MUSIC2HISEARS's SparkPeople Blog MUSIC2HISEARS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I did it!!!! And I wasn't even the slowest turtle on the course! In fact, there were people still on the course as I was leaving. And I was there for a good 30 to 45 minutes after I finished. I feel fabulous (aside from all my muscles screaming at me)! And I have to say it is well worth it! <BR> <BR> If you want to have fun while getting in shape, start signing up for 5k's and invite your friends to join you. The more, the merrier. Put a tutu on over your race shorts, wear a tiara, and put on your best s... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 19:31:36 EST I may be a turtle...BUT! It's Saturday and I have a 5k I'm participating in today called the Foam Glow (mentioned in a previous blog post). I'm looking so forward to it, even if I am going to be the turtle on the race course. You see it has been at least 5 years since I've participated in a 5K race. And then I'm only a walker, not a runner. <BR> <BR> But it isn't so much about relating to being a turtle, it is more about the fact that I'm doing it. I've paid my dues, I have accountability for being there, and I'm o... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 10:53:09 EST Baby Steps: First Step I know they say baby steps in getting back to being healthy, but a friend is dragging me kicking and screaming (okay, so they are more like squeals of joy) to a Foam Glow 5K here in Indy this Saturday night. I won't be running, but I'll be walking and hopefully I won't poop out too soon. I know 3 miles isn't a big deal to most walkers, but I've been out of commission for 8 weeks! That's a long time in fitness world (just look at my waistline for that one)! <BR> <BR> If you are interested in ... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 21:34:13 EST I Can Do It Back on June 25th, I was admitted to the hospital and was there for a weeklong stay. I had hit a wall and could no longer function. I had given up and I made an attempt on my own life. I felt like there was no hope left in me. I was at an impasse in my life and all I wanted was to be free of the burdens that were facing me. <BR> <BR> After I was released, I was told to hold off on any strenuous exercise for 6 to 8 weeks. I unfortunately took that to heart and became a couch potato. I could h... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 14:08:40 EST The 2015 Fall 5% Challenge Are you looking for a way to get fit, lose weight, and have fun along the way? Check out the Fall 5% Challenge! Team members will work towards losing 5% of their starting weight in 8 weeks by participating in team challenges that focus on exercise & healthy lifestyle habits. Let’s have fun, make new friends and get in shape this Fall! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ndividual.asp?gid=65592 </link> Mon, 24 Aug 2015 11:03:02 EST Turn Around...NOW!!!!!! That's what I keep telling myself right now. Turn around before it's too late! 200 lbs is looming in the horizon again as I hit 196 again. And I'm not happy about it. And here I had been contemplating a trip to the pancake house this morning. I think not. Cheesy eggs and broccoli from The Onion Factory is what it will be. But, lunch is with family and I need to remember to make smart choices instead of dumb ones like I have been making. <BR> <BR> I overslept this morning, too. I hit the off ... Sat, 11 Apr 2015 09:24:59 EST Spring Challenge: My Recommitment I, Brenda, make a recommitment as of April 4, 2015 to become more fit, healthy, and vibrant. I've slacked off this past month, but have overcome hurdles that now warrant a new commitment to my well-being. Sat, 4 Apr 2015 09:00:32 EST There's Always Tomorrow Isn't that what we always say....there's always tomorrow? Well, tomorrow never actually never comes. It always remains tomorrow in many senses. What we really need is TODAY! So, TODAY I am getting back into the swing of things with my diet and exercise routine. I'm going to focus on 30 minutes of elliptical each day, 10% of carbs from sugar, 20% from starches, and 70% from veggies and berries. I'm going to increase my protein using my Syntrax Nectar protein shakes I make using frozen berries.... Sun, 29 Mar 2015 08:53:00 EST Bumps & Bruises Along the Way Here we are, the first full day of Spring and I'm no where near the 10 lb mark I had hoped for the month of March. I still have a week left, but dropping 10 lbs in one week is left to those on The Biggest Loser...and that was usually in the first week. <BR> <BR> The last couple of weeks have been a roller coaster ride to say the least. I had another cancer scare. I lost my contract at work. I just have had some ups and downs I'd like to forget. <BR> <BR> So, here I am again in Spring. Back... Sat, 21 Mar 2015 18:57:54 EST March Challenge 2015 I belong to a place called The Onion Factory ( <link> </link> ). I've lost over 25 lbs since the beginning of November. I've had sluggish weigh loss since the beginning of the year, as I've had some major challenges and hiccups in my journey. However, this months onion challenge is to lose 10 lbs in march. If I do, that would be me within 15 lbs of my goal weight. I can do that! <BR> <BR> How am I going to do it: <BR> <BR> 1) 30 mins / day on the elliptical (or some form ... Sun, 1 Mar 2015 16:46:21 EST The Key to Happiness This week's "Living the Good Life" activity during the 2015 Winter 5% Challenge is taking 10 minutes a day and doing something that brings happiness to our hearts. <BR> <BR> Well, let me tell you a story (a true one at that). My cousin lost her son in a tragic accident last April. He would have been 22 this Monday. He was her only son. But in his tragedy, they found that he had been an organ donor and saved 5 lives with that life giving/saving gift of himself. <BR> <BR> My cousin, trying t... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 14:38:18 EST It's Kind of Funny I know that one of the keys to losing weight is strength training, and that in order to successfully train is to work the muscles to exhaustion. Well, Tuesday was one of my ST days, and afterward I went out to dinner with a gal from class. I sat down to eat and couldn't lift my fork (which could be a blessing in disguise by itself). Then yesterday was another ST day. I worked a vendor show last night and couldn't lift my jewelry kits and supply bags AT ALL!!!! My arms were so tired and sore!!... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 12:20:25 EST What Motivates Me? My motivational goals for the 2015 Winter 5% Challenge are slightly different than goals I've set for myself in the past. Maybe it is because I'm living the results of those goals now more than ever. <BR> <BR> But, for the sake of a new challenge, and new motivational goals, here we go: <BR> <BR> What do you want to change? I want to change the way I look at food and eating. I want to change the way I look at exercise. I want to change how I look at life overall. <BR> <BR> How do you want ... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 23:54:57 EST A blank slate and a new outlook Each day is a blank slate. Each year we start that blank slate with a new book of 365 blank pages. Today, my page 2 will be hitting the gym to conquer the elliptical (it is becoming my favorite machine). Then tonight I have cooking class and group strength training class. <BR> <BR> Since tomorrow I graduate from the 8 week boot camp I participated in with great results, I decided to join the group for the next year. That means, the personal training will continue and the weight will continu... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 12:53:28 EST Struggling to find balance As I write this, I've lost 13 lbs and 10 1/2" since the beginning of November. I'm down from a size 16 to a size 14 and people are starting to take notice. But I'm struggling at finding a perfect balance to sustain this weightloss pattern. <BR> <BR> My THR is to be 121 to 148. On the bike, I'm even at 128/132. But on the elliptical, I cannot sustain myself under 148. I keep jumping to 151. And from what I've been taught, you burn muscle rather than fat at that heart rate. So, what do you do... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 10:59:26 EST Sleep, they say? Studies show that getting at least 6-8 hours of sound sleep a night helps promote not only a healthy attitude, but weight-loss, too. <BR> <BR> Well, someone forgot to let my dogs know this. Generally, they leave me alone at night and allow me to sleep peacefully all night long. Not last night. They decided that it was play time. Not only did they decide it was play time, but play time in my room with a toy that makes chattering noises!!! <BR> <BR> Luckily, they understand the command "bed" ... Fri, 5 Dec 2014 09:13:30 EST Of weight-loss frustrations and other things I've been doing great these past two weeks, except that I had been sick during most of that time. I've lost very little weight this past week and with official weigh-in looming ahead before the big holiday, my scale has stopped moving. <BR> <BR> Sure, losing 10 lbs in a two week period of time is a huge accomplishment, but I kind of feel like I'm on the Biggest Loser with my chance to stay on at the "ranch" balancing delicately upon my weigh-in. <BR> <BR> Right now, I stand at exactly 10 ... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 07:23:42 EST A big win Well, I just finished my first full week of Onion Camp. I learned quite a few lessons this week, including how much sugar and carb withdrawal can effect the mood (I'm bipolar). It was NOT pretty to say the least. <BR> <BR> But I also learned after the fact, that I wasn't getting enough protein which was feeding my mood swings and irritability. So, yesterday, I added in protein drinks (100 calorie EAS protein drink in chocolate...tastes pretty good, too). Today I feel more "stable". <BR> <B... Sun, 16 Nov 2014 14:08:13 EST The anatomy of weight gain (Photos Included) Today, I made an important step in attempting to shed the pounds I've been so frustrated with over the past 6 years. I joined a group called "The Onion Factory" in Anderson, Indiana. My "friend" suggested it after I had confided in him that I wanted to lose weight. He was relentless in his pushing me to contact this group after his mom, sister, and ex-girlfriend had all seen positive and amazing results from being there. So, Saturday begins that journey. <BR> <BR> But how did I get Thu, 6 Nov 2014 00:17:25 EST Getting Mental I was reading an article about how we need to get mentally prepared for weight loss. This got me to thinking about where I am mentally when it comes to not only getting myself healthy, but in life in general. <BR> <BR> I've been struggling with mood lately and the mood of late is lethargic, uncaring, and unwanting. I do not want to participate in anything right now, and that is not the mind-set that I want or need right now. <BR> <BR> So, how do you get your head back into the game? Good qu... Sun, 2 Nov 2014 11:44:49 EST On a slow train to nowhere I've been sparking for about 6 years now. One of the things that I've been proud of is losing 50 lbs in one year. However, the scale has started to creep upward, and I've gained back almost 20 lbs of that 50 back. I'm stuck in a rut and I don't know how to get out of it. <BR> <BR> Sure, fitness has fallen by the wayside as a myriad of issues had crept up: cancer, endometrial ablation, and other today's knee injury. But it doesn't answer the rest of the days I've been healthy. I... Mon, 20 Oct 2014 21:21:57 EST 106 flights of pain Saturday morning, I met my coworkers for what was supposed to be a 3 1/2 hour 7 mile hike through the beautiful hills of southern Indiana. What we didn't expect was what our fitbits claimed to be 106 floors climbed in one day. Today, 3 days later, my calves are still screaming at me. <BR> <BR> But that wasn't just it. I felt fine as I met my coworkers. I wasn't even 1/2 way up the first hill and I started suffering what I thought was an asthma attack. I didn't even have my inhaler. In honest... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 14:42:45 EST This is getting old Gaining weight that is. <BR> <BR> I started out the year at 191. Now I'm at 210. This is not the direction I wanted to go. This is definitely not what I wanted. But it is my fault. I've not been as diligent. But maybe not so much my fault. My doctor did change my medication. But I'm still floored that I'm this far above 200 again. <BR> <BR> What can I do? Change my habits? I already eat healthy. Change my workout? Maybe. I had been slacking a little. So, why did this happen. I have no id... Sat, 27 Sep 2014 19:57:51 EST And so it begins... Day 1, week 1. The challenge begins. So, what will become of this all important challenge? Will I lose 10 of the 15 I gained this summer? Will I finally win the battle? Will the 5% be my true goal? We shall see. But I'm already starting off on the right foot. I got in a good workout today, ate a healthy breakfast and dinner (lunch not so much...went over for the day). But tomorrow is also a new day with a new purpose. Sat, 20 Sep 2014 21:20:29 EST Renewing My Commitment - 2014 Fall 5% Challenge With the 2014 Fall 5% Challenge looming in just a little over a week, I'm finding that I have a renewed spirit in regards to getting healthy once again. In the Summer of 2013, I reached ONEderland, but since then, I've gained back nearly 18 lbs. Yuck! <BR> <BR> So, with this new challenge in my sites, I need to renew my commitment to a healthier me. Which means I need to answer a few questions: <BR> <BR> What do I want to change? <BR> I want to change how I feel. What does that mean? It m... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 10:46:22 EST Seeking Peace Something that has been missing from my life these past few months, if not years, is peace. In fact, in recent weeks, the stress and anxiety have become so debilitating that I'm actually on an extended leave of absence from work. It scares me that I don't know what is going on or how I'm going to make it day to day. I just pray that I do make it and that the stress can begin to wane. <BR> <BR> I've been diagnosed with bipolar disorder with PTSD as my secondary diagnosis. I was molested as a... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 14:40:49 EST The Last Day - 2014 Spring 5% Challenge Today is the last day of the 2014 Spring 5% Challenge, and while I had some successes, I am ending it right where I started weight wise. It is amazing that I have even been able to maintain considering the trials that I've been through this time around with Kyle's accident and subsequent passing, and then my cancer diagnosis. <BR> <BR> The thing that I think is the greatest aspect of these 5% Challenges is the camaraderie of the teams. Everyone comes together and helps encourage each other ... Fri, 30 May 2014 20:31:06 EST The Scale Hates Me I swear! The scale hates me!!!! I've been within calories...getting steps in and still...the scale goes up! What is up with that? Is it stress? I am leaving for Vegas on Saturday morning, maybe that is it. <BR> <BR> On the Vegas front, I'm not and I am looking forward to it. One one hand, it is for work and I will be in conferences all day. On the other, it is Vegas and I'm going to get to do some fun things. And work is paying for it. Breakfast and Lunch are provided most days there, but d... Thu, 29 May 2014 20:29:52 EST I hate to ask...but... For those of you who don't know, I had surgery on my shoulder last Thursday to remove a pretty substantial chunk of cancerous tissue. With that, I've been put on restrictions from doing much of anything for a month that involves the upper body. With that, I have 2 dogs...let's just say...they shed. So, when the church called and asked if I needed anything (they asked) I said "I need someone to vacuum". Very short. Very blunt. And to the point. <BR> <BR> She laughed off my response and advi... Wed, 28 May 2014 20:37:57 EST That Wasn't Smart I was dumb as they could come today. What in my head thought that it would be okay to walk 2 miles in old running shoes with no socks on? I have blisters the size of quarters now on the backs of my heels. You know, the kind that put you out of commission for a week until they dry up and heal a little more. Yes, they broke and are now open wounds basically. Sigh...why did I do that! Needless to say I got my walk in today. Needless to say it won't be happening again for at least another week. A... Tue, 27 May 2014 19:43:26 EST Debating I've been doing a lot of sitting these past 5 days since my surgery and it is getting old. The nurse told me that I could do anything lower body, including the Zumba steps. Just no arms. I had opted not to work out because I need to balance myself with my arms as I do. I'm such a klutz! <BR> <BR> But, a friend is talking about going for a walk this evening and I'm seriously debating on it. It would be great to get out and get some exercise, but I'm so afraid of over doing it and making my sh... Mon, 26 May 2014 13:11:07 EST Happy Times! Today, I spent the day with family. Tuesday is one of my 5 nephew's birthday and he will be turning 11. So, we celebrated yesterday and today by playing in the pool. Well, they played in the pool and I sat under the shade of the umbrella. It wasn't the best food day or exercise day for me, but it was a good day all in all. <BR> <BR> I hope you all are having a very blessed Memorial Day weekend!!!! Sun, 25 May 2014 19:57:44 EST Yeouch!!!!! Well, today is day 2 since having the chunk of cancerous skin taken off my shoulder and then some. Ice packs have become my friends. The nice thing is that I do get to be pampered a little. My poor mom has the job of changing my bandages on a daily basis. I'm sure that is not fun for her. My younger nephew looked at it and was like "how did you do that". He's not old enough yet to understand the definition of cancer. <BR> <BR> I'm actually surprised my grandmother has not called today. She ... Sat, 24 May 2014 21:51:04 EST Beating the Big "C" Two weeks ago, after the urging of a close friend, I called my doctor to get a referral to a dermatologist because a spot on my arm had become irregular in size and shape. The doctor said no, that she wanted to look at it first. She immediately proceeded to perform a biopsy and then removed the remaining tissue. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I got the results: Cancer. I had an invasive malignant melanoma. Those were the first words my eyes wandered to when she handed me the paperwork from the pathol... Thu, 22 May 2014 19:23:44 EST Kyle: My heart is breaking This morning has been a very difficult one in my family. Last night around 9:45, my cousin and Kyle's father were called into the hospital. At that point the vitals were showing no brain activity. They spent the entire night as they waited and watched, but no signs. They have not pronounced an exact time of death, but Kyle has gone home to be with God. He is an organ donor, so he will live on in helping others in this difficult time. Please, continue to pray for his mom, Kimberly, and his fat... Sun, 27 Apr 2014 12:40:41 EST 4/22 Update on Kyle I wish I could convey the thoughts and words my cousin uses when explaining Kyle's situation. She's there for each visiting hour at 8, 12, 4, and 8 again. After talking with her on the phone, I just cannot fathom the fear and sorrow she must be feeling right now. She's living every mother's worst nightmare. Her son, lying in an induced coma, struggling for his life. <BR> <BR> The ICP (brain pressure) has been steady around 30, so they are putting him on diuretics again, even though they thic... Tue, 22 Apr 2014 19:20:11 EST Sunday Update on Kyle Thank you so much for all of your thoughts and prayers for Kyle. He is not doing as well as they would have liked by now, in fact he seems to be doing worse this afternoon. The ICP (brain pressure) is too high, so they have to put him on a diuretic. However, his blood is too thick from the diuretic that it could cause organ failure. Please, continue to pray. Sun, 20 Apr 2014 17:45:46 EST Thursday Update on Kyle Kyle progressed today. His ICP (brain pressure) started out at 22 but came down to 15. Unfortunately, it did go back up later this evening. They are going to start a feeding tube to get nourishment in him. They had stopped it because he wasn't digesting properly, but they feel he is ready. They say that if he continues to improve they will start to bring him out of the induced coma and trade the ventilator for a trach. Thank you so much for the prayers and thoughts going out for my cousin's s... Thu, 17 Apr 2014 19:37:50 EST Wednesday Update on Kyle Things have not been good these past 24 hours. We've learned that Kyle has suffered a stroke caused by the pressure from the swelling. He has also developed fluid in one of his lungs and they are now siphoning that fluid out and putting him on antibiotics. They are having trouble getting him to regulate his temperature right now, and keep alternating cooling and warming blankets. <BR> <BR> We've set up a page on FB for people to keep track of what is going on with Kyle. If you wish to go t... Wed, 16 Apr 2014 16:33:48 EST Tuesday Update on Kyle Things are not going well with Kyle. Here is the latest from his mom. Please, continue to keep him in prayer: <BR> <BR> There were even more complications today so we just feel deflated and defeated and we keep reminding ourselves that Kyle's Dr still says not to give up hope, its seriously bad but not over. He has promised he will tell us if that time should come. Again thank you for your comments, prayers, reposting, and support. The Dr told us today of a young man admitted January 1 same ... Tue, 15 Apr 2014 07:26:15 EST More on Kyle: Words from His Mom Below is the message we had this morning from Kyle's mom, my cousin: <BR> <BR> <BR> Kyle is not progressing in the most positive way but not completely unexpected with the severity of injury, and Dr does not want to give us false hope but also is adamant that we don't give up because it is so early in his recovery. Noone but God knows the extent of permanent damage under all the swelling if any. The swelling needs to come down to relieve pressure on his brain. He has a low grade fever that ... Mon, 14 Apr 2014 07:09:04 EST Update On Kyle Kyle has taken a turn for the worse. They are taking drastic measures to relieve pressure on the brain. He is no longer responding to stimuli and eye movement has stopped. Please, continue to pray that this is only a setback. Thank you! Sun, 13 Apr 2014 09:05:07 EST Prayer for Kyle Please, pray for Kyle (my cousin's son). He's in critical condition, but showing improvement. His parents are with him right now (he was in Arkansas...we're all in Indiana). He had a CT scan this morning that was promising and he's responding to prompts and squeezing hands. For those that don't know, my cousin's son, Kyle, was in a serious car accident with head trauma. He has sever swelling on the brain. They say the first 72 hours are the most critical in knowing if he'll recover fully. <BR... Sat, 12 Apr 2014 10:23:26 EST Venus Factor - Not So Appetizing When I first signed up for the Venus Factor, I thought I was signing up for something that would definitely help me improve my weight loss goals. Unfortunately, what I found was that it is a marketing gimmick for you to buy their supplements which are NOT cheap. Secondly, all of the supplements started making me sick to my stomach. Which is not good nor healthy. <BR> <BR> So, my review on the Venus Factor is DO NOT BY IT! <BR> <BR> After reading the paperwork that came with it, the real th... Tue, 8 Apr 2014 09:38:39 EST I'm Impressed I have two dogs: Sampson, a dachshund/springer spaniel mix who is 9, and Boots, a Boston Terrier who is 3. While Sampson was getting his spring grooming on (I let his fur grow over the winter), I decided to take Boots on a long walk down what is called the Monon Trail. I don't remember how many miles long the trail is, but we walked for about an hour (about 3 miles total). <BR> <BR> She has only been on leash on a trail like this once in her entire life. I was impressed. She walked the trai... Sun, 6 Apr 2014 18:37:49 EST Fab, Fit, Fun and Sore So, I signed up for the FabFitFun spring box. One of the things in it was a Stott Pilates mini stability ball with a DVD video exercise to use it. I didn't know what to expect when playing the DVD and doing the exercise, but I can say that while doing them, they seemed easy enough for a beginner to do them, with just enough toughness to make it uncomfortable for each move to feel like it was doing something. <BR> <BR> Well, it has been an hour since I did the workout, followed by my Zumba wo... Sat, 5 Apr 2014 21:19:20 EST A Funny Story, Really I have to tell on my profile photo. I belong to a dating website with a message board that I frequent. One of the men had made a comment about why there were not any June Cleavers in the world. So, I threw on my great-grandma's 1930's apron, grabbed my 1952 edition of Betty Crocker Cookbook and posed for the camera. The only thing missing were the pearls and the heels. It was winter so boots had to do and I had a pretty chain necklace to wear in place of the pearls. <BR> <BR> I posted the p... Fri, 28 Mar 2014 17:10:10 EST My 2014 5% Spring Challenge Nutrition Goals Assignment #1 was to set our commitment goals....done in previous blog. <BR> <BR> Assignment #2 is to set our nutrition goals for the 2014 5% Spring Challenge. <BR> <BR> Well, I've learned in the past what works, and what doesn't. What didn't work for me was not tracking as much as I usually do in the last challenge. This next challenge, I'll step it up and track my calories a little more closely. This will help me understand which foods are eating up my calories and leaving me going over b... Tue, 25 Mar 2014 11:03:36 EST My 2014 5% Spring Challenge Commitment Goals The 2014 5% Spring Challenge is upon us, so it is time to renew my commitment to getting into better shape and in better health. To do this I will: <BR> <BR> I will commit to getting in 30 minutes of cardio a day for the 8 weeks (56 days) of the challenge. <BR> <BR> I will commit to getting in 30 minutes of strength training twice a week for the 8 weeks of the challenge. <BR> <BR> I will commit to following a healthy balanced diet plan and counting calories using SparkPeople. <BR> <BR>... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 11:27:55 EST Somebody, Quick! Give Her a Smoothie! Have you heard of Valeria Lukyanova? She's the girl who has proclaimed herself the real to life Barbie doll? Have you heard of her latest antic? Wanting to live on light and air alone (see <link><BR>eatharian-barbie-valeria-lukyanova_n_4<BR>873706.html </link> ) <BR> <BR> The fact that she is making this public scares the daylights out of me! The fact first that she has made the public eye is scary enough, but the fact that she is promoting anorexia is... Sun, 2 Mar 2014 11:23:36 EST