MOMTOCONNOR2003's SparkPeople Blog MOMTOCONNOR2003's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Slow motion transformation So I have days when I am really down because I allow the scale to define my day. I allow it to determine if I am happy or sad. I get on Spark and tell others to throw the scale away but I do not do the same. I say don't get on the scale but once a week but I find myself drawn to the scale. Not in an obsessive way but it is there in the bathroom so while I am in there getting dressed why not see what it says today. I don't know why I do that because I know one days is not going to all of... Tue, 9 Feb 2016 14:17:17 EST February underway So on Sunday my daughter fractured her arm in two places playing paper basketball at church. I am really sad because we had just started circuit training together and we where having fun and I was starting her off at only 5 reps with 2 pounds weights but I was making it fun for her and she was having fun. We were also doing yoga together. She was finally getting into it. So I am sad that I lost my workout buddy. We still went to the gym last night but she only walked 10 lapse with me (1 ... Wed, 3 Feb 2016 11:41:41 EST January summary So I started off at 213 pounds and finished at 208. Not as much as I wanted but I changed scales which added two pounds so I guess you could say I lost 6 pounds instead of 5 really because I had to lose one over again and am still trying to lose the last one still. My exercise is going great. I have been doing Zumba or walk away the pounds 5 days a week. I also go to the gym two nights a week with the kids and train for the 5k walking almost 2 miles a night. I started strength training as w... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 12:19:47 EST January summary So I started off at 213 pounds and finished at 208. Not as much as I wanted but I changed scales which added two pounds so I guess you could say I lost 6 pounds instead of 5 really because I had to lose one over again and am still trying to lose the last one still. My exercise is going great. I have been doing Zumba or walk away the pounds 5 days a week. I also go to the gym two nights a week with the kids and train for the 5k walking almost 2 miles a night. I started strength training as w... Sat, 30 Jan 2016 12:14:18 EST New Scale New Starting Weight So I went out yesterday and I purchased a new scale. My old scale is the type that you stand on it and it may fluctuate depending on how you stand on it and it may give you different readings depending on where it is located in the bathroom. So of course you are going to put it on the lightest place in the room to give you the lowest reading. However everytime I go to the doctors office her scale is always more than my home scale, so I decided to get real with myself and stop lying to mysel... Wed, 27 Jan 2016 12:19:23 EST Getting organized! So today I decided to clean house! I only logged in heavy cleaning for 30 minutes in my exercise but I worked for 5 hours going through my closet and all of my clothes. I had suits I had not worn since I left the federal courts in 2006. I just knew I would get back down to my pre pregnancy sizes so I held on to them for now, some of them, over 10 years. I think when I hit that size again I will buy myself a new wardrobe so I donated at least 4 garbage bags of clothes. I have so much more roo... Sun, 24 Jan 2016 22:09:30 EST It's a family thing! So I am going to run a 5k on April 9th. I am little scared and I am not sure how much running I am going to do because I am going to do it with my two children. In the past when I have tried to do a family fun run with my daughter at the Elementary school she would do one lap around the school and stop. She does not like to exercise at all. So we started traiing last night. I took both of my children 11 and 13 to the gym and we walked the track. We did 1.5 miles in 30 minutes. So we di... Wed, 20 Jan 2016 09:09:22 EST Off with a Bang! So 2015 ended with a 25 pound weight loss for me. Sadly I did not reach my goal last year but I had alot of obstacles. My own health and then I found out my father has cancer, which threw me for a loop. Needless to say I lost focus on my own goals for a little while but I eventually got back on track. With the struggle of trying to financially help my father through his treatment so he can keep his light on so to speak I lost focus and once again feel into old habit of doing stuff for eve... Tue, 12 Jan 2016 11:09:33 EST 24 pounds down in 2015 So 2015 did not go according to plan. I was suppose to be 50 pounds lighter but unfortunately I am only 24 pounds smaller I think. That is okay though. Because I am smaller and next year I will be another 24 pounds smaller. I guess slow and steady is going to win the race. It has taken me 5 months to lose 24 pounds but that is okay because I feel much better than I did starting out 2015. Sadly I may not have a new ward robe of clothes but I can exercise without getting winded. I can bend do... Tue, 17 Nov 2015 16:06:49 EST I am back AGAIN Sorry I have been gone for a while. I actually was doing great then my father went into the hospital about two and a half months ago. Since then we discovered he has lung, throat and lumfnod cancer. Then in the middle of radiation and chemotherapy his heart decided it only wants to work at about 20% and he needs a pacemaker. Needless to say I just stopped thinking about me. I am happy to say I did not gain weight. I also had a phone that constantly was running out of storage and I had to rem... Mon, 19 Oct 2015 22:47:12 EST tough time juggeling lately The past two weeks have been rough. My boss was on vacation for three week so he came back and the first week was crazy. I did not have a moment to spare at work so I went from have a really easy three week to insanity. Then last week hit. My Dad was rush to the hospital. He has been sick for over a month and in and out of the ER with what we though was COPD. Then he was told they thought he had cancer of the Lung and lymphnods in addition to COPD. My Dad lives in good traffic 45 minut... Mon, 10 Aug 2015 13:58:27 EST I need a tough team! So I am the member of several teams but I am looking for a team that will really push me to exercise. Something like a biggest loser team where it is a team vs. team so I have accountability and it will make me work harder to see the results at the end of the week. I don't know if they have those types of teams on spark anymore. I remember years ago being on a private team like that but it was for a limited set of time challenge. I would like to do another challenge. I am trying to lose a... Wed, 22 Jul 2015 15:44:57 EST Crazy Week 8 down So far I have been back dedicated to my healthy lifestyle for 62 days ( a little over 8 weeks). I have lost a total of 14 pounds and so far so good, though I really wanted to be down by 16 pounds at this point. My goal is to be down by to 214 by July 31st. My original goal was 207 but that is just not happening. 3 pounds a week just is not happening this month though I did try. I guess I can't complain to much! That would make it a total of 18 pounds in 9 weeks and 2 days. So this week... Mon, 20 Jul 2015 14:19:35 EST 6 inches down! So I took my inches this morning after returning to spark 7 weeks ago and I am happy to report I am down 6 inches. So silly part of me wishes it said 7 so I could say I lost an inch a week. ha ha! That would be great since I have so many of them to lose still. Thu, 9 Jul 2015 16:05:14 EST Week one of July Down Alot has changed in the past 7 weeks. I have lost 12 pounds. I have started exercising daily and not thought I was going to die doing it. I am drinking my water and not running to the bathroom every two minutes because I am drinking water again. My complection is thankful for that! I have so much more energy than I did 7 weeks ago. I am not sitting on the sofa every night just mindlessly watching tv. I am actually doing things and the kids are doing things with me. I have in the last f... Tue, 7 Jul 2015 10:34:41 EST So much energy! So I have to say I LOVE TO EXERCISE! I do not know why I go through spells of time when I don't exercise because I feel so much better when I exercise. I have so much more energy for my days. I get up and out of bed alot easier because I know I am going to go work out. It is amazing what a really good workout will do for you in the morning before work. Even if it is just 30 minutes of wii dance. Just getting yourself up and moving can really make you feel soooo much better. <BR> <BR> A... Wed, 1 Jul 2015 09:52:42 EST A New Direction So for years I have been off and on Sparkpeople trying to figure out what I am doing wrong. Going to doctors, changing doctors, etc. I was diagnosed pre-diabetic about a year and a half ago then it took a while to try and get my medication straight. In the process of all of this what I discovered was it did not matter how much I exercised or ate my scale hardly moves. After months of discouraging results I would always give up, diappear for 6 months and then come back and try again only t... Mon, 29 Jun 2015 13:12:44 EST Great work out day So today I used my gym for the first time. I converted my 4th bedroom into a gym but for the past week I have continued to exercise downstairs. Using the wii, weights and videos. Today it felt great to work out upstair but it reminded me how out of shape I am. I could not event workout at the rate is use to so I still have a long way to go. That is okay because I got in a great workout and I hope for the same tomorrow. We were snowed in today. So we had the first snow day of the year. ... Tue, 17 Feb 2015 20:22:30 EST An the right track Okay so I am not going to beat myself up over my eating on Valentines Day because it was a holiday and I did work out like crazy today to make up for it. I walked so much today my feet are hurting so I think I made up for the extra pieces of candy I consumed along with the morning Bellini's I drank. I am cooking carnitas for dinner and instead of having mine on taco sheets I am having a salad with carnitas on top. It will be much better for me and I can get my veggies in today. <BR> <BR... Sun, 15 Feb 2015 16:27:47 EST Venting is the answer! So yesterday I was really down because my weight had not changed in one and a half weeks. So I did alot of venting my frustrations because I was working so hard and not seeing results. I am happy to say that as of this morning my scale finally moved and I lost a pound. YAHHHH! <BR> <BR> That make 11 so far in almost 6 weeks. I am so happy that the scale is started to move down again. <BR> <BR> This morning I tried boxing for a new workout. I did not do it long but I burned crazy calori... Fri, 13 Feb 2015 10:24:33 EST Throw Back Thursday On Throw back Thursday most people post memorable pictures of themselves or people they love. Not me! Throw back Thursday reminds me of how off track I am. I look back at the pictures and think I remember thinking I looked fat when they took that picture and wishing I was that size again. I remember weighing 136 pounds and thinking I was fat. I was the correct size for my height but there was always someone skinnier. I have a sister that took after my mother, she is a few inches taller ... Thu, 12 Feb 2015 10:09:53 EST Trying something new So this morning I did 30 minutes of belly dancing and then put in the cardio blast dvd. I have not done that DVD in a year or so, so that was my new thing this week. Every week I am trying something new so I don't get bored with my workouts. Last week was belly dancing and this week is cardio blast. I managed to get in an additional 20 minutes of working out last night with my daughter. Because of the weather we decided to work out at home instead of the gym. So she did one mile of walk... Wed, 11 Feb 2015 10:17:16 EST Lifes many ups and downs For those who do not know me, I am an emotional eatter. I have gained 50 pounds since my husband retired a year and a half ago and became a full time student. He is really enjoying not working and going to school. However it has been a huge adjustment for me. I am still doing the housework, picking up the kids, doing the shopping, etc while he goes to school. I worked full time while going to college at night for over 12 years. So I do not understand how someone can not work and go to sc... Tue, 10 Feb 2015 10:16:22 EST Back on track after a not so good weekend! So I have to confess I did not have a great weekend. My normal free day is Friday's because we often go out to dinner or host a dinner party on Friday nights. So I have my once a week wine on Friday. However this Friday I had 3 glasses of wine, cookies, chips and dips, gummy bears, etc. I did not just go over a little I went crazy. I did good with my eating but that was my free workout day so I did not work out. Then Yesterday I went over again. After church a friend wanted to eat out ... Mon, 9 Feb 2015 11:19:07 EST A reward for me So today is one month and I lost 10 pounds from January 5 to February 5. My weigh in days are normally Mondays but I did jump on the scale only a few days after just checking on Monday and I did not lose more but I am happy with my 10 pound loss. Now I have to lose 7 more pounds by February 28th. My reward for February if I meet my goal is I will color my hair. My husband loves my hair when I darken it so I think I will do that if I reach my February goal. If I get my hair done in Februar... Thu, 5 Feb 2015 16:10:42 EST I think I can! I Know I can! I think I can! So I keep repeating these words to myself today. In the past I have been the little engine that got 1/2 way there, losts steam and rolled back down to the start. This time I am determined to get over that hill. I want to be a sucess story this time. I want to post fat pictures of myself and look back on how far I have come. I have not posted fat pictures because I am still to close to that starting weight and I don't want the reminder of how far I still have to go. I will just continue ... Wed, 4 Feb 2015 14:40:13 EST I need to focus more! So I have been doing good, but with a goal like 2 pounds a week the month of February I need to focus on eatting on the small end of my calorie range. I have been eatting on the high end now for two days. So tomorrow I will need to focus on eating on the small end. I need a deficet of 7,000 calories a week and I am at only 1700 after two days. 300 calories shy of my daily goal of 1,000 calorie deficet a day. So I think I am going to have to add in a little longer exercise for the next co... Tue, 3 Feb 2015 14:31:56 EST I reached my first goal So I started on January 5th and my goal was to lost 10 pounds by February 5th. I am happy to say I have reached my first small goal. Now onto my second goal 8 pounds the month of February. It seems like alot but because the first 10 came off so easily I wanted to see if the second month would do the same. As long as it is at least a pound of week I will be happy. I just want to see progress with my efforts. But secretly I want to be out of the 200's as soon as possible so I can say I am... Mon, 2 Feb 2015 14:53:16 EST February 1st So my Friday night did not go as planned. I ended up making it my free day because I had a dinner party with pizza and wine. I had planned ahead but when I got there the pizza they ordered was stuffed crust which made me go over. So I chalked it up to my free day and stayed in my calorie range on both Saturday and Sunday. So all is well. I did not get my cardio in today but I did go through my son's room, organize it, move stuff around and throw stuff way so I was moving just not to musi... Sun, 1 Feb 2015 16:36:20 EST The Weekend UGHHHH! Weekends scare me a little. Because I do not have as much control as I would like over what I eat and what we are doing. Tonight we have plans to get together with 3 other couples. Sadly the menu if pizza which is one of my not so favorite foods and high in calories. I have already alotted to two pieces and a couple glasses of wine. So I think tonight will not be bad. Tomorrow I am suppose to have a date night with my hubby. That means I am not sure what we are doing until the last min... Fri, 30 Jan 2015 13:24:36 EST On the right track! So I am not sure what I am doing different this time than any other time but whatever it is I don't want it to stop. I have lost 9 pounds in 3 weeks. I am so excited. I am still a long way from my ultimate goal of 90 pounds but I feel like it is accomplishable. This time I can actually say I have not desire to cheat on my diet. I am doing really good at turning down temptation. Yesterday while the kids where out of school I made Oatmeal chocolate chip cookies. I only at two all day and ... Wed, 28 Jan 2015 11:26:20 EST Only one pound away from my short term goal! So I begain my journey back on January 5, 2015 and I have now been active for 3 weeks. I am happy to announce that I lost 3 pounds this week for a total of 9 pounds. My goal was to lose 10 pounds by February 5, 2015 and I know I can do this. It is crazy the difference between last years attempts to lose weight and this years. Last year I did not have my blood sugar under control. I dieted like crazy and worked out like a crazy person and could not lose weight. This year I am doing the s... Mon, 26 Jan 2015 11:34:13 EST Enjoying my second week back So I have now been active since January 5th and have lost 7 pounds. I am so happy and hopefully that I will reach my 10 pound goal by February 5. I have a long way to go but I feel I will be able to do it this time. In the past I would work so hard and not see the scale move. Now that I am on Metformin for my blood sugar it seems to have helped my ability to lose the weight. YAHHH! I am working out again which I am happy to report. I starting off easy with walk aerobics and wii dance. ... Fri, 23 Jan 2015 12:00:14 EST So far so good! I have been doing great for the past couple days. This is why I love Monday through Friday. structure is my friend. I have been trying new recipes, some good some not. Tonight's was a fail. Crock pot orange chicken was not a winner. Tomorrow night is mini meat loaves with roasted potatoes and broccoli. Tue, 20 Jan 2015 20:50:01 EST Its a new day! So yesterday I did good in the beginning I logged in everything. I even planned what I was going to eat at the restuarant we were going to for my daughters birthday. I did excellent at the restaurant stayed right on track. Then they decided to get non-fat yogurt at the yogurt bar. It was wonderful but I went over in calories for the day with the toppings. UGHHH! I did so well all day long but I did say I could go over one day a week so I will have to count yesterday as my overage day. ... Tue, 13 Jan 2015 12:39:11 EST Happy with week one now onto week 2 So I lost three pounds this week. I am very happy with losing three pounds but part of me thinks shouldn't I have dropped like 5 the first week of getting back and staying on track. At least that is what happens with my hubby when he tries. <BR> But enough with that I LOST 3 POUNDS SO YAHHHH! <BR> <BR> Now onto week 2. My goal this week is incorporate more exercise (which I have done), drink my water, log everything and stay focused. My goal this week is to lose two pounds. So away we ... Mon, 12 Jan 2015 10:51:34 EST January goals posted So I wanted to post my goals for January. I weighted in on January 2nd and it said I weighted 238 lbs. I thought I was going to faint. I have never been this large in my life and that included both pregnancies. So now I am back on track. <BR> I did not start my diet until January 5th. <BR> <BR> My Goals for January are <BR> <BR> Drink at least 8 cups of water a day <BR> Stay in my calorie range a minimum of 6 days a week <BR> start incorporating exercise back into my routine <BR> Los... Thu, 8 Jan 2015 13:29:20 EST Getting Back on track AGAIN So this few weeks has been crazy due to family sickness and spending alot of time in the hospital with family but I am back. Sadly my scale said I gained two pounds since yesterday but I know it is from the salt. My husband cooked dinner last night and I told him what he made was really salty. Sure enough my scale reflected it this morning. That is okay because I know within a day or two those 2 pounds will go away now that I am back to drinking 100 ounces of water a day. My goal this ... Tue, 3 Jun 2014 09:18:02 EST Life events that weigh you down So I have not been on in a couple weeks. So much has happended. When I stopped posting a couple weeks ago I was still experiencing back pain. I had a pinched nerve in my back and I was on the mend but a little scared to exercise for fear of reinjury. Then my grandmother (who raised me) went into the hospital she is 84. At first they said she was dehydrated, her blood sugar dropped and she had a virus, after 3 days in she was sent home. A few days later she went back only to discover she... Mon, 2 Jun 2014 12:27:59 EST Back to work and on track So sadly when I feel bad I am a big baby and I never follow directions. Because of my back pain and sinus issues I have been having for a few days now I let it get the better of me yesterday and I ate frozen yogurt w/ toppings, A brownie, etc. I went over in calories but not over my BMR so yesterday was a wash. I am back to work today. I strapped on the spark activity tracker and I am trying to take some extra steps today. Still not exercising but trying to put in a few extra steps. So ... Wed, 14 May 2014 10:15:59 EST Deflated by pain So I am a little deflated today. My back is still hurting and my sinus' won't stop draining today. So I am home praying for some pain relief. I am being good on my diet as I can not exercise. I hope I can at least walk the 5K on Friday. I already paid the registration fee for me and my daughter. So this week will be a week of watching my food and water intake and healing, I am a little sad because last week I was killing it with diet and exercise. <BR> <BR> My goal is to still get d... Tue, 13 May 2014 10:21:29 EST In pain and not happy So last week I was on a role. I ate on the low end the entire week, exercised great then I took the kids to Busch Gardens. I was walking around and all of a sudden I felt a sharp pain in my back. I have been on pain patches and a heating pad ever since. I am so upset because everytime I get a good roll going something seems to happen. So now I am just trying to eat at 1200 calories since it seems like exercise will not be happending for a week. I am also suppose to run a 5K on Friday. ... Mon, 12 May 2014 14:17:22 EST I'm on a roll! So this week has been great I have stayed in my calories range and on the low end every day this week. I have exercised all week and have added more intensity to my workouts. I do not have official weigh in until Tuesday but I am hoping for a two pound weight loss. I am pretty sure I can do it I already have a calorie differential of over 4700 calories today since Monday. If I can create a 2300 calories differential this weekend and Monday I am hoping my scale will ready 219 by Tuesday! <... Fri, 9 May 2014 11:24:34 EST Great week So far I am on day four in a row of eatting on the low end of my calorie scale and exercising. Don't get me wrong I have been doing this for a while now but this is day 4 with a positive attitude and unwavering spirit. I am determined to lose 2 pounds this week so far I am down one and I have one more to go by Tuesday. Yesterday I had a 1,100 calorie differential so if I can contiue that I will accomplish my goal. <BR> <BR> This morning I did zumba again to up my calorie burn. I was hop... Thu, 8 May 2014 09:02:47 EST Martha Stewart kicking in So I am on a roll this week. So far I have eaten in the very bottom of my calorie range. This morning I got up and zumbaed for 30 minutes. It has been a while but I survived. Last nights dinner was baked chicken with carrots and potatoes. Tonight is beef and broccoli over egg noodles. My husband does not care for rice so the only way I could sell him on beef and brocoli was if I told him it was going to be over noodles. Lunch is a salad. I have been trying to eat this salad all week b... Wed, 7 May 2014 08:59:35 EST Medical update So after 4 weeks of B12 and Mic shots I had a follow up with my doctor. She was happy that I had lost 5 pounds in one month. She said because of being diabetic it is harder to lose weigh especially when we are still trying to get my meds right. I however think that the 5 pounds was water weight. I have been drinking 100 ounces a day for a month. I am wondering how much actual weight I lost and not just water. I know 5 pounds is still good but I am questioning whether the shots where wor... Tue, 6 May 2014 10:37:32 EST TGI Monday So yesterday I was not good with my diet. Not even a little bit good. I went to a birthday party cookout for a one year old and I read the label on the hamburgers and also died. One hamburger patty was almost 400 calories so I guess I just decided not to try. I had a hamburger, macaroni salad, fruit salad, cake, ice cream and then because I new I was bad I had general tso chicken for dinner. I went over big time. Well I am thankful it is Monday and I am back on my rountine. I am so goo... Mon, 5 May 2014 11:42:40 EST Busy day! So today I managed to run errands, buy some more pavers for my patio, sand, potting soil, planters, trees etch. Then I worked on the yard all day. I am very tired but the yard is starting to look nice. I purchased new cushions for the patio furniture and a new umbrella. Tonight I am suppose to go to my Dads and cook steaks on the grill however my husband is running late getting home. One of my pet peaves is running late. I can't stand to be that person. UGHHH! <BR> Sat, 3 May 2014 17:19:22 EST Blog blog blog So I try to blog at least 4 to 5 times a week. Sometimes it is not about much, sometimes it is venting and sometimes it is sucesses. Today I am have a great day and I have to say I am proud of myself. I did great yesterday and managed to go to an awards program with refreshements after and the only thing I had was one cheeto. It was the new hot ones and I wanted to see how hot they where. I got up this morning and did walk aerobics. I wish I could have gotten in more than 35 minutes but... Fri, 2 May 2014 10:12:29 EST Happy Thursday So I joined a challenge to try and lose 12 pounds in 8 weeks. I will be happy with 8 but I really would love to get out of the 200's sooner than later. <BR> <BR> I had a doctors appointment this morning to have lab work done. I am hoping for bad results. I know that sounds horrible but I have been having some issues with no energy I am hoping it is something as simple is my diabeties meds are not working so they have to up it or something. At least then I would have the answer to why I... Thu, 1 May 2014 13:48:18 EST