MSMLPERRY's SparkPeople Blog MSMLPERRY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Day #50: HOW CAN I STOP STRESS FROM AFFECTING MY WEIGHT LOSS EFFORTS?! I'm ashamed to admit this week I am not doing too good. Losing momentum, maybe? I don't think so... I mean, I haven't been working out A LOT but I haven't skipped my walks, which is a sign I'm still on track. I am not overeating, which must mean I didn't quit. <BR> <BR> Yet these days have been somewhat hard. <BR> <BR> I use my computer to work, do my home workouts and (of course) to spark. It wasn't working well so this morning I finally got it fixed. Or so I thought... it crashed twice ... Tue, 14 Dec 2010 22:43:25 EST Day #48: GIVING UP? Ok - I'll try and make this blog short and sweet because (1) my computer isn't working well; (2) it's too late and I need to get some sleep. <BR> <BR> Tonight I went to my friend's birthday party and I indulged - I had cake and beer. My choices left a lot to be desired... <BR> <BR> Not long ago I would've thrown all of my efforts off the board at this point. I blew my diet - this is it. <BR> <BR> But NOT NOW. Yes, I made a few wrong choices. Do I feel guilty about them? Strangely... no. ... Mon, 13 Dec 2010 01:28:52 EST Day #40: EXCUSE BUSTERS (or Healthy Me vs. Lazy Me) <em>56</em> 3.45 p.m. <BR> I don't feel like working out - but I know I need to in order to reach my goals. It's too hot in here... but I have air-conditioning so the temperature is not an excuse. Ok - that's true for my home workout... what about my daily walk? I can wait 'til sunset when it will surely be cooler. Damn, I have no excuse!! <BR> Plus, I'm eating out tonight so I need to burn calories today! <BR> That's it - putting on my workout outfit and start breaking a sweat...! <BR> ... Sun, 5 Dec 2010 17:10:56 EST Day #30: Weigh-In + TOM = NOT a good combo!! My weekly weigh-in this morning showed me I had only lost 100 g. (i.e., 0.2 lb), which led me from 123.2 to 123.0 lb. A little disappointing, I must say since my eating went really good and so did my workouts. YET I also bear in mind "TOM" has just visited me so I am all bloated. Hopefully, I'm just carrying some disgusting water weight... <BR> <BR> <em>15</em> <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> At least there was no gain!! <BR> <BR> Next week I will see if my theory was right... Keep your fingers ... Thu, 25 Nov 2010 08:41:55 EST Day #27: My Mid-section NIGHTMARE (with embarrassing pics) Alright, after over an hour, I finally could download the pics I took today from my cell phone to my computer. I don't know what was wrong! I just couldn't do it! Anyway... <BR> <BR> I can't believe I'm posting these pics - they are sooo embarrassing!!!! I look at my big belly and feel so... so... ENCOURAGED to keep going to lose all that excess fat! <BR> <BR> Now that I look at my pictures, I see that my biggest problem is my midsection. I am not very heavy... in fact, my BMI says "healthy... Mon, 22 Nov 2010 21:10:22 EST Day #23: SPREADING THE SPARK!!!! (and 1.5 lb gone!) Today I had my weekly weigh-in and my weekly appt. with my nutritionist. Just in case you didn't check out my feed... I lost 1.5 lb!!!! Now I am weighing 55.9 kilos, which would equal 123.2 pounds! I'm so excited!!!! Almost 8 pounds lost in 3 weeks! <BR> <BR> Anyway, today I told my doctor about Sparkpeople. She loved it and asked me to email her the link to this website. She thought it is such a great way to supplement my nutrition plan and she is looking forward to taking a look around the... Thu, 18 Nov 2010 19:26:24 EST Day #21: Binge-Free for 3 Weeks!!! I have just realized I have not overeaten for three whole weeks!!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> During this short period of time, I have also successfully resumed my workouts and even though I started by just walking, I sort of "upgraded" it to dancing and elliptical training, too. <BR> <BR> I am glad because today I managed to stay on the elliptical for 5 more minutes compared to yesterday... I'm hoping to work it up to half an hour by the end of the week. So my results for today were a litt... Tue, 16 Nov 2010 18:30:44 EST Day #20: Welcome home, Mr. E! They delivered my new elliptical...!!!!! So happy!!!! <BR> <BR> I have just used it for the first time. Honestly, I thought I was gonna last like 5 minutes on it but I managed to stay on for 20 minutes straight! Ok, I set it to level 1 but it made me sweat like crazy!! If you see my HRM stats for the short workout session, you will see that I worked out at an average heart rate of 85%! Take a look: <BR> <BR> HRM Stats <BR> <BR> <em>314</em> Activity: Elliptical (L1) <BR> <em>314</em> ... Mon, 15 Nov 2010 19:00:36 EST Day #19: My HRM Stats So yesterday I wore my polar hrm for the first time. I was so excited that those 45 minutes flew by! I logged my workout as "freestyle" - it's basically dancing like crazy to the sound of music combined with a little running, jogging and walking (to get my HR down) around the house. I also added some Turbo Jam moves. It was kind of messy but I didn't stop moving at all! It was so much fun! I had no idea I could burn almost 350 calories by dancing and having fun!! Here's the stats for yesterda... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 20:50:25 EST Day #18: COULD I BE ANY HAPPIER?!?!?! Well... I probably could <em>20</em> <BR> <BR> But I'm sooooo excited!!! I FINALLY got myself two belated birthday presents: <BR> <BR> <em>144</em> My new HRM (Polar FT4 silver/black) <BR> <em>144</em> An elliptical trainer <em>314</em> <BR> <BR> Yay!!!! If you had asked me a couple of weeks ago, I would've told you, "No way I can spend money on those things right now!!" but I felt I NEEDED to invest in my body, my health and, basically, myself. So I did some research, closed my e... Sat, 13 Nov 2010 10:49:03 EST Day #17: The Home Gym Equipment Dilemma Well, well... I may be exaggerating a little. Not much of a dilemma, just trying to make a decision here. <BR> <BR> The good news: tomorrow morning I'm going fitness-equipment shopping... YAY!!!! First, I'm gonna check out a few stores I found over the Internet to get an HRM (pedometer included). Cross your fingers! Because I've had so much trouble to find one! I live in a big city and yet I haven't had any luck now but I am sure I was just looking in the wrong places! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I ... Fri, 12 Nov 2010 19:17:54 EST Day #16: My 2nd Weigh-In! Well, today I had my Thursday morning weigh-in and I was a little disappointed to see I had only gone from 125.22 lb to 124.78 lb. Yet I think I might know the reason why this has happened... How can I put it into words...? My bowels have not been "working" for the last few days so I guess that may have something to do with the number on the scale. I need to find a way to be regular again. <BR> <BR> Sooo sorry for sharing TMI with you guys, it's just I'm trying to record my progress/setback... Thu, 11 Nov 2010 10:32:59 EST Day #15: Fighting RUDENESS with SILENCE I just received another (I am saying "another" because it's the 2nd email from the same person) sparkmail from this member who got so upset at me only because I left a comment and tried to help them. What did I do? I deleted it without reading it because I'd had enough with their previous message. <BR> <BR> I can't believe how someone can be so rude with someone who was very polite and kind and tried to lend them a helping hand. I even re-read my comment on their blog to see if I had been r... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 21:49:25 EST Day #11: Do you think this is OK?? Today it was too hot to walk outside so, for a change, I decided to walk at home. I had ordered a pedometer online the other day but I ended up cancelling the order because I was not sure about the merchant's trustworthiness... so I'm still trying to get one. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, this is the math I did to guesstimate my calorie burn and I'd like to know if you think it's ok. <BR> <BR> First, I did a few tests and timed my steps in one-minute intervals; that gave me an average of 125 steps/min... Sat, 6 Nov 2010 14:34:05 EST Day #10: Birthday Present/Food? Not that I have a lot to write today, but I try to keep blogging everyday as a way of keeping myself accountable. <BR> <BR> Eating went great today and I took my usual morning walk. <BR> <BR> I am planning on going shopping tomorrow so I can buy a nice birthday present for myself. I'd like to get some new clothes but I'm not sure yet since I still have weight to lose. But, honestly, I can't come up with a b-day present for myself other than clothes! Maybe shoes... I dunno! Yet it feels so... Fri, 5 Nov 2010 22:44:11 EST Day #9: Almost 6 lb down! =) Just in case you didn't check out my ticker or my status... I'm down from 131.17 lb to 125.22! Wow!!!! <BR> <BR> My doctor was s surprised and even asked me, "But you're eating, right?" lol She warned me that a big part of it might just be water weight but she told me I am doing great. She also told me, "You are very meticulous, right?" because I had listed all these questions about the plan and trying to do everything according to the guidelines. Except for the HUGE amounts of veggies... I ... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 20:35:02 EST TINY QUESTION... Can anyone help me? Just before updating my weight loss ticker, I'd like to know this, should I update it with my current weight WITH or WITHOUT clothes? <BR> <BR> At my doctor's office, my weigh-ins are with my clothes on (always pretty much the same: a skirt, a tank top and sandals - it's spring here!). But when I take off my clothes at home and weigh myself in, there's a difference of around 2.8 lb less! <BR> <BR> What do you think? I can't wait to update my ticker! I've lost a bunch of weight over the las... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 18:20:35 EST Wardrobe Challenge #1: My Brown Boots I have been inspired by my sparkfriend APIRLRAIN888 who measures her progress based on her clothes (if you haven't yet, check out her blog, it rocks!) and decided to start my own little wardrobe challenge, too. <BR> <BR> First challenge: my tall high heel boots. I tried them on today and I can zip them up only up to 9 cm (that's somewhere around 3.5 inches) from the top. So, let's see how long it takes me to be able to zip them up completely! <BR> <BR> Ok - off to my nutritionist's office.... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 16:12:50 EST Day# 8: Tomorrow's the "W"-Day Today I did well again eating-wise and walked 2.64 miles (little by little I am adding more!). <BR> <BR> Tomorrow I have my 1st weigh-in after I started this new approach. But this morning I was just too curious so I stepped on the scale before my morning shower (that is, with no clothes on) and I gotta say, as against the +133 lbs I saw on the 26th, I did like better the number I saw this time! I am short so every extra pound shows! Most of my fat seems to be placed in my belly and my butt.... Wed, 3 Nov 2010 22:23:25 EST Day #7: 1 WEEK!!! It may not be much for many people, but I'm happy that I've been able to sustain my healthy eating ways for 7 days straight (no cheating at all!) and I'm going stronger than ever! <BR> <BR> I actually have fun trying to meet the carbs/fat/protein requirements for the day (kinda weird, huh?) <BR> <BR> Today I took a walk in the morning (a little more than yesterday: 2.26 miles) and I'm going crazy trying to find a place in my city where I can by a pedometer. I know I could buy one online but... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 21:33:53 EST Day #6 (YAY!) Two awesome things that I accomplished today: <BR> <BR> * I resumed my workout routine. Ok, I didn't walk a lot (2.18 miles) but I am sort of building momentum! <BR> <BR> * I finally met my calorie range and the carbs/fat/protein amounts are great, too! <BR> <BR> 1254 kcal. <BR> 168 g carbs (163-236) <BR> 35 g fat (32-56) <BR> 70 g protein (60-127) <BR> <BR> YAY!!!!!! <BR> <BR> Mon, 1 Nov 2010 22:09:41 EST Day #5 (New Plan) Today I overslept. And when I say overslept, I mean I woke up at... 3 p.m.!!! So I had trouble meeting my calorie range today. I didn't have time to eat! Hahaha <BR> <BR> Yet I am not worried because (1) I am not hungry thanks to this plan; (2) I know that very soon I will be able to eat the whole 1200 calories! I'm almost there so I trust I will make it. <BR> <BR> It's kind of funny how I used to struggle with overeating and now I am trying to reach a 1200-calorie intake on a daily basis.... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 23:47:22 EST Day #4 (New Plan) My 4th day ain't over yet but I am blogging this because I need to remember what this feels like. Today, after a long time of yo-yo dieting, I felt like I was NOT dieting for the first time. No, no binging. But I actually enjoyed what I ate! Yay! <BR> <BR> At lunchtime, I didn't feel like cooking or cutting up veggies, so I decided to have an all-fruit lunch for a change. Blueberries, peaches, kiwis... yummy! Then I had a cereal bar and a low-fat latte... super yummy! And then it hit me... ... Sat, 30 Oct 2010 19:35:10 EST Day #3 (New Plan) Third day and I'm on a roll! <BR> <BR> Not easy because changing is so hard but what is really helping me is the fact that I get SOOOO full from the HUGE salads I eat for lunch and dinner, that cravings have pretty much DOA. <BR> <BR> The only problem is that I find it a little difficult to eat ALL the veggies and fruit I am supposed to eat for the day (which is A LOT, think something similar to ETL). It's just I end up really, really full!!!! <BR> <BR> Perhaps it has to do with the fact ... Fri, 29 Oct 2010 22:32:27 EST Day #1 (New Plan) Yesterday I had the biggest salad for lunch! I probably should've eaten more but I was soooo full after eating all those veggies that I just had a light dinner. I did my best and, even though it's far from perfect, I am glad I chose not to give up. My fridge is full of veggies and fruit and healthy food so I'm not in danger haha According to my plans, I'm thinking of making a yummy veggie sandwich for lunch. I'd also like to try one new healthy recipe a week just to keep it interesting. Somet... Thu, 28 Oct 2010 09:14:27 EST Back on track Today my new nutritionist and I discussed my new customized plan. It's cool because she gave me a sort of cool brochure with the guidelines and I can create my own menus based on them. She told me it might be a bit hard the first week because I need to plan my meals pretty carefully but I did it tonight and it was pretty fun, actually. <BR> <BR> It's not a 100% plant-based diet (it's less strict) but I have to eat LOOOTS of veggies so I have the chance to apply many of the things I've learn... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 02:49:36 EST Depression I thought depression was off the table for me after all these years. I tried to fight it but once again it took me over. <BR> <BR> This overwhelming feeling of not belonging anywhere. This terrifying thought of not knowing what to do. True, I'm still trying but nothing seems to work. <BR> <BR> And I am so tired. <BR> <BR> I feel I throw in the towel every morning and every night I try to convince myself I can make it through this. But then the morning comes and waking up to the same day ... Sun, 24 Oct 2010 18:53:25 EST Someone else is gonna help me, too! Ok - This morning I woke up and realized I needed some guidance so I asked for an appointment with a nutritionist who is going to help me during this journey. <BR> <BR> I went to this really cool nutrition center and met the doctor. She's very nice! What I loved about their weight loss approach is that is sort of a "Sparkpeople" kind of thing (except there's not calorie counting involved). They approach weight loss as a whole new lifestyle rather than a miraculous diet. They give you the to... Fri, 22 Oct 2010 02:31:12 EST A bumpy second week but still going! This second week is definitely harder than the first one. <BR> <BR> Yet I notice the HUGE difference between last week and this week in my state of mind. That made me think of how bad I don't want to disappoint myself once again! <BR> <BR> No, I haven't binged. But even though I haven't been overeating, I am aware I have made a few wrong choices. <BR> <BR> So now I could: <BR> <BR> (a) bask in self-pity and regret and give up; or <BR> (b) keep trying and achieve success <BR> <BR> I won... Thu, 21 Oct 2010 00:52:14 EST I dropped the ball... :S Today I was feeling bored out of my mind, yet I had to stay home because I had work to do. I was feeling pretty bummed, so I dropped the ball and had a 300-kcal chocolate treat and 4 crackers. Shoot! I was being so good! <BR> <BR> I am terrified I might go back to my old habits!!!!!! <BR> <BR> However, I think this could be of help. How? Well... after cheating, I feel like crap. I mean, I am aware I feel much better when I am taking care of myself and I'm not giving into my cravings. So I ... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 21:40:06 EST From 131.6 to 123.6 lb!!!!!! This is sooooooo amazing! <BR> <BR> I'm down 8 lb since last Monday! Gosh... I WAS bloated and obviously eating all the wrong stuff! <BR> <BR> I am aware that I lost so much (water) weight during this first week but then my weight loss will slow down, but I'm so happy and excited! <BR> <BR> I just had fruit for breakfast and right now I am having my first bottle of water. <BR> <BR> Every night I visualize myself weighing 105 lb. It's easy because that was my former weight! Anyway, even i... Mon, 18 Oct 2010 10:44:37 EST Change of Plans! No IFs! <BR> <BR> SO EXCITED TO BECOME A NUTRITARIAN! <BR> <BR> <em>30</em> <em>9</em> <em>306</em> <em>345</em> <em>250</em> <em>194</em> <em>45</em> <em>289</em> <em>491</em> <em>258</em> <em>267</em> <em>485</em> <em>69</em> <em>284</em> <em>291</em> <em>147</em> <em>474</em> <em>216</em> <em>311</em> <em>331</em> Sun, 10 Oct 2010 04:00:24 EST Day 7: Making progress 101 minutes of cardio today = 532 calories burned!!!!!!! <BR> <BR> And I only had ONE (1) beer before going out. <BR> <BR> SO PROUD OF ME RIGHT NOW <BR> <BR> <em>243</em> Sun, 3 Oct 2010 17:55:40 EST Day 6: Priorities I skipped lunch with my friends today and arrived late so I could hang out with them without adding extra calories. <BR> <BR> My black jeans are still kinda tight but they fit again!!!!! <BR> <BR> It's Saturday and NO beer at all =) <BR> <BR> I didn't feel like working out yet I put on my fitness attire and turbo jammed for 35 minutes. <BR> <BR> <em>104</em> Sat, 2 Oct 2010 21:07:45 EST From now on &#9658; A NEW BEGINNING (Day 5) I've been working out all week. I'm hungry and having dinner in an hour or so. Drinking my water right now. Very excited. <BR> <BR> If *you* wanted to know... THESE are my priorities. <BR> <BR> <em>204</em> Fri, 1 Oct 2010 19:22:05 EST Day 1 Giving SP a try. <BR> <BR> Waiting to see what I finally do on this Saturday night. <BR> <BR> Having a beer even though I know I'm off to a wrong start this way... I just need a little time to adjust! <BR> <BR> Admitting I am an emotional eater. <BR> <BR> Trying to forget everything that led me here. <BR> <BR> Move on. <BR> <BR> Start from scratch. Once again. But I guess that's just life. <BR> <BR> The day I totally give up will be the day when I will feel deeply worried. <BR> ... Sat, 16 May 2009 21:33:46 EST