MUSIC2HISEARS's SparkPeople Blog MUSIC2HISEARS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Putting Plans Into Place Ugh! The Spring Challenge is over and I gained 8 (yes, 8) lbs instead of losing it. Yes, this past week was the worst, and yes, it was a stressful week. I won't go into the why's of this week, as if you've followed my status updates this week, you'd know it was one that really rattles cages. <BR> <BR> But, here I am. I'm sorta healthy and sorta happy. Not really where I want to be. I weigh in at 140 lbs. 142 is my highest 3 years ago. I've been yo-yo'ing between that number and 185. Yes, an ... Sun, 22 May 2016 21:30:53 EST Tips and Tricks to Help During Periods of Recovery Another new blog today on my Living Simply Sassy Classy blog page. Please, keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I not only have the surgery, but during the preparation and recovery stages, as well. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s-and-tricks-to-help-during-periods.html </link> Sun, 1 May 2016 10:26:53 EST The big "H" Here I am, staring down 48 with wild-eyed wonder as I don't feel anywhere near 35. I got this far without ever being married or having children of my own. My brother and sister-in-law swear that it was being present for their youngest son's birth may have forever damaged my desire for my own child. But that could not be further from the truth. It is just that apparently God had other plans for me. <BR> <BR> On Nov 17, 2013, I went in for a procedure called an endometrial ablation. Basically,... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 22:55:46 EST Grrrr Well, I just spent a couple of hours (3 to be exact) in the ER after spending the night in the ER on Sunday night. On Thursday, I woke up feeling pretty normal as any other day, but before I left for work, I had my head over the toilet with a massive headache. So, I went back to bed where I stayed until Friday afternoon when I went to the urgent care office. There they said I had a migraine, gave me Imitrex and a shot of Toradol and sent me on my merry way. <BR> <BR> I had felt good enough ... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 21:58:37 EST Decluttering the Body First Instead of trying to copy/paste/adjust/et al, I thought I'd just copy and paste the link to my latest blog instead. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ing-control-of-my-body-clutter.html </link> Sun, 17 Apr 2016 12:45:02 EST Walking With Purpose - 4/16/2016 Today was a fun day and one that did bring a tear or two to my eyes. Today, my cousin, her husband, her best friend, and I walked in the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure 5k race. You see, Kim's son used to run the race in honor of his grandma and Kim's best friend who are both survivors. Unfortunately, Kyle died in a tragic accident two years ago this coming week. So, we participated in his name (our team was Eye of the Tiger). We even met our individual and team financial goals for the walk.... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 21:19:49 EST I'm Doing It And I'm nailing it! <BR> <BR> I've completed 35 minutes on the elliptical each day this weekend after the doctor told me to rest for a couple of days. And I must say that my heel is healing quite nicely. Today was the first day I've been able to wear my new runners without any pain in my heel. <BR> <BR> To help it heal, I'm wearing mules/clogs when I'm not at the gym. This way, there is no rubbing or irritation on the heel itself. The doctor had said it was a deep burn instead of an actua... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 15:09:22 EST I'm not sidelined...I'm just given a new challenge Sunday morning I went to the gym with a renewed determination to prepare for the upcoming Race for the Cure 5k here in Indiana. I've done 5k's before, even without being in shape to do them. So, I wasn't concerned that I wouldn't be able to complete the competition. So, to see how far I could go, I set the treadmill to 20 min mile at a 6 incline and at 1 hour. If I could do 3 miles, that last 1/2 mile would be a breeze. <BR> <BR> Now mind you, I bought my runners almost a year ago. I love th... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 16:30:31 EST What would you do? Today, I mowed my lawn and I have to say it looks great! I had to go slow and stop occasionally as I have blisters on my heels from yesterday's hour long workout. I'm taking suggestions or solutions for working out with blisters. <BR> <BR> Once I was done, I pulled the lawnmower up the hill in my backyard to only find out that the gate had closed on me while I was working. Well, I knew the backdoor was locked (I usually keep it unlocked for just this purpose) and that the gate didn't have a ... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 21:28:50 EST A Day of Ups and Downs Today started with good intentions, but I have no idea where it fell apart. I got up this morning and went to the gym, did 65 minutes walking on the treadmill (3.0 mph at 6 incline). I now have blisters on the back of my heels as my shoes ate my socks as I was walking. Sigh. <BR> <BR> I'm in the process of prepping for the Race for the Cure 5k in 2 weeks. Mom had been pushing and encouraging me to start working on my endurance, so I did just that today. Minus the heel blisters. <BR> <BR> Fo... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 20:15:01 EST Today was a SUCCESS!!!!!! Today was a success. How? I will tell you how: <BR> <BR> 1) I stayed within my calorie range by eating healthy all day long! I didn't binge. I didn't cheat. I didn't sway from my goal. <BR> <BR> 2) I cooked. Yes, I cooked. I have lunch for tomorrow and Wednesday because of it, too! <BR> <BR> 3) I got in 75 minutes of purposeful exercise. Yes, 50 of that was mowing the yard (that's tough to do!) and another 25 minutes of walking afterward. <BR> <BR> 4) I stayed away from the junk food aisl... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:03:36 EST I really am gonna do it tomorrow! I'm really going to do this tomorrow, I promise! I woke up this morning with one of those migraines that sidelines you for hours, so I had to do my math problem in the bathroom to turn off the alarm, then head back to bed where I slept until noon. By then, the headache was just a mild nuisance and I was feeling better enough to get some work done. <BR> <BR> Since my blood sugar is 106 tonight, I have a good feeling that I won't be in the same pickle as I was this morning. So, again...the pho... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 22:01:27 EST Oops...won't do that again Well, I had good and bad moments today. First off, I have an alarm on my phone that requires you to perform math problems in order to shut it off. While even simple math is tough at 5am, I did them...then went back to bed. So, tonight, I'm putting the alarm in the bathroom along with my workout gear. This way I won't have an excuse to fall back to sleep. <BR> <BR> I then went to Dunkin Donuts to get a breakfast sandwich. I got to work, munched on it as I logged it in my nutri... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 21:33:37 EST Getting Ready I just noticed the leaders of the Teddy Bear team (love my bears!) have received their invites to the 2016 Spring Teddy Bear team as part of the 2016 Spring 5% Challenge. It is kind of bittersweet for me, as I know I'll be a Teddy Bear still, just not the CL this time around. I know that this was the best decision for me in the long run because I had been doing it now for 3 years. That's a lot over a long period that spanned 12 challenges. <BR> <BR> But I needed the rest. The break. I neede... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 21:51:59 EST Overcoming Medication Side-Effects and Weight Gain Since July, I have been having a hard time with gaining weight. I was hospitalized the last week of June due to depression, and was subsequently put on a slew of new drugs. Unfortunately, some of them had a negative side-effect of weight gain. Most notably Remeron. How did I know this was it? I gained more than 10 lbs in less than a month. <BR> <BR> After the doctor finally took me off the offending drug, I then had an issue of an injury to deal. I saw 12 doctors for about 20 doctor visits,... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 10:21:14 EST A Furbaby Prayer I just got off the phone with my furbaby's veterinarian. Sampson had been at the vet for his annual wellness visit, which meant blood work. Unfortunately, the ALP liver enzyme came back 10 times higher than it should be. Her first concern was Cushing's Disease; however, he has none of those symptoms. He appears healthy and happy. But he is also over 10 years old. One of the possibilities is that he had been on steroids for about a month during allergy season. But it has been a month since I'v... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 19:01:25 EST What does fitness look like to me I've been struggling lately. Earlier this year, I was the picture of health. Losing weight at a maintainable pace. Getting toned and fit. But then I got sick and it all fell apart. Since being hospitalized in June, I've regained 30 lbs of the 50 I had lost. Heartbreaking and deflating to say the least. <BR> <BR> But now that there is an end in sight, I need to start thinking about and visualizing what fitness looks like to me. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 18 Oct 2015 10:56:27 EST Could it be the food? As most of you know from previous blog posts, I had signed up for Nutrisystem. I purchased a month's worth of dry and frozen foods. The second day on the diet, my abdomen started hurting all of the sudden, and not just an ache, but a serious sharp pain. I told my psychiatrist about it, and she was adamant that I stop the program. <BR> <BR> Well, I didn't and I still had been eating the food (even though it is disgusting, I don't want to waste it). And the pain is still there and intensifying... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 14:46:36 EST Three weeks and I'm over it! Okay, my past blog was written at the 2 week point of my issues with pain. Today, I'm nearing the 3 week mark and still no relief or resolution for the pain. Yesterday I had a colonoscopy performed on me and it came back normal. Nothing there was triggering the pain. <BR> <BR> So, I've left another message plea to my PCP asking if there might be any other causes for this type of pain. Some friends have wondered if it were a gluten or wheat allergy/intolerance that I might be facing. But th... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 10:49:57 EST Two weeks...getting old Here I am in week two of being in severe pain. I've gotten to the point where I "tolerate" it and go on living life. I just ask people to not make me laugh, because it hurts so bad it makes me cry when I laugh. <BR> <BR> I've now been to the doctor 7 times since a week ago Monday (6 + trip to hospital for CT Scan): <BR> <BR> Monday 9/21: PCP & Hospital for CT Scan <BR> Wednesday 9/23: ER <BR> Friday 9/25: ER <BR> Monday 9/28: PCP then Urgent Care <BR> Wednesday: 9/30: OB/GYN <BR> <BR> All... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 22:07:59 EST You told me so... Yes, you all warned me, but I still did it anyway. I signed up for a month of Nutrisystem. And let me just say, that is all they will be getting from me. From poor to mediocre foods that lack taste to the fact it costs well over $500 a month. It doesn't include everything you need to have a healthy diet. They only include the 3 meal entrees and one dessert. Nothing more. It is up to you to supply your own fruits and vegetables for each meal. <BR> <BR> Compared to the program I was on before... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 19:04:16 EST The chains that bind us Why be shackled by your past when you can set free to experience what lies in today and tomorrow. Your past may have sculpted you into who you are today, but if you continue to hid behind those things, you continue to be chained to it until you see that those things are not what are hindering you, but you yourself hold the key to set yourself free. What are you waiting for? Unlock those shackles of shame and pain. Leave them in the past and take a new step into a new direction...a new life. H... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 00:19:20 EST Side-lined, yet again It's been a bad week. A VERY bad week. After an absolutely wonderful weekend where the sun shined, I rode my bike and ate healthy, it all fell apart at 2 am on Monday morning. At first I thought the stabbing burning pain in my abdomen was a result of using unused muscled during my bike ride. So I took Tylenol and went back to bed. 8 am rolled around and I was calling into work because the pain was that bad. <BR> <BR> Later that morning, I called my doctor's office and they took me immediatel... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 10:20:41 EST Take it easy I'm a big fan of the Eagles. I bought my first Eagles cassette (yes, cassette) when I was in junior high. Their music to me transcends generations. But as I grow older, I find many of their songs focusing on the older single ladies. <BR> <BR> Desperado is one that comes to mind the most. I used to love listening to my aunt sing this beautiful ballad as I grew up. She sang in a band while her husband played the bass. This was the song where the rest of the band would step down and let her hav... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 16:53:51 EST Oh, what a beautiful morning! Oh, what a beautiful day! I've got a wonderful feeling, everything is going my way... <BR> ~from the musical Oklahoma! <BR> <BR> Today, I started my new lifestyle changes! Yes, I'm starting a week early with the new 5% challenge starting next weekend, but after stepping on the scales yesterday morning, I felt it was time to make changes TODAY! <BR> <BR> So, I started the Fast 5+ portion of the Nutrisystem diet program. So far, so good. I'm a little hungry, but I did just eat and they do say wait 30 minutes. For fit... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 14:22:43 EST Pre-challenge Activity #: Exercise Plan Well, it's that time of the Fall season for the 2015 Fall 5% Challenge to begin. But, before we take off, there are a few pre-challenge activities that need to be addressed first. Like today, my exercise plan and commitment. I've already updated my SparkPage a week ago, so it is only natural that I just blog about my plan. <BR> <BR> Here it goes: <BR> <BR> * 6 days a week cardio (30 to 45 mins): Elliptical, swimming, treadmill, bicycle <BR> * 3 days a week strength/circuit training (30 to 4... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 14:25:00 EST I need some advice I need you, my fellow sparkers, to give me some advice. I'm looking for a healthy weight loss plan that is not a strain on my pocket book. I had been participating in a program called The Onion Factory for the past year. Problem is, I'm spending $145 a week on food alone. Sure, it is all healthy, freshly prepared foods (they make them daily, you pick up daily), and includes fresh fruits and veggies/salads, it is just way too expensive. Especially since it is 45 minutes away from my home. I wa... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 21:45:06 EST Sunday Night Musings: 9/6/2015 - Swim, Forest, Swim! 34 years ago I found a new passion: swimming! And, boy, was I good at it. Our family lived in a neighborhood that had a pool, so I was constantly in the pool building up my swim prowess. I had great strength in my arms to pull me effortlessly through the water. It just seemed so easy and effortless to do back then. <BR> <BR> Fast forward a few years into my Sophomore year of high school. I was on the team and battling my coach. I could never do anything to please her, and it just broke my s... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 22:08:39 EST Friday Night Musings: 9/4/2015 (Labor Day Weekend) Here it is...the long awaited celebration of summer's end. Summer was cruel to me this year. I filed for bankruptcy after a struggle with manic/depression landed me in the hospital for a week and off work for 2 weeks. I was literally one paycheck away from it, and here I am...3 days after my court appearance that left me feeling devastated. <BR> <BR> The good news is that I got to keep my home and my car. My sanity doesn't seem to be quite there, and work isn't helping. My bank of 8 years re... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 22:39:14 EST I did it!!!! And I wasn't even the slowest turtle on the course! In fact, there were people still on the course as I was leaving. And I was there for a good 30 to 45 minutes after I finished. I feel fabulous (aside from all my muscles screaming at me)! And I have to say it is well worth it! <BR> <BR> If you want to have fun while getting in shape, start signing up for 5k's and invite your friends to join you. The more, the merrier. Put a tutu on over your race shorts, wear a tiara, and put on your best s... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 19:31:36 EST I may be a turtle...BUT! It's Saturday and I have a 5k I'm participating in today called the Foam Glow (mentioned in a previous blog post). I'm looking so forward to it, even if I am going to be the turtle on the race course. You see it has been at least 5 years since I've participated in a 5K race. And then I'm only a walker, not a runner. <BR> <BR> But it isn't so much about relating to being a turtle, it is more about the fact that I'm doing it. I've paid my dues, I have accountability for being there, and I'm o... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 10:53:09 EST Baby Steps: First Step I know they say baby steps in getting back to being healthy, but a friend is dragging me kicking and screaming (okay, so they are more like squeals of joy) to a Foam Glow 5K here in Indy this Saturday night. I won't be running, but I'll be walking and hopefully I won't poop out too soon. I know 3 miles isn't a big deal to most walkers, but I've been out of commission for 8 weeks! That's a long time in fitness world (just look at my waistline for that one)! <BR> <BR> If you are interested in ... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 21:34:13 EST I Can Do It Back on June 25th, I was admitted to the hospital and was there for a weeklong stay. I had hit a wall and could no longer function. I had given up and I made an attempt on my own life. I felt like there was no hope left in me. I was at an impasse in my life and all I wanted was to be free of the burdens that were facing me. <BR> <BR> After I was released, I was told to hold off on any strenuous exercise for 6 to 8 weeks. I unfortunately took that to heart and became a couch potato. I could h... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 14:08:40 EST The 2015 Fall 5% Challenge Are you looking for a way to get fit, lose weight, and have fun along the way? Check out the Fall 5% Challenge! Team members will work towards losing 5% of their starting weight in 8 weeks by participating in team challenges that focus on exercise & healthy lifestyle habits. Let’s have fun, make new friends and get in shape this Fall! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ndividual.asp?gid=65592 </link> Mon, 24 Aug 2015 11:03:02 EST Turn Around...NOW!!!!!! That's what I keep telling myself right now. Turn around before it's too late! 200 lbs is looming in the horizon again as I hit 196 again. And I'm not happy about it. And here I had been contemplating a trip to the pancake house this morning. I think not. Cheesy eggs and broccoli from The Onion Factory is what it will be. But, lunch is with family and I need to remember to make smart choices instead of dumb ones like I have been making. <BR> <BR> I overslept this morning, too. I hit the off ... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:24:59 EST Spring Challenge: My Recommitment I, Brenda, make a recommitment as of April 4, 2015 to become more fit, healthy, and vibrant. I've slacked off this past month, but have overcome hurdles that now warrant a new commitment to my well-being. Sat, 4 Apr 2015 09:00:32 EST There's Always Tomorrow Isn't that what we always say....there's always tomorrow? Well, tomorrow never actually never comes. It always remains tomorrow in many senses. What we really need is TODAY! So, TODAY I am getting back into the swing of things with my diet and exercise routine. I'm going to focus on 30 minutes of elliptical each day, 10% of carbs from sugar, 20% from starches, and 70% from veggies and berries. I'm going to increase my protein using my Syntrax Nectar protein shakes I make using frozen berries.... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 08:53:00 EST Bumps & Bruises Along the Way Here we are, the first full day of Spring and I'm no where near the 10 lb mark I had hoped for the month of March. I still have a week left, but dropping 10 lbs in one week is left to those on The Biggest Loser...and that was usually in the first week. <BR> <BR> The last couple of weeks have been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I had another cancer scare. I lost my contract at work. I just have had some ups and downs I'd like to forget. <BR> <BR> So, here I am again in Spring. Back... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 18:57:54 EST March Challenge 2015 I belong to a place called The Onion Factory ( <link> </link> ). I've lost over 25 lbs since the beginning of November. I've had sluggish weigh loss since the beginning of the year, as I've had some major challenges and hiccups in my journey. However, this months onion challenge is to lose 10 lbs in march. If I do, that would be me within 15 lbs of my goal weight. I can do that! <BR> <BR> How am I going to do it: <BR> <BR> 1) 30 mins / day on the elliptical (or some form ... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 16:46:21 EST The Key to Happiness This week's "Living the Good Life" activity during the 2015 Winter 5% Challenge is taking 10 minutes a day and doing something that brings happiness to our hearts. <BR> <BR> Well, let me tell you a story (a true one at that). My cousin lost her son in a tragic accident last April. He would have been 22 this Monday. He was her only son. But in his tragedy, they found that he had been an organ donor and saved 5 lives with that life giving/saving gift of himself. <BR> <BR> My cousin, trying t... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 14:38:18 EST It's Kind of Funny I know that one of the keys to losing weight is strength training, and that in order to successfully train is to work the muscles to exhaustion. Well, Tuesday was one of my ST days, and afterward I went out to dinner with a gal from class. I sat down to eat and couldn't lift my fork (which could be a blessing in disguise by itself). Then yesterday was another ST day. I worked a vendor show last night and couldn't lift my jewelry kits and supply bags AT ALL!!!! My arms were so tired and sore!!... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 12:20:25 EST What Motivates Me? My motivational goals for the 2015 Winter 5% Challenge are slightly different than goals I've set for myself in the past. Maybe it is because I'm living the results of those goals now more than ever. <BR> <BR> But, for the sake of a new challenge, and new motivational goals, here we go: <BR> <BR> What do you want to change? I want to change the way I look at food and eating. I want to change the way I look at exercise. I want to change how I look at life overall. <BR> <BR> How do you want ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 23:54:57 EST A blank slate and a new outlook Each day is a blank slate. Each year we start that blank slate with a new book of 365 blank pages. Today, my page 2 will be hitting the gym to conquer the elliptical (it is becoming my favorite machine). Then tonight I have cooking class and group strength training class. <BR> <BR> Since tomorrow I graduate from the 8 week boot camp I participated in with great results, I decided to join the group for the next year. That means, the personal training will continue and the weight will continu... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 12:53:28 EST Struggling to find balance As I write this, I've lost 13 lbs and 10 1/2" since the beginning of November. I'm down from a size 16 to a size 14 and people are starting to take notice. But I'm struggling at finding a perfect balance to sustain this weightloss pattern. <BR> <BR> My THR is to be 121 to 148. On the bike, I'm even at 128/132. But on the elliptical, I cannot sustain myself under 148. I keep jumping to 151. And from what I've been taught, you burn muscle rather than fat at that heart rate. So, what do you do... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 10:59:26 EST Sleep, they say? Studies show that getting at least 6-8 hours of sound sleep a night helps promote not only a healthy attitude, but weight-loss, too. <BR> <BR> Well, someone forgot to let my dogs know this. Generally, they leave me alone at night and allow me to sleep peacefully all night long. Not last night. They decided that it was play time. Not only did they decide it was play time, but play time in my room with a toy that makes chattering noises!!! <BR> <BR> Luckily, they understand the command "bed" ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 09:13:30 EST Of weight-loss frustrations and other things I've been doing great these past two weeks, except that I had been sick during most of that time. I've lost very little weight this past week and with official weigh-in looming ahead before the big holiday, my scale has stopped moving. <BR> <BR> Sure, losing 10 lbs in a two week period of time is a huge accomplishment, but I kind of feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser with my chance to stay on at the "ranch" balancing delicately upon my weigh-in. <BR> <BR> Right now, I stand at exactly 10 ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 07:23:42 EST A big win Well, I just finished my first full week of Onion Camp. I learned quite a few lessons this week, including how much sugar and carb withdrawal can effect the mood (I'm bipolar). It was NOT pretty to say the least. <BR> <BR> But I also learned after the fact, that I wasn't getting enough protein which was feeding my mood swings and irritability. So, yesterday, I added in protein drinks (100 calorie EAS protein drink in chocolate...tastes pretty good, too). Today I feel more "stable". <BR> <B... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 14:08:13 EST The anatomy of weight gain (Photos Included) Today, I made an important step in attempting to shed the pounds I've been so frustrated with over the past 6 years. I joined a group called "The Onion Factory" in Anderson, Indiana. My "friend" suggested it after I had confided in him that I wanted to lose weight. He was relentless in his pushing me to contact this group after his mom, sister, and ex-girlfriend had all seen positive and amazing results from being there. So, Saturday begins that journey. <BR> <BR> But how did I get Thu, 6 Nov 2014 00:17:25 EST Getting Mental I was reading an article about how we need to get mentally prepared for weight loss. This got me to thinking about where I am mentally when it comes to not only getting myself healthy, but in life in general. <BR> <BR> I've been struggling with mood lately and the mood of late is lethargic, uncaring, and unwanting. I do not want to participate in anything right now, and that is not the mind-set that I want or need right now. <BR> <BR> So, how do you get your head back into the game? Good qu... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 11:44:49 EST On a slow train to nowhere I've been sparking for about 6 years now. One of the things that I've been proud of is losing 50 lbs in one year. However, the scale has started to creep upward, and I've gained back almost 20 lbs of that 50 back. I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out of it. <BR> <BR> Sure, fitness has fallen by the wayside as a myriad of issues had crept up: cancer, endometrial ablation, and other today's knee injury. But it doesn't answer the rest of the days I've been healthy. I... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 21:21:57 EST