MSQJOHNSON's SparkPeople Blog MSQJOHNSON's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community W 5/22/2013 Bought many fruits and veggies yesterday. Also picked up some soymilks and vanilla waffers (but those are a treat to have occasionally). Had another job interview today. I've had four in the last two weeks and nothing has come from them. As soon as the HR people get on the phone with me, they start asking questions as quickly as they can, not asking real questions but just bs HR questions. I've pretty much given up hope of finding any job worth my Master's degree and just plan on moving to Bo... Wed, 22 May 2013 13:24:19 EST T 5/21/2013 Time to tackle Tuesday. I really need to run by the grocery store. I'm incompletely out of veggies, fruits, and soymilk. I live for those things! Tue, 21 May 2013 12:05:47 EST M 5/20/2013 It's Monday again. Time to start over. I feel like every Monday is a start over. I wish that wasn't the case. I'm going to try to connect all my good work this week into next week and have 14 days of continuous good work. Mon, 20 May 2013 10:03:04 EST R 5/16/2013 Only one day until my trip. I need to pack and get everything ready. I'm also going to need to fit in a workout today and early tomorrow. The more I do, the better I feel. Thu, 16 May 2013 09:33:11 EST W 5/15/2013 Strength training was difficult today! I'm up to five pounds but after my second session (I do three), I switched back to three pounders. It was funny- using the three pound weight felt like nothing. It was like air. I just have to last until tomorrow. Friday and Saturday are all cardio. Wed, 15 May 2013 11:52:41 EST T 5/14/2013 I've been getting my cardio in every single day since the start of May. Most of the time I'm outside and I think that is making a big difference for me. It makes me feel better to be outside daily. Tue, 14 May 2013 13:19:18 EST M 5/13/2013 Hello Monday. I had a great go of it last week. I lost four pounds. Some of that was water weight but it does feel nice to see the scale drop. I have to go away this weekend on a family thing BUT I'm not worried because I am planning ahead. I'll have my boyfriend with me (he is also on SP but he is on the maintenance plan now- lucky!), I'll have my food tracker and I'll have a fitness room at the hotel. I'm ready to tackle that trip! Mon, 13 May 2013 10:52:40 EST S 5/11/2013 Friday was a good day. I have a film shoot today and will be on set for most of the day. I've already tracked my food and am taking things I can eat while on break (apples, carrots, protein bar). Planning ahead keeps me on track. Sat, 11 May 2013 07:56:14 EST F 5/10/2013 I had a moment of weakness and bought a candy bar at the grocery store. I wasn't planning on eating it immediately but it was sitting next to me in the car on the drive home and I just couldn't seem to stop myself. I ate it. However, as soon as I got home, I put it into my food tracker and based the rest of my food around it. I wish I hadn't eaten the candy bar but I am glad that I handled it well and didn't let it start a binge. Fri, 10 May 2013 11:18:34 EST R 5/09/2013 I did my hour-long walk yesterday morning and then went bowling for two hours in the afternoon. I also ate at an Indian buffet. I felt so guilty about eating at a restaurant, that I didn't have anything else to eat for the rest of the day. I just didn't feel like I deserved anymore food. There was no weight gain this morning but there was also no weight loss. I must do better for the next three days. Thu, 9 May 2013 09:33:53 EST W 5/8/2013 Diet and exercise have been great lately. I'm really focused on taking each day one hour at a time. It seems to be working. Wed, 8 May 2013 08:19:32 EST T 5/07/2013 We are seven days in to May. It's been pretty good but the days can always be better! I'm going to work to make the next seven days even better. Tue, 7 May 2013 16:44:54 EST M 5/06/2013 It is Monday! I hope today holds great things... but that is up to me and the work I put into it. Mon, 6 May 2013 09:36:27 EST S 5/05/2013 1. Farmer's Market was great yesterday. I just need to go before 10am. There were no carrots left. And what do I love? Carrots! I did get some strawberries, bok choy, and spinach. <BR> <BR> 2. Did my Sunday weigh-in. I was four pounds heavier. I'm going to call bs on that. I have been doing 30 minutes of strength training with a five pound weight this week. My muscles are noticable. Also, I think I'm retaining water. I refuse to believe that I had an ACTUAL four pound gain. I'll keep up my ... Sun, 5 May 2013 09:35:41 EST S 5/04/2013 I'm going to try to visit the farmer's market today, after my workout. I can't wait to see all the fruits and veggies that the market has! Sat, 4 May 2013 08:21:53 EST F 5/03/2013 Trying to get my sleep back together has been hard. I've been doing a good job keeping up with my cardio/strength training these last two days but I haven't been eating enough or applying to enough jobs or sleep exactly eight hours. I've been sleeping more like ten to twelve hours. I am so tired. Not eating enough is making me tired, trying to sleep from 11pm to 7am, rather than 7am to 3pm is making me tired. My May is starting out rough. However, I realize it so I'm going to try and fix it. ... Fri, 3 May 2013 07:57:05 EST W 5/1/2013 It is May! I'm so ready. I'm no longer working (which I'm not a fan of, I liked having a job), which means I can live during normal hours. Awake at 7am, alseep at 11pm. Working out and applying for jobs. That is what my May is all about! Wed, 1 May 2013 06:48:36 EST W 4/24/2013 It's been an ok day. Getting there slowly. Tomorrow is my father's birthday and I decided weeks ago that the 25th would be the day to take some time off from SP. I'm not looking for an excuse to indulge, I just want to help him celebrate. I'll have fun at lunch and then get back on track. The only big news today is that I went up in the weights that I use. I was using 3 pounds, now I am using 5 pounds. I know, I know, that is so light but I have almost no upper body strength. Getting up to 5 ... Wed, 24 Apr 2013 20:20:52 EST M 4/22/2013 Monday. First day of the week. Having a good time so far. I didn't exercise as much I normally do each day but strength training allows for light days or heavy days. Just doing it, no matter the exertion, is better than nothing. Mon, 22 Apr 2013 20:52:14 EST S 4/21/2013 After this bad week, I wasn't expecting to see anything good on the scale for my Sunday weigh-in. But I had a one pound loss. I'm surprised about that! That gives a little bit of hope back. I only have one more week of work and then I am free from my awful night job. Once I get back to my normal sleep pattern I hope that May and June are better months for my weight and well-being. Nine months of a night job five days a week would push anyone over the edge. Sun, 21 Apr 2013 16:20:19 EST F 4/19/2013 A very bad day indeed. I had breakfast at a restaurant. Things always fall apart for me there. I eat too much and then feel guilty for the rest of the day. I tried to not eat anything else for the rest of the day, to try and make up for the breakfast, but it was too difficult. I had a veggie sandwich on flat bread with guacamole. I feel awful. My weigh-in is on Sunday and I will still be bloated when I step on the scale. This is exactly how I always fail. I just eat and everything falls apart... Fri, 19 Apr 2013 22:20:59 EST R 4/18/2013 After getting my paycheck (the next to last one, my last day of work is April 29), I went by Target to pick up fruits and veggies. There were so many. I bought all my favorites- apples, carrots, asparagus, grapes, and much more. I'm pretty excited. I just hope that I can eat it all before things start to go bad. I sometimes have trouble with my fruits and veggies drying out/molding before I can get my hands on them. That is why I'm going to eat those strawberries first. Strawberries always g... Thu, 18 Apr 2013 17:30:27 EST T 4/16/2013 Now that the warm weather is back, I can't wait to pick up lots of fruits and veggies. I'm not a fan of fall/winter veggie selections (even though fall is my favorite time of year). I've missed all the tasty fresh stuff. Tue, 16 Apr 2013 21:02:35 EST M 4/15/2013 It's Monday. A new week. I try to think of this weight loss journey in terms a week. Just accomplishing each week is my goal. If I think of all the months I have left, I get frustrated. But if I think of each week individually, I find that it helps with my motivation. "I can do a week", I say each week. I'm going to try to lose two pounds this week. Here it goes. Mon, 15 Apr 2013 16:21:49 EST S 4/14/2013 Down one pound. But since I gained a pound last week, I'm back to were I was two weeks ago. I hope next week is another pound (or two) down. Sun, 14 Apr 2013 12:48:00 EST S 4/13/2013 I've been REALLY good this week. Eating correctly every day. I weigh-in tomorrow. I'd like to see at least one pound gone... but the way my body has been acting lately, who can say... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 19:23:29 EST T 4/09/2013 I'm not feeling 100% today. I think last week caught up with me and now I am feeling a little blue. However- it is not the end of the world. I just have to keep going. I'll take it easy today, be nice to myself, and drink some hot tea. Tue, 9 Apr 2013 20:35:38 EST M 4/08/2013 It's a new week. I wasn't happy with the previous one, so I'm going to work extra hard this week. I'm going to be focused and very mindful with everything I do. Mon, 8 Apr 2013 16:41:57 EST S 4/07/2013 Weigh-in today. I had a 1 pound gain. It's not the worst but it is frustrating. I was focused this week but my body apparently didn't care. This is just going to lead me to be even more controlling over everything I eat and drink next week. Sun, 7 Apr 2013 20:30:37 EST R 4/04/2013 Sometimes I get so frustrated with being on SP. I've been here for a year and 4 months. I have only about a 25 lb loss. I write everything down. I do my workouts. <BR> <BR> And it just doesn't seem worth it. <BR> <BR> Good or bad. Right or wrong. It never seems to make a difference. Thu, 4 Apr 2013 19:16:50 EST W 4/03/2013 After my new workout yesterday, my muscles are very sore. My back, my legs, and my shoulders are all feeling that post-work burn. I'm going to give my muscles a day off. Tomorrow I will put them back to work. Wed, 3 Apr 2013 22:40:34 EST T 4/02/2013 Tried my new strength training workout today. It was fun to use new muscles or at least use the same muscles but in a different way. The only negative situation is that I'm having HUGE problems with my Microsoft Word program. It keeps crashing and won't let me open anything. I was trying to apply for a job today but I guess I will have to wait until tomorrow. Mr. S is going to do some work on my laptop tonight. I hope he can fix it (if he can't fix a computer problem, might as well give up on... Tue, 2 Apr 2013 19:00:07 EST M 4/01/2013 A new month. That makes me want to try some new things. I'm switching up my strength training. I have some new plans to follow. Some new muscles to discover. I'll still be following my regular diet plan but I'd like to try something new. However, I'm always nervous to mess with my diet, as it causes me problems for a week or two before correcting itself. I'm in a time crunch. I have a schedule. I can't have my weight stay the same or go up. Mon, 1 Apr 2013 17:05:49 EST S 3/31/2013 Maintained the weight. I'll take it! Sun, 31 Mar 2013 18:17:51 EST S 3/30/2013 Another weigh-in tomorrow. I have not been a very good diet girl this week. I had Easter candy. A lot. I hope there isn't too much damage. I will get back on track starting Monday. It feels good to see the pounds go away, almost better than eating Easter candy. I need to remember that. Sat, 30 Mar 2013 19:50:51 EST F 3/29/2013 I'm working to get back on track and in the right frame of mind. I've been negative and finding excuses. But now that I have acknowledged the negativity, I can work on changing it. Fri, 29 Mar 2013 16:50:24 EST R 3/28/2013 Sorry I forgot to blog yesterday. I was taking a day off from most things. Nothing new to report. Much of the same stress and worry. Thu, 28 Mar 2013 12:19:47 EST T 3/26/2013 I had my parents over for a dinner party. I found that talking while eating keeps me from stuffing my face. I ended with a little bit of everything on my plate but still kept my serving sizes very small. I didn't feel like I was having to choose between having wine or bread or dessert because I had a little bit of everything! It was a great meal and a great time with my parents and Mr. S. I didn't have the time to workout today but I can make it up tomorrow. Tue, 26 Mar 2013 23:42:33 EST M 3/25/2013 When I got home yesterday, I went straight to bed. I was so tired and needing to make up on the lack of sleep. When means I didn't eat anything yesterday. Which also means that I am a eating machine today. There shouldn't be too much damage. I will get back on track Tuesday and stick to my normal routine. One of my major work problems was fixed! I no longer have to work Wednesday. I still have Thursday, Friday, and Saturday graveyard shifts but having Wednesday off will solve a few of my pro... Mon, 25 Mar 2013 17:09:05 EST S 3/24/2013 Another two pounds down! I'm surprised I was able to keep up the two pound loss from the previous week. Here's hoping that this upcoming week will also feature another two pounds down. Sun, 24 Mar 2013 19:31:16 EST S 3/23/2013 My weigh-in is tomorrow. I've kept up my exercise this week but my eating has been erratic. I've had a hard time eating enough, which in turn leaves me weak and tired most of the time. I've been getting between 1,000 to 1,200 for the last week. I only worry because I know that bodies hold on to weight when fewer calories are consumed. I know this first hand. I'm also retaining water and dealing with bloat, which sometimes adds pounds. The other issue- I'll get home at 7am, then sleep until 11... Sat, 23 Mar 2013 22:39:16 EST F 3/22/2013 Still having work stress. Add on the return of my heartburn and things aren't going so well. I haven't had my heartburn for months. I thought it was a fluke, a one time event. However, after today, I think I need to be more careful. I ate too much food too fast. I hope I learned my lesson this time. Fri, 22 Mar 2013 22:35:06 EST R 3/21/2013 There are a bunch of new problems at work. Problems at work make me want to do two things: binge eat and/or binge drink to "help" my emotions. I'm going to work really hard at not letting either of those happen to me. Both might feel good at the time but the once the packages and bottles are empty, that good feeling is nowhere to find. Thu, 21 Mar 2013 22:26:10 EST W 3/20/2013 I had a great strength training and cardio session. Both over 20 minutes long. I didn't mean to do that much, I just got lost in my mind and forgot about the time. For lunch today, Mr. S and I met with my mother at Panera. I had a half order of both the veggie soup and the classics grilled cheese sandwich. Tasty. Slightly stressful conversations. Talking about the future does that to me. I need change but I am nervous about it. Wed, 20 Mar 2013 14:38:47 EST T 3/19/2013 The diet is going fine. The work-outs are going fine. If only I could get my attitude to match. My depression has been very noticeable the last few months. I try to pretend that it isn't there but it is always hiding in my corner. Perhaps once I move and change my surroundings, things will feel better. Tue, 19 Mar 2013 22:23:43 EST M 3/18/2013 It's been a week since I started back with my strength training and my light cardio. I just have to say- oh, how I have missed it. It feels so nice to build my muscles and get my heart pumping. I'm glad I took a break from workout this last month. It helped to clear my head and allowed me to rediscover the fitness lover inside of me. Mon, 18 Mar 2013 20:47:47 EST S 3/17/2013 The good news- I had a two pound loss. That takes the pressure off today. And tomorrow, I do it all over again. Everything I did last week, I need to do again! Sun, 17 Mar 2013 17:27:55 EST S 3/16/2013 After tonight's shift, I get Sunday off. I'll be happy to spend some down time just relaxing and resting. I'm pretty worn out. The extra shifts are nice for my paycheck but not so nice for my well-being. Ate only 1,220 calories today (I didn't do any cardio or strength training) because I have another weigh-in tomorrow. I always get so stressed out and worried about the Sunday weight checks. I've had two weeks of 0 pounds lost. I'm hoping for at least one pound less tomorrow. Sat, 16 Mar 2013 22:35:40 EST F 3/15/2013 I normally work Thursday and Saturday nights, but since I am covering a shift for someone, I am also working tonight. Four days in a row. If I could work a normal 8am to 5pm shift, I wouldn't mind working five days a week. But working 11pm to 7am with no break isn't too fun. A least I fit in a little bit of cardio and strength training. I also ate 1,280 calories. So, at least I have that going for me. My diet and exercise are right on track. Fri, 15 Mar 2013 22:33:10 EST R 3/14/2013 I had Thai food for lunch today. It was veggies and tofu with rice. I wasn't expecting the rice because the online menu makes no mention of it. Wasn't the end of the world. It came with less veggies than I was expecting, so the numbers ended up working out. I was going to have a dessert but I had a beer (Singha) instead. A nice meal. However the conversation was turned towards the move Mr. S and I are taking in July. We plan to move across the country. That part is great. The not-so-great par... Thu, 14 Mar 2013 17:21:12 EST