MOREMUSIC's SparkPeople Blog MOREMUSIC's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Been sick a lot this spring I haven't been on for a while to log in what I have been eating. Not that it would matter. I have been very sick. I have had pneumonia 6 times in the last 6 months. Part of my condition. But even though I have been sick, I still haven't lost any weight but then I haven't been eating a lot either. It is so frustrating. Congestive heart failure means I am tired all of the time, I can't exercise and even a minimal amount of food, I keep on. But I will keep trying. I have to - to keep li... Wed, 19 Jun 2013 22:17:55 EST watching the scales It is interesting and frustrating at the same time. I see my weight bounce up and down - each day. only by a pound or two BUT my clothes tell me something is happening. I got into a pair of jeans that I haven't been able to wear for over 5 years and I was excited about it. I am not sure whether I like watching the scale so much, it reminds me of watching a pot of water. It only boils when you are not watching! Sat, 20 Oct 2012 22:38:21 EST Enjoying myself I am a musician. I haven't been able to enjoy myself as much as I would like to due to some stress at work. I work 2 days a week out of the office. Things are easier now as the stress factor is gone. Since I am not as stressed, I am able to again perform my music and teach others and I enjoy it very much. Today was great. I was able to teach a group of adults a song to sing and to be able to stand while teaching for over 90 minutes and not feel exhausted. It was great! Sun, 14 Oct 2012 21:04:42 EST Moving more BUT So I have been more active- not what I would call exersizing but not spending as much time in front of the computer as I have. I have been walking - but that is because we have been visiting several places that requires you to walk to see things. I was gardening, and raking - light things since I am not really supposed to put extra strain on my heart by exersizing. Here is the BUT - I gained two pounds. Not much but when you are working so hard to lose weight - 2 pounds is 2 pounds. I al... Tue, 9 Oct 2012 22:09:59 EST sadness A month ago, when I went to get a treatment done Chuck who has been working on me for a couple of years said that he could feel a sadness about me. It hit me again this morning as we were going to church. We were driving by corn fields that have been harvested. Tobacco fields that are finishing up being harvested. But also the beautiful fall colours. The maple trees are so many colours this year it is amazing. The golden rods and the purple asters mixed with the reds and yellows should l... Sun, 7 Oct 2012 21:08:42 EST always thinking of food I can't believe how much I am thinking about food since I am keeping track of what I eat. It doesn't make me more hungry but it seems to be taking up a lot of my time and thoughts. Wed, 3 Oct 2012 22:12:22 EST Sadness Today was a funeral for a cousin's husband who died suddenly of a heart attack. There is always sadness around a funeral. I usually play the organ or sing or play some music at most family funerals as well as strangers and so I am comfortable with the sadness. I know that some people are afraid of funerals because they are afraid of death. I know that everyone is going to die and so I face life with arms wide open. I am filled with sadness as I look at my aunt's family. They had not see... Tue, 2 Oct 2012 22:34:45 EST Time My life is complicated. I have lots of schedules and I enjoy that. I am organized but sometimes there just doesn't seem like enough time. Time to do what I want to do. What scares me sometimes is the fact that I have reduced my involvement in so many things BUT still I am busy. I am scared that I am still doing too much or that I have too high of demands on myself. If I am that way with my schedules what am I like with losing weight because I HAVE to! I don't want to quit because I am ... Mon, 1 Oct 2012 14:43:38 EST Late Night snacking My worst time of the day is any time after 10 pm. I don't watch a lot of TV but when I do it is always around 10 pm - midnight. This is my worst time of the day as I am hungry and crave a snack. It isn't that I eat a lot but it is late at night and I know that is what keeps the weight on. BUT at the same time when I look at what I eat for the entire day I am not sure I eat enough. That is even what my cardiologist says also. So how do I get the weight to come off? How do I get over the... Sat, 29 Sep 2012 00:18:01 EST Eating I realized something today. I seem to eat a lot of meals by myself. Both my husband and I have our own businesses and we both work unusual hours and so often he is still working when I am ready to eat. So I am eating alone except I have the dogs staring at me. When we do eat together, my husband eats so fast I can't keep up with him. Plus it is getting rather difficult eating when I have dental issues occurring. Due to my health and the medication I am on, my teeth are deteriorating. W... Wed, 26 Sep 2012 21:25:12 EST getting started It is not easy. My head and my heart know this. But I need to do this. Problem is I have a health condition and my cardiologist does not want me to exersize BUT I need to lose weight. So he suggested I start by tracking what I eat. This this is how I am getting started. Tue, 25 Sep 2012 21:43:52 EST