MOMMYRUNMOMMY's SparkPeople Blog MOMMYRUNMOMMY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Still on track! I am about 3 weeks in to this and I am still on track. I had a planned cheat day on Saturday. We took the kids to the CA State Fair. It was crazy hot, like 106, and we were there for 7 hours. I was pretty misreable the whole time because of the heat. I ate plenty of crappy food but didn't enjoy anything. A better cheat day would've been a slice of cheesecake and a mocha. Next time. :) <BR> <BR> I am excited that after my cheat day I got right back on track with no problem. <BR> <BR> I am s... Tue, 24 Jul 2012 12:56:14 EST Slight Change of course I spent some time looking over my last 2 weeks of food and moods. I totally see a trend, which doesn't surprise me. The days that I eat more carbs and have an artificial sweetener are moody, low energy days. The days I stay at or below 100g carbs and avoid the artificial sweetener's I feel better and have more energy. Coffee didn't seem to be the determining factor like I thought. <BR> <BR> I also would like to add a little more structure to what I've been doing. I have read quite a few low ... Wed, 18 Jul 2012 12:03:49 EST Choices I always want to jump on Spark on the weekend to keep up with people or blog, but it pretty much never happens. Yesterday was a busy day. No blog, but I did still track the last 3 days and stayed on plan. <BR> <BR> I attempted to give up coffee, and did for 3 days. LOL! Coffee is a hard habit to break. I didn't have a ton more energy without coffee but my moods seemed a bit better. Not sure if it was a coincidence. I am having a Skinny Latte today, but tomorrow I will stop again to see if I... Tue, 17 Jul 2012 11:34:52 EST Sore legs Feeling a bit down this morning. My oldest DD lives with her dad part of the week and with me the other. I've known for a while that he hasn't been feeding her very healthy, mostly fast food and junk. She's gained a bit of weight becauase of that and because of not playing sports the last 6 months. I feel so powerless to help her and so guilty for not being able to change what he's doing. I am not sure why he allows her to eat so poorly. Maybe he's just lazy. Not sue. He knows how to cook som... Thu, 12 Jul 2012 13:01:26 EST Hump Day Last night was a litle rough. I was hungrier than usual and really tired. I'm not sure if it was from my run or something else. I made it to dinner after some dry roasted almonds. I'm a little curious if my coffee may have something to do with my fatigue and also some moodiness I've been feeling. I am going to switch to tea for a few days and see how I feel. I know that I have previously cut out coffee when doing a simliar diet and had amazing energy. I'm not sure if it's connect, but it's wo... Wed, 11 Jul 2012 13:06:27 EST Still working on things So far this past week I have done very well with planning my meals and sticking to them. I feel more motivated to make positive changes and keep going now than I have in a long time. I'm not sure what is different, but I am glad for the change. <BR> <BR> I am still working really hard trying to enjoy the moments I have with my kids. I work pretty far from home, and by the time I pick up the kids from daycare and get home and cook dinner it's about an hour from bedtime (or less). I am realiz... Tue, 10 Jul 2012 12:01:16 EST Happy Not long ago, 2 days to be exact, I was very unhappy and feeling 'blah'. Today I feel happy. I haven't changed much. I am eating better for sure, and I am thinking about ways to be a better mom and wife (and better to me). It's nice to just be happy. :) <BR> <BR> I have been eating very well these past 2 days. My cravings haven't been unbareable. I think it's because I am so sick of eating junk. I spent so much time the past few months just stuffing my face until I couldn't eat anymore, I th... Fri, 6 Jul 2012 17:33:15 EST Every day is a blessing Lately I've been thinkging alot about how lucky I am to have my family. It's probably due to seeing a close family member go through a very close call with their child. I am working very hard to be more aware each day and with each interaction with my kids and my husband. I think that part of not taking care of myself also included zoning out of my own life. I have been kind of sleep walking through - doing things but not really being in the moment. It seems like just yesterday I was pregnant... Thu, 5 Jul 2012 11:39:29 EST Back at it It has been a really long time since I visited Spark. Lots have happened. Mostly I haven't been taking very good care of myself or my family (mostly myself). <BR> <BR> I don't really know why. . . maybe it's easier to just not care about myself. The truth is though it only seems easier. Through my poor food choices and not exercising at all not only have I gained back most of the weight I lost 2 years ago, but I have also gained a crappy attitude and lots of tired, miserable days. <BR> <B... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 13:21:51 EST I've sprung an energy leak. . . ugh... I was so tired and irritable the end of last week. I just didn't feel like posting. Pretty much each day I woke up tired and fell asleep exhausted. Eating was mostly good. I did endulge several times on some low carb atkins candy I bought for my husband. I'm not sure why I did - I know it's junk. I definately didn't feel too good afterwards. I will make sure if I'm going to treat myself, it's atleast something I will enjoy like dark chocolate or cake. <BR> <BR> I quit coffee on Friday. My h... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 15:35:43 EST Starting Fresh for a healthy me. Well it's been quite a long time since I've visited. Several things have happened. My husband (who was unemployed for over 2 years the last time I was here) found a job, and lost a job. I found out I had severe iron deficiency anemia. I have suffered with some depression. I have gained a bit of weight. I have read an amazing book that confirmed something that I knew deep down, but just didn't want to believe. <BR> <BR> The bad. It's been really hard dealing with my husbands working and most... Tue, 3 Jan 2012 12:26:13 EST doing better than I'm feeling I did pretty good yesterday, made really good food choices. My mood wasn't so good though and still isn't. I don't really want to go in to it here because it's personal, but thought I should atleast acknowledge my bad mood today and hopefully move on. <BR> <BR> The weekend sucked for food choices, but I did 1 of my planned work outs. <BR> <BR> Monday sucked for food. <BR> <BR> Yesterday was an awesome food day, but no workout. <BR> <BR> Today I am making good choices so far. <BR> <BR... Wed, 24 Aug 2011 10:22:54 EST Startin NROL4W today This weekend I read this book "The New Rules of Lifting for Women". I really liked it. I've been having so much discomfort with my walking, this program came at a good time. It will require 3 days of strength training. I love lifting weights, so I'm happy to have a new program to follow. <BR> <BR> I will officially start stage 1 today. I will adjust my calories to follow the nutrition plan in the book, but will allow myself to go a little lower on non-workout days if I'm not as hungry. Calo... Tue, 16 Aug 2011 11:00:53 EST TGIF! I am so happy it's Friday. It's been a good week, but still a long week. I'm glad to be going in to this weekend with a plan for my food choices and exercise and the motivation to follow through. <BR> <BR> Last night I didn't eat what I planned, and I did go over my calories a bit. Today is a new day though, and I got right back on track when I woke up. <BR> <BR> So on Monday when I started and set my goals I decided that I wasn't going to cut out coffee this go round. Although I don't th... Fri, 12 Aug 2011 12:06:45 EST Checking in on my goals Last night went great. I had planned to eat some leftovers I had in the freezer, but my husband had made tacos for him and the kids and they smelled so good. I couldn't get those tacos out of my head. Instead of ignoring it and thinking about them all night or instead of eating them mindlessly, I got on my nutrition tracker and figured out a way to make myself a healthy, filling taco. I used corn tortillas, refried black beans, tomatoes, lettuce, 2% cheese and only 2oz of taco meat. They were... Thu, 11 Aug 2011 11:01:48 EST It's my choice how I react - one choice at a time Feeling pretty good today, but last night wasn't so great, or atleast it had the opportunity to not be good. <BR> <BR> So last yesterday I left work feeling good, made good choices and had godo choices planned for the night. I planned on cooking a healthy stir fry over whole grain noodles (with lots of fresh veggies). When I got home I could see that my husband was in a really bad mood. In our house, when one of us is in a bad mood it usually rubs off on the other person. I would normally g... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 14:23:01 EST Putting myself first Today I went to the podiatrist for some shin pain and other foot related problems. He suggested a custom orthotic. I normally wouldn't want to spend that much on myself for something I need, but I did. I want to be able to run and walk without pain. <BR> <BR> I have made great choices today. I am sticking to my food plan that I created last night. Yesterday I stuck to my plan - even though I made fried rice and egg rolls for the family. It smelled good, but it wasn't on my plan so I just sa... Tue, 9 Aug 2011 12:54:32 EST Making a committment to myself and my family I have been really wanting to start over with my commitment to eliminate sugar and flour from my diet, but just haven't been able to do it. Last week was my turning point, I made myself so sick with junk that I had no choice but to make a change. <BR> <BR> On Saturday and Sunday I visited two FA (Food Addicts) metings, and reconfirmed that the program is not for me. I am impressed by what the participants have achieved with their plans, but my life can be so chaotic that anything too struct... Mon, 8 Aug 2011 15:28:09 EST How quickly we forget - reviewing 2010's accomplishments Wow. 2010 was a good year for me in terms of becoming more self aware. I learned some valuable lessons about how my body works best. I have strayed so far from this <BR> <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3723354 </link> <BR> and this <BR> <link><BR>blic_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=37<BR>26681 </link> <BR> <BR> I was trying to think back about how I felt when I set my mind to start that journey (of no su... Fri, 5 Aug 2011 15:30:57 EST Confession time Time to confess to myself that I've been in denial the last few days. It started over the weekend. Saturday was great. A day of good choices and feeling great. Then on Sunday something happened, not sure what, but it ended with me eating my way through little debbies oatmeal cookie pies and telling myseld it was okay because I had eaten my vegetables and gotten in my exercise, plus my husband loves me just the way I am so I don't need to 'try' to lose weight. <BR> <BR> Then Monday, the same... Thu, 4 Aug 2011 11:06:48 EST Today is a new day - I will take care of myself Today I woke up with a little sore throat. I am definately not walking 3 miles today, but I will still get my 19 minutes of activity by going for a short walk. <BR> <BR> I've been having trouble getting my DH to eat vegetables, but last night I made a Minestrone and he loved it. I am so happy that I finally found a way to get more veggies in his meals. I will definately be making that more often. <BR> <BR> Off to a chiropractor visit today for pain in my neck and shoulders. Hopefully he c... Tue, 2 Aug 2011 12:20:26 EST Focusing on the positive today I completed 4 of my goals this weekend. Woot woot!!! That's a huge improvement over the past few months of completing no more than 1. <BR> <BR> I ran with my daughter, which made me and her very happy. <BR> <BR> I cooked a healthy snack recipe for the family. <BR> <BR> I created a weeks menu of healthy, budget conscious meals for the family and went grocery shopping. <BR> <BR> I stayed on budget with my food & household shopping! <BR> <BR> <BR> Today I walked a total of 1 hour! I was... Mon, 1 Aug 2011 18:29:18 EST so far so good So far this weekend is going great. I have completed one of my to-do's, create my budget conscious grocery shopping list. I also cleaned the kitchen this morning, which I normally don't do, so I am happy about that. <BR> <BR> Next is grocery shopping and then a short run with my daughter. Sat, 30 Jul 2011 14:55:48 EST TGIF!! Making the best of this moment. I am really glad it's Friday. Partly because I had a long week and also because I am going to work on making better use of my weekend time starting this weekend. <BR> <BR> I go in to every weekend with a list of to-do's in my head. I have the best intentions, but I rarely get more than the bare necesseties complete. Not this weekend!! I am going to write up my to-do list tonight and plan how to get it done - plan to be succesful. <BR> <BR> One important thing is spring cleaning so I can h... Fri, 29 Jul 2011 12:25:26 EST Making good choices & setting goals Today is a new day, today is all that matters. <BR> <BR> I need to repeat this to myself over and over. I have been doing a really good job of catching myself when I get in to the negative loop of stressing about a mistake I made yesterday or last week. I weighed in this morning and was up about 6 lbs from a couple weeks ago. My first thought was "Wow, I really screwed up", but then I realized that it doesn't matter if I'm up or down because I am making positive changes that will eventually... Thu, 28 Jul 2011 11:54:53 EST Every day is a new chance to take care of yourself Every day is a new chance to take care of yourself. I wrote this to someone yesterday after reading their blog. It's so true though. I'm usually so busy beating myself up about yesterday and the day before and so on, but it's useless. Yesterday is gone, there is only today. Every moment I spend thinking about yesterday is time gone and it doesn't change anything. So my mantra going forward will be that: Every day is a new chance to take care of yourself. I deserve the same advice. I'm going t... Wed, 27 Jul 2011 11:08:21 EST what a difference a day makes I felt so good for most of last week. I felt in control and I was happy. I don't understand how in just one day it can totally change. I can't honestly even remember what changed. Friday was definately a turning point. I think I started the day fine. I don't really know where I went wrong. Then by the end of the day Saturday I felt awful. My little ones were sick Saturday and Sunday - I know that's not what started everything, but it definately was harder to deal with in my state of mind. <B... Tue, 26 Jul 2011 12:05:55 EST not feeling like a good mom, wife or anything Why does it seem like no one else has it hard. Like their kids always love them, husband adores them and sticking to the 'right' choices is easy. I didnt feel like that yesterday and definately not today. Wish I could skip ahead to the happy times. Sun, 24 Jul 2011 23:36:23 EST Yes, Crystal, you are a good worker, mom, wife! Have a good day! I woke up in a decent mood, not great, but definately not bad either. I think that thinking positive thoughts about myself and writing them here the last couple days has helped. <BR> <BR> So one of my major stressors has been money, or the lack of it. This morning while driving in to work I thought of 2 ways to save a good chunk of money for the family without sacrificing much. One is to carpool. I don't work in a major city, or live in a major city, so I wasn't sure if this would work out.... Thu, 21 Jul 2011 13:48:28 EST In control - making good choices The day is early and I have made some good choices. <BR> <BR> *I skipped Starbucks - don't need to spend money on coffee when I have free coffee at work. <BR> <BR> *I made myself plain oatmeal w/ Pecans, cinnamon and stevia. <BR> <BR> *Wore my favorite summer time shirt to work today and I feel great in it. <BR> <BR> *Last night I made a great veggie soup with orzo pasta and white beans. I was trying to make a Minestrone, but ended up with a great veggie soup instead. It has fresh gre... Wed, 20 Jul 2011 12:25:38 EST What's so great about me Yesterday in therapy my dr. pointed out something that I'm super aware of, that I beat myself up and don't give myself credit for anything. I've known that for a long time, and knowing it hasn't proved helpful in changing it. I was just sitting here thinking about why even though I'm aware of what I do, why it doesn't change. I haven't actively tried to change it. There have been days, few and far between, where I notive something great I did or appreciate myself. I've never tried to do it on... Tue, 19 Jul 2011 11:40:07 EST Feeling outta control in more ways than one Seems like the harder I try to stick to an eating plan lately the worse I do. The more I count calories the faster I go over. I haven't worked out in over a week, maybe 2 now. The first 5 days were due to being sick. Now it's just due to excuses. My life is just so stressful right now and chaotic. I want to fix it but the solutions are either not possible or not possible without causing other problems. I just want to cry or scream at any given moment. I know that eating poorly and not exercis... Mon, 18 Jul 2011 18:44:45 EST Feeling better today - talking about Fastbreak goals I'm feeling a little more level headed and normal today. I woke up so tired and just could not open my eyes. It reminded me why I would like to give up the sugar/junk food habit. Those foods always leave me feeling so lethargic the next morning. <BR> <BR> I spent some time last night prepping food for today. I'm glad to because today is a day that if I hadn't, I would've probably eaten fast food for lunch. We were running late getting out the door this morning - my 2 yr old wasn't feeling g... Wed, 13 Jul 2011 10:58:51 EST Let me just get this out, then I will move on I have made many poor food choices the last few days. From buying a package of chips ahoy this weekend, to buying 2 donuts this morning. I know that food in and of itself is not bad, but the reasons I ate were. I ate because I was frustrated, sad, angry, feeling lost and just over myself. I am so fed-up with my poor choices in life. I have made the same mistakes with money for as long as I can remember (spending impulsively and not sticking to my budget). Not that long ago when I made these m... Tue, 12 Jul 2011 11:35:04 EST My Kick Ass workout! OMG, I had the best workout today in the past 6 months. It was awesome. <BR> <BR> I used to do the 30 Day Shred (Jillian Michaels) and love how she sets her circuits up to keep your heart rate up while strength training. My current schedule doesn't allow me to do her videos anymore, so I moved back to free weights (love, love free weights too). I started getting bored really quickly a couple weeks ago and decided to come up with my own circuits that I can do at home and at the gym. They've ... Wed, 29 Jun 2011 15:22:39 EST Fake it till you make it I AM healthy, I AM an athlete and the last couple days were not the 'norm'. <BR> <BR> I won't dwell because that never helps anything, but I will say that the last few days I enjoyed some food tremendously and other food I ate out of emotion. <BR> <BR> However last night I made a great healthy chilli, and this morning I made my usual healthy breakfast. I had a great strength workout last night. <BR> <BR> I have a problem, I am addicted to sympathy. I want people to walk by my desk and as... Mon, 27 Jun 2011 12:35:44 EST stress eating today I know I'm stress eating, but I can't seem to stop it. I just can't seem to clear my head of all this stuff. I'm worried about my toddlers today cause they're going on a field trip. I'm worried about a funeral I'm going to tomorrow - my mom might be there and I really, really don't want to see her. Long story but basically she's not 'well' and I can't have her in my life but I really wish I could - I really wish I had a mom. I know the food won't help or make me feel better, but it's just so ... Fri, 24 Jun 2011 11:35:03 EST Feeling good & doing good Fathers day went well. I had a couple indulgences, but not too much. Spent most of the day in the pool with the kids which was nice. It was a little hard wearing a bathing suit in front of the family. I'm sure none of them really cares how much I weigh, but it still would be nice to feel good in what I'm wearing. <BR> <BR> Monday DH and I went to the movies and went out to eat. I indulged a lot, but it was planned. It was nice to eat the sweets that I'd been craving, although I paid for it ... Wed, 22 Jun 2011 17:11:03 EST Feeling a little down today I'm not sure if it's PMS, which is highly likely, but I'm just in a funk today. It probably isn't helping that I'm really frustrated right now about my kids eating. I am planning on talking to my DH about it, but just haven't been able to make time. I'm nervous that the conversation won't go well. He never really sticks to these conversations - like we talked about not giving them candy for snacks last year and some how he started doing it again after a few months. I hate to be a nag about th... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 11:19:53 EST My name is crystal, and I am an addict Wow. I forgot how hard it was to stop drinking coffee. The past three days have been totally dominated by my desire to have coffee and the inner argument between my brain and my body. I know how bad coffee makes me feel (tired, irritable) and that I feel energized and clear headed when I am not drinking it. Besides that, I am aware of the health risks associated with it for myself (lightheadedness, hunger, and possibly contributes to adrenal problems). Even knowing all that, my body convinced... Wed, 15 Jun 2011 12:19:40 EST Feeling great. . . so glad to be eating better I did really well this weekend. I stuck to my goals. I tracked all my food this weekend and drank my green tea. I didn't end up needing as much as I planned. For some reason my caffeine withdrawal wasn't that bad this time. It's still early though, I could start getting headaches today or tomorrow. <BR> <BR> I'm reading this book called The Sugar Fix. I found it after watching a great presentation on Youtube from a doctor researching the effects of sugar (specifically fructose) on the body.... Mon, 13 Jun 2011 09:49:58 EST Never give up starting over I'm glad that I'm writing this, next time I fall off th wagon I will read it and feel better. I'm not going to beat myself up for slipping up in my eating and exercise. I've been feeling so guilty the last few months for not sticking to my new lifestyle (read more here): <link><BR>urnal_individual.asp?blog_id=3726681 </link> <BR> <BR> I'm disappointed in myself. Not for falling, but for staying down for so long. I am human and it's okay to make mistakes.... Fri, 10 Jun 2011 14:34:34 EST Starting at Day 1 I have been off the wagon big time - eating really poorly and not working out. My energy level and mood have been in the crappers, and that bothers me more than the weight gain. Just a few months ago I had so much energy and such a positive outlook, I really want that back. <BR> <BR> Today I am starting at square one with food. This is the only thing I am tackling for the next two weeks. I will not count calories at all. I will make it my mission to only choose foods that I know will nouris... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 11:05:15 EST Having a really good week. This week started off great, lost 4 lbs! I was a little suprised that I lost weight, and lost that much because I had a couple rough days last week. Seeing that loss really gave me a boost of confidence and made me really want to stick to my goals this week. <BR> <BR> My number one goal is to track everything. Second, I want to stay within 150 calories of my upper calorie limit on Spark. Lastly, I will stick to my 10k training this week. So far so good. I ran 2.5 miles on the treadmill yest... Tue, 1 Mar 2011 11:11:37 EST Making progress! Last week I felt aweful, I just couldn't get it together. I was working out, but was eating pretty bad. I came up with a menu for this week that I believe will help. Part of my problem the last couple weeks was that I was starting my day with a breakfast that I wasn't happy with and it just set the tone for the day. I came up with something for this week that I like more and will keep me more full. Also, I didn't prep my food consistantly, so some days I wouldn't have my snacks or lunch. It l... Tue, 22 Feb 2011 11:42:23 EST Just can't seem to get back on track I don't know why, but I just can't seem to get back on track for more than a couple days. I'm really frustrated because I know why I shouldn't be eating candy and sweets, but I can't seem to stop myself. I know why I should be eating all my fruits/veggies and getting enough water, etc. but I just haven't been able to do it. <BR> <BR> I'm trying to take it one day at a time. I just feel defeated. I ran an amazing 10k this weekend, something I've been wanting to do for a while and all I can t... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 11:01:44 EST half way there I have gotten all my workouts in this past week. I am still having trouble with my eating. I think I need to try something new to get back on track. I think what I will try is watching what I'm eating, but not capping the calories. I have been hungry all the time, and I'm only bringing a minimal amount of snacks to work (what I've been bringing should be satisfying, if I wasn't having issues with sugar). I'm going to stock up on healthy snacks, so even if I overeat a bit it wont be on sugars... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 12:29:10 EST Setting the stage for success ... admitting the mistakes and moving forward I alluded to this a little in my quick post yesterday, but I basically fell off the wagon recently. The bad thing is that it was a decision I made on my own, I decided that I was going to take a week off from not eating refined carbs. Not a meal, or even a day, but a whole week – actually a week and a half. I thought it would do me some good to let loose and not hold myself accountable for the week or so after Christmas (and Christmas of course) so that I could get it out of my system (the cr... Mon, 10 Jan 2011 16:37:06 EST new year, new start I have been MIA from spark and my diet. Time to start fresh. I feel like crap and need to make a change. Sun, 9 Jan 2011 22:42:06 EST I'm still here! I have been MIA from Spark, but I have definitely stayed on the wagon. I interviewed for a new job the day before Thanksgiving and they offered me the job the same day. I needed to start quickly, so I was only able to give my job 1 weeks notice. So last week I was working a ton of hours to get a temp up to speed. Then this week I started my new job. On top of all that I got a bad cold last week and could barely speak. <BR> <BR> Through all that I stayed on top of my food choices. I got in a... Wed, 8 Dec 2010 21:53:46 EST