MOMMYOF3_1983's SparkPeople Blog MOMMYOF3_1983's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community best news ever ... no cancer :) After almost two months of waiting my doctor finally was able to confirm what she had thought all along. The biopsy came back cancer free with mild cell changes, I will be checked again in six months and hopefully it develops into nothing but if it does at least they will catch it early enough to stop it before it can spread. I was worried because I knew I had been neglecting myself and skipping all my check ups. The last time I had even seen a doctors office before I had gotten pregnant wit... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 12:10:30 EST A quick update Well I went for my biopsy on Tues. the doctor told me she doesnt think there is actual cancer just precancer which can be treated and prevented from turning to cancer she says. i will still be a little nervous until I get the actual retsults but for now I will go by the opinion of my doctot she afterall knows what shes talking about better then me. in. my few weeks convinced i was going. to die i did a lot of reflecting and have made a lot of changes. my kids are my priority and I have made s... Thu, 2 May 2013 08:32:59 EST Saying goodbye to spark for a bit :( Its been probably close to a month since i've been on spark. My doctor made the dreaded phone call that I never actually expected to hear. Throwing around the big C word like it was nothing at all rushing me off the phone leaving me with so many questions unanswered that i've since just wanted to sit and cry. I have 12 more days until my biopsy ... 12 more days of driving myself insane convincing myself i'm going to die :( You hear of other people with cancer but never expect it to actually a... Sat, 13 Apr 2013 13:15:53 EST Week 11 of 29 : Determination today leads to success tomorrow! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Days 71-77 I'am late doing this blog I always do them on Sunday however yesterday I didn't feel like it i've been in a bit of a sparking slump the past few weeks. I still did my workout and my strength training my food tracking I have to recommit to. This journey is such a struggle at times but i'm baby stepping my way through. Even with all my not paying attention I haven't been gaining although I know I could h... Mon, 18 Mar 2013 13:51:45 EST Week 10 of 29 : Its never to late to become what you might have been <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 10 has days 64-70 I can only hope that this week is better then last lol. I still have a hole in my back just a baby one that is healing ok, I can't wait for it to totally be healed i'm kind of scared to workout because it goes really deep and getting sweat in it would probably hurt a lot lot lot. My antibiotics are finished and i'm in general feeling much better the pain is gone and I just need to get back on... Sun, 10 Mar 2013 18:05:25 EST Week 9 of 29 : Every accomplishment starts with the decision to try :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 9 has days 57-63 of 209. I have been struggling with logging on and writing out everything daily so i've decided that its more of a weekly blog. I'll post it on Sundays as always but add to it as I can not everyday well maybe everyday but I don't want to feel like I have to everyday lol. This weeks all about getting in more fitness minutes if the weather is ok i'd like to get the baby out for some walks. I'm ... Mon, 4 Mar 2013 00:19:25 EST Week 8 of 29 : I may not be there yet but i'm closer then I was yesterday <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I think I have crossed the motivation and habit lines lol. I find myself not wanting to workout yet I still get my butt up and do it anyways. Why, because I have to lol. I didn't have a loss this week but after losing seven lbs. last week I didn't expect much anyways to be honest. I also wasn't as strict with myself as I could have been last week, I went over in calories a few days. I know i'am not going to be pe... Sat, 23 Feb 2013 23:37:56 EST BLC #17 Bucket list :) 1) Christmas vacation in Florida ( this is hopefully going to happen this year its in the plans anyways lol ) <BR> 2) to be able to wear a swimsuit without shame !! <BR> 3) To ride on a roller coaster again <BR> 4) first walk a 5k then run a 5k eventually work up to a 10k <BR> 5) swim with dolphins .. haha silly I know but I have always wanted to :) <BR> 6) go skating with the kids <BR> 7) wear a little black dress and rock it :D <BR> 8) shop in reg. size clothes in stores <BR> 9) take a coo... Fri, 22 Feb 2013 22:55:43 EST Week 7 of 29 : Repeat after me: I can do this !!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This weeks motivation is how far i've come over the past few weeks. I'am over 60 lbs. down now woohooo a great accomplishment however I know I still have so so much more to go. Everyone needs a little encouragement sometimes and the past few weeks I for sure have needed some encouragement I think everything that could go wrong has lol. However i've still managed to lose weight, mostly because I don't run to food ... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 11:28:46 EST Things I like about me BLC #17 challenge :) A few months back when I was dealing with post pardum depression I would have told you Nothing I like nothing about myself lol but I have come a long way since that point :) <BR> <BR> 1) My heart - I am such a loving person especially when it comes to friends and family but just overall in general I don't care if i've known a person for 10 years or 10 min. each and every person is important and I realize that, I have times that i'am far from my loving self just ask my boyfriend and he'd for... Sat, 16 Feb 2013 10:19:29 EST Frustrations So this week started with me frustrated beyond belief. The scale hadn't moved for an entire week and I was just not into this whole weight loss thing. In all reality I should be thrilled on Oct.22nd I still weighed 350 lbs. a month after that I had dropped 40 lbs. Then I got serious in Jan. and have come a very long way, my body is going to have weeks that I just don't lose it needs time to catch up. I know it sounds ridiculous to be upset with myself for having one week without losing I mean... Thu, 14 Feb 2013 15:25:18 EST Week 6 of 29 : Changes !! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This weeks motivation is the old me, I will never be that person again. I look at this picture and I am inspired I know where i've been, how hard i've worked to get to where I am and how much harder i'am going to have to work to get to where I want to be. One thing I know for sure is that person in the picture isn't the real me, its a sad depressed version of myself. I remember getting sore within minutes of havin... Sun, 10 Feb 2013 15:43:50 EST My secret to success ... mathematics, sweat and oh yes sparkpeople !! So yesterday I finally got the courage to add some pics to facebook full body first time in forever pics. The same ones I posted on this page actually :) I limited the audience to only a handful of people however lol. I of course got some messages asking "my secret" which I kind of found funny because I by all means would not consider myself a success just yet but none the less apparently others do. So when I thought about my "secrets" to lose weight three things came to mind <BR> <BR> 1) ... Sun, 3 Feb 2013 13:48:16 EST 50 lbs. lost pics I can't really see a big difference but a while ago I read a blog that recommended I take lots of pics lol so here are some more :) These pics are no place else I refuse to post pics of myself other then head shots lol :) <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Sat, 2 Feb 2013 09:23:36 EST Week 5 of 29 : It comes down to a simple question: what do you want out of life <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 5 already ... where is time going ? This weeks motivation is my boyfriend :) who in this pic had one to many i'd say lol. He has been a huge support during this process always being by my side. Hes also been my biggest enemy at times lol but regardless I love him just the same. He really is one of my biggest cheerleaders though and he is just there for me always and loves me ... what more could a girl ask fo... Sat, 2 Feb 2013 08:37:07 EST Week 4 of 29, more sweat now less jiggle later !!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> Week 4 motivations is my son, he was the baby for 8 years and has always been able to melt mommies heart lol. 3 years ago he came to me asking me to quit smoking because it could kill me he told me, by May I was a non smoker. He was relentless when it came to my smoking and asked and asked and asked until finally I quit :) He has also asked mommy to get healthier because he wants mommy around for a long long time... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 13:54:18 EST BLC 17 fitness plan Well i'am almost a full week behind starting this challenge but better late then never !! <BR> <BR> Week 1 and 2 <BR> <BR> The same as normal I will be doing 30 min. on my bike and 3 days of strength training. <BR> <BR> Week 2 and 3 <BR> <BR> I will be increasing my bike time to 45 min. for these two weeks and continue with the strength training three times these weeks maybe add in an extra rep of all my exercises :) <BR> <BR> Week 3 and 4 <BR> <BR> These weeks i'll be switching... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:09:48 EST Goodbye, farwell, adiós 300s .. I will NOT miss you !!!! So since before I got pregnant I have been struggling with leaving the 300s. I'd get so close around 304 lbs. and self sabotage every single time. I started this journey to afraid to step on a scale because I knew what I saw for a number would scare the crap out of me. After a few months I had decided it was time ... 350 lbs. is what I saw and I will never be able to explain the disappointment in myself the shame, the anger that I felt. I went through the normal steps when you realize you hav... Wed, 23 Jan 2013 13:48:07 EST Week 3 of 29 I am destined to fall, my decision to get back up is what will define me <img src=""> <BR> <BR> This weeks motivation is my oldest who also suffers from weight issues. I try to explain to her the importance of eating healthy and getting exercise but how is she ever going to take me serious if I don't practice what I preach and change my own lifestyle too ! Shes part of the generation that wants to be on a computer, in front of the t.v basically doing anything thats not actually doing anything and i've been t... Sat, 19 Jan 2013 12:56:15 EST So today I messed up ... I think Today wasn't so great, I started out planned as usual and ready to stay on track. I however decided on pasta for supper, I did well added all my calories to the food tracker made sure not to go over measured everything to perfection. I later realized that I messed up on my pasta measurement :( I don't know how far off I am for the day i'am thinking i'am over by about 200 calories and it sucks !!!! There was however a positive to this, once I realized how badly I messed up that little binger v... Wed, 16 Jan 2013 19:46:24 EST Face shots pre and post pregnancy :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> So I decided to do a face shot collage. The first is from before I got pregnant about a year and a half ago, the second with glasses is right after having the baby Oct/2012. The third is from Nov.2012 and the last is from last week ... I think I can see a difference !! Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:38:02 EST Week 2 of 29 Pushing forward !!! <img src=""> <BR> <BR> I have decided I will start my weekly blog with a pic that inspires me to continue with the changes I have decided to make. My motivation I can see every time I log on to update my progress :) This week i've chosen the baby, looking into her big innocent big blues I realize that its never to late and I need to better myself to be here for her for as long as possible. She is one of my biggest motivating factors al... Sat, 12 Jan 2013 20:33:06 EST My six month journey begins now !!! Week 1 of 29 So thinking over the same thoughts I had last night about where i'll be in six months i've decided to keep track of my next six months the good bad and just plain ugly lol. Sorry in advance for any whiny days I may have and I just plainly vent. I've decided to do weekly blogs keeping track of each week and I have promised myself I will stay totally honest !! So if i'am failing miserable it will be written down on here, if i'am doing good that will obviously be written down to lol. Its easy to... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 23:39:21 EST Sundays :) I have recently decided that I love this day lol. Its a fresh beginning to a fresh week, the day you can look back at your past week and shrug your shoulders if you had a horrid week like myself and start over. The holidays got me so far off track that its not even funny I totally did just about everything that I swore I wouldn't do, and this past week was horrid as well because I found myself in a slump, ready to give up. Today I remembered a saying that I had read a while back though someth... Sun, 6 Jan 2013 00:17:00 EST Regrets So Joey and I had the baby into a regular check up last week, we were sitting in one of the rooms waiting for the doctor to come in when an older gentleman i'd say in his late 60s or so randomly walks into the room and starts chatting with us. He comes over and looks the baby all over and started to ask question after question, Joey and I are both just looking at each other smiling at this point because we are use to people being drawn in to the baby ( really theres something about babies tha... Wed, 12 Dec 2012 01:26:20 EST 5 lbs. to go So today I weighed myself and had another huge loss I know that its not in any way normal but I still can't help but be a little bit happy. I'am beginning to wonder how much water weight one body can hold, I gained a little over 50 lbs. while pregnant and have lost all but 5 lbs. of that over the past 5 and a half weeks. I know theres a much harder path ahead of me but for right now i'am going to be thankful that i'am almost back to where I was. I had lost 50 lbs. over the six months prior to... Thu, 29 Nov 2012 19:31:28 EST Fresh Beginnings Well Monday at 7:53 pm I will have had my little princess here with me for exactly one week , I was expecting to spend the first 4-6 weeks adjusting and taking time to heal. Since labor and recovery have both been going great I have decided I want to start with baby steps Monday, I want to start tracking my food making sure to drink all my water which I need anyways because of water retention issues and I want to at least get back into a regular workout schedule even if in the beginning its o... Sat, 27 Oct 2012 18:30:05 EST Things I want :) I want to : <BR> <BR> 1) get healthier for my kids <BR> 2) fit in a chair with arms and be comfy !! <BR> 3) sit in a chair and not worry about it breaking <BR> 4) be able to run again <BR> 5) be able to play with my kids <BR> 6) meet my grandchildren someday <BR> 7) be able to walk and breath :D <BR> 8) touch my toes again <BR> 9) be able to go on carnival rides with my family <BR> 10) do a burpee <BR> 11) run a marathon <BR> 12) have my boyfriend be able to wrap his arms ALL the way... Mon, 10 Sep 2012 20:43:02 EST A few workouts i'am considering :) <img src=""> <BR> <BR> <BR> <img src=""> Tue, 28 Aug 2012 20:43:41 EST 7 month doctors appointment :) Well I can honestly say the doctors appointment I had scheduled for today wasn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be. I have gained 3 lbs. in the past month making my grand total 4 lbs. for the last 7 months which isn't that that bad however I did want to gain 0 lbs. I'am hoping once the baby is born I can be back to my starting weight although regardless the fact all my other stats are going in the right direction I will not complain. Two months ago my blood pressure was 145/90. A month a... Fri, 10 Aug 2012 15:56:03 EST 11 more weeks time to start thinking post pregnancy fitness goals !!!!! As I countdown the days until the arrival of our little bundle of joy I think I officially have little enough time left to start planning my post pregnancy weight loss plans and goals. I have stayed active the last few months not as active by far but I normally get in at least some activity every day, my eating is way out of control though I can't even remember the last time I tracked what I was putting in my mouth. I for sure will have at least six months once the baby is born and although h... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 21:42:15 EST A fresh beginning I have always been told everything happens for a reason and i'am quite sure that its totally true. I found spark almost a week ago via another website and decided to join although i'am not actually trying to lose weight currently. I was and I was actually doing well, maybe not well but I was managing. I had dropped fifty pounds then found out I was pregnant :o. So here I am now five months pregnant and i've gained back ten of those fifty pounds lost, I know that some weight gain is going to h... Mon, 18 Jun 2012 14:52:06 EST