MOM2BRIENNAT's SparkPeople Blog MOM2BRIENNAT's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community Thanksgiving Weekend Thanksgiving was great and I have much to be thankful for... but this year I think I am most thankful for my health. Even on my bad days, I am worlds ahead of where I was a year ago. I am a happier, healthier version of myself. I love that someone told me at work that I smile too much :D <BR> <BR> As we near the end of the year, my two major goals are right in my face: to lose 100 pounds and be debt free... I'm not expecting to make either one as of today, but close. I am planning on hitting... Fri, 23 Nov 2012 13:45:04 EST November Update I would love to say I'm still on track, going hard and doing great... but life gets in the way and derailed my efforts for awhile. I'm working 50-60 hours a week and have been since middle of October. This makes fitting in my workouts very difficult and Im exhausted all the time. We've also been entertaining which means hitting the pizza and beer a couple times a week for a few weeks straight. We are finally done with the entertaining potential employees and that will help me get back on trac... Sun, 18 Nov 2012 20:27:56 EST September! Well, today I weighed in at 202. Seriously so mad at myself for wasting away a month!! I could have and should have done better this month but I still struggle. I have done a bit better about running and am trying to use the Couch to 5k program again and we are on week 5. Curves has gone back to 3x a week and Zumba only 2x week. Soccer games have a been a nightmare for me. I love to go and watch my nephew but with it I am missing work out time and typically eating stadium type food (nachos, ... Tue, 25 Sep 2012 07:10:38 EST August update It has been awhile since I've updated and thought it was time.. even if there isn't much to say. I've been staying on track for the most part, but yet can feel myself once again going through the motions. It seems as if I go through this every so often, I am doing my exercise, eating okay... but most definitely room for improvement. The scale is showing it as well. I have lost but at a very sloooow rate. Much slower than I'd like, but I feel like I am doing my best at the time, so it is what ... Thu, 9 Aug 2012 09:59:57 EST Freedom 5k Happy Independence Day! <em>232</em> <BR> <BR> This morning I ran in the Freedom 5k in Lima and in summary--it was HOT!!! <BR> <BR> Training has been rough because of the heat and today was no exception. Heat index factor is 104 degrees today. The race was set to start at 9 a.m. and since we were sooo early at the last 5k we thought leaving later would be a good idea. It was not. We got a late start and actually pulled into the park at 8:50 a.m. and it was already 90 degrees. The girls we... Wed, 4 Jul 2012 15:04:29 EST May update Well, I remember setting a goal that by my nephew's high school graduation, I wanted to be 200 lbs. Graduation is tonight and I am 218 as of this morning. I did not meet my goal but I do not feel bad about it either. I have lost 46 pounds and did hit one major goal today --losing as much as my youngest daughter weighs!! I lost a whole NATALIE!! LOL. I have had days where I felt on top of the world (today is one of those) and days that I felt like I was just going through the motions and didn'... Fri, 25 May 2012 11:21:36 EST Dart Frog Dash-Toledo Zoo May 12, 2012 My first 5k: Toledo Zoo Dart Frog Dash <BR> <BR> It was hard to believe that the day I had thought about so much, worried and stressed, trained and prepared for, had finally arrived. I felt as prepared as I possibly could and didn’t sleep much the night before. I had not really ever run the whole 3.1 miles but I knew I was close and banking on the excitement of the day. I woke up at 4:30 to start getting things around and woke the kids up at 5:00 a.m. We had a surprisingly easy morning witho... Fri, 25 May 2012 10:56:35 EST My current playlist... Every time I run, I listen to my special playlist and as each song comes on I think.. wow, just what I needed to hear right now. It is amazing that each song is in the right order, serving as a piece of motivation as that time.. so I thought I'd share what is on my playlist right now... <BR> <BR> Beverly Hills --Weezer- nice upbeat, warm up song <BR> <BR> All Star-Smash Mouth.. still warming up <BR> <BR> Blow-Ke$ha.. pumps up the beat a bit <BR> <BR> Dynamite-Taio Cruz-keeps the beat goin... Sun, 6 May 2012 12:28:26 EST Feeling Good! I've noticed a few changes this week and all of them make me grin.... First, my workouts have been great. I finally feel back into my workouts and am kicking butt! Feels good to get some good workouts in this week. <BR> <BR> Second, because of those good workouts and some paining I did the other day, I have that good feeling sore all over. I like it. Not painful, but noticeable when I move and feel a different muscle group--yay for working out new muscles!!! <BR> <BR> Third, my mood and e... Fri, 20 Apr 2012 21:48:34 EST 32 and counting.... Well, I turned 32 years old on Saturday and have a lot on my mind, but all good. My goal was to be at 230 as goal or 225 as a stretch. I made the 230 and actually my scale registered 229.8 last week but I'll be retaining most of my weight this week since it is TOM. booo!! lol, but I know next week I'll drop a few more. Almost to the 35 lb mark!! :) <BR> <BR> I'm pretty happy with my progress so far, even with a few hiccup days/weeks. I will get off track for 3 days and have to take another 3... Mon, 16 Apr 2012 12:53:53 EST Week 4 completed! Well, today was a good day overall. I've been chugging away and today I hit 234 ..which is 30 lbs lighter!! Yay me!! <BR> <BR> Also finished the C25K week 4 and moving on to week 5 on Saturday. Super nervous as the runs are getting longer and longer. My sister has been doing this with me but is not preparing herself for the runs --eating healthy, no other exercise, runs fast, wrong shoes, etc... I am hoping she can manage to make it through but she was really struggling today. :( <BR> <BR... Thu, 29 Mar 2012 21:21:10 EST Moving Right Along So I'm already done with W4D1 and it felt awesome!! I am always so shocked that I can complete it. Our next run is on Monday and looking forward to it. I did Zumba class for the full 30 minutes this morning and it was a great workout. I continued right into my Curves workout. <BR> <BR> I am happy as can be with my fitness progression. I will have completed week 13 on Monday and have lost 29 lbs according to my home scale this morning. I am hoping to make it a solid 3o lbs gone by Monday mor... Sat, 24 Mar 2012 16:56:27 EST C25K W2D3 completed!! wow, good workout at Curves this evening and then right on to a run. The cramping I had the last couple of times didn't happen and I did alright. My nephew who runs track said that the cramping is usually from eating before running, which makes sense since I ate a banana before my Curves workout but ate dinner after the run. <BR> <BR> Also, since it Daylight Savings was this past weekend and today was absolute beautiful, our 7:30 pm run was still bright and light. We run through a residenta... Thu, 15 Mar 2012 22:15:33 EST Posted to message board, but want to keep to remind myself Okay, I'll admit it. I binge eat. I knew I always have, I remember when I was maybe 7 or 8..eating an entire box of Thin Mints, sitting next to a heater, I was toasty warm and the cookies were oh so good. I fell asleep and woke up throwing them up in my own lap. :( Move forward a few years and I'd eat a whole loaf of bread after school, eat piece loaded with regular sugar. I haven't had that in quite a few years, but man could I eat that stuff up. Today, with more resources available, I still... Wed, 14 Mar 2012 17:07:35 EST C25K W2D2 Done :) Even though my calves were aching yesterday, I still managed to go to Curves and get a good workout. Afterward, my sister and I decided to go ahead and do the C25K run. In my head, I knew I was going to try to go a much slower pace and take it easy since my legs were still sore. After we started, I was shocked at my intervals... I think I am really bad at pacing myself!! I have improved each run and even when I thought I was running so much slower than before, it is still an improvement. <em... Tue, 13 Mar 2012 08:26:45 EST W2D1 Wow!! I am enjoying the journey, the ups and down, the good and bad. Today, calorie wise was a bust but a 30 minute hike and the run tonight has me running high today <em>334</em> <BR> <BR> I get so nervous before each of the training days. I am scared I won't be able to do it and everytime I get so suprised that I did finish all of it. I also realized that each day I have increased my pace even though I wasn't trying to -- I figured if i could make it through the whole program, then I could wor... Sat, 10 Mar 2012 22:45:39 EST Old habits and new habits... When I get on a roll, I do so good and am so focused. I notice it is so much easier to avoid those old habits when I am doing so good and how quickly I slip back into the old habits. <BR> <BR> Old habit: knowing I have $2 in cash in my wallet and look around for an opportunity to spend it on junk food. I would also do this with my time. For example, if I had 5 minutes before I had to pick up the kids from practice and I had even $1 in cash, I would stop by the dollar store and get the cheap... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 21:24:49 EST C2 5K W1D2 Finished my second 'run' tonight. I am soooo slow but I did it. I am just happy to be able to do it at all. I tell myself when I feel so sluggish that 240 lbs is a LOT to move so as I shed some of the weight, I'll be able to go faster. <BR> <BR> As far as eating, the last 3 days have been a binge <em>39</em> <em>9</em> . <BR> Even after eating Wendys, butterfingers, and M&Ms all within in hour, I went to Curves. Working out after eating so much junk made me feel very icky, but glad I went... Mon, 5 Mar 2012 20:17:45 EST C25K W1D1 Wow, finally I started the program. Can't believe I did the whole first workout and didn't completely die!! WAHOO! Only went 1.7 miles including the warm up and cool down but honestly, I was very excited to get started. <BR> <BR> Thu, 1 Mar 2012 21:56:23 EST Super excited!! I have thought about it, pictured myself doing it, researched it, planned in the future for it, but this morning I took the first step. <BR> <BR> At 4 a.m. on a Saturday morning, I got up, threw on a sweatshirt, laced up my shoes, and went outside. I knew I was going to go far, but I wanted to try. At 240ish, I couldn't even think about doing this at a regular hour and take the risk of someone actually seeing me doing it!! I walked to teh nearest stop sign, turned around and started to jog... Sat, 18 Feb 2012 21:18:17 EST Valentine's Day Eve Well, I've been thinking and have decided to bring some secret ideas to life verbally. There are some ideas and goals that I've thought about but have never had the guts to really share. I believe that this is partly because as a fat person, you cannot open admit certain things. <BR> <BR> The first one is that I've always wanted to be a runner. I even tried to run a mile a few years ago and only succeeded once. Now that I am 80 pounds heavier than I was then, how can I even think of wanting... Mon, 13 Feb 2012 20:46:14 EST February already? Well, here we are in February, time is flying. January was a good month overall, losing 12 lbs. I lost about 15 until February 3rd. I had planned a cheat day and had lunch with a friend. Dinner was pizza. Friday turned to Saturday and Saturday turned into Sunday. I ate so much junk that I laid on the couch sick to my stomach for hours. However, today, I am back on track and realize that my cheat days need some work. I believe I need to watch my calories and keep a limit, perhaps ... Mon, 6 Feb 2012 20:09:06 EST Another day... Well, I've been able to get back on track and I'm thrilled. I hadn't been to Curves in a week and was able to push myself back in there yesterday and today. I am debating on weighin in this week or next week, don't want to set myself up for disappointment. I've only been on track for a few days so not sure I will see what I want on the scale this week. <BR> <BR> As many times as I have done this weight loss and even sparkpeople, I do feel like this is different. I don't like how I feel when... Sat, 28 Jan 2012 20:49:23 EST keep on keeping on... So my plans changed last weekend, my brother came home just for the weekend, so I kept the girls. I chose to skip working out Friday night to go home and clean before he arrived. First mistake. <BR> <BR> Saturday morning's workout didn't happen either because we had to search for my daughter's bb uniform during the time I was suppose to be at Curves. Second mistake. <BR> <BR> Everyone decided to eat Mexican for lunch and I indulged. Third mistake. <BR> <BR> and thus started the down hil... Thu, 26 Jan 2012 20:55:46 EST Critical Time This is such a critical time period for me. I am hovering at 252 on my home scale, I have been doing good for almost a month, and this is typically where I would completely stop--for whatever reason. Last time (October) I remember I stopped because one day I stepped on the scale and it was 249 ish and I was soo excited. Then I realized that the scale itself was not in its typical tile square and moved it back to his home (just the next tile over). I stepped on it again and it was back to 254 ... Wed, 18 Jan 2012 07:58:37 EST disappointing weekend My sister was suppose to be on this weight loss journey with me and was doing good for awhile, but she had a rough week. I had planned to eat more than my calorie range on Friday and I did and was fine with it, knowing that I still worked out on Friday and was planning on Saturday morning. And I did. Saturday was a good day, then came Sunday. Started off well, but after church my sister convinced me to eat we went to Taco Bell. This was a better idea than our favorite authetic mexican... Mon, 16 Jan 2012 11:05:09 EST just getting started So I've been going to curves for a little over a month and watching what I eat for almost 3 weeks. I am feeling pretty good overall and even did Zumba (twice so far!). I also bought the Zumba Wii tonight. Sad part was that the zumba belt barely fit and when I put the controller in the belt, it kept sliding out. :( can't wait for the day that belt fits. Sat, 14 Jan 2012 21:52:04 EST 2012 ... a new start So after 2011, I am looking forward to 2012. <BR> <BR> 2011 had some major changes for myself and my girls. Even though I started a new job in October 2010, I believe that my adjustment period was really all of 2011. New work schedule, new pay, new people, responsibilities, etc. I am so incredibly lucky to be where I am at in my career today. I've learned so much about myself being withthis company and position so far, that I look forward to the future with excitment. If I have to work, th... Mon, 9 Jan 2012 12:55:11 EST Week 1 So, after a week of making a true effort in my weight loss and trying to be healthier, I have to say I feel better and am pleased with the week. I didn't stay within the calorie range everyday, but overall it was a decent week. I ate out more than I wanted to (4 or 5 times), and didn't quite get enough workouts in for the week. are the goals for this coming week: <BR> <BR> 1. Get in 3 workouts for the couch to 5K <BR> <BR> 2. Get 64 oz of plain water in (1 on drive to work, 1 dur... Sun, 27 Jun 2010 00:59:55 EST What does it take? So from the outside, I know that I am unhappy, no...miserable, because of my weight issue. I have ballooned to 239. I want to lose weight, I want to be happier with myself and feel better about myself. I want my children to see a good example, not the lazy "fluffy" mommy that they know now. I have disappointed myself and don't know how to turn things around. <BR> <BR> Every week for at least the last year, I have started over every week. I do well on Sunday, and maybe Monday, but then somet... Sun, 20 Jun 2010 21:25:17 EST Karma So Karma has been on my mind most of the week... last weekend I was having a sour morning and the girls weren't listening while we were out shopping. While I was a plus size store, I commented about the girls not behaving and asked the sales lady with the robust belly when she was due. Opps. nope, just a robust belly. I FELT HORRIBLE! and the worst part is I know better! It just slipped and she really did look like she was 7-8 months prego. I apologized profusely and felt bad and still do! S... Sat, 12 Sep 2009 09:05:46 EST A very blue day? ok, just waking up was rough today and trust me I have enough reasons to feel the stress today: <BR> 1. it is pms time so i am extra tired. <BR> 2. my sister's mil and my coworker's moms just passed, so it is very somber and i am awaiting the 3rd one <BR> 3. i laid off 19 people today (not a 'love my job' day) <BR> 4. i may not have a job next week (see #3) <BR> 5. i just started a new class and am already behind <BR> 6. i have no money and will probably bounce a check this week <BR> 7. my... Fri, 20 Feb 2009 16:17:53 EST one step back, two steps forward? I am really frustrated with myself, the past couple of days have just fallen apart, for no apparent reason. I had a few good days, a few bad days and now am trying to recover. I try to recommit myself every day and I start out with good intentions, but then at some point in the day, it gets chucked out the window. <BR> <BR> I am getting weighed tonight and now I am stressed that I actually gained weight since Friday. Really? right now I should be wondering how much I lost, not if I gained!!... Tue, 10 Feb 2009 13:50:15 EST 1/30/09 Afer a pretty heavy lunch, I came home tonight and did 20 mins on my new addition to my living room, the gazelle. My dad is letting me store it at my house for a while so I put in smack dab in the middle of the living room. It has been 3 years since I really exercised (on purpose) and although I curse the entire time and count down the minutes, I understand why people do it. It was nice to feel sweaty tonight know it was from working my body, not from just plain old heat. It was nice to move... Fri, 30 Jan 2009 21:57:01 EST looking at the "bigger" picture I have to think beyond the end of my nose, and honestly, sometimes that is hard. I will not lose this weight as fast as I have gained it. I have to think long term and why I am doing this, not as quick let me look good- but for better self confidence, to be a good role model for my kids, to be able to be here for my kids, to attend their weddings and their kids' weddings, to have enough energy to not fall asleep at 8 pm everynight, to not feel so lazy, to tackle new things and feel confident ... Mon, 26 Jan 2009 16:18:09 EST what a difference a week makes! So last week I blogged about how great I was doing, and then it all fell apart. Monday and Tuesday were difficult but managed to survive (somewhat). Tuesday I went to Red Lobster, and Arby's for dinner and then I ate out every day since... there goes my calorie count and my budget all in one swoop. I am really struggling to keep on track and I don't know why. My motivation seems to go up and down. I want to be thinner, not so groggy and more energetic, healthy, and I know that summer will be ... Mon, 19 Jan 2009 10:04:10 EST Back on track.... There is something so peaceful about doing what needs to get done and being productive. Maybe it is the fact that I don't feel lazy when I am productive. I don't know but I do love the feeling of going to bed with laundry done, my school assignments all turned in, the house picked up and a jump start on tomorrow. It is so peaceful! <BR> <BR> As far as the my eating, I have to say I am proud that we have not ate out at all since Jan.1st. I have packed my lunch and cooked dinner every night. ... Sun, 11 Jan 2009 23:19:06 EST wiegh in Ok, so Tuesday and Fridays i have signed up to donate plasma. during the check in you have to get weighed in. the other day i ate bk for lunch, had jeans and steel toe shoes on and weighed 217. this morning with jeans on (no shoes) i weighed myself at home and it read 212!!! I am hoping for this weigh in on Monday so i can finally move my ticker in the right direction--DOWN! <BR> <BR> I still haven't been logging my food but I will get back to it, I have been trying to watch what I eat but ... Fri, 22 Aug 2008 09:45:20 EST Readjusting.... Ok, so with my job switching gears on me, this is going to take a bit of readjusting... I haven't logged since I moved offices. I used to be able to come home for lunch, and now I actually need to pack or go out, or not eat. I am way busy and could seriously skip lunch, but that makes for one grouchy person come 4pm. So I guess I will have to start packing. I am so busy at work now I can't even get a chance to reply to emails, let alone get on a log stuff. when i get home i don't even want t... Mon, 18 Aug 2008 20:30:36 EST I have stopped crying at least... Well, I knew it wouldn't last forever, but got spoiled for awhile. Working in retail was not the best solution for me and I was thrilled when I switched not just jobs, but careers. I was *blessed* to get hired into a human resource position to start at the entry level and the fact that it was literally 2 minutes away with a M-F schedule was awesome. I could leave my house at 7:55 and be home by 5:05. I could come home and have lunch with my children for an hour everyday! This was the best!!! ... Sat, 9 Aug 2008 08:48:45 EST No excuses! That is what I told myself this morning: NO EXCUSES TODAY! The past week was my TOM, so lots of sweet cravings, birthday parties and now the left over cake is at my house. But today, there is NO EXCUSES! If I have a bad eating day, it is because I am choosing not to do what I know I should be doing. If I make bad choices today, then I have no right to complain about not meeting my goals or feeling crappy about myself. That is my choice.... so no more excuses.. take full accountability for wha... Tue, 5 Aug 2008 09:05:45 EST July 31, 2008 Well, looking at my goals, I am doing horrible!!! The 6 am thing is sooo not working. I can trick myself to thinking I need to get up! I know I don't have to and won't do it until I do have to!!! On that note, Brie has been sleeping in her own room for almost 2 weeks : ) Nate will fall asleep in there but ends up in my room in the night, and Brie will come snuggle when she hears the alarm go off. So we will make it when we need to, but for now, I am going to enjoy my sleep I can get! <BR> ... Thu, 31 Jul 2008 16:01:50 EST Shocker! So, as much as I try, I simply can not (or will not) get out of bed when I don't have to. However, the past week or so, I have been doing okay, getting up a bit earlier with out too much regret. I have been feeling pretty awake most of the day and not dragging as much. Hmmm, I have had a great increase in healthy food and drastic decrease in junk/unhealthy food. What a shocker!! Now, the real noticable thing happened today. I went to a Mexican restuarant and my sister had pre-ordered my reg.... Thu, 24 Jul 2008 14:35:04 EST the whole sleep thing is too much Ok, I made the goal to get up at 6 am every morning. that's it. not to get up and exercise, just to drag my butt out of bed. I literally have 30 days until school starts and I can't seem to do it. Saturday morning I didn't have the kids so, it was oh so nice to sleep in a bit! I went out to get a coffee pot (never much of a coffee drinker), in hopes that the smell of fresh brewed coffee would remind me to GET UP! But, my bedroom is too far from the kitchen to even smell it. Plus it is sooo ho... Sun, 20 Jul 2008 13:54:46 EST goals need to be set! Ok, I need to set some short term goals, that I can be consistant with: <BR> <BR> Goal #1: Get up at the same time everyday for 30 days. 6:00 am. <BR> <BR> I need to do this for sooooo many reasons. Brie is starting school in a few weeks and we all need to be up to get ready and be out of the house (instead of just me) by 7:30. I need to feel more energized throughout the day. I am ALWAYS so tired. We need to eat breakfast at home,together. I would like to start working out between 6-6:30,... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 13:52:39 EST motivation is on! I feel like I am getting into the groove of things finally, although it has only been 2 days! The hardest thing about changing habits is the mindset and I feel like I am back on track (mentally) with what I want. There is no mindless eating, I am thinking about every choice and whether or not it will support my goal. I am thinking long term, not just a quick fix. I am thinking there is no looking back, and I will learn to embrace a healthy lifestyle and not miss my days of laziness and bingin... Fri, 18 Jul 2008 10:27:07 EST mindless eating I am really struggling with this whole stupid weight thing, i believe a part of why i am so tired is b/c of the crap i eat. i just have no, NO motivation to move. i am so heavy that is bothersome to move my flab. i stopped by circle k this morning to get a pop(always a mistake), and grabbed my usual, 99 cent bag of doritos, and a nutty bar (the giant one). so even though i know i shouldn't of had it for breakfast, i am determined to at least log it in sparkpeople. so i did. by 9 am, i logged ... Wed, 16 Jul 2008 11:07:05 EST wahoo!! With the kitchen remodel complete (with the only exception some trim work), I can actually cook in my new space!!! Not so sure I will like cooking, but I won't dread being in the kitchen as much as before...I am ready to get back in the full swing of things and get rid of this weight FOREVER!!! Seeing other people successful is always a motivation, so seeing Heather drop her pounds, knowing she is doing fantastic and kicking butt is awesome motivation for me!! Here it goes..... Sun, 13 Jul 2008 22:41:30 EST almost done, so i can get back on track! I have been in a kitchen remodel for the past 10 days or so and it is almost finished! It has been a lot of work, very time consuming, and difficult to watch what i am eating. I haven't logged since I started, partly b/c I didn't have time to log on at home, and partly b/c we had to eat out since last weekend. But with everything going on and not eating at home, I stepped on the scale today and I only gained a pound. I can live with that for eating BK and Mickey D's everyday, literally. So ... Tue, 8 Jul 2008 09:11:51 EST one week logged ok , i have logged everyday, good or bad for one week now. I haven't really lost anything, and in fact I think I may have gained a pound. *sigh* but I also know that I only was in my range 1-2 days last week and only did a whopping 25 mins of exercise for the week. so really, I got what I gave. <BR> <BR> On another note, I am currently remodeling my kitchen (in hopes I will learn to like to cook?), and have no range/microwave hooked up right now to cook in. I will try my best to use my gri... Mon, 30 Jun 2008 15:47:01 EST