MOUNTAINS2CLIMB's SparkPeople Blog MOUNTAINS2CLIMB's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Still Climbing Mountains... Well, no one may have noticed, but it's been a very long time since I've been here. This has been a crazy year to say the least. A complete roller coaster. Some good - some not so much. I put out my second book this year, have been completely busy, and while things were going pretty well for my daughter for the most part, she started crumbling again into a quick downward spiral into the land of depression and suicidal thoughts. Everything has kind of been on hold for me for a while. I've bee... Sat, 27 Dec 2014 03:02:09 EST One More Time... Right now, you can't see me, but if you could you would see me hanging my head in shame. I can't believe how long it's been since I've been here. Oh, I have a mountain of excuses, I really do..but those excuses have not gotten me any closer to my goal. In fact they have brought me farther from it. So, here I am, back where I belong. Here I am, promising myself that I am going to take advantage of the tools here (again) and the fantastic support of my friends (that I have been missing ter... Mon, 17 Mar 2014 12:24:17 EST Hey There! Hi everyone! How is your New Year going so far? <BR> I am actually still reeling from the holidays and decided today was the day to little by little restore order in my home and in my head. That's going to be quite the task!! <BR> I'm feeling good though, I've just gotten lazy about some things. Need to change that one. <BR> <BR> This hit or miss at being on Spark is not working for me. I have a tendency to lose track of time, so when I was coming to Spark every day I was spending way ... Mon, 6 Jan 2014 13:18:29 EST It's That Time of Year Again It's almost the end of a year and a new one is right around the corner. <BR> I'm not going to make New Year's Resolutions. I'm not going to beat myself up over anything I didn't accomplish over the year. <BR> In fact, 2013 was quite a year for me. I was really blessed this year and some great things happened. I accomplished some goals that I had begun to think I wouldn't. Overall 2013 was a good year. <BR> I'm looking at 2014 now, knowing that it too can hold great things for me. I ... Mon, 30 Dec 2013 19:07:26 EST Hmmm...Ya Think? Months back...way way back, I had decided I'd had enough of always running around getting nothing accomplished. (I have a terrible tendency to never finish one thing before I leave it and go to the next...) I was stressing over things I couldn't control, was tired, cranky and had constant headaches. I decided to take a stand. I worked out a schedule for chores, threw out the worry (you know, what I could of it), and decided that Sundays were a day for me to relax and do what I wanted and N... Thu, 10 Oct 2013 13:51:57 EST Sun's up...I'm still working on it! It might be 8:30 in the morning, but I'm just not awake yet. Got up at 6:30, but here I am still yawning... <BR> Anyway -- It's Monday again and they seem to just come faster and faster every week. Today I'm going to work on me. Today I am going to ask myself what I need in order to succeed in reaching better health. What can I give myself to make this happen? What do I need to do to get there? <BR> Those shouldn't be tough questions, but they are. I tend to do an awful lot of inner dia... Mon, 7 Oct 2013 09:59:15 EST It's Been a Busy Couple of Weeks Hi everyone! The past couple weeks have really flown by in a blur. My book became available last week, and I was really busy with last minute edits, and then when it came out, I was busy poring over it, hoping nothing had been missed! I was worse than a new mother with her first born! I am calming down a little now, and am busy working on my next release, due out in the coming year. It has been such an interesting journey but the biggest obstacle I face is keeping focused. My ADHD gets in... Fri, 27 Sep 2013 23:31:23 EST I'm Ba-ack! News, Musings and Confessions Hey there! It's been a while! I have to say it's good to be back here today. I have lots of catching up to do! I've been gone a while and there has been a lot going on, so I will start with the confession. My eating and exercise have been truly awful. The only exercise I've gotten since I was last here was the week I spent in D.C. walking, walking walking. My eating has been abysmal. My daughter is gone alternating weeks through the summer. I just don't cook for myself, and yes, I cou... Sun, 8 Sep 2013 12:59:21 EST Saying "hello" and also "goodbye" Hey there guys. It's been a while I know. STILL having computer issues. Can't afford a new one yet, so each day I sweet talk and coax and beg mine to work. Some days it gives me a little while other days it says, "I don't think so." Most of the trouble with me being in and out has been computer related but there is also lots going on around here. <BR> <BR> I'm still practicing joy and thankfulness and learning to take care of me. Some days are easier than others!! I have to admit I s... Wed, 3 Jul 2013 00:18:02 EST 31 More Days, and No, I Didn't Fall off the Face of the Earth! Okay, so it FEELS like I fell off the face of the earth, but I promise I didn't. Almost maybe, but I'm still here. <BR> Still dealing with computer issues, but hopefully in a few months I will be able to get a new one and put the glitches behind me. <BR> I have missed everyone around here so much!! Being here on Spark and feeling connected to others with similar goals is motivating and inspirational and I need that. I miss it!! <BR> So -- My experiment to live with greater joy and take ... Thu, 20 Jun 2013 11:42:31 EST 68 More Days and Feeling Pretty good! To all who've asked about my daughter, I appreciate it! She is doing okay. Still sore and swollen but the doctor said the wound looks good. Tetanus booster yesterday (which she had to have before summer was over anyway!) and three days of antibiotics for good measure. <BR> We got home from the doctor yesterday and I caught myself slipping into a habit of the "old me". I was tired. I was cranky. I had a headache. DD got on the couch and fell asleep and I went into the kitchen to see ab... Tue, 14 May 2013 10:45:09 EST 69 Days And Still Working on It! (and some other boring ramblings) 69 days until vacation. I can hardly wait! 69 days left with my personal challenge to be the best I can be and focus on my health and the things in my life that are really important to me. Some days are still better than others, but I am getting better at recognizing that negative voice and banishing it from my thoughts. I'm moving more, drinking more water and not skipping meals. (for the most part). I'm practicing getting rid of negative thinking and practicing being kind to myself. <... Mon, 13 May 2013 12:47:30 EST 76 Days and Counting to A Better (Appreciation) of Me! I am a few days into my personal challenge and I have to share something. My daughter had a friend over this weekend, so while they were busy doing whatever ten year old girls do, I was enjoying the sunshine on my back porch and just piddling around the house. After her friend left, DD joined me on the back porch and was finishing up some homework. We were chatting and she asked, "Mom, have you spent all day out here on the porch?" I told her I'd been in and out, but I guess I had spent m... Mon, 6 May 2013 10:29:40 EST An Amazing Journey, Not a Final Destination. 78 Days to A Better Me I have tried so many "weight loss programs" in the past. All were half hearted attempts to be sure, but if it was out there, I pretty much tried it. I'd lose a few pounds, gain it back, give up. The question is not why the plans didn't work for me. The question is why was I doing it? <BR> Why did I say I wanted to lose weight? Lets see... <BR> My husband would treat me better if I were thin again. <BR> I would feel more confident in public. <BR> I wouldn't be ashamed of how I looked. <BR... Sat, 4 May 2013 23:25:25 EST 81 Days to a Better Me How many times have I told myself I was going to lose weight for an event? I can't even count. A wedding, a vacation, a graduation, a birthday, you name it, I've given myself that ultimatum that I needed to lose xx number of pounds before the big event. I'm so done with that. Now I do believe in setting goals, as long as they are attainable ones. I've never been good with setting goals to lose a specific number of pounds in a specific period of time. I'm not doing that to myself anymore.... Wed, 1 May 2013 21:58:02 EST Quiet Day. Peace is good. It was a week of ups and downs for me, but aren't they all? I spent a lot of time being mindful and grateful of every small thing. Perspective is important. Mindfully being grateful keeps the stress of what I CAN'T control at bay. <BR> A few highlights of the past week : My DD and I were in the shopping center wandering around and she reached out to hold my hand. That isn't anything new, she's very affectionate, but as she gets older sometimes she stops to think now wondering I suppose ... Sun, 28 Apr 2013 14:07:26 EST Innocent Scale or Evil Cyborg? I got on the scale this morning just for giggles and found that I was back up the two pounds I lost last week. What?! I sputtered. I stared. I denied. I about cried. I was GOOD this week! It just couldn't be! <BR> Alas! This is the way this journey goes for me. Up, down, up, up, up. It's frustrating. I long to see results and instead that cold piece of metal mocks me with its glowing red eyes. <BR> I thought about my options. There are only two. Give up or keep going. Well, I'm... Sat, 20 Apr 2013 20:08:24 EST Stress is an ugly word. (But today it didn't win!) Alright, first I have a confession to make. I slept longer than I had planned this morning. Okay, when the alarm went off I just decided to ignore it. I hadn't slept well and was feeling it. I got up and was getting ready to head out the door with no breakfast. What did I do? I caved. I ate a cupcake. Yep. A cupcake for breakfast. Filling AND healthy!! :) <BR> So, no planning today I went to work with no healthy snacks. BUT I drank lots of water and ate a slice of turkey. <BR> The... Wed, 17 Apr 2013 22:22:29 EST Monday you aren't so scary! Today I decided to be kind to myself. Today I woke up determined to succeed. I ate breakfast and scrubbed my kitchen. I organized under the sink. I made a salad for lunch and then cleaned bathrooms. I took a break had some tea and then picked up dd from school. I helped her make some organizational charts for chores and such. She is ADD as well as having an anxiety disorder so we are always looking for things to simplify her life help her focus and keep the anxiety down. I made a few master ... Mon, 15 Apr 2013 21:05:25 EST still moving Without a computer sparking has been hit and miss for me the last few weeks but just because I haven't been here doesn't mean I have given up. Nope not about to. Have I been on my best behavior? Absolutely not. Am I determined to make April better? You bet. <BR> I've taken a long hard look at my headaches sleeplessness general crabbiness and lack of energy. I've decided its time to tackle these issues head on and heal from within. <BR> I am TRYING to not only go to bed earlier but at a cons... Wed, 3 Apr 2013 18:35:37 EST Goals for the Week <BR> This week I plan to get back on track. I've let so much slide lately!! <BR> Back to business now. <BR> 1) At least 10,000 steps a day. I didn't make that goal a few days last week <BR> 2) 10 flights of stairs a day <BR> 3) ten glasses of water a day <BR> 4) some kind of exercise every day <BR> 5) eat more fruits and vegetables each day <BR> Simple. I can do that. <BR> <BR> I am blessed with a fabulous daughter and some fabulous friends. I'm grateful for each day I've been given.... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 21:18:04 EST When is the Time? The road to health and wellness can be a precarious one for some of us. We say we want to embrace change and become better versions of ourselves. Change, however, comes at a price. Change requires us to be diligent, goal oriented, positive, decisive and strong. Change means giving up the past and moving forward. This can be uncomfortable and even terrifying. No, we don't wish to remain where we are, but at the same time, changing means giving up something we value. Comfort. We might n... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 00:42:44 EST Bit by Bit! This past week sort of fizzled for me. DD got sick (again) so things just sort of went every which way. I realize that I gave myself permission to use this as an excuse for what I didn't do. I'm okay with that this time. Tomorrow I will head to the grocery store to get what I need to start the new week on track. <BR> I've been using my Fitbit and am getting more steps every day than I have in a long time. I'm drinking more water. I'm feeling pretty darned good. As I head into the ne... Sat, 2 Mar 2013 18:47:55 EST Those Moments Life is full of "Aha!" moments if we are looking for them. Each day can bring opportunities to learn something new about life and about ourselves. <BR> I've been focusing a lot on change lately. Not just the outward kind that will eventually lead to a pair of skinny jeans either. The inward kind, where the real struggle takes place. Most of my life there were things I pushed to the back of mind that I just didn't want to think about. I realized not long ago that the incidences that I h... Sun, 24 Feb 2013 15:00:59 EST What am I Tired Of?? Excuses. Negative talk. Beating myself up. Setting myself up for failure. Those are the things I am tired of! <BR> Thanks to everyone who commented on my last blog and gave me some insight and thoughts. <BR> I've been thinking and planning. I don't CARE how much weight I lose before I get to go on vacation. BUT -- that does not give me permission to slack off and forget what my goals are. I sat down with a clean notebook and made entries for each day, with my goals for the day, suc... Thu, 21 Feb 2013 01:31:23 EST Stopping this Destructive Thinking Before it Starts! Does this scenario sound familiar to anyone? "I have x months before vacation. If I lose x number of pounds a month I'll have lost x amount by the time I leave." Does anyone besides me do this? I start thinking of an upcoming getaway, and then I immediately feel like I'll enjoy myself more, have more fun, be less tired and more energetic or more DESERVING of said vacation if I can go as a thinner version of myself. It isn't wrong to want to lose some weight before an event or a trip, but... Tue, 19 Feb 2013 01:52:56 EST I think my Daughter is Going to Kick my Butt!! Tonight I was frantically running around trying to get in at LEAST 10,000 steps. Then I got the bright idea to see how many times I could climb our stairs -- my Fitbit activity page promised me a badge for 10 flights of stairs! Trying to go as quickly as I could, I went up and down six times, took a rest and then went back and did four more. My knees were complaining, I was out of breath and this makes no sense, but I was marvelling at just how out of shape I am and feeling bad about tha... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 01:06:58 EST Rainy Day Musings A few quick thoughts this morning. <BR> I got a Fitbit a couple days ago and I think that little thing might be just what I needed to help me get my butt in gear and move. It's like a little contest with yourself, looking at those numbers wanting to know if you can do more the next day. Last night I just might have been circling around round and round through my kitchen and living room just to get in some more steps before bed. I might have. <BR> The sleep info isn't so useful for me. I... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 11:00:13 EST A New Week -- Day something or other I am determined to get back on track this week. Spent way too much time being sick, now it's time to get on with things. I'm cautious about my excitement to get going again though. There are things going on around me that are beyond my control. Things that definitely require my attention, but things that I can only cope with, I can't cure them or stop them. This is where my planning usually falls apart, no matter WHAT stage of the health journey I am in. The stress does me in. I stop c... Mon, 4 Feb 2013 09:24:01 EST Day 21 - The good AND bad! I started out today strong. I started out today motivated and ready. Today was supposed to be a low calorie day. I went over on my calories. I'm not going to wail and moan about it, after all, I made the choices that took me over the limit. I'm still concentrating on weekly totals not daily totals, so I'm still okay as long as I finish the week with the right number of calories for the week. I can do that. It's a learning experience, and I'm learning. Sometimes saying no is easier tha... Tue, 22 Jan 2013 23:20:13 EST Day 20 - Going fine! So far it's been a good day. I am a little behind on my water, but I'll get it all in before tonight! <BR> I started the calorie cycling today with a high calorie day. Mondays are my day off so it made sense to make it a higher day -- but I've planned my meals ahead of time and so far so good. <BR> I only got about 10 minutes walk in this morning (which is SOMETHING) but I do plan on doing some other exercise later on. Got very little sleep last night, so I'm dragging, but I'm not makin... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 17:31:58 EST Day 19 -- Back to it tomorrow! I am looking forward to tomorrow!! I finally feel better, finally feel some energy coming back and tomorrow I am back on the eating right and exercise wagon. Blasted crud derailed my efforts for a few weeks, but tomorrow I'm back to work!! <BR> Not that I wasted today -- I cleaned. And cleaned. I didn't finish, but I got most of it done. Nothing had been decently cleaned since before I got sick, so today I started at one end of the house and dusted, vacuumed, mopped and disinfected my w... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 01:16:32 EST Day 16? I am FINALLY starting to feel like this "crud" is going away. Less tired today and not coughing near as much. I see the light at the end of the tunnel! Yay! <BR> I am planning to get back on track Monday with exercise and eating regularly and better. <BR> I may have been derailed for a while, but I'll be glad to get going again!! Fri, 18 Jan 2013 00:54:19 EST Day Nine -- the Awful Truth The awful truth of the matter is I really don't feel well. I've tried to tell myself that I was getting better every day..tried to tell myself I was just tired from not sleeping due to all the coughing. Tried to tell myself that I couldn't use not feeling well as an excuse to wimp out on my plan. <BR> So -- I've been telling myself these white lies since the first of the month. I got sick the week before Christmas -- That's 3 1/2 weeks ago! Today I knew I wasn't going to be able to atten... Thu, 10 Jan 2013 19:32:24 EST Day Six -- The Good, the Bad and the Will to Move On I weighed in this morning, but I already knew what the scale was going to tell me. This past week I had good days, I had bad days and Sunday I pretty much threw all caution to the wind. I exercised some, but not enough. The good news is I at least didn't gain anything. The bad news was I stayed the same. I could have been disappointed, but I wasn't. I wasn't disappointed in the number on the scale because I honestly knew I had not given enough effort this week to be rewarded by the cold... Mon, 7 Jan 2013 11:38:58 EST Heading into Day Two Well, this morning got off on the wrong foot, that's for sure! My daughter got ready for school, it was almost time to leave and I walked into the garage for something. My DD thought we were leaving, came out the door behind me and there we were, locked out of the house. It's cold, it's raining, I have no car key, no nothing. I ran to where I keep a key hidden and what do you know? It's not there. Why in the world would it not be there?? Then I remember...I gave it to the guy who came to... Thu, 3 Jan 2013 11:09:23 EST Day One (Again) I gave myself until today to get my head in the right place and make a new beginning starting today. <BR> My goals for today were water, breakfast and exercise and I'm happpy to say that I met those goals. I tracked my food and exercise and have room for a snack a little later in the evening. I hadn't planned on one, but after logging everything in I fell pretty short today. <BR> Day one down, and I feel good that I stuck to my plan!! Wed, 2 Jan 2013 19:45:31 EST Here it is... Another new year has dawned and I sit here today thinking about my goals and thinking about where I want to be when the new year comes around again. <BR> I know I have a lot of work ahead of me. I know that I am not going to wake up automatically thinner, healthier OR wake up one day and just have it all fall into place where I reach my goals effortlessly and without hard work. <BR> I'm giving myself today and then tomorrow the real work of the year begins in earnest. There is so much I ... Tue, 1 Jan 2013 16:06:28 EST Starting that new cycle That last (long winded) blog gave part of the story of how I've been feeling lately. I didn't want to sound like I was whining, though maybe I was just a little, but wanted to focus on the idea of cycles and new beginnings. <BR> I've had quite a few "new beginnings" in my life. I like the idea of leaving the past behind and moving forward. Sometimes it's easier said than done. Sometimes no matter how hard you try, the past keeps coming back into your thoughts for one reason or another. ... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 00:09:43 EST Endings, Beginnings and the Space In Between I remember a couple years ago when I first became aware of all the hoopla about "the end of the world" that was supposedly taking place a few days ago. I remember wondering if, in fact, the world was going to end, what was anyone going to do about it? How could hoarding potted meat in caves stop the end of time?? I prefer thinking that no one knows the time. <BR> The night of December 20th though, I found myself thinking. I did not in any way believe the world was going to come to an end ... Sun, 23 Dec 2012 16:09:05 EST Long time No blog! I just realized how long it's been since I've bothered to write. I guess I didn't feel I had anything worth saying! <BR> I'm still here and I'm still taking this one day at a time. I haven't lost any weight, but I haven't gained any either, so I'll take it. <BR> I got on the scale the day after Thanksgiving and I will not get back on until January. Holidays can be a time where I beat myself up for a lot of things. Mainly for letting another year slip by with no change on the scale, for a... Thu, 6 Dec 2012 09:50:55 EST What gives? I look back over what inspires me, and those things still DO inspire me -- BUT -- have I been doing what I should be doing lately? Nope. <BR> Why? I have no idea. Life again gets in the way I suppose...eating due to stress slips back in under the radar so that I don't even realize I'm doing it. <BR> What does that get me? bloated and tired!! <BR> <BR> Okay...I'm planning this weekend and am going to start off the new week on track!! AGAIN!! Sat, 13 Oct 2012 08:53:02 EST What Inspires Me? I am looking forward to September as a time to challenge myself to do more than I have done before and a time to stick to my plan and see myself achieve some goals. <BR> <BR> So, what inspires me? What I am I going to remember on those days that it just seems too hard?? <BR> <BR> **The smile of my daughter and the knowledge that to her, I'm the most important thing in the world. The knowledge that to her, I am beautiful. <BR> **That amazing energy that surrounds me when I exercise instead... Sat, 1 Sep 2012 19:01:40 EST Has it Really Been 10 Days? 10 Days ago I decided I was on a new path. I decided that I was done looking at the past and dwelling on what I HAVEN'T done. Yesterday was gone, time to move on and all that jazz. How is it working? <BR> I was pleased with my first week when I lost 3 pounds. Ecstatic really. It had been a long time since I'd seen the numbers go down...but that's looking at the past again, now isn't it?? So, three pounds down the first week. Has the second week been easy? Nope. Have I been perfect? No... Wed, 29 Aug 2012 21:58:46 EST My New Path -- AND -- What is Beauty? Today I took the advice of a kind fellow Sparkperson, and went into my day knowing that this is not a race to re-gain lost ground, but time to start a new path. That is exactly what I did. I woke up this morning and got my daughter to her first day of fifth grade. I got home, drank some green tea and ate some oatmeal, played around on Spark for a bit and then I did an exercise video. Wow. Can you say -- boy have I gotten in worse shape?? The WARM UP kicked my butt. Sad but true. Then I... Mon, 20 Aug 2012 22:40:32 EST A Day of Kindness--Amazing!! (but long!) I am always truly grateful for those random kind acts that people do. It always makes me feel good and I try to pass on those acts throughout my day. I also watch as my 10 yo DD holds doors, lets people go in front of her in lines, picks up things that people drop, and picks up trash in the park or on the sidewalk. She has gotten up from our table in restaurants to help the elderly carry their orders or take out boxes to their cars. I watch her with joy and hope she continues to carry k... Wed, 15 Aug 2012 11:14:22 EST Looking Forward. I'm looking forward to a lot of things. Right now I'm looking forward to the month of August. I do think time is moving too quickly, but since August is here, I'm ready to embrace it. <BR> This month I want to get back in the game. I've set some new goals and I'm holding myself accountable for reaching them. I don't want the whole world..well, not yet anyway. <BR> This month I'm looking for ways to better organize my time AND my home. <BR> <BR> For this week I'm concentrating on the... Thu, 2 Aug 2012 00:39:11 EST Change is a Long Time Coming I started my Spark journey quite a while ago, and as I began I was filled with hope and determination. Over time there has been ups and downs, success and what I believed to be failure. I've made numerous promises to myself and to my Spark friends that I was going to do this -- I could stick to my plan -- I could lose this weight. <BR> I've had many new beginnings and each time I felt I let myself down; and what's more, that I let my friends down. How could my Sparkfriends believe me when... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 22:23:57 EST I gave up...sort of... It's been a long time since I've been here. Spark was an important part of every day for me, and then things got in the way and I gave up on Spark and well, for a little while I gave up on me. <BR> Still, my life has certainly changed since Sparkpeople. A few years ago, I would have given up on myself and it would have lasted. It probably would have been a couple of years before I decided to try again...but not this time. I may have been gone a month, I may have put myself aside for a f... Tue, 15 May 2012 00:15:27 EST Today is That Kind of Day ...that kind of day when the skies are bright blue after the rain, a breeze is blowing that isn't too cold or too warm, and the quietness is interrupted only by the sounds of birds and the squirrels playing in the trees. It's the kind of day that makes me believe in things. The kind of day that says there is hope all around me and that the peacefulness I've been searching for is within my grasp. It's the kind of day that makes me believe that it is within my power to take control of this j... Sun, 4 Mar 2012 16:34:21 EST