MRSGIXXER's SparkPeople Blog MRSGIXXER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Out with the old - 2015 Welcome Archive 2015-Recover-Heal-Move Forward <BR> <BR> Spark People has been a great place for me over the years. Sometimes I have made great use of the resources and other times I've had half hearted attempts. But it is here for us to use and the fact that we are provided such an awesome resource and tool for free is amazing. We really do have to thank Chris Downey for that. <BR> <BR> My motto for this year is "Recover, Heal and Move Forward". This is the year I put myself and my husband completely... Sun, 27 Dec 2015 14:10:32 EST Being authentic The new year always has many people thinking about what they would like to improve in their life, me included. I read over my goals that I posted and I am not doing very good job of reaching them. I still believe I can come out ahead on most everything I put on that list but I am dealing with something that has caused life to really come to a stand still. I have thought for a while to what degree if any I wanted to share it here. The most difficult choice about it is the fact that unless ... Sun, 10 May 2015 22:44:28 EST 2015 recovery from 2014 I'm really excited for 2015. As some have probably read in other blogs or posts 2014 was a horrible year for our family. I guess in 47 years on earth and 25 years with my husband one year in the grand scheme of things is not too awfully bad. But, it could have changed the course of our lives forever in a bad way. By the grace of God and lots of prayer and work we were able to overcome our troubles. However, we are still recovering from it because it affected so many areas of our lives. ... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 11:28:18 EST My intro for 2014 saved 2014 - All about the food! <BR> <BR> I've been a member of Sparkpeople for almost 7 years. It took me a few years to really get into changing my outlook, my body and my life. 2010 was the year for me. I finally made the decision that enough was enough and I wanted to look and feel on the outside how I did on the inside. I remember the day I tried on a size 8 pair of jeans. I actually cried. (see blog from 5/31/10) <BR> <BR> I've never been really great when it comes to food and trying new... Thu, 1 Jan 2015 10:44:08 EST My Journey to Contentment - not so easy! I've come to think that a successful life is a continuous work in progress. If you look away for a moment things can go south. In my case, I haven't been paying much attention for 3 years and now I am in a huge state of discontent. I'm not happy with anything anymore. Why did I even think that once I lost weight everything would be great? That just isn't the case. So I am on a quest for contentment. This to me means I am grateful for who I am and what I have and I live in the moment. F... Mon, 24 Mar 2014 20:35:41 EST No junk for 30 days On January 31 I decided that I would not eat any junk food nor would I drink alcohol for 30 days. Today is day 29 and I have followed it to the letter. I feel so much better than normal and I never really felt bad. I won't go back to eating junk but instead will allow myself to have treats but they will need to be unprocessed and healthy and of course in moderation. <BR> <BR> My next challenge will be eliminating starchy carbs at least one day a week for the month of March. I might even t... Fri, 28 Feb 2014 18:50:47 EST Can I eat only real food for 30 days? I lost 53 pounds by eating 'healthier" and exercising. Although I did eat healthier than I had been I really wasn't eating healthy. <BR> <BR> Lately I have been looking into how I eat and how I can do a better job of only putting healthy FOOD in my body. My job allows me to have a nice break over Christmas so I have been watching a lot of food documentaries. This has lead me to challenge myself to really eat healthy and clean for 30 days. <BR> <BR> My challenge to myself is to eat wh... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 19:59:55 EST Skin cancer removed Last week Thursday I had skin cancer removed from my forehead. They used a procedure called MOHS that helps to reduce scarring but also makes sure that it is all gone before they close you up and send you home. It was a much bigger process than I thought especially since the biopsy was not a really big deal. <BR> <BR> I had a spot the size of a dime on my forhead a little above my right eye. Now I have stitches that are about 2 inches long and much more work was done under the skin to r... Tue, 5 Nov 2013 09:33:04 EST I see the light! So I have been in a rut for a while. It's amazing what just a little bit of hope can create. We found out last night that we will be renting a townhouse that we really like. It took them a week to get back to us and the week seemed like two it was so long. But this little bit of news gave me just enough of a glimmer of hope that I can see the light and I am slowly moving out of this rut. <BR> <BR> I'm not really sure why "in between" places make me feel like I'm stuck but they do. As ... Sat, 19 Oct 2013 22:25:19 EST Stuck in a rut! Will it ever change? I'm in a slump that I really need to get out of. Exercise and eating healthy has become a big challenge. I feel stuck I guess, although I am not sure why. I have all these grand plans and when I wake up in the morning it's like I never had a plan. It's great that I keep trying over and over and over to get back in the groove but I really need it to stick. It's funny, but not, that where my head is matters a lot with what I do. <BR> <BR> Ok, I think a big part of it is that we are livi... Tue, 15 Oct 2013 22:16:07 EST So excited about all my helpers Today I received an email from Fitbit about my 2012 activity. They had mentioned earlier this month that it would be coming and I was waiting patiently. I was easily able to do that because I totally forgot that it was coming! <BR> <BR> Anyhow, according to my Fitbit I have walked 1,084 miles last year. That's more than the length of the California coastline at 840 miles. Fitbit also gave me some insights for 2012. April was my most active month, Sunday of all days was my most active ... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 12:04:13 EST 2012 in Review - Looking to 2013 I don't really have a verdict on how I think 2012 went. I haven't pondered it until now. It was a blur for the most part. I am amazed how quickly these last two years have gone by since we moved to Arizona. <BR> <BR> 2012 Review: <BR> -Visited home twice - once in May and then again for Thanksgiving <BR> -Quit my job in August after they started reorganizing the accounting department and sent much of it to their other location in Tennessee <BR> -Unfortunately gained about 10-15 pounds ... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:49:50 EST 2012 Intro is now a blog entry This was my intro last year. Moved it here to make room for a new intro! <BR> <BR> Can you believe I am a grandma!? Really. I have a great husband, three fantastic kids and three beautiful grandkids. I've been a member of SparkPeople since June 2007 and it has changed my life. I've lost lots of weight, learned so much about fitness and nutrition and met some really wonderful people who I hope will be my friends for many years to come. <BR> <BR> But none of that comes without hard wor... Wed, 2 Jan 2013 16:49:15 EST What to do I haven't been on SparkPeople much these days. I try but for some reason life gets in the way. When I was losing weight I was able to get on everyday. I don't know why it's different now. It's not like I don't have the time. Maybe it's because my focus is different. But I would still like to keep in touch with the good friends I have made here and encourage others. I guess it's time to change my focus! Sun, 16 Dec 2012 00:05:51 EST I've done it again. That's a good thing! Wow, my fitness journey has taken all sorts of twists and turns. Some days I am right on track and other days I'm lucky if I can find the tracks. At one point many years ago I had given up chocolate and soda (all caffeine actually) for five years. Then one day we were driving across the country and it was my turn to drive and I needed to stay awake so I had some Diet Coke. That began my on again off again relationship with caffeine and chocolate. <BR> <BR> Well I'm off again. I weaned... Sun, 16 Sep 2012 00:40:40 EST Click here to know the secret I realized something today; actually it was over the past few days. There is no need to kill yourself trying to achieve any goal. Ok maybe kill is a strong word but I think you will understand me when I say that sometimes we are so focused on our goal(s) that we see little else. When I lost weight my life revolved around that. Day in and day out I was working hard, much harder than I really needed to. <BR> <BR> Don't get me wrong we need to work hard to achieve our goals but I think it i... Sun, 10 Jun 2012 23:56:26 EST It doesn't have to be all or nothing I have been blogging for over a year now that I am having a hard time getting in a routine since our move. It's not that I don't do anything but I don't stick with it. It's so very frustrating to have a plan and want to succeed and then my thinking (attitude) gets in the way. This has happened on so many occasions. <BR> <BR> You know you think once you lose weight and get in shape everything will be better. I'm here to say that is not always the case. I don't want to get anyone down o... Sun, 6 May 2012 12:45:23 EST Start where you are I have learned I do not do well without a plan. Not only that, I only seem to really do well when I have extreme focus on something and almost every minute of my day is planned. I have been trying to figure out a happy medium and have come up with nothing so far. I think I have an addictive personality. As long as I don't get addicted to the wrong things and try to keep it under control I don't think it's too bad. <BR> <BR> Work with what you have. Start where you are. Those are some t... Sun, 22 Apr 2012 13:16:23 EST February - consistency I'm a little behind in setting my goals for February. As January was such a bust I can only go up from there. We've set our gym time at 4:30 am so that we get it done early and can't make excuses to skip a workout. The idea was to do our strength training then and then I would do cardio in the evening. Now I'm thinking that if I do TRX I can do that three times a week and do cardio on opposite days. My goal really is to workout in a way that I don't get injured like I usually do. I thin... Sat, 4 Feb 2012 11:24:59 EST january was a bust Well January was a bust. I didn't do much in the way of being active. Part of that was getting sick and it lasting a while. This is the first time I've been really sick in Arizona and I attribute it to the poor eating and exercise. I think every time I have written a blog over the past year it's at least mentioned how I am having a hard time getting a routine going since we moved here. <BR> <BR> Initially we started out pretty good. We joined a gym and were going regularly. But at $13... Thu, 2 Feb 2012 08:20:22 EST Health information junkie Today I was checking my email and my husband was sitting next to me. My inbox is full of eat this, exercise that sort of stuff. <BR> <BR> He said, "Your obsessed about weight and body stuff huh?" <BR> <BR> "No, I just get lots of newsletters but I don't really read them. I actually have unsubscribed to a bunch." <BR> <BR> Silence. <BR> <BR> "Yea, I guess I am obsessed." He nods his head in agreement and asks why. "I guess I am just never satisfied and you always say such nice thi... Mon, 5 Sep 2011 12:52:11 EST When I fall I get back up We've been in Arizona for 8 months now and I still haven't gotten into a good routine. I don't really now why it is so hard. I think I might miss home a little. I already had a good routine worked out and then it was all turned upside down. It started before we moved - everything changed. I should be able to live a healthy life even in the midst of trials and struggles. But I have found that even in losing over 50 pounds and learning everything I have learned thus far I have a very dif... Sun, 4 Sep 2011 22:33:00 EST Thinking for a Change I have been on and off Spark People since October 2010. Once I reached my goal we were busy getting ready to make the move from Wisconsin to Arizona; which we did at the end of December. After getting here, with everything being so new and trying to get into a new groove, my attendance on SP wasn’t much better. Then things got stressful with me still not finding a job and Eric’s job being rocky because he gets paid on commission - there is not a steady income. He’s looking for a new job a... Sat, 2 Jul 2011 18:36:08 EST Life has just stomped on me As much as I love Arizona, life has not been easy since we have moved out here. With all the stress I have not been eating or exercising the way I should be. It's frustrating because I want to be one of those people that is able to stay positive and continue to work towards goals when things get tough. I’m not there yet and I have a long way to go to get there. <BR> <BR> My husband has/had a job that he has been working since the end of January or the beginning of February. He hasn’t w... Sun, 8 May 2011 00:32:42 EST Settling in, goals and motivator Well, we have been in Arizona for almost 4 months now. It has been a challenge but I'm so glad we are here. We took a big chance coming without jobs but things are looking brighter. Talk about a leap of faith. I have to admit though that some days it has been hard for me. <BR> <BR> I've finally gotten a good strength training workout going. We decided that we are going to change it up every month. That will keep the body guessing. The problem is that my strength training is pretty in... Sat, 9 Apr 2011 19:32:13 EST I need a new attitude It’s been hard getting into a routine since we moved to Arizona. I’m so glad to be here though and know we made a good move in coming here. I just have to find that groove I had in Wisconsin. One of the big adjustments is Eric working 6 days a week and mostly second shift. Believe it or not it is also a big adjustment not working a day job myself. I liked the routine of working. It made it a lot easier to have certain times and days to take care of things. It seems the more time I have ... Sun, 6 Mar 2011 21:19:55 EST A letter to you I’ve been away for a while now and I thought it was about time I jump back in and give you an update. I think it’s been easily several months that I have not been active. Oh, I may have popped in here and there but to me that is not active. Not only have I not been active on Spark People I have also not been very actively exercising. Although thankfully I have been actively moving which has probably helped to save me from gaining weight. <BR> <BR> So here I am now more or less settled ... Thu, 13 Jan 2011 16:46:06 EST 3.5 years on Spark People Since I have been a member of Spark People for so long I thought I should redo my introduction on my front page and put my old one here. I've accomplished so much and there is so much more I want to do. I've recently moved to Buckeye, Arizona west of Phoenix and have a fresh start. <BR> <BR> Pre-2011 <BR> <BR> I am excited to turn 43 in December. It's been a long time since I have gotten to a birthday hot and healthy!!! <BR> I have ten more pounds to lose and I plan on doing that before... Sun, 2 Jan 2011 21:40:32 EST A month without workouts! :( Somehow over the past month I have been severely slacking on my workouts. I’ve been getting some cardio but have been doing basically zero strength training. I’ve missed it so much and getting back to the gym yesterday reminded was a good reminder. I cut back on the weight which was a very good thing. I can feel my workout today and I have to say it feels great!!! <BR> <BR> So how is it that we can want to do something and enjoy it, but not do it? In my case life got busy and some othe... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 15:47:24 EST 15 minutes to fitness Yesterday all I felt like doing was NOTHING!!! I'm going and going all the time that I just wanted to relax. Well after a couple of hours of relaxing in the morning I felt so guilty. Then I found a happy medium. I took my Timex Ironman Triathlon trainer and set the interval timer for 15 minutes repeating. For 15 minutes I would sit and do something relaxing I wanted to do and then when the timer would go off I would go take care of something around the house and repeat. Sometimes I woul... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 10:13:51 EST What are your values I've always been big into values and goals and trying to live the best life possible. For everyone, though we may have similarities, this will be different. People have different ideas about how they want to look. Some wear make-up, others don't. Some want to be a certain weight and others want a certain look. Either way we need to find what works for us and what makes our life the best it can be. I found this site today that I thought was very interesting. It says what I am trying to ... Sat, 13 Nov 2010 12:46:33 EST Letter to myself Renee you asked me some very good questions that I would like to hopefully answer for you now. <BR> <BR> Why do things always seem hard for you and some other people seem to have it easy? First you don’t know what they are going through. We are all given our own burdens to bare (your own cross so to speak) and honestly, do you really want someone else’s? It’s the things that we ourselves need to learn that we struggle with and this makes us who we are. If you want to get better at som... Tue, 9 Nov 2010 09:51:19 EST Love the Fitbit w/pics According to my Fitbit I burned 2142 calories yesterday. I had to add my biking because the Fitbit is made for walking, jogging and running and may not be accurate with other activities. I walked 7639 steps which translated into 3.19 miles. I have to mention that I have not entered my stride information so those numbers are based off the averages Fitbit uses which for me might be pretty good because I am average at 5’4”. You can see the report for steps here: <BR> <BR> <img src="http://... Thu, 21 Oct 2010 11:27:26 EST I never knew how few calories I burn - Timex HRM and Fitbit I’m thinking I know why I have not been losing anymore weight once I got down to 140. Besides the fact that I have probably been eating more at a maintenance level I am not burning enough calories. I just got a HRM and a Fitbit. Not sure if they will work out for me but we will see. <BR> <BR> Anyhow, I was fairly inactive a couple of hours before bed last night and I only burned about a calorie a minute on average. I don’t think I have a sluggish metabolism but I do have a very low he... Wed, 20 Oct 2010 13:51:18 EST I've come to realize..... I realized two things yesterday. One, it’s not about the scale anymore and two, what I eat really matters, especially when I work out. I’ll expand on both of those. <BR> <BR> I got rid of my scale about a week or so ago but it wasn’t an easy move and I didn’t know how I would deal with that. In my mind then I still had the thought of losing more pounds. I now believe that once you are in a healthy weight range it is no longer about the scale and much more about how you look and feel. ... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 16:06:02 EST The scale It's as if Spark People is affirming my decision to get rid of my scale. Since I wrote that blog I have received at least 3 emails on how we can measure our progress in other ways. I have to say I feel so much better about me without that thing staring back at me every day or even every week. <BR> <BR> Update on my calorie cycling - I'm not doing it anymore. I planned great but what I cannot plan is what my body needs every day based on my activities and although I only went as low as 130... Fri, 15 Oct 2010 08:03:22 EST Calorie Cycling This week I thought I would try calorie cycling. From what I can tell calorie cycling is to eating as intervals are with exercise. This is supposed to help with weight loss and eliminating or limiting plateaus. Well, today I think calorie cycling is STUPID!!! It is one of my lower calorie days (1300) and from one meal to another I am HUNGRY! I have never thought about food at all this year like I have been thinking about it today. And I do not eat empty calories. I have a variety of c... Wed, 13 Oct 2010 16:45:00 EST Rachel Cosgrove - The Final Nail in the Coffin of the Scale I have been doing a lot of thinking and decided that I am going to get rid of my scale. This is a big step for me because I am such a slave to the scale. A bad number on the scale will mean a grumpy day for me. And that “bad” number could simply be not losing weight. What pushed me over the edge to actually make the decision is an article by Rachel Cosgrove (wife of Alwyn Cosgrove, trainer for NROL4W and NROL) that I received in my email today. <BR> <BR> <link> Tue, 12 Oct 2010 13:30:11 EST Why are carbs more plentiful? I've been thinking about protein lately and trying to see if I can get enough through food alone. Right now I get 20-40 grams a day with my whey protein powder and the rest with food for a total of a little over 100 grams on good days. Why is it that it is so much easier to eat carbs than protein? I don't mean that I don't like protein or only want carbs. I mean that carbs are much more plentiful even though I have stopped eating processed foods for the most part. I'm seriously thinking ... Mon, 11 Oct 2010 16:37:00 EST The frog was boiled and so was I Now that I have become more active there are so many things I want to do but I don't have the money or time to do them all. I could easily make being active my full time job. Except that we don't get paid for just being active. Oh how I wish! <BR> <BR> When I think about being active I wonder how I ever became inactive. I have never been hyperactive but I remember as a kid, even though I made plenty of time for books I had just as much, if not more time, for fun activites. I don't even... Fri, 8 Oct 2010 22:29:24 EST Change is on the horizon! Well September was pretty much like the entire summer. I didn’t really reach any goals but I didn’t gain any weight either so that is a win in my book. I’ve been saying this for months and I will say it again; there is still a lot of psychological work for me to do. I can make a plan and follow it. My problem comes when I don’t plan. My brain is just not yet in healthy mode most of the time without consciously thinking about it. As I sit and ponder that though, maybe it is ok. I may ... Fri, 1 Oct 2010 16:01:15 EST Some after photos (well almost after) I've been putting off having "after" pictures taken of me because I do not usually take very good photos. I mean, it usually looks like a mug shot for one and both of my sides are bad sides when it's a picture. But sometimes my husband catches candid pictures of me. Some of these aren't the best quality but you can still tell what I look like. Here you go, me at 140 just 10 pounds from my goal. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <im... Thu, 30 Sep 2010 22:41:48 EST could it get any worse? So just because I have PMS does not mean that my feelings aren't valid. I hate this time of the month and I hate feeling like this. Here is an email I sent my husband this morning. It wasn't really something I could say on the phone with co-workers around. <BR> <BR> -----I don’t know what is wrong. I think PMS is just creating bigger mountains of my mole hills. I hate that I have been eating so poorly and not exercising like I would like to. I hate that I have not gotten down to my goa... Tue, 28 Sep 2010 13:38:19 EST stress I realized something today. When I do not log in on SP I am not very happy. Also, when I don't get my walks and bike rides I get a bit grouchy. With the scale still stuck at 140 it doesn't help either. I think I need to ditch the scale for a while so that I don't rely on that so much. When I get on it and lose weight I feel good that day and when I get on it and nothing has happened I don't have a good day. It's hard to give it up though. <BR> <BR> My house has been so stressful the p... Sat, 18 Sep 2010 21:47:39 EST 17 things Seventeen weeks to make 17 good changes yet this year. <BR> <BR> If you read my last blog I wrote a list of 17 things I would never eat again giving them up one every week. But, I cheated and only listed things I did not like to begin with. This is my serious list but it is 17 changes or things I will do/not do to better myself. I start this week as week 1. By the way, that list of things in my last blog was very difficult to write. I had a very hard time thinking of 17 things. This is e... Wed, 8 Sep 2010 23:05:11 EST Choosing one thing a week to not eat anymore for the rest of the year There are 17 weeks left in the year. Oh my, that is not much time. But I thought I would pick some sort of junk food or food that is not necessairly the best for you to never eat again. Here is my list..... <BR> <BR> Week 1 - Pork Rinds <BR> Week 2 - M&M pretzels <BR> Week 3 - Ho-ho's <BR> Week 4 - Moon Pies <BR> Week 5- Rocky Road Ice Cream <BR> Week 6 - Latte's of any kind <BR> Week 7 - Honey Buns <BR> Week 8 - Funyons <BR> Week 9 - Hot wings <BR> Week 10 - BBQ Ribs <BR> Week 11 - Ketch... Mon, 6 Sep 2010 23:15:28 EST Mish Mosh Well I basically haven't removed any weight all summer. Usually summer is the easiest time for that. I do know why. It's a combination of several things. Heat, bugs and the no smoking ban. Oh and my husband. I always tell him he is fattening!!! I like the heat but I don't think my DH does. Because of that we have not gone on as many walks as usual. We can't take the dogs in the heat because they always get overheated. And DH doesn't like the mosquitoes so we don't walk wen the mosquit... Tue, 31 Aug 2010 21:44:53 EST Sleep I'm a little obsessed with sleep right now. That is probably because I desperately need more of it. <em>102</em> Because of this I have been searching the internet for sleep articles and how much sleep we really need or if you can make up any sleep deficits (I'm really hoping so). <em>174</em> I read two different articles, one that said you can never really make it up and another that said you can make up a lot of it. So which is it? I'm thinking I agree with you can make up a lot... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 15:26:06 EST Huge Reading Huge was a like/hate relationship for me. I had a difficult time getting into the book at first. Finally I was interested but in the middle of the book I was ready to stop reading it. I think the girl and girl/guy drama just really struck a nerve with me. I ended up setting the book aside for a day or two and when I came back and got past all the drama it turned out to be a nice book. <BR> <BR> One of the things that caught my attention while reading is that no matter your size... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 08:48:57 EST Yoga? Zumba? Nope. I have so much to say but don't want to make this blog a novel. First, my yoga experience last night. Well, it wasn't. Come to find out it was not a beginners class as we thought. I could have stayed but decided instead to go the the actual beginners class on Saturday morning. I called DH to come and pick me up since I wasn't going to do yoga. But then, at the last minute we decided to take a different Zumba class since the people in it said their instructor was really good. So I had to... Tue, 24 Aug 2010 08:36:57 EST