MOMMY_TO_TIEN's SparkPeople Blog MOMMY_TO_TIEN's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Here I Am <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is my first full body picture I posted anywhere online. At this point in my life, I find it hard to want to hide who I am. This is me. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> The pictures were taken in the little workout place where I live. <BR> <BR> Last night I had a meltdown. I have been struggling to figure out what I want for Christmas, so I can purchase ... Tue, 16 Dec 2014 22:17:54 EST Questionaire! Thanks Shel! Copy and Paste into your own blog, change the answers to suit you. (Try to) use one word answers, get an easy three SparkPoints, and help your SparkFriends get to know you. <BR> <BR> So here goes: <BR> <BR> Where is my cell phone? <BR> In my pocketbook <BR> <BR> Spouse? <BR> None <BR> <BR> Your hair? <BR> Brown <BR> <BR> Your mother? <BR> Is getting old <BR> <BR> Your father? <BR> Not one of my biggest fans <BR> <BR> Your favorite thing? <BR> Just being around my son <BR> <BR> Your dr... Sun, 25 Nov 2012 15:44:40 EST Six Months Later Here is a little back story from my life since May son and I have moved into our own apartment. I begun working full-time at a human service company teaching recovery. I have not been able to track my calories or been able to blog as much as I would like to do so. I have SMART goals to help me get back on track. The first goal is for me to track my calories five days this coming week. The second goal is to cook every meal my son and I eat at least 5 out of 7 days. I will be getting ... Sat, 24 Nov 2012 14:33:05 EST Week in Review Blessed. Hopefully. Supported. Loved. Cared for. Not alone. Strong. Dedicated. Passionate. An instrument of His loving power. Joyful. Happy. Smart. Giving. Amazing. Free. Redeemed. Bought. Nurturing. And so much more.... <BR> <BR> I am more than capable to be an overcomer through Christ's sacrifice. I am claiming my portion. His sacrfice is enough. <BR> <BR> When I get up in my day, may I seek time to see His love and desire for me. Sun, 20 May 2012 09:16:04 EST Brand New Day <BR> Today is a brand new day to love. Its a brand new day filled with mercy and grace. I believe this. <BR> <BR> On my journey to be healthier, I have been making steps to get me to a better place . I have been logging my calories. I have been sweating fat off my body. I have not been eating processed foods. I am feeling good about where I am. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was moving day. I moved without help because my son and I have been in a safehouse. We aren't in our own place yet, but I am ... Thu, 17 May 2012 08:22:10 EST New Start I broke my 8 week stride of counting calories and logging in to spin the wheel. Today I logged my calories, water, walking, and am taking the time to blog. I stayed on track today. I am proud that. I still need to work on lowering my fat and sodium intake. I need to increase a couple nutrients and, yes, my fiber. Who doesn't right? I am glad to be back here. Thank you for staying by my side. Thu, 10 May 2012 22:12:36 EST Earth Shattering I do not know if you were ever in the mental place I am. I have been openly retelling my trauma story, and as a result to opening that can of worms I have been struggling. I have been struggling to not remember the accounts of what took place. Memories do not stop any time of the day. They find ways of coming back so easily. I have many coping strategies and skills to use, but my therapist says that even the most skilled person finds him/her struggling and possibly going back to old methods u... Tue, 8 May 2012 21:33:46 EST I Don't Wanna.... <img src=""> <BR> [I wish this was me in this moment....outstretched arms, rearing to go.] <BR> <BR> Get up to do anything. I want to crawl under the pile of clothes laying on one of the beds, all nice and clean smelling, and keep buried there until I need to pick up my son. However, today I meet up with the nurse, and I get to weigh in and see what literally has been happening. I don't know what to expect. I do know I have tried to do ev... Tue, 1 May 2012 08:35:45 EST Wake Up Sunshine! I'm ready to face the day. The sun is shining. The clouds are blue. I have so many things to be thankful for and joy to have. I have a plan of what needs to be done today. I need to get doing them. Happy Monday! Mon, 30 Apr 2012 08:16:23 EST Good night Sparkers! Been a long day! I got over two miles in for walking, and some good laughs sliding down slides. Today has been good. Sat, 28 Apr 2012 23:28:18 EST Yay! Today is Friday! I was surprised at how much walking my son and I got in yesterday. I walked like 11K steps yesterday. How cool is that? I didn't eat vegetables or fruit, so I can't be so proud of myself about being so happy I am making progress...wait, Yes, I can. I stayed in my caloric range. I did meet many of my nutritional goals. I walked a whole lot too. I will always need to do something better, and I am one step toward that direction. <BR> <BR> On the other side.... <BR> <BR> Spiritually speaking. I... Fri, 27 Apr 2012 08:51:12 EST I would like to say... I have done everything I wanted to accomplish today. I also would like to say I didn't eat an entire pizza (I didn't. I shared a slice). The pizza was pre-made dough from Pillsbury and the topping was I can easily count the calories. Props to me for weighing and measuring the food. <BR> <BR> I so suck at dealing with things that get to me...darn you triggers. Not only do I notice I am having an issue, but then I actively make poor choices when I see my fault. <BR>... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 23:23:42 EST Thank Heaven for Clean Laundry! I smiled from ear to ear this morning reading the comments to the laundry post. I have all of my laundry dry. Now when I get home tonight, laundry awaits me so we can have ironed clothes and clothes all ready to go. My little guy went to school to wrinkly shorts, but they were clean. :o} That is good, huh. I am waiting to attend a seminar on getting a feederal job given by some federal recruitors. I hope to understand their hiring process as ai undergo it. Have a wonderful day..... <BR> <B... Wed, 25 Apr 2012 09:09:54 EST Someone Do My Laundry! Just throw that heap of washed clothes in the dryer, and make sure the towels go in so we can have clean towels to dry off with....let alone clean clothes to wear tomorrow. <BR> <BR> (giving the stink eye to the washed clothes waiting to go into the dryer) Tue, 24 Apr 2012 21:08:29 EST 1:15pm What I set out to accomplish today was to schedule some interviews and to apply to new places plus follow up with job leads. I've done that. I have an interview on Friday at 1pm. I applied to two places. I am working on developing a new cover letter to use. <BR> <BR> What still needs to be done.... <BR> 1. Fixing the beds <BR> 2. Taking dirty clothes to laundry mat (our machine is broken) <BR> 3. Cook dinner (I plan on making my meatballs ahead of time so I can just cook the pasta just befo... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 13:14:48 EST In Love Good morning....I love to wake up and listen to Fernando Ortega singing, "Give Me Jesus" and read my devotionals. Doing this makes me feel rooted and ground in God's love. One of the verses I read this morning said, "Anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun!" It was from 2 Corinthians 5:17. I believe I must begin again each morning, renewed in His love and assured of His tender mercies and bountiful grace. <BR> <BR> I had so much to sa... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 08:58:01 EST Unusual. I don't think I can find success in changing to a healthy lifestyle without first dealing with some past trauma. I just wrote a telling blog post on my normal blog about love. I was able to recognize parts of me who were so hurt. I don't think those parts ever truly come out...only in momentary glimpses when seeing some child yearn for love or crave attention or need to be shown unconditional love. If you would like, you can read the post here: I hope you understand part... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 23:55:03 EST My Love <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I swear God knew which child would match me. I'm crazy over the moon for my little man. Isn't he cute? Mon, 23 Apr 2012 17:49:40 EST This is My Day... Breakfast: Two sausage patties (2 ozs), 1 egg scrambled (used Pam), two slices of toast <BR> <BR> Lunch: Tuna fish sandwiches (tuna, mayonnaise and Boston bib lettuce with 6 gherkins) <BR> <BR> Snack: Yoplait yogurt frozen bites <BR> <BR> Dinner: Spaghetti, turkey meatballs, Ragu with broccoli <BR> <BR> Dessert: Strawberry Jell-O with Cool Whip <BR> <BR> Exercises from Revlation Wellness on YouTube <BR> <BR><BR>YE&feature=share&list=PL3293F3... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 09:19:52 EST Plans, plans and more plans! My 5th Week <BR> <BR> Monday - Revelation Wellness videos on YouTube (Go check it out!) (Get at least 2 miles walking) <BR> <BR> Tuesday - Walk 10,00 steps <BR> <BR> Wednesday - Revelation Wellness videos on YouTube (Get at least 2 miles walking) <BR> <BR> Thursday - Walk 10,00 steps <BR> <BR> Friday - Revelation Wellness videos on YouTube (Get at least 2 miles walking) <BR> <BR> Saturday - Walk 10,00 steps <BR> <BR> Sunday - Revelation Wellness videos on YouTube (Get at least 2 miles... Mon, 23 Apr 2012 08:54:52 EST The Power of Being Alive I'm rooted int he love of knowing Christ as my Savior this morning. <BR> <BR> I feel victorious in my Savior's love. <BR> <BR> The Holy Spirit in me provides strength when I feel I no longer can move. He is what guides me throughout my day living as proof to the love God has for me and you, too. <BR> <BR> "I know the Lord is always with me. I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me. No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice. My body rests in safety." Psalm 16:8-9 <BR> <BR> <im... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 08:39:03 EST Good morning I woke up early went to bed super late. I am exhausted still. I am headed back to bed before needing to wake up to go to court this afternoon at 1pm. Today morning I was successful with eating breakfast with my son. We were able to chit chat while eating, and that was something nice that we did. I intentionally held my foot against his too. He is still so little. He is 6 1/2 almost. I praise God for my son. Every day I feel so lucky God gave me my own special treasure here on earth. I'm heade... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 08:03:49 EST Strength So, this morning...practically all of it, I have been praying finally. I had to write it out in a blog post on my normal blog. You can go to the post right here: Let me just say one word. Exhausted. <BR> <BR> I was able to talk with Amy, my counselor, on the phone. She gave me a list of things I can do to help move in and through this feelings. <BR> <BR> The first thing she told me to do is to ask myself, "How can I show I love myself, uplift yourself, ... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 11:45:21 EST Need to Do Started this morning still sleepy. I had a hard time sleeping throughout the night. I kept waking up feeling hungry, thinking I was seeing spiders or bugs (had saw one real spider in the shower when I went to bathe), and was thirsty. I also kept hearing my son shifting in his bed. <BR> <BR> I don't know why my blog posts keep getting eaten up by the blog troll. I had a post about going to the nutritionist. So, here is the skinny on that.... <BR> <BR> The nutritionist told me I should up my ... Wed, 18 Apr 2012 10:14:13 EST Follow Up About my son: I went to his school, spoke with the assistant principal about what happened. I had my son's counselor speak with her today. I found out there is a shortage of funds, so there will not be a bus monitor put on. I learned that there had been suspicion my son was being bullied, and they wanted to investigate and clarify before bring it to me. I requested that I know any minor and major incidents in school whether it is he is sick to a bloody nose to being bullied to whatever else ... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 15:28:03 EST Mid-Morning Check-In Good morning everyone! <BR> <BR> This is what I have been doing: I feel glad about making the choice to get some exercise in before it gets way too hot out this afternoon. I was able to walk 1.6 miles in thirty minutes. I am happy with that. I did notice my muscles were sore beginning the walk and it subsided a bit but returned pretty quickly. My tummy is feeling hungry too. I have a banana and three more Cuties to eat this morning. <BR> <BR> This is what is planned for the rest of the da... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 11:11:08 EST I'm Still Up! It is 12;20am and I'm still up. Spark People is addictive. I forget how long I have been on SP, but I want to say that I've been on here for a good four or five weeks now. Oh...on my SP page it states I have been a member since March 17, 2012. So, yea, me!!! Have I see improvement? Yes. I have been able to track my calories. I have been able to drink more water. I am intentionally doing exercises. I am walking at times over 10k steps in one day. I walked just under 12 miles so far this month.... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:01:40 EST I'm Still Up! It is 12;20am and I'm still up. Spark People is addictive. I forget how long I have been on SP, but I want to say that I've been on here for a good four or five weeks now. Oh...on my SP page it states I have been a member since March 17, 2012. So, yea, me!!! Have I see improvement? Yes. I have been able to track my calories. I have been able to drink more water. I am intentionally doing exercises. I am walking at times over 10k steps in one day. I walked just under 12 miles so far this month.... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 00:29:22 EST Good night Sparkers! I had a great time at the National Zoo today. My son was so excited. I sbsolutely loved eayching the gorillas. They are so interesting. <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> When I came back home, I noticed my blog post was missing from earlier. What a shame. <BR> <BR> Anyways....I am headed to bed. Good night. Sat, 14 Apr 2012 22:48:26 EST Blow I don't know if I had told you openly I have been trying to gain permanent employment. I am struggling like the millions of others to find a place to work. At times, not having a job is disheartening. <BR> <BR> I just got off the phone with a company I interviewed for, and they had said that I was exactly what they wanted. Then in the next sentence, they said that if I had inside sales, they would offer me the position. The hiring manager said that she'd give other potential employers a goo... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 14:47:54 EST Two Miles Baby! I snuck in two miles in the last thirty minutes of this morning and one minute of this afternoon. Woot Woot! I'm excited for me. lol I ate a banana before leaving out for the walk to tide over the hunger I was feeling. I also took a bottle of water to drink and it is almost completely finished. I drank water each time I got thirsty. I took a couple breathers too. I even listened to Revelation Wellness YouTube video while walking to make me feel more encouraged as I went. On that video, the in... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 12:21:46 EST It Is A Good Morning I didn't want to get out of bed, but I did and got showered, dressed, and got my son off to school. I am waiting at Target for the pharmacy. I'm eating a blueberry crisp bar and a single serving bag og nuts. I am drinking water too...three cups. <BR> <BR> I wanted to say thank you for letting me be who I am. I know there are other people struggling in the journey to become healthier and know what its like to struggle with food. O needed to write my last blog post for me to get a grip on wha... Fri, 13 Apr 2012 09:05:59 EST Emotional Eating (WARNING! I am beyond brutally honest. This might trigger you. My intention writing this post was to be brutally honest about what is going on inside of my head right now, and this allows me a way to somehow reach that inner part of me that is so not healed by the trauma I lived.) <BR> <BR> The given: I binge when I am overwhelmed by emotional triggers. <BR> <BR> What I am learning: My first instinct in my belief system identifies me as someone too weak enough to cope alone. I search ram... Wed, 11 Apr 2012 16:57:39 EST YIKES! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This is my guilty pleasure. Matter a fact, Blue Bunny Mint Chocolate Chip Ice Cream scares the CaaaRRRAAAApppppp out of me. It tastes so creamy and minty and chocolaty. The binger inside of me is screaming, "You can it." Then, the more healthier part of me says, "NO. Don't. You can eat one half of a cup, and you will enjoy the flavors immensely. You don't need to gorge down the whole container." Am I satisfied? No.... Tue, 10 Apr 2012 15:18:58 EST Today <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Today was another good day. My son and I went to the White House Easter Egg Roll. We enjoyed ourselves. We walked our butts off, too, and got to do some pretty cool things. Just to spend time with my son was amazing. I loved how he encouraged me to keep going. At a couple points today I wanted to just give up and stop what I was doing. I summoned my inner strength and relied on knowing God gave me a body that can m... Mon, 9 Apr 2012 20:49:42 EST Blessed Today my son learned how to fly a kite. He was so proud of himself. He was full of pure joy. I couldn't help but smile. We ran down hills, across fields and walked far. Really far-over three . I am so proud. It felt so good to enjoy being outside. We even laid on the green grass and laughed our hearts out. We truly were blessed. Today was one of my best days ever. Fri, 6 Apr 2012 22:19:25 EST A New Day Disappointments are hard for me to take so early in my changing bad habits into better choices. I have an awareness that there are many pains that fill my heart, especially when some are so brand new. I need to focus on the progress I am making. That progress is small but my dedication to getting healthier is still there. Today's Bible quote said, "So if we have enough food and clothes, let us be content" 1 Timothy 6:8. <BR> <BR> My prayer this morning... <BR> <BR> Lord I feel like a failu... Wed, 4 Apr 2012 09:05:38 EST Wishing.... I could take back today. My body has been aching from the inside. I swear I must have phantom cramps, literally, because I don't have any female plumbing and my would-have-been ovaries are killing me. It's that or my would-have-been uterus. Ugh. <BR> <BR> I went to counseling today. The counselor offered to see my again on Wednesday. She offered, so I must need it. I said I would. <BR> <BR> Oh, how I wish I was in the world of not feeling... <BR> <BR> Hoping for better days... Mon, 2 Apr 2012 21:52:39 EST Palm Sunday Been shifting my thoughts to God more lately. I had someone I have been praying for pass has hurt my heart. I have been trying not to make sense on why things like that happen, and try to shift my thoughts to the one undeniably constant in my life....God. I have found peace. I have found it on many levels. The one area I need most prayer is in how I ought to turn to God, instead of kicking and screaming and calling out to everyone and their brother before seeking Him. I will be posting Tyler... Sun, 1 Apr 2012 15:40:50 EST Pulling My Hair Out I've almost begun to literally pull my hair out looking for the Salsa Chicken recipe that showed other ways to use salsa chicken. Do you know where it is at? ARGH! I believe it was an e-mail newsletter or from a blog post, but I forget where it was before I could add it to my recipe box. Now, I am going nuts looking for it. I just want to plan out healthy meals to eat. Thu, 29 Mar 2012 14:50:03 EST My Fitness Plan of Attack So here goes. This was kind of brutal to do, but this is something I needed to do. I needed it because I am clearly goal oriented and if I can write it, I can see it, and I can do it. <BR> _____ <BR> THINGS TO CONSIDER WHEN BEGINNING TO EXERCISE <BR> <BR> Exercise Safety Tips for Beginners Ready, Set, Exercise! -- By Dean Anderson, Fitness Expert <BR> <BR> 1. Get checked out physically to see if dr thinks its okay for me to exercise <BR> 2. Have the right gear <BR> 3. Know my body's limits ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 11:04:59 EST Good Morning <BR> Today morning started okay. I woke up feeling exhausted. Got my son to school. Came back home. Did some job searching. Cried a little. Prayed. Ate breakfast. I ate peaches and cream oatmeal and drank a cup of coffee. I feel thirstier than anything today. I need to down some water consistently. I began reading my Spark People e-mails. I found some interesting articles. I also messaged a couple Sparkers. Now, I have a fitness on my mind. <BR> <BR> Since I am new to working out and doing ... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 10:59:49 EST Now What I have a sleeping friend on the phone, literally, sleeping and snoring. She is a single mother too. I have her on speaker phone, lol, and I keep on the phone until I know she won't wake up again. I all ready tried hanging up. She woke up and called again. I think she is afraid to be alone. <BR> <BR> I hate sleeping some times. I just need to go to sleep. I need a full nights rest before I wake up grouchy. So, I'm going to sleep. Good night Sparkers! Thu, 29 Mar 2012 00:50:59 EST My First Turkey Burger! OMG! I actually loved it. It was juicy, meaty and I put Hellman's mayonaise on it just like I would on any burger plus I put on a slice of American cheese and first turkey burger. Watch out turkey! I'm gonna eat you. hahahaa Wed, 28 Mar 2012 23:23:34 EST Mid-Day Post Just wanted to write something quick. I have a plan for what needs to be done. I feel confident. I feel more than capable. I have a support network of people who care and love me. I deserve love. And, to top all of that off, I will have happy moments in my life. <BR> <BR> Moving foward,.... Wed, 28 Mar 2012 12:05:13 EST Emotionally Difficult Morning Last night my son's teacher e-mailed me about him being a little off these past few weeks. Here is a little insight to what has been happening. <BR> <BR> A few weeks ago my son started processing the (I hate to say it) abuse he went through with his dad with his counselor. Tien, that is my son's name, has been sad as a result of us leaving the situation back this past September. We entered a safe house program. And, we have since been building a safe environment. <BR> <BR> Today morning I ... Tue, 27 Mar 2012 20:11:31 EST Mid Day I am hungry. My head is hurting. I ate a pb&j for lunch. I am going to eat a snack but don't know what yet. <BR> <BR> I just saw my nutritional consumption for the week. I am happy to see where I am. <BR> <BR> These are the areas I am in my goal: <BR> 1. Carbohydrates <BR> 2. Protein <BR> 3. Calcium <BR> 4. Cholesterol <BR> <BR> Areas I need to improve: <BR> 1. Balance out my caloric intake between goal range <BR> 2. Fats <BR> 3. Potassium <BR> 4. Lower sodium intake <BR> 5. Magnesium <B... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 15:02:05 EST Good morning <img src=""> <BR> (Taken from:<BR>l-goodness/) <BR> <BR> When I first woke up today, I felt sluggish. I think my late night eating really impacted how I woke up. Thank God I have a six years old son. I don't think I would have came out of bed if he wasn't here with me. <BR> <BR> We got up. Tien was sleepy too. He was all full of whining. I told him that when I tell you to go to sleep it's beca... Mon, 26 Mar 2012 09:46:38 EST Late Night All I pictured in my head for the last couple of hours was a peanut butter and strawberry jelly sandwich. I caved in. I drank a cup of skim milk to wash it down. Thank God for the new day to add to my caloric count. I should eat a salad with lettuce, tomatoes and cheese with a little salad dressing. Why not! I'm gonna do it. At least I will be full. Mon, 26 Mar 2012 00:30:18 EST Sweaty I just finished walking 3.24 miles in 55 minutes. Woot Woot! I am planning on doing a ten minute cardio video after I help my son with his homework. I literally have sweat dripping down my face. What a good feeling! Sun, 25 Mar 2012 18:52:51 EST