MSV2UU's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MSV2UU MSV2UU's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ I didn't wait till Monday, I started today!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959500 I always say on Monday I am going to do this and that and my Monday doesn't seem to come!! I have been a part of SP for a very long time and have seen success stories and I want to be one of them!!! <BR> <BR> Today I made an effort to get on the right track, I logged all of my food!! I didn't wait on that Magical Monday!!! LOL I woke up with the attitude of let's start today. I am so tired of being tired!! I have even taken my meds like was supposed to. (That's a whole other blog) The sayin... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 16:28:54 EST A great day....It feels good!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4769428 Today was a great day for me. Normally my Saturday's are spent in the house in the bed sleeping as long as I possibly can!! My washing machine went out earlier in the week and I was not able to get it repaired because I spend 50 hours a week working. I called to try and get it fixed and I was told I couldn't get it fixed until Monday. I was a little upset because I knew that meant going to the laundry mat. Hmmmm not my idea of fun with my daughter!!! I got myself moving and I cleaned my kitc... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 00:34:59 EST I went to my first Zumba class today!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4767520 I went to my first Zumba class today and I loved it!!! I was soo nervous because I haven't been in any time of dance class is years!! I just knew I would make a fool of myself. I jumped right in and had a blast!!! I can not wait to go back to my next class!! <BR> <BR> BTW, I moved muscles I haven't moved in ages. I am so afraid to go to sleep and wake up!! <em>40</em> <em>33</em> Fri, 2 Mar 2012 16:59:46 EST I'm Learning to Love My Hair!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4755982 Ok, I am starting on this new journey to love my hair. I use to hate that my hair was curly and wanted it straightened all the time. I have decided to embrace my natural hair! <em>204</em> I am trying new products so if you have any suggestions, just let me know. I am adding some photos of my journey!!! <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/7/l676868233.jpg"> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/8/l7817010.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Just wanted to show you the texture. Sat, 25 Feb 2012 02:23:41 EST Making healthy choices......I am staring to get this!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4732818 I know I have an addiction to food and I am trying real hard to beat this!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Today when I left the dentist I had to make it to work. I didn't bring a lunch so I knew I had to grab something. I was thinking of all of the places I could go near my job and I got discouraged. I didn't want anything heavy, just something to stop the hunger. I stopped at Burger King. Normally I would grab a chicken crisp sandwich meal or a fish meal, not to mention large size. Today I actually walke... Fri, 10 Feb 2012 18:41:21 EST I was put to the test...... I passed!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4729125 Today was day 3 in the gym and everything was stopping me from going!!! <em>33</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have to wake up at 7:15 in order to get everything done on time to leave out as soon as my daughters bus arrives at 8:45 to arrive to the gym by 9:00, to walk for an hour so I can get to work by 11. Whew, that sounds busy!! <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> I have to get my daughter dressed and fed. Although she is almost 18 she is physically and mentally impaired so I have to get her ready li... Wed, 8 Feb 2012 14:39:39 EST 40 and Fat??? I don't think so!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4727471 I Was sitting here thinking my up coming milestone, I will be 40 in almost 2 months. I refuse to let my weight keep going up and up!! I didn't want to get up and go walking this morning, but I just said to myself, " you don't want to be fat and 40." I am so excited about making this change! Another incentive I have is that I am going on a cruise the week of Thanksgiving and I want to wear a swimsuit. I know I will not be ready for a 2 piece, but at least I will feel comfortable with one!! <em... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 16:06:31 EST I did it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4725078 After saying I am going to make it to the gym for the last year, I got up and went this morning before work <em>244</em> I walked for 60 mins and burned 401 calories. My distance walked was 3.09 miles. I am ready for tomorrow already!! ( I don't know if my body will feel the same in the morning <em>40</em> ) Mon, 6 Feb 2012 11:37:24 EST I changed my tracker http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4719038 Soooo.. because I wanted a little motivation, I changed my tracker to fitness minutes. I have to admit I haven't put forth any effort towards fitness. I have a gym membership that I pay for annually and I never use. Maybe is I have to look at my tracker, I will become motivated to get my butt into the gym!! Lets see how this will work!! <em>104</em> Thu, 2 Feb 2012 17:22:21 EST One day at a time... That's the ticket!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667412 So today I didn't have the stir fried veggies like I said I was going to have, but I did do something different. I made spaghetti (using ground turkey) and I ate half of what I usually eat and instead of having two pieces of bread, I had one. Like I promised myself, baby steps!! <BR> <BR> I am also planning to go to the gym for the first time in a long time!! I am preparing my lunch and gym bag so I am not rushing to do it in the morning. I am actually really excited. I even scheduled mysel... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 22:55:26 EST My Name is MsV and I am a food addict.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4661120 As the years have gone by, I have tried to understand why my weight is just so out of control. I just couldn't understand it. I don't eat a lot, or so I thought! Yesterday I sat back and really looked at the things I eat, when I eat, and why I eat and I was truly amazed at what I saw when I ran that video diary back in my head!! <BR> <BR> <BR> WHen I started my day I had a pretty decent breakfast: Raisin Bran Crunch, 1/2 cup of 2% milk, and a banana. Not too bad. For a snack I had a p... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 01:46:39 EST I fell off the Wagon, but I'm crawling back up..One had is still there!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4535382 I fell off that wagon really hard, but my hand is till on there!! <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> In the last 3 weeks between Drs Appts, therapy, and oral surgery, my daughter had 15 appointments. It has been crazy, but I am getting things back in order!! <BR> <BR> Everyone have a great weekend!! Fri, 14 Oct 2011 12:28:48 EST No fast food...So why do I see my SP family shaking their finger at me?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4507022 I had to really sit down and think about this and be honest with myself!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> I woke up today and I was telling my husband how excited I was about not stopping to get fast food every night like I use to. I even take my lunch to work just about every single day. As I was sitting here at my desk, eating a bag of chips, (IKR) and I thought yes, I am not eating fast food, and yes I have been going to the grocery store, but look at the things I am buying. <BR> <BR> <BR> Thi... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 16:00:40 EST I had my crying moment, now back on with the big girl panties!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4494131 OK, I know most of the people here don't know me personally so here is a short summary. <BR> <BR> I have a daughter 17 years, who suffered a closed head injury when she was 6 months old. She is my world and I will do any and everything for her. Because of her injury she is physically and mentally impaired. (But don't let the cute face fool you, she is something else!!!) <BR> <BR> My husband , not her dad, has been more of a father to her, bu... Tue, 20 Sep 2011 02:52:58 EST Watch me Shrink Day 17!! A little progress!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4492126 Ok, I was too tired to post this on friday. I had a long week, worked 58 hours!! <BR> <BR> Although I wish the progress was faster. it felt good to pull my skirt up with a little less tugging and I buttoned it up!! <em>244</em> It actually felt good and made me motivated!!! Heres to the next two weeks!!! <em>334</em> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/9/6/l966372315.jpg"> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l686924609.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> Keep up the good... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 01:43:21 EST Whoo Hoo 1 one week clean of fast food!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4479809 I know it doesn't sound like a lot, but when you go from eating out at least once a day, sometimes 3 times a day , this is a great start!!! My husband and I went grocery shopping and spent almost $300. I had no excuse to buy anything so I made a lunch every day. Even when I got off of work I kept telling myself I could do this. I would last past all of the restaurants and keep it moving. I also had to train my daughter because she was use to us stopping. After the first few days she stopped c... Mon, 12 Sep 2011 00:08:12 EST Making strides!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4473856 Although I know its going to take time to get the weight off, I am making strides!! I am excited about taking my pics for tomorrow. Although I know there isn't change now, there will be!!! <BR> <BR> I have gone this whole week ( since mon) with no fast food. Yaahh This is good for me because after a couple of days I usually crack. I even got up and cooked my lunch for today!!! <BR> <BR> I am on my way!!! Thu, 8 Sep 2011 15:00:08 EST Watch Me Shrink Pic Challenge: Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4462707 Thank you APIRLRAIN888 for starting this challenge!!! <BR> <BR> I knew I needed accountability so I wanted to join this challenge. I am a type 1 diabetic and I need to get it together. If I have to pot a pic every week, I have to be held accountable!!! <BR> <BR> As of today I am 5 ft tall and I weigh 234 lbs!! Wow, how embarrassing!! In order for me to get it together, I had to be honest with myself. Although i'm quite embarrassed by these pics, I know the will look different as the weeks ... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 13:47:05 EST What is wrong with 327...???? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4450426 Well a lot is wrong when it is your morning BS!!! I am trying to get back on track, no wait, I am getting back on track so I started back taking my meds for my diabetes ( I know I shouldn't have stopped, slap me when you see me), I tested my BS this morning and it was 327. I thought about all of the other days it must have been this high and I was upset with myself. Even though I took all of my meds, I know where I went wrong. Hmmmm... Fried catfish and fried okra for dinner, which was late!!... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 22:00:42 EST Day Two...... No pop/soda http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4448233 I think I can really kick this!! It has been two days since I had anything carbonated. I jumped back on the wagon, but I am not trying to overwhelm myself. I can do this with positive thoughts and energy!!! <em>104</em> Thu, 25 Aug 2011 16:43:01 EST Picture Blog Day 4 & 5 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4106083 Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color <BR> Day 09 – A picture that motivates you to do more <BR> Day 10 - A picture of your closest friend <BR> Day 11 - A picture of your IPOD or other music playing device on shuffle, and then list the first 10 so... Sun, 20 Mar 2011 23:07:23 EST Picture Bolg , Day 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4101168 Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color <BR> Day 09 – A picture that motivates you to do more <BR> Day 10 - A picture of your closest friend <BR> Day 11 - A picture of your IPOD or other m... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 14:07:30 EST Picture Blog, Day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4098449 Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day <BR> Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item <BR> Day 08 - A picture of your favorite color <BR> Day 09 – A picture that motivates you to do more <BR> Day ... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 12:03:34 EST 30 days of pics Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4096161 I have seen a few people doing this and it seemed really cool so I thought I would give it a shot. <BR> <BR> <BR> Day 01 - A RECENT picture of yourself with at least 15 facts about YOU. <BR> Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest <BR> Day 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss <BR> Day 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show <BR> Day 05 - A picture of your favorite animal <BR> Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to ... Wed, 16 Mar 2011 13:26:59 EST Jelly Beans are the enemy!!! : ) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4080906 Who would have thought something so small could be such such evil!!! Every since I was a little girl I have had an obsession with jelly them. I would love to see Easter time roll around because I knew what I had to look forward to, JELLY BEANS!!!! I love them all pretty much equally, but I would say the red ones have a slight edge in my favorite. When people would discard the black ones, I would sweep them right over into my pile. : ) Now that I have began a new journey in my life, they have ... Thu, 10 Mar 2011 08:46:08 EST I feel great today!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4079373 I finally caught up on some much needed sleep. I would have had more but my husband made so much noise getting ready for work, it woke me out of a wonderful sleep <em>24</em> I have taken all of my meds today and my vitamins so I am doing well. I ate a really good breakfast and I even tried 1% milk for the first time, not too bad <em>334</em> . I did get Thai food today, I know I am wayyyyyy over my calories/points for today, but for some reason I am not stressing about it. I will start over... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 15:21:21 EST Such a pretty face, urggghhh!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4068622 If I hear one more time, "you have such a pretty face" I will scream!!!! I was told by a family member that the other day and I wanted to scream. We are all "pretty" and "handsome" !!!They told me I have such a pretty face , if I lost the weight it would be so much easier on me. People who have never had to deal with weight issues don't understand that you don't just snap your fingers and all of the issues you have with food go away. I am learning what an actual "serving" really is and I am ... Sat, 5 Mar 2011 15:41:07 EST My first weigh in at Weight Watchers!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4063231 Well, if I wasn't disappointed I wouldn't be telling the truth. Although I didn't gain any weight, I didn't loose either. I know I lost inches because my pants told me so!!! I am not going to get discouraged, I am going to keep it going and see if I can change things up!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a good day everyone!!!! <em>212</em> Thu, 3 Mar 2011 12:07:49 EST There you are!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4058350 Today was the first day back to the gym in almost 1 year. Everyting tried to stop me from going. I woke up a little late, so I was rushing to get my daughter off to school. She looked at me like hey mom, you woke up late I didnt!!! I had to work at 11 and it was 8:20. I had to rush and fix my lunch and get my gym bag ready. What was I thinking not doing all of this at night??? I am ready to leave it is 9 , where is my gym lock???? I had to laugh to keep from being angry. Ok, I will just buy o... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 18:08:56 EST I'm not waiting for the New Year!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3821753 Ok, so it has been a very long time since I have tracked my food or gone with out pop/soda!!! It has been 5 days since I had a pop/soda and I tracked my food for the first time in months, if not a year. I know I need to do this. I have to get back on track. I know this is sad to say , but I have only checked my BS a few times in the last several months and I have not been taking my meds. Being a diabetic I know this is wrong and I am making a change to get back on track!! I know I can do thi... Fri, 3 Dec 2010 12:47:56 EST Isn't it funny!?!?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3543412 I just found myself commenting on someone Else's blog about taking things one day at a time and here I am not following my own advice. Isn't it funny how we do this. I have been so upset about not getting back on track after falling of the wagon, and all I have to do is look at the next day as a new beginning. Wow, something so simple and I haven't done it. <BR> <BR> Everyone have a wonderful day!! <BR> <BR> <BR> 1 day clean, no junk food!!! I can do this!! <em>249</em> Mon, 16 Aug 2010 15:56:09 EST About Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3522594 Found this on someone elses blog, thought it was cute! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> A - Available or married? Married Since June Yeah!! <BR> <BR> B- Book? I love to read! <BR> <BR> C- Cake or Pie? cake <BR> <BR> D- Drink of Choice? Water (cherry coke every now and then) <BR> <BR> E- Essential Item? Car <BR> <BR> F- Favorite Color? green <BR> <BR> G- Game to play or watch? Football (watch) <BR> <BR> H- Hometown? Clinton Township, Michigan Just outside of Detroit <BR> <BR> I- Indulgence? ... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 16:04:09 EST Busy as a Bee!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3435695 I miss my spark friends!!! <em>46</em> I am proud to say I am a married woman now!!! I thought I would feel different, but I guess when you love someone a piece of paper doesn't matter. <em>212</em> <BR> <BR> <BR> I also have been working a lot!! I can't complain because they were cutting back so I am enjoying the overtime. I am going to try and get back on track real soon. <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>220</em> <em>252</em> Thu, 15 Jul 2010 16:09:30 EST Two nights and counting!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3341262 I made a promise to myself that I will go a week without stopping to get food when I get off work. So far I have made it two nights and I didn't stop <em>104</em> I went grocery shopping over the weekend and if I want a snack I will do that, but I eat before I leave and I bring something to work for lunch/dinner. I am so proud of myself. My daughter isn't too happy about the new deal though, she wants her taco bell <em>46</em> Wed, 16 Jun 2010 16:17:07 EST The weekend is here!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3299729 I can't exercise or do too much walking, but I am going to enjoy my weekend off. My sister will be in town so this is going to be a wonderful weekend!!!! Everyone have a spark-a-licious weekend!!! <em>213</em> <em>20</em> Fri, 4 Jun 2010 09:51:13 EST Torn Gastrocnemius, Ouch!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3293052 Ok, so I was really busy at work thurs., fri, and sat. I know I had to have burned a million calories. On saturday I turned to walk away from my supervisor and I felt like someone punched me in the back of the leg really hard. I almost went down to the floor. I stood up and tried to walk again and this time I felt the same feeling, but also felt a little pop. I finally stood up and me being the person I am I tried to shake it off. I thought it may be a charlie hoarse. I kept work with the pai... Wed, 2 Jun 2010 13:34:50 EST Day 2 of my journey!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3267246 Well today I didn't go walking, but I cleaned the heck out of my kitchen and bathroom!!!! <em>216</em> Man my legs and arms are killing me!! I guess that was my work out!!! Back to the gym in the morning <em>68</em> Tue, 25 May 2010 16:22:14 EST I did it after about 1.5 years, I went back to the gym!!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3262511 I am so proud of myself today!!! I went back to the gym after being gone for about a year and a half. Every Monday I say this is going to start a new week, but I always find a reason that I don't make it. Today I was determined, I was going to get my lazy butt(because that is what has kept me away some of this time) up and make it to the gym. I didn't have to leave out for work till around 1:30 so I had no excuse. <BR> <BR> 62 mins on the treadmill <BR> 2.94 miles <BR> 414 calories <BR> A s... Mon, 24 May 2010 11:32:48 EST Dr. Visit update!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3258298 I am happy with my follow up appointment. Good Cholesterol is 40, Bad Cholesterol 130, A1C is down from around 11 to 8.6 I have made progress, and I even went healthy grocery shopping. I can do this!! <em>104</em> Sun, 23 May 2010 00:00:40 EST It's a start!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3244046 I haven't drank 8 glasses without thinking about it for a very long time. I just realized I drank around 72oz today already. I haven't had one pop/soda at all!!! <em>224</em> <em>91</em> Tue, 18 May 2010 20:19:55 EST Insomnia!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3237253 This is killing me, I hate not being able to sleep!!! If anyone has any suggestions, please share them with me. I wake up all times of the night and can't get back to sleep. I can only seem to sleep a few hours at a time. This is driving me crazy!!! <em>40</em> Mon, 17 May 2010 04:58:52 EST My Pooters Dr Visits http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3231087 Took my daughter to the Dr today and everything was A OK!!! They gave her a couple new meds and told me she was a healthy girl!! She is 4ft 11ins and 99lbs. Her dr and I both wish we had her little figure!!! Now we have to get her in to neurologist to see about the mood swings and life will be oh so much better!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Everyone have a wonderful week end!!! <em>247</em> Fri, 14 May 2010 22:44:03 EST I did it!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3226578 Whoo Hooo I finished this semester. I only had two classes, but when you work and have a little/big one, it is tough. I turned in my last paper today!!! I took the summer off so now I am waiting to get next semester over and it hasn't even started yet. <em>224</em> <em>244</em> <em>253</em> <em>104</em> Thu, 13 May 2010 15:55:11 EST A great start!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3129237 I am starting my day off great. I woke up feeling good. My BS was 136. That is the lowest it has been in a long time! I am learning that the devil is a liar and I am going to stop letting people work my nerves. Sometimes when people are not happy, they can't stand to see you happy. I will learn to smile and not let them take me to another place. <BR> <BR> <BR> Have a wonderful and blessed day my SP family!!! <em>220</em> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> P.S I am feeling this good and I am at work ... Sat, 17 Apr 2010 09:59:03 EST I didn't even realize it!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3124097 lately I have had an obsession with pop/soda!!! I would go a day and think I need it really bad. I just noticed that I haven't had any since monday. I did it before for six months. I am back and trying to reach six months again!!!! Wish me luck!!!! <em>306</em> <em>244</em> Thu, 15 Apr 2010 19:25:57 EST A Heavy Heart! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3094033 I have been trying so hard to get motivated this week but I can't. My daughters grandmother passed away on Easter and I feel like I didn't do enough to take my daughter around to see her. My schedule is very busy , but that is no excuse. This had taught me a valuable lesson. I have learned tomorrow is not promised, so don't say I will do it tomorrow when you can do it today. I keep saying tomorrow I am going to get back into the gym. If I don't start getting healthy, tomorrow will never come... Thu, 8 Apr 2010 03:37:11 EST Although I fell, I tried and I will do better tomorrow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3013732 I was doing really well until I had to put the cloths in the dryer. I heard the chips calling my name! I gave in and I ate some, but I am pround for not grabbing the soda to go along with it. My blood sugar was 159 earlier which was high, but it was better than the 326 it was when I woke up. I will do better tomorrow and I will not beat myself up. Thu, 18 Mar 2010 03:20:48 EST Am I ready to be loved? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3000431 I have been wondering this for the last couple of months. I have a mann who wants to love me for a life time and then some and for some reason I feel like I am pushing him away. What am I afraid of? Why am I afraid of love? I can remember the last time I was happy with me. Maybe once I am happy with me, I can allow someone to love me. I paid to renew my gym membership a month ago and I still haven't gone. Maybe tomorrow I will make that first step. I have to get this diabetes under control... Mon, 15 Mar 2010 03:10:43 EST Back to class!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2869780 After having a long winter break I am back to class. Instead of having 16 week classes, I have a 12 week and an 8 week class. This shall be interesting. I know I am going to love my Nutrition class, but I am not feeling this English class. It is a composition class and writing in not high on my skills list. I have always struggled with English. I think it is more mind over matter. I am going to put it in my mind I am going to do well and try really hard. Wish me luck <em>40</em> Thu, 11 Feb 2010 11:37:01 EST Why am I still awake!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2850669 I hate when I can't sleep! I am laying here tossing and turning wishing I was asleep! Everytime I am up late I want to snack. Good thing there is nothing to snack on! I guess I will just go through my DVR. I wish I could go for a walk. I know I should be sleeping because my pooter is not feeling well so she is going to drive me nuts in the morning! Sun, 7 Feb 2010 00:35:16 EST