MONAKIN314's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MONAKIN314 MONAKIN314's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Spring 5% Challenge Triggers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660814 Pre-Challenge Assignment #7 - Triggers <BR> <BR> My triggers foods are sweets, cookies and cake and brownies. I usually reach for these in the evening when I am bored. Evenings are hard for me because DH works and I am left to my own devices. I should be bored cause I have plenty to do, but I usually don't want to do what needs to be done so I end up doing nothing then I get bored. <BR> <BR> Plan to stop: Everytime I want a cookie, I will stop myself and do one household chore. Mon, 31 Mar 2014 11:47:59 EST Spring 5% Challenge Motivation http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660806 Pre-Challenge Assignment #6 - Motivation <BR> <BR> Reasons to loss weight <BR> 1. Look better - Need to focus on toning, don't want my upper arms to wave more than my hand. Would like to wear Tank tops again. <em>362</em> <BR> 2. Feel better - don't want to feel completely drained anymore. <em>104</em> <BR> 3. Be healthy - don't want to end up like my mother <em>282</em> Mon, 31 Mar 2014 11:39:34 EST Spring 5% Challenge Today Checklist http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660793 Pre-Challenge Assignment #4 - WIN Today Checklist <BR> <BR> Here are my checklist Items <BR> Eat and Log Breakfast <BR> Eat and Log Lunch <BR> Eat and Log Healthy Snack <BR> Eat and Log Dinner <BR> Complete Workout <BR> Drink 8 glasses of Water <BR> Walk Dog <BR> Complete One Random Act of Fitness <BR> Get 7 hrs Sleep <BR> Mon, 31 Mar 2014 11:31:04 EST Spring 5% Challenge Diet Commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660761 Pre-Challenge Assignment #2 - Diet Commitment <BR> <BR> This one is the hardest for me. <BR> I will track everything and stay within my calorie range each day except Sundays. <BR> <em>4</em> <em>180</em> <em>550</em> <em>495</em> <em>255</em> <em>487</em> <em>474</em> <em>387</em> <BR> <BR> Go Starfish <em>141</em> ! Mon, 31 Mar 2014 10:53:16 EST Spring 5% Challenge Exercise Commitment http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5660756 I plan to make the Spring 5% Challenge work this time around, during the Winter Challenge I lost focus with the bad weather, travelling, illness, and school work. But this time around I am going to make it work. The last week of the challenge I will be in Punta Cana <em>47</em> so I want to look my best. <BR> <BR> Pre-challenge Assignment #1- Exercise Commitment <BR> <BR> Strength Training: Tuesday and Thursday using a SparkPeople Video or Workout <em>34</em> <BR> Cardio Training: 30... Mon, 31 Mar 2014 10:49:37 EST It never stops http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5535889 So I haven't blogged in long time, but I needed to let my Starfishies and other friend in on what is going on. First thank you for your support during a really rough week. <BR> <BR> Last Friday DH was told he will be going from work Wed, Thurs, Friday and every other Saturday 12 hour days to working Mon - Fri 8 hours days, but they were not sure what shift or even what times the shifts would be. He has worked his currently schedule for over 20 years. This news turned his world up side d... Fri, 8 Nov 2013 14:39:18 EST It's been awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5466699 As I was looking through the Starfish blogs, I realized it's been awhile since I posted anything. <BR> The summer has flown by and fall is just about here. So what did I do this summer. In June I went to the Rolling Stones show! That was a blast. There was the trip to the Outer Banks in July, love it there - I even rented a bike this year so I could ride rather than drive. Then I in August we had our annual pig roast - lots of people at my house and lots of food. This weekend we a big Labor... Mon, 26 Aug 2013 11:02:35 EST Dachshund Humor http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5333851 This is so my Tucker. I just had to share. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/1/l1170990637.jpg"> Wed, 24 Apr 2013 08:45:57 EST Week of April 21 Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5331706 Okay so I didn't do so well keeping up with daily goals, so I am going to try weekly goals. Remember it is only a failure if you decide you are not worth it, otherwise it is just a setback and I can get passed setbacks. <BR> <BR> So here are my goals for the week: <BR> 1.) Update Spark Page <em>248</em> <BR> 2.) Track all my Food. <BR> 3.) 200 min of Exercise <BR> 4.) Eat 5 Freggies per Day. <BR> 5.) Prep for Spring to Summer 5% Challenge. (Check it out it is a fun challenge <link>www.... Mon, 22 Apr 2013 12:09:52 EST Just a quick note http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5304339 I got all goals from yesterday done! <BR> <BR> Today starts a three day weekend for me and two of those days are just me and Tucker! I have a long list of things to do, hopefully I can get most of them done. So far I slept in to 8:30, fixed the bed, decide since I had the bed all taken apart I would vacuum under it and clean all the bedding. And since I am washing the bedding may as well wash the curtains and dust everything. Now I am waiting on the wash to finish so I can start the next loa... Fri, 29 Mar 2013 12:39:42 EST Reviewing Yesterday's and Setting Today's Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5303092 My goals from yesterday: <BR> 1.) Track all my food <em>248</em> Tracked all my food, but I went way over my range. I think some of this was emotional eating because the events last night (see previous blog) <BR> 2.) Drink all my water <em>248</em> I am really liking the pitcher at my desk, I can fill my cup multiple times without having to go to the breakroom. It is here so I am drinking it! <BR> 3.) Walk Tucker <em>248</em> We had a lovely 25 min walk, I only got in a mile but there... Thu, 28 Mar 2013 10:47:56 EST Venting cause I have to get it out http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5302521 The US Supreme Court is currently hearing a cases on the very important issue of marriage equality. Everyone seems to have some opinion on the subject. I don't intend to offend anyone, but personally I think marriage is a right that should not be denied to anyone, and that I don't have the right to judge. That is my personal opinion. I know plenty of loveless marriage between a man and a woman and plenty of very loving same sex couples who would love to be married. I have shared my support no... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 21:36:30 EST Daily Checkin & Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5301970 My goals from yesterday: <BR> 1.) Track all my food <em>248</em> and stayed in range on the big four! <BR> 2.) Drink all my water <em>248</em> got a pitcher at my desk that makes this so much easier and the more water I drink the less coffee I drink! <BR> 3.) Get 30 min on the elliptical <em>248</em> spent 40 on the elliptical while DH was doing some kind of fanasty baseball stuff! <BR> 4.) Visit at least 5 Starfish pages <em>248</em> I got caught up on the starfish blogs! <BR> 5... Wed, 27 Mar 2013 11:59:45 EST Life Always Gets in the Way http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5300451 Last week I tried to start blogging my daily goals. I did really good for a couple of days and then it happened. What happened? Life. It is always getting in the way of my good intentions. And then I get discouraged and stop. This morning I was quickly reading through my Spark Emails, like I try to do every morning, and the quote at the bottom of the Daily Best of SparkPeople stuck with me, so much that went back into my deleted items and copied it. <BR> <BR> Paul the SparkPeople progra... Tue, 26 Mar 2013 08:28:11 EST Wednesday 20 March http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5293420 Goals for Tues 19 March <BR> 1.) Track all my food <em>42</em> DH made Shepherd's Pie for dinner, but he doesn't follow a recipe he just start throwing things together so I don't know how to track it, but it was really good. <BR> 2.) Finish my in-laws taxes without fighting <em>248</em> FIL just handed over the papers he had and let me do it while he watched TV. <BR> 3.) Drink all my water <em>248</em> And then some I was really thristy yesterday <BR> 4.) Sneak in some exercise time ... Wed, 20 Mar 2013 09:07:10 EST Tues March 19 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5292494 Monday March 18 Goals: <BR> 1.) Track my Food <em>248</em> and I stayed in my calorie range! <BR> 2.) Get 20 min on the Eliptical <em>248</em> I actually squeezed in 30 min <BR> 3.) Read one chapter of new current book <em>42</em> went for the extra time on the eliptical <BR> 4.) Get to bed by 10:00 to watch Lost Girl and sleep. <em>48</em> <em>42</em> made up to bed a little after 10 and watched Lost Girl and straight to sleep (missed the end, but I recorded it) <BR> 5.) Drink a... Tue, 19 Mar 2013 14:06:11 EST Trying Something New - Daily Goals http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5290906 Lately I have been falling out of line on my plan, so I have decide to try something new. I am going try posting my daily goals here in a blog and then report back on them the next day and set new goals. So here is goes. <BR> <BR> Today Monday March 18 I plan to <BR> 1.) Track my Food <BR> 2.) Get 20 min on the Eliptical <BR> 3.) Read one chapter of new current book <BR> 4.) Get to bed by 10:00 to watch Lost Girl and sleep. <BR> 5.) Drink all my water <BR> <BR> Simple enough. Now I need... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 10:29:35 EST 5% Challenge - Blog Questions 1, 2, & 3. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5275839 1) What new habit you wish to develop? <BR> I don't really have a new habit to develop, but rather a bad habit that I would like to change. I have a really bad coffee habit. I can drink up to as many as 10 cups of coffee a day. I drink my coffee black with splenda so it doesn't really effect my calorie intake, but it is still not a great habit. So I would like to get to the point that I am only drinking 1 or 2 cups a day. <em>106</em> <BR> <BR> 2) How will you do that? <BR> My plan ... Wed, 6 Mar 2013 11:45:49 EST Setback vs. Failure http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5232096 This picture was in the daily email today. <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/1/6/l1636138647.jpg"> <BR> It got me thinking about how I look at things. <BR> One of my biggest problem it that I always to feel like I fail over and over again. Every time I go over my calories or forget to track my food or don't have time to workout, I tell myself that I failed. I don't want to fail or feel like a failure, but I do. I need to change that thinking. I have never felt that my hea... Thu, 31 Jan 2013 18:03:25 EST Update on Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5149649 It has been a long time since I posting a blog, and I have been trying to get my focus back, so I thought I would give everyone an update on what I have been up to since my last blog. <BR> <BR> I did the Women's 5K classic competive walk in October. It was chilly but I completed the walk in a personal best 43:56! I think next year I am going to enter the run cause I can always walk in the run but you can't run in the walk (they will disqualify you). <BR> <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeo... Wed, 28 Nov 2012 15:21:29 EST Pre-Challenge Assignment #3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5067706 What do you want to change? <BR> I want to change my habit of getting home from work and sitting on the couch with a book until I have so little time to workout that I am rushing through things. <BR> <BR> How do you want to look? <BR> I want to look to look thinner <BR> <BR> How do you want to feel? <BR> I want to feel more energized at the end of the workday. <BR> <BR> What things will you be able to do in the future with a slimmer healthier body? <BR> I will fit into the clothing that is... Thu, 20 Sep 2012 11:14:43 EST Getting Ready for the Fall 5% Challenge http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066209 The Fall 5% Challenge is quickly approaching and it time to get ready. <BR> <BR> Pre - Challenge Assignment #1 Check Points <BR> <BR> Have you got your gym clothes, runners, water bottle, etc. ready to go? <BR> Exercise clothes are ready for now but as the weather start getting colder I am going to need warmer clothes. So I need to add that to my to do list. Done <BR> <BR> What is your exercise plan? <BR> I plan to continue on my 5K Your Way training plan which has me walking 3 days per w... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 11:10:43 EST Vacation Attacks http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4965648 So last week we took a week+ long vacation, our first 8 day vacation in the 17 years that DH and I have been together. We had a wonderful time. We stopped at the Air and Space museum to see the Space Shuttle on the way down to the Outer Bank, NC. Pretty cool! In the Outer Banks we rented a large house with several friends and their children, there were 21 of us altogether. And for 7 days I relaxed, swam, read, played with the kids, and did pretty much nothing. It was great. Walking the b... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 14:18:40 EST Four Truths in Four Years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4891435 Okay, so in April I celebrated my 4year Sparkaversary. I was planned on writing a blog back then but never got around to it because thing just got so busy. But I still wanted to share what I have learned in those four years and what makes SparkPeople so special to me. <BR> <BR> I came to SP to lose weight, like many people do and I have. In the first year I managed to loss about 50 lbs and I have kept that weight off. I never planned to be using this site four years later, but I made fri... Mon, 21 May 2012 13:59:44 EST Update on Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4674570 Wow, I can't believe how time is flying by. <BR> <BR> With the holidays over, life is getting back to normal or as normal as my life can be. I had a really busy December. Prepping for the holidays, taking care of my In-laws, and a major audit at work consumed soooo much time. With the holidays over and the auditor successfully complete, I pretty much have my life back. My MIL is doing much better, today she even went out to eat for the first time since all of this started. She has been ge... Wed, 11 Jan 2012 18:58:39 EST My Mother in Law http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4611687 As some of you may know my 70 year old mother in law was diagonsed with ovarian cancer in September. After surgery the first week of October, things have not gone well. Three weeks in the hospital after the surgery, home less than a week, back to the hospital with an infectin, home for a week, back to the hostipal for another almost three weeks. Yesterday she was discharged and got home and fall in the driveway hitting her head. Back to the hospital after the several hours in the ER, back... Sun, 4 Dec 2011 11:02:17 EST Dear Halloween Candy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4575894 Dear Halloween Candy, <BR> <BR> I know that we had a relationship in the past, but its time has come to end. It is time to move on. I know that you are lonely when the trick or treating was light this year because of the weather and you really helped my through the days without power, but this relationship is just not good for me. We need to find you a relationship that works for everyone. So I am shipping you off to someone who can handle you better. <BR> <BR> Goodbye peanutbutter cu... Wed, 9 Nov 2011 08:45:16 EST Well It's Been Awhile http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4521394 As I was trying to catch up on my SP stuff, I realized that it has been awhile since I posted a blog. So here it goes my life for the last few months. I spent several weekends at the shore over the summer, made several trips to my parents to help take care of my Mom as she recovered from her lung being removed, and spent as much time as possible watching and attending Phillies games. I continued adjusting to my new position at work, which is a lot more work and time then I thought it would... Wed, 5 Oct 2011 19:47:59 EST Update on my Mom http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4328699 This summer seems to be flying bye. I can’t believe it is almost July already. <BR> <BR> On Friday, my Mom had surgery. They removed about half of the right lung. The doctor said that everything went well. They don’t feel the cancer has moved to the lymph nodes but they are waiting for the biopsies to come back before they say for sure. If it has not moved to the lymph nodes, they don’t feel that she will need chemo. All in all, pretty good news. Minor scare on Saturday evening, she s... Tue, 28 Jun 2011 16:01:40 EST It's been a rough a couple of weeks for me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4285503 Well, it has been a very long time since I posted a blog. Life just got so busy and I lost track of the some things, including spark for the most part. <BR> <BR> Since last June, I was doing two jobs, one in the lab and one in safety. Well, as of May 1st, I am all in safety. It has been a very busy transition. I am pretty much settle into a routine now, and have figure out how to get everything done and where everything is in my new office. I moved so quickly that I just put stuff away ... Wed, 8 Jun 2011 12:24:13 EST Where I have been, Where I am, and Where I going http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3869302 Okay Christmas is over and I did okay. I didn't gain any weight but I didn't workout much and I didn't eat right, who can pass up cookies when their nickname has been cookie monster forever. Since this the first day that I have anytime to myself since before Christmas. I decide to make a check of how I am really doing on this journey to a healthy me. <BR> <BR> I starting SP back in April 2008, at first I made some slow but steady progress and then dropped off. I came back and dropped off... Wed, 29 Dec 2010 12:59:34 EST Busy Summer! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3523402 Wow, I knew it was a long time since a posted a blog entry, but I didn't realize just how long. It has been a busy summer that is flying by. My weight has been holding pretty steady for most of the summer, which in a way is a good thing considering all the events that I have been attending which all involve food. There are the picnics, the baseball games, the trips to the shore, and the list goes on. I found that I have survived these things by not telling myself that I can't eat, but rat... Tue, 10 Aug 2010 20:53:11 EST I need a kick in the butt! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3361324 I haven't blogged in a long time, but that is not the only thing falling off. I can make all the excuses I want but that is just what they are excuses. I haven't been excercising, tracking my food, or anything else. I am not sure what happened but I now that I have been stuck 152 for a long time. I know what I need to do but I can't seem to get myself to do it. I really just need a kick in the butt again. Tue, 22 Jun 2010 21:48:56 EST Some much going on ... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3227326 Seems to be happen to a lot lately, I got so busy with things that I forget to update. <BR> <BR> I was in my nephew's wedding. <img src="http://photos-ak.sparkpeople.com/nw/3/9/l396461726.jpg"> That's me on the upper left, in a strapless dress. Still can't believe that I wore a strapless dress. It was a lot of fun. <BR> <BR> I got home from that and I got so wrapped in work that I haven't found time to workout, watch TV, or keep up with SP. I think things at work are going to be slow... Thu, 13 May 2010 20:45:29 EST Wow, I didn't realize http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3150697 There is so much going that I didn't realize how long it had been since I made blog entry. Where to start. Since my last post, I actually celebrated my two years here at SP. Yeah! Tucker also had his annual vet appointment, and it looks like all the walking we have been doing has not only be good for me, he went from 25lbs last year to 23lbs this year. 2 whole pounds in a year, it amazes me. <BR> <BR> Last weekend we had our annual pub crawl. Most of the people are friends that we don'... Thu, 22 Apr 2010 21:58:50 EST It's been almost 2 years http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3053502 Wow, I was just looking at my Spark Page and saw that it has been almost 2 years since a joined Spark People! Got me thinking about how much I have changed in that time. Not that I have been here consistly over that whole two years, but it has still changed me. When I first joined, I was almost 200 lbs and had never done anything online such posting. Now, I am just under 160lbs and I can barely go a few days without longing and checking up with my friends. I used to eat very unhealthy and... Sun, 28 Mar 2010 18:48:31 EST No not me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3021493 I had a really busy week this past week with things coming at me from all directions (which for the first time in awhile lend to me going why over my calories by eating what was easy). <BR> <BR> This week also brought a lot of mixed emotions. Two SP friends and another friend announced they are pregnant. While I am really happy for them, It makes me sad, why can't that be me. And my friend who was due a week before I would have been due, had her baby this week, 6 weeks early. The baby is... Sat, 20 Mar 2010 07:54:40 EST Things have going good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2989229 Well once again, it's been awhile since I have updated my blog. I have doing good about exercising and eating within my range. I joined the Spring 5% Challenge, which has given me new focus. I like the different challenges. The first challenge was crunches, with I never do, but now I have done 25 every morning this week. Now the challenge is drinking water, so I have increased my water every day since the challenge started. <BR> <BR> Work has been so busy and my co workers are driving ... Thu, 11 Mar 2010 21:48:08 EST Snow, Snow and more Snow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2932205 Well, I am sitting a home today again cause of the snow. Well not actually sitting. I shoveled the driveway and then shoveled again after the plow came through. I really tired of shoveling, why can't it snow on a day DH doesn't have to work so he can help. But on the bright side shoveling is a great workout, cardio and strength all in one. Enough about the snow! Tomorrow we are heading to AC with a group of friends and the girls are hitting the spa and pool. So I pulled out the old sw... Fri, 26 Feb 2010 17:32:08 EST Wow, time flies by http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2903000 I was just updating my page and realized I haven't updated my blog in a couple of weeks. <BR> <BR> I had computer issues, internet issues, and a couple feet of snow since I last posted anything. <BR> <BR> I finally got back into the swing of things as far working out, but I have really let my eating habits slip the past couple of weeks. So as this week draws to a close, I am not going to focus on the things that I did wrong. Rather, I am going to focus on what I can do better. Next wee... Fri, 19 Feb 2010 18:09:06 EST What a rough week can teach you http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2813838 It’s been a rough week. Monday morning I woke up an hour late cause of a power outage. Tuesday I got stuck in a line at lunch time making that last over my hour. Thursday I woke up to unpredicted snow making my commute a nightmare. Then Thursday afternoon I got my annual review at work which really upset me. Now it is Friday and everything seems to be going okay. Through all of this I have been able to keep in my calorie range all week and I even decide to get my nose out of my books la... Fri, 29 Jan 2010 15:24:26 EST Time to stop looking back and start moving forward... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2729751 It’s been awhile since I have updated my blog, with a new year it’s time for me to get myself back to sparking. 2009 was a good year and a bad year. I lost 35 pounds and finally got pregnant, but my pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 11 weeks. My mother was very ill and other family members health became an issue. All of that sent me into a downward spiral mentally. Than combined with the holidays got me gaining back some of the weight that I lost. <BR> <BR> Now it is time to put all ... Mon, 11 Jan 2010 14:53:48 EST Not doing so well on the Healthier Me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2513610 Last week I was all into a healthier me, but something happened and lost the motivation. Wednesday was my birthday and I ended celebrating with way too much wine on Friday and then a graduation party on Saturday and then yesterday my mother was rushed to the hospital and now she is in the ICU on a ventilator. I feel like my life is getting in the way of a healthier me. I know it excuses but I don't what to do to change things. Tue, 27 Oct 2009 21:52:23 EST Time for a healthier me!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2491753 With everything that has happened in the last few weeks and the fact that on Wednesday I turn 34, I decided to make some changes. First, I am resetting my goals. I shifting back to zero and starting anew. I decide to go bigger this time. When I found out I was pregnant, I had lost 25 lbs and was down to 155, only 5 lbs shy of my original goal. I gained back 5lbs during the time I was pregnant (mainly cause carbs seemed to be the only thing that stayed down), so now I find myself at 160. Still... Mon, 19 Oct 2009 18:42:28 EST Harder than I ever thought http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2479362 This miscarriage has been harder on me than I ever dreamed it would be. I think that I am dealing and then I find myself sitting here crying. I don't know why I am crying. I am just crying. I am trying to get my life back to normal but I can't seem to do it. I tell myself every morning today I am going to eat right and exercise, but I just can't seem to do it. I find myself still craving foods I wouldn't normally eat, like pancakes in the middle of the afternoon. I guess I let myself f... Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:37:02 EST Making my way back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2471285 I've been away for a while, but I will be making my way back. I was pregnant and spending my free time sleeping and being sick. But last week I miscarried, so as part of my healing process I am making my way back to SP, and getting my life back in order. I think the hardest part about making way back to SP is going to be eating within my limits, for over a month I didn't really care how much I ate, my only goal was getting food to stay down. I am hoping that getting myself to back to the ... Sun, 11 Oct 2009 22:30:53 EST Wow, I wear a single digit!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2346565 After everything that has been going on with my family's medical issues and getting tired of hearing that my clothing are too big on me, I decided to take a small shopping trip to get some new jeans for work. Well I discovered why people were saying my size 14 jeans were too big for me, I fit into a size 8!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A size 8, who knew. But it feels great!!! Tue, 25 Aug 2009 21:55:48 EST A quick thank you and update. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2321775 Just wanted to say thank you to everyone and give a little update. My nephew has been released from the hospital. Well he is still in rejection and not in the clear yet, he was feeling good enough for them to let him come home. So he is now home and waiting to meet with his regular doctor to find out where we go for here. They are still hoping to be able to reverse the rejection, but the longer it goes on the less likely that it will happen. <BR> <BR> But thank you everyone for the thoug... Mon, 17 Aug 2009 07:47:02 EST Could use some thoughts and prayers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2315675 My nephew who is 24 has gone into rejection for the kidney he got 5 years ago. They have put him on heavy steriods and are hoping to stop the rejection before it does harm to the kidney. Fri, 14 Aug 2009 13:51:15 EST I'm Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2291340 I've been gone for about a month. I was busy at work then on vacation. But now I am back and even though I wasn't able to keep up with SP, I pretty much tried to stick with the plan. Getting exercise were I could, not working out but getting exercise and eating right. I have spent the last couple days trying to clear out the emails and catch up on message boards. It is a lot of work but I realized how much a missed it. For now it is bed time. Tomorrow is another day, and more emails an... Wed, 5 Aug 2009 21:44:05 EST