MUFFIY831's SparkPeople Blog MUFFIY831's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Getting Better Last night I took both a unisom and an ibuprofin, went to bed at 9PM, and didn't get up for 10 solid hours. I FEEL LIKE A NEW WOMAN! My back does still hurt a bit, but it feels a whole lot better than it did yesterday. <BR> <BR> I had my first (ever) chiropractor appointment this morning. He showed me a few exercises to strengthen some stabilizer muscles and then cracked my back from a few different angles and then sent me on my way. He seems like a very nice guy and he pointed out a few th... Tue, 25 Oct 2016 15:04:35 EST 4 Miles of Fun! Or Pain. Whatever. Yesterday, I did the Go Time Fitness Challenge. It's about a 4 mile course with (apparently, I didn't count) 25 fitness stations along the way. I knew the run would be OK. I also knew the stations would be OK as they're all things we do in boot camp. There's no way I could remember all 25, but some of them were: <BR> <BR> push-ups <BR> squat jumps <BR> crab walk <BR> sand bag carry (25 lbs) <BR> burpees <BR> leap frogs <BR> bag drag (25 lbs) <BR> balance beam <BR> chin ups (couldn't do it!) ... Mon, 24 Oct 2016 09:33:42 EST Surprise Calories! I'm counting calories. And doing Nutrisystem part time now. NS breakfasts are super easy. Grab something from the box or the freezer, add in some greek yogurt, and you're done for about 250 calories, tops. But last night we had a fundraiser for my dog rescue at Panera and I got dinner as well as breakfast for today. For dinner, a tomato mozzarella flatbread and a seasonal greens salad for a combined and respectable 540 calories. For breakfast this morning, a whole wheat bagel. <BR> <BR> Now... Thu, 20 Oct 2016 14:37:20 EST Frustration & Acceptance I know I'm doing the right things. I am counting calories, increasing my protein, lowering my carbs, exercising regularly, sleeping well, and I've built a shrine to the weight loss gods in my closet. OK that last part is a joke but seriously I know I am doing everything right. And the scale is moving. But it's taken about 12 weeks to lose 15 pounds. That is not exactly lightening speed. <BR> <BR> It's moving. But that doesn't mean I don't or can't get frustrated. A normal person doing what ... Wed, 19 Oct 2016 09:31:13 EST Funny Stuff I got bored on a conference call and started looking at Google Images. These are too funny not to share. <em>246</em> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <img src=" Tue, 18 Oct 2016 13:12:20 EST A Loss is a Loss is a Loss I went to visit family for a few days. Ate too much, but at least I ran 6 miles one day while I was there. It wasn't too off the rails except it was all restaurant meals and high fat and high sodium and not at all helpful for weight loss. But! At the end of the week, a loss is a loss is a loss, even if it is only 0.4 pounds after a gain last week and so still technically 0.4 up from two weeks ago. <BR> <BR> This is my progress so far. It is painfully slow, but at least that line is slightl... Mon, 17 Oct 2016 09:39:53 EST Busy Weekend & A Nutrisystem Buddy My BFF was in town this weekend. She and I have each had our weight struggles, but we're both doing pretty well right now. She showed up and opened the fridge and was surprised to find Nutrisytem meals everywhere. Turns out she's done it too, and is doing the same thing I am where she's incorporating real food back in so she's doing it about half time. We compared and contrasted our plans, as she's not a vegetarian, and she said there's lots of chicken but more variety than what I had in the ... Tue, 11 Oct 2016 09:45:55 EST Doggy Endurance Training I've been doing weekly short runs (2.3 miles) on Tuesdays. I have not been running with the dog lately because she lets her inner hound dog run wild and insists on sniffing every blade of grass. But she LOVES to run too. Usually when I've run with her in the past, her biggest problem is that I'm too slow. <BR> <BR> Turns out my girl is more of a sprinter than an endurance runner. :) <BR> <BR> I got a new jogging leash that ties around my waist so I can still have good running form. She di... Wed, 5 Oct 2016 12:48:42 EST Running My Butt Off (Eventually) There's a running group that meets every Saturday. Most of them are super hard core - fast little gazelles constantly training for another marathon or triathlon or something. Then there's me, who just needs a little motivation to get out of the house, and my buddy who is faster than I am but not a gazelle and will happily run with me at my pace just to get some exercise. We all meet in a parking lot and take off together, and then the gazelles are out of sight within about 2 minutes and my fr... Mon, 3 Oct 2016 12:09:52 EST My Mysterious Body (And Less Mysterious Photos!) I'm home from my first trip since rededicating myself to tracking calories and behaving and seriously working toward weight loss. <BR> <BR> I would have said it was a failure. First, every single meal I had to tell some waiter that a fish is not a vegetable, because they insisted that was the vegetarian option. Um, no. So then they'd finally take the fish away and come back with a plate (well, usually half a plate) of overcooked vegetables. And I mean OVERCOOKED. Nothing says yummy like hal... Fri, 30 Sep 2016 10:39:25 EST The 62-day Check-in It probably would have made sense to do this two days ago for a 60-day check-in, but what's life without a little randomness thrown in? <BR> <BR> Anyway, it's been 62 days now since I regrouped and restarted this process. The scale has been sporadic at best, but after a three week stall it appears to finally be down again, so I'll count this particular chicken before it's hatched and say I'm down just under 13 pounds. That's not too shabby. OF COURSE I wish it were faster, but that's just n... Fri, 23 Sep 2016 08:58:12 EST Annoyed. But trying to focus on the good. The scale is stuck for another week. This is three weeks in a row now. I am not happy. I know these plateaus are part of how my body works and eventually it will bend to my will. It's just taking too damn long. <BR> <BR> BUT. <BR> <BR> I am trying to stay positive here. So here's what I've noticed. <BR> <BR> 1. I have always had fat upper arms, so sometimes shirt sleeves are really tight. Last week I wore one that has always been tight, and I'm wearing another one today. They are less t... Mon, 19 Sep 2016 09:53:03 EST Fitness Challenge - Conquered!!! We have a few fitness challenges that we do sporadically with the goal being to improve your results over time. One of these challenges is the 5-4-3-2-1. You have about 55 minutes to do: <BR> <BR> 500 Jumping Jacks <BR> 400 Squats <BR> 300 Push-ups <BR> 200 Sit-ups <BR> 100 Burpees <BR> <BR> In the past, I have come close but never finished either the push-ups, the sit-ups, or both. The first time I did this challenge I think I probably got about 50% of the way there at best. <BR> <BR> Th... Fri, 16 Sep 2016 13:09:29 EST A Better Week ... So Far Last week, I had a (very small) gain. But the week before I miraculously lost 4 pounds so I wasn't too upset about it. Plus I know how my body works (or doesn't) and plateaus are just part of the game. This week, I'm doing much better on nutrition than last week, having now met my calorie goal three days in a row and I'm on track for today to be the 4th. <BR> <BR> I did a little unofficial check-in today and the scale is still stuck. I am trying really hard to use this as motivation to stic... Thu, 15 Sep 2016 10:23:39 EST About Cheese Before I went vegan, I always thought cheese would be the hardest thing to give up. I was right. I missed cheese! Then I'd travel or for some other assorted reason not have any vegan options and so I'd have some cheese and I'd think OMG YESSSSSSS I MISSED YOU! And then I'd come back home and go back to my vegan ways and I wouldn't miss it for a long time. <BR> <BR> Then I started Nutrisystem and it's basically all cheese all the time. I should love it. Because cheese! Instead ... and I swea... Tue, 13 Sep 2016 10:59:59 EST Shopping Trials & Tribulations I love shopping. Sort of. Sometimes. Saturday was not one of those days. <BR> <BR> The good news is I got a new industrial strength sports bra and I wore it today for burpees, running, jumping rope, and other jumping/cardio activities and I didn't get a black eye so SUCCESS! Being the marvel of engineering that it is, it's a total pain in the ass to get it on, but I didn't anticipate how much *more* difficult it would be to get it off when I'm a sweaty mess and it has glued itself to my bod... Mon, 12 Sep 2016 10:18:54 EST Another Gain Approaching Last week some sort of freak miracle happened and I lost four pounds. I was pretty damn excited, let me tell you. <BR> <BR> This week, well, I've done a few midweek check-ins and it seems to be up about 1-1.5 pounds. <BR> <BR> I'm not going to freak out. It happens. The overall trend is downward, and I'm still technically ahead of schedule since I've only 'budgeted' for about 1 pound per week. <BR> <BR> Maybe the scale had a ministroke and it was wrong last week. Maybe I'm retaining wat... Fri, 9 Sep 2016 09:21:33 EST A Likable Picture? Whatttttt? We use resistance bands at boot camp. Every once in awhile, if you pull too hard or it's super old, they snap. It doesn't happen a ton, but it's become a rite of passage. Today, I broke my first band and Mario insisted on a picture to commemorate my first time. I was kind of dreading it as it was at the end of class and BBC (Before Boot Camp) pictures are always better than ABC (After Boot Camp) pictures but I obliged. <BR> <BR> <img src=" Thu, 8 Sep 2016 09:57:31 EST The Dirty Double I've started running again. Slowly. Not that I have ever (EVER!) been fast, but slower even by my own turtle-like standards. I have a plan to train for this relay race, and it includes long runs on Saturdays and at least one speed/tempo run during the week. I intended to meet up with the local runners' club last night but i was late so I took the dogs for a short walk and then dropped them off and headed back out. <BR> <BR> I also went to boot camp in the morning. So, my first dirty double ... Wed, 7 Sep 2016 09:59:25 EST Thanks & Stickers First, thanks for all the kind words on my last post. You're the best! I think it's a lot easier to see changes on other people than it is on yourself. We are our own worst critics, right? <BR> <BR> So things are sailing along after a not terrible but not stellar (nutrition wise) holiday weekend. I had too much wine and too many snacks, but most of the snacks were grapes or from the veggie tray so it could have been much, much worse. It's just hard to properly track calories when you find y... Tue, 6 Sep 2016 12:54:57 EST 4 pounds? Whaaaaaatttt? My plan was to take a picture every 10 pounds. I was hoping that would be this week. But usually when I get my hopes up my body reminds me who's in charge and I end up disappointed. BUT NOT THIS WEEK. I was absolutely stunned to see a 4 pound loss this week. WOW! <BR> <BR> So here is a 12 pound before and after picture. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I don't see a huge difference, tbh, but I do see a little ... Sun, 4 Sep 2016 10:35:53 EST Running Through September First off, how the hell is it already September?! <BR> <BR> Anyway, I wanted to talk about running today. I've been saying for awhile now that I need to sign up for something longer than a 5K because I need something to train for. When I run on my own, I generally run 2-3 miles. When I run with the group on Saturdays, I up it to maybe 4, 5 max. I figured signing up for a fall 10K would be perfect. It'd force me to run more than my lazy self usually wants to do. <BR> <BR> Then this relay r... Thu, 1 Sep 2016 10:50:58 EST Beating Genetics My dad has been diabetic since I was a teenager. It's part of the reason I've attempted to stay active and healthy(ish), because I don't want to become a Type 2 diabetic and rely on insulin and face all the medical problems that can come along with the diagnosis. This weekend, I learned both my mom and my sister as also now diabetic. Both type 2. But my family is not exactly active and obesity and sedentary lifestyles contribute to diabetes just as much (if not more?) than genetic predisposit... Tue, 30 Aug 2016 10:04:38 EST The Gain. Well, it happened. i gained weight instead of losing it even though I was still working hard. <BR> <BR> But. <BR> <BR> It was 0.2 pounds. <BR> <BR> ZERO POINT TWO. <BR> <BR> It's OK. It's not ideal, but it's OK. Could be water. Could be hormones. Things fluctuate. Yes, I wish it had been -0.2, but whatever. I can move forward. <BR> <BR> The weekend was tough because I was out of town for most of it, but I went to a party and munched on snap peas and carrots (and one cookie) and I we... Mon, 29 Aug 2016 09:53:47 EST The Fear of the Gain Week 1: YIPPEE! <BR> Week 2: YIPPEE! <BR> Week 3: OH NO, A SMALLER LOSS THAN THE FIRST TWO, WOE IS ME. <BR> Week 4: YIPPEE! <BR> <BR> Now week 5 is underway and the scale hasn't moved down at all. In fact in a couple of mid-week sneak peaks, it's gone up. <BR> <BR> That is not the plan. <BR> <BR> I'll weigh in tomorrow instead of my usual Sunday since I'm heading down to visit family overnight. I'm going to be super duper extra good today food wise and just hope for the best, but mental... Fri, 26 Aug 2016 10:01:58 EST Planning The Year The first time I made a real effort to lose weight, I didn't track anything. I just started going to the gym regularly and eating 'better' for whatever definition of better I knew at the time. It was slow, but it worked. I think it partially worked because I was SO big my body was ready and it was easy (relatively speaking) to drop pounds. <BR> <BR> Then I learned more about nutrition and exercise and I do more and eat better now than I ever would have imagined back then. And I do know what... Tue, 23 Aug 2016 14:17:15 EST Success! And Then Recovery. Good news! Week four has me down another 1.8 pounds, bringing the 4-week total to 8 pounds. It might be a bit start-and-stop, but averaging 2 pounds per week is juuuuuuuuuust fine with me. I know this is going to take a long time, but I'll be healthier and happier and oh yeah thinner so it will all be worth it even if I get frustrated in the meantime. <BR> <BR> Speaking of frustration. Yesterday went a little - ok a lot - off track. I went to the grocery store in the morning and got my usua... Mon, 22 Aug 2016 10:53:57 EST Off Plan & On Track Which is much better than the other way around, no? <BR> <BR> For some reason, the last three days I have been fantasizing about ice cream. I resisted at first, but I firmly believe in the all things in moderation attitude, so yesterday I finally caved and got my ice cream. Yes, it put me over my calories for the day, but I picked the smallest and lowest calorie thing they had (a basic ice cream sandwich) and I had a smaller than normal dinner to help make up for it. I still went over my da... Fri, 19 Aug 2016 14:39:39 EST Disappointed, but Moving On ... A Lesson in Perspective I knew three pounds per week would not be sustainable. I knew seven pounds in two weeks was a freaking miracle. I knew it would slow down. I know how my body is, and how it reacts, and that there would be a pause and that's when I always get frustrated and eat junk food because 'it doesn't matter anyway.' <BR> <BR> And yet, here I am, incredibly disappointed that I *only* lost half a pound in week #3. Right on track in my never ending cycle of weight loss and gain. <BR> <BR> But you know ... Mon, 15 Aug 2016 09:57:19 EST I Feel Good (Say that like James Brown) <link><BR>nTy-v2M </link> <BR> <BR> It's been a long time since I've gone three weeks solid without going off the rails. And the best part is, I have gone out and gone out to dinner and had a glass of wine even, still without letting it get the best of me. The other night I met a friend for dinner and got a cup of vegetable soup and a side kale salad. No french fries, no dessert, no crazy fattening stupidity. I have gone over my 1500-calorie limit a cou... Thu, 11 Aug 2016 11:33:31 EST Huh. All that Mumbo Jumbo Works. What's the standard advice for losing weight? <BR> <BR> 1. Track your food. <BR> 2. Up your exercise. <BR> 3. Lower your calories. <BR> <BR> And whaddya know, it works! <BR> <BR> Some people can get away with not tracking. I ... am apparently not one of them. <BR> <BR> It's been just over two weeks since I've (re)started tracking every calorie I stuff into my face and started Nutrisystem. And I'm down 6 pounds as of Sunday. Losing three pounds in a week is basically unheard of for m... Tue, 9 Aug 2016 11:26:05 EST First Week Down! Snack Suggestions Needed! I have officially completed the Turbo10 portion - the first week - of Nutrisystem. I'm feeling pretty good! I started the program on Wednesday but I started eating right the Sunday before that. Sundays are my weigh-in days. I'm down 3 pounds, which is great! I took another peek this morning and for some reason it's still exactly the same but I'm not going to sweat it. I'm going to stick to Sundays only from now on to weigh in so I don't drive myself nuts. I know my body and I know it hangs on... Wed, 3 Aug 2016 08:42:41 EST My First Weekend on Nutrisystem (And Success!) I knew the weekends would be the hardest, because I am a creature of habit and weekends aren't nearly as structured. This weekend was no different, but the big news is I proved that i can roll with the punches and not screw it all up. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a fairly quiet day so it all went according to plan except the times of my normal meals were a bit off: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Harvest Nut Bar (better than I expected it to be!) with strawberries <BR> <BR> Snack (?) Does a drink count a... Sun, 31 Jul 2016 18:25:27 EST Halfway through week one! I have to admit, it's getting a little easier. I'm halfway through week one of Nutrisystem! I get to eat more after the first week, and get 'flex meals' so I'm really looking forward to Wednesday. :) <BR> <BR> Yesterday's Food: <BR> <BR> Breakfast: Cinnamon Raisin bar, with 1 cup of strawberries and 2 slices of tofurky <BR> <BR> AM Snack: Turbo Shake <BR> <BR> Lunch: White Cheddar Mac & Cheese, with a side salad <BR> <BR> PM Snack: Nutricrush Shake, 5 strawberries, and two slices of tof... Sat, 30 Jul 2016 16:40:14 EST Day 2 Isn't there a thing they say about AA, like "you gotta work the program?" That's pretty much how I'm feeling about Nutrisystem. Day 2 is in the books, and to give myself a little added push I've printed out and posted some motivational signs around the house. <BR> <BR> On my bathroom mirror: <BR> <img src=""> <BR> (It says "You don't get the ass you want by sitting on it.") <BR> <BR> On the fridge: <BR> <img s... Fri, 29 Jul 2016 10:40:10 EST Nutrisystem, Day 1 I have been gaining and losing the same 15 pounds or so since around 2005. I feel good when I get to the bottom of the 15, and then sabotage myself and end up at the top of the 15, and then I see that number and kick it back into gear. I have been doing this for so long it's not even conscious anymore. But something went awry and this time I blew 10 pounds past my 'oh sh!t' weight and now have officially started Nutrisystem. As of yesterday. <BR> <BR> It's going to work. Following this plan... Thu, 28 Jul 2016 10:57:31 EST A Grand, Expensive Experiment. Let's start by saying that I have generally been against things like Nutrisystem because I always felt like it didn't teach you anything. Sure, eat their food and follow the plan exactly and you're likely to lose weight, but then what? You'll be on it forever? Or you'll regain it all once you go off it because you'll start eating 'normal' food again and you never learned how to cook for yourself, how to portion control your own meals, how to be part of society and go out to dinner without blo... Tue, 26 Jul 2016 11:23:05 EST Fat. Depressed. Back in the Saddle. Oh hey, strangers! Sup? <BR> <BR> The day of reckoning has come. I'm at my highest weight in a long time. I'm unhappy about it. And I'm ready to do something about it. <BR> <BR> How did I get here? I let some old habits come crawling back into my life. Short and sweet, I'm eating too much crap. Cookies and ice cream are the biggest culprits. But also some pizza, some Chipotle, some Chinese food, some whatever-sounds-good-at-the-time. Some adds up to a lot. <BR> <BR> But I exercise! Why ... Tue, 28 Jun 2016 09:19:29 EST No Crazy Promises. Just Forward Progress. How many times have I done this? The mea culpa blog entry. I've gained weight, but this time I mean it! I'm going to exercise 97 times per week and only eat kale and tofu! And I do. For like 2 weeks. And then things go back to normal. <BR> <BR> This time, no crazy promises to myself. <BR> <BR> I got back from vacation on Saturday, 30 April. Sunday was therefore 1 May, and an excellent time for a rethink on the diet. I went to the grocery store for all vegan food except for my lunch that h... Mon, 2 May 2016 11:13:26 EST Planning & Plotting & Running I haven't run all winter. At least not outside, or more than about a mile and a half. I bought a treadmill but it turns out I don't like running on it so the only running I've done is circles around the boot camp warehouse. But spring is about to spring. Race season is starting. Half my friends are well into training for their half marathons and 10 milers and full marathons. <BR> <BR> I am inspired. And moderately guilty, but it's not like I haven't been doing ANYTHING, I just haven't been ... Mon, 7 Mar 2016 13:12:26 EST TMI, but kinda funny too I have talked before about my PCOS ( <link><BR>ary-syndrome-pcos-topic-overview </link> ) but one of the wonderful things about it is that I don't have regular periods. In fact, I haven't had one in about a year. Then, last week, I got cranky and irritable and OMG CHOCOLATE. I have been eating basically everything in sight, and all I want is burgers and fries and chocolate and everything salty and sugary. <BR> <BR> Do you see where this is going? Because ... Fri, 19 Feb 2016 11:40:20 EST Today's HIIT Insanity (Dubbed CardiOHMYGOD) This morning it was about 14 degrees Fahrenheit when boot camp started with some insane wind chill making it feel like minus 298340982343 (give or take). Tom says, "Well, today was supposed to be a long run, but ... even I'm not that crazy. So instead we'll do a HIIT workout with 35 different exercises." It's 20 seconds on and 10 seconds off and it NEVER STOPS. And probably 10 of the 35 exercises were either burpees or modifications to burpees. <BR> <BR> Somehow this is less crazy? I was tr... Tue, 19 Jan 2016 09:13:38 EST Scales Are Stupid I'm feeling pretty good. My clothes are fitting better. A couple of people have commented that I look like I'm losing weight. I feel healthier, stronger, more active, on track. <BR> <BR> By my scale at home, I've lost 8 pounds. Then I went to the doctor yesterday, and their scale shows that I've lost 4 pounds. HALF? I felt defeated. Like I'm not making progress after all. That I'm wasting my time. <BR> <BR> But that's stupid. I AM making progress. I am losing weight. I am getting better a... Wed, 13 Jan 2016 08:55:49 EST Yes, This!!! <img src=""> This is going to be my new go-to response. Tue, 12 Jan 2016 08:51:56 EST Successes! Oh yeah, that's multiple successes. <BR> <BR> 1. I'm wearing my Limited size 12 skinny jeans for the first time in, I dunno, a year?! <BR> <BR> 2. I signed up for a two week trial of boxing and kickboxing - the kind where you actually get to hit and kick stuff. I went to my first class yesterday and several people told me they were impressed I made it through the whole class because lots of people don't. I loved it!!!!! It's very therapeutic, I think. :) <BR> <BR> 3. I did all my meal p... Mon, 11 Jan 2016 09:55:39 EST Merry Christmas to Me! A Treadmill! At my request, most of my family gave me Amazon gift cards for Christmas, and what did I do with them? <BR> <BR> THIS!! <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I'm planning to use it throughout the winter, and I'm hoping to get my lightning bolt of a dog on it too. :) <BR> <BR> I signed up for 2016 miles in 2016 with two friends so I'm obligated to do about 2 miles/day all year. This will help immensely on those col... Tue, 5 Jan 2016 11:55:11 EST Countdown to Vacation The good news is I've lost 8 pounds. <BR> <BR> The bad news is that's only about half of what I gained in the last 6 months or so. <BR> <BR> I'm starting off 2016 in the right direction. I go on vacation (bathing suits and all. ugh!) in three weeks. I'm not really one for new year's resolutions, but I do hereby resolve for the next three weeks: <BR> <BR> 1. No desserts. <BR> 2. No booze. <BR> 3. 90+% vegan whole foods. <BR> 4. Exercise (boot camp, running) 6 days/week. <BR> <BR> Three... Mon, 4 Jan 2016 11:19:01 EST 7-Day Detox One of my boot camp instructors has been sharing her 7-day detox plan. I've never done such a thing before and honestly I'm a bit skeptical about the whole idea, but when she posted a picture of the food for the week I realized it looked awfully vegan-friendly. Indeed, it's vegan, gluten-free, and sensible. Not just a 'drink grape juice for 7 days straight!' kinda thing. I get smoothies, soups, bean salads, nuts, seeds, etc. It's a crap ton of vegetables with some beans, brown rice, and quino... Mon, 9 Nov 2015 16:01:51 EST It Happened. Now How to Move On. 1. I haven't posted anything since July. Wow. <BR> <BR> 2. My last several posts have been f@#$1ing depressing. <BR> <BR> 3. This one might not be a whole lot better, but I am on a mission this time. <BR> <BR> So, remember the last few posts (probably not because they were a million years ago) when I said I was NOT GOING TO REGAIN A BUNCH OF WEIGHT IN THE FACE OF DEPRESSION? Yeah. That was a big fat - literally - lie. <BR> <BR> I have officially regained all 15 pounds I had lost. Gran... Tue, 27 Oct 2015 14:24:17 EST Regain = Refocus Despite my best intentions, I've let the 10 pounds I lost creep back on. I have lots of excuses, and some of them might even be moderately valid, but the bottom line is they (both the excuses and the pounds) need to go bu-bye. And stay gone. <BR> <BR> This is a pattern I've been repeating for so long - YEARS AND YEARS AND YEARS - that you'd think I'd learn by now, but I never seem to figure it out. I flirt with the size 10 clothes, and then I get complacent or lazy or whatever and BAM, hell... Thu, 30 Jul 2015 09:34:47 EST