MRSKATEDUVALL's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MRSKATEDUVALL MRSKATEDUVALL's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Finding My true voice, day 57, lesson 17. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5883030 So I posted a decision I was considering, wanting feedback. And I got it. Two very loyal supporters shared their thoughts. Catlady, my main support shared her thoughts. the problem was, the two camps of supports disagreed. I had to listen to both sides, and decide what was best for me. AND IT WAS HARD. I generally want everyone to get along in my personal life and to like me. (I see enough conflict in my profession. Nobody likes their CPS sw.) I was really uncomfortable disagreeing with... Thu, 26 Feb 2015 09:57:19 EST Day 55, up early... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5881698 My cats are driving me crazy. They woke me at 4 am, by nibbling on my check to be feed. Now they are trying to become one with the printer while I type. welcome to the day. But it will be a good one. I learned a very important lesson yesterday. I have to eat during the day, snacks are mucho importante. I finished the day, after having a protein shake for dinner, with a -1200 calorie deficit. Some of that was from the killer work out, but most was because I skipped both snacks, and was... Tue, 24 Feb 2015 09:40:13 EST Day 53. thinking of trying Herbalife. Any feedback? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5880476 Good morning Sparkers, I hope this wonderful Sunday finds you well. Like my kitties, I want to be outside in the sunshine. I have a walk to work planned, with a nice long hill thrown in. Here is how it shaped up in Sparkland. <BR> <em>189</em> SPARK COACH was about Plateaus. My number one tool for busting a plateau is to weigh and measure food. <BR> <em>189</em> By the Numbers team differential challenge, with a -500 calorie deficit. While i was over the calorie range yesterday, I... Sun, 22 Feb 2015 11:35:00 EST Today is day 52. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5879895 Good morning and day to you fellow sparkers. Today I am awake, sparking and planning the day. <BR> <em>189</em> SPARK COACH was about the criss cross effect. I know that when I am on program, I am more organized, my house is cleaner. I know when I am eating right, my blood sugar is better, I feel better and I can exercise. When I exercise, my blood sugar is better. When my blood sugar is better, I feel better. <BR> <em>189</em> By the Numbers team differential challenge, with a -500 ... Sat, 21 Feb 2015 11:41:53 EST 50 days of tracking. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5877382 Today is day 50. I am gearing up for lent, which will be 40 days to really focus on my program. Lent is both giving up ( processed foods, sweets, sleeping in) and taking up ( paleo, 3 fruits a day, morning routine). I saw a great slide show about this concept, which is what gave me some ideas. <BR> <link>www.sparkpeople.com/resource/slidesh<BR>ow.asp?show=62 </link> <BR> <BR> Today in Sparkland: <BR> <em>249</em> SPARK COACH. today, Dr. Birdie talked about will power. I admit th... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 11:11:35 EST Day 47, day 8, day 1.. whose counting? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5876825 I have been off program for four days. Everywhere I turned, there was food and food pushers. Every move I made, I hurt. partly from boot-camp, and partly from a med lapse. I checked in each day, planned my calories, and then ate whatever was in front of me. I went to bed last night determined to stop the slide. The number one reason I haven't lost weight? I cheat, and cheat meals turn into cheat days, which can turn into weeks. NOT TODAY. <BR> <BR> So today I am home, doing laundry, s... Mon, 16 Feb 2015 14:39:08 EST Happy Valentine's day, day 45. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5875677 <em>524</em> Last time I blogged, I was planning on going to fitness Bootcamp. It just about killed me. Three days later, and my legs are still sore from the multiple squats, mountain climbers, lunges. <em>318</em> WOW. I am planning to go back, even though CATLADY tells me that it was just half pace, and we did a lot of standing around. <em>321</em> Monday, the day I go back, they will weigh and measure me. I am not going to freak about the numbers, they will just be starting poin... Sat, 14 Feb 2015 13:47:08 EST Day 42. Up early to Spark. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873718 my cats decided that is was time to get up at 4:11 AM, instead of 5:05. So I am up, tea in hand to spark. <em>524</em> I am thinking about my attitudes. last night's 100 days lesson was to cultivate a just do it attitude. Spark-coach echoed this. Words of wisdom from Coach Nicole: "You have to learn how to change "all or nothing" into "something (anything!). You create success by doing the best you can with the individual decision or task that's right in front of you at this moment. Yo... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 08:44:55 EST Welcome to tueday day 41. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5873300 I am so very tired of being ill, having illness or having to deal with med sick affects. I currently have an UTI, a side effect from a really expensive diabetic med. I have drank my calories in cranberry juice, have gotten meds from the pharmacy. I plan to spend the day drinking fluids. <BR> In Sparkland: <BR> <em>189</em> SPARK COACH. I am to blog about how I would know I was healthy if the scale doesn't exist. I would be healthy, I would not need meds to manage my illness or the... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 15:40:17 EST Day 39, sunday prep. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5871764 Yesterday, I blogged while using sparkcoach in the car, traveling to wrestling tournament out of town and lost it when the signal died. the day went down hill from there. Food pushers, bad options, eating out of boredom, heart burn, bleachers but and a REALLY long day. I tracked it all and woke early, with an upset stomach and a plan to get to back together. today, I am cleaning, sitting with my kiitties, and cooking for the week. I am also fitting in some strength training, tai chi and ... Sun, 8 Feb 2015 10:42:43 EST Lesson Learned, I need my meds. Day 37. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5870563 I first noticed it Saturday, a queasy anxious hyper feeling. Sunday, it had progressed to nausea, I didn't keep dinner down, and was ready to jump out of my skin. I re-filled my med box for the week, and noticed I was out of a fibro/anxiety med. Monday, I was about completely incapacitated. I called the pharmacy. Not eligible for a re-fill till 2/11. I asked about side effects of not having it... yep, nausea, vomiting, headache, body ache, paranoia, anxiety. and oh, they had made a mistak... Fri, 6 Feb 2015 09:28:13 EST February 1st SPARKLAND update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867433 I have 11 bench points that I try for daily. I have spun the wheel, tracked my food and water and my teams. Here is the round up for the day. <BR> <em>189</em> SPARK COACH. today was about diet sabatogers, and food pushers. I have a very large extended family that does not always get my healthy efforts. So today, Spark Coach gave me permission to skip the family event. I didn't have the discipline to face the all you can eat potato bar and nacho extravaganza. So i stayed home. I've ... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 20:45:52 EST goodbye january, hello february. day 32 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5867403 The weather is dreary. Cold, but not so cold. Wet, but not snowing, raining. Just gray and dreary. It's the perfect example of February. As January wrapped up, I wanted to re-visit my january goals, and see how I've done. <BR> <em>249</em> My January goals were : "exercising four days a week while staying within my given calorie range, with a calorie deficit of -500 each day, walk or treadmill 10,000 steps a day, for about 300 minutes a week. At the end of each week, I was to make a... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 20:11:38 EST day 31..short blog today. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5866510 I have a busy day planned in the physical world. Here is life in Sparkland. <BR> 1) SPARK COACH - today was about changing up work out. My plan- to add hills to the daily walk. <BR> 2) By the Numbers team differential challenge, with a -500 calorie deficit. I was a tad under goal last night, but did not binge. <BR> 3) by the numbers walking challenge, using my SPARK ACTIVITY TRACKER. I don't think anyone else is tracking their steps. bummer of a challenge. <BR> 4) TEN MINUTES a day ch... Sat, 31 Jan 2015 12:23:05 EST day 30.. Dealing with a source of Stress... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865967 I am home from work today, I took a sick day to deal with a source of stress. <em>227</em> <em>230</em> My frigging unclean, messy and unkempt house. So far, I have loaded the dishes, starting to detrash the house, done two loads of laundry. Today's goal is to get my dinning room, kitchen counters and floors back to usable states. <em>386</em> <BR> <em>15</em> I can't credit the stress of the house to my last night's binge, still dealing with rebellion. Catlady and a SPARKblog... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 13:57:57 EST Day 29, the spirit of rebellion lives on. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5865109 Good morning. there is a disconnect between my words, my thoughts and my actions. I blogged last night before bed, about a day binge and how I rescued the day. I went to bed, finished my Women, Food, God book.( WFG) Decided to commit to her eating guidelines and went to sleep. To wake up about two hours later, and ate peaches, cookies and milk. Is compulsion a feeling? I did track it, I have been really consistent with tracking, but my weight isn't going to come off if I don't STOP BING... Thu, 29 Jan 2015 09:51:06 EST DAY 28, a day of rest, temptation and rescue. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864821 It's the end of my day. I overslept, didn't walk, didn't pack a lunch or snack bag and zoomed to work. It was a desk day, and while I got up to stretch and walk every hour or so, I struggled with boredom. the tediousness of paperwork sent me spiraling. It was Wednesday, which means somehow brings soup for lunch to share. Today's offering was white chicken chili. Yummy, but mostly broth,and by 2 I was hungry, and tired of fighting temptation. ( see earlier blog). Because of my poor plan... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 22:02:15 EST Resisting temptation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5864627 I want a hamburger. I think. I'm not actually hungry, I've had lunch but I am bored. I don't have to right shoes to walk, and I've decided to tell myself it's to cold to leave the building and get that burger. I decided to use spark coach to get me through the next few minutes of temptation. I will go back to my desk work, temptation conquered. Wed, 28 Jan 2015 16:12:15 EST Day 27. It's going to be a good day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863780 I started today off right with a walk to Starbucks. It's going to be a really good day. I did not have such a great night, ate with abandom. Not really sure I can identify the feeling. I was just compelled to eat. We don't have much in the house, so I ate yogurt, Nuts, fruit. All primal. I finish the day in calorie range, but did not make my deficit goal. I think I need to eat more during the day. My walk this morning rescued the day. I have spun the wheel and checked in with my tea... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 13:06:00 EST Day 26, data collection and daily wrap up. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5863315 My morning schedule was thrown off by two things; my husband didn't go to work, he had a dentist appointment, and my son didn't go to school ( he pleaded sick).. so I jammed to work without sparking. I got caught up after work. <BR> <BR> * data collection. I did it. I spend most of my day sitting. I did two bathroom strength training routines. When we get our new building, I wonder if they can put my desk so I have to stand, or if I should get a ball and sit on it while at the computer ... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 21:44:46 EST Data Collection, Day 25. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5862096 <em>249</em> This week I am starting a new project. As I sparked today, a theme of tracking and data collection came up. <em>189</em> The first sign was a blog about mindfulness, and I copied the following into my sparking journal: <BR> "When was the last time you ate a meal without multitasking?" <BR> <em>189</em> The second sign pointing to data collection was yesterdays spark coach comment about activity, and I copied into my sparking journal the following: <BR> "Take an i... Sun, 25 Jan 2015 09:45:23 EST Counting the produce on day 24 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861913 #small changes action plan was to get at least 5 produce in and tracked. I think I can top that. <BR> <BR> breakfast- spinach, mango, orange juice <em>368</em> <em>106</em> 3 servings. <BR> Lunch tuna salad with celery, carrots, radish, pepper, cucumber, tomato- 3 servings. <em>551</em> <BR> Dinner: sweet potato fries, Brussel sprouts, spinach. 3 servings. <em>210</em> <BR> <BR> total of 9. Sat, 24 Jan 2015 23:28:47 EST Day 24.. Hooray! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5861582 19 years ago I gave birth to my princess. Celebrating this will have to wait until next weekend due to payday and other commitments. I envision a spa pedi, and a nice lunch out on Saturday. <em>236</em> <em>383</em> <BR> <BR> Today.... I missed two days to blog. Thursday and Friday i was just wiped, and while I tracked, and spark coached, I didn't blog. Her it is Saturday, and I have some time. So far I have <BR> spun the wheel. <em>347</em> <BR> I completed Spark coach- it... Sat, 24 Jan 2015 12:16:41 EST Day 21... begining to build consistency. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5859440 Yesterday was a travel day, and while I did SPARK on my phone, was not able to blog. Today, I am catching up with some Spark time before I get a blood draw, and make a trek to a new pharmacy. I'm switching all of my meds. It's going to take a while. <BR> <BR> So, I have Logged in, and spun the wheel. <em>347</em> I did Spark Coach. <em>345</em> today is about consistency, which is my biggest goal. Spark Coach states: "When you stick to healthy habits consistently, you'll improve ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 10:45:19 EST Cleaning My Closet. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5858159 My closet is huge. It's the size of a small bedroom. It has two closet rods. and that's it. My husband has a 4 drawer dresser. I make do with plastic tubs. The closet space also is the linen closet for my house. I am ashamed to post the before picture. It is a 10X 10 room. Picture it covered in clothes, spilling from their tubs and mounded high. My kitties like to use the back corner for poo, when their catbox is full and they are protesting. I started this morning at 7. Catlady helpe... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 18:37:58 EST Day 19 or 2.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857753 Today, I logged in, and spon the wheeel... <em>347</em> Each time I fall down, and get back up again, I learn something. Last night, I re-learned the lesson that I cant have leftovers in the house. Husband routinely brings home daycare leftovers. I routinely ask him to not, as I eat them in the middle of the night. He says that they are for BIG Jake. I eat them anyway. Last night I ate cold sloppy Joe mix. My blood sugar was not fasting, and very high. <em>527</em> I thought about... Mon, 19 Jan 2015 09:46:22 EST ReBooting my reboot... Day 1. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5857076 <em>227</em> So It should be day 18, instead It's day 1, again. I fell off program last Saturday. I got into my head, thinking about what I would say at therapy, and then stayed off for a while. I sorta tracked, made my log in spin, <em>347</em> but didn't exercise or track night eating. I gained weight at the weekly weigh in. <em>192</em> I knew it would be a stressful work week, and it was. I spent my time and energy at work, and fell off program with my habits. ( guess they are... Sun, 18 Jan 2015 11:44:10 EST January 10! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5851044 Good morning! I couldn't sleep last night, sat in the chair for hours. Now I'm trying to fit all my mornings in before BIG Jake's wrestling tournament. <BR> Logged in, still continuing my streak. <BR> Spark Coach- Was about finding my calorie range. Which is interesting because mine just went down. <BR> Numbers- I didn't track my calorie differential because I binged last night. I don"t really know why? <BR> #challenges- smart snackers. I bought a large amount of fruit yesterday, so my... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 12:34:06 EST Day 9.. I'm still here. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5850738 Well, at the end of the day, I can say it was a good one. But it didn't start out that way. I had two things I needed to acomplish. I have work to-do's, and my boss doesn't think it deserves a day away, but also wont give me overtime.. So I have been intentionally working longer days so I could Flex today. Which makes me tired. My friend wanted me to go to COSTCO, which I enjoy and needed to do.. But she only wants to go on a workday. This puts me in a bind. Once my husband learned I had... Sat, 10 Jan 2015 00:34:25 EST Day 8.. continuing on. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5849313 Day 8 finds me up an hour early, with a list of to-do's running in my head. and it is day 8, rather than day 2. I decided that my binge on Tuesday night did not cause me to start over. It was one part of a three part plan. I recouped, and pulled it together. Yesterday, while I worked late and was very mind numb, was a great day in terms of my program. Food was within range, exercise was with increased time, and de-cluttering was some maintenance work. <em>380</em> <BR> <BR> Today- ... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 09:07:47 EST Day 7, week one down! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848543 I binged last night, so my fasting blood sugar wasn't fastning, it was more like a two hour check.. but it was still high. 350. <BR> <BR> I was up on time, house chores down before Catlady arrived. Went to gym, walked for 30 minutes. Sparking almost done. <BR> 1) By the Numbers team differential challenge, with a -500 calorie deficit. Yesterday I was definatly out of range. So does this blow my re-boot streak? I logged and posted. <em>234</em> <BR> 2) by the numbers walking challen... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 11:43:20 EST The end of Day 6. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5848181 I am reading a book called Women, Food and God. So far it's about mindfulness, which leads to spirituality. Being fully present in the NOW, so that you stay in the face of whatever comes your way. My usually path when something negative comes my way, when I have need for nurture that no-one is giving, when I am agitated or anxious, is to eat, to turn to food. What I am learning, through therapy and this book, is that sitting in the middle of the need is preferable than the aftermath of bi... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 00:08:35 EST DAY 6 is amazing. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5847597 So, I sleep a smidge over, but was able to be up, feed the cats and get in exercise clothes before Cyntha arrived. Took thyroid and off to the gym for 23 minutes of treadmill. Once home, I started SPARKING. <BR> <em>345</em> SPARK COACH assignment was to share my fitness goal. My goal board say that I will taic chi every day, for about 30 minutes, and treadmill or walk for 60. I am working up to it. I plan to increase my time walking until BLOOMSDAY, which is 116 days away. <BR> <em>... Tue, 6 Jan 2015 11:35:18 EST Hello.. confused if this is day 4 or 5... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5846483 In my frantic re=boot, I started different things on different days. I am going to go with day 5.. it's easier if it matches the calendar. <BR> <BR> Good morning. I over sleep a little bit and am now trying to squeeze it all in. <BR> Fasting blood sugar was 225 <em>42</em> <BR> Thyroid med taken with fruit water <em>48</em> <BR> Spark log in. day 17 of my streak. <em>48</em> <BR> Spark coach- i am to look for motivation today. As I traveled today, I listened to Positive Life Radi... Mon, 5 Jan 2015 09:51:45 EST Hello day 3.. lesson learned. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5845620 Hello day 3 of my re-boot. So far, I have gotten up ( a major feat with a headache) taken my thyroid, made my tea, and settled in to spark. <em>248</em> <BR> 1) log in. Day 16 of my streak <em>248</em> <em>347</em> <BR> 2) spark Coach... my action goal for the day is to shake up my routine a little to avoid burnout. Burnout which occurred last night. The princess had visitors, and she thought that dinner might work. So I made a HUGE pot of Spaghetti, with noodles, sauce and bread f... Sun, 4 Jan 2015 12:40:26 EST Good morning, day 2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844635 I was woken up at 2am by the kitties spilling my bedside water glass. Up again at 6 when the kitties decided it was a work day. It gives me time to Spark. So far I have: <BR> logged in ( day 14 of my streak) <em>248</em> <BR> tested my blood sugar ( day 1 of my streak) <em>248</em> <BR> Checked in with By the Numbers... will resume calorie differential tomorrow. <em>381</em> <BR> Checked in with 8 weeks diabetic challenge. My goal today is to exercise. tai chi and walking. <em>2... Sat, 3 Jan 2015 11:12:00 EST Planning for side steps... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844108 I re-joined Spark Coach, thinking I did better on my journey when I was involved fully in the program. Today's action step... planning for the rescue steps. What do I do when I misstep... and with my 25 daily steps, sometimes it's easy to forget one, and misstep... this has come up in therapy before, how I need to work on all or nothing thinking being a thing of the past. I am aiming for progress, not perfection. Take today.. <BR> <BR> I was sidelined by a migraine, didn't walk and called ... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 17:38:45 EST New Pictures for 2015. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844087 Pixieliscous inspired me to take beginning pictures, as I embark on my renewed journey. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/7/l1787074320.jpg"> and <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/5/l1518832157.jpg"> <BR> <BR> the challenge is track my progress throughout the journey. New pics the first of each month. Fri, 2 Jan 2015 17:08:21 EST Sidelined by a migraine, rescued my day. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5844048 I think its a combination of sleep disturbances... ( up to 2 am Thursday, sleep about 4 hours, then up again... basically sat all day, went to bed at 10) When Cynthia came this morning, I quivered in pain. And then there was all the not paleo food on new years eve. My body is not quite ready to hit the new year plan. I think I have to ease into it. Today's plan...tea, meds, comfort. I did 10 minutes of Tai CHi. I have beef stew in the crock pot. I have sparked, meds and planned the men... Fri, 2 Jan 2015 16:16:13 EST NEWDAY, New Year http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5843018 I want to lose 50 pounds, so I will split it up into 10-pound increments, and reward myself every time you reach one of the smaller benchmarks. Rewards need to be non food, non expensive and out of the ordinary. NO fair rewarding myself with something that has to happen. I have a three prong focus, nutrition ( paleo, 80/20 rule) movement ( steps, tai chi) mental health ( decluttering). I resolve to lose 50 pounds by next Thanksgiving. I will accomplish this by exercising four days a wee... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 15:46:55 EST Christmas Re-Birth. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5839027 My thoughts on Christmas season revolve around the Winter Solstice, and then Christmas Eve, Christmas Day and the Boxing Day. I love all four of them, and each one has a bit of a different meaning. <BR> <em>460</em> Winter solstice is the longest night of the year. Soon, the dreary months will pass, and we will have spring again. My weight loss thought. Now is the time for the early morning GYM, and soon the roads will be clear again, and we will register for 5K, 10K, 12 K. This year... Fri, 26 Dec 2014 21:34:50 EST Saturday round up http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5835888 So far I have spun the wheel, taken my meds, eaten breakfast and started the dishes. I have eaten in range for the past three days, but they haven't been paleo. I've sacrificed real food so I can eat Christmas cookies. At least I am home now, where the giant plate of help yourself cookies was at work. Today, I have to do laundry for the week, food prep for the week, and enforce chores so that tomorrow we can FINALLY put up the Christmas tree. It's been a logistical nightmare to get five p... Sat, 20 Dec 2014 12:41:55 EST nothing much to report.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834376 Last night, I made Jacob's favorite meal, in Jacob portion sizes, and then found out he was at a wrestling match till 11pm. It's also a favorite paleo meal, and I have lots of leftovers for lunch. I have accomplished three things on my healthy to-do list. I have logged in, I have walked for 30 minutes, I have taken my morning meds. Now I have to get ready for work, and the rest of the day. I have to go to the pharmacy and pick up the new med for glaucoma. I'm still wrapping my head aroun... Wed, 17 Dec 2014 10:55:23 EST Why is health so elusive? making the connection. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5834129 Every year for my birthday, I schedule the yearly appointments. Eyes, teeth, lady parts. I'm forty seven. 47. I assume I have many years left to live. This year, the doctor's did not have availability for me on the actual day, so I scheduled them today. First was eyes. The eye pressure is building, there is damage to my optic nerve, and I was officially diagnosed with glaucoma. I have a script, eye drops, which I have to take for the rest of my life. I have to return in a month, an... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 21:47:50 EST December 12, my "daily" blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5831900 I havent been faithful to the daily blog. I wake up with thoughts in my head to share, but usually lose them by the time I get computer time. today, I have a to-do list. <BR> 1) dishes, counter, sink cleaning. <BR> 2) sweep, floor <BR> 3) bathroom <BR> 4) holiday baking ; almond shortbread, gingerbread <BR> 5) wrapping of presents <BR> 6) Christmas work party <BR> 7) dinner out for the three birthdays. Fri, 12 Dec 2014 11:25:54 EST A new defination of denial, is it possible? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5830235 First off, my daily absence has been because I've been super icky can't breathe sick. Theraflu, chicken soup, orange juice, tea... This has been my existence since last Monday. Definitely a down ward spiral. I capped it off with a really productive therapy session. The theme was self care. nurture. I have a fundamental difference in how I am sick from my husband. When he is sick, he seeks isolation. When I am sick, I become this whiny crying baby who wants to be waited on. This differe... Tue, 9 Dec 2014 10:39:35 EST November summary, December Goals, and Daily plan 12/1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825652 I am really glad November is over. I would rather practice gratitude every day, then forced into one day filled with carbohydrates and family drama. <BR> So, how did I do? <BR> 1.to lose weight. starting weight 295. ( stayed the same) <BR> a. keeping calorie range, with a deficit of-500. tracking this deficit in the calorie differential challenge for By the numbers team. ( I was in calories range 20 days of the month) <BR> b focusing on paleo 80/20, with one cheat meal a week. limit it to ... Mon, 1 Dec 2014 08:54:29 EST Ending November, preparing for December http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5825215 I ended November officially a slug. I've watched massive amounts of TV ( the entire first season of Reign, Mary Queen of Scots), eaten turkey, roasted root vegies, turkey, turkey) I've made soup with the first turkey carcass, and froze the second for the next time. I've used my phone Ap to spin the wheel and track, as my children have monopolized the computer. Yesterday was the husband's birthday, and I had brownie, well make them plural. Today's plan: <BR> 1) spin the wheel, track breakfas... Sun, 30 Nov 2014 13:56:04 EST Thanksgiving thursday, gratitude and regrets http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823882 I woke up dreaming of past Thanksgiving. Most memorable, were the Thanksgiving I cooked for a girlfriend, her boyfriend, and his family, or the ones I went to other people houses, to avoid my family of origin drama, the ones were I ate with my brother and sister, full of family drama. Since being married to husband, and his very large extended family, we have had Thanksgiving at Great Grandma's. When I joined the family ( 19 years ago) it was a sit down, pass the rolls dinner for 40. 40... Thu, 27 Nov 2014 13:14:18 EST Wednesday, the middle of the week, the grand plan. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5823322 SO far I have been up on time, tested my sugar ( 188, a bit high but I ate an apple at 3am). Went to the gym, walked for 30 minutes, Sparked, made breakfast, sparked some more... the whole thing is an avoidance to go to work. which I will go get ready for and go to right now. <BR> <BR> rest of the day plan. <BR> 1) write two reports, pray the mail brings me records. goal met <em>248</em> <BR> 2) help Bailey deliver pies. discuss with him who fundraiser is a pain in the rear. eat lunch at... Wed, 26 Nov 2014 11:36:15 EST