MSMEMUCH's SparkPeople Blog MSMEMUCH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community 3 More Pounds Gone Weighed in today and lost another 3 lbs making a total of 40 lbs from my heaviest and 20 lbs since starting SparkPeople at the beginning of the year. Very happy <em>334</em> Hoping to get down to 250 by mid to end of July. Sat, 30 Jun 2012 00:29:23 EST Compliments I have been receiving a lot of compliments and notices of my weight loss lately. Now most of my friends know that I have been trying to lose weight and I feel even though they say they see it every weekend when they see me it doesn't feel special. I feel they only say it because they know that is what I am trying to do. Now my friend this past weekend did make a compliment to me and I had told her I had lost another 2 lbs and she said it looked like a lot more than that and that felt really... Thu, 28 Jun 2012 00:13:04 EST Vacation is over After a much needed 10 days off of work and a short trip to NYC I am ready to start again. I am picking up where I left off with the Spring into Shape Challenge and hopefully will lose those 3 lbs I gained on vacation plus more by the end of next month. Mon, 28 May 2012 01:27:08 EST Yesterday was a great day I went to the movies with a friend then went shopping for a new outfit for a night out. I found a really cute shirt at Target and it was a size L!!!! I was amazed when I put it on and it fit. Even though the scale hasn't been moving at the rate I want it to I must be doing something right. So off the high I got from shopping I went home and did a 40 minute workout before getting ready to go out. Had a great hair day (which is something to celebrate when you have curly hair) and I don't kno... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 17:26:56 EST Proud of Myself I don't know if it was the 6 lb weight gain last week and inches gained even after doing stuff right or something else, but I was feeling really down this week. But vowed that I was going to get through it and I did. I did at least 25 minutes of cardio every day this week. And earlier I was feeling down because even though I had been doing cardio for 3 months I still couldn't get through my 1 mile walk away the pounds videos without having to take several breaks. Tonight I came home and pu... Sun, 8 Apr 2012 01:08:52 EST Wanting to Cry I have stayed on track this week. Done all my exercises and some, tracked all my food, even though some wasn't the best choices. Stayed within or slightly under my calorie range, which is 1500-2000 roughly and never went below 1300. But still I gained 6 lbs!!!!! And it's not only the scale that's going the wrong way its my measurements too. I either stayed the same or gained in all areas. I just want to give up. I have better things I can do with my time then think about what I will eat ... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 01:39:16 EST Momentum Finding my momentum and motivation again. I have been doing fairly well this week. Did all my exercises plus some extra and stayed around my goals in calories. I think I am finding my way back on track and hoping to keep it there. We'll just have to wait and see how long this lasts. Fri, 30 Mar 2012 02:37:56 EST Left over calories I have over 600 calories before I get to my minimum caloric intake for today and I have nothing in my house that looks appealing. I don't know what to eat. Don't know if I will go to the corner and just pick something up from the local fast food place or just not eat anything. I'm not that hunger but I do plan on doing some strength training before I end my day so I would like to get something in my stomach. Why is nothing sounding good right now? Thu, 29 Mar 2012 00:37:27 EST Strange but good. . .I think So after a month of birthday celebrations and going away parties <em>236</em> and a horrid night yesterday with 6 cupcakes <em>475</em> I was determined to get back on track before the month ended <em>12</em> . Not really thinking or planning what I would eat today I went about as I normally would. Had a yogurt and a bit of fruit for breakfast and ate what seems best at the cafeteria for lunch and came home and had my leftover cod with the new Kraft Fresh Makers and some creamed spinach a... Tue, 28 Feb 2012 01:10:56 EST Not Feeling Well I am just not feeling well overall. I feel nauseous and weak. My vertigo is back with a vengeance, every morning I wake up to the world spinning. I don't know what's wrong. Hoping a day of rest tomorrow will alleviate some of the problem, but I will just have to wait for this bout of vertigo to run its course. Don't know if I ate something that doesn't agree with my body or if I am actually getting sick. I did my strength exercises for today but not sure if I will do any cardio. I re... Fri, 3 Feb 2012 01:06:34 EST Lost momentum I just can't seem to find that momentum. Last month was great did the January Jumpstart and was tracking regularly but then that ended and have been dragging ever since. Just joined the 28 day bootcamp challenge and hoping this will help bring me out of the slump I have been in. So tired and loosing the steam to get this weight off and move. Wed, 1 Feb 2012 01:07:34 EST Needing to Get Back on Track After a bad weekend of no cardio and excessive eating yesterday I really need to get back on track. Gonna start with doing some cardio before work. I think I need to change up when I do my exercising because not doing it on the weekends is just getting me off track on those days and making me lazy. Mon, 30 Jan 2012 12:14:16 EST Why Do I Let People Do This To Me? or "babblings of frustration at work" I was having an ok week. I lost a bit of motivation and didn't give as much effort into my cardio, but I still did it. And I wasn't tracking my food as diligently as I should have been. But my self-esteem has been high and I was feeling overall good about myself. I feel I really helped some of the girls at work and was feeling like I actually may have made a difference in some of these girls lives. Then my supervisor (who I already don't like because he always has a way of making me feel b... Fri, 27 Jan 2012 01:41:13 EST Shocked and Surprised A few things have done this for me today. I was shocked and surprised when I did my measurements today and found that I have a loss of over 10 inches total taken from both arms, both thighs, waist, hips and chest. I feel a bit skinnier but on me that's not much, still a long way to go. <BR> <BR> The second thing that shocked and surprised me today was as reading through all the message board posts how people are still eating so little and exercising so much and are mad about not losing go... Mon, 23 Jan 2012 23:17:48 EST Adjusting Goals I made a few tweaks to my weight loss goals in hopes that it will be more easily attainable. While I like everyone losing weight want it all to just magically disappear I know that is not possible. But I think my me aiming for an almost 8 lb a month loss I was setting myself up for failure and disappointment. So I adjusted my time on when I would like to reach my ultimate goal weight so that is was a loss of 5 lbs a month. While that is no where near as quickly as I would like to see the s... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 15:18:11 EST Work is Not Helping Where I work I get to eat a meal with the patients for free. It isa cafeteria style meal. Since I work 2nd shift it is usually their dinner (my lunch) and I find it very hard to pass up free food. There is always a salad bar available but I find it hard to pass up the hot home cooked stuff. The workers seem to think it is a good idea to fill half a plate with whatever the carb is and I have to tell them "no I only want half of that and more veggies". But I still seem to end up with over ... Thu, 19 Jan 2012 01:46:53 EST Investing in My Future I have been dishing out the cash recently on various items that I hope will help in my future healthier lifestyle. Over the past 6 weeks I have made some purchases that a year ago I never thought I would. It all started with a crock pot that was purchased during a Black Friday sale. I had wanted one for a long time and finally just decided to do it. I then bought an air popper for popcorn. After Exercise TV went off the air I was stuck with what do to for cardio so I broke down and bought... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 19:10:39 EST Confessions of a Fast Food Junkie I used to stop up to 3 times a day at some fast food restaurant. My hunger, nose and lack of motivation to cook were my main reasons. I would wake up at around noon and not eat. I would leave for work at around 2 and be hungry so I would stop at the McDonald's that is on the corner then eat another meal at work with the kids at around 4:30. Occasionally if I wasn't able to eat with the kids I would stop at one of the 5 fast food places within a quarter of a mile from my work . Then on the... Sat, 14 Jan 2012 02:24:20 EST Frustration Has Set In Did my weekly weigh in yesterday and found that I gained back 4 of the 5 pounds I had lost. After almost a month at this I have only lost 1 pound and am very frustrated. I know I shouldn't be, that there is so much more than just what the scale tells you but it is still hard when you have so much weight to lose and are trying to do all the right things and still don't see the scale dropping. I know there are still areas that I have to get better control of like my snacking. Last night was... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 13:28:33 EST The Bad and the Good So the last few days have had some good and some bad. My source for cardio videos has gone away. There is no more exercisetv which really bummed me out, I was at a complete loss at how to get in my cardio so last night I went and dropped $10 on a Leslie Sansone DVD. Hope it was a good choice. And I have also been searching for my weights and can't find them. Just another thing I have lost in all of my so many moves over the years. So I bought a new pair. My laptop is broke. It just wo... Fri, 6 Jan 2012 17:33:31 EST A Day in the Making I was on a high the last 2 days after a good new year and a good day grocery shopping when a guy actually was checking me out (and in a good way). Not much boosts your self esteem more than an attractive guy making eyes at you. I started the January Jumpstart Challenge and was all about it. Did the first two days with not even a second thought. But today is another day. I woke up not ready for the day, I was extremely tired and then work called to cancel me. So now I have a whole day ahead ... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 17:22:20 EST What the End of One Year and the Beginning of Another Brought Me Last night had it's ups and downs. I am usually an introvert, don't talk to many people outside my little group of friends. So, when heading out last night my friend Jen and I decided it was our goal to talk to at least one person we didn't know. Preferably a male of the straight persuasion. All did not look good when our friend Nick decided to bring his ex-boyfriend turned current boyfriend as of earlier that day. Jen and I thought we were going to be doomed to a night at the gay bar with n... Sun, 1 Jan 2012 16:59:48 EST Hoping to make this week a good one I am feeling much more positive this morning after a very rough week. I have dropped the last week from my shoulders, it is over and done with and I can't change anything that happened. I am hoping I can stay on track and actually start losing this weight. Now that the holiday's are over and the world can start getting back to normal. Looking forward to hanging out with friends tonight and teaching them how to knit and crochet and watch a movie and gossip (what we do best) and probably eat... Mon, 26 Dec 2011 12:37:43 EST Not in a good mood Yesterday I thought I was going to not have to work because I asked to be the first one called and cancelled if we didn't need as many people in but instead 3 other people are called to not work and I had to come in. I was so angry and upset and it stayed with me all day. I didn't end up eating very much and went way below my goals on almost everything. And I have a feeling today will be a repeat of yesterday. I asked to be called since I worked yesterday maybe I can have Christmas Day off... Sun, 25 Dec 2011 09:55:46 EST Festering in Depression I woke up early today and was in a good mood. I have the day off before having to work both Christmas Eve and Christmas Day. I have a friend in town from out of state and was planning on a fun night out with friends. But now all my friends just want to sit around and wallow in misery together. All their emoness has put me in a emo mood. I know they are going through some tough times and want to be supportive and have been all week giving them words of wisdom and suggestions on how to feel ... Fri, 23 Dec 2011 10:12:50 EST Holiday Party and other going ons Went to my friends annual holiday game night party last night. While I was good on one thing I was terrible with the rest. I stayed away from the alcohol so yeah me. But I did gorge on all the rest of the unhealthy pleasantries set before me. I didn't even bother trying to track them because they were all homemade stuff. Had some frosted sugar cookies and a cheesecake and fudge cupcake, and ungodly amounts of what my friends and I call "sausage crack" it is a sausage dip my friend makes ev... Sun, 18 Dec 2011 16:31:45 EST Starting off Off to the same start as always. Seem to eat whatever the f*ck I feel like and them hate myself after. I just love the taste of food too much. I love reliving that taste with each bite I take then feel sad when the plate is empty. My mouth yearns for more of the flavor. My stomach may be saying it has had enough but the tongue always seems to win. It also wasn't much help to the ego when the entire day at work my pants kept falling below my FUPA and my shirt coming up exposing said FUPA... Sat, 17 Dec 2011 03:13:27 EST