MOMMAOF1BOY's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MOMMAOF1BOY MOMMAOF1BOY's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ Job interview results and life http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5387481 Before I say anything I wanted to note that I know I have really long blogs and talk about way too much stuff and in way more detail then are needed...but I miss the journaling I did at my old sight and don't particularly care for the journal option here so I use my blog entries as my journaling. So I apologize to those that find these too long and rambling and way to much detail. :) I like to talk a lot and about every detail so makes me feel better to put that in my journal. <BR> <BR> Than... Wed, 12 Jun 2013 22:59:41 EST Job interview and comparisons http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5385239 I've think I've done blogs before on how unhappy I am with my current job but as I'm doing this to organize my thoughts and opinions I'm going to go over what I like and don't about my current job. <BR> <BR> I'm thankful I have a full time job, with benefits and regular hours but I'm unhappy with the job itself and the working environment. My supervisor is well past the age of retirement and is getting more and more confused so I spend time helping her remember stuff and time dealing with h... Mon, 10 Jun 2013 23:28:14 EST Post 5k walk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5376095 I did it!! <em>209</em> I completed my first 5k!! I even jogged the last 100 yards or so!! <em>224</em> <BR> <BR> To be honest after walking 7tenths of a mile from the parking lot to the check in area I was already tired and my calves were feeling it. I was starting to doubt that I could do it. There were 5 of us on my team and three of them took off much faster than two of us were comfortable with so we let them go on and kept at our pace. And then right off the bat we had a hill (we... Sun, 2 Jun 2013 22:52:28 EST Pre 5k http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5373510 Tomorrow is my first 5k. I'm walking a 5k color run in Kansas City with some girlfriends. It's about 4 hours away from us so we're all leaving work early and heading up this afternoon. I've wanted to do one ever since I first heard about the color runs. And have a goal of one day running in one. <BR> <BR> I've so excited, about the walk and about the girl time, but at the same time I'm so very terrified about doing the 5k. I've tried to talk to my girlfriends about it but they really don't g... Fri, 31 May 2013 10:24:20 EST 4.1.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5308101 Son had a baseball game tonight and while it was a bit chilly it wasn't too bad. <BR> <BR> I was amazed at how well he did. Don't get me wrong, I love him and attend every one of his events that I can but I'm not one of those moms that thinks their child is the best player on the team and does no wrong. But man tonight he rocked it!! They played him in positions he hasn't played in years and he did so good! Proud momma!! <BR> <BR> And now time for a pat on the back...The games are alway... Mon, 1 Apr 2013 21:38:19 EST Surgery and trying to get back in the groove http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5306752 Had surgery at the beginning of March, complete hysterectomy. Surgery and recovery haven't been to bad at all. I was actually surprised by the lack of pain once the first 12 hours passed. My main problem was exhaustion and dizziness. I've also had trouble with one incision healing; it's right on my waist line; but is slowly getting there. <BR> <BR> My eating has not been good however I didn't completely go crazy. I did manage to lose 1lb during my weeks off work. However...in one week back ... Sun, 31 Mar 2013 22:08:35 EST New shoes http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5252037 So today I went to the running store and had my walk videotaped and analyzed and my feet sized. I had very knowledgeable help..the owner of the store. <BR> <BR> Thought/think I found a pair of shoes. Tonight when I started the workout my right foot felt great but the arch was bothering my left foot (weird I know). During my workout I, again, had a problem with my toes burning but the arch didn't bother me as much the longer I wore it. And after my workout my feet are hurting still/again. <... Fri, 15 Feb 2013 21:27:39 EST 2.13.13/weight loss http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5249653 as of today my weight is down 29 pounds!!! <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> Technically my scale was down 3 more pounds a few years ago, but it was when I was using medication. I wasn't as heavy when I started the medication so actually have lost more weight then on the medication. <BR> <BR> I'm so am much prouder of this weight loss!! I've done it myself with hard work and changing my eating habits!! <BR> <BR> I didn't let this awful sickness derail me and was right back at it on Monday. I'm ... Wed, 13 Feb 2013 21:48:00 EST 2.11.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5247041 I've been sick since last week but am finally feeling on the road to recovery! <BR> <BR> Came home from work Tuesday and today was my first day back. After lunch on Tuesday I couldn't keep food or even liquids in me until Friday evening. bleck!!! On top of that I got a chest cold at the same time..or maybe it's a combo that is going around right now. I don't know and guess it doesn't really matter..either way I have it. But like I said I'm on the road to recovery. Still struggling to breath... Mon, 11 Feb 2013 22:07:16 EST 1.26.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5224863 Don't have anything special to write about but thought I'd update anyway just to keep notes for myself about my journey. <BR> <BR> Had a great day with my son, sister-in-law and nephew. We very rarely get to spend time together so was awesome! <BR> <BR> Eating is still going good. I need to get back to counting my points. Did fall off the wagon on that. I get self-conscious about figuring points while I'm at work so was just figuring them in the evenings after I ate which defeated some of... Sat, 26 Jan 2013 21:11:50 EST 1/21/13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5217680 Still working at the same job. I sent out some resumes and got one call but didn't go anywhere. So just waiting to see what happens. <BR> <BR> My eating is doing much better. Think part of my problem that week was hormones. Thankfully it didn't last too long!! haha This perimenopause sucks!! royally!! And rather than share more info than anyone cares to hear about I'm just going to stop there. lol <BR> <BR> Exercise is going great. I've even worked up to 3 miles in an hour on the treadmill... Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:23:16 EST 1.9.13 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199594 Work is still stressing me out..big time..and it's being reflected in my eating. I don't eat near as much at home as I do at work. I know this but yet I still struggle to control it. <BR> <BR> I have sent out 3 resumes this weekend but expect it'll be a few weeks, at least, before I hear anything. <BR> <BR> On possibly a positive note, I asked the boss that drives me crazy, if she would stay to train/work out a new head boss (believe there is a strong chance that current one will leave in... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 22:06:18 EST 1.9.13 mourning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5199530 <BR> <BR> My main boss, who I also consider a friend, lost his wife, who was in her late 30's, Monday to cancer. They have two grade school aged daughters. I wasn't close friends with her but I'm still really struggling. She has been fighting the battle for 2.5 years and her hubby has talked with us quite a bit so we shared in the journey...as much as outsiders can. My heart breaks for those little girls. They are way to young to lose their mother. And he is too young to lose his wife. I do... Wed, 9 Jan 2013 21:30:58 EST 12.28.12 work venting/considering change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5179249 Got in another great workout tonight. And man did I feel better after that! lol <BR> <BR> Work was awful again today. Told my main boss that I was job hunting. I hated to do it but my stomach is upset at the thought of going to work and I get headaches just being there. My immediate boss really needs to retire and she is making my job so much more difficult by refusing to do so. She's like 74, getting forgetful, but is still a control freak so I'm suppose to clear all my phone calls, and de... Fri, 28 Dec 2012 21:12:19 EST 12.27.12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5178144 I've been working out pretty regularly which feels good! My feet are still hurting me though. I've been walking 30 minutes on the treadmill and it's def a workout but at times I think I could walk longer but my feet just hurt so bad. Here I am 2 hours after finishing my workout and they are still throbbing. They hurt anytime I'm on them and I push through to get 30 minutes on the treadmill but would like to do more. I'm also riding the bike and doing water exercise so not always on the treadm... Thu, 27 Dec 2012 21:15:58 EST 10.31.12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5119370 Happy Halloween! Gotta say this has never been my favorite holiday and is one of the rare holidays where I don't necessarily miss my son being little as much as I do at other times. lol <BR> <BR> Haven't gotten a workout in since Saturday. That was .92/mile walk in 28 minutes. Not fast but I'm pleased that I was able to do it. Foot has been hurting since then but oh well. Didn't have a choice but to make the walk and it was good for my self confidence. tonight I head back to the pool and ma... Wed, 31 Oct 2012 17:23:48 EST 10.22.12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5109014 Wow...didn't realize how long it had been since I posted a blog! So knowing me this will be even longer than normal, seems like once I start typing I just go on and on and on lol <BR> <BR> <BR> Divorce was final in September. Relieved to have that final and not feel like I'm in limbo any longer. Ex called me 2 weeks after that to let me know he was dating someone and it is serious enough that she had already met the family. Threw me for a loop. I'm happy for him guess I was just thrown for... Mon, 22 Oct 2012 20:43:10 EST 9/23/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5072060 I've been feeling very positive and pleased with myself, over all. I've gotten some extra movement or exercise in 5 of the last 7 days. My eating hasn't been the best but I'm not beating myself up over it. I have done what I promised myself I would, gotten exercise, worked on my self esteem, taken my medication. <BR> <BR> I've been wanting to walk a 5k so when I saw sparkpeople virtual 5k I decided to sign up for it. After all surely I can walk 15 minutes at a time and thats all that was re... Sun, 23 Sep 2012 21:32:39 EST Goals 9/8/12 edited 9/9 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050094 I wanted this blog to be totally separate and easy to find. I'm not real good at setting definite goals but going to give it a shot as everything I read says we need defined goals to help us succeed. I'm deliberately not doing a long term weight loss goal. I know I have a huge amount to lose, started at 203 to lose, and just feel there is no need to focus on that number. I'm also trying to change my handling of my finances so including those goals here also. <BR> <BR> I've been stalling on... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 18:58:37 EST Feeling better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5050061 I'm feeling much better than a few days ago when I posted my last blog. Think it's for several reasons; felt immediately better after voicing my concerns, the support was amazing and made me feel so supported and let me know I'm not alone in my feelings or my struggle, have been taking my meds regularly and lastly weather has cooled down, finally! :) <BR> <BR> Before I forget I want to say a huge <em>304</em> to everyone that responded to my last post. It helped me so much! <BR> <BR> M... Sat, 8 Sep 2012 18:21:30 EST Being totally honest with myself in my typical rambling way lol http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5046078 Biggest loser fall challenge started today so of course had to report our weights. 327.8 Yes higher than it was a few months ago BUT I have kept off almost 15lbs so I'm very very pleased with myself for that! <BR> <BR> I do need to be honest enough with myself to admit I don't know how I haven't gained those 15lbs back but I haven't. <BR> <BR> I have been pretty good with taking one of my anti-depressants but haven't taken any of the second one. And haven't been good about taking my metfo... Wed, 5 Sep 2012 19:59:37 EST Working up to venturing out of hiding http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5012769 Lets try this again..I had a blog typed and was almost ready to hit "post" when I must have accidentally touched something while typing and lost it all. Gosh that sure pisses me off!! <BR> <BR> It's been a long summer between the record heat, 10th anniversary of my mom's death, moving, husband and I separating and learning to adjust back to being alone and not having someone to share responsibilities with. <BR> <BR> I haven't been taking care of myself or taking my medicine. I've struggle... Sun, 12 Aug 2012 22:53:16 EST More divorce/moving rambling http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4940027 Thanks for all the kind words and support. Means alot to me!! Especially since my two best friends have both moved away in the last year and a half and with their work and family schedules its hard to find time to talk to them. <BR> <BR> It is harder than I expected, I didn't think about it but figured both us wanting this it wouldn't be as stressful as it is, and didn't think I would feel the need to "mourn" the lose and change. living on my own and being a single parent again will take so... Sun, 24 Jun 2012 11:24:53 EST Long rambling blog about divorce http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4929508 What a long month or so its been. I'm feeling the need to write this mainly to vent and express myself. Sorry if it doesn't make sense I'm writing as thoughts come to my mind. <BR> <BR> November would be my 6 year wedding anniversary. We met 7 years ago this past March. This last month we have decided to divorce. My folks had a very very nasty divorce when I was in 6th grade and I refuse to go through that myself if I can help it. So I'm trying to do this as nicely as possible. We have agre... Sat, 16 Jun 2012 23:04:07 EST Shoe/foot pain?? Please respond with your experiences!! TU! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4880602 So I went and had my foot sized and my walked taped to see if I turned my ankle or anything. Tried on a bunch of shoes and found a pair that felt great. <BR> <BR> However walking for any length of time in them is still painful, my right foot isn't so bad but left one arch really hurts. I had hoped to find a pair of shoes that were extremely comfortable. I can find sandles that are comfy but tennis shoes I really struggle with. I'm not walking long distances or for long periods yet. <BR> <... Mon, 14 May 2012 10:18:31 EST Sure wish I could bottle this feeling! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4874728 Weigh in Monday finally showed a loss!! woohoo!! <BR> <BR> Top that off with my second week of calorie counting every day, drinking at least 8 classes of water daily and exercising and I'm feeling pretty darn good :) <BR> <BR> I have not binged in awhile and even when I have gotten upset (always a trigger for me) I haven't binged or immediately went off plan for a day to eat junk. Maybe I'm learning how to do this?? <BR> <BR> I'm still eating foods I want, just smaller portions and am co... Wed, 9 May 2012 22:49:31 EST Rollarcoaster week http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4866957 Wow! What a week!! Has been very busy and very emotional. <BR> <BR> Found out that a friend has lymphoma. Was quite a shock of course and makes you feel so helpless. Did find out today though that it is a curable type and being as he is young and healthy he should recover. Still awful for him and his family but at least they are saying he has a good chance at beating this. The day I found out about this was after I'd only received about 3 hours of sleep. Won't go into detail but lets just s... Fri, 4 May 2012 22:02:42 EST Trying to follow doctors suggestions http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4850704 After lots of thought and, if I'm honest with myself and whats the point of doing all this if I'm not going to be honest....lots of stalling.. <BR> <BR> I've decided to take the appetite suppressant the dr suggested. I did as was required and got weighed and blood pressure taken today so am all set to start tomorrow. Part of me is excited and part is scared. <BR> <BR> I'm also going to work on following the dr's suggestion to curb my workouts; maybe curb isn't the right word so much as wo... Tue, 24 Apr 2012 22:10:44 EST Maybe the Dr is right?? And if so should I take his advice?? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4843318 Okay so I was so thrilled, excited and proud of myself for all the activity I did on Tuesday and I should be...but.... <BR> <BR> Since then I have been in so much pain! My feet, ankles, joints, bones and hips are so painful. <em>46</em> <BR> <BR> You know when you see like a grandma get up to walk and she hobbles across the floor?? that's what I feel like. <BR> <BR> I knew walking to work in my flip flops wasn't the smartest decision but didn't expect this much pain. So the only conclu... Thu, 19 Apr 2012 22:28:25 EST 4/17/12; progress http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4840149 After several weeks of the scale moving up it finally moved down. Only a pound but hey it's in the right direction. And either way I am thrilled with myself because I am continuning to get extra movement almost everyday, exercise often, drink more water and working on my eating...I haven't given up and I am so proud of myself!! <BR> <BR> Not to say I haven't had my down days and my binge days but I have managed to keep doing little things to move me in the right direction. <BR> <BR> I fe... Tue, 17 Apr 2012 22:25:17 EST 4/3/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4819460 To start this blog on a positive note... I have continued to work out regularly with my girlfriend. We set our time and place the day before..if we have plans or kids activities thats okay but any night we are free we meet up. Some nights the workouts are harder than others but atleast we are moving. We are at different fitness levels so but have been able to work together at finding things where we can set our own pace or determine how hard we work on our own. We hate to cancel cause we know... Tue, 3 Apr 2012 23:06:02 EST 3/13/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4786425 Very pleased with myself today so wanted to brag about it lol <BR> <BR> I walked back to work after lunch and then home after work!!! woohoo!!! Granted it's not that far but I am winded by the time I reach the end of our block let alone make it to work. I don't know how far it is in distance but it takes me about 10 minutes and thats walking slowly. Hardest part is the way home b/c my office is at the bottom of a steep hill! <BR> <BR> I did have a pop this morning but only one and then I ... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 22:49:42 EST 3/12/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4784519 I really did mean to blog more often than I have been but obviously haven't been..lol <BR> <BR> Felt great last week until Friday afternoon when I started coughing bad again and having trouble breathing. :( joy joy Layed around all weekend and wasn't feeling any better by sunday evening so decided that was it. I wasn't feeling any better so time to start being active again! Did 45 minutes of wii just dance today so very pleased. Was a hard workout even though I had to stop often to cough and... Mon, 12 Mar 2012 21:39:17 EST 3/3/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4768701 Last week I managed to come down with bronchitis again! Just had it in July so not real thrilled to have it again! Thankfully though I knew what it was and so didn't wait so long to get prescription from dr. And now after taking it for almost a week I'm feeling better..yea!! <BR> <BR> Actually kinda funny b/c I really started feeling better thursday evening/friday morning and friday was my 40th birthday. haha My son knows that I've wanted a mothers ring for ages but he feels like I have too... Sat, 3 Mar 2012 14:12:16 EST 02/07/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4727958 Tuesday evening and I'm watching my Biggest Loser! woohoo!! lol I am addicted to that show..although not liking this season to much. I know those weight loss numbers aren't reasonable so please not lectures on that :) I love watching how people change their lives and doing things they never thought were possible. <BR> <BR> Anyway, Monday evening I did 50 minutes of water walking/jogging. Have counted calories monday and tuesday. No pop since Saturday at noon. Haven't gotten quite up to 8 cla... Tue, 7 Feb 2012 22:01:50 EST 2/1/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4717413 At the beginning of December I decided to go to weighing in monthly b/c otherwise I tend to fixate on the scale. My weigh in the this morning was down 2lbs!!! Thrilled with that..more would always be nice but it's a heck of a lot better then staying the same or gaining. <BR> <BR> Had appts with therapist and dr last week and both went well I guess. Therapist suggested a change in my meds but not sure she is taking my food problem seriously enough but we'll see. Dr agreed to med change but al... Wed, 1 Feb 2012 21:30:12 EST 1/16/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685565 My day went okay. Work was long but I didn't bing so thats a plus. I also didn't let the long day at work combined with boss and co-working getting upset with me ruin my mood, which is a huge improvement!! My therapist has helped alot with that and teaching me ways to cope with it. Am so thankful I made that decision last year! <BR> <BR> I did decide to get a pop and was suprised by how sweet and icky it tasted! I've noticed the last few times I've gotten a pop but for some reason I really... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 22:05:17 EST Username change http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4685024 Just a quick post to explain that I changed my user name. I was just feeling too exposed since it used my full first name and part of my last. I know how unlikely it is that someone would connect it with me but I do live in a small town and know of others in my community that are on here. <BR> <BR> Sorry if this confused you!! <BR> <BR> Will be back for an actual post later! lol Mon, 16 Jan 2012 17:46:52 EST 1/15/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4683159 Gotta start by saying how about them Niners??!!!! woohoo!!! Know I burned some calories watching that game! lol <BR> <BR> My eating is doing okay. Not eating the healthiest but am eating smaller portions and not as often. And am not getting formal exercise but am moving and getting stuff done around the house; not spending all weekend sitting on my butt so that is a huge improvement! <BR> <BR> Had wrestling friday night and it was a weird gym where bleachers were on the upper level so had... Sun, 15 Jan 2012 22:32:56 EST 1/10/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4672592 This week hasn't gone as planned but am still pleased with it. My eating has been good. Can always be better of course but I'm happy with it. Have gone over my calories that last two days but think that's probably wrong b/c I didn't get the calorie counts figured for our dinners so have had to use what I find online so am sure its off one way or the other. But right now it works for me. <BR> <BR> Didn't get exercise in last night, evening was highjacked by a friend and we worked on our mk s... Tue, 10 Jan 2012 22:31:24 EST I have been overtaken by aliens! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4667140 Seriously...that has to be the answer..only think I can think of. I have been productive, I mean seriously productive with house stuff. That is so not me! I normally sit and read or stitch and just do the bare minimum and eat and eat and eat..usually baking cookies (the kind you just put on the cookie sheet even) is all the cooking I do :( When football is on, my favorite past time is to have the game on and cross stitch with breaks to read and eat. <BR> <BR> For example today I browned an... Sun, 8 Jan 2012 21:06:14 EST 1/4/12 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4658367 Why is it I can think of lots of things to say until I sit down at the keyboard and then I'm blank??!! lol And I read other peoples blogs and want to make mine so insperational and enjoyable to read and feel like it isn't either. <BR> <BR> But good or bad it's mine..lol Anyway, its late and I spent most of the evening matching sales and coupons and coming up with grocery list so I'm exhausted! Never knew that was so tiring so this will be short (shock to those who know how much I can babble... Wed, 4 Jan 2012 23:04:47 EST And here I am again.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4554464 Hi there! Taking a break from work to finally get this blog typed! lol Been meaning to for about a week. Anyway... <BR> <BR> I was on sparkpeople alot earlier this year and then just felt like the site was so big and so many people that I got overwhelmed and just quit coming to the site. Shortly after that the weight loss stopped too. I know I need the support and so am back again. Hoping this time I can not be so intimated by the number of people and work harder at getting to know peopl... Wed, 26 Oct 2011 15:10:11 EST Laughing at myself is better than crying!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4268421 I'm not the best with words so this won't be as well written as some other blogs but that's okay. So writing isn't one of my God given talents I have others! After all I can make this blog 10 pages long and not say a single thing or get distracted bouncing from topic to topic and never get to my point!! lol <BR> <BR> My eating hasn't been good but when I'm away from the office it hasn't been awful either. I did get in a few days of exercise last week. No official exercise this past weekend ... Tue, 31 May 2011 21:11:22 EST Teeny tiny bike ride = me dying http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4205482 Okay so last month I rode my bike to work 1 day and thought I was going to die! Literally my hubby asked me not to do that again b/c he was so worried about me when I got home that evening. And let me point out it's not that far..it's like 7 or 8 blocks at most! So I've been trying to work up to getting back on the bike and I finally did it tonight. I wanted to take it slowly and just ride around the block..OMG!! I rode around my block, barely made it home and my chest hurt, my legs barely wo... Mon, 2 May 2011 18:24:43 EST 5/2/11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4204963 uggg it's monday and I'm at work!! lol Am thankful to have a job, just wish I still enjoyed it! but not going to get started on that topic today instead want to update since my last blog. <BR> <BR> I didn't get to try yoga b/c the class was cancelled due to instructor being gone :( bummer but will aim for this wednesday evening. I haven't made it up at 6am since Tuesday but did get 30 minutes on the treadmill in wed & thurs. No formal exercise on fri/sat/sun but don't feel too guilty about... Mon, 2 May 2011 14:14:00 EST 4/27/11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4194789 Have been trying to get on here to blog for a few days but between work and stupid computer at home I haven't been able to. My computer at home is about 6 years old and so slow and stubborn that it drives me crazy!! lol And work..sigh...I am bored for 3 weeks of the month and swamped for the last week of the month! I'm pretty much used to it after 12 1/2 years of it. <BR> <BR> Anyway, on the exercise front: I wanted to note that on Monday I got up at 6am and did 30 minute, 2 mile WATP dvd a... Wed, 27 Apr 2011 17:56:41 EST OMG Calorie count! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4161291 Today for lunch I had one of my all time fav meals, a true comfort food..Kraft macaroni & cheese with hotdogs mixed in. I know, not fancy or special but a comfort food for me. Am sure it goes back to my childhood when we used to eat that but whatever the root is it is the first comfort food I turn to when upset or just b/c I feel like eating it. It's true..I love it! I know it's a little kids food but I've never gotten over my love of it! There have been weeks that I'll have that for lunch al... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 17:45:06 EST 4/11/11 http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4158257 No special title today and no special topic either. I am just learning that I do much better when I journal often so am going to try becoming more regular with it! <BR> <BR> I have felt so much better since I posted my last entry. I guess just getting it out helped me alot. I do better writing it instead of letting it fester inside..lesson learned Michelle..now just remember that and use it!! <BR> <BR> Didn't get in any "official" exercise this weekend. Did work on my flower beds for abou... Mon, 11 Apr 2011 14:00:56 EST Venting to myself about myself! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4151940 Am sure my title sounds stupid but not sure how else to describe it! Logically I know I need to lose weight. There is no doubt about that. I am 39 years old, 5'4" and weight 330lbs so something has to change. So why do I find making that change so hard? Part of me really wants to do it but part of my doesn't want to change anything! <BR> <BR> I was stressing alot about trying to exercise and keep up with my college classes so told myself to just focus on the classes. After all those were th... Fri, 8 Apr 2011 14:00:35 EST