30 lb. mark has been a big sticking point for me, but it will not get the best of me this time. I'm setting a new goal of 30 lbs. lost, and I will get there. ... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 14:04:15 EST Learning and Accepting.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3686470 Well, I had a couple of setbacks this week, so I haven't hit my 30 lbs. yet. I have to believe there are things I still need to learn. I'm willing to accept that, and embrace where I am. 30 lbs. will come when it's supposed to. In the meantime, I'm enjoying the journey. <BR> <BR> There were a couple of dietary issues I had to relearn this week. Going back and repeating a lesson is sometimes necessary, but life has a way of bringing us back to those things we thought we knew, but need a refr... Sat, 2 Oct 2010 09:01:22 EST I'm Featured on the IOWL Podcast http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3682347 Today my story was featured on the Inside Out Weight Loss podcast by Renee Stephens. I'm the singer with allergies she refers to. Pretty cool stuff! The link is below: <BR> <BR> http://personallifemedia.com/podcasts/21<BR>6-inside-out-weight-loss/feedburner.rss <BR> <BR> OR <BR> <BR> http://iowl.pod-ad.com/content/IOWL/IOWL<BR>_139_AssumptionsMakeThinPartV.mp3 <BR> <BR> You'll probably have to copy and paste the link to your browser. Thu, 30 Sep 2010 13:56:25 EST Sabotaging Self Sabotage http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3672570 This month I've learned that weekends aren't free. I've gained and lost the same 2 lbs. for 3 weekends in a row. No more. I tightened it up this weekend, and I already like the results. I'm on track to lose 30 lbs. this week. I almost can't believe it. I said ALMOST. I think it took all the back and forth this month to get me to the point where I was really ready for the 30 lb. mark. I'm not letting anything get in the way of me and that goal. I believe I can reach it by Thursday -- the end o... Sun, 26 Sep 2010 21:49:56 EST Getting Used to Disappointing People http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3668204 Well, tonight I was supposed to go to dinner with the in-laws. That didn't happen. I had all my calories by my usual time today -- 4pm. My husband was really disappointed when I called him to tell him I didn't think I should go, and that maybe they should go without me, or we should have breakfast in the morning instead. <BR> <BR> Lately I've found that I've had to disappoint people more and more frequently when it comes to social eating. One of the things I have tried to avoid for so long ... Fri, 24 Sep 2010 18:45:27 EST I'm Ready http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3664772 Okay, <BR> <BR> I believe I've broken past the mental barrier that was blocking my openness to reach past that 30 lb. mark. I'm ready to forge that stream! There are times when your head has to catch up to your body in terms of processing the progress you've made, and readying itself for new territory. I believe that when the head, the heart and the body are all in sync, you can't go wrong. So, we're all on board, and ready for new adventures. I try not to put too much pressure on myself to ... Thu, 23 Sep 2010 11:24:54 EST Blocking my Own Progress? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3624881 I'm realizing I'm attempting to sabotage my own efforts by revealing them to my loved ones. I'm throwing my new found beliefs about weight loss and mind/body alignment out there, and waiting for them to be challenged or rejected. That gives me further reason to retreat into internal conflict. I will not continue that pattern. I will make a stand, and continue to become who I'm becoming in this world. Self-conflict has led me to depression, anxiety, weight gain, chronic allergies, and on and o... Fri, 10 Sep 2010 10:53:55 EST Breakthrough http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3600225 I find I'm becoming less of a brat when it comes to things I won't allow myself to have much of. I think. Like beef and pork -- and now cappuccino. I haven't really lost this week, and I think it's due in large part to the cappuccinos I've been drinking from BP. Just a theory. <BR> <BR> So, I had to forgo my usual morning treat today. I miss it, but I'm not wringing my hands about it. I know it's something I could have, but I'm making the decision to keep it at a distance because it seems to... Thu, 2 Sep 2010 11:45:02 EST I'm 25! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3573589 I've reached 25 lbs. lost and this feels like the most significant milestone I've hit so far. Yeah, yeah. I've been here before, but not like this. It just FEELS more significant than before. Or maybe it seems to. I guess you always think it will be permanent. I just don't remember celebrating 25 this heartily before. It's never taken me so long to reach it. Maybe that's why. Does that mean it's more likely to stay off? I hate to sound unsure about my continued success, but I feel that over-c... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 13:39:16 EST What I've Learned This Week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3565656 Well, I'm in a new "Ville". Really exciting stuff... I know this town will come with its own set of challenges, triumphs and adversity. <BR> <BR> What have I learned this week? I've learned that I'm much more of an emotional eater than I thought I was. I eat, not only when I'm bored, but when I'm lonely, anxious, depressed or stressed. My Inside Out Weight Loss coach, Renee Stephens, has helped me to understand that any type of eating when you're not hungry is related to an emotional void. ... Mon, 23 Aug 2010 11:35:41 EST Well, Knock Me Over With a Feather http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3546354 I went on a mini-vacation this weekend, and had a ball. I performed at the San Jose Jazz Festival, and got a very warm reception. I spent a lot of time in airports, eating fast food out of necessity, but I also got a bit of 'vacation brain' while in the Bay Area. I knew I would have to use the 'intuitive eating' method while I was there, because I don't have access to Spark People on my phone. If you've ever been on vacation, however, you realize that watching what you eat can quickly turn in... Tue, 17 Aug 2010 11:45:43 EST Developing a Mindset for Weight Loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3506927 I've recently been enlisted to coach my sister and brother in law in their weight loss efforts. Here are some thoughts I jotted down for them to meditate on for their first week of coaching. <BR> _________________________________ <BR> <BR> Developing the Proper Mindset for Weight Loss <BR> <BR> Change happens gradually. What we are essentially doing is trying to turn the Titanic around. Miracles will happen once in a while, but for the most part, we’re looking for incremental, gradual chang... Thu, 5 Aug 2010 16:20:33 EST If Thy Key Lime Pie Offends Thee...Cut it Off? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3463116 Well, as some of you know, I've had a bit of a rough food week this week. It seems that no matter which way I went, there was some challenge jumping out of the bushes to meet me. I haven't had one of those weeks in a while. <BR> <BR> I've had trouble estimating the portion sizes of some of the recipes I've made, so I flatlined for a few days. Then, I had to make use of the rest of the beef in the freezer before we go on a beef 'freeze'. Beef and my digestion system do not get along, so I inc... Fri, 23 Jul 2010 19:55:03 EST