MRSKATEDUVALL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MRSKATEDUVALL MRSKATEDUVALL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Christmas Re-Birth. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839027 My thoughts on Christmas season revolve around the Winter Solstice, and then Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the Boxing Day. I love all four of them, and each one has a bit of a different meaning. <BR> <em>460</em> Winter solstice is the longest night of the year. Soon, the dreary months will pass, and we will have spring again. My weight loss thought. Now is the time for the early morning GYM, and soon the roads will be clear again, and we will register for 5K, 10K, 12 K. This year... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 21:34:50 EST Saturday round up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835888 So far I have spun the wheel, taken my meds, eaten breakfast and started the dishes. I have eaten in range for the past three days, but they haven't been paleo. I've sacrificed real food so I can eat Christmas cookies. At least I am home now, where the giant plate of help yourself cookies was at work. Today, I have to do laundry for the week, food prep for the week, and enforce chores so that tomorrow we can FINALLY put up the Christmas tree. It's been a logistical nightmare to get five p... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 12:41:55 EST nothing much to report.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834376 Last night, I made Jacob's favorite meal, in Jacob portion sizes, and then found out he was at a wrestling match till 11pm. It's also a favorite paleo meal, and I have lots of leftovers for lunch. I have accomplished three things on my healthy to-do list. I have logged in, I have walked for 30 minutes, I have taken my morning meds. Now I have to get ready for work, and the rest of the day. I have to go to the pharmacy and pick up the new med for glaucoma. I'm still wrapping my head aroun... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 10:55:23 EST Why is health so elusive? making the connection. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834129 Every year for my birthday, I schedule the yearly appointments. Eyes, teeth, lady parts. I'm forty seven. 47. I assume I have many years left to live. This year, the doctor's did not have availability for me on the actual day, so I scheduled them today. First was eyes. The eye pressure is building, there is damage to my optic nerve, and I was officially diagnosed with glaucoma. I have a script, eye drops, which I have to take for the rest of my life. I have to return in a month, an... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 21:47:50 EST December 12, my "daily" blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831900 I havent been faithful to the daily blog. I wake up with thoughts in my head to share, but usually lose them by the time I get computer time. today, I have a to-do list. <BR> 1) dishes, counter, sink cleaning. <BR> 2) sweep, floor <BR> 3) bathroom <BR> 4) holiday baking ; almond shortbread, gingerbread <BR> 5) wrapping of presents <BR> 6) Christmas work party <BR> 7) dinner out for the three birthdays. Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:25:54 EST A new defination of denial, is it possible? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830235 First off, my daily absence has been because I've been super icky can't breathe sick. Theraflu, chicken soup, orange juice, tea... This has been my existence since last Monday. Definitely a down ward spiral. I capped it off with a really productive therapy session. The theme was self care. nurture. I have a fundamental difference in how I am sick from my husband. When he is sick, he seeks isolation. When I am sick, I become this whiny crying baby who wants to be waited on. This differe... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 10:39:35 EST November summary, December Goals, and Daily plan 12/1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825652 I am really glad November is over. I would rather practice gratitude every day, then forced into one day filled with carbohydrates and family drama. <BR> So, how did I do? <BR> 1.to lose weight. starting weight 295. ( stayed the same) <BR> a. keeping calorie range, with a deficit of-500. tracking this deficit in the calorie differential challenge for By the numbers team. ( I was in calories range 20 days of the month) <BR> b focusing on paleo 80/20, with one cheat meal a week. limit it to ... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 08:54:29 EST Ending November, preparing for December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825215 I ended November officially a slug. I've watched massive amounts of TV ( the entire first season of Reign, Mary Queen of Scots), eaten turkey, roasted root vegies, turkey, turkey) I've made soup with the first turkey carcass, and froze the second for the next time. I've used my phone Ap to spin the wheel and track, as my children have monopolized the computer. Yesterday was the husband's birthday, and I had brownie, well make them plural. Today's plan: <BR> 1) spin the wheel, track breakfas... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 13:56:04 EST Thanksgiving thursday, gratitude and regrets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823882 I woke up dreaming of past Thanksgiving. Most memorable, were the Thanksgiving I cooked for a girlfriend, her boyfriend, and his family, or the ones I went to other people houses, to avoid my family of origin drama, the ones were I ate with my brother and sister, full of family drama. Since being married to husband, and his very large extended family, we have had Thanksgiving at Great Grandma's. When I joined the family ( 19 years ago) it was a sit down, pass the rolls dinner for 40. 40... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 13:14:18 EST Wednesday, the middle of the week, the grand plan. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823322 SO far I have been up on time, tested my sugar ( 188, a bit high but I ate an apple at 3am). Went to the gym, walked for 30 minutes, Sparked, made breakfast, sparked some more... the whole thing is an avoidance to go to work. which I will go get ready for and go to right now. <BR> <BR> rest of the day plan. <BR> 1) write two reports, pray the mail brings me records. goal met <em>248</em> <BR> 2) help Bailey deliver pies. discuss with him who fundraiser is a pain in the rear. eat lunch at... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 11:36:15 EST The princess returns, and my daily plan for tuesday 11/25 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5822716 Two significant things happen today. The princess comes home for thanksgiving break! and it's payday so I can do some shopping, which never happened this weekend. I am hoping I can give Princess the debit card, and the list and have her go for me. I think I can bribe her with the concept of buying what she wants to eat for the week. If that doesn't work for her social schedule, I will go after my doctors appointment. Before I get side tracked, here is the daily plan. <BR> 1) wake up on tim... Tue, 25 Nov 2014 09:40:49 EST November's home stretch, and my daily plan. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821754 It's finally the last week of November. It is also two days before payday. No serious shopping this weekend, living out of the freezer till Tuesday. I planned out the meals, and called Grandma to see what I could bring on Thursday. <BR> <BR> Sparkguy "sparked" me to start using my blog for the daily plan. He uses a spread sheet, and I get enough of those at work, being a social worker forced to keep data, I prefer the more social aspect of the blog. that way my spark friends can intera... Sun, 23 Nov 2014 17:44:25 EST Third week, on the verge of all or nothing thinking fatitude http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5821217 So, it's really the fourth week of November. Again, this week was lost to pain and agony. Well, at least pain. I have yet to de-clutter my bedroom. last Saturday night, waking at 3AM to put the dog out and get a class of water, I walked through it in the dark. Deeds done, and I attempted to walk back to bed. I tripped over something, I think an empty laundry basket and went down. Hard. On my right side, catching my fall with my arm, and wrist. My husband, ever so concern about the st... Sat, 22 Nov 2014 17:33:21 EST first week wrap up, how is November looking? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814792 The first full week of November was spent ill. At first, during parents weekend, I thought it was a med reaction, or a reaction to not paleo food choices, but figured out on Monday that it wasn't going away. Tuesday, my oldest son was also sick and I decided it was really the flu, and a family flu at that. I didn't track much, didn't walk much, and felt horrid. I had to go to work on Wednesday, because I was out of sick leave, and suffered through the rest of the week. The weekend came, an... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 10:10:41 EST Options. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5814780 Options. <BR> In an effort to internalize my choices, my daily choices and steps to self care, I am editing my program. These are choices that I make, and by acknowledging the anti choices, the what happens when I step sideways, I see the negative consequences. I can always intervene; I don’t want to fall into the trap of all or nothing fatittude. If I oversleep, I can rescue the day with good choices the rest of the day. <BR> I choose to get Up early or on time. I could sleep in. ( 5AM... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 09:55:15 EST November 1, 2, gameplan for parents weekend... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808688 Breakfast, smoothie while I spark. it should take me about 15 minutes to drink this large PRIMAL smoothie. <BR> <BR> Lunch- out and about with the princess and the husband. most likely a Casar chicken salad, with no crutons. <BR> <BR> dinner- Shrimp Pesto with zucchini noodles, paleo. <BR> <BR> Movement: walking around campus. <BR> Breakfast- parents brunch on campus. <BR> <BR> Movement, walking around with Hannah....day 2. <BR> <BR> we should be back home by 5, dinner is Spaghetti s... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 13:12:00 EST Dia De Murte... October wrap up and setting November Goals. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5808675 Today is a big day for my Parrish, when we celebrate the life of those who have passed. My church is kind of divided, there is the Hispanic group who celebrate today, and then there is the white group, who wonder what all the fuss is about. I know today as the day to look back on Halloween, introspectively decide what needs tweaking. <BR> October Goals: <BR> 1) TO LOSE WEIGHT. Started the month at 299, ended it at 295. So I can say <em>248</em> a. by eating according to the plan 80/20... Sat, 1 Nov 2014 12:45:51 EST Pre halloween thoughts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5807523 so far I have done well with the Halloween treats out and about at the office. I had a shortbread pumpkin cookie and some jelly beans. I have avoided the bowls of goodies. My Halloween treat is to have my child carve pumpkins, and roast the seeds. yummy. My costume for work is Frenchie from Grease. Pink big hair, cat glasses, bobby socks and pedal pushers. I think I have this Halloween things down. <em>275</em> Thu, 30 Oct 2014 11:43:13 EST Marathon Cooking, order of events. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804917 Before I start, I should organize the freezer and make space. ( completed) <BR> 1) Dinner in crock pot ( completed) <BR> 2) BBQ sauce. ( completed) <BR> 3) breakfast. ( completed) <BR> 4) kohlrabi pickles ( completed) <BR> 4) spaghetti sauce for lasagne, freezer meal (completed) <BR> 5) lasagnes.. while baking, keep cooking (completed) <BR> small break.. <BR> 6) chop and peal for assembly line..this is the major time sucker...(completed) <BR> 7) assemble freezer bags ( 20 dinners).I only got ... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 08:43:09 EST October's de-cluttering goal. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804902 It was my bedroom, but decided, since it was the 25th of the month, I haven't done it yet, and I had just gone to COSTCO and stocked up for the month, it should be to clean out the pantry and laundry room. I was so excited for this idea, that I woke at 4 am to start. Since I am alone this weekend, I cranked up Pandora and set to work. I am not quite finished, need to wash blankets and such and this will take a few hours. Some of the treasures I found in the pantry, it was like an archeolog... Sun, 26 Oct 2014 08:14:52 EST Insights from therapy, another round of specialist appointments. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804708 My first therapy session gave me homework, to document what I was feeling when I ate. So for the month of October, I have charted in the daily note what emotions I felt while I was eating. I reported the results to Dr. Ellen this past Thursday. Some patterns emerged. I am numb. I am either rushed, having to eat because it's blood sugar management, it's the expected time to eat. While I binged, and there were some spectacular binges this past month, I was numb, on auto pilot. I thought t... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 21:06:15 EST My weekend project... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5804675 I bought a package, that promised a shopping list, and recipes to make 20 meals with $200. You make assembly line make ahead frozen meals, and then you have meals for a month. I edited the recipes to be paleo. I added pot roast, two lasagnes, taco meat, and spaghetti sauce to my make ahead menu. I didn't buy the packaged bbq sauce, but will make my own. I raided some squashes from grandma garden. I am also going to make some kohlrabi pickles. <BR> from costco. <BR> chicken breast were ... Sat, 25 Oct 2014 20:01:22 EST There's this new book, about what really works for long term wieght loss.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794197 The teaser article on the webb said she had to give up three things.... <BR> 1) fad diets, moderation, the cheat day. doesn't work for her, and really doesn't work for me. A bite of chocolate leads to the whole bag. It's not one serving of mashed potatoes, it's four. the whole bag.. I shouldn't be eating food that comes in a bag anyway. that's not PALEO <BR> 2) time.. that it's going to happen in so many days. I intentionally set my spark people goal as a day so far in the future, I can't co... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 17:55:25 EST Is numb a feeling? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5794009 I've been off track, off the grid, off program and way away for days. I don't know why. I have been trying to keep the therapist homework in mind; what I am feeling while I eat? Is Numb a feeling? I set October goals, and then walked away from them. I set a meal plan, then walked away from them. But walking would imply activity, I just sleep. I would wake, eat some carbs, sleep some more. My husband yelled at me for going off paleo " if we have invested all this money and time to Paleo, y... Tue, 7 Oct 2014 11:13:48 EST Trick no treat this Halloween...October Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5792187 I had my round of Doctor appointments in September and have some new insights into my goals. I ended September by taking a mini vacation from logging, and then walking, and then it rolled into not eating according to plan.... so OCTOBER is a month to pull it back together. <BR> <BR> September.. <BR> <em>30</em> staring weight was 306...ending weight was 299.5 <em>248</em> <BR> <em>267</em> Major goal was to eat according to plan with a deficit of -500. According to my master ... Sat, 4 Oct 2014 10:41:12 EST I need to change my behavior. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5782367 <BR> I read an interesting article about putting it all together. Losing weight is more than eating healthy, and exercise, you have to change your fatty behavior. I’ve struggled with consistent weight loss, and am working on losing the same 12 pounds I gained last winter. If I am not constantly vigilant, I can gain 10 pounds. Obviously, I need to change my behavior. Next week, the day of the doctor appointments, I met a new therapist, and the goal is to learn new skills to change my behav... Thu, 18 Sep 2014 13:32:28 EST to answer some really good thoughts and questions. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5777846 My last blog, my dear friend and accountability partner raised some good questions, and GOD raised some good questions and pointed me in a direction toward answers. <BR> <BR> I cant take a leave of absence. I have a week of shared leave saved, and about three days of other leave. So the most I could take off to straighten things out is 10 days. I am the primary bread winner, the daycare pays the mortgage but I get everything else, and my job supplies health insurance. Until that changes, I ... Thu, 11 Sep 2014 09:48:47 EST The first week of September was hard... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5775140 It was a hard week. Partly because I ran out of both the pain med, and the fibro med, and the insurance wouldn't refill the script till Saturday. Both Thursday and Friday I gave in and skipped the morning walk, which sets me up for the rest of the day. I ate Fast Food. I did not make my de-cluttering goal. My boss mentioned that I could take disability. Which really pissed me off. I am still able to work, but it's hard. I am still a valued employee, who is doing a thankless job, and doin... Sun, 7 Sep 2014 12:03:22 EST Today is a slow day.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5772734 I've had trouble sleeping, rambling thoughts that I just cant corral. Yesterday, I came home early because I ached. Like a tooth ache in my whole body. I made dinner, took pain meds and went to bed. Tossed and turned, sleep in spurts. I had great plans, I was going to wake up at 5, get some house chores done, walk etc. When the alarm went off, I got up to walk. After our 45 minute walk, I called in sick and went back to bed. The thoughts of what I have to do is so overwhelming, in the fac... Wed, 3 Sep 2014 16:04:26 EST How was August, and what to expect in September? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769659 Starting weight 312. <BR> Monthly minutes: 745.( below goal) <em>39</em> <BR> goal of 150 minutes a week; 5 out of 6 weeks. <em>46</em> <BR> goal of daily intentional exercise: 16 days out of 31 ( planning on making the next two days). <BR> Eating below my BMR: 21 days out of 31 ( not counting the next two days). <BR> Streaks: not so much. I lost my log in streak on one really bad day. I lost my weekly streak on one really bad week. I haven't made a week of paleo sober. <BR> Ending w... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 23:15:09 EST Sometimes, I should think through my decisions. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5769604 Week wise, it was ok. Tuesday I thought my planning went really well. Thursday, I had an unexpected trip out of town, and didn't really get a chance to plan for it. Since the current boss is rigid about overtime, I have a 3 hour lunch break in the middle of my 12 hour day. I spent the time at home, until my computer died. Then I went to the pharmacy, and talked to them about drug interaction, thinking that the itchy twitchy semi catatonic state tuesday night was a drug interaction. She r... Fri, 29 Aug 2014 21:44:47 EST 6 in one, half a dozen in the other. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5768333 Yesterday I put my travel with healthy style in to place. It was a 12 hour day. I started off with a good walk with catlady, and made it to work on time. Catlady and I moved our routine up an hour, so I am not late to work. I traveled, pausing at the rest stop to use the facilities, and stretch. I did my appointments. Mapquest said I drove for 4 hours. I ate my fruit for snack, my salad for lunch, I splurged and bought a starbucks tea and fruit and nuts. Everything counted. I bought a ic... Wed, 27 Aug 2014 21:22:10 EST Round up and away we go... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5765989 I had a supper long work filled week, with two twelve hour days and trips out of town. While I fell short of my goals; intentional exercise, and paleo sober; I did learn some things to tweak my life. The first lesson was about time management, and it led me to think about boundaries. I've elicited opinions from cherished people, and am percolated my thoughts. <BR> My previous boss, she who shall be called she-devil, downgraded me because i had "open boundaries" with my staff, and a more op... Sun, 24 Aug 2014 11:27:05 EST Up early, full of energy, manic monday? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761947 Instead of laying awake in bed for two hours, I thought I would get up and blog my thoughts. I might suffer later in the day, but my Monday schedule is such that I might be able to sleep early. <BR> <em>521</em> My first thoughts centered around my exercise plan. Today, we have a choice of walks. I can shower early, and be ready for work before Catlady gets here, then we can walk to the doctor's office for my blood draw, stopping at starbucks on the way home. the walk shoudl be about ... Mon, 18 Aug 2014 08:24:17 EST Reducing to concerntrate....what should I be doing? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761764 Reductions always bother me, I hate stirring and waiting for the liquid to concentrate. Mine enviable turn out to water because I didn't wait properly. I am apply that cooking principle to sparkpeple, and my time here. Waiting patently, I need to make the most of my Sparkpeople time. <BR> 1) Instead of the gazillions teams I am a member of but not very active on, I am going to pare down. I like By the numbers, and the calorie differential challenge. I'll stick with that. The 10 minute ... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 23:18:18 EST begining of the week, and I am still tired from the last one...sigh http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5761494 I am still very tired, and in slight fibro pain. It's from inactivity. While my soul needs me to sit in the chair with the cat and the dog, the body needs me to move. I choose the soul, and today, the body is sore and achy. Today, I am planning for the week, planning for success. Movement will be walking with Cynthia Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. Tuesday I have a 13 hour work day, and doubt I will get any walk in. Food planning is next. No grocery shopping, as it's the week b... Sun, 17 Aug 2014 14:50:50 EST Docto's report http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5759589 Yesterday was the big trifecta, all specialist in one day. A very long day. It started at 5am, to get ready to drive for two hours, checking in to the first specialist at 7:45. Time to talk to the financial adviser, since it appears I don't have insurance. Talked to the insurance company, handed the phone to the financial advisor, cleared it all up. Went into my appointment. Great blood pressure ( 125/80). Nice lady. Discussed my lab work, I still test positive for the autoimmune disord... Thu, 14 Aug 2014 11:36:13 EST I am bi-polar. Not some random stranger, or an entertainment god but me, your nieghbor. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757942 So I want to rant. Robin Williams died. I'm sorry, I will miss his wit and wisdom. My college friend posted on facebook that she doesn't know how to talk about mental illness. I posted that it's the every day grace that helps. It's the checker at safeway that offers to patiently wait while I find my wallet ( I often lose things when manic). It's my boss who donates leave so I can go to the doctor. It's the every day grace and compassion. So I outed myself on facebook. I wonder what people ... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 23:52:52 EST Hooray It's FAIR WEEK. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5757252 For the first time in a really long time, I have no children participating in the fair. So I don't have to go! I can skip the fair food, the "space burgers", the fried on the stick calorie bomb. I can skip the flies, and hot and dust. This week's plan: <BR> <BR> Monday: protein shake, lunch with Cheryl, coffee cocoa roast pork. Walk with Cynthia, THAI Chi with Steve after scouts. <BR> Tuesday: protein shake, salad with chicken, beef stew. Walk with Cynthia, THAI Chi with Steve and o... Mon, 11 Aug 2014 01:41:07 EST This week, preparing for the doctor appointment. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5756951 So, this past week is the end of summer for us in Grant county. It was the end of mermaid class in the out door pool. the new high school pool is open the end of August so I have a few weeks of non mermaid time. The end of summer fair is next week, and then it's the pressure to get ready for school. <BR> <BR> It's been a hard summer, full of mania and missed days at work. I'm hoping that the visit to the specialist on 8/13 will help that. <BR> <BR> Checking in on my streak... Streak on... Sun, 10 Aug 2014 14:33:46 EST Streak revised. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752794 My accountability partner and I challenged each other to streaking. I choose two items; intentional exercise and paleo food sober. I wanted to exercise at least 10-20 minutes a day through walking and eat within my calories range, with a deficit of -500 calories. I planned for two rest days and one "cheat" meal. <BR> <BR> The first week was hard, and I didn't make any of my goals. I started over. The second first week, I made my intentional exercise goal 5/7 days, with at least 90 minut... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 09:45:26 EST Balance has been restored. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5752368 At least I think it is balanced. I slept from 9 to 9, woke up and went for the 30 minute walk with Catlady. Paleo food planned all week. Laundry done for the week. Med box done for the week. Making chicken bone broth in crockpot. Have a plan for the week which involves walking with Catlady, water aerobics Mon-thursday, rest day Friday, Saturday. Saturday my husband informs me that we have a family reunion. This year, unlike the one 5 years ago, the party is at a local park, and I sho... Sun, 3 Aug 2014 17:20:49 EST URG.this has got to end... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5751247 Yesterday, I zoomed awake, and spent the day at the water park on my vacation day. I should have been tired by nightfall. My brain was tired. My skin was tired. However, my legs were restless and the body, oh so manic. I took the required meds. I took the optional use when in pain meds. I ate. I drank alcohol. Which my daughter said was really creepy, to come home at midnight to find me in my bathrobe, guzzling a hard cider and singing nirvana songs. Sleep for a total of three hours. ... Fri, 1 Aug 2014 18:25:45 EST I'll need help to maintain the streak. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5750024 It's day three of Paleo Sober and intentional exercise. I've hit a bit of a wall. You see yesterday, the mania that was building hit a all time time, and I had to be driven home from work. Weird sign of mania, I couldn't focus on the computer. No way could I drive myself home, so I asked one of my co-workers, one of the few who know I'm bi-polar, to drive me home. Once home, I stared at the ceiling, and zoned. My mind moving so fast, I couldn't catch it. I pride myself on being a very fu... Wed, 30 Jul 2014 23:12:07 EST Streaking for consistency. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5748821 I am on Day 2 of Paleo sober. It really helped to have snacks ready, lunch packed, dinner in slow cooker. No excuses. I took my 6 m sleepy meds at 6, separate from the dinner meds, and then took the dinner meds after water aerobics class with dinner. Pain was a bit elevated today, and I took 4 pain meds before I could "turn it off." lasted from 10-2, when I popped back up awake. Drifted 2-5, and then got up to Spark, do the dishes etc. Mind is alert, senses are on full alert, thoughts ... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 09:40:53 EST working on my foundations. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747965 I dream big. I have a vision. I now what I want to accomplish. I was up, manic, in the middle of the night, when Spark people ran this quote. <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/quotes_<BR>translation.asp?id=274 </link> <BR> <BR> I need to work on the foundation, the consistency of daily steps. I made week one of 90 minute exercise, and day 1 of paleo Sober. Mon, 28 Jul 2014 05:49:24 EST weekly plan. streaking,I hope. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747720 My accountability partner inspired me to a fun way to document the streak-bright colored sticky notes. I bought a very large bright blue background, and some bright pushpins. I bought lots of brightly colored sticky post its, to track each day of the streak, and a bigger ( 5x7) green post it to track the week. Starting today, I will write a streak post it. Each Saturday, I will wrap up the week. <BR> <BR> So today is day one... I should have started last week, but really struggled with... Sun, 27 Jul 2014 20:10:29 EST week wrap up, http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5747205 The mania ended with a drop, and I spent thursday hobbling in fibro pain. the week ended with a trip to college for Princess, and a day of fibro pain. <BR> <BR> Streak # 1 daily walking 5 days a week. I missed three days, Sunday, Thursday and Saturday. But the days that I walked were well over 5,000. If this continues, I will change my goal to 10,000. <BR> <BR> Streak #2/ Paleo Sober. I struggled. I have yet to eat a day paleo sober. I struggle with nighttime eating, and keeping it in... Sat, 26 Jul 2014 22:21:41 EST Manic Tuesday....a continuation of manic monday. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5744109 So I am on the crest of the manic wave. I've upped the geodon to 100, and switched cymbalta to am, instead of PM. but I am still slightly manic... it's the nice productive side of mania.. I woke up early, and did the dishes. Now I's sparking before the on slot of the day. And what A day it will be... I am driving in the recent fire zone, to check on my friend, and bring her bottled water, and to see my kiddos for developmental assessments. It will be a long day, full of 6 hours of trav... Tue, 22 Jul 2014 09:59:40 EST Confluence... maybe I'll get to blog this time. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5743752 Confluence, the act of merging, of coming together. I am at the confluence of two powerful thoughts. First, there is sparkguys blog and excitement of a spark streak, over 96 days old. At least 10 fitness minutes a day. I want to join that bandwagon, it looks so fun!. So I look at my streak page. Kinda despiring. I'll get close to making a record,then I'll crash ,fall away, step back. This time, I decided I would go forth. I'm choosing walking because the fibro guru said walking is the best... Mon, 21 Jul 2014 21:59:37 EST