MTNCLIMBER88's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MTNCLIMBER88 MTNCLIMBER88's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ The June Plan http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4908231 I'm not going to lie: I rarely buy fitness magazines for the articles. <BR> <BR> Or the workouts. <BR> <BR> Or the recipes. <BR> <BR> I buy them for the models. <BR> <BR> I like the models in fitness magazines. They're not bony and they don't ever appear overly airbrushed. Instead, they look strong. They have muscles to flex and abs to show off. They look capable of kicking butt and taking names. They're always smiling, whether they're doing yoga or weight lifting or trail running. They ... Sat, 2 Jun 2012 00:33:22 EST Musings http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4905685 I know my last blog had a really down-trodden feel. I was feeling a bit helpless and alone, and even though i didn't respond, I'm really thankful for all the support I received from my Sparkfriends. Unfortunately, I slipped back into the same dark pit that I'd just emerged from, which explains my subsequent absence. Recently I have had some time to think about where I was and what I needed, and for the past month or so I've been visiting this site more and more frequently. <BR> <BR> I reall... Thu, 31 May 2012 10:57:11 EST One Step Forward, Ten Steps Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840201 I need help, Sparkfriends. <BR> <BR> I'm slipping back into the abyss I emerged from not even a month ago. The one filled with depression and feelings of self-hatred and despair. <BR> <BR> I am not normally one to air my private feelings in public. My coworkers get the "happy me." So do my parents. I rarely even talk to Eric about what is going on inside my head. <BR> <BR> I've gotten to a point where I don't want to keep doing this to myself, but I don't know how to stop. I look for motiv... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 23:05:09 EST Day 8 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4826265 I have been fairly good this weekend, considering that Easter candy abounds (just not at my house!) and also that I have been with Eric for two straight days, which can make healthy eating a bit tricky. <BR> <BR> Food has been (fairly) good - a banana pancake for breakfast on Saturday, followed by a half of a chicken sandwich and low-sodium tomato soup for lunch and 2 beers, 3 stuffed mushrooms, 1 slice of pizza, and 1/3 of a slice of cake for dinner. Today I've eaten a homemade sausage and ... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 23:23:50 EST Day 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4821926 Just wanted to post a quick blog before I hop off to work. I am ALWAYS in a hurry these days... <BR> <BR> For the past five days I have been taking (almost) impeccable care of myself. It is showing already both on the scale and on my body. Oh, and my mood as well...my depression seems to have lifted, which means endorphins must be my wonder drug. On top of that, I JUST realized today that i woke up this morning without the chronic foot pain that has been plaguing me for quite some time. YAY!... Thu, 5 Apr 2012 13:35:10 EST Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4815101 I'm back, Sparkers! I have taken the last few months to transition myself into health, from watching what foods I eat to slowly incorporating exercise back in, and now my body is pleading for 100% commitment. And I feel like I'm ready! <BR> <BR> So where have I been? <BR> <BR> I've been very absent on Spark for a while, and I really appreciate all the thoughtful comments and check-ins from my friends here. I'm so sorry I didn't respond. The truth is, I was battling a round of mild depressio... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 14:21:02 EST My Theme Song http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4728113 <link>www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xn676-fLq7I </link> <BR> <BR> For those of you that haven't heard this song, it is amazing and so applicable to so many hurdles in life. Enjoy! Tue, 7 Feb 2012 23:50:19 EST Small Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4705320 January is going well for me, all things considered. I have been eating well and plugging along at school, and even though I haven't been able to work out regularly, I feel like the eating is enough for now. I haven't been out to each much, and I've noticed that I've gotten much better at regulating my intake. I find myself pushing my plate away more and more when there's still food on it, simply because I'm not hungry anymore. <BR> <BR> I have also been much better about taking my lunch to ... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 13:34:32 EST My Fitness Model Alter-Ego http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4697244 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l468025678.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Many of us imagine a life for ourselves. We see our better selves in our mind's eye: fit, strong, toned, skinny, running marathons and looking picture-perfect in bikinis, the envious healthy friend that everyone is drawn to. I'll be the first to admit that I spend more time on web sites like Pinterest (it's so good and yet so evil!,) looking at home decor and fitness inspiration, than I do actually working towards ... Sun, 22 Jan 2012 16:53:37 EST New Year's Revolution http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4659689 From dictionary.com: <BR> <BR> rev-o-lu-tion : noun <BR> <BR> 1. a sudden, complete, or marked change in something. <BR> 2. a procedure or course, as if of a circuit, back to a starting point. <BR> <BR> I want this year to be a revolution. Not the second kind of revolution, where you return back to your starting point. THAT was what 2011 was for - returning to my starting point (almost). Luckily I am a big believer of a few catch phrases: <BR> <BR> *What doesn't kill you makes you stronge... Thu, 5 Jan 2012 13:39:33 EST Thinking Ahead... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4650050 Happy New Year's, friends :) <BR> <BR> I love January 1st because it is the ultimate new beginning. While it is certainly true that you can start fresh on any day, the first day of a brand new year is special. <BR> <BR> I had a wonderful New Year's Eve. One of my coworkers, who is also a very good friend, has a family cabin in the woods about two and a half hours from here. It's tucked in a patch of trees in a pretty canyon carved out by the Rio Grande river, and six of us went there to ha... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 23:48:38 EST Oh Dear... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4624095 So while I may be done with being an ostrich, jumping in 100% is a little scary. The 30-day-shred/1200 calories/64+ oz water sets someone like me up for failure. It was a great plan, a plan I wish I could follow through with...but it's too much all at once. <BR> <BR> This week will be about being mindful. I need to think about what goes in my mouth. I need to think about moving more. I need to enjoy the time I have to myself now that I don't have class. I can make beautiful food and go for w... Tue, 13 Dec 2011 12:24:32 EST I'm Done Being An Ostrich http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4622731 That's it! I'm done burying my head in the sand and pretending that I haven't gained back nearly all the weight that I worked hard for over a year to drop. I'm done ignoring the fact that few of my clothes fit and my work scrubs are being stretched too tight. I'm done being an ostrich. <BR> <BR> I know I seem to have disappeared from Spark altogether, and I mostly did. I have logged my exercise once in the last four months, logged my food a couple times, searched for inspiring blogs. Mostly,... Mon, 12 Dec 2011 12:46:02 EST 3 Things http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4393716 #1: I am oh-so-proud of myself for doing back to back runs last night and this morning. Last night I ran along the river on the wonderful Animas trail in 86-degree weather at dusk, passing strolling couples and tourists eating on restaurant patios and people biking home from work. This morning I changed it up and ran up and down the two main business streets in Durango, starting with Main Avenue and moving up to 2nd Ave. While the overall vibe is sleepy at both dusk and dawn, the mornings are... Fri, 29 Jul 2011 09:54:35 EST THAT Girl Challenge Assignment 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4355177 I am love, love, loving the DIY Challenge - YOOVIE sure knows to mix things up and make attainable goals that you can still be proud of reaching! The goals for July 9th and 10th: <BR> <BR> 1. This weekend, you have to make and take a picture of two beautiful healthy meals you create, and upload the pic to Sparkpeople. <BR> <BR> I am ADORING the beautiful fresh heirloom tomatoes at my farmer's market - the booth I love best is basically all tomatoes, around 20-25 different varieties of them... Mon, 11 Jul 2011 11:25:56 EST DIY Challenge ~ Declaration of Independence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336447 Today I hiked eight miles. It was not an overly demanding hike, but after a winter off the trail, my feet and legs were certainly spent, and I huffed and puffed on the hills. But I was all alone on the trail and hadn't seen any other hikers, so I didn't bother breathing quietly or sucking in my gut like I normally do. <BR> <BR> Around the halfway mark, while taking a few seconds to breath hard on a particularly steep hill, I looked behind me and saw someone coming up the trail. And not just ... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 00:10:41 EST DIY Challenge Entry Card http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4336428 My Challenge Name: My Journey Towards "THAT Girl" Status <BR> <BR> My Starting Weight: 168.8 <BR> <BR> Four Other things I will be measuring during this challenge & their current stats: (body measurements, race times, crunch max, jeans size, whatever YOU need to track) <BR> 1. Jean size: 12 <BR> 2. Thigh: 24.25" <BR> 3. Upper arm: 12.5" <BR> 4. Waist: 35" <BR> <BR> If I am going to be 100% honest with myself, the reason I am doing this challenge is because: <BR> ~I am tired of being the... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 23:55:16 EST Recent Happenings via VLOG :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4328151 Just wanted to do another VLOG! I think they're fun :) I've had some fun this past week involving hiking, running, and the river. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer! Tue, 28 Jun 2011 12:07:03 EST Remembering WHY http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4308863 I hiked one of my most favorite trails on Friday. After weeks of dealing with some mild depression, major life changes, and reverting back to old habits, it was a much-needed breath of clean, fresh mountain air. I rejoiced in the empty trail and the cool alpine air and the feel of the dirt beneath my trusty Teva hiking boots. <BR> <BR> My small apartment, my impending four years of college, my drama-laden new job, and my weight struggles from the past few months melted away. I remembered wh... Sun, 19 Jun 2011 17:51:02 EST FIRST VLOG EVER! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4288772 Never thought I'd do this - but here goes! Thu, 9 Jun 2011 21:25:01 EST Weekend Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4268538 At the beginning of my five-day weekend, I made myself a list of everything I wanted to accomplish. I'm pretty proud of the fact that I participated in all but one of the below activities! <BR> <BR> Yoga - went to an hour-and-a-half of Hatha. It made my butt muscles twitch, but it sure felt amazingly restorative! <BR> <BR> Indoor rock climbing - was going to do this tonight but after I passed out for multiple hours today after hiking, I woke up to find out that the climbing team begins pra... Tue, 31 May 2011 21:54:57 EST 95 Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4258879 I am sick of this roller coaster. So, so sick. Sick of eating amazingly well, working out hard, seeing results, and then sabotaging myself with binges, laziness, and all-around poor habits. I want it to end. <BR> <BR> Maybe I don't want it bad enough. Or maybe I just don't have a concrete goal. I have a weight in my brain that I want to be at, but never a deadline. not one that matters anyways. <BR> <BR> Well now I have one. I have been accepted to Fort Lewis and I will be both working full... Thu, 26 May 2011 23:30:52 EST Can I Brag, Please? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4247959 I KILLED IT AT THE GYM TONIGHT! <BR> <BR> STRENGTH: <BR> <BR> 3x 10 reps: Shoulder presses (12.5 lb weights) <BR> 3x 20 reps: Bicep curls (10 each arm per circuit) (12.5 lb) <BR> <BR> 3x 10 reps: squats holding weighted ball <BR> 3x 20 reps: stationary lunges (10 each side per circuit) <BR> <BR> 90 crunches on stability ball: 10 forward, ten left, ten right, repeat. <BR> <BR> 3x 10 reps: Chest presses (12.5) and chest flies (done with 7 lb weights) <BR> <BR> 3x 10 reps behind-the-head t... Sat, 21 May 2011 22:55:49 EST Putting Down A Deposit...On Myself :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4239604 Some days I wake up feeling like this: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/0/l306199978.jpg"> <BR> <BR> But MOST DAYS, I wake up feeling like THIS: <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/7/l576809688.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Today, I've managed to get through the whole day feeling good about myself (minus looking at myself in the exercise studio mirrors, because I SWEAR they're the funhouse mirrors that make you look fat...) <BR> <BR> So what's different from today ... Tue, 17 May 2011 20:38:50 EST Tough Decision http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4234924 Today I am bringing my streak of exercise to an end. Thirteen days in a row, I did some kind of exercise that I considered physically taxing, but just for today I'm throwing in the towel. Why, you might ask? <BR> <BR> 1. I am badly sunburned from a day spent in the sun at the Taste of Durango. Putting on a sports bra right now would be like torture. <BR> <BR> 2. I am bloated and have an overall unhappy GI tract from the above-mentioned event. After almost two weeks of eating pretty Primal-l... Sun, 15 May 2011 21:58:19 EST A Friday List of Randomness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4230901 1. I ran a mile in 8 minutes and 56 seconds last night, which is such an incredible accomplishment for me! I don't think I have ever clocked a time like that in my life. Now I just need to work on my stamina... <BR> <BR> 2. It is a beautiful sunny day here in SW Colorado. To prove it, I have a burned nose and a pair of scratched legs :) <BR> <BR> 3. The farmer's market opens tomorrow, and if you only knew my obsession with local, real food, you would know that this makes me giddy. <BR> <BR... Fri, 13 May 2011 18:30:19 EST I QUIT (inspired by Yoovie :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4228998 Yesterday started off fabulously. I drank a green smoothie for breakfast, killed it at the gym (a 9-minute mile, walking lunges around the gym, ab work, and a leisurely stretch), came home to eat an apple and some roasted cashews, and headed off to work. <BR> <BR> Work. No matter where my place of employment seems to be, work will always be my downfall. Because at work there is ALWAYS food. Especially in healthcare, any small excuse is a reason for food. Nurse's Day. Administrative Professio... Thu, 12 May 2011 21:42:16 EST Re-Wiring My Body http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4225272 I have gotten to a point in my weight loss where every variable counts more than it did before. My body is resisting losing the last ten to twenty pounds (It likes fat. It's programmed to KEEP fat!) and so now my exercise and diet are really coming in to play. <BR> <BR> I have switched over to a mainly Paleo diet that focuses on meat, veggies, and some fruit. I am DYING for a piece of bread right now, but it's also an eye-opener to see how grain-focused I was before. I won't be giving up my ... Wed, 11 May 2011 10:58:39 EST Transitions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4218440 I can not believe we are well on our way into May! Where is this year going? <BR> <BR> Today I weighed in at 163, which is EXACTLY where I was at on May 8th of last year. What a coincidence is that?! I can not necessarily say I am happy about that, but I'll take 163 over the 167.8 I weighed in at last weekend. Regulating my water, getting in some kind of exercise every day, and eating better has all helped me get rid of the extra water weight and slowly start trending downward again, and i a... Sun, 8 May 2011 15:49:27 EST Back In Control :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4201403 Oh boy, where to begin... <BR> <BR> Well, just like that, April is over. All I can say is THANK GOD because April included only 270 minutes of exercise and the consumption of Reese's peanut butter eggs, Swiss Cake Rolls, candy bars, Ben & Jerry's, and Cold Stone. <BR> <BR> To say that I binged is an understatement. I made a glutton of myself. And then, instead of counteracting my gluttony, I sat on the couch. Okay, so I also moved a bunch of boxes two days of the month, but that's about it.... Sun, 1 May 2011 00:03:08 EST Sad and Confused http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4161536 I have been going through a huge rough patch lately. My workouts have fallen by the wayside. My eating has been incredibly bipolar. I know what I want (goal weight, stronger muscles, overall tighter body) and what I have to do to get it (work out regularly, eat cleanly, limit alcohol, etc, etc.). So why can't I move forward? <BR> <BR> I feel like I am up against a huge roadblock...and it's called STRESS. I have had a relatively stress-free life since moving from the big city a year and a hal... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 19:57:02 EST I Cured My Sickness! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4142588 Okay, okay, so I didn't magically make my head/chest cold vanish, but I definitely got it out of the forefront! <BR> <BR> Going into my weekend, I figured that sitting around, sleeping, and not doing much of anything would help bring wellness around a little faster. And after the end of yesterday, I just felt even more like crap. <BR> <BR> So today, I did the same for about half the day. I made myself some carrot cake oatmeal (adapted from Angela at Oh She Glows - it's AMAZING!) and had a n... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 21:17:26 EST Scale Wars http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4135244 Most of you probably don't know this, but I gave up the scale for the month of March. <BR> <BR> I was sick of letting it decide whether I had a good day or a bad day depending on what it read. <BR> <BR> I was mad when it showed the tiniest upward fluctuation after a few days of fabulous eating and super strenuous workouts. <BR> <BR> I was tired of letting my journey be all about a junky little square of plastic and metal and the numbers it flashed at me. <BR> <BR> So I shoved it behind th... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 19:27:59 EST Day 3 of 5 - No Workout, Bad Choices :( http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4127957 I am NOT proud of myself today on so many levels, but I have to follow through! <BR> <BR> ME: What did you do or are you going to do for YOURSELF today? This journey is all about YOU and your well-being, whether it's nutrition, fitness, or relaxation. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I can't say I did anything for myself today. I worked, I gorged myself on candy, and I decided that I am far too sore, stiff, and in pain to do a workout. My gift to myself is to take a night off. That means I might not mak... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 23:04:06 EST MARCH Template and Updates!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4125008 ME: What did you do or are you going to do for YOURSELF today? This journey is all about YOU and your well-being, whether it's nutrition, fitness, or relaxation. <BR> <BR> ****Today, I got a new job for myself! <BR> <BR> ACTIVITY: Movement is key! Share what you did for fitness today, whether you parked at the far end of the parking lot, ran a marathon, did an hour of yoga, or sweat buckets at the gym. <BR> <BR> ****20 minutes of walking on the treadmill waiting for my class and a 55-min... Mon, 28 Mar 2011 20:31:25 EST MARCH Template Day 1 of 5 - Finish Strong!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4122239 Hey everyone! <BR> <BR> I am on a quest to make these last five days of March rock. This month has been a total roller coaster and I want to end it on an uber-fabulous note! I put out a Spark status this morning about who was with me in ending this month well, and I got responses from a bunch of people who want to do the same! <BR> <BR> So, for the next five days I'll be filling out a template with these five points: <BR> <BR> Me <BR> Activity <BR> Relax <BR> Cuisine <BR> Happiness <BR> <... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 19:51:42 EST Busy, Busy, Busy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4113636 Hello, hello! <BR> <BR> Today has been a busy day for me, so much so that by 3 pm I was tuckered out enough that I needed a catnap. <BR> <BR> My day was similar to what I had planned yesterday, but didn't exactly follow the schedule. For example, I couldn't drag myself out of bed until 8, so the whole plan started of a little behind. <BR> <BR> Breakfast was a banana and a peach Chobani. My stomach isn't feeling well today, so my meals have been small. <BR> <BR> I was at the rec center by... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 20:23:17 EST Tomorrow http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4110392 I am on a roll today - this is my third blog! However, I am having a little bit of a freak-out and I need to make a plan for tomorrow! <BR> <BR> I have an interview. For a new job. And it's TOMORROW! <BR> <BR> Right now, I work in a hospital emergency room and I love it. The adrenaline rush gets me every time. BUT the job also has its cons... <BR> <BR> 1. It is an hour's drive from where I live. <BR> 2. Many coworkers treat me like dirt because I am at the bottom of the food chain and ther... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 15:23:25 EST Today's Inspiration http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4109948 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/9/l596203607.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/0/l700933427.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/2/l624315956.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/5/l653958117.jpg"> <BR> ***My next goal after doing 100 pushups - pullups!! <BR> <BR> Also, I have "Rolling In The Deep" by Adele stuck in my head. It would make anawesome addition to any iPod compilation - it... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 12:13:31 EST Recent Happenings and Weekend Fun http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4109754 Hello Sparkies! <BR> <BR> It's been a while since I checked in - I am having trouble jumping on the Spark bandwagon regularly, but I am trying! I do want to assure everyone that I am TRYING to keep my food in check and my exercise normal. I am also trying to incorporate more CARDIO into my exercise routine, because something needs to bust the plateau that I am quite sure I'm still experiencing. However, this hasn't been confirmed because I gave up my scale for the month of March. I refuse to... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 10:55:53 EST Self-Discovery and MASSIVE Change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4095738 I feel like I have been slacking on my Sparking lately, but I just wanted to give a big "Hello!" to all my Sparkfriends out there and let you know I am still alive :) <BR> <BR> So far March has been a month of change and self-discovery, and even though it is not the healthiest, most active month I have had in any recent history, I am enjoying it. <BR> <BR> A few things I have discovered about myself this month: <BR> <BR> 1. I can NOT do the same workout ten days in a row x 3. Sorry, Jillia... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 10:51:16 EST Create Your Own Destiny http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4074334 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/8/l38925088.jpg"> <BR> <link>everythinginslowmotion.blogspot.com </link> <BR> <BR> For years and years, I thought that the ultimate "me" was waiting to be discovered...waiting to be found. I thought that if I just persisted hard enough, I would find who I was meant to be. Then I decided that if I was patient and waited, maybe the day would come. <BR> <BR> When I started utilizing Sparkpeople, I began to realize that I wasn't going to have... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 20:49:55 EST Giving Up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4071456 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/9/l690396102.jpg"> <BR> <BR> I found the above photo purely by chance today, and it is now the background for my computer. Thomas Edison was one insightful man. <BR> <BR> How many times have we all contemplated giving up? I've found that the closer I get to my goal, the harder my body fights me. It was used to being fat and happy and stationary. It thought the fries and ice cream and chips that I fed it tasted good. The closer I get to my goa... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 21:06:40 EST Cozumel Vacation, Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4068052 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/5/2/l527358878.jpg"> <BR> Ready for my first day of diving. I appreciate how skinny I look :) <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l117788940.jpg"> <BR> Can you BELIEVE the color of that water? It's amazing! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/4/l443912026.jpg"> <BR> Eric on a spinnaker ride. He only got video of me doing the same. It's a blast! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/0/l40767169... Sat, 5 Mar 2011 10:49:52 EST February Recap and March Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4061424 So February is over. And I'm thankful for that. I really got into a funk from the very beginning, when I worked long, hard, exhausting days in the ER for the first THREE days of the month. What a way to NOT get off to a good start. <BR> <BR> So I did a lot of bad stuff last month. I made myself cookie dough to eat raw. I didn't calorie count on vacation. I was lazy a lot of days and skipped workouts. Bad Amanda! <BR> <BR> But I'm not apologizing. No regrets. No beating myself up. It happene... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 19:38:16 EST Cozumel Vacation, Part 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4060816 *Note: this is only part 1 because Eric has yet to find the import cable for his camera, so there are still pictures I would like to share with you but physically can't!* <BR> <BR> Words can not describe my trip to this lovely Mexican island right off the Yucatan peninsula. It is considered by many to be THE safest place to travel in Mexico, and we certainly felt secure. Everywhere we went we were welcomed by the locals, who appreciated the money we brought with us and were tickled silly by ... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 14:56:51 EST Running Away http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4029110 I have been kind of disconnected from Spark as of late, and now I'm ready to share exactly why. <BR> <BR> I'm ashamed. <BR> <BR> This month has been horrible. I have lost my willpower, my convictions, my motivation. I don't know where it went...it's just gone. I'm actually EMBARASSED by myself. <BR> <BR> I thought I would get better as my vacation approached. I thought that maybe that little voice would kick in to tell me, "HEY, WAKE UP! You are going to Mexico and half of your vacation wi... Fri, 18 Feb 2011 22:53:34 EST Valentine's Recap http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4019995 Hello Sparkies! <BR> <BR> I have been so busy with life and work that I have been pretty nonexistent on here for a few days! Just wanted to share about my lovely Valentine's Day, if you don't mind... <BR> <BR> Eric and I slept in a bit and then cooked brunch for two of our dearest friends. We made baked french toast with homemade bread, cut up TONs of fruit (blueberries, strawberries, canteloupe, pineapple), squeezed fresh orange juice for mimosas, and fried up two types of bacon - pink pep... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 14:41:42 EST Fighting My Demons: Part 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4009401 To lots of people, I had a seemingly normal day yesterday. I got up at 6am to go to a yoga class. I went home to eat breakfast and then headed back to the rec center for an aerobics class. I lunched on vegetarian curry, took a nap, had a pot of tea at the local coffee shop while Eric worked out at CrossFit, and then made chicken tacos for dinner. <BR> <BR> But each of these tasks played an important part in lowering the stress I have placed on myself. Yoga soothed me; focusing on breathing, ... Fri, 11 Feb 2011 11:29:47 EST Fighting My Demons: Part 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4006744 Last night, I did something I haven't done in a looooong time. I made myself cookie dough. Simply to eat raw. Ugh. <BR> <BR> The problems began at work. I had my lunch bag ready with healthy snacks - blueberries, carrots, apples, and cheese - and meals - oatmeal, chickpea burger, salad, and on top of eating all that I ate a TON of mini Hershey's and Mr Goodbar candies that were in the candy drawer. I simply couldn't stop myself. I knew what I was doing was wrong, and I watched myself unwrap ... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 12:08:47 EST