MOMZOOKEEPER's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MOMZOOKEEPER MOMZOOKEEPER's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Back http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5625011 I'm back. I'm trying to come back. I need to come back. WHY is this so difficult for me? <BR> <BR> I'm here for the moment and that's what matters, isn't it? The fact that I am NOT letting go of the desire to make a change. Now if I could just MAKE the change! Sat, 15 Feb 2014 18:52:55 EST Blah http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5455279 Just don't know how else to describe my emotions today. <em>24</em> <BR> <BR> I'm so impatient with myself. Watched a documentary last night called "Hungry for Change"--have you seen it? So informative and helpful. I can totally relate to the the emotional struggle behind all of this. I must sound absolutely crazy to anyone reading because one day I'm up and one day I'm down. It changes within the course of the day, too! It's so foreign to me to think positively about myself, my b... Wed, 14 Aug 2013 16:49:23 EST Getting Back to the Basics http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5451122 I'm a wreck. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, etc. I need to get back to the basics and focus on all the things I can control. This means leaving the things I cannot control behind! <BR> <BR> I can control: my diet, my use of free time, my connection with God in making more time to be with Him, my role as wife and mom in my daily life, my choice to move forward instead of backward, my reaction to stress and emotions, finding time to exercise <BR> <BR> I cannot control: others' thou... Sat, 10 Aug 2013 19:45:24 EST Challenges http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5350124 I'm stopping by to post a few thoughts about life in my crazy zoo. I've missed SP and need to get back here more often! <BR> <BR> I'm currently on Day 25 of a 30 day No Sweets Challenge. I had one cheat for my birthday last week (and it wasn't even that good). The biggest impact this is having for me is proving to myself that I can stick with something for 30 days. That's a healthy step in the right direction. <BR> <BR> I just started a workout 30 day challenge as well with a Faith-based C... Wed, 8 May 2013 18:03:48 EST Here I Am Again... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5287852 Back at the same place. Trying to figure out how to focus on myself. I have six kids at home and recently moved three grandkids into our home with a possible fourth on the way in. Life is crazy and I don't know how to focus on my needs. <BR> <BR> I've never been consistent. I struggle with fear of failing so I don't even stick with things long enough to see if they are going to work. Feeling pretty low about this battle right now. <BR> <BR> Would appreciate your prayers and advice. <BR> <... Fri, 15 Mar 2013 14:31:53 EST Nutri-Bullet: Nutri-Blast Feast Days 2 and 3 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5066891 So, we are coming to the close of Day 3 on our Nutri-Blast Feast. This evening we did break our fast to eat a meal of salad and a grilled chicken breast. We plan to continue 2+ Nutri-Blasts per day to replace the same number of meals/snacks. The reason for breaking the Feast tonight really was simply that we hadn't experienced a ton of detox symptoms (like we thought we would by day 3) so we decided that our choice in a dinner that was healthy wouldn't hurt us. <BR> <BR> I chose to go o... Wed, 19 Sep 2012 20:21:46 EST Nutri-Bullet: Nutri-Blast Feast Day 1 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5063540 Feeling a bit foggy this afternoon. <BR> <BR> My husband and I, as well as the kids, started a Juice Feast using our new Nutri-Bullet this morning. Three juices later, I'm started to feel the effects. Wow, that is fast. Although so far, it's leaving me a little tired, slow, and light-headed. I think I need to drink more. I'm sure our kids aren't getting enough calories either. Going to have to play around with the mix and make sure everyone is getting what they need. <BR> <BR> We ... Mon, 17 Sep 2012 16:09:46 EST I need to stop making excuses! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4983434 Thank you all so much for your encouraging words on my last post! I'm amazed all the time at how technology (the Internet) brings people together. A lot of people talk about how there is so much bad out here on the Internet, but I really believe there is a TON of good and the good definitely outweighs the bad for me! <BR> <BR> Just a thought for the day's post and then I've gotta get away from my computer! Isn't it funny how it sucks us in? WOW! It's easy for me to sit here for way too ... Mon, 23 Jul 2012 15:05:44 EST Motivation vs. Discipline http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4981774 So this weekend I was reminded in a conversation with my husband of the difference between motivation and discipline. I have a LOT of motivation. I have a lot of reasons WHY I should lose this weight and get healthy: I want a baby, I want to avoid future health problems, I want to grow old with my husband, etc. <BR> <BR> BUT what I'm lacking is somehow getting the discipline to stick to things, to have routines, to be fully invested and committed in the journey. How does one learn dis... Sun, 22 Jul 2012 13:52:34 EST I'm asking for your help... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4910498 So, I've not written or recorded a video blog for weeks. I had a better, more active month than ever in May (although it doesn't take much for me to do better than NO EXERCISE!). Yet I feel like my body is not responding. My eating isn't good. Struggling with a lot of emotional eating. <BR> <BR> Interesting thing about that emotional eating...I have found that it's not only just a thing I do when I'm upset, stressed, or even happy and celebrating something. I have this hang-up when I ... Sun, 3 Jun 2012 20:41:14 EST My 37th Birthday http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4859315 Three years from 40...getting a little harder each year to have a birthday...and here's the reason why: <BR> <BR> I want a baby. <BR> <BR> I've been married 15 years since I was 21 years old. I've never been pregnant even with rarely using any birth control measures. I realize that pregnancies past the age of 35 are considered higher risk. BUT I still want the experience. I want the bond. Even though we have adopted 12 children (10 from foster care and 2 "informally adopted" older daugh... Mon, 30 Apr 2012 12:53:55 EST Vlog #2 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4853674 Just an update... Thu, 26 Apr 2012 16:51:29 EST Injury Recovery http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4841536 I said it in the last post, I've never had a "sports" injury before. Guess there is a first time for everything, no matter HOW silly I felt when I strained my calf muscle after only 10 minutes of exercise. <BR> <BR> BUT the good thing is that I knew what to do (RICE method) and I immediately took care of it. And I can tell 48 hours later that it helped immensely. I still have some discomfort, and it's still noticeably sore when I step down the wrong way (too abruptly or with too much of m... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 20:36:33 EST Exercised for 10 minutes Yesterday... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4839598 It was a start. It was fun. While it lasted. <BR> <BR> I have a new Zumba game for the Wii and just started to get into it when...POP! My left calf popped loudly. I had never heard this before. I had warmed up and didn't feel like I was overexerting, however my calf muscles are always pretty tight so I guess I didn't do enough to warm up/stretch them out. <BR> <BR> I immediately stopped and began to ice and elevate it. It was scary. I could walk around on my tiptoe all day with no pr... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 15:39:20 EST Morning brings a new perspective... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4837600 So I had a bad evening. I saw a number on the screen that I didn't want to see. <BR> <BR> But a number doesn't define me. <BR> <BR> I'm starting the morning with a fresh attitude. I'm not going to grumble or complain. It's funny that a Scripture from my Sunday School class yesterday was Philippians 2:14 (NIV) "Do everything without grumbling or complaining..." Another version (The Message) reads "Do everything readily and cheerfully—no bickering, no second-guessing allowed!" <BR> <... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 12:20:03 EST So I guess it had to be done... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4836796 I had to weigh in some time or another. I haven't weighed myself on the Wii Fit board since January. Well, now I know. <em>198</em> <BR> <BR> I guess it could be worse. I do tend to see my numbers fluctuate by a few pounds and I was up three. So I guess that's better than it could have been. <BR> <BR> I just really have to get going with this. That's all there is to it. <BR> <BR> A bit bummed tonight. :( <BR> <BR> Sun, 15 Apr 2012 22:35:55 EST Thinking, Reading, and Studying...Oh My... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4834955 So, there's one thing I am really good at. Learning. As a child and young adult, I never struggled in school and rarely had to do long hours of homework and studying, because I learned well. Fast forward to today... <BR> <BR> I still love to read, learn, and study anything that catches my interest. I can spend hours perusing the internet and all of the information that is out there on fitness, running, nutrition, etc. <BR> <BR> There's nothing wrong with being a good student of fitnes... Sat, 14 Apr 2012 16:05:36 EST First EVER Vlog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4833211 I have put off making a video long enough...here you go! Morning hair and all! :) It's all about me, just getting started and putting some thoughts into action. Enjoy! Fri, 13 Apr 2012 10:19:45 EST December 29, 2011 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4642960 Wow... <BR> <BR> In two days it will be 2012. I can remember thinking about my goals and wishes for 2011 a year ago and focusing on blogging and writing and so many other things, health and fitness included of course, and having such great anticipation for this year. Little did I know that it would be such a year of struggle for me. <BR> <BR> In a lot of ways it has been a year of affluence, blessings and joy. In other ways, it has been a hard year of change, still dealing with grief, ... Thu, 29 Dec 2011 09:37:20 EST A New Day http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4381206 So I always say that with our adoption journey and our adopted kids (some of whom have special needs and other issues) we try to live by the philosophy of "Every Day is a New Day." I need to remind myself of this philosophy when it comes to my health and fitness and nutrition. Not sure why it's so hard at times, but coming back to SP has helped me wake up to this. <BR> <BR> Today has been a better day. I woke up determined to drink enough water, to make good choices when it comes to my me... Sat, 23 Jul 2011 14:35:28 EST Sad... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4379929 When my last blog post started with the title "Where have I been?" and it's been over 4 months since then...it's sad. <BR> <BR> I'm struggling. I just stepped on my bathroom scale (not the most reliable scale). I've been too scared to get back on the Wii Fit scale which I'm sure is much more accurate. If my bathroom scale is any sign, it's not good. It's up 8 pounds from the last time I logged on here. I knew it. I've been really struggling. <BR> <BR> I had surgery to remove my gall... Fri, 22 Jul 2011 19:53:40 EST Where have I been? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4074427 I just logged on to SP today and my last status update was 110 days ago. I'm sad about that. <BR> <BR> I'm more sad that since the last time I was on, I haven't weighed in much and I haven't worked out much and I know that I have gained more weight. :( I had gall bladder removal surgery at the end of January and I just haven't recovered quickly. Not to mention other winter illnesses going around, I've battled to stay somewhat healthy over the past few months. It makes it so hard for me ... Mon, 7 Mar 2011 21:21:06 EST Thoughts for this week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3782287 I read an email from SP today, the "Healthy Reflections" one? I do try to read all of the emails that I get from SP, and honestly sometimes it's not so easy. This one caught my eye, however, because I was just having an emotionally rough morning/afternoon. I was worried about one thing or another and I just couldn't focus and I felt really unstable emotionally/mentally. Especially with regard to eating, trying to get my Couch to 5K run in, etc. The "Healthy Reflection" spoke to me of jus... Sun, 14 Nov 2010 00:23:04 EST Finishing Week 1 of Couch to 5K http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3775620 <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <em>321</em> <BR> <BR> I FINISHED WEEK 1 OF COUCH TO 5K! <BR> <BR> This is a huge thing for me. Three times in one week, I have managed to get OUT of the house to exercise because I made it happen. I did it. It's only taking about 35 minutes of my time away from the house right now, and I'm getting there! I am just amazed that I can actually do it. It is slow-going, and not much of an actual run, but I am out there, I am moving and I... Wed, 10 Nov 2010 16:13:31 EST The Story of Me (LONG!) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3770890 OK, so I won't bore you with the story of my whole life, but I've been thinking a lot this morning about how I got to where I am right now with my weight and health. I may have written about something like this in the past, but I don't think I've ever really been this far along in recognizing my battle for what it is....something I can win! <BR> <BR> I haven't always had a weight problem. I wasn't small as a child by any means, but I wouldn't have ever considered myself over weight. I gre... Mon, 8 Nov 2010 16:44:38 EST Short entry for today... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3767001 I did it. Week 1, Day 2 of Couch to 5K is in the books. How did it feel? HARDER than day 1. I expected it to not be easy, even day 1 wasn't easy. I had moments in the last half of the run intervals where I did NOT think I could go any farther, but I did. Something about the podcast that I used today wasn't as good, although the music was Christian music, but it just didn't grip me like the other Couch to 5K official application podcast (where I can use my own choice of Christian music).... Sun, 7 Nov 2010 00:00:14 EST Starting Couch to 5K...again! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3762199 I've been off SparkPeople for a few days again. I can't let myself give up on it again. I'm starting Couch to 5K for the second time today. I started it back in September, right before the MOST stressful week of our year...BAD idea. So now I'm trying again. <BR> <BR> I have to find motivation to do this that is NOT just for everyone else who needs me. I need to really believe that I am worth it, and I really can do it. I have spent the last 12 years of my life parenting children we've ... Thu, 4 Nov 2010 15:33:33 EST Thank you... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3752301 to those of you who have encouraged and prayed for me. I'm in this. I'm in this for me. I'm in this for health. I'm in this for a future with my kids, grandkids and husband. I'm in this because I know I need to take care of me. I've just never learned how. I've spent so much of my life focusing on everything and everyone else that I have to re-learn how to pay attention to my needs as well. AND I have to learn that it is OK to take care of me. It's not selfish. I deserve the attenti... Sun, 31 Oct 2010 17:41:06 EST THIS is why I struggle... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3750952 Got back on my Wii tonight for my "official weigh-in" and I'm back to 222. What's up with that? The first words out of my mouth..."this is why I don't even try." :( <BR> <BR> Struggling tonight. <BR> <em>198</em> Sat, 30 Oct 2010 22:36:59 EST Wednesday Weigh-In http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3744281 OK, I am not actually posting my weigh-in info here because I haven't done it yet. I usually do it late in the evening. I'm trying to use my Wii Fit as my source for my numbers and stats, and my plan is to actually use the Wii more often than ONCE a week! In fact, what I really need to do is use it to weigh in ONCE a week but use the Wii nearly every day for some exercise. I have this HUGE roadblock, and I think it's all mental. Why can't I start moving? Why can't I just make the time f... Wed, 27 Oct 2010 14:50:48 EST Starting Slow is STILL Starting! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3735020 I have to keep reminding myself that any small step I take, any little change, any moment that I stop to focus on myself is something that will help me achieve my goal. YES, my goal is to lose 75 pounds...but my real achievement will be the new lifestyle that I can live as a result of the lessons I learn about taking care of me and getting myself healthy! <BR> <BR> One small step in the right direction is better than NO steps...and MUCH better than a step in the WRONG direction. So, her... Sat, 23 Oct 2010 13:05:10 EST Over a year... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726312 It's been over a year since I used Sparkpeople for the first time. I lost some weight the first time around (after the first of the year) but I've put it all back on (and then some). I'm frustrated. I'm tired of living this way. I'm tired of nothing fitting. I'm just plain tired...and sick and tired of feeling this way. <BR> <BR> I know something has to change. I know I need to focus on me. If I focus on myself too much then I feel selfish. It's gone to extremes now because the only ... Tue, 19 Oct 2010 15:48:56 EST How it's going so far... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2476338 Well, I'd have to say that I'm adjusting pretty well. I really like the nutrition tracker and it has been very helpful for me to use this to plan the next day's meals and snacks. Planning (HEALTHY planning) is not something I've paid much attention to in the past. Oh, now I did make sure that there was food or that we had a plan for what we were going to eat (often that involved eating OUT). I just never have purposefully planned what I would eat based on calories, carbs, etc. Sure, we w... Tue, 13 Oct 2009 15:50:54 EST New to SparkPeople http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=2471117 So I'm a "newbie" around here. It's been too many years since I have recognized and committed myself to the need to take care of ME! I have 9 kids, 5 living at home, 4 on their own. My husband and I have adopted all 9 of them, 7 legally adopted from foster care and 2 "informally" or "unofficially" adopted in to our family. All of the adoptions have taken place at older ages, ranging from 9 months old to 28 years old at "time of adoption." Insane! If there is anyone who needs to take car... Sun, 11 Oct 2009 21:18:24 EST