MUSHCAT's SparkPeople Blog MUSHCAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community I can't believe it's already mid July. Hello, Spark Friends! <BR> <BR> I never believed when as a young girl my grandmother would tell me that the older you get the faster time passes. I am now finding it to be all too true. <BR> <BR> I have made absolutely no progress on my weight loss, yet I am happy. However, I have some extra incentive now that I booked a trip to Maine for two weeks ing September to visit my mom. Looking forward to it immensely. <BR> <BR> Migraines still punctuate my life, but I have learned to deal with th... Fri, 19 Jul 2013 22:39:14 EST So it's been a month... I haven't lost any weight, but I am stepping up my physical activity. I am getting obsessed with gardening and have found lots of time to work outside afternoon and evenings, and some recent cool and overcast days. <BR> <BR> I am really excited about developing my gardens. I will be planting five heirloom rose bushes this weekend. I selected a variety of colors that include crimson, hot pink, peachy orange, white, and a silvery purple. My blueberries are blosomming. My established wild rose ... Thu, 6 Jun 2013 00:26:03 EST So I can't walk and chew gum at the same time. So many goals, so little I can do at the same time. If I focus on one area, I seem to neglect another. <BR> Perhaps almost two decades of migraines and the hundreds of drugs taken to combat them have simply rotted my brain. Or did menopause do that? <BR> <BR> No matter the cause, it is what it is...and I'm alright with it. <BR> <BR> Winston Churchill said, "Success is going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm." <BR> <BR> By Churchill's definition, I am most certainly a resou... Fri, 3 May 2013 21:35:36 EST Evaluating my progress on the goals I set for 2013 I'll make this short, but not too sweet. <BR> <BR> I eagerly stayed on track to meet my desired goals for the year until mid February. My mom visited me for 10 days, and I fell off the healthy diet and exercise wagon. I have yet to climb back on. I have easily put on 10 pounds. On the bright side, tomorrow is a new day, and I'm still down 10 pounds from where I started. <BR> <BR> On the really, really bright side...I am happy. I am having the time of my life volunteering at the aquarium. I ... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 23:09:04 EST A Shark Named Fluffy If I ever write my memoirs or create an inspirational blog or anything of that sort, this would be the title of it. A Shark Named Fluffy. I met her a few months ago. <BR> <BR> I am a volunteer as an aquarist's assistant in the quarantine building of the Denver Downtown Aquarium. I must mention here that I am 51 years old. While I give thanks to God for granting me this most magnificent and fufilling opportunity, I still lament becoming an accountant instead of a marine biologist. When I was ... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 23:03:22 EST Denver Aquarium pics I volunteer as an aquarist assistant once a week at the Downtown Denver Aquarium. It is one of the best aquariums in the nation. <BR> <BR> I took my neighbor and good friend, Debbie, to see the aquarium yesterday. We had a wonderful time and practically spent all day there. I took a very few pics, not enough to do the aquarium justice. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> A few seahorses <BR> <img src=" Sat, 16 Mar 2013 00:33:47 EST New hairstyle pic <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So is it a <em>250</em> or <em>42</em> <em>38</em> Fri, 8 Mar 2013 14:24:16 EST I related to this article I thought I would share this article, as I found it helpful and plan on keeping it handy to refer <BR> <BR> Having lots of fun with my mom, but I am worn out. I would like to do nothing more than nothing today, but there is a list of things to accomplish today. Still aiming to take it as easy as possible. Don't need a migraine keeping me from volunteering at the aquarium tomorrow. <BR> <BR> <link><BR>-are-you-using-food-as-a-form-of-punis<BR>hment/?utm... Mon, 18 Feb 2013 12:54:34 EST Here...kitty,kitty,kitty! Having a wonderful time with my mom. Enjoyed mani-pedis today. <BR> <BR> Yesterday we went to the Denver Downtown Aquarium where I volunteer one day a week. The crown jewel there is the tiger exhibit featuring four Sumatran tigers. I got us "behind the scenes" of the tiger exhibit. We learned about how they train the tigers and one of the handlers hand-fed the tiger through the cage. They put chicken on a stick and let us feed the tiger a few pieces each. <BR> <BR> The tiger is just like a ... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 22:06:42 EST Exhausted but excited! My mom is coming to visit tomorrow. I've always kept the house acceptably clean, but I have been ignoring the basement entirely. That is the area my where my mom will be sleeping. Anyhow, even though I started the heavy cleaning last week...including washing walls, light fixtures, the inside of the refrigerator, kitchen cabinets, etc...I still exhausted myself finishing up by vacuuming everywhere, washing all the floors, and doing two loads of laundry. <BR> <BR> I didn't get to do a total d... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 20:29:30 EST 2/8/13 - Sidetracked I have neglected housework for so long that I am under the gun to get the house in as good a shape as I would like. I know my mother is not coming to see my house...and she isn't the best housekeeper either. Still, as I have been cleaning I am dismayed at how I have been oblivious to some of the grime. <BR> <BR> For instance, I washed walls today because they were marred and dingy. I cleaned the refrigerator interior. Yes, I have three cats...but how I can not eliminate cat hair inside the ... Fri, 8 Feb 2013 22:04:21 EST 2/5/13 - I still smell dead fish I was able to do my volunteer shift at the aquarium today. The feeding schedule was changed, so I am doing more food prep and feeding in the main building. I handled a lot of stinky dead fish today and my latex gloves kept ripping. Even though I have washed repeatedly and applied a mildly scented body lotion, I can still smell dead fish. Oh, well. It's the price I pay to feed the sea turtles and sharks. <BR> <BR> Today I got to feed the nurse sharks. Because they aren't very active, they onl... Wed, 6 Feb 2013 01:10:29 EST 2/2/13 - Success! Tonight we went out to one of my most favorite restaurants offering a five course meal. The food is really superb. The last time we went there I ate every bite and waddled out of the restaurant feeling overstuffed and sleepy. Tonight I told myself that just a few bites of each dish is sufficient, and indeed it was. <BR> <BR> I didn't exercise this morning, but decided I really needed to work exercise time in before going out. It was truncated at only 30 minutes, but much better than nothing!... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 23:59:07 EST 1/31/13 - Goal Update How I did on my daily goals in January <BR> <BR> - Daily devotional 31/31 days <em>248</em> <BR> - Daily love note expounding on 365 ways I love DH 31/31 <em>248</em> <BR> - Daily exercise 21/ 31 days for 1,110 fitness minutes <em>380</em> <BR> - Eat in moderation 20/30 days <em>230</em> <BR> - Daily Bible reading with DH <em>248</em> <BR> - Daily housework 31/31 <em>248</em> <BR> -Work on a painting 0/31 <em>42</em> <BR> <BR> As a whole, I give myself a big <em>244... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 19:34:52 EST 1/26/13 - Gratitude for the flow of life I have been reading a lot of devotional, inspirational, and self-help material. Tonight I read this and it really struck a chord in me. <BR> <BR> "Visualize yourself standing at the mouth of the mighty Mississippi River, shouting, 'Stop! Reverse course. Please flow upstream today.' are not going to take this suggestion seriously. In our own lives, we make equally unreasonable demands of the universe on a daily basis. We try to push the river and wonder why it doesn't start flowing ups... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 23:12:17 EST 1/24/13 - Dear Friends Dear Friends, <BR> <BR> I have been working so hard towards my goals that I feel I have been neglecting my SparkFriends. I am seeking balance in my life, and I am teeter-tottering as I work on achieving that balance. <BR> <BR> Please know, dear friends, that I am gathering strength from all your comments. I am striving for the time that I am not so needy and can give back to all of you. <BR> <em>304</em> for being there for me as I build my strength. <BR> <em>247</em> <em>247</em> ... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 00:12:57 EST 1/22/13 - A few pics from the aquarium today Yesterday when I crawled into bed, I realized I forgot to post my blog. Although there was nothing really remarkable, it was a <em>8</em> day. <BR> <BR> Today was my third day volunteering at the aquarium (once weekly.) I feel very at home there and my confidence is growing. Here are a few pics taken on my phone, so not good quality. <BR> <img src=""> <BR> This is Leo. He is the dominant sea turtle. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 20:50:20 EST 1/20/13 - Maintaining ground I was able to get out of my funk yesterday and enjoy a pleasant lunch and movie with DH. Thankfully, during lunch he decided he wanted to skip last night's company party. I was glad; I really didn't feel up to going. <BR> <BR> I chose to rest my body today. Back on the gerbil wheel tomorrow, though. I'm holding ground, meeting goals regularly, and am satisfied with my progress through the new year thus far. I've given myself 16 <em>8</em> days out of 20. I think I at least earned Miss Con... Sun, 20 Jan 2013 20:55:39 EST 1/19/13 - Very unhappy with myself right now I don't know know where my inner strength is hiding, but I am highly frustrated. <BR> <BR> I got up and did my daily devotional, had breakfast, and did 60 minutes of exercise. I should be basking in the glow of an accomplished feeling. Instead I am feeling fat and unattractive. <BR> <BR> Today is DH's birthday and I should be expressing my affection for him. Instead I just had an emotional outburst over a very trivial matter. <BR> <BR> Tonight his company is having an employee appreciatio... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 14:03:53 EST 1/18/13 - I struggled and overcame God is challenging me. I am struggling to meet these challenges. <BR> <BR> I have met all my goals and give myself a <em>8</em> <BR> <BR> I am ready to place my head on my pillow and rest. <BR> Fri, 18 Jan 2013 22:39:38 EST 1/17/13 - Another day of extreme fatigue Not a gold star day...I felt better than yesterday, but still extremely fatigued. I used that as an excuse and also made many other ones to not exercise today. I am making a promise to myself and asking you, my spark friends, to hold me accountable that I exercise tomorrow. Thu, 17 Jan 2013 20:58:45 EST 1/16/13 - Today I had to give myself a free pass I knew last night that I was tired. When I awoke this morning feeling like I had been run over by a bus, I realized that a day of rest was essential. I don't feel the least bit of guilt for taking the day off. I even give myself a <em>8</em> because I did. I am learning to really listen to my body and subconcious. Hopefully, I will wake up enerized tomorrow. <BR> <BR> Sweet dreams, my friends. Wed, 16 Jan 2013 21:59:42 EST 1/15/13 - Fun but exhausting day I awoke this morning with a moderate headache, so went back to sleep for a while. It was tempting to stay in bed until the absolute last minute before I needed to get up, but I didn't want to create anxiety by having to rush. I like to ease into my day. I spent my quiet time with God, had breakfast, then got ready to go to the aquarium. <BR> <BR> Today I did my weekly 4 hour shift of volunteering at the aquarium. I am still new at this, having started just last week. However, my supervisor ... Tue, 15 Jan 2013 21:02:27 EST 1/14/13 - A big gold star day <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <em>8</em> <BR> I am sitting here relaxing. That's right...RELAXING. Something I forgot how to do long ago. Something as elusive as a butterfly being chased in a meadow. Yet, today as I watched my fish and frogs move about the aquarium, I realized I achieved relaxation. <BR> <BR> I credit my daily devotional time with God for this miracle. Each morning I have been drawing peace, calm, strengt... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:07:30 EST 1/12/13 - Denver Broncos lost, but a gold star day for me Got back on track today after a migraine sidelined me for 2 days. All goals met...I give myself a <em>8</em> I've got 10 out of 12 <em>8</em> days. <em>104</em> Sat, 12 Jan 2013 20:52:03 EST 1/10/13 - I knew this day would come I succomed to a migraine today and failed to meet many of my daily goals. Even though I knew it was inevitable, I was hoping it would be later, not sooner. As long as I get back to healthy living as soon as I recover instead of falling down and taking a long time to get back up I'll be ok. This is a marathon, and not a sprint. I know I can't run full throttle all the time. Thu, 10 Jan 2013 20:33:42 EST 1/9/13 - Still on a streak! Once again I achieved a <em>8</em> day. However, I struggled to stay motivated. I keep envisioning no more tight pants, being able to look at myself in the mirror while naked and like what I see, but still accept and love myself as I am a work in progress. <BR> <BR> I had a difficult day as far as headaches and no energy, but I pushed through it. I exercised 75 minutes today. I was aiming for 90, but I still consider what I did phenomenal in light of how bad I feel. <BR> <BR> I truly ho... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 20:48:58 EST 1/8/13 - Aquarium fun and a gold star day I met all my goals for today and give myself a <em>8</em> <BR> <BR> Today was my first day as an aquariast assistant at the Denver Downtown Aquarium. I have much to learn, but I am really going to enjoy this. <BR> <BR> I got to hand feed two gigantic sea turtles and assist on the feeding of two zebra sharks. There was no feeding frenzy behavior...these guys actually have to be enticed to eat. I guess that's because they are well fed on a regular basis to keep them from eating their tan... Tue, 8 Jan 2013 21:47:26 EST 1/7/13 goals for the day - I'm on a 7 day streak and counting! My motivation is remaining strong, thus far, and I have all the confidence that I will keep this streak alive. Here is what I accomplished today, which is progress for me. <BR> <BR> Daily devotional <em>248</em> <BR> Creative love note for DH <em>248</em> <BR> Vacuuming, 2 loads laundry, cleaned out the refrigerator, put away Christmas decorations and more <em>248</em> <BR> 60 minutes on gazelle <em>248</em> <BR> Stay on track with diet <em>248</em> <BR> Read Bible and pray wi... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 21:01:32 EST 1/6/13 goals for the day - Faith in the Future My goals were not lofty for today, because I primarily wanted to relax. I am presently doing that, having accomplished what little I set out to do, with a big bonus. <BR> <BR> Daily devotion, reflection, and refreshment <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Faith in the Future...something I have been seeking out the majority of my adult life. During my daily devotional time I ran across this article: <BR> <link><BR>h-in-future.html?utm_source=feedburner<BR>&utm_me... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 16:26:14 EST 1/5/13 goals for the day - Moderate success It is hard to set goals when I am in the midst of a migraine and all I want to do is stay in bed. But I will carry on, as everyone must do in life. <BR> <BR> Baby steps, baby steps will get me through the day. <BR> Baby steps, baby steps until this migraine goes away. <BR> <BR> Daily devotional <em>248</em> <BR> Love note for DH <em>248</em> <BR> 30 minutes on the gazelle <em>248</em> <BR> Errands <em>248</em> <BR> Read inspirational book throughout the day <em>248</em> <BR>... Sat, 5 Jan 2013 12:10:25 EST 1/4/13 goals for the day - It was a struggle I feel like I am staying on track, but it's only 3 days into the new year. Doubt is creeping into my mind about whether I can keep this up for the entire year and beyond. I am replacing those doubts with a positive attitude that I will certainly succeed. After all, I am in control of what I consume and how much I exercise on any given day. So, here are tomorrow's goals. <BR> <BR> Another love note for DH. I am doing a "How do I love thee, let me count the ways" theme. Each day I use the comp... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 22:38:09 EST 1/3/13 goals for the day - 7 out of 9 met! Get up early with DH and create his love note <em>248</em> <BR> Reflect on and renew my spirit <em>248</em> <BR> Exercise 55 min. on Gazelle and 5 on recumbant exercise bike <em>248</em> <BR> Put away Christmas decor <em>248</em> <BR> Enjoy my mani-pedi <em>248</em> <BR> Go to yoga class - mani/pedi took 3 hrs today instead of 2, so I missed class <em>245</em> <BR> Track my food <em>248</em> 1303 calories <BR> Read Bible and pray with DH <em>248</em> This is turning out... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 21:40:41 EST 1/2/13 goals for the day - Revisited <em>244</em> I met all my goals for January 1. I am aware that without constant nourishment, my level of motivation can not survive. My daily devotional time will give me lots of nourishment and keep me thriving. <BR> <BR> Time to set my goals for tomorrow...Jan. 2 <BR> <BR> 1. Design a love note on the computer for DH and put it on the cover of his daily reference manual for work. <em>248</em> <BR> 2. Contemplate God, my life, and the ways I can be the best Christian that I can. <em>... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 22:51:31 EST 1/1/13 goals for the day - Gold Star Day! Daily devotional/inspiration/morning prayer <em>248</em> <BR> 60 minutes on the Gazelle <em>248</em> <BR> Do not overindulge in food or alcohol <em>248</em> <BR> Do a load of laundry <em>248</em> 2 loads! <BR> Evening Bible study and prayer <em>248</em> <BR> <BR> Small beginnings lead to great endings. <BR> <BR> I will edit this post tomorrow evening with respect to how well I met these goals. <BR> <BR> I also did the monthly maintenance on the aquarium today. <em>243</em> ... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 22:29:24 EST HERE WE GO! 2013 GOALS These are fluid and fluctuating goals, to be evaluated and reevealuated again and again. This ia a list of ideals to strive for. I am human and will struggle and most likely fail at many of them. But that doesn't mean I am a failure. I am challenging myself to be a better person and not be satisfied with the status quo. I am identifying areas where I want growth in my life...and perhaps I should copy and paste this list into each and every blog so I can keep my focus. <BR> <BR> Give Gary a... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 21:29:32 EST Knowing vs. Understanding the Definition of Insanity Most all of us are familiar with the quote from Albert Einstein that says the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Of course, I know the addage, but I didn't realize until today that I never truly understood it or embraced the idea. <BR> <BR> Today I read this, "With any lasting change comes the necessity to check out both the causes and effects of what is currently in play that makes the reality what it is right now. Rather tha... Mon, 31 Dec 2012 19:53:35 EST $2.39 motivation While blogging yesterday, it came to mind how well I used to be motivated by those little gold stars that we used to get for doing a good job in elementary school. I went out today and found a pack of gold star stickers for my calendar. I am going to affix one to each calendar day that I meet an acertained level of goals. <BR> <BR> OK, I have a LOT of goals I hope to achieve in 2013. I am still debating with myself the minimum standards I must achieve to get a gold star. I am even considerin... Sun, 30 Dec 2012 19:26:48 EST Will Someone Please Be my Accountability Buddy? I am creating a daily schedule for myself to follow in 2013. I am hoping this could help me achieve my goals and finally reach my desired weight and fitness levels. Although DH will encourage me and praise me for my progress, he would not be willing to be a daily or mutiple times a day cheerleader as needed. <BR> <BR> I will post the weekly schedule I hope to follow, and I'm thinking I will start a blog in the morning and edit it throughout the day to document my progress,or perhaps the lack... Sat, 29 Dec 2012 21:15:34 EST Exploring the concept of new year's resolutions I keep telling myself that it is futile to make new year's resolutions, because I never seem to maintain them in the long term. Maybe it's because I set the barre to high, setting myself up for inevitable failure. So it occured to me to come up with a resolution where at the end of 2013 I can say to myself, "You achieved your goal." <BR> <BR> To borrow from an old Army pitch, my one and only resolution is to "Be all that I can be." <BR> <BR> That one resolution covers every aspect of life... Tue, 25 Dec 2012 21:53:17 EST Suprisingly good day today Much to my disbelief, I got a migraine last evening that rapidly turned into the worst one I have had in easily over a year. I had to go to the ER for relief. Part of me started worrying that I wouldn't get over it, but a stronger part of me told myself that I wasn't going to let a migraine keep me from enjoying Christmas. It is <em>334</em> apparent that my stronger side won. <BR> <em>244</em> <BR> I was able to get up fairly early this morning and begin prep for Christmas brunch that... Mon, 24 Dec 2012 23:12:58 EST I'll be starting the new year with a splash! <em>134</em> <em>14</em> <em>201</em> <em>141</em> <em>134</em> <em>14</em> <em>201</em> <em>141</em> <BR> I will begin volunteering at the Denver Downtown Aquarium on January 8. I will be working about 4 hours every Tuesday afternoon in the quarantine facility. <BR> <BR> Every new specimen that will go on display must spend time in quarantine first. Any specimen currently on display that gets sick or stressed is rehabed in quarantine. This area also houses baby critte... Fri, 21 Dec 2012 16:07:52 EST A Truism That Hits Home With Me Many a man curses the rain that falls upon his head, <BR> And knows not that it brings abundance <BR> To drive away hunger. <BR> ~Saint Basil <BR> <BR> A lot of rain has fallen into my life. As a sheltered child I never could imagine the troubles I would face. <BR> <BR> But guess what? I have attained what I was searching for all my life...and I don't feel that I am worthy of this "pampered princess" lifestyle. <BR> <BR> Yes, I still curse some of the rain torrents that fall. But I am st... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 23:02:24 EST DON'T DO IT! DON'T stop believing in yourself. <BR> <BR> DON'T give up. <BR> <BR> DON'T quit ever. <BR> <BR> DON'T skip that workout because you are too tired, too stressed, or just don't feel it. <BR> <BR> DON'T have seconds, but do have a bite of dessert, if you want it. <BR> <BR> DON'T deny yourself because moderation is essential. <BR> <BR> DON'T let others define you. <BR> <BR> DON'T beat yourself up. <BR> <BR> DON'T dwell on the past. Move forward because the moment we have is all we can eff... Sun, 16 Dec 2012 00:28:50 EST This little light of mine, I'm gonna let it shine After much thought and valuable input from friends and family, I am feeling less stressed. <BR> <BR> Life is hard. Always has been. Always will be. My character, my attitude, my faith, and a true understanding of the Serenity prayer can help me accept what comes my way with grace. <BR> <BR> I must focus on the good, and always do what I perceive to be the right thing to be a positive force in life. There is a familiar proverb that says, "It is better to light one candle than to curse the da... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 20:03:39 EST Entirely overwhelmed and off track As if holiday stress isn't enough to deal with, I am struggling to deal with my ex-husband and his failure to fufill his court-ordered financial responsibility to my mother, and now the tragedy in Connecticut. I am ashamed to be human. <BR> <BR> I would welcome the end of the world because I am tired of living in this world that seems to have gone haywire. I have to wonder about so many past tragedies, wars, and disasters. Surely those surviving the Holocaust, The Great Depression, the dus... Sat, 15 Dec 2012 00:38:14 EST Hell hath no fury... Yes! I am a scorned woman. My ex-husband is still making my life miserable after more than 7 years. He still owes my mother a little over $600. REALLY? He couldn't pay off a $2000 debt in the past 7 years? Now he claims he is unemployed, homeless, and disowned by his family. <BR> <BR> OMG! These are the rantings of a crazy woman! I don't want to be that person. It just sticks in my craw that I gave 13 good years to this lowlife, and I am still allowing him to keep me up at night. We had no ... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 05:23:12 EST Are new year's resolutions futile? I want to resolve that in the new year I will transform into a new me. <BR> <BR> How many resolutions have I made and broken in my lifetime? <BR> <BR> The fact is that every morning I wake up is a new day and an opportunity to improve myself. <BR> <BR> The fact is I am who I am and zebras don't change their stripes. <BR> <BR> I want to be a better person than I am. I want to set goals and achieve them. I have failed myself so often I wonder if I still have what it takes to be successful.... Tue, 11 Dec 2012 21:45:14 EST I lost Hope, but I gained Joy Last night it got really cold here. It didn't dawn on me to adjust my aquarium heater, as I am a relatively new aquariast. When I got out of bed this morning I found the female angel fish, one of a mating pair, named Hope, dead. More than half of my community tank was in distress. <BR> <BR> I quickly diagnosed the crisis was caused by a low water temperature as we had the coldest night of the season last night. I set up the aquarium late in the spring, so I hadn't dealt with dropping tempera... Mon, 10 Dec 2012 22:19:23 EST BETWEEN THE PROVERBIAL ROCK AND A HARD PLACE The Moral of this Story: Never loan money to family <BR> <BR> It's nearly 3am and I can't sleep. My past life is wreaking havoc on my present one. <BR> <BR> My no-good ex and I had a broken down SUV and no money to fix it. My mom put the repair on her credit card with the agreement that we would be responsible for paying it off. Trying to make a long story short...we end up divorced before the loan is paid off, he keeps the SUV, and it is put into the divorce decree that my slimeball ex is ... Tue, 4 Dec 2012 05:34:51 EST