MRS_BISH's SparkPeople Blog MRS_BISH's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Took myself out for a walk this morning. I haven't exercised in about a month, even though I know it's good for me, and even though I feel great when I do it. This morning I woke up and decided that it was time to finally do it. This morning I did exactly what I have been denying myself for a long time. I got up, dressed casually, tied my shoes, and walked out the front door. It was a beautiful, cool, 65degree, Ohio summer morning. Birds were singing, and I smelled flowers. I walked for 20 minutes and meditated about the choic... Sat, 21 Jul 2012 08:10:47 EST Gains and Losses Alright, it's been several months since I've logged in to SparkPeople. I've gotta say that PCOS and Hypothyroidism are frustrating conditions to live with. I was steadily gaining weight no matter what I did. Walking was excruciatingly painful. I felt tired all the time, defeated by past failures, and betrayed by my body. At my highest weight of 243 pounds I decided I couldn't live with myself this way. <BR> <BR> So this is the action I took: <BR> <BR> *met with an endocrinologist <BR> *w... Sat, 5 May 2012 12:08:10 EST After three weeks! These are some things I have noticed after just three weeks of honest, consistent exercise and portion control: <BR> <BR> - resting heart rate went from 85 to 62 <BR> - balance and dexterity have improved (I no longer fear falling in the shower) <BR> - went from 1 minute jogging intervals to 3 minute jogging intervals <BR> - lost 6 pounds and counting <BR> - mood has improved as I continue to practice treating myself with patience, love and respect <BR> <BR> I love how fast my body is adapt... Sun, 11 Sep 2011 07:23:15 EST YMCA I joined the YMCA! I've been <em>315</em> and <em>324</em> and <em>237</em> and I FEEL <em>104</em> ! <BR> <BR> It's nice to have a place to go where other people have the same goals and interests as I do. I feel inspired as I watch the drive and determination of others around me as they push themselves. It's also a good place to meet members of my new community. Fri, 26 Aug 2011 21:14:08 EST My Nutritionist! Today was my first consultation ever with a Nutritionist. I highly recommend it to everyone. It was embarrassing, and humbling, but an overall educational experience, to describe a typical day in the life of my food choices. <BR> <BR> I weighed in at 240 pounds. <BR> <BR> To manage my PCOS and to intervene before I go down the path of developing Diabetes, Hypertension, etc, I'm now on the American Diabetes Association (ADA) Carb Counting plan. I am really excited about what I learned toda... Thu, 7 Jul 2011 18:31:44 EST Oh yeah... and I have PCOS. It is so frustrating that despite my efforts to eat right and exercise, I continue to gain weight. After I weighed in today at 237 pounds ((really!? after all I've done?!?!)), my doctor reminded me that I have polycystic ovarian syndrome which makes my body create too much insulin. My insulin is doing its job, but because there is too much insulin, too much of my glucose intake goes straight into fat storage!!! <BR> <BR> <em>15</em> <BR> <BR> When I got home from the doctor today, I pull... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 16:14:35 EST Traction Heaven Part of my physical therapy includes being strapped tightly onto a traction table and having my lumbar region stretched gently for several minutes. It's amazing how quickly I am seeing results. The pinched nerve is not being pinched as often, and I can actually push myself harder during aerobic exercising and simple walks! <BR> <BR> <em>319</em> <BR> WOO HOO!!! <BR> <BR> I came home from my stretching today and hit the Gilad DVD. I'm loving it! Tue, 21 Jun 2011 10:37:11 EST Weekly Overview Jun 12-18 Dag-gone it, Dag-gone!! My parents stayed with us this week and I failed to track anything at all. But I will keep on keepin'-on, because it doesn't make sense to give up now. I will not try to catch up - just jump in where I left off! <BR> <BR> <em>321</em> This Week's Successes <BR> <BR> &#9829; carried a water bottle all week and drank a LOT of water! <BR> &#9829; continued physical therapy and began seeing results! (less pain, more flexibility!) <BR> &#9829; walked to the grocery st... Mon, 20 Jun 2011 13:55:04 EST Weekly Overview Jun 5-11 <em>321</em> This Week's Successes <BR> <BR> &#9829; stayed just under calorie goal <BR> &#9829; logged nutrition every single day <BR> &#9829; burned over 1500 calories doing aerobics and walking <BR> &#9829; started physical therapy and began recommended daily stretches <BR> &#9829; cleaned out the fridge and ate fresh veggies more often <BR> &#9829; ate fish/poultry instead of red meat <BR> &#9829; graduated from Fast Break to SparkDiet and started measuring portions <BR> <BR> <em>331... Sun, 12 Jun 2011 12:17:45 EST 6 Month SparkVersary! I haven't lost any weight in these last 6 months, but I have accomplished so many other things that will make weight loss possible now when it wasn't quite doable before. <BR> <BR> <em>282</em> Being able to consult with experts has been one of the most helpful tools available to me. <BR> <BR> &#9829; I "graduated" from cognitive behavioral therapy, emerging with confidence and faith in myself. I am allowed to make mistakes, to be imperfect, to be happy, and to be successful! I can now ... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 08:08:16 EST Sore Feet Ouchieee - my feet hurt! <BR> I'm not used to all of this standing! <BR> My new job is great, but I'm in pain every day and I hope this new routine will get easier for the muscles in my feet and legs. <BR> For now, I'm happy to be home with my feet up. Mon, 6 Jun 2011 18:52:31 EST Weekly Overview <em>321</em> Successes <BR> <BR> &#9829; stayed within calorie goals! <BR> &#9829; logged nutrition every day! (a couple days I forgot, but because I didn't wait too long I was able to remember and come back to log everything accurately) <BR> &#9829; burned over 2000 calories doing aerobics, extra chores, walking, and even doing what I once thought was unthinkable: playing volleyball!!! <BR> <BR> <em>91</em> Where I Can Improve <BR> <BR> &#9829; eat less fat and more protein <BR> &#98... Sat, 4 Jun 2011 09:36:13 EST The Story of My Weight Gain <em>247</em> If I could go back to 2008 to say one thing to my 25-year-old 145-pound self, I would say: "Look, Maria, learn to love thyself." This is a photo of me at that age, feeling uncomfortable in my skin and hating my photo being taken. Such was my life. No matter what others told me, I hated myself inside and out, and I did not believe that I deserved happiness. Just five months after this photo was taken, my first pregnancy ended in miscarriage. My hormones went crazy. (that's me on... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 16:34:42 EST Birth Control to Regulate Hormones My lab work came in and I met with my doctor who says that I have a hormonal imbalance which is preventing me from losing weight. That would make a lot of sense, because for the past three years we've been trying to conceive with no luck and my weight keeps climbing despite my efforts. <BR> <BR> My doctor said I have two choices: <BR> <BR> 1. tackle the pregnancy issue by forcing ovulation with fertility drugs (and risk multiples, i.e., twins, triplets, etc., and risk complications with p... Fri, 3 Jun 2011 10:19:46 EST The Only Time We Own Is NOW "I'm back on the wagon," what a cliché thing to say! But it's true, because here I am at SparkPeople logging food and exercise again, and regularly visiting the pages of fellow Sparkers. <BR> <BR> My earlier days of my weight loss goals were rough and mired in old habits of excuses. I wasn't really taking responsibility for my actions and I failed to follow through. This time I feel different about my goals. <BR> <BR> It's finally making sense to me that I have the power to change, and th... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 09:14:42 EST Contract With Myself Prompted by my cognitive behavioral therapist, I have written a new contract with myself to break the old detrimental agreement I once had in the belief that "I'm not worth it." <BR> <BR> NEW CONTRACT: <BR> I am worth the effort it takes to exercise. <BR> I am worthy of happiness and health. <BR> I am worthy of friendship and adventure. <BR> I am worthy of laughter and learning. <BR> I am worthy of working to achieve my goals. <BR> I want a career in academia, and I am worthy of that d... Sat, 28 May 2011 19:54:21 EST Ten Pounds Shed This is a great reason to write a blog entry :) <BR> <BR> Calorie counting and meaningful movement have paid off last week! <BR> <BR> 10 pounds lost and 90 more to go! Thu, 24 Mar 2011 17:08:23 EST Walked Today! It felt great to get outside in the fresh air and move my body! Tue, 8 Mar 2011 19:54:43 EST My Favorite Droid Phone Apps With my new Droid phone I have been using a few apps that are helping me reach my SparkPeople goals. Here are a few of them and a short description: <BR> <BR> Endomondo - tracks my distance, mileage, speed, and heart rate. It also allows me to save a record of my exercise online. <BR> <BR> IJournal - to privately record my thoughts on the process of progress. <BR> <BR> Astrid Tasks - gives me a check list widget on my home page and syncs with my Google tasks. Sun, 6 Mar 2011 14:11:29 EST Holiday and Moving I've got family members over at my house, painting, hanging doors, making small repairs, and helping me pack. It's fortunate that we are moving close to the holidays because we have a feeling of togetherness in the family this time of year. We have three prospective tenants, and most of my Christmas presents are finished. One of my sisters is flying in tomorrow morning, and my husband will be here Saturday! It's going to be a great Christmas! Wed, 22 Dec 2010 19:58:02 EST No More School I'm done with the semester, and so my days are filled with other things... like getting packed for our big move!!! My parents came over yesterday to help me paint, one of the first things needed before we can find a tenant. Sun, 19 Dec 2010 11:38:29 EST Drinking is Bad. Mkay? to celebrate the finale of the semester i went to the lounge where my sister works and had a few drinks. a few too many, i think. the man sitting next to me at the bar, apparently a regular of the place, immediately struck up a conversation and it was all based on sensitive politics/religion... personal beliefs... i felt "attacked", "judged", ... i left tipsy and drove home this way, because i had to get out of there. i felt like he was preying on my weaknesses, my self doubt and my self hatr... Thu, 16 Dec 2010 00:38:24 EST STUDYING TODAY!!! My first FINAL EXAM of the semester is tonight!!! Then I have more tomorrow... Needless to say, I'll be spending the day studying. And instead of snacking on chips, sodas, cookies..etc, I have prepared for this cram-session by acquiring some apples, celery, carrots, and hummus! It's going to be a productive day! :) Tue, 14 Dec 2010 09:51:12 EST Therapy Helps I am currently seeing a Cognitive Behavioral Therapist and working to recognize and correct negative habits. I've been learning a lot about myself and making great progress! I am finding out that I can be myself and love who I am without fear. Mon, 13 Dec 2010 19:23:46 EST Gathering Momentum As I suspected, once I set the timer and cleaned up the living room for 15 minutes that I I would want to keep the momentum going AND I DID! I also spent 15 minutes cleaning the kitchen. And I feel good about how I got up from the couch and got stuff done! <BR> <BR> (I have been living here on the couch, this room has been my nest during finals week and since my husband has been away training for his new job and the bed feels too lonely without him here) Sat, 11 Dec 2010 20:19:53 EST I'm going to give it a go. I slept in till noon, and didn't get up from the couch until 2pm. The internet was a terrible invention for people who are self-defeaters like me. I've been spending the day playing games. <BR> <BR> One of my favorite blogs, Ugly House Photos, serves as a kind of inspiration for me. To see how some people live... how they display their homes while trying to sell them... It has the same impact as the TV show Hoarders... I think to myself while seeing such disgusting living conditions, "I don... Sat, 11 Dec 2010 17:00:21 EST Just another depressing day. I'm depressed and lonely. Spent the entire day playing facebook games and using TAAZ makeover and My Virtual Model gadgets to imagine what I will look like when I finally get better. My house is a wreck, I didn't study for final exams, I stayed in my pajamas, and I never stepped outside even though it was sunny and somewhat warm all day. Thu, 9 Dec 2010 20:29:01 EST