MUSIC2HISEARS's SparkPeople Blog MUSIC2HISEARS's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I Can Do It! On 10/1, I fell and hurt myself enough to warrant a trip to the ER. They looked at me (no x-rays or anything), told me that I had just pulled muscles and bruised myself, then sent me home with pain meds and a muscle relaxer. Thing got worse. I've gone to urgent care (they seem to care more) and they did an x-ray and gave me an anti-inflammatory. Still didn't work and I got worse. I started physical therapy two weeks ago and have noticed some improvement, or at least I thought so. Then... Thu, 27 Oct 2016 18:04:28 EST Taking Charge I haven't been to work since 9/6. That is the day that a mysterious pain developed in my abdomen, along with nausea and vomiting. They did all kinds of tests over the month of September, from CT Scans to colonoscopies and endoscopies. I'm pretty sure I'm radioactive now. <BR> <BR> The whole process was demoralizing. I was sick and no one could figure out what was going on or what was wrong. No one would release me to go back to work, because I was still so sick. So, on 9/17, I went to the E... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 23:39:12 EST A Season of Change On September 22, out of pure frustration and defeat, I went to the local stress center at a catholic hospital. I then went through intake, where I poured my heart out to the social worker busily taking notes of everything I said. I was then admitted into an intensive outpatient program for the next six weeks. <BR> <BR> The next thing I did was to talk with the HR company that helps manage our extremely small company, and she explained to me that if this absence were to last more than four w... Sat, 22 Oct 2016 10:50:02 EST Will it ever end? I've been a medical anomaly since May. I am in so much pain right now it isn't funny. And it is interesting the number of "armchair" doctor's who pop up on social media when you do start to say something is wrong. <BR> <BR> On August 8th, I started having intense nausea followed by vomiting. I did go to the doctor a week after it started (that is a concern right there) and they told me I had a sinus infection that was just making me sick to my stomach. A couple of doctor visits and an ER vis... Sat, 17 Sep 2016 12:51:17 EST Nutrition Plan (2016 Fall 5% Challenge) Yes, I know...two blogs just minutes between each other. Oh, is good to have a plan in place before you get going. <BR> <BR> I have not been doing well dieting on my own. About 18 months ago, I joined The Onion Factory ( <link> </link> ) where they prepare your food on a daily basis. The food is primarily high protein, low sugar, low fat, healthy carb only kind of diet. I love it! The food is great and it is about 30 minutes from where I live right now). <BR> <B... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 12:28:33 EST My Exercise Plan (2016 Fall 5% Challenge) I've had a rough year physically, mentally, and emotionally. I was riding high on the wave until mid-April of this year. Yeah, I gained a few pounds, but I was happy and in love. Fast forward to September, and now I'm just fat and sassy. Time to keep the sass, but lose the fat. <BR> <BR> The Onion Factory ( <link> </link> ) is having a 100 day challenge where for $100, I can join in on a challenge where there is $10,000 on the line. Who couldn't use that kind of $$. Well, ... Sun, 11 Sep 2016 12:18:53 EST Just Breath! Well, I survived last night. I would love to know what the facial expression was on my face when Kenny came up and give me a big hug last night. After he walked away from our table, my friends told me to breath. Apparently I had stopped breathing when he did that. I did begin to miss the relationship itself, because it was a good relationship for the most part. Just still quite confused by the sudden ending of it. Anyway, I'm off to the picnic this afternoon. And yes, Kenny said he'd be there... Sun, 7 Aug 2016 10:50:56 EST Winds of Change Well, a quick update and then I'm going back to bed (It is 2:19am here right now - UGH!). I still have a job, but mostly because the boss isn't back from Europe, yet. He's expected on Monday morning, but we'll see. I'm pretty sure that when he comes back, my time will be up. I have a peace about it, but I know when I go in, I'll blubber like an idiot, because in reality, no one wants to be fired. <BR> <BR> In the meantime, the doctor has nixed the idea of going onto SSDI disability. She was ... Sat, 6 Aug 2016 02:27:57 EST Bipolar Disorder and Weight Loss I found this great article on weight loss and bipolar disorder. What she has to say is spot on to what I have experienced. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ng-weight-bipolar-meds#comment-15081 </link> <BR> <BR> What I have experienced is that when I was first put on Geodon I weighed in at 200 lbs even. I immediately lost 25 lbs and was happy and comfortable at that weight. I did walk everyday and ate a healthy whole food diet. After about 7 months, I was taken off... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 12:55:58 EST And They Keep Coming Wow, if it wasn't for bad luck, I'd have no luck at all. It's gotten so bad that my mom is planning on putting horseshoes over my doors of my house! And I'm not stopping her. <BR> <BR> On a good note, I started back to work this week. <BR> On a bad note, I woke up Wednesday night/Thursday morning with level 10 pain in my left shoulder. It radiated down into my elbow. I tried putting aspercreme on it. I tried taking a Norco left over from the surgery. I tried everything. Nothing soothed it. F... Sat, 9 Jul 2016 00:54:35 EST Why am I an embarrassment to myself I hate to admit that I'm struggling on all fronts this morning. I feel like a blob. I am so ashamed of myself for gaining back all of the 50+ pounds I lost last year. I'm even embarrassed to even show my face at my 30th high school reunion in August. It is detrimental to my self-esteem on so many levels. <BR> <BR> I use it as an excuse or I use it to blame. However, I am on a doctor supervised weight-loss program. I'm already losing since the surgery and I do have a plan in place. The thing... Mon, 27 Jun 2016 08:51:07 EST What a Mess Just when I thought things would be getting better, they fall apart. This relationship. As some have already noticed, I have removed the photo of myself and the man I had been dating for 6 months this week. That is because on the exact day of the 6 months together, he let me go. Simple as that. He said "Whatever this is, I'm ending it now". How callous. He then followed it up with the standard cliches (It's not you, it's me and I'm just not feeling it). <BR> <BR> I've been struggl... Sun, 26 Jun 2016 01:13:31 EST Don't Overdo It Well, it has been a little over 2 weeks since my surgery and I am home resting. I did have the setback of the week long hospital stay last week for a viral infection, and am noticing that it has had an effect (negative) on my recovery. <BR> <BR> It is interesting how little things can cause me to feel like I've overdone it a little. Like bending or reaching up for items. I did that a little too much yesterday and I'm feeling it today. Ugh. I just want to feel better and get back to normal. ... Thu, 23 Jun 2016 15:04:40 EST Those Critics How do you handle someone who is very critical of your weight? My grandpa used to nag me continuously about the fact I needed to lose weight, even when I was a firm, fit, toned 145 lb young woman who just had a small "pooch" for a belly. <BR> <BR> I cringe at going to the gym, because the one I belong (because it is in walking distance) is one of those where the fit people seem to conglomerate. I always have a remark on the ready in case someone dares to say anything to me (i.e., Oh, then I... Tue, 21 Jun 2016 14:34:22 EST Saving Big Money - The Blog I thought I'd share my personal blog with all of you here! Enjoy! <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ing-big-money.html </link> Sun, 19 Jun 2016 11:25:25 EST Don't Want to do that Again! On Tuesday, June 6, I went into the hospital for a routine hysterectomy. Everything went well, although, it was almost 1am before my stomach settled down and I was able to take oral pain meds, eat, and rest. The first few days at home were restful. My caregiver for those first few days was my boyfriend. He was a good caregiver, although he did seem to hover a little more than I would have appreciated, but he was good. <BR> <BR> The next few days my mom took over. She took me to see my 93 yea... Sat, 18 Jun 2016 12:10:42 EST The Loss of a Loved One My family lost our beloved family patriarch yesterday morning - my 87 year old grandpa lost his battle with cancer. It was a brief battle, only being diagnosed just this past Christmas. We thought he had conquered it, but it had metastasized throughout his body and took him all too soon. He told me shortly after being given 3 to 4 weeks (he surpassed that mark by a few days) that he had lived a good life. And that he did. <BR> <BR> The closest person in my life that I had lost prior to this ... Wed, 1 Jun 2016 02:32:15 EST Putting Plans Into Place Ugh! The Spring Challenge is over and I gained 8 (yes, 8) lbs instead of losing it. Yes, this past week was the worst, and yes, it was a stressful week. I won't go into the why's of this week, as if you've followed my status updates this week, you'd know it was one that really rattles cages. <BR> <BR> But, here I am. I'm sorta healthy and sorta happy. Not really where I want to be. I weigh in at 140 lbs. 142 is my highest 3 years ago. I've been yo-yo'ing between that number and 185. Yes, an ... Sun, 22 May 2016 21:30:53 EST Tips and Tricks to Help During Periods of Recovery Another new blog today on my Living Simply Sassy Classy blog page. Please, keep me in your thoughts and prayers as I not only have the surgery, but during the preparation and recovery stages, as well. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>s-and-tricks-to-help-during-periods.html </link> Sun, 1 May 2016 10:26:53 EST The big "H" Here I am, staring down 48 with wild-eyed wonder as I don't feel anywhere near 35. I got this far without ever being married or having children of my own. My brother and sister-in-law swear that it was being present for their youngest son's birth may have forever damaged my desire for my own child. But that could not be further from the truth. It is just that apparently God had other plans for me. <BR> <BR> On Nov 17, 2013, I went in for a procedure called an endometrial ablation. Basically,... Wed, 27 Apr 2016 22:55:46 EST Grrrr Well, I just spent a couple of hours (3 to be exact) in the ER after spending the night in the ER on Sunday night. On Thursday, I woke up feeling pretty normal as any other day, but before I left for work, I had my head over the toilet with a massive headache. So, I went back to bed where I stayed until Friday afternoon when I went to the urgent care office. There they said I had a migraine, gave me Imitrex and a shot of Toradol and sent me on my merry way. <BR> <BR> I had felt good enough ... Wed, 20 Apr 2016 21:58:37 EST Decluttering the Body First Instead of trying to copy/paste/adjust/et al, I thought I'd just copy and paste the link to my latest blog instead. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>ing-control-of-my-body-clutter.html </link> Sun, 17 Apr 2016 12:45:02 EST Walking With Purpose - 4/16/2016 Today was a fun day and one that did bring a tear or two to my eyes. Today, my cousin, her husband, her best friend, and I walked in the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure 5k race. You see, Kim's son used to run the race in honor of his grandma and Kim's best friend who are both survivors. Unfortunately, Kyle died in a tragic accident two years ago this coming week. So, we participated in his name (our team was Eye of the Tiger). We even met our individual and team financial goals for the walk.... Sat, 16 Apr 2016 21:19:49 EST I'm Doing It And I'm nailing it! <BR> <BR> I've completed 35 minutes on the elliptical each day this weekend after the doctor told me to rest for a couple of days. And I must say that my heel is healing quite nicely. Today was the first day I've been able to wear my new runners without any pain in my heel. <BR> <BR> To help it heal, I'm wearing mules/clogs when I'm not at the gym. This way, there is no rubbing or irritation on the heel itself. The doctor had said it was a deep burn instead of an actua... Sun, 10 Apr 2016 15:09:22 EST I'm not sidelined...I'm just given a new challenge Sunday morning I went to the gym with a renewed determination to prepare for the upcoming Race for the Cure 5k here in Indiana. I've done 5k's before, even without being in shape to do them. So, I wasn't concerned that I wouldn't be able to complete the competition. So, to see how far I could go, I set the treadmill to 20 min mile at a 6 incline and at 1 hour. If I could do 3 miles, that last 1/2 mile would be a breeze. <BR> <BR> Now mind you, I bought my runners almost a year ago. I love th... Tue, 5 Apr 2016 16:30:31 EST What would you do? Today, I mowed my lawn and I have to say it looks great! I had to go slow and stop occasionally as I have blisters on my heels from yesterday's hour long workout. I'm taking suggestions or solutions for working out with blisters. <BR> <BR> Once I was done, I pulled the lawnmower up the hill in my backyard to only find out that the gate had closed on me while I was working. Well, I knew the backdoor was locked (I usually keep it unlocked for just this purpose) and that the gate didn't have a ... Sun, 3 Apr 2016 21:28:50 EST A Day of Ups and Downs Today started with good intentions, but I have no idea where it fell apart. I got up this morning and went to the gym, did 65 minutes walking on the treadmill (3.0 mph at 6 incline). I now have blisters on the back of my heels as my shoes ate my socks as I was walking. Sigh. <BR> <BR> I'm in the process of prepping for the Race for the Cure 5k in 2 weeks. Mom had been pushing and encouraging me to start working on my endurance, so I did just that today. Minus the heel blisters. <BR> <BR> Fo... Sat, 2 Apr 2016 20:15:01 EST Today was a SUCCESS!!!!!! Today was a success. How? I will tell you how: <BR> <BR> 1) I stayed within my calorie range by eating healthy all day long! I didn't binge. I didn't cheat. I didn't sway from my goal. <BR> <BR> 2) I cooked. Yes, I cooked. I have lunch for tomorrow and Wednesday because of it, too! <BR> <BR> 3) I got in 75 minutes of purposeful exercise. Yes, 50 of that was mowing the yard (that's tough to do!) and another 25 minutes of walking afterward. <BR> <BR> 4) I stayed away from the junk food aisl... Mon, 28 Mar 2016 21:03:36 EST I really am gonna do it tomorrow! I'm really going to do this tomorrow, I promise! I woke up this morning with one of those migraines that sidelines you for hours, so I had to do my math problem in the bathroom to turn off the alarm, then head back to bed where I slept until noon. By then, the headache was just a mild nuisance and I was feeling better enough to get some work done. <BR> <BR> Since my blood sugar is 106 tonight, I have a good feeling that I won't be in the same pickle as I was this morning. So, again...the pho... Tue, 22 Mar 2016 22:01:27 EST Oops...won't do that again Well, I had good and bad moments today. First off, I have an alarm on my phone that requires you to perform math problems in order to shut it off. While even simple math is tough at 5am, I did them...then went back to bed. So, tonight, I'm putting the alarm in the bathroom along with my workout gear. This way I won't have an excuse to fall back to sleep. <BR> <BR> I then went to Dunkin Donuts to get a breakfast sandwich. I got to work, munched on it as I logged it in my nutri... Mon, 21 Mar 2016 21:33:37 EST Getting Ready I just noticed the leaders of the Teddy Bear team (love my bears!) have received their invites to the 2016 Spring Teddy Bear team as part of the 2016 Spring 5% Challenge. It is kind of bittersweet for me, as I know I'll be a Teddy Bear still, just not the CL this time around. I know that this was the best decision for me in the long run because I had been doing it now for 3 years. That's a lot over a long period that spanned 12 challenges. <BR> <BR> But I needed the rest. The break. I neede... Sat, 19 Mar 2016 21:51:59 EST Overcoming Medication Side-Effects and Weight Gain Since July, I have been having a hard time with gaining weight. I was hospitalized the last week of June due to depression, and was subsequently put on a slew of new drugs. Unfortunately, some of them had a negative side-effect of weight gain. Most notably Remeron. How did I know this was it? I gained more than 10 lbs in less than a month. <BR> <BR> After the doctor finally took me off the offending drug, I then had an issue of an injury to deal. I saw 12 doctors for about 20 doctor visits,... Sat, 28 Nov 2015 10:21:14 EST A Furbaby Prayer I just got off the phone with my furbaby's veterinarian. Sampson had been at the vet for his annual wellness visit, which meant blood work. Unfortunately, the ALP liver enzyme came back 10 times higher than it should be. Her first concern was Cushing's Disease; however, he has none of those symptoms. He appears healthy and happy. But he is also over 10 years old. One of the possibilities is that he had been on steroids for about a month during allergy season. But it has been a month since I'v... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 19:01:25 EST What does fitness look like to me I've been struggling lately. Earlier this year, I was the picture of health. Losing weight at a maintainable pace. Getting toned and fit. But then I got sick and it all fell apart. Since being hospitalized in June, I've regained 30 lbs of the 50 I had lost. Heartbreaking and deflating to say the least. <BR> <BR> But now that there is an end in sight, I need to start thinking about and visualizing what fitness looks like to me. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Sun, 18 Oct 2015 10:56:27 EST Could it be the food? As most of you know from previous blog posts, I had signed up for Nutrisystem. I purchased a month's worth of dry and frozen foods. The second day on the diet, my abdomen started hurting all of the sudden, and not just an ache, but a serious sharp pain. I told my psychiatrist about it, and she was adamant that I stop the program. <BR> <BR> Well, I didn't and I still had been eating the food (even though it is disgusting, I don't want to waste it). And the pain is still there and intensifying... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 14:46:36 EST Three weeks and I'm over it! Okay, my past blog was written at the 2 week point of my issues with pain. Today, I'm nearing the 3 week mark and still no relief or resolution for the pain. Yesterday I had a colonoscopy performed on me and it came back normal. Nothing there was triggering the pain. <BR> <BR> So, I've left another message plea to my PCP asking if there might be any other causes for this type of pain. Some friends have wondered if it were a gluten or wheat allergy/intolerance that I might be facing. But th... Fri, 9 Oct 2015 10:49:57 EST Two weeks...getting old Here I am in week two of being in severe pain. I've gotten to the point where I "tolerate" it and go on living life. I just ask people to not make me laugh, because it hurts so bad it makes me cry when I laugh. <BR> <BR> I've now been to the doctor 7 times since a week ago Monday (6 + trip to hospital for CT Scan): <BR> <BR> Monday 9/21: PCP & Hospital for CT Scan <BR> Wednesday 9/23: ER <BR> Friday 9/25: ER <BR> Monday 9/28: PCP then Urgent Care <BR> Wednesday: 9/30: OB/GYN <BR> <BR> All... Fri, 2 Oct 2015 22:07:59 EST You told me so... Yes, you all warned me, but I still did it anyway. I signed up for a month of Nutrisystem. And let me just say, that is all they will be getting from me. From poor to mediocre foods that lack taste to the fact it costs well over $500 a month. It doesn't include everything you need to have a healthy diet. They only include the 3 meal entrees and one dessert. Nothing more. It is up to you to supply your own fruits and vegetables for each meal. <BR> <BR> Compared to the program I was on before... Tue, 29 Sep 2015 19:04:16 EST The chains that bind us Why be shackled by your past when you can set free to experience what lies in today and tomorrow. Your past may have sculpted you into who you are today, but if you continue to hid behind those things, you continue to be chained to it until you see that those things are not what are hindering you, but you yourself hold the key to set yourself free. What are you waiting for? Unlock those shackles of shame and pain. Leave them in the past and take a new step into a new direction...a new life. H... Sun, 27 Sep 2015 00:19:20 EST Side-lined, yet again It's been a bad week. A VERY bad week. After an absolutely wonderful weekend where the sun shined, I rode my bike and ate healthy, it all fell apart at 2 am on Monday morning. At first I thought the stabbing burning pain in my abdomen was a result of using unused muscled during my bike ride. So I took Tylenol and went back to bed. 8 am rolled around and I was calling into work because the pain was that bad. <BR> <BR> Later that morning, I called my doctor's office and they took me immediatel... Fri, 25 Sep 2015 10:20:41 EST Take it easy I'm a big fan of the Eagles. I bought my first Eagles cassette (yes, cassette) when I was in junior high. Their music to me transcends generations. But as I grow older, I find many of their songs focusing on the older single ladies. <BR> <BR> Desperado is one that comes to mind the most. I used to love listening to my aunt sing this beautiful ballad as I grew up. She sang in a band while her husband played the bass. This was the song where the rest of the band would step down and let her hav... Tue, 22 Sep 2015 16:53:51 EST Oh, what a beautiful morning! Oh, what a beautiful day! I've got a wonderful feeling, everything is going my way... <BR> ~from the musical Oklahoma! <BR> <BR> Today, I started my new lifestyle changes! Yes, I'm starting a week early with the new 5% challenge starting next weekend, but after stepping on the scales yesterday morning, I felt it was time to make changes TODAY! <BR> <BR> So, I started the Fast 5+ portion of the Nutrisystem diet program. So far, so good. I'm a little hungry, but I did just eat and they do say wait 30 minutes. For fit... Sun, 20 Sep 2015 14:22:43 EST Pre-challenge Activity #: Exercise Plan Well, it's that time of the Fall season for the 2015 Fall 5% Challenge to begin. But, before we take off, there are a few pre-challenge activities that need to be addressed first. Like today, my exercise plan and commitment. I've already updated my SparkPage a week ago, so it is only natural that I just blog about my plan. <BR> <BR> Here it goes: <BR> <BR> * 6 days a week cardio (30 to 45 mins): Elliptical, swimming, treadmill, bicycle <BR> * 3 days a week strength/circuit training (30 to 4... Thu, 10 Sep 2015 14:25:00 EST I need some advice I need you, my fellow sparkers, to give me some advice. I'm looking for a healthy weight loss plan that is not a strain on my pocket book. I had been participating in a program called The Onion Factory for the past year. Problem is, I'm spending $145 a week on food alone. Sure, it is all healthy, freshly prepared foods (they make them daily, you pick up daily), and includes fresh fruits and veggies/salads, it is just way too expensive. Especially since it is 45 minutes away from my home. I wa... Mon, 7 Sep 2015 21:45:06 EST Sunday Night Musings: 9/6/2015 - Swim, Forest, Swim! 34 years ago I found a new passion: swimming! And, boy, was I good at it. Our family lived in a neighborhood that had a pool, so I was constantly in the pool building up my swim prowess. I had great strength in my arms to pull me effortlessly through the water. It just seemed so easy and effortless to do back then. <BR> <BR> Fast forward a few years into my Sophomore year of high school. I was on the team and battling my coach. I could never do anything to please her, and it just broke my s... Sun, 6 Sep 2015 22:08:39 EST Friday Night Musings: 9/4/2015 (Labor Day Weekend) Here it is...the long awaited celebration of summer's end. Summer was cruel to me this year. I filed for bankruptcy after a struggle with manic/depression landed me in the hospital for a week and off work for 2 weeks. I was literally one paycheck away from it, and here I am...3 days after my court appearance that left me feeling devastated. <BR> <BR> The good news is that I got to keep my home and my car. My sanity doesn't seem to be quite there, and work isn't helping. My bank of 8 years re... Fri, 4 Sep 2015 22:39:14 EST I did it!!!! And I wasn't even the slowest turtle on the course! In fact, there were people still on the course as I was leaving. And I was there for a good 30 to 45 minutes after I finished. I feel fabulous (aside from all my muscles screaming at me)! And I have to say it is well worth it! <BR> <BR> If you want to have fun while getting in shape, start signing up for 5k's and invite your friends to join you. The more, the merrier. Put a tutu on over your race shorts, wear a tiara, and put on your best s... Sun, 30 Aug 2015 19:31:36 EST I may be a turtle...BUT! It's Saturday and I have a 5k I'm participating in today called the Foam Glow (mentioned in a previous blog post). I'm looking so forward to it, even if I am going to be the turtle on the race course. You see it has been at least 5 years since I've participated in a 5K race. And then I'm only a walker, not a runner. <BR> <BR> But it isn't so much about relating to being a turtle, it is more about the fact that I'm doing it. I've paid my dues, I have accountability for being there, and I'm o... Sat, 29 Aug 2015 10:53:09 EST Baby Steps: First Step I know they say baby steps in getting back to being healthy, but a friend is dragging me kicking and screaming (okay, so they are more like squeals of joy) to a Foam Glow 5K here in Indy this Saturday night. I won't be running, but I'll be walking and hopefully I won't poop out too soon. I know 3 miles isn't a big deal to most walkers, but I've been out of commission for 8 weeks! That's a long time in fitness world (just look at my waistline for that one)! <BR> <BR> If you are interested in ... Thu, 27 Aug 2015 21:34:13 EST I Can Do It Back on June 25th, I was admitted to the hospital and was there for a weeklong stay. I had hit a wall and could no longer function. I had given up and I made an attempt on my own life. I felt like there was no hope left in me. I was at an impasse in my life and all I wanted was to be free of the burdens that were facing me. <BR> <BR> After I was released, I was told to hold off on any strenuous exercise for 6 to 8 weeks. I unfortunately took that to heart and became a couch potato. I could h... Wed, 26 Aug 2015 14:08:40 EST