MSMALIK's SparkPeople Blog MSMALIK's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Conquering fears!! I used to have a huge fear of going to the gym. I pictured muscle heads and very fit, glamorous folks in them and here I was morbidly obese trying to go to the gym. So I always, always felt intimidated. <BR> <BR> But then I joined a very quiet little quaint one a few years ago. Nothing but old people and a few muscle heads. No one trying to tell me I am doing an exercise wrong or questioning what I was doing. And this satisfied me for a while. But this gym got boring. It only had treadmills,... Fri, 25 Oct 2013 09:19:21 EST Lost my mind. So I lost my weight with it. It amazingly cliche to decide to get healthier because of a failed relationship, but that is exactly what happened. <BR> <BR> Have you ever made someone you whole life, and obtaining them your whole goal that you get lost in them and forget about you? Twisting your whole life around, and LOSING yourself, doing things you said you wouldnt ever do and constantly contradicting yourself. <BR> <BR> This was me for 2 years. All for a man (sadface I know!) And only for him to disappear and pretend... Tue, 8 Oct 2013 13:13:57 EST