MSSUNBUG's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MSSUNBUG MSSUNBUG's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Change 1 Thing: Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5222843 Alright, some simple facts: <BR> <BR> 1) Last year I finished losing weight and lost a total of 145 pounds. <BR> 2) Last year I went through a divorce. <BR> 3) This year I found out a man I was growing more and more attached to every day wasn't quite all that he seemed, and it devastated me. <BR> 4) In the midst of those stresses, I gained back roughly 20 pounds. <BR> 5) I am slowly but surely piecing a life back together--or generating a new one. <BR> 6) Part of that endeavor requires... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 10:19:28 EST Divorcequake http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5177939 I've decided it's time to start talkin' again, ya'll. <BR> <BR> You can find me more consistently here: http://onewildandpreciousmelissa.wordpress<BR>.com/ <BR> <BR> 2012 is ending. <BR> <BR> Frankly, I could not possibly be more pleased. <BR> <BR> But that’s not entirely fair. 2012 came with its share of stresses and heartaches, yes. But it came with a lot of growth and big, big change. The kind of change that comes with an instant sense of relief (and terror, which gradually g... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 16:56:06 EST My 6 Month Absence http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5059211 I'm so overwhelmed at the prospect of checking in and updating here after six months of being MIA. So much has changed in my personal life, and so much of it is STILL changing--truly, truly overwhelmed. <BR> <BR> New job. Half Ironman. Separation from my partner of 16 years, my very best friend in this world. New place to live. There have been happy days and devastating days. <BR> <BR> In the process I gained 20 pounds, then lost 25, then gained 10, lost 8, repeat repeat. Some goo... Fri, 14 Sep 2012 14:07:39 EST Thoughts and Reflections on Changing My Mind http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4750019 January was a bumpy start to the year! I spent most of it sick and also struggling--struggling against some old tapes, old habits, beliefs about myself that haven't been updated, mucking through some challenging relationships and interactions, and just generally beating myself up for not doing anything perfectly enough. Man, I can be a meanie (to me) when I want to be! <BR> <BR> So here, nearing the end of February, I found myself desperately needing a break--so I took one! I have the lu... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 18:04:55 EST My Commandments for 2012 (The Principles Guiding My Life) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4662415 Here are my 33 commandments, if you will, principles guiding me through 2012. I landed on the number 33 accidentally--but I'm happy to accept that number as it's the number of years I celebrate being alive in 2012. :-) <BR> <BR> So here's my message to me about how I want to live in 2012. What are yours? <BR> <BR> 1) MAKE YOUR HAPPINESS THE PRIORITY. Someone will always be disappointed, and you will always fall short of giving everything someone else needs. Do what you need to do in ... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 16:35:27 EST The Most Important Thing I Learned in 2011 (And After Losing 145 Pounds) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4657026 About three months ago, a trainer at my local gym with whom I’ve had nothing more than casual, friendly contact stopped me and said, “Hey, I had NO IDEA you’d lost so much weight. I can’t even picture that. Would you be willing to bring in a picture sometime?” <BR> <BR> I’m usually a little thrown off by other people’s curiosity, though the details of that could fill another (or several) blog(s). In this particular instance, it jarred me from my current reality as a healthy person at a “... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 13:35:02 EST Self Compassion (Rather Than Self Degradation) After a Binge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4456084 In the grand scheme, everything is just fine. <BR> <BR> Hurricane Irene blew threw NJ and hit it pretty hard, although I have to say that our area was largely spared any real damage, which is simply amazing. I live in the woods, we have incredibly tall trees, and generally if someone sneezes hard enough, we lose power. We had a few dips and surges, lost a few manageable limbs, and otherwise escaped unscathed. However, it was incredibly stressful to watch the trees bend, the river and st... Tue, 30 Aug 2011 09:03:05 EST A Happy Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4449419 So things have been going really well! <BR> <BR> I started my new job and it's been busy, busy, busy. I'm really enjoying the work so far, and I'm feeling good about the decision. I'm challenged, I'm given a lot of responsibility, and I feel like what I'm doing matters and makes a difference. Really good stuff! I've also been getting the wheels turning to make some moves on the other career-related stuff I want to do, which is really exciting. <BR> <BR> I've managed to maintain my fit... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 10:33:53 EST Pictures from Yesterday's Triathlon http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4384425 So yesterday was my fourth triathlon, the NJ State Tri with 1,000 participants. This was my first Olympic distance triathlon--Olympics consist of a .9-mile swim, a 25-mile bike ride, and a 10k (6.2-mile) run. <BR> <BR> I went into this race a little differently than I have all previous events. Having just done the intermediate-distance tri again last weekend, my heart was definitely not fully in this one. Well, the heat contributed too. Like most of the rest of the country, we were in ... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 09:22:31 EST ADITLOM 3: Attention to Diet isn't JUST about Losing Weight http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4376648 I completed my third triathlon this weekend. It was the same course as the one I did in June, and I managed to shave two minutes off my time. My "reach" goal was to complete the course in under two hours. Instead I finished in 2:02:22, 2:04 faster than June's time. I'll take it, especially considering this time I was swimming with jelly worms. Lovely stuff, let me tell you! <BR> <BR> I realized that the way I'm eating before, during, and after events is REALLY not working for me thoug... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 09:56:59 EST A Day in the Life of Maintenance 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4357324 I so very much appreciate the feedback I got on my last blog. The feedback definitely got me thinking: I shared so much throughout my journey while losing weight, why pull back now? So many people suggested that maintenance is another tricky part--and one, many pointed out, we seem to often stay pretty quiet about! I hadn't really thought of that, but it's a good point. I think there's real benefit to sharing about THIS part of the process, perhaps just as much as sharing about losing... ... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 09:06:30 EST Why I Need to be Here, Now. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4345250 It's been a bit of a struggle these past couple of weeks! I know I've shared this here already, but food has been a little messy lately. Although I'm active enough that I can eat a good deal and "get away" with it, this doesn't mean that this is what I SHOULD do or really WANT to do to my body. Food has been a struggle for me most of my life, something I "use" to avoid feelings I don't want to feel or deal with, a destructive sort of crutch that I've worked hard to get away from. And late... Wed, 6 Jul 2011 16:01:11 EST Surprise Triathlon & Some Thoughts on Fuel http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4298720 So I decided sort of last minute to participate in another tri--this weekend! It's on Saturday. It's down at the Jersey shore and includes a 600-yard ocean swim, a 21-mile bike ride, and a 5-mile run. The swim is a little shorter than my sprint in May, the ride is about 4 miles longer, and the run is 2 miles longer, meaning this one is going to be a bit more of a challenge! I'm looking forward to it though! <BR> <BR> I've also got another tri 7/24 (Olympic length--1.2-mile swim, 25-mil... Tue, 14 Jun 2011 17:17:28 EST Why I Wouldn't Give Up the Bad Days http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4282601 I've had a few bad days recently. I've been alternatingly grouchy, sad, ragingly angry, horribly depressed, then numb, grouchy, sad, repeat, repeat. There's no evident cause for this, and luckily I'm at a point in my life where I can ride this wave without too much attachment or concern, more wonder and awareness. My sleep has been a bit off, and my food has been all over the place too, eating a little too much, eating things I don't normally choose to eat. And yesterday, for the life of ... Tue, 7 Jun 2011 09:01:31 EST From 278 Pounds to Triathlete--Today was the Day! (A few pics) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4247247 What an exciting day! <BR> <BR> I'm proud to say I was so incredibly overprepared for the race today. I finished in great time. My finish picture reads 2:00, but I started as the fourth wave. So my actual finishing time came to 1:48, a full 12 minutes better than what I was expecting! AND I placed third in my age group!! So awesome! <BR> <BR> Here are some pics: <BR> <BR> Here's me getting out of the water <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/6/8/l686165365.jpg"> ... Sat, 21 May 2011 13:58:42 EST From 278 Pounds to Triathlete (Well, Tomorrow...) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4245209 I'm so excited that the big day is finally here! <BR> <BR> I was worried that I would be so nervous and anxious today, the day before the triathlon. I'm happy to report, however, that I'm only excited and ready to go! I feel so ready after this training program. My coaches were just amazing, as were my fellow triathletes-in-training. What a great way to celebrate 138 pounds lost! :-) <BR> <BR> So here's the numbers. Since January, I've been averaging about 20 miles of running a we... Fri, 20 May 2011 10:59:09 EST A Picture of What Came in the Mail Today! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4225754 <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l390157701.jpg"> <BR> <BR> It's starting to feel real now, folks! <BR> <BR> That there is my tri suit. That's the jobby I'll wear under my wetsuit while I swim, then continue to wear while I bike and then run. I was happy to see that it fit (well, fit as it SHOULD) and happy to not have to break the bank purchasing it since all of this gear seriously adds up! I have ten more days until the event, and the arrival of this baby made it al... Wed, 11 May 2011 14:11:29 EST Just an Update: The Good & The Bad http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4177046 Today is the first day I woke up and didn't have a reason to rush out the door since... well, I lost track. A long time ago. <BR> <BR> And it was LOVELY. I managed to get a few things done around the house and enjoy the luxury of time during the week for laundry, for straightening up, even for completing a small project. What a gift! <BR> <BR> The pace that things have been moving at lately simply doesn't suit me. I don't work full time. I work about 20 hours a week max. I also, h... Tue, 19 Apr 2011 14:34:40 EST About Yesterday's Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4146097 Thanks for the response to my blog yesterday, pals. I had several people encourage me to just celebrate my own successes and be happy with that. I very much do and I very much am. I don't claim the jealousy some suggested might be behind the "compare and despair" function. Instead, for me what's behind "compare and despair" is my struggle with perfectionism. I'm not envious of what my friends have or are accomplishing--on the contrary, I'm thrilled for them. Rather, it stirs for me the ... Wed, 6 Apr 2011 08:05:17 EST Compare & Despair: Or How Facebook is Messing With My Life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4143850 Two days ago I was tooling around mindlessly on the internet (a favorite, useless pastime I've been trying--and failing--to cut back on). As I scroll through friends' facebook status updates and other mindless dribble, I notice I have an increasing sense of heaviness, sadness, and anxiety that wasn't there mere moments before. Where was this coming from? What had I read that made me feel this way? I scrolled back quickly through the myriad status updates in search of what terrible news br... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 10:43:05 EST Training Woes: Old Tapes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4126920 Training has been getting increasingly more intense in the past few weeks. Now that cycling is in full swing, I'm dealing with another injury. This doesn't surprise me since every time I change something up in my training routine or add something new to it, I seem to gain another injury. Hopefully, much like the others, this injury will wind up being a small matter in the larger scheme of things. Regardless, I'm proud to say I've learned from my prior injuries and my experiences with them... Tue, 29 Mar 2011 15:10:16 EST Recognizing What's Not Working http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4109493 What a fast-paced couple of weeks! <BR> <BR> I knew something was going to give eventually, and it happened yesterday: meltdown. Early in the morning, I couldn't get myself out of bed (not enough sleep). When I did finally get out of bed, I had a rushed workout, wound up late to work (which is a problem since I teach a college class and was underprepared), had several errands to do after work, and then chores at home before any sign of rest. Whew. <BR> <BR> It's not simply the fast p... Tue, 22 Mar 2011 09:20:24 EST Setting--and MAINTAINING--Boundaries http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4072287 I had a really lovely weekend--the perfect blend of getting things done and relaxing. On Saturday I got in a great workout, finally made a decision about which road bike to buy and ordered it, then spent some time relaxed at home with Dan and the pets. On Sunday we woke up early, went for breakfast, drove around a local park, went grocery shopping, then came home and relaxed and did a little work. I cooked a lovely, delicious dinner with a few new recipes, then settled in on the couch for ... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 08:08:25 EST Why I'm Hungover Today (Even Though I Haven't Had a Drink in 1 Year, 5 Months, and 2 Days) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4051128 I haven't had a sip of alcohol to my lips since September 26, 2009, which a handy little website told me this morning is precisely 1 year, 5 months, and 2 days ago. And yet I woke up this morning feeling horribly hungover. I AM hungover, emotionally. Here's why: <BR> <BR> Yesterday we celebrated two of our friends and their civil union with a few of their close friends and family members. The union was a lovely affair, and we had a pleasant early dinner in their honor in their beautiful ... Sun, 27 Feb 2011 09:52:38 EST Healing Wounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4021861 A few days ago I hit a rough patch. Out of nowhere, I woke up one morning and just felt... huge. I stepped on the scale--nope, weight was still about the same. Next day, HUGE. Stepped on the scale--eh, one pound up (salty dinner). The next day, H. U. G. E. Stepped on the scale--another pound up. <BR> <BR> Now, thankfully I'm wise enough to know that one does not gain two pounds of fat in two days doing what I've been doing. There was a good combination of things at play--a few high-... Wed, 16 Feb 2011 09:08:38 EST 130 Pounds Lost http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3997499 I hit a milestone today: I weighed 148 for a total of 130 pounds lost. Hooray! <BR> <BR> That's 17 pounds less than I ever aimed to weigh when I started this journey, less than I weighed on my wedding day and in college, and I'm more fit than I've been... well, EVER. It's also just 9 pounds away from having lost half my body weight, which is pretty unreal to wrap my brain around. <BR> <BR> It's fun to have this to celebrate while I'm benched from running these few weeks. I've been re... Mon, 7 Feb 2011 10:33:26 EST The Power of Positive PHRASING http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3989316 It's been a good couple of days without running! I've been focused in on my swimming and strength training and yoga--and I'm having a great time doing it. I think my brain needed the break as much as my knee did! I was reminded today though how much my feelings about something can be influenced by the way I choose to frame and phrase it. I told some people close to me who asked how training was going that I was tabling the running because of this injury. Then I decided to shift and frame... Fri, 4 Feb 2011 08:27:04 EST There's Always More to Learn: Reflecting on the Body's Season http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3985107 It's been two weeks since I took off those training wheels--stopped counting calories and stopped wearing my body bugg. I'm happy to report that on the positive end of things, nothing fell apart when I dropped the gadgets and stopped recording my food. I maintained a healthy eating plan, listened to my body's cues, kept up my workout routine. I even lost some more weight! I'd be lying if I said there hasn't been a bit of anxiety for me around these changes. But I think that's a pretty no... Wed, 2 Feb 2011 20:12:02 EST Taking off the Training Wheels (Naked Without Gadgets) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3936705 I have mixed feelings about this one, folks. <BR> <BR> As I shared in my last blog, I had noticed a little increase in my anxiety around my eating and calorie watching. I received such great support and feedback, and I've done a lot of reflecting this past week. A few days ago, I did something bold (well, I think it's bold, lol): I removed my body bugg and I stopped counting calories. I did both of these things on the same day, sort of like ripping a band-aid off in one fell swoop. <B... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 10:30:26 EST I Am DOING GOOD (if I'd Just Get Out of My Own Way) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3918218 Throughout this process, I've been faithful about a lot of things: I track my food every day, I maintain exercise and my eating plan (even on and around holidays), and I work to stay centered and in touch with my emotions (since as soon as I'm out of touch with them and/or not allowing them space to breathe, I'm putting myself at risk of overeating again). The last week of 2010, I started my triathlon training program which includes a lot of extra time in the gym. I've noticed since then th... Wed, 12 Jan 2011 14:54:09 EST Tri Training Week 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3899816 December 28th marked the start of triathlon training. :-) Yay! The program I'm part of prepares us for a sprint length tri in mid-May (.5 mile swimming; 12.5 mile bike; 3.1 mile run), and I've also decided to prepare for an olympic length tri at the end of July (1 mile swim; 25 mile bike; 6.2 mile run). I have a bunch of other running races planned already which I'm completely excited about. <BR> <BR> It's no secret that I already put in a good amount of time at the gym, but the tri trai... Fri, 7 Jan 2011 10:13:51 EST 2011 Goals & Intentions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3885023 In 2010, I set about 35 goals (25 or so I shared here on sparkpeople). I had, by far, the most successful year of my life. I'm scaling back a bit for 2011, but I do have some goals. Here they are: <BR> <BR> For 2011, I have three BIGGER PICTURE goals. <BR> <BR> 1) To thine own self be true--stay in touch with what's important to me, what I need, and what I want, and act in a way that is aligned with that on a consistent basis. <BR> <BR> 2) Keep it simple--eliminate the excess drama,... Mon, 3 Jan 2011 16:55:28 EST Some Thoughts on Setting Goals, Having Resolutions, and Being Supportive of Your Growth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3874514 Over the course of my life, I've spent years setting new years resolutions I never followed through on--at least, not past February. In January I'd create great lists of things I'd wanted for myself and the step-by-step plans I intended to put in place in order to get there. These lists and plans were always, mind you, well intentioned and enthusiastic, and I was happy to share my plans with anyone who I loved and/or would listen. Come February or March, I'd face the subsequent embarrassme... Fri, 31 Dec 2010 14:57:30 EST What I'd Hoped to Accomplish--and DID Accomplish--in 2010: A Reflection http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3864509 Almost exactly a year ago, I wrote a blog in which I reflected on 2009 and set some intentions and goals for 2010. I had a pretty hefty list! Here it is, copied verbatim from my blog with some notes on how I did working towards each of these goals. <BR> <BR> 1) Continue to work towards my goal of losing 110 pounds (I think it’s a realistic goal to say I’d like to see another 40-50 pounds gone in this upcoming year). <BR> <BR> <em>248</em> I actually lost 85 pounds instead of the 40-... Mon, 27 Dec 2010 10:50:18 EST Why I Give Myself an "A" for 2010: A Celebratory Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3832266 A is for AWARE. As in self-aware. While this hasn't all happened this year, I've developed skills for self-awareness, took responsibility for my emotions and actions, and got to know myself a lot more. I'm aware of who I am, of what I need, and of what's in my control to get it. <BR> <BR> A is for ACCOUNTABLE. Every day I've held myself accountable for my food and exercise choices. I've reported them, tracked them, faced them, whatever needed doing. I even did this on holidays. I am a... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 13:53:57 EST Just a Check-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3819753 It's been a mostly uneventful couple of weeks, actually! <BR> <BR> Well, that's not entirely true. I've been busy with some grading as the semester draws to a close. I also hosted Thanksgiving here at my house for my family, and that took some planning and prep. Those were events. <BR> <BR> Still, no dramas. No catastrophes. Well, that's not entirely true either. Just nothing unmanageable. :-) <BR> <BR> I've been keeping up the same healthy routines. I'm enjoying a few more weeks... Thu, 2 Dec 2010 15:04:27 EST The Picture I'd Always Hoped to Take http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3799001 I came across a picture on sparkpeople a few years ago of someone standing inside one leg of their old jeans and swore that would be me one day! So this is me 120 pounds lighter standing in one leg of the jeans I wore when I started this journey! <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/9/l79376372.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> And just for fun, here's a shot of me and my husband, best friend, and best support (MONEYGOOSE) standing together in my old jeans--with them butt... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 08:34:19 EST No, Thank YOU & Some Answers to Questions From My Last Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790091 I'm completely overwhelmed and humbled by the response to my last blog. As I'm writing this, it's up to over 1,050 comments. I've been showered with spark gifts, incredible compliments on my sparkpage and via sparkmail, touching stories of others' struggles and fears, and a tremendous sense of camaraderie and community. I'm so overwhelmed by it, in fact, that I haven't been able to fully take it all in--both in that I haven't yet had the time to read all 1,050+ comments and in that I can't... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 12:26:37 EST 115 Pounds Lost: A Photo Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3775490 I've reached and passed my initial goal weight here on sparkpeople, and have, to date, lost 115 pounds. I can't even begin to describe the way my life has changed over the course of the past 16 months. Thanks to a fantastic support system--included in that this website!--I've got an entirely new life today! I'm going to let the pictures below do the talking! <BR> <BR> This is my "before" picture at about 278 pounds, size 24 <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/7/l37315... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 15:12:12 EST Today I Reached My Goal Weight & A Tidbit of "My Story" http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3763991 Three and a half years ago, I stumbled onto sparkpeople thanks to the recommendation of a friend and entered my then-highest weight of about 250 pounds, and a goal weight of about 165. Unfortunately, as we all know this journey isn't always linear, my weight tracker climbed a little higher within the next year and a half, and I topped out at 278 pounds. At the time, the idea of losing 113 pounds seemed completely insurmountable, a mere pipe dream if you will. For the majority of my time on... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 11:36:48 EST Some Musings on Room for More--or the Next--Growth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3725500 Last week's staycation was, in sum, lovely! It was really nice to have the time off from the usual routine, and Dan and I remained (VERY) active--we ran together 3 times, spent a few hours swimming at the gym, walked about 7 miles in NYC, and hiked 8 miles on the Appalachian trail. We had lovely dinners out and enjoyed our time together. My only regret is that we didn't have more time off. <BR> <BR> As is often the case, the time off did open me up to some elements of my current M.O. th... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 10:10:01 EST Staycation & Running http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3717543 Dan and I have been "stay"cationing this week. Unlike past times when we've staycationed, we were mindful this time to create fun, relaxing, and enjoyable days together. It's been, so far, a truly lovely time. <BR> <BR> This morning, as part of our time together, we decided to go for a jog. What was neat about this for me is that Dan and I could actually reasonably run together. Now, mind you, Dan averages a 7:30-mile pace typically for the distance we ran today (about 4 miles). But i... Fri, 15 Oct 2010 14:57:33 EST Personal Best 5k! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3689729 Feeling pretty great about it. My knee held up. I'm not pushing it though--gonna give it a few days after this. But no fall out. It's feeling really good tonight. <BR> <BR> And I ran my town's 5k in 31:40! A full 3:10 less than the one I ran in July (at 34:50), and I've hardly been able to run since. Folks, don't knock those elliptical machines and the importance of CROSS TRAINING. lol. That's pretty much all I've been able to do, and it's doing the trick of maintaining and IMPROVING... Sun, 3 Oct 2010 19:54:36 EST Am I Losing my Spark? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3681489 Well, yes and no. <BR> <BR> I'm still very much sticking to all the things I've been doing since day one--striving for balance, working out, eating well and in an apporpriate calorie range. I have no inclination to change these things even in the slightest. My weight loss has slowed significantly, but I have less than 15 pounds I'd like to lose at this point--I think that's pretty much to be expected. Incidentally, I now weigh what I weighed the day I got married, and I'm only about 5 p... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 08:29:29 EST Working on Balance in a New Routine http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3661855 It's been a busy week here. Busy is the new black, I'm thinking--it's here to stay for a little while. <BR> <BR> Maintaining balance was a lot simpler when there were less things to blanace. LOL. Slowly but surely over the course of this past month, I'm finding what works for me and doesn't work for me, where I need to loosen up a little and where I need to tighten the reigns. This weekend I stupidly agreed to two sets of plans, guests both Friday and Saturday night. While I'd planned... Wed, 22 Sep 2010 13:29:13 EST Good Things Happening--A (Positive!) Update http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3640339 Sparkfriends! It's been so long! <BR> <BR> Okay, not really. But it's been long enough that I'm feeling quite out of the loop and out of touch here. It's been a busy few weeks, rife with moments of growth, new opportunities, and positive stuff. Here are some highlights & updates. <BR> <BR> I've sarted teaching a college course (for the first time), and am liking it so far. My students are future teachers, and it's fun to be around their enthusiasm and excitement. The class require... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 10:48:18 EST Feeling NORMAL... and a Little Proud. :-) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3593990 Feeling a little proud of myself tonight. :-) <BR> <BR> You know, this knee and not-being-able-to-run setback is the biggest setback I've hit on this journey (thankfully). Boy did I let it throw me for a loop. And BOY am I grateful it happened. I'm feeling really refreshingly normal this week. I went to the gym three times and had good, hard workouts while I was there using new machines and challenging different muscles. On my "off" days I did whatever I felt like I could or wanted t... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 19:31:13 EST Goodbye Sidelined Runner: Hello Active, Able Melissa! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3572736 I've been thinking a lot about my relationship with exercise and my body and image these past few weeks, as my past few blogs demonstrate. On Monday night I had another conversation with my chiropractor (you know, that saintly dude who gives me all the sage advice?) about my knee and "next steps." As always, he reminded me of the need to be patient and reasonable about my expectations and goals, kind to myself, and encouraged me to stay grounded and less reactionary. I left his office with... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 09:58:03 EST The Good, The Bad, and What's in My Control http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3557827 The Good: I've healed up from the surgical procedure I had done (unrelated to my knee). Rest was good for reminding me about the things I still need to work on. Being completely sedentary for nearly two weeks forced me to come face to face with some lingering body image and identity issues. As soon as I made the choice to rest my knee, I felt as if I had gained 20 pounds. A full 24 hours didn't pass yet, and I could have been convinced (if I didn't know better) that I had put on weight ju... Fri, 20 Aug 2010 16:50:07 EST Rest, Recovery, Renewal http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3542394 Thanks, sparkfriends, for the lovely messages, notes, questions, and well-wishes. I'm finally starting to feel a bit back to normal after a rough go last week! I had a minor surgery that laid me out, but I'm recovering just fine and should be back in top form this week. :-) <BR> <BR> The upside is that my knee has also been forced to rest, and it's feeling pretty great--some days it even feels NORMAL! I'll be off my feet for the rest of this week, but I'm hoping in another week to ten ... Mon, 16 Aug 2010 11:45:38 EST