MOTHEROFBOYS5's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MOTHEROFBOYS5 MOTHEROFBOYS5's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Holding steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5009321 It's been a whirlwind two weeks! We went camping with friends for a week, adopted a new puppy, and now my boys are getting ready to go back to school. Oh, and we have family coming into town this weekend. On Saturday, I'm making dinner for 22. <BR> <BR> Busy much? <BR> <BR> The good news is I'm walking a lot and I'm too busy to sit around all afternoon eating potato chips (my downfall). The bad news is I haven't been tracking and planning like I usually do. <BR> <BR> I'm ready for my kids... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 08:08:10 EST slow and steady http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4986154 I've lost five pounds in seven weeks. <BR> <BR> It won't put me on Good Morning America, but it is getting me closer to my goal of losing 30 pounds. <BR> <BR> One day, one choice at a time, I'm getting there. And that feels good. Wed, 25 Jul 2012 10:50:33 EST it all goes together http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4981482 I went off the rails for a few days this week. Life got chaotic, and I reacted by ignoring my food tracker and eating more carbs. Which, for me, just leads to eating more carbs. <BR> <BR> Not good. <BR> <BR> But it's a funny thing. On Friday, I cleaned my house, upstairs and downstairs. It took over five hours, but when I was done, I felt in control again. I filled out my nutrition tracker and made my healthy meal plan and stuck with it. <BR> <BR> It all goes together for me. Chaos = Chaos... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 09:34:45 EST snowball http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4975668 This week has snowballed...it started out one way, and now...I'm just plowing through each day. In the past, I would use this chaos as an excuse: See? I can't take time to exercise. Too much going on! No time to cook healthy food...pizza delivery it is! <BR> <BR> And, to be honest, last night WAS in fact a pizza delivery night. But I also opened a bag of salad and kept all my portions reasonable. My diet yesterday wasn't very balanced, but I did stay in my calorie range. <BR> <BR> Which is... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 07:50:52 EST hating myself thin http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4972447 It isn't possible. I've tried it before, many times, and failed. I cannot hate myself enough to be thin and healthy. <BR> <BR> And I think that's a good thing. <BR> <BR> This time around, I'm taking care of myself. Yes, I need to lose 30 pounds, but I'm not a bad person. I smile when I look in the mirror and tell myself I'm doing the best I can. Because I am. I am strong and kind and loving. I am capable of making a real lifestyle change, and being the kind of wife, mother, and friend that ... Mon, 16 Jul 2012 09:02:13 EST planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4969708 Weekends are for planning. <BR> <BR> On Saturday morning, my husband and I sit down with our calendars and talk about the schedule for the following week. He's an IT consultant, and some days, he works from home and on others, he's on road. It just varies. <BR> <BR> I also sit down and make our menu for the following week, and do the grocery shopping. <BR> <BR> We're in a CSA (Community Supported Agriculture), and we pick up our produce at the farm every Friday. We've really enjoyed it, ... Sat, 14 Jul 2012 08:49:19 EST I'm really doing this http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4968382 The past few days have been chock full of things that would have derailed me in the past. My husband has been traveling more for work, which makes it easier to justify just throwing in a frozen pizza for the kids and eating whatever. <BR> <BR> But I haven't. <BR> <BR> Additionally, my mother-in-law is not well, and I've been checking in on her almost daily. I'm blessed to have a wonderful relationship with my in-laws, and they only live five minutes away, but still...this is not the way I... Fri, 13 Jul 2012 09:21:25 EST not easy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4966845 Changing your life is not easy. It's hard work. <BR> <BR> I'm three weeks into this journey, and every day, I remind myself that it is hard. There are no shortcuts to where I want to go. True lifestyle change comes one good decision at a time. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I worked out with weights, then later, spent some time swimming with my kids. We went to the garden and spent some time weeding, and stopped at 7-11 for "free slurpee day." In the past, I would have gotten a "diet" slurpee and f... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 09:20:26 EST off the rails and back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4963531 Yesterday started off well. I ate my current favorite breakfast--overnight refrigerator oatmeal that I make with oatmeal, yogurt, almond milk, chia seeds and fresh fruit. Delicious and satisfying! <BR> <BR> Then I took my boys over to my in-laws house to help with my mother-in-law. She hasn't been well, so we've been there a lot lately. We stayed longer than I had planned, so we had lunch together. <BR> <BR> This is where my plan for the day got off track. I had a bbq pork sandwich and som... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 09:12:42 EST then and now http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4961676 I used to wake up on Monday morning hating myself for being fat. I vowed to eat nothing that tasted good for the rest of my life, committing to the latest diet fad, and following it for three days before binging and gaining back whatever I lost, plus some. <BR> <BR> Today, I woke up full of energy, ready to tackle another week. I'm down 3.5 pounds in the past two weeks, which doesn't sound like much, but I know those 3.5 pounds are gone forever. And that feels great. <BR> <BR> Yesterday, I ... Mon, 9 Jul 2012 07:48:13 EST no more buts http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4960276 I'm tired of making excuses for myself. <BR> <BR> The truth is, losing weight and getting healthy is hard work. It requires planning and motivation and willpower. <BR> <BR> Last night, we ate dinner with extended family, and I thought about all the times I've used that as an excuse to overindulge. Not last night. I brought two healthy vegetable side dishes, and ate that along with the main course. I counted everything. <BR> <BR> And dessert was store bought cake, which doesn't tempt me e... Sun, 8 Jul 2012 09:47:33 EST doing things differently http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4959037 I'm not getting on the scale today. <BR> <BR> For the last year, at least, I've had this pattern of "deciding to be healthy" and wanting to lose weight. I exercise and eat balanced, healthy meals for three days, jump on the scale, and...nothing. No weight loss at all. Or worse, a small gain. <BR> <BR> And I think, "Why bother? I'm destined to be fat." And go eat a row of oreos to console myself. If I tell myself the truth, I think a week or two of healthy eating and exercise should do it. T... Sat, 7 Jul 2012 09:35:09 EST Today is Someday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4957604 I've been meaning to lose weight and get into shape...someday. <BR> <BR> Honestly, I don't know how I let it go this far. I've been waiting for someday for too long. Waiting for some easy solution to come along. Something less difficult than watching what I eat and exercising and writing it all down and saying "no" to that chocolate brownie with ice cream and chocolate syrup. <BR> <BR> But someday is here. <BR> <BR> I'm forty years old, overweight, and doing something about it. <BR> <BR... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 08:29:19 EST