MSILVER94's SparkPeople Blog MSILVER94's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Check in/ goals and numbers Morning everyone! <BR> <BR> I have been back on almost 4 months now. The highest I was this year was 239lbs and the last time I weighed on 7/19/14 I was 227.2lbs. So a total of 12lbs. I say slowly but surely! And I definitely say I'd rather be where I'm at now than where I was! And 12lbs gone definitely makes a difference on how you feel. My goal was to be out of the 230's by the end of June but I reached that about a week into July. My end of July goal is to reach 223lbs, which I am ... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 10:18:29 EST 2 months back on, check in! Hello everyone! <BR> <BR> I figured it was time for me to do a check in. I started back up on 4/4/14 at 238lbs and my last weigh in I was 234.2lbs. Of course I do not hold everything into the scale number and as well if I really did I would be disappointed with those numbers. But I really am not! The first 3 weeks the scale actually kept moving up! I know it was just my body adjusting to changes/ holding water etc.! Actually my guy suggested I increase my water, which I did to 5-6 bottles... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 17:26:06 EST Update/ check-in Hello all who may read my blog :) <BR> <BR> Well it looks like I haven't blogged in over a year. So an update is in order. <BR> I currently weigh 237. I have been eating right and working out daily for going on 3 weeks now. I cold heartedly without a doubt feel like I am finally in a good place all around to stay focused this time, to at least get myself back to the level of health I originally obtained. I definitely wasn't in a bad place all this time but having to adjust to changes i... Wed, 14 May 2014 12:15:02 EST Week recap <BR> <BR> Well despite keeping my goal in mind and doing the things I needed to do, I did not make goal which was 215lbs. I started the week at 217.0lbs and hit my low for the week of 216.8lbs on 2/6/13/ was very excited I would make 215lbs/ and then everyday after the scale went up and up. Today it says 220.0lbs. The good news is I know there is no way I truly gained 3lbs this week with counting my calories and working out an hour cardio 5 days this week plus 3 days of weights. The oth... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 11:18:21 EST Goal for week 2/4/13-2/10/13 <BR> Good morning everyone, <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning 2/4/13 at 217.0lbs making me down a total of 5.6lbs since 1/3/13. It was slowly but surely and all those little losses added up and I can say I loss 5.6lbs, which actually sounds really good to my ears right now. That's amost 6lbs in a month, not shabby at all. <BR> <BR> My goal for this week is to go from 217lbs to 215lbs, which is very reasonable, so that is what I am shooting for. <BR> <BR> Of course I will keep weighin... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 07:42:01 EST Jan. 2013 wrap-up <BR> <BR> I just wanted to do a recap of the last month real quick. I think doing a recap will help keep me accountable and get my mind right for this new month. I am thankful for new starts and each 1st of the month can be a new beginning. <BR> <BR> Last month I weighed in on the 3rd at 222.6! YIKES! I was out of work for about 6 months, fell in love and enjoyed the holidays!!! It definitely caught up with me. <BR> <BR> My goal was to be 210lbs by the end of the month. Today I weig... Fri, 1 Feb 2013 22:41:03 EST My Truth!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <BR> The only way I AM going to get to where I AM going is to be honest. And here are my truths that I have to face and put on the table. <BR> <BR> <BR> Black and white truth: My lowest weight was 187-189lbs. Held briefly. Substained low, 194lbs. <BR> Black and white truth: The last time I weighed on 1/8/13, I weighed 219.8lbs. <BR> <BR> <BR> I have many stories, reasons and excuses, some are even pretty reasonable and make since why I would have gained. But I hav... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 13:33:47 EST By Grace and Grace Alone Hello all of my friends! <BR> <BR> I am sorry for my absence. I have been gone a long time. I may have stopped in for a day or two here and there but for the most part I have been gone for many, many months. And in that time I have been dealing with a lot of things that I kept to myself. <BR> <BR> These past 6 months have molded me into another person. I've learned a lot about people but more importantly I've learned even more about myself. On June 29th of last year I came back in fr... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 22:14:06 EST My 4 year Spark Anniversary is coming!! I can't believe it...I just realized the other day when I was looking at my pledge on my fridge dated 6/24/2008! 2008!! Wow...In those 4 years I have plenty of bad and plenty of good that has happend to me. But at the end of the day, I will say I have maintained a healthy lifestyle. So hopefully it is safe to say this is a lifestyle for me. Sure I have been up and down weight wise but nothing crazy. <BR> <BR> I can't lie though I am sad that starting in 2011 and up til now I have been the ... Wed, 23 May 2012 15:00:33 EST Pics! Day 1 on Spark, Day 1 WMS, Today! 6/28/2008 253lbs (not my highest, 277 was my highest!) <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 9/14/2011 210lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 12/14/2011 189.8lbs <BR> <img src=""> Thu, 15 Dec 2011 10:12:56 EST WMS 12/14/2011 Morning! I know I have been falling behind on my posts, BUT I AM STILL HERE!! and still keeping track of my numbers! So I hit my end of the year goal, which was to at least be in the 180's (now I am 189.8)! BUT the second half of my goal was but the best would be to be in the low 180's! So now I can work to getting to my ultimate gift to myself this year and that would be to be in the low 180's by 2012! Heck, I'll even take the mid 180's but I think I can get to 184! We shall see, but I will... Wed, 14 Dec 2011 09:15:59 EST WMS 11/23/11 and 11/30/2011 Morning everyone!! I am behind due to the holidays and being away from a last week I weighed in and didn't post I also took pictures but haven't posted them- I guess I will keep last weeks pics just for my own personal pictures are pretty much maxed out anyway. I need to sort though which ones to delete :( but I like them all, they all show where I've been and my progress...but I guess I will have to decide. Anyway I weighed this morning but didn't take pics, I w... Wed, 30 Nov 2011 10:40:06 EST WMS- Day 63 11/16/2011 Week 9 <BR> Good morning all! <BR> <BR> I am a few days behind posting this but things have were hectic on Wednesday and yesterday I was sick. <BR> <BR> Last week I was 197.2lbs and I weighed in this week at 195.4lbs for a total of 1.8lbs lost for the week. That is also a total of losing 15lbs since starting the Watch Me Shrink Challenge- 63days. That is also only 6.4lbs away from the 180's! So slowly but surely making my way. <BR> <BR> The holiday will NOT ruin me!!!! <BR> <BR> Day 1 210lbs ... Fri, 18 Nov 2011 13:39:52 EST Day 56/ Week 8!! W M S! Once again I am very pleased with my outcome...down 2.4lbs to 197.2. Was 199.6lbs last week. So I have 10lbs to lose by the end of the year to meet my personal goal of 187lbs. I am happy with how I am looking in my pictures too. I am just feeling and looking better and better each week. <BR> <BR> Day 1 210lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 7 199.6lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR>... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 10:34:18 EST Well this makes me feel good!! Pictures I've been saying two things: 1) I feel better at this current weight than I did last time I was 199.6lbs and 2) My main focus right now is getting back to 187lbs again, my lowest ever weight. I just looked through my photos from when I was 187lbs on 11/23/2010--almost exactly a year ago. lol Like I said!! I fell off right at Thanksgiving time of last year. Well I pulled up todays picture and that picture and put them side by side and I was very pleased at what I saw...not too much of a dif... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 16:08:42 EST WMS 6 Vs Week 7 Week6 202.2lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Week 7 199.6lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 6 202.2lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> Week 7 199.6lbs <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 2 Nov 2011 12:25:56 EST W M S Day 49/ Week 7!! :) With pictures! Wow does time fly! Well 7 weeks ago I was feeling down and out about my body and where I had let meself get to. I felt bloated and chunky again...and well this year has just been a rough one for your me!!! But today looking back and being here 7 weeks seems like such a short period of time for what I have gained!! BY LOSING! I started at 210 and now I have broken out of the 200's again! 199.6lbs today! I haven't been out of the 200's ALL year! And you know I think this go around I am even fir... Wed, 2 Nov 2011 12:22:53 EST WMS Day 42 10/26/2011 Yay! I went from 203.8 to 202.2 this week...Getting closer and closer to onederland again! And now I am back down a total of 75lbs!! I am feeling better and better physically and mentally. When I lose 5 more pounds I'll feel more at peace and pretty close to the range I was sitting at before I fell off...of course I don't plan on stopping there though!! So in 42 days I've loss 7.8lbs. And gained....who knows how many pounds in muscle :) <BR> <BR> Day 1 8/14/2011 210lbs <BR> <img src="http... Wed, 26 Oct 2011 11:08:20 EST WMS Week 4 VS Week 5 Week 4 207.2lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 5 203.8lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 4 207.2lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 5 203.8lbs <BR> <img src=""> Wed, 19 Oct 2011 09:04:25 EST WMS Day 35 10/19/2011 Yay!! Well I am happy to see that the scale finally moved with pounds this week instead of just ounces!! :) Last week I was 207.2 and today I am 203.8 for 3.4lbs lost! Woo Hoo! Yay!! I am definitely starting to feel smaller again...I just can't wait for it to keep coming off! Looking forward to getting back out of the 200's! If I continue to push really hard, that very well could be next week!!! <BR> <BR> Start Day 1 9/14/2011 210lbs <BR> <img src=" Wed, 19 Oct 2011 08:57:39 EST Non Scale victories with WMS Challenge thus far Okay well the pictures are the proof in the pudding for me...BUT I have to be honest and admit the scale not moving IS upsetting me or having some kindof effect on me if even for a small moment. Don't get me wrong, at this point NOTHING is getting in my way, I am very committed to this. I have nothing but time right now to focus on myself and I am using my time wisely to do that and to get myself in a healthy place in all accounts before I do try to fill my time again with relationships (fr... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 12:32:58 EST Week 4 *One Month* WMS 10/12/2011 Pics 9/14/2011 Day 1 210lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 9/21/2011 Last Week Day 21 207.6lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 10/12/2011 Day 28 207.2lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 9/14/2011 Day 1 210lbs <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> 9/21/2011 Last Week Day 21 207.6lbs <BR> <img src="... Wed, 12 Oct 2011 08:48:42 EST Week 3 WMS Alll Man!!! The scale said something a lot more appealing yesterday when I took a sneap peak...but today it said 207.6...which is still a loss from 208.4 last week for a loss of .8 this week. I will still take that! My total weight loss after 3 weeks is 2.4lbs...each week was a point something...I'll take that as well! lol progress is progress...I keep forgetting to do my measurements, but I truly think visually it definitely looks more than 2.4lbs. I know I am gaining muscle. <BR> <BR> Day... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 09:00:47 EST W M S Pics-Total of 2 Weeks Okay for some reason I was really nervous for my weigh-in and pics today! I guess it was because I had been working so hard and if I couldn't tell a difference or the scale did not move I would have been depressed! Also I think because there was such a big difference in my 1st week I was worried it would slow down I guess. Weeeell thankfully the scale moved and I think I can even notice a difference in my pics. Looks like in the front pictures my sides are coming in more! Slowly but surely... Wed, 28 Sep 2011 09:28:34 EST WMS Start of Week 2/ Day 7 9/21/2011 I am so thankful for this challenge because it keeps my mind thinking, noo you got to work out you have pictures tomorrow!! Or you have pictures in 3 days!..whatever it is definitely motivating me to make better choices eating wise and work out harding when I am working out. I am also thankful for this challenge because it gives me something to focus on other than the scale! I can really see a difference and am proud of my hard work because I see the difference in the pictures...b... Wed, 21 Sep 2011 08:56:17 EST Excited already see changes after 3 days- pics Well I'm excited so even though I'll probably post again soon for my week 2 pics I just wanted to share my improvement from 3 days in. I still have a lot of work to do. I can't wait til my vision of how I want to look like in my cute pink pants is what shows up on the camara! And I'm even hoping that maybe those cute pink pants wont even fit anymore and I'll have to find a substitute!! But lil moments that motivate me, I'll take them to get me to the bigger picture! <BR> <BR> Day 1 <BR> ... Mon, 19 Sep 2011 14:39:18 EST WMS Week 1 9/14/2011 I joined a new team called Watch Me Shrink and you have to post a new front and side picture every month...and this is my first one...Well it was definite eye opener to how much I have slipped...I guess in my mind I still looked like some of my older but better pictures! I am embarassed to post these, but I will draw from that embarassment to have something a lot better next month to post!!! Ugh! here they go... <BR> 9/14/2011 Week 1~ 210lbs <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkp... Thu, 15 Sep 2011 10:13:04 EST Sometimes the difference is how you think I was watching a show yesterday and a therapist said something to the fact of you have to exterminate the ANTS in your mind. The Automatic Negative Thoughts. Every time you think negative it’s going to have a negative impact on you in some way. You have to squash the ANTS as soon as you see them popping up. I just liked that acronym. You can picture little ants crawling around in your brain and how upsetting that would be. How worrisome and distressing that would be. But that is exact... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 10:56:31 EST My triggers for mindless eating And Making Myself Accountable... <BR> <BR> I over eat/ eat bad when I'm bored, lonely, want to have a good time, want to "treat" myself, when I'm depressed, wait too long to eat, don't have available healthy food or preplan. I think that about lists the reasons I find myself over eating or eating the wrong things. <BR> <BR> I AM TIRED of working so hard just to stay where I am. And I KNOW it is because of my eating. I have even on a number of occassions made the mental note that I was no... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 11:24:09 EST I offically moved my tracker back Well well well...I finally had to just get real with myself and move my tracker from 188 to the truth!! lol I thought if I kept it at 188 it would have motivate me to get back to that number...but the truth hasn't and I have been pretty content lately. I weighed in this morning at 197.6. I'm not too surprised or alarmed because after my beach trip...and eat what I want week, 197.6 is good lol...I usually stay around 193-194. Anyway, I tired of talking about losing weight, I'm tried ... Tue, 2 Nov 2010 16:58:03 EST Wow! Best Weekend ever!~ With swimsuit pictures! My friend Joy and I have been trying to have more fun in our lives and just enjoy we decided we wanted to plan a trip out of town and so...we decided to go to Destin, Fla. Boy we expected it to be a nice trip, but we both had the time of our lives! It. Was. So. Fun.!!! We couldn't check in until 4pm, so we hit the outlet stores and ate at Joe's Crap Shack time we shopped and ate we made it to 4pm. So we checked into our room and changed to hit the beach. <BR> <img src="htt... Tue, 26 Oct 2010 10:52:59 EST Didn't make my 10lbs~ Here's why <BR> Well the 10th came and went and I have not met my goal, as fact, I didn't even bother to weigh myself yesterday. But I am definitely in a positive In the middle of the challenge, I went through a pretty rough break-up with my then boyfriend of a year and a half. It got pretty bad and when we broke up at first I loss 3 or 4lbs...I was 188, I felt really skinny. But I knew I reached that weight in an unhealthy way. I celebrated it because I needed something to feel good ab... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 14:12:11 EST Lose 10 by 10/10/10 Challenge :) I heard about this from RAVENSONG37, who got it from DLEE27 <BR> <BR> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <BR> I do declare that I, MICHELLE, will lose 10 pounds by 10/10/10. Today I weigh 191. My weight on 10/10/10 will be 181 or less. ooooh wow!! <BR> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <em>88</em> <em>184</em> <... Wed, 25 Aug 2010 14:09:54 EST A test of my dedication Good morning everyone...the last few weeks I have told my self that I would be fully committed to working out 6 days a week and eating good food and staying within a good calorie range. I have decided to let my "mind run the body" and be stronger than missing the gym to hang out or choosing a bad meal because I went out to eat. I have pulled together and mustarded a lot on days where I get home and the AC is feeling so good and the bed starts calling my name. I have a reminder that goes off... Fri, 9 Jul 2010 10:08:51 EST The final stats are in for year 2 of sparkpeople! <BR> <BR> Hello everyone :) <BR> <BR> Well this weekend passed my two weeks of going scale free and I stepped back on the scale and have my final weigh-in for this year of spark in is the break down from June 2009 to June 2010. <BR> <BR> June 2009 to June 2010 <BR> Weight: 211 to 194= 17lbs <BR> Size: 14 to 12/14 <BR> BMI: 32.1 to 29.5= obese to over weight! <BR> Bust: 38 to 36= 2inches <BR> Waist: 32.5 to 29.5= 3inches <BR> Hips: 38 to 36= 2inches <BR> <BR> Noticeable im... Mon, 5 Jul 2010 10:57:23 EST My 2 year anniversary is today :) <BR> Hey everyone :) Just letting everyone know that this is my offical 2 years on sparkpeople...I'm in the middle of a no scale moment, so I can't report proper stats yet, so when I get back to the scale, I will offically post my stats for the year :) my improvements, thoughts and future goals :) Thu, 24 Jun 2010 12:37:11 EST My 2 year anniversary is near!! <BR> <BR> Oh my goodness, I just saw my sparkpeople pedge card on my fridge the other day and it said 6/26/08...and at first I felt bad because I thought 6/26 had already passed and I didn't do a recap of the year. But then I was like noooo! :)...I still have a little time left...okay, so I do have about 2 weeks. I looked on my page to get my weight last year and it was 211. The good news is that I am under that weight, right now I am weighing in at 15lbs so far (with 2 weeks t... Mon, 14 Jun 2010 13:45:17 EST False contentment &New motivation <BR> <BR> I have to be honest to say that as soon as I slipped myself into size 12 jeans...even though not all 12's fit, I decided that I was offically skinny and kindof actually content! Which actually is a good thing considering my body image problems...and never ever thought I'd be close to content with my body...I still have some problems- but compared to before, I mean wow, I catch myself in the mirrow and actually feel happy or see myself in a recent picture and it surprises me... ... Tue, 23 Mar 2010 13:07:23 EST please to say... YEAH :) My holiday weight of 5lbs is now gone- 203 to 198--even got the scale to say 197 sooo :) it may be 197. Either way I finally got my mojo back! I have my excitment back and can't wait to get back to the gym tonight. I see my body changing again. (It's amzing how easy it is to fall off and how HARD it is to get back...for my own good I can't just let loose like that anymore...I can have moderation, but when I let all the rules go out the window for a week or so, it is HARD to get back!... Mon, 25 Jan 2010 13:03:39 EST It could all be done! <BR> <BR> Well here's an update on my thought process...well im hoovering at 203 right now- the holiday- yeeea enough said...and anyway, to reach my main big real deal goal of 160 I only have 43lbs left to go! SO my goal is to reach that by the end of this year no matter if it's in 5 months or it takes all 12 months...I think that is completely doable! would love to finally reach this goal... Wed, 6 Jan 2010 16:33:55 EST WOW! Finally! <BR> Hey everyone!!! Guess what??? I got on the scale today, not expected it at all and can you believe it!?!?! I FINALLY weighed in under 200lbs! I am now 199 and finally, thankfully, happily, surprisingly, wonderfully in onederland!! I always remember reading OTHER people talking about being in onederland but now it IS MY TURN!!!!!!!!!! I feel like everything now is just down hill...just 39lbs to goal!!!!!! <BR> <BR> And just for the record! The last time the scale said in the 100's was e... Tue, 1 Dec 2009 14:57:45 EST Going Strong Afternoon everyone! <BR> <BR> It has been a while since I've last posted and in between all of that- I can't say I have been in the gym or eating right none stop. I actually "took a break" for about a month where I either was eating bad and doing a little bit of working out or eating good and not working out- lol you know, half doing it, or not doing it at all. I basically worked out really hard before a trip I had in September to visit my sister and during that trip slowly got Thu, 5 Nov 2009 12:53:19 EST Gastric and Lane Bryant <BR> <BR> Hey everyone :) <BR> <BR> I am feeling pretty good, it's been a little bit since my last blog, but a few things have happened to me, positively, that I wanted to blog about. <BR> <BR> One of the first things was that I have ran into a few people lately who have not seen me in awhile. Their reactions have been priceless and a reminder of how far I have really come. I know I see myself everyday so small changes don't always stick out to me...but over time it must be a real ... Tue, 14 Jul 2009 09:11:48 EST 1 year!!! <BR> Hey Everyone! <BR> <BR> I am excited to declare that today is my one year being on sparkpeople! I took some time to figure out my recorded measurements and put them side by side so that I could see what changes I have made over the time. Here they are: <BR> <BR> weight 256 to 211 <BR> size 22 to 14 <BR> bmi 39 to 32.1 <BR> waist 44 to 32.5 <BR> hips 48 to 41.5 <BR> bust 42 to 38 <BR> <BR> I can't wait to keep on changing! <BR> Wed, 24 Jun 2009 09:54:16 EST Update from last blog <BR> <BR> I just wanted to take the time out to give a little update from my last blog "smimming upstream"...I am glad to say that I have started losing weight again and feel great. Last blog I was holding at 223-226... I finally bust though that and hit 218 and even 217. :) I have held there for a little while now, but I am confident that I will see a drop in those numbers next weigh in. <BR> <BR> I have to be more and more serious about this because the weeks are counting down til my ... Tue, 10 Mar 2009 16:01:43 EST Swimming up stream! <BR> <BR> Well, my excitment of my weight loss has come to a slow dizzle and not hault for the time being. <BR> <BR> I know this is not a giving up point for me, but just a frustration point. <BR> <BR> I am doing about the samethings I did to get the ball rolling (fastly) to loose weight and now it's not working. <BR> <BR> Actually the bloody scale is going up! and it is scary! I think everyone fears going back to what they were...I'm not close to my end results but I am vastly improve... Thu, 12 Feb 2009 10:04:57 EST Good News :) <BR> <BR> I weighed in this morning and the scale was my very bestest friend. lol...I was 223.6 this morning!! yeaaah! AND I felt confident enough to try on the "jeans"...well I had bought a pair of jeans that I had to loose weight to get into..they were a size 16, but I guess 16M, not 16W. And they fit! so I wore them to work today! Got a compliment, a "you know what, you really are losing a lot of weight!" Fri, 2 Jan 2009 09:40:16 EST My week off <BR> <BR> Well I was off from work an entire week for the holidays because my sister flew in from AZ. She stayed with me the entire week and I took a real vacation. Well, let's just say I have some back tracking to do. I allowed myself to enjoy myself and did not make it to the gym. And of course, the result--the known result was that I gained 4.5lbs. I have a weigh-in at the end of the week so I should be able to make a little progress by then. <BR> <BR> I also had to get a new scal... Mon, 29 Dec 2008 13:57:02 EST Change in goal weight <BR> <BR> Hey guys :) <BR> <BR> if anyone is following me and is wondering, i changed my goal weight from 165 to 160. I did some thinking about my BMI and I decided I wanted to be in the "healthy" range in that would require just a few more pounds, so I moved it to 160. I think that this is a first part to a bigger plan because once I reach 160, I think I will then start another goal to perhaps 140. I will see closer to the time, see how I feel, how I look and what I think then. My hea... Wed, 3 Dec 2008 12:45:12 EST stress!! <BR> <BR> I have a problem with dealing with stress.. I have 2 problems. 1) a lot of things easily stress me out and 2) I keep thinking about it after the fact. I drag it out. <BR> <BR> I know that this is effecting my health in negative ways. I just dont know how to shake things...or let things roll off of my back. I need help, I need to relax. <BR> <BR> Mon, 1 Dec 2008 16:04:24 EST