MONIEE2's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MONIEE2 MONIEE2's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Nicolas - Gone Four Years! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5642317 Greetings SP Family!! <BR> <BR> I realize that it's been a while, so how has everyone been doing in their journey? I haven't fared so well, but guess what - tomorrow is but another day! <BR> <BR> Ok, so the title says it all...my son Nicolas passed away four years ago YESTERDAY & my heart hurts really, really BAD! I've been in the house pretty much all week & yesterday was a no-no as well. I messed up really bad...I baked a chocolate cake, for which I don't like, but it was one of his faves... Fri, 7 Mar 2014 16:21:57 EST Merry Christmas!! &#9825;&#9825;&#9825; http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5571322 Greetings SP Family, <BR> <BR> I know that it's been a while, so much going on for which we'll chat later. Just wanted to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas & a most prosperous New Year!! &#9825;&#9825; <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Tue, 24 Dec 2013 21:37:46 EST OMG!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5457924 Good Morning Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> Ok, so it's been a while since we last "talked"... how is everyone doing on their journey & what's going on?? So, let's "chat" before I go to my Women's Missionary Society meeting at Church this morning... <BR> <BR> I don't know about you, but I'm exhausted. My hours have picked up quite a bit at work, with back to school & all. Let me tell you this, I don't know if it's the heat or just plain old "bad disposition", but between the teachers needing to get... Sat, 17 Aug 2013 09:52:07 EST So Now What??!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5112961 Greetings To All!! <BR> <BR> My, it sure has been a while & I pray that everyone is doing well! Ok, so what's the biz?... <BR> <BR> Here goes... I (we) finally finished school & graduated with my Bachelor's in Business Management!!! <em>244</em> <BR> <BR> What have you all been up to? Let's chat for a while... I'm sad & my heart hurts, but I really can't tell you why!! <BR> <BR> Our company is going through some changes & have made the "corporate" decision to close our location...ha... Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:33:02 EST Let's Give Them Something to Talk About... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4955539 <BR> Greetings Everyone!! <BR> <BR> I'll start by telling my son, Nicolas HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! Today would have been his 27th birthday, but he is in Heaven up above smiling down on me...Why? Because, with the exception of an essay, I have completed my undergrad program & I will be marching to receive my Bachelor's in Business Management.... This I have done in memory of my son, Nicolas!!! <BR> <BR> By the grace of God, WE DID IT!!!! <BR> <BR> Okay, so when I have completed my essay, what is ... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 20:11:57 EST At Long Last~~ Who Knew?! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4876386 Hello Spark Family!!! <BR> <BR> My apologies for the absence of blogging, however, I have NOT been absent from the site... <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing?? Fine I hope... How is everyone doing on their weight loss journey? <BR> <BR> Okay, so I have some news to share... it is official...I started my LAST class today, & believe me when I tell you that it has not been without challenges, tears, & turmoil... "all along life's' narrow way, HE walks with me, & HE talks with me, HE lives"... G... Fri, 11 May 2012 00:16:04 EST Foot Stompin' Sunday!!! Woo Hoo!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4746710 <BR> Heeeyyyyy Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> Woo Hoo!!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing? I know, it's only been a day, but guess what?? Church was a BLAST!!! I won't lie, between doing homework, & getting my "assignment" together for Sunday School, my plate was really running over, but I couldn't wait to get to Church this morning. My soul was not at rest last night, kept fidgeting & fumbling all night long!! <BR> <BR> Antywhooo... <BR> <BR> FINISHED my homework on last night, & for the first ... Sun, 19 Feb 2012 21:02:59 EST Beyond Tired!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4744240 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I know it's been quite a while, but there's way too much going on, & I'm wondering if I can even keep up!!! <BR> <BR> Antywhoooo!!!! How is everyone doing??? I hope that all is well with thee & they journey.... <BR> <BR> Me, ok, let's see what's going on..... <BR> * I've gained back a few pounds - had to get back on steroids AGAIN, & my cardiologist has changed two of my blood pressure meds!!! go figure.... <BR> * work is killing me.... is it me, or does there s... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 00:33:51 EST Merry Christmas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4638294 <BR> Hello Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I hope that everyone had a very Merry Christmas! I hope that God has blessed you with an abundance of peace, blessings & prosperity!! Expect something GREAT in 2012!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Mon, 26 Dec 2011 00:25:05 EST Whacked out Wednesday!! :-D http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4617009 <BR> Hello Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to stop by & say "hello"!! I really hope that everyone is just dandy!! <BR> <BR> Okay, so here's the latest.... I'll be as brief as I can, I'm tired... <BR> <BR> * update on the lip - my immune system attacked itself & my bottom lip was in the line of fire - weird, huh?? I've actually had that happen before, but it attacked my right eye - leaving it totally red, like it had been dipped in ketchup & was so swollen, it looked like it was literall... Wed, 7 Dec 2011 21:58:32 EST Monday Madness!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4573673 <BR> Hello to all My Favorite Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing on their journey?? I know that it has been a while, but there has been sooo much going on, I'm finding it hard to keep up!! No really, if you work retail, you know that this is "Holiday" season, & things begin to change at work.... schedules change, the work environment changes, & the people start changing!! Watch out!! <BR> <BR> Ok, so here's the latest.... one day last week, after coming in from work, I wasn't fee... Mon, 7 Nov 2011 21:53:45 EST Tequila Tuesday (more triple sec, please)!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4507133 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I know that it's been a while, how is everyone doing? Me, I'm okay, just a little tired & trying to keep up with everything... & I mean EVERYTHING!!! <BR> <BR> Okay, here's the deal, I own the fact that I have fallen off the wagon, YET AGAIN, however, I will give out, but NEVER give up!!! Besides, this can only make me stronger, right?! <BR> <BR> I feel like I am on a roller coaster, between all of my doctors, the medications, needles, & oh yeah, school... but it's... Tue, 27 Sep 2011 17:32:05 EST Theatrical Thursday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4461741 Hello Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing on their journeys this week?? If you slipped, that's okay, tomorrow is yet another day, right??!! <BR> <BR> WOW!!! We made it through Thursday, theatrics & all!!! My body has finally gotten acclimated to the medication & I'm not as sick on my tum-tum - Yippee!! <BR> <BR> This was another week for which I didn't fare too well with the food chain, but alas, at least I can eat something other than OATMEAL, SOFT PLUMS, GUMMY BEARS, (get the pi... Fri, 2 Sep 2011 00:09:45 EST Pushing On!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4448875 <BR> Hello Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing on their journey?? I'm doing ok, although I didn't lose any weight this week, I didn't gain anything either!! While I don't think that I have reached a plateau, I'm not taking in enough calories, but that's okay, I'm hopeful that I can turn this around this week. <BR> <BR> Keep me in your prayers as I go in for my next chemo treatment on tomorrow, & will be hooked up to IVs' for about 3 hours!!! UGH!!! How grueling is that, but such a... Fri, 26 Aug 2011 00:37:40 EST Tired, but Committed.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4421382 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing on their journey?? We can do this, guys & gals.... <BR> <BR> Guess what?? I'm down another 3 pounds, for a total of 15 pounds thus far...... Yippee!!!!! <BR> <BR> OMG, I had to work a little late today, because I was working on a print job for a customer that required a little extra attention.... it was one thing after another, & finally managed to finish around 12:45 this afternoon!! I was so exhausted & my bones hurt sooooo bad, when I got ... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 17:46:07 EST Are You Kidding Me??? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4388004 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Okay, will someone PLEASE tell me why in the world would I think that I could do this?? LOL I can't even do the jumping jacks!!! Not because I can't jump (tee hee), but because of my foot & my knees... Okay, so I made it through (MY) version of the warm-up, then she had the nerve to do push-ups!! Yikes!!! I did three, but because of my foot surgery, putting pressure on my toes really hurt, so I didn't finish that part... I'm not going to lie, while I didn't do ALL of... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 17:33:32 EST Jillian Michaels - 30 Day Shred http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4385793 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Not going to be long, it's thundering outside & as you all know, when the Lord is busy, we need to be still & be quiet!! No problem there!! <BR> <BR> Ok, so I went out & bought the DVD that I have heard so much about... I've been contemplating whether or not to try it, but I must. So on tomorrow, which is my first day of exercise, I'm going to give this a try, so wish me luck!!! <BR> <BR> Blessings to each & everyone of you & have a great night!!! <BR> <BR> <BR> ... Mon, 25 Jul 2011 19:27:33 EST Perseverance!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4377672 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> This one will be brief, as I'm not feeling well at all. I try to block it out, but I will admit that it gets hard sometimes. This is one of those times. Except for running an errand early this morning, & stopping at McDonald's to get breakfast on the way back home, I have been in the house all day. Just one of those days, that will soon pass. I have no doubt!! <BR> <BR> Okay, so here's the update.... <BR> <BR> I'm down another 2 pounds!! <BR> <BR> I am a work-in-... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 18:06:07 EST Look Out Below!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4363621 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I hope that everyone is doing well!!! <BR> <BR> Guess what?? Today was my weigh-in day... the title aptly reflects where I am on my weight loss journey... I am now BELOW 250!! Woo Hoo!!! This week was truly a challenge in that I was going through this phase where I know that I needed to eat to keep my sugar in check, but really didn't quite have an appetite, & quite simply can't afford to waste food by eating something that I didn't want!! Know what I mean??!! <BR>... Thu, 14 Jul 2011 23:55:18 EST Happy Birthday Nicolas!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4340368 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> As I sit here reflecting over the last year of my life, a lot has transpired, for which I have to give thanks to God, as these many trials & tribulations have made me a little bit stronger.(or at least I think they have) I have to first thank God for loaning Nicolas to me for 24 years. A year has passed since he left me, & my heart hurts really bad. But knowing that he is in the bosom of God, yet watching over me gives me peace!! <BR> <BR> Happy 26th Birthday Nicola... Mon, 4 Jul 2011 11:41:16 EST Starting Over...Again - I'm Just Sayin' http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4321206 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> WOW!!! What a difference a day makes, huh?! Truly, life is what you make of it, even with all of the curve balls being thrown at you... <BR> <BR> It has been a really long time since I last weighed, so I decided that since I am doing ME now, I needed to know the absolute truth - uh oh!!! <BR> <BR> WOW!!! I'm not going to blame all of it on the Doctors', even though under their direction, I've had to take lots of steroids & a host of other medication to take care o... Sat, 25 Jun 2011 00:16:25 EST **Thumping Thursday** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4319038 Hello Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> Just checking in to give you the latest details... <BR> <BR> Ok, so I'll start with the freaking temporary crown that is very loose, however, I will wing it!! My mouth has not calmed down since all of the needles, tugging & pulling, but we have to take it one day at a time, because I know this is a direct result of an MS flare. Oh well, huh?!! <BR> <BR> Next, had chemo a week ago Wednesday, & for some reason my niece felt compelled to text me about an on-going ... Thu, 23 Jun 2011 23:20:21 EST Pondering!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273767 Hello Spark Family!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing this evening?? Ok, so here's the latest... had to go see my dentist on yesterday, but OMG....the visit did not go very well. For starters, I have been wearing a temporary crown, for which I am now on my THIRD one!! So, after I was numbed up, or so they thought, my dentist attempted to remove the temporary - well, after some tugging, pulling, hammering, & yanking, it refused to come out, but not before I nudged him to stop because I could F... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 23:15:44 EST Something Special http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4268870 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> Ok, I just had to do this.... <BR> <BR> As I sit here with goose bumps & tears flowing (seriously), my heart is overwhelmed with joy simply because there are so many people that are going through or having their own issues, yet they have taken the time out of their busy schedules to lend an ear or a shoulder to help ease my pain even if it's just for a little bit!!! You will never know how much I appreciate my spark family - for this is why... Wed, 1 Jun 2011 00:16:40 EST **My Journey** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4262198 Hello Spark Friends!!! <BR> <BR> As I sit here contemplating some of the trials & tribulations that I have been through, I can't help but think about Nicolas. He was my life, & March 6, 2011 was the one year anniversary since God requested his presence. I'm not angry about this, just missing him terribly, & as we all know, the heart wants what it wants. I'm good! <BR> <BR> That said, school is coming along, hopefully better since I am about to complete this so-called Research & Evaluation... Sat, 28 May 2011 21:44:48 EST It's Been a Minute~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4208650 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I know... it's been a while since last we "spoke", but so much has been going on! Still in school, which by the way, is giving me the blues, but can't stop now.... this is for Nicolas!! So please send me all of those good vibes & blessings to help PUSH me onward & upward!! <BR> <BR> <BR> Had foot surgery two weeks ago today, got stitches out, but will still have to put antibiotic ointment on it & keep it wrapped for ANOTHER two weeks, as well as having to continu... Tue, 3 May 2011 23:22:31 EST **Tepid Tuesday** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4077781 Hello Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I just wanted to reach out to each & everyone of you & give a GREAT BIG HUG!!! <BR> <BR> I can feel the comforting words & all of your support!!! <BR> <BR> I got this!!! <BR> <BR> Yay ME!!! <BR> <BR> Woo Hoo!! <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> <BR> <BR> <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> I Love You Nic!! Tue, 8 Mar 2011 23:57:52 EST Stuck & Trying to Pull it Together!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4064967 Hello Sparklers!!! I hope that everyone is doing okay!! I know that it has been a while & I apologize for that. In any case, I am reaching out to my SP family for support... I have fallen off the wagon & for the life of me, I'm catching hell getting back on the bus. This is sooo not good!! <BR> <BR> 2011 thus far has been adventurous to say the least. You see, I have been going to doctor after doctor, (my regulars), making sure that I keep up with my medication, as it would seem that my get... Fri, 4 Mar 2011 00:26:55 EST Getting Fit in 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3878445 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Don't feel muck like talking, except to say this to you all... <BR> <BR> Let's make 2011 a great year to get fit & fine (er)!!! <BR> <BR> May God bless you abundantly in the new year!! <BR> <BR> <BR> <em>247</em> Sat, 1 Jan 2011 21:29:17 EST **Time** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3870326 Hello Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I hope that everyone had the Christmas they hoped for & more - you deserve it!! <BR> <BR> On another note, time is not promised to anyone, I can attest to that without a doubt! That said, why wait until tomorrow to make changes? Why wait for the New Year to arrive before we implement resolutions that we don't believe in anyway? Why wait for a "buddy" to join us or hold our hand before we take that leap?? <BR> <BR> Okay, I'll go first...I will make a commitment ... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 21:02:38 EST Merry Christmas http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3860128 Hello to My Spark Family!!! <BR> <BR> I just wanted to take a moment to say "Thank You" for being there for me as God sent me on my journey through sickness & the loss of my son, Nicolas this year. While my heart is heavy as I continue my healing process, it is also filled with hope that 2011 will be very different. <BR> <BR> I feel that this is my season, & can only hope that each & every one of you can be a part of that. <BR> <BR> Now, as we reach the end of a year, & prepare ourselves t... Fri, 24 Dec 2010 01:01:52 EST Ode to Changes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3822840 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> How is everyone doing?? Hope that all is well & the pounds are dropping like flies!! With me... well here goes, I've gained 4 pounds, but guess what tomorrow is yet another day & instead of waiting to make a New Year's resolution that I really don't believe in anyway, I'm starting over NOW!!! You want to know why? Because I can do this! Be it steroids, snacking because I'm thinking about Nicolas, or whatever, this too shall pass!! <BR> <BR> So, I'm reaching out to ... Sat, 4 Dec 2010 00:31:31 EST Back in the Groove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3810845 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> How did everyone do on Thanksgiving?? I didn't do bad, hah - I really didn't cook & didn't feel like visiting anyone - just Nicolas! <BR> <BR> I will admit though, that on Saturday, I really didn't stick to anything solid, I just went for "whatever", but guess what, tomorrow is yet another day! <BR> <BR> For everyone who went outside the boundaries of their food plan, don't be too hard on yourself, tomorrow is just around the corner... <BR> <BR> I have an appoint... Sun, 28 Nov 2010 22:01:37 EST Made It!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3807661 <BR> Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Hope that everyone had a great Thanksgiving with family & friends, or whatever you do on Thanksgiving! <BR> <BR> I don't know about anyone else, but I'm glad that I made it through Thanksgiving, anyone else feel that way?? It wasn't that there was too much food, or company, or no place to sit, or anything like that. For the most part, I was home alone, in bed watching a Law & Order marathon, cooked a small pot of mustard greens & country style ribs on top of ... Fri, 26 Nov 2010 23:11:01 EST I Am Thankful for What I Have http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3802949 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to take the time to reflect just a little, if I may... <BR> <BR> As we approach the Thanksgiving Holiday & festivities will be taking place all around us, I am reminded of what I have & to be THANKFUL!! <BR> <BR> First, I will admit that I am not really in the holiday spirit, as I am missing my son, Nicolas terribly right now & the fact that this is the Holiday season, is actually tougher than I imagined! <BR> <BR> Having said that, as much as I'd like... Wed, 24 Nov 2010 00:52:12 EST Ode to Life! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3790826 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I know that it has been a while, but a lot has been going on since we last chatted (as usual huh?) :-) !! Ok, so here goes... <BR> <BR> * ankle not doing so good, but I'm dealing with with it until I see my Ortho next week <BR> * muscle spasms are way under control, but much to my dismay, something else has taken its place ! HA! I'm one step ahead of the game! Game yourself!! <BR> * chemo on last friday - YUCK!!! <BR> * this past weekend was the worst one yet, staye... Wed, 17 Nov 2010 18:48:22 EST Manic Monday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3755262 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I know that it has been a while, but geesh, so much is going on already!! How is everyone doing with their programs?? I'm doing alright, but could be doing better, okay?! <BR> <BR> Let me bring you up to speed with all that is going on this go round over the last few weeks.... <BR> <BR> My right ankle kept bothering me, & I kept telling the doctor that something was amiss, besides the regular flare-up...so they finally did an MRI & guess what? Got a letter in the ... Mon, 1 Nov 2010 20:15:20 EST Reflections http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3690278 My journey actually began late 2008. I was sure this time around would be different, however, I would soon realize that my goals & aspirations for a "new me", needed guidance, structure, discipline & dedication. <BR> <BR> It has been one year (Sep 22, 2009), since I made a commitment to "ME" & I must tell you that I can't wait to get home each day so I can "Spark"! <BR> <BR> As I look back on a year of reflections, much has been learned along the way. My journey has not been without some o... Sun, 3 Oct 2010 23:27:47 EST Tepid Tuesday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3659530 Hi Sparklers!!!! <BR> <BR> Yes, It's been a while, & a lot has been going on since we last chatted!! Had chemo on Friday, & had to take off from work today, still getting adjusted to the meds - YUCK!!! Any who - stayed in bed MOST of the day & I didn't feel the least bit guilty!! Who would have thought??!! LOL!! <BR> <BR> Enough about me - I hope that everyone is doing well on the weight loss journey, whatever it may be...... Even though I have had some setbacks, I still have a goal for my ... Tue, 21 Sep 2010 20:13:56 EST When Life Keeps Kicking You!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3584291 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I know that it's been a while, & trust me when I tell you that a lot has been going on... <BR> <BR> Okay I will admit that at this very moment, life is kicking me in the shins, but I'm trying really hard not to let it get the best of me!!! I have a question...... why is it that when people see you struggling, they do what they can to keep you struggling?? I'm not having this, okay!!!!! <BR> <BR> Here's what's going on..... <BR> <BR> I ran into this guy from abou... Sat, 28 Aug 2010 22:51:24 EST ****Uplifted By My Amazing Spark Family**** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3456321 Hi Sparklers!!! <BR> <BR> I must start by saying that as I sit here reading all of the wonderful comments, I can't help but shed tears - you all totally ROCK!!! Today was not a good day for me overall, but I can truly say that after reading all of the awesome comments of support, I will be alright!! <BR> <BR> I went to the Doctor today & they injected my lesions on my lower legs with steroids, so they will hopefully heal soon. The next step is to go over to the Cancer Clinic, so they can do... Wed, 21 Jul 2010 21:37:03 EST ***Please Help Me, I'm Falling....*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3444717 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> It has been a little while since we last chatted, & I am in dire need of SUPPORT. You see, I've been in this funk & it seems that regardless of what I do, or where I go, this little black cloud is hovering over me & I can't seem to shake it loose!!! What the hell??!! In the last three weeks, I have had 2 procedures done, 3 doctors visits, 3 pending doctors visits, appetite has been jacked up, I haven't taken my fluid pills in about 2 weeks & to add injury to insult, ... Sun, 18 Jul 2010 19:26:19 EST Update, Now It's Time To Re-focus** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3412618 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> I hope that everyone had a wonderful fourth!! I know I did - all for Nicolas!! God smiled & the sun peeked out & stayed out ALL DAY LONG!!!!! There is a saying that everything happens for a reason, & it happens the way it's supposed to!!! SO TRUE!!!! <BR> <BR> The birthday bash was a huge success, celebrating Nic's life & just having the opportunity to fellowship was very nice, indeed!!! <BR> <BR> Although I didn't go to bed until 2:30am & was up at 4:00am - arrive... Thu, 8 Jul 2010 20:58:20 EST ME, OH MY!*** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3394197 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> July rolled around really fast, & my emotions are really mixed up right now. The reason being, is that since Nicolas passed away in March, life for me is really different. For the most part, I'm back in the swing of things..... after all, I had to catch myself before I flunked out of school.... nooo way, I've come too far for that!! <BR> <BR> Anyway, Nicolas' birthday is the 4th of July, for which I am planning the biggest & best birthday bash ever!! Some people ha... Fri, 2 Jul 2010 22:36:12 EST TGIF!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3371996 Where is your cell phone? <BR> nitestand <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> no <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> relaxed <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> here <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> here <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> relaxing <BR> <BR> Your dream last night? <BR> nicolas <BR> <BR> Favorite drink? <BR> iced tea <BR> <BR> What room are you in? <BR> bedroom <BR> <BR> Your hobby? <BR> computers <BR> <BR> Your fear? <BR> unemployment <BR> <BR> Where do you want to be in 6 years? <BR> H... Sat, 26 Jun 2010 01:04:10 EST Up Two!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3368217 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Okay, so today is my weigh-in day, however, I really didn't weigh-in because I've been sick for the last 4-5 days. I went to visit my doctor on yesterday & his scale showed a difference of 2 pounds, so I'm really not sure that I have gained, I just really wanted to record something for today, so I wouldn't be off track. <BR> <BR> Either way is okay, it will give me something to push for on next week!! All hope is not lost, just feeling very green on my stomach, will... Thu, 24 Jun 2010 20:57:26 EST **UGH** http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3361762 Hi Sparklers! <BR> <BR> Just wanted to check in & see how everyone is doing & to vent just a wee bit. I won't be long, I promise..... <BR> <BR> Ok, so I've really not been "into" it since last week or so.... whether it's because I've been feeling yucky on my stomach, not eating well because of it, or just a bad case of the "blahs".... or maybe it could be that the closer it gets to Nicolas' birthday - 4th of July, the more I'm withdrawn & sullen. I do know that this too shall pass, but I mi... Tue, 22 Jun 2010 23:52:22 EST Sunday!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3331504 Hello Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Just checking in to see how everyone is doing!! Something must be wrong with me.... I cleaned out the inside of my truck!! LOL <BR> <BR> Have a great week!! Mon, 14 Jun 2010 00:57:28 EST Whacked out Wednesday~ http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3318759 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> How is everybody doing on their journey?? I'm doing ok with mine, except that today is one of those days where regardless of what I do, it is not enough to keep my sugar balanced. It was sooo bad, that I had to leave work early - kept spacing out & getting dizzy. Well for one thing, it was way too hot in my department, with all of the copiers & such going all of the time. But I really think that the air is controlled via remote, probably from someplace up North!!! Du... Wed, 9 Jun 2010 20:24:21 EST Monday Madness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3312015 Hi Sparklers!! <BR> <BR> Just checking in to see how everyone is doing this evening!! Me, I'm very tired, but somewhat restless, so I got out of my bed & got back on the computer..... not good, need to rest, but oh well. <BR> <BR> My washer went out, so I need to try & find one that is reasonable by the end of the week... not having a washer is totally out of the question!! <BR> <BR> How did everyone do over the weekend? I did ok, if you count the bucket of Blue Bell Dutch Chocolate ice cr... Tue, 8 Jun 2010 00:30:54 EST