MSBETH's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MSBETH MSBETH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Dusting the cobwebs off my page... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5046888 WHOA.... it has been a WHILE since I logged in here... however, as soon as I did, I realized how much I've missed this place... <BR> <BR> I wish I could chime in that I have been doing AWESOME... but it's just not the case. I have had a rough few months.... To make a loooooooong story short <BR> <BR> i DID complete the 5K I signed up for in June :) That was exciting.... <BR> <BR> In May I had a miscarriage, that was...... sad... and I kinda fell off the face of the Earth for a while. I'm... Thu, 6 Sep 2012 10:26:00 EST A Little Spark of Motivation :) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4785426 (I got these all from fitsugar) <BR> <BR> Sometimes, when I have a rough work out, like I did this morning, I feel kinda bad about it. Like I could have pushed harder, even though I have been SUPER tired and I still have soreness from kicking my own ass during yesterday's workout... So, I came across these and they made me feel really good, thought I'd share. Enjoy :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/7/2/l722511737.jpg"> <BR> <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.s... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 11:35:58 EST A Good Kind of Pain. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4763316 Last year I lost 60 lbs before my wedding (90 from my highest weight) - I was sooo happpyyyy!!!! But then.... after my wedding in October, then Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and... the month of January... lol.... I pout on about 15 lbs. UGHHHH... So, I have been trying to work it off. During the month of February, I was focusing on just working on finding the motivation to hit up the gym. I keep track of days I work out on the calendar with a Blue "x". Days I don't are marked with a blac... Wed, 29 Feb 2012 11:48:57 EST I am worth it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4749151 So, boy has 2012 been a ROUGH year for me, weight wise. It’s been so hard. I’ve gained some weight back and I feel like I am in such a struggle to get back on track. Some days, all I wanna do is give up. That damn voice in my head keeps telling me that I will never reach my goal and I’m not worth it. I keep trying to shut her up, but she keeps going and going and… I was starting to believe it… but... I KNOW I DESERVE BETTER THAN THIS. I broke down this morning and just cried – like one of tho... Tue, 21 Feb 2012 09:19:11 EST I may be a little ranty today. lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693266 Darn those people.... you know the ones I am talking about. Those people who work out... NEVER but seem to eat ANYTHING they want without gaining one ounce. Gah! Must be nice to devour fast food 6 times a week and then have your jeans fit PERFECT. <BR> <BR> They always seem to rub it in too "yeah, I don't have a problem with my weight, I can eat whatever I want" (really, I couldn't tell - you look like a dressed up toothpick) or (and somebody ACTUALLY said this to me recently) "I don't beli... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 12:01:20 EST One Step @ A Time http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4693212 OK, so.... I am doing much better this week. I did manage to meet my first goal last week of working out 5 days and this week I have stayed true to that goal as well. I am starting to feel more of a "spark" and... also... I feel my goal weight IS achievable.... as long as I stick with it. It is definitely possible for me to reach my goal THIS YEAR... and that makes me feel excited. I CAN do this on my own.. I CAN be a healthy weight... I CAN DO IT!!! <BR> <BR> I have managed to meet my go... Fri, 20 Jan 2012 11:34:35 EST I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4673805 I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do. <BR> I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do. <BR> I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do. <BR> I will do what I need to do, in order to do what I want to do. <BR> <BR> I need to just keep repeating this... over and over and over until something soaks in. <BR> <BR> So... along with the holidays & my wedding came an extra ten-ish pounds. soo.... disappointed in myself. I am so so.... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 12:22:07 EST A year from now, you may wish you had started today http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4416253 HOW TRUE IS THIS!!! <BR> "A year from now, you may wish you had started today"- Robert Schuller <BR> <BR> Gosh, how that quote just resonates with me. There were so many times I would see photos and think - Gosh, if I would have just stayed on track last year instead of giving up, I could have been at my goal. I always wished I would have started the year prior. And now I think about where I was a year ago and far I have come since then.... and it's crazy. I am so glad I finally realized jus... Tue, 9 Aug 2011 10:14:16 EST Goodbye Fat Beth http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4304884 I'm not sure what to call my blog post today.. so I'll leave it blank until the end.... So.... in the last 5 or so years... you would NEVER catch me in a dress, let alone shorts or Capri's... I just didn't want to wear anything other than pants for fear of embarrassing the people around me and feeling just.... gross... Anyhow... I would like to proudly say that I went to a wedding last Friday and.... I WORE A DRESS!!!! (and cute heals too!!!) Oh man... I felt so... pretty and confident..it wa... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 12:04:31 EST MAJOR Milestone!!!!! (EDIT!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4272161 Today I stepped on the scale to reveal........... 199.6 pounds(may not seem like much to the skinny minis out there, but it's a major thing for me) !!! FINALLY, under 200 lbs!! Makes me very happy.... It's been..... at least 3 years (maybe even 4... I'm having a hard time remembering) since I have been here.... it feels good... I have to admit.. I am having a hard time believing it and weighed myself.. probably... 4 times... but it stayed the same under 200 number every time!!... that's 47 do... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 10:11:17 EST Quarter of the way!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4065971 So, After weighing myself this week I realized I am a QUARTER of the way to my ultimate goal - WOOOOWHOOOOO. Yes, it's only 1/4 of the way, BUT ....it's 1/4 of the way!!!! lol. I can look at this 2 ways. <BR> <BR> 1.) Boowhooo... I still have 3/4 of the way to go. that's 75 more pounds until my ultimate goal.. I'm a whiner.. maybe I should quit. I'm not losing the weight fast enough.. waaaaaa.... <BR> <BR> ORRRRR <BR> <BR> 2.) HOLY CRAP!!! I am a quarter of the way there and it's only t... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 11:50:24 EST Perfect. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4019389 This song is by Pink and the name is "F*ckin' Perfect" Link below <BR> (Scroll to bottom for comments from me) <BR> <BR> Made a wrong turn, once or twice <BR> Dug my way out, blood and fire <BR> Bad decisions, that's alright <BR> Welcome to my silly life <BR> Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood <BR> Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down <BR> Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated <BR> Look, I'm still around <BR> <BR> Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel ... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 10:55:09 EST “Being defeated is often a temporary condition. Giving up is what makes it permanent.” http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3965327 Feeling Alone. <BR> I have been feeling very ‘lonely’ lately… due to a lot of things... stress, personal issues, struggles with food. I fear that I am looking at my goal too far ahead and it’s becoming overwhelming. It’s going to be so hard to get there. I feel…. Defeated by myself….my bad thoughts. I have a hard time staying positive with myself. I know I am doing well… I work hard at the gym 6 days a week. I am eating better now than I have in my entire life. It’s so hard though. I struggl... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 09:37:02 EST Where have I been? Great news!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3947179 ... I've been... around... Of course with Christmas I had a downfall... but started back up at the beginning of January. I have so much to say and I am soooo excited!!! I started seeing a nutritionist - Krystle, as my Chiro office.. and I LOVE HER. She is so amazing!!! I meet with her every Thursday and I look forward to it! When I started out, about a month ago it was still around Christmas and boy was I slackin'! I have gotten serious in the last 2 weeks and it's paid off. Let me explain w... Fri, 21 Jan 2011 11:25:07 EST Still a struggle. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3789945 Well, I am back to a workout routine! well, for the most part. I am about 3 weeks back on track and feel so much better, but... it's still a struggle. It's such a hard journey that some days I have to give myself a good reason to get up and go to the gym and have such a hard time coming up with a reason to motivate me. Some days I know I can do it and other days, especially when I skip the gym... I feel like giving up. I am too hard on myself sometimes... Probably b/c I want more results fast... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 11:30:38 EST September http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3728217 So, I have to be honest. I fell off the wagon. Well, I'm hangin' on the edge. just feel like i am being dragged. It started the week my grandpa went into the hospital. I was staying out late at the hospital, feeling sad, and spending time with my family... so I didn't go to the gym. I tried to a couple times... but my mind just wasn't there. Then, my grandpa passed away that Friday, September 24. He pretty much lived at my moms and used to sit on my mom's porch smoking his smokes... all day e... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 11:12:01 EST Taking the Plunge... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3640458 I have decided to take the plunge.... and try out SparkPeople's "Spark Diet" with my meals. I have worked my butt of to dominate my workout habits and while I still struggle and know I always will, I am a million times better than 1 year ago or even when I started this journey. Food choices has been a very hard one for me but I have decided to give the meal planner a try. I am going by everything they have planned for me next week and we'll see how it goes. I printed out the plan and grocery ... Wed, 15 Sep 2010 11:18:34 EST The "S" word and my decision. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3635421 The scale has been a source of nothing but baddd things for me. Everytime I step on it, even if I have lost, it depresses me that I am not losing faster, after knowing how hard I work. Then after seeing it's 'opinion' of my getting healthy, it makes me mad. It's like the person who is such as ass that they won't even admit that you've been getting healthier or won't compliment you. It's like that un-encouraging person in your life who you think you will never be able to make happy - I know en... Mon, 13 Sep 2010 21:56:25 EST Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3592321 Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like. <BR> <BR> I imagine paradise to be.... exactly that - Paradise. Warm. Beaches. Swim up bars. Palm Trees. Calorie free Ice cream. LOL. Laying under an umbrella on the beach... Mmmm. I am going to somewhere close to paradise for my wedding next year! Can't wait! It will have everything except the calorie free Ice Cream. =o] LOL Tue, 31 Aug 2010 10:29:54 EST Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3592305 Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why. <BR> <BR> 1.)Sir Mix A Lot - Baby Got Back. I love to dance to this song... and I imagine that if I am stranded on this desert dancing would help me relax and keep me from boredom. I could listen to this song over... and over... and over again! LOL. <BR> <BR> 2.) Lily Allen - Fu*k You. I imagine if I am on this desert island I would be pretty pissed off and mad at the world at some point... This song is just a great... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 10:26:28 EST Day 2 - Something that Inspires You. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3592230 Something that inspires me is...... <BR> <BR> People who have lost weight the healthy way. The people who don't go on the crash diets or take extremes. The people who are able to lose the weight by eating right and exercising. Those people truly do inspire me. I know how hard it is to lose weight. I fight the battle every day of my life and I know how much of a struggle it can be. The people who don't take the extremes like crash dieting or try dieting with no exercise - THEY inspire me. T... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 10:12:43 EST Day 1 - Guilty Pleasure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3576196 Oh.. the first thing that pops in my head is "Reality" TV!! I LOVE it.... <BR> <BR> From the very beginning to the very end, I was a pretty huge fan of the show "The Hills". It was so drama filled and fun to watch - it was a show about girls who moved to LA and it followed their lives and their ups and downs.... I already miss that show! <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/4/6/l46253061.jpg"> <BR> <BR> Another show that I currently watch is "Teen Mom" Ohhhhhh how I love this... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 09:34:11 EST Insights http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3576135 I got this idea from EPHSTOP43 and thought it would be a wonderful way to make sure I am blogging daily! Thank you to EPHSTOP43!! <BR> <BR> It's called 30 Days of Insights. Over the next month you guys are just going to get to know me just a bit better :) <BR> Here are the days: <BR> Day 01- Guilty pleasure. <BR> Day 02- Something that inspires you. <BR> Day 03- The five songs you would have with you on a desert island and why. <BR> Day 04- What you imagine paradise to be like. <BR> Day 05- ... Thu, 26 Aug 2010 09:19:33 EST Work of Art http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3569187 Before I begin, let me just say..... I know I have a LONG way to go. I know I have many many MANY more bad habits to work on. I know that I make mistakes more often than I should and don't work out of often as I would like. I know that I must work a lot harder than some people to get this weight off and that not everybody loses at the same pace. <BR> <BR> With that being said - I AM EFFING AWESOME. SERIOUSLY. <BR> <BR> I don't care what anybody says, I am. I work my ASS off at the gym eve... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 10:13:02 EST Back to it. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3498343 So... I went to the gym today. First time back to the gym since I got back from vacation - Truthfully, I am exhausted. I have been so tired lately, and I assume it's bc I have not been focused. I am not going to use it as an excuse... the first couple days back are always the hardest, but I am gonna do it anyhow. Every time I fall down, I get back up. This journey is hard... so hard... but I will continue to get back up. I have a goal and I want to meet it more than anything else in this worl... Tue, 3 Aug 2010 10:14:31 EST Whhhhaaaaaat?!?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3409122 I have beeing going to the gym semi-consistantly. I would like to go daily, but have been managing to go every other day (something is better than nothing though, right?) and I have been doing very good the last few times tossing out my old 20 minute routine for a minimum of 30 new routine... and it makes me feel amazing....... so, short side story: I only have a/c in my bedroom and my boyfriend and i have basically been living in our room b/c it is soooooo hot here. I usually work out in the... Wed, 7 Jul 2010 21:20:10 EST I DESERVE MORE. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3385532 Okay so.... It's been a rough month. It truly has. My roughest month yet. I worked out about 11 times for the month of June.. Which, thinking about it, isn't so bad... even though I went from working out 6 days a week to.. that. But I am proud of myself.... here's what happened: <BR> <BR> I let others discouragement get to me. Not that they were trying to be discouraging, but it's not like I go around flaunting every workout I do, very few people know about my changes.. people I trust. I don... Wed, 30 Jun 2010 10:43:27 EST Gym http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3355315 Well, the weekend went well. I rejoined a gym on Thursday. I need a workout buddy - I just do. It's 20 bucks a month for access to the gym which is 24 hours Monday - Friday and like 7 - 7 on the weekends- I think. And you're allowed to bring 1 guest with you a day (So if Cye ever wants to go with me, which he is claiming he does, than he can, or I can bring whoever else). There's also massage chairs and tanning that is free to use... which, i don't tan, but the chairs I might use... Also, fre... Mon, 21 Jun 2010 10:31:02 EST A Promise to Myself. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3343721 <BR> <BR> To My Body: <BR> <BR> <BR> I am so sorry. I am just so sorry. What I have allowed to happen to you is just unacceptable. I eat when I'm not hungry - when I'm sad, mad, glad... for everything. I have chosen to sit on the couch watching the tv or staring at the computer instead of being active for far too long. I have come up with every excuse that is possible as to why I have ended up this way and why I won't exercise tomorrow. I am frustrated that I have waited so long. I am fru... Thu, 17 Jun 2010 10:41:50 EST Old Habits Beth keeps on trying to creep up! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3296476 I have NOT been doing very good. It is by Gods good graces I have not put on weight in the last week. I overate (knowingly), I have not exercised enough, I let people get me down(BIG ONE!!!) and every time I pass by the scale I roll my eyes. <BR> <BR> This is NOT what I WANT. <BR> <BR> I want to be healthy. <BR> <BR> And in the moment, It is SO easy to ignore my mind saying "uh-uh-uh... no no no Miss Beth.... you're gonna regret this" while I am coming up with THE WORST excuses ever to fee... Thu, 3 Jun 2010 11:17:16 EST WE'RE GETTING MARRIED!!!!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3253390 Cye had been out of town allll week and last week too, so I was pretty excited that he was on his way home from the airport yesterday. I just got home and I was checking on my Chicken dinner (cooking in the Crock Pot, like I said on my last blog) and I had just finished making some light Parmesan wheat noodles to go with the chicken (it was delish by the way!) and he pulled up. Deoggie(our dog) and I welcomed him home and I got our plates ready so we could enjoy dinner at the table (trying to... Fri, 21 May 2010 10:17:19 EST 10 Pounds http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3249555 So, I finally lost 10 pounds! I feel like I have been waiting forever!! lol. It's been 8 weeks since I got serious on SP... I feel like 10 lbs isn't much, but I have worked VERY hard to get off those 10 pounds. Believe me, it's very discouraging to see the people around me dropping pounds SO much easier and I literally have to work my butt off every single day and battle food temptations all day long and IT IS HARD. I get really down on myself some days and then other days I don't have much o... Thu, 20 May 2010 09:39:08 EST ....Why is it so hard? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3221483 Why is it so hard for me to stay on track? I find it really annoying. I do fine with working out I guess, I always manage to get in at least a mile 6 times a week @ 3mph, but..... the food is what drives me crazy. I try to plan but I always feel like I am on such a tight schedule that I want to rush to find something to eat when I get home. I feel hungry a lot. I just don't know what to do anymore short of not eating at all, lol, and that's not gonna happen. I just love food. Alll food, even ... Wed, 12 May 2010 10:03:40 EST Rough, Rough, ROUGH week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3204543 It has been one heck of a rough week, to be honest. I just feel so tired, that could be because I start my period next week and I am usually tired the week before.... but geeez, it's really putting a dent in my efforts. I have worked out every day, 2 days a full mile, one day a teensy amount over a mile, and 2 days where I only did 10 minutes (or about 1/2 mile)... and weight training was only done once this week. I just feel so... drained... and also like I want any kind of chocolate I can ... Fri, 7 May 2010 10:06:24 EST Day 31 of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! REALIZATION!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3170807 I can't believe it's been a month!! I have lost just over 8 pounds since I started my mission, which I have mixed feelings about. In the past, in less than a month on a "diet" with exercise or even without exercise, I have lost wayy closer to 15 pounds... so to lose 8 pounds while I am doing everything right is a bit discouraging, I am not gonna lie. But I have realized something. The difference in those other times and this time is just that - I was on a diet, for less than a month, hardly ... Wed, 28 Apr 2010 11:10:33 EST So... I don't know why but.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3161940 I have been feeling really depressed... well, actually, I do know why... I just don't know what to do about it. I am going through a time in my life where I am realizing that there are a LOT of really horrible people, Justice isn't always served and life most definitely is not fair. Most people aren't really your friends, they are just using you b/c you can help them in some way. I was always a person who would try to find the very best in people.... but for some reason, perhaps continually g... Mon, 26 Apr 2010 10:20:13 EST Who is that girl in the mirror?! (Day 24) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3148000 Okay, so... I have been having a really tough week this week... though I have been forcing myself to work out - I just haven't been having a good week. I constantly feel myself searching for excuses on why to not work out... but I haven't given in yet... so, I suppose that's a good thing, right? I think I got the little boost I needed this morning. I was getting ready to hop into the shower and was walking by the mirror and caught a glance from the corner of my eye at the girl in the mirror, ... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 09:28:46 EST One ROUGH week. (Day 23) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3144474 okay, so this week... wow. it has been reallllly tough on me!!! I feel my motivation dwindling.... and I hate it. But every morning, I have been DRAGGING myself off my bed, saying, "Beth, just 1/2 a mile then you can quit....just get in 1/2 a Mile" and then of course once I get going I try and get at least 1 mile and push myself for 1.5.. which is good. I am glad, even though I know that once I get going I will continue to workout, I trick myself with leaving the option to stop if needed. It ... Wed, 21 Apr 2010 10:57:56 EST Day Twenty-Three of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3139914 Okay, so.... who would have thought that day 23 would be sooo hard!! I felt unusually tired yesterday and practically collapsed into bed when I did go to bed - I WAS TIRED!!!! I knew it wasn't going to be a cinch getting up and it was not. I literally had to FORCE myself to get up. It would have been TOO easy to skip today, but I didn't. I didn't do my 1.5 miles and weight training... but I did do 1 mile @ 3.6 mph. =o] I really had to push myself today.. and I complained to myself the entire ... Tue, 20 Apr 2010 09:24:09 EST Day Twenty-Two of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3137492 Okay!! I am so sorry for not posting for over a week!! (not that anybody reads this, lol) I have been pretty busy, but worry not - I have been working out faithfully every single day (sometimes twice a day!!) except on Sundays... those are my days off, which makes for a killer workout come Monday mornings!! I am so proud of myself. Sometimes I get down on myself bc I don't feel like I am working out hard enough... I have been doing some weight training (5 different exercises, 10 reps, 2 sets ... Mon, 19 Apr 2010 16:37:16 EST Day Eleven of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3094839 Okay, so I am back on track and woke up this morning to work out... I did Jillian's 30 day Shred.. that girl sure knows how to work it.... my goodness, she kicks my ASS!! She also lead the Biggest Loser workout I did last week, and boy oh boy... this one was no different.. immediately after I got done, my muscles were already sore!!! I have muscles aching I didn't even know existed!!! It's painful, but it's so beautiful! lol... Last night Cye seen me typing away on my Sparkblog and he stopped... Thu, 8 Apr 2010 09:52:21 EST Day Ten of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3093016 okay, so I haven't updated in a few days!! But don't fear I am still at it.... well, kinda.... I took the weekend off, which I semi regret.... I lost my momentum! And monday I didn't work out in the morning and all day I was EXHAUSTED so I came home and went right to bed... Tuesday I did work out and this morning I woke up late so I didn't.... I did however make up for it by working out tonight for about 40 minutes =o] My eating is going pretty good too.... for the most part... I have been ea... Wed, 7 Apr 2010 20:41:48 EST Day Six of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3076388 I also may as well write in my blog for today while I am at it. I had 2 packs of oatmeal today - I forgot how much i LOVE oatmeal... it's so god and filling!! I noticed that since I am so used to eating breakfast if I don't eat breakfast I feel like i am STARVING.... which i used to not be hungry until midday to dinner where I would over eat and eat alllllll evening.... I am trying to break that habit so I have been trying to eat small meals throughout the day mini meal type deal and a decent... Sat, 3 Apr 2010 14:43:04 EST Day Five of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3076375 Okay, So I know yesterday was my day 5 but I didn't have time to write in my blog.... so I am doing it today.... Yesterday went good, i tried to do the Last Chance Workout and it was SOOO HARD!!!! It sucked... but working out just puts me in such a good overall mood. I don't feel like my emotions are so out of whack, which is AWESOME. I feel So good! Sat, 3 Apr 2010 14:35:38 EST Day Four of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3071250 Okay, so today was day four- went good!! I woke up and worked out for 1/2 an hour - 20 minutes of the Gazelle and 10 minutes of lifts.. I was VERY roud of myself. I also have been eating throughout the day instead of waiting and then only eating dinner - which is goooood. =o] No complaints from me - just an update. I have high hopes for the weekend!! Thu, 1 Apr 2010 22:59:25 EST Day Three of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3064591 Okay,s o this morning, I forgot that Cye had to go to court today so he didn't have to wake up as early as usual, and I count on him waking me up before he leaves so I have time to work out. So when he woke me up and said "It's 7" my first thought was "well, now I won't work out today, I don't have enough time" then I thought "Weddingggggg" and thought "okay, we can fit in a few minutes." I was able to squeeze in about... 20 minutes of workout - 15 of the Gazelle and 5-7 minutes of lifts.... ... Wed, 31 Mar 2010 10:32:26 EST Day Two of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3062578 Okay, so this morning Cye woke me up and said "It's for the wedding" just like I asked the other night! It made me so happy to hear him say that b/c he knows thats what's my motivation right now, until I can do it on my own. It made me get up and go right to the DVR to decide what I was gonna do. I chose "The Biggest Loser: Last Chance Workout".... WHOA.. it really is one heck of a workout. I felt like I was gonna throw up when it got close to the end!! It felt so good to make it through it ... Tue, 30 Mar 2010 20:46:35 EST Day One of Mission: Bikini Body Wedding! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3055760 Last night I told Cye to wake me up with him and all he needed to say is "It's for the Wedding" and that would work [to get me to get up so I could workout]. Then, this morning rolled around and he woke me up and just said "Babe, get up! C'mon" and I must admit, I was a bit disappointed he didn't say me motivational phrase, but at least he woke me up. It was really hard getting out of bed, and I must admit, I put my shoes on, he left and I went and laid back in bed for an additional 20 minute... Mon, 29 Mar 2010 10:12:22 EST I need to realize... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3006195 I need to start to realize that food is NOT my enemy.... Food nourishes me and keeps me alive... but I guess i have trained myself into thinking that food made me fat. No, I made ME fat by abusing food. I love eating. It fills a void. It makes me happy. I feel like I cannot love food and still achieve my dream weight - am I right in my thinking? I don't know. I mean... kind of. I can't continue to eat the way I do and expect to lose weight. It is soo soo hard though. Believe me, if I could be... Tue, 16 Mar 2010 11:01:10 EST So.. we start... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=414842 Okay... soo.. My mom told me to check this site out.. and i am.. since i just recently joined a gym near my house, i need some sort of tracking of my calories, or help with a diet.. so this time it will be successful.. I figure i will be more likely to stick with it seeing that i am paying money for my gym membership and there is NO way i am gonna get screwed out of my money each month for a year!! haha... so my family.. is well.. a big family, not only in numbers, but lets face it.. they ar... Tue, 6 Feb 2007 12:45:46 EST