MRSBENNETT2's SparkPeople Blog MRSBENNETT2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community And again.... What with one thing or the other....for the past four months or so I could have cared less about myself. Travelling and a major depressive episode knocked all eating with moderation rules out the window. I've gained weight (don't wanna know how much) and now it's time to get myself back in hand. <BR> <BR> I brought back some old Weight Watchers tools from years ago - the points listings book and the points finder. I looked up my points allowed, did some figureing and said to myself "this ... Tue, 21 Jul 2015 19:32:22 EST It's about like that.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I had to laugh when I saw this. Seems so apt! <BR> <BR> I can't complain though. Life's snarls and tangles are slowly unravelling. I'm taking better care of myself and the sun is shining a bit more brightly. It's good. Mon, 6 Jul 2015 23:13:25 EST Pep talk/small goals for myself. BUT FIRST.....a photo update of the Delight Of My Heart: <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The little twerp is coming up on seven months old! He's such a little sweet stinker. <BR> <BR> The heaped-up stress of the last two years finally broke me last month. Culminated in some thoughts of self-harm or what my friend calls "leave here now dammit". I went to the doctor, got lined up for counselling (which I will probably... Sun, 28 Jun 2015 22:53:18 EST At it yet again. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here's a photo to encourage myself.....and just because it makes me smile. I look at this picture and laugh helplessly each time~he is such a darling little guy! He looks months older too when he's held up like this rather than lying down. He grows and changes every day. Now he's had enough of lying down except to sleep - he wants to be held upright so he can see everything, or he wants to be sitting in our l... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 16:20:07 EST Just for Bonnie....because she asked so nice. :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here's a photo of 7-week old Grandson. he's such a darling! I was talking to him yesterday saying "I love you/we love you" repeatedly and I swear to you he put his best effort into saying "I love you" right back! Oh my heart.... Tue, 27 Jan 2015 01:30:19 EST Sore as heck.... Well, my trainer finally coaxed me out of the ladies' circuit room and back to the free weights. I thought I was getting a good workout all that time...and I suppose I was, but boy howdy I've used some different muscles! <BR> <BR> My daughter has started at the gym again, as of today. That's going to be fun. She quit going almost immediately after convincing me to join up last year. After getting whammied by gestational diabetes and being very out of shape for this pregancy, she wants ... Wed, 21 Jan 2015 23:53:21 EST Just because.... ...everyone loves a baby. :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> the latest photo of our wee month old on Jan 5. I got to babysit him yesterday for the first time. Two and a half hours felt like 20 minutes. Generally when i see him he's sleepy because he's been in the car, yesterday was the first day we really got to interact. SUCH a darling! He woke just after I took this photo and we settled on the sofa and I began reciting nursery ... Wed, 7 Jan 2015 17:35:18 EST Phew! Finally! <img src=""> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Young Gavin Stuart finally decided to arrive on Dec. 5th at 11:29 pm. My poor daughter had a rough time of it - they decided to induce her and right from the beginning her contractions were unbearably painful. Her labor was unproductive (stuck at 3cm for almost 12 hours). She had an epidural at about 3pm, then around 7pm babies' heartbeat went... Sun, 14 Dec 2014 18:19:22 EST Babies sure like to take their own sweet time.... We have been on Baby Alert here since last night. My daughter has been having contractions all morning, about 20 minutes apart. She told me this and i did my immediate freak-out, so hopefully I can be calm and collected when we get our clue to head to the hospital. <BR> <BR> She already had a doctors' visit scheduled for today. The doctor stretched her to 3cm....which I don't believe midwives and doctors were doing 20 years ago when I was having babies....said her cervix is very soft, a... Mon, 24 Nov 2014 23:34:52 EST Not looking forward to tonight..... We are just about to wind up the sale of our house. Everything seemed to be going swimmingly....til today. <BR> <BR> Not gonna be a good time when my husband gets home. He's going to be furious. There will be drama. Oh, he won't take it out on me or anything, but I don't do drama very well because of issues lingering from my first marriage. <BR> <BR> We got an email from our property conveyancer with an addendum to the contract from the buyers. We were expecting a lease-back rent of ro... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 21:59:59 EST Just for fun.... <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This one always makes me laugh. <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Having a blah kind of day. I had a good workout, but I got to the point right at the end where I was out of steam and I had to quit. I must be at that point now where I've used up the energy reserve stores, or fat stores, or something. Well, not the fat stores...still got plenty of insulation. I've used up something, anyway! And my blood sugar isn't... Tue, 18 Nov 2014 20:41:01 EST Going pretty well, actually! Gave in to temptation and weighed myself. The scale might well need a new battery, or I am finally flushing all the excess sodium out of my system. Funny how we forget certain things...for a long time I was using baking soda in water two or three times a day for rampant heartburn brought on by wheat consumption. I've quit eating wheat no need for the baking soda. Just realised this morning that baking soda is a big sodium bomb. Duh! Anyway, down a couple kilos suddenly. So ... Mon, 17 Nov 2014 23:35:19 EST Arrgghhh... I succumbed to temptation this morning and weighed myself. <BR> <BR> Now, yesterday was a very hot and humid day here. I walked a lot, drank a lot of water, lunch was quite a bit saltier than I'm accustomed to. Everything was tracked. I made good choices. <BR> <BR> I am UP one kilo (2.2 pounds). <BR> <BR> The only thing saving my sanity is the fact that I know I did not eat 7,000 calories yesterday. Not even close! <BR> <BR> I am going to weigh just once a week. Fri, 14 Nov 2014 15:51:26 EST And on the fourth day.... .....I didn't go to the gym. I went with my daughter for a tour of the maternity ward where she'll have her baby. Parking is horrible at the hospital so we decided to cut our losses and just take the train into town. She wore her FitBit and by the time she goes to bed tonight she'll have hit 10,000 steps so I know I have as well. <BR> <BR> We needed a snack between the tour and the time the restarant we wanted to go to would open....we spied fresh apples at the farmers' market. The ver... Fri, 14 Nov 2014 02:35:33 EST And on the third day.... Yesterday went really well with the tracking, staying within my calorie limit, and getting to the gym. <BR> <BR> I have decided to be grown-up enough to admit that I need to not eat the upper calorie level that Sparkpeople recommends. It just is too much. I was told this by a trainer at the gym who does fitness competition....the younger woman who trains hard. She said SHE only eats about 1700 calories a day. So if she works like a slave and has to eat that little...well, I just might ha... Wed, 12 Nov 2014 17:49:17 EST GAHHHH!!!! If I hadn't started making more positive changes, i would be seriously disgusted with myself right now. <BR> <BR> Monday was good. Good gym session, good food tracking. Fine and dandy. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was a complete wash. I started the day well, then it quickly went south due to disarranged schedule and some stress which led to a rare bout of emotional eating. <BR> <BR> Back on track today. Good gym again, concentrated on legs and lower body. Tracking everything I'm eating. All... Tue, 11 Nov 2014 20:46:07 EST Every day a new day.... ...Yeah, literally. Every day I start with good resolutions, by about 10:30am it all goes to hell in the proverbial handbasket. <BR> <BR> So, today I am making a concentrated effort to get out of that mindset. I went to the gym, made the effort to be fully present and not distracted. I went those couple extra reps, those couple extra minutes on the cardio. Then I bought ingredients to make lunch for us rather than buying at a restarant as was my plan. Tracked it all, did not take cupc... Sun, 9 Nov 2014 20:11:08 EST Keepin' on keepin' on. High stress in MrsBennetts' household. Getting ready to sell the house, and all the attendant fun that goes along with that. Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning....I'm trying to handle the cleaning aspect so my husband can do the more fiddly things like painting. He's giving the poor realtor a run for his money - this young man has been cold-calling for about two years now and I remember at one point telling him that my husband would be a tough customer. He is learning I did not fib. The husban... Mon, 27 Oct 2014 20:28:52 EST 1st day back.... the gym. I am a stinky mess. :) <BR> <BR> I didn't lose any cardio endurance, but I did lose strength. Going to take some time to get back where I was. <BR> <BR> My main issue will be convincing myself I have plenty of time (which I do!) to get to the gym each and every day, as well as taking care of everything extra I need to do at home. It'll be far to easy to say "I just can't go today...too busy." I have to push past that mindset. Mon, 20 Oct 2014 18:44:01 EST Overwhelmed and determined to be in control. Back home again after three weeks in Kansas with my father and family there. Was a nice trip, we didn't get a heck of a lot done that we set out to do, but we had time together and that was most important. My dad is quite rare in that he'll openly admit emotional issues rather than keeping everything inside. Well, I'd say he'll talk to people he's comfortable with, and he's comfortable with me. I hope I did him some good, and left him with a sense of anticipation and something to look for... Sun, 19 Oct 2014 16:42:44 EST A lil' rant, and a new plan. Must be something in the air...or last weeks' Super Moon is still hanging around providing a negative influence. <BR> <BR> A dear friend who has a life far too full and a difficult husband sort of went off the rails two days ago. I am at a loss how to help her. I finally decided to just tell her the truth (she thought we might be talking behind her back, and we were not) and then let it go. From the sound of it, their tv broke yesterday evening....her husband put up a message on a 'buy/... Tue, 16 Sep 2014 21:50:58 EST A New Focus. I have been MIA since we returned from the States three weeks ago. Life is ramping up now and my head is spinning and it's hard to focus on much of anything. Nothing bad is happening, just the potential for changes - and very rapid changes. <BR> <BR> We're going to put our house on the market soon. There's high demand where we live so we could potentially sell the week after it lists. After that, who knows? We'd like to sell to an investor who would allow us to stay awhile on a lease bu... Tue, 9 Sep 2014 19:02:05 EST Just nattering you do. Been an interesting couple of days. Yesterday morning, I spent several hours with my eldest daughter, who is expecting a baby in early Dec. Baby Gavin allowed me to feel him kicking, which was quite spectacular. :) My daughter is soo excited to be on this journey. Can't help but get carried along with her. I was thinking back to the days when I was incubating her - I remember when she first started moving and it was like a little goldfish fluttering, then my only other memories are lat... Mon, 1 Sep 2014 22:23:03 EST Thankful it's Friday! Off to the gym this morning. Was more interested in socialising, sort of pootled through the workout. Then as I was leaving, the FitBlast (weights to music) class was starting and it wasn't full so I joined in that one. Only thing I couldn't do was hold the weight bar behind my head and shoulders for the squats, so that wasn't bad. What was meant to be worked, got I can attest each time I sit this afternoon. <BR> <BR> There is a darling older lady at the gym who looks afte... Thu, 28 Aug 2014 22:41:15 EST Back at it. Home again home again jiggety-jig. Back at the gym yesterday morning early...didn't go great guns because I was weary, but it was GOOD to work the muscles again. <BR> <BR> I went on vacation with good intentions and you know how that always pans out. I packed my resistance bands, my sun hat and good shoes. Did I use 'em? You decide. ;) I was active, but it was just household activity. And this wasn't the usual gut-fest that family visits can be. My dad will be carried off one day b... Mon, 25 Aug 2014 21:12:36 EST What's that road paved with? So I made this resolution to make it to the gym as many times as possible between now and Tuesday. <BR> <BR> Yeah, right. Woke up this morning with a bad upper back ache. It's in the spot where I have arthritis on a rib, or I may have overdone it yesterday at the gym, or I slept wrong. However I did it, I'm disappointed and it hurts like heck. <BR> <BR> When i get home from dropping daughter at the train station, out comes the foam roller to see what I can do about easing the kink. Thu, 7 Aug 2014 18:03:47 EST Just a Rant. Darn cold here today! -0.4C, which is 31F. Brr! My toes still haven't warmed up and I've been awake for hours! <BR> <BR> However, that is not the rant. ;) <BR> <BR> My daughter has Aspergers' Syndrome, and is working with a disability service. Her caseworker arranged a month of work experience for her with a banner and sign making company, as she is an artist and wants to work in that field. It's been a fiasco from the first. <BR> <BR> Three weeks ago, the caseworker took her to th... Tue, 5 Aug 2014 21:26:55 EST Obligatory Gym Report. I've decided to up my cardio each day. Baby steps.... <BR> <BR> I am at the end of my three-part "program" Sharni worked up for me, so I told her not to worry about a new one until I'm back at the gym later in the month. So I concentrate on cardio and do sets of my own choosing between the five-minute cardio sessions. Today I felt especially aimless so I allowed myself to be talked into doing the spin class. I figured I'd just walk away if it got to be too much - but it's amazing how pro... Mon, 4 Aug 2014 21:19:14 EST just a check-in. Still struggling with that whole thing about resolutions and then derailment. I haven't derailed in a huge way, just haven't been as strict with the nutrition as I wanted to be, knowing my bad habit of putting on weight while I'm away from home. Still going to the gym five days a week and concentrating on proper form and when I have extra energy I throw in extra cardio and extra sets of exercises. So that's all going well. <BR> <BR> The eating...not so much. Far too much wheat and ther... Tue, 29 Jul 2014 22:08:52 EST keepin' on. I'd like to know just why it is when we make certain goals for ourselves, we immediately derail. Perhaps it's a sign of maturity to understand that its MYSELF that derails, and not someone sneaking up and doing the deed? <BR> <BR> Long story short, I had to rededicate yet again today. I've had two weeks of too much wheat, which of course means too much stuff like cake. Not feeling great. Finally back on a regular schedule at the gym, so that's one thing I'm doing right lately. <BR> ... Mon, 14 Jul 2014 21:08:17 EST Food = Mood. I learned a valuable lesson yesterday. Must be true that we don't comprehend til we're good and ready. <BR> <BR> I went out for a gossip session with my friends yesterday. On the way, I stopped and grabbed a fast-food meal because I hadn't planned well and wasn't going to be able to wait to eat til we got to our destination. Wolfed down the fast food, went to the coffee shop.....had a large coffee and a piece of carrot cake. The cake was delicious. I haven't had carrot cake in years. E... Tue, 8 Jul 2014 17:17:31 EST Temporary I'm back. Last week wasn't great for quite a few reasons. Nothing bad happened, just stuff in my head going round and round and an attack of my fun social anxiety disorder. Stayed away from the gym all week except for Friday. Ate ice cream every day. Hey, I figured if it was gonna be a pity party, I'd have ice cream. <BR> <BR> So I went back to the gym yesterday. Started on my new three-part program. The ol' "Low and Slow" one. Lots of reps, lower weight. I am FEELIN' it. I was groaning to ... Mon, 7 Jul 2014 19:47:06 EST Looking forward to the weekend.... I have myself convinced I'm not sleeping well, even though I know I am. Hard to drag my poor butt out of bed at 6am, even harder to think about putting on the workout clothes and heading to the gym. <BR> <BR> But I did. I moaned, groaned, complained, got some good advice from my trainer. I even did an additional ten minutes of cardio that I hadn't planned on simply because a delightful lady got me talking about places she wants to visit in the States. <BR> <BR> Still worrying over th... Thu, 26 Jun 2014 22:12:21 EST Wild weather.... Tad bit blowy in my corner of the world these days. Power went out yesterday afternoon at 4:30, didnt' come back on til 6:45pm. Dinner was all medieval - candlelight and only meat and bread. I had foresight enough to throw a roast in the crockpot in the morning, by the time I was ready to put veggies on, out went the power. <BR> <BR> I had an interesting dream last night. In the past, I've had recurring dreams about keeping a rental apartment in a very old building, even though I liv... Tue, 24 Jun 2014 20:59:09 EST Is Mercury out of retrograde yet? Please??? Wow...big emotions lately. I'm ready for the boring to set in again. <BR> <BR> My children are making me crazy of late. They depend on me to both advocate for them, and definitely depend on me ignoring bad behaviour or being oblivious. I was a single mom, working full time when they were young, so a certain amount of glossing-over got done when it came to things like keeping rooms clean, having set chores to help out, etc. None of this has benefitted them because i can cheerfully and l... Sun, 22 Jun 2014 21:44:45 EST My brother-in-law's quilt. ;) This is that quilt from a few posts back...the one I'm making for my wee niece. Very girly. Story behind this is that my dear husband told me the quilt for his brother needed to be 'VERY MANLY' or Brian wouldn't like it. (Truth is, Brian will be thrilled with whatever I make for him.) <BR> <BR> So when I was telling husband the sad tale of discovering the hole Miss Doggie had chewed in it, he glanced across the room at this pile of sweet girlie colors and said "Isn't that Brian's quilt... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 20:16:15 EST Looking ahead to August. Husband and I finally recovered enough from the stress of the last week - sat down and booked just about everything for our trip to Kansas to spend time with my dad. My husband loves the thrill of the chase when it comes to air travel. He wants the lowest fares, the best connection times, the best seat. I just stand back and let him have at it. My personal love is researching accommodation. He hates that, so we must be a good pair. <BR> <BR> Still trying to find a good balance between... Sat, 21 Jun 2014 19:42:31 EST Putting out a request for "boring life", please! Yes, we need a respite from all the excitement and weirdness of the last few days. <BR> <BR> My husband works for the Parks. Sunday morning he was out on his regular patrol, and he found a man's body. Unfortunately it's part and parcel of the job and at least once a year this occurs to some unfortunate soul in the Parks. Wasn't a natural death or a suicide. He was unable to come home and de-brief the day's experience with me as certain details hadn't been released yet and he'd been req... Mon, 16 Jun 2014 21:09:35 EST Back at it. I took three days off my gym schedule. Didn't even do much activity at home. Ate as well as I could, showed myself yet again that wheat is NOT my friend. I've had a horrific sweet tooth the last few days, I don't know what that's about. Maybe my body telling me to eat more good stuff for fuel? Generally when I'm putting along nicely I can look a gluten-free treat or ice cream square in the eye then pass right by. This weekend was not like that. My sweet husband asked if I'd make a sma... Sun, 15 Jun 2014 20:51:30 EST Bonked at the gym. I almost drove past the gym and on home today after dropping daughter at the train station. Talked myself out of it. Probably should have heeded my inner voice, because I had nil energy. The treadmill warmup felt far too challenging at 5.0kph when I generally push it to 6.0kph. Then when i started with the kettlebells, the lack of puff really showed. <BR> <BR> I need to have a serious review of what I've been eating. I just have not been hungry the last few days so my calories have been... Wed, 11 Jun 2014 19:54:17 EST All topsy-turvey. I think I'm getting ready for that full-moon Mercury in retrograde (or whatever it is) Friday the 13th this week. <BR> <BR> Everything is literally off-balance. Last night I got hit with one of my fun attacks of vertigo. Took two of the migraine pills recommended by the chemist and it knocked me out and fixed the problem. <BR> <BR> Went to the gym and sweated my lil' heart out with about 70 minutes of circuit training. Then came home and got online and found myself emotionally hammer... Tue, 10 Jun 2014 21:51:10 EST Back after a long weekend. I took it easy for three days and learned all over again what a slug I can be if I allow it. Just took care of small tasks at home and was on call to vet travel ideas off my husband. <BR> <BR> He loves the process of planning a trip. He literally spent two whole days trying to come up with combinations to get us to Kansas in August as cheaply as possible. The only one i vetoed was the flight that went through Mexico City. Then he came up with all these fun ideas like a couple nights in H... Mon, 9 Jun 2014 21:16:16 EST Blue on Blue. Started thinking last night on the events of the last few months with family and friends and my mood plummeted. Not much better today. Some of the things were just wild imaginings for the future so i can't even justify it. I'll be better. <BR> <BR> I've been in a great mood the last few weeks and I imagine it has something to do with working out. I got a bit cranky when I discovered the gym won't be open Monday - it's a public holiday, the Queen's Birthday. I don't begrudge Sharni and... Sat, 7 Jun 2014 22:06:08 EST I lurve my doctor. :) I don't think I posted my monumental tumble back in early was the day i was scheduled for my first gym assessment. While I was in Kansas previously, my husband (who loves Ebay) found a spare nudge bar for a car that he just HAD to buy. It was a bargain at 25$ ya know. Well, for some reason he had the nudge bar propped up against the wall in the garage instead of on the workbench. I guess because the workbench was nice and clear and he wanted it to stay that way. <BR> <B... Wed, 4 Jun 2014 21:56:52 EST Weary Wednesday. I think our sudden switch to winter mornings has taken it's toll on just about everyone. I had a hard time getting up today - husband was bright-eyed and bushy tailed though. Then my son who had to go to his baking class at TAFE today overslept. I finally woke him about the time he's generally leaving. Everyone at the gym said they felt the same way. I wasn't real enthused about being there but I jumped into the circuit workout and did 50 minutes and worked up a good sweat so I was satis... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 23:20:08 EST Tuesday, tuesday. <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Here is little Ginny. (Her companion is Harry.) My friend told me that Ginny is very sparing of her kisses, but she must've known I needed some comforting yesterday because I got a facefull of joey kisses! I feel honored. There is something so calming and wonderful in a connection with an animal. <BR> <BR> Onwards. I feel I really did something at the gym today. Upped the lat pulldown to 34 kilos, dropped... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 21:04:14 EST heartsore. My friend Kenny back in Oregon lost his fight against an aggressive form of cancer today. He was a good friend from high school days, and lately we'd reconnected on Facebook. What a good guy! Veteran, funny, intelligent, wise, insightful...the sort of soul we'll miss for a long long time. <BR> <BR> Had a good healing dose of Small Boy and kangaroo joey at my friends' house. Her youngest is 4 1/2, and just the greatest little character ever. We had a very serious conversation about Fo... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 01:20:22 EST Monday Monday.'s not such a bad one so far. I staggered out of bed at what I THOUGHT was 3:45am to visit the toilet. Staggered back to bed, got comfortable, next thing I knew the husband was getting up as it was 6am. My poor old eyes were mistaken. Fooled by the clock.... <BR> <BR> Off to the gym as usual. Kettlebells are sneaky things. About the time I'm wondering if I actually am getting a decent workout, I break a sweat and start to puff and pant. Looking forward to tomorrow when we up ... Sun, 1 Jun 2014 19:40:40 EST Took a break yesterday.... Yes, I had Saturday "off". No gym, no food tracking. My only "cheat" though was a couple slices of real bread. Oh, and oatmeal with brown sugar and milk for dinner because I dont' care for sausages. <BR> <BR> Grey and gloomy day here. Perfect for the first day of winter though. I'm going to make another cup of tea and sit down with The Nieces' Quilt. On the home stretch with that. <BR> <BR> Tracking again, and will stick to the low end of my calorie range since it's going to be a se... Sat, 31 May 2014 19:14:22 EST Fourth Day..... Yesterday ended up ALMOST a train wreck of my own making. <BR> <BR> I had to run out to North Wollongong to pick up our daughter at community college, as she had a counselling appointment. Neither she nor her dear daddy told me she would be an hour, and I arrived an hour early thinking it would be only a 15 minute appointment. Well, I sat there til 4:30pm til she finally came to the car. Meanwhile I'd called my husband at 4pm and said we'd be late. He suggested I stop on the way home... Thu, 29 May 2014 21:18:59 EST