MOBEANZ's SparkPeople Blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal.asp?id=MOBEANZ MOBEANZ's Blog on SparkPeople, home of free diet plans and a healthy living community SparkPeople.com http://assets2.sparkpeople.com/assets/nav/logo_spark.gif http://www.sparkpeople.com/ four pounds down... fifteen to go. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5223521 I lost four pounds! I had weighed myself about two weeks ago and was up to 144. That had really upset me although a lot of people said it was because I was doing P90X2 so maybe I was gaining muscle. But I weighed in yesterday after only five days of counting calories and taking bee pollen and I was down to 140!! I had forgotten the feeling of seeing that lower number and doing the math to figure out how long it would take to get even lower. I don't expect to lose four pounds again by next Thu... Fri, 25 Jan 2013 19:14:35 EST Chocolate + P90X2 = not good http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5207563 I'm watching the biggest loser. Thought I'd mention that lol. ANYWAYS. Today is my birthday and as most people know, not a great day for a diet. I've been very good since I began the program and have been counting calories for the most part but also just eating very clean and good. I could feel and see my shape getting better. Last night my fiance and I went to a movie and then to Fridays. I have been doing cardio in the morning and a dvd of P90X2 at night, and did that yesterday. I knew we w... Mon, 14 Jan 2013 22:44:08 EST wedding...set....go! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=5202983 I have been telling myself that I would begin blogging again soon. I am getting married in three and a Half months and wanted to document my journey mostly of trying to lose the last 10-15 pounds that I have struggled with since I hit the 85 pounds lost mark. And also to talk about how to deal with the stresses of planning a wedding, working, taking classes, and losing weight. This community changed my life and showed me that I am not alone in my struggles. That people out there think like me... Fri, 11 Jan 2013 23:56:31 EST A smile and a ring http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4571941 Today I ran with a smile on my face and a ring on my finger.  <BR> <BR> I had the most amazing run today. I haven't run outside since probably June . I had gotten used to the gym and never stopped to change what I was doing. I told myself get it done at the gym and go home. Some days I would think about running but realize it had just rained so the trail would be muddy, or it was too cold. Today I had 40 minutes to spare and instead of driving past my normal trail, I drove into the parking l... Sun, 6 Nov 2011 22:31:05 EST I am a jerk http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4514284 Yeah I am. And I know it’s automatic for people to say “No you’re not!”. But I am. I realized it yesterday. I have had a tough couple of weeks with losing my job and then taking another one. The gym is fine but I am not getting the hours or pay I need to sustain myself. I took the job yes because I am into fitness but also because I was unemployed at that moment and am not the person to turn down a job. So as time has gone on, I have continued to pursue other options, mostly other hair salons... Sat, 1 Oct 2011 21:41:32 EST Just keep swimming . . . http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4490003 I have been swimming nonstop! I Told you guys I am using a 30 day trial at this really expensive health club. They have a great gym and an even greater pool. I fell in love with swimming and have been doing about 30 minutes of cardio on the treadmill or elliptical after about 15-20 of strength. Then I swim for about 30 minutes and honestly I cannot explain how different my physique looks just from swimming. I feel tighter and thinner the day after. It really has just made my whole body feel s... Sat, 17 Sep 2011 18:13:29 EST I MISS YOU, SPARK http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4476388 HEYYYYY!!! I feel like I'm meeting up with an old friend for lunch when I come back on here and read everybodies blogs. I literally was laying in bed thinking "I miss being in my spark community". Just because the "losing" phase of my lifestyle change is over doesn't mean I don't want to share all my moments, good or bad, with you guys. I wish I had a following of readers lol I love to talk. But I have had a lot of changes physically, mentally, and emotionally that I figured were worth sharin... Fri, 9 Sep 2011 22:35:25 EST New challenge. One Size down by October 21. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4419342 Hello everybody! It has been over a month since I've updated and that makes me both sad and kind of triumphant. In a way I saw Spark as a part of my life that helped to guide me towards being independent and continuing my lifelong journey of health. But I also miss it all the time and miss the community-feel of it. Today a client asked me if I used Weight Watchers or a certain program to lose the weight and I said no I used a website. I told her the name of it and she was looking at it on her... Wed, 10 Aug 2011 18:11:23 EST A little lower than usual http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4335189 I can't say I've had a hard time lately because nothing significant has really changed other than my attitude. I have a tendency to think of EVERYTHING at once and completely overwhelm myself. And I had these feelings last night because I was disappointed that my boyfriend had to work late instead of coming home and seeing Transformers with me. So that started it off. I had spent the past two days pretty much alone so yeah I can handle a night or two on my own but when it gets to three days i... Fri, 1 Jul 2011 11:51:12 EST Just live your life.... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4304954 Every so often I tell myself to write a blog I just never get around to it. I sit on Daily Spark every day reading all the newest articles. I swear I've read every single article on that site. And I drift towards the community on Spark but something always distracts me. <BR> <BR> I guess I wanted to write because I know that this journey never ends and it's a really good thing for me to have people to share it with. I try to look at every day as an individual journey. Some days are an easie... Fri, 17 Jun 2011 12:41:51 EST My one year Sparkaversary (sp?) http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4281961 A year on Spark. What’s funny is, I feel like I have been on here forever. Spark is my homepage and one of “those” websites I check every single day. I may not blog every day anymore but I come on here and surf the new blogs of people I’ve been following since I began. I check the health headlines and am constantly playing with the new features. I honestly can say I check Spark every day because no matter what’s going on, it’s that little reminder that says “Hey you achieved a lot, girly, but... Mon, 6 Jun 2011 22:39:50 EST Summer brings new fears http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4273646 Tuesday is my 1 year anniversary on Sparkpeople and I’ve been reading a lot of blogs lately and really Itwant to get it right. So I’m spending the next few days thinking of different things to put in that blog and taking notes. I leave Wednesday for vacation so I will definitely write it Tuesday. It’s a big day, it marks the day I really began to change my life. I had begun to anyway before that, but hadn’t started weighing in or calorie tracking. So it really was the beginning of everything.... Thu, 2 Jun 2011 22:16:32 EST Checking in http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4239710 When I talk about my lifestyle I can't say it stays the same constantly. The only constant is exercise. I never stop. I work out 6-7 days a week. I do it every day and like to push myself and make sure I get a very hard very intense work out in most days. I used to do strength every day, now I alternate sometimes. I was doing it every other day, and now I am doing it every other day using mostly P90X but also Jillian Michael's dvds as strength. My least favorite feeling is wandering the gym a... Tue, 17 May 2011 21:27:15 EST CHANGE IT UP!!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4223047 So I had a pretty bad couple of days and to be honest it all started with my own self-esteem taking a plunge. I have been really struggling emotionally because even though I am working out 6 days a week, strength training and cardio, and eating under 2,000 calories a day WHILE training for a half-marathon the scale is telling me I am gaining weight. The only thing keeping me from eating an entire birthday cake alone is that my clothes fit and are even loose and looking at myself I see that I ... Tue, 10 May 2011 12:27:29 EST I think I am a runner!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4211724 I broke another personal record for myself and can honestly say I am definitely finding joy in running lately. Yeah sometimes I am like ehhhh don’t feel like it. And the other day I decided to go for a run and wasn’t sure if I felt ready, if I had eaten enough or was up to par. And I ended up running 8 miles in 73 minutes! And I was really proud because I had run all the way to the end of the boardwalk, and ran back and instead of stopping at my car which would have been 6 miles I went for an... Thu, 5 May 2011 09:10:04 EST Ranting and raving! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4196781 Feeling really good today! A little sluggish because of allergies. It’s been very humid and warm so I put a box fan in my bedroom window but paid for it because I could barely open my eyes this morning. I am guessing the pollen and all the bad stuff in the air is now coating my bed and carpet. So I have to vacuum later and try to deal with it without opening the window tonight. I woke up today and had a good breakfast of 3 egg whites and one full egg on a whole wheat tortilla. Drank my coffee... Thu, 28 Apr 2011 14:58:15 EST Starting over. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4187914 I haven’t updated in a while because I felt like I hit a wall and just today I realized I needed to do something about that wall. <BR> I’ve been continuing my exercise regimen, 45-60 minutes of intense cardio a day followed by 20-25 minutes of strength which I have been switching up a lot and doing tons of new moves that are making me sore. Since I decided to do a half marathon I have been running twice to three times a week for 45 minutes on the treadmill doing intervals. Still waiting for ... Sun, 24 Apr 2011 20:44:15 EST Run on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4172914 So life is moving along. Lately I’ve thought a lot about goals and where I’d like to be. I am reading Jillian Michael’s new book called “Unlimited” and I have to admit it is giving me a lot to think about. She really believes in having goals and visualization when it comes to achieving those goals. And I think in my entire year of the actual “weight loss” process, visualization was a huge motivator for me because I pictured myself running further, feeling lighter, wearing smaller clothes, and... Sun, 17 Apr 2011 22:30:24 EST 7 miles behind me http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4161446 This will be a more positive blog than previous blogs have been. <BR> <BR> I have been cooking! And I’m loving it. Tonights dinner was amazing but I forgot to take a picture of it!! I made salmon with pesto butter and sweet potato risotto. Oh my goodness yummy! I find all of the recipes I do on spark-recipes and to be honest taking time to make these meals and the process of it makes me enjoy it more and helps curb other cravings during the day and night. It took a long time to make dinner t... Tue, 12 Apr 2011 19:11:12 EST Addicted to food? http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4155296 The carbohydrate experiment has been going well. I added more whole grains to my diet and let up on my controlling grip on eating practically no carbs and I have to say I stayed fuller longer when there was some form of carbohydrate in whatever I ate. That being said, I still limit it but find myself letting it go a little bit on certain occasions. <BR> <BR> Which brings me to the main point of this blog. I’ve been watching a lot of shows about obesity and eating disorders. I’m extremely in... Sun, 10 Apr 2011 10:22:53 EST The carbohydrate experiment. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4143357 So I am going to do an experiment today, something I never do. First let me tell you what happened last night. <BR> <BR> I did great all day. Had a yummy healthy turkey bacon, egg, and fat free cheese on a whole wheat thin for breakfast. Had the BEST workout. It was my first time doing strength at the gym in a month and being able to push myself more was exciting. I'm pretty much done with Ripped in 30 because it's not challenging anymore so I'll post pictures later today of my end results w... Tue, 5 Apr 2011 07:23:25 EST I sound distracted in this blog http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4142341 So I’ve decided to be happy with remaining between 132 and 134. I seem to only fluctuate between those numbers and have a very easy time maintaining that. I do have stomach issues when it comes to regularity so it’s tough to really tell what is “weight” and what is me not being able to “go”. <BR> <BR> I’m becoming more at ease with myself and my choices. I also know I’ll have good weeks and bad weeks. Last week was a bad week, but this coming week will be a good one. If I am interrupted and... Mon, 4 Apr 2011 19:35:27 EST Doing better http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4133898 <BR> My experiment with not counting calories has been going okay. I didn't weigh in today because I drank wine last night and from experience weighing in the day after drinking I always end up being like a pound heavier. So I plan to weigh in Sunday. But psychologically and emotionally? Better. Definitely better. I am able to not have as much anxiety when it comes to food and things coming up. I have kind of let myself enjoy a little more this week, and I know it's going to take time to fin... Fri, 1 Apr 2011 09:47:19 EST No more counting. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4121211 Okay I kind of had an epiphany last night which is why I will delete my previous blog. I realized I’m not happy when I am trying to “lose” anymore. I am done losing. I'm done being hungry all the time. There are no more health issues I have to worry about in regards to my weight. I am completely healthy and at a very healthy weight. I fit into a size 8, and even those are getting roomy and I’m enjoying seeing the differences in my muscles by trying new strength routines occasionally. I've bee... Sun, 27 Mar 2011 10:24:20 EST Blood sugar. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4113546 I’ve been having issues with low blood sugar lately and it’s almost starting to scare me. Okay so to give examples that I AM eating enough I’ll tell you what I ate today. I had 6 eggwhites with a slice of veggie soy cheese, spinach, and mushrooms on a whole wheat wrap. I’ve been eating oranges a lot to try to raise my blood sugar so I had an orange on my way to work and a cup of coffee. For lunch I got a salad and I had 4 egg whites, 2 oz chicken, like a tablespoon of macaroni salad, and spin... Wed, 23 Mar 2011 19:37:25 EST Bad night, better week. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4108315 So after my two pound loss last week, I was feeling deprived. And Saturday is usually my “cheat” day so I did enjoy Saturday, ate very light all day and went out to dinner to Longhorns Saturday night and really enjoyed. Sunday I was great all day. I even made a good choice in a bad situation. My parents wanted to eat at Bobbys Burger Palace which has so many kinds of burgers, even STUFFED burgers. But I made a great choice and got the topless chicken burger which was basically chicken breast ... Mon, 21 Mar 2011 19:38:49 EST First time in three months! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4101095 AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!<BR>!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!<BR>!!!!! <BR> <BR> Okay okay I apologize for that but I cannot explain to you how ecstatic I am. I have not lost weight since November and this morning I had lost TWO POUNDS THIS WEEK! In 5 days! Last Sunday I had decided to start counting calories again and keep them at 1500 and continue the way I have been working out while trying the new Jillian Michael’s dvd and IT WORKED! I can’t explain the feeling. I ... Fri, 18 Mar 2011 13:30:44 EST FIRST BIKINI!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4099102 I had a very exciting day today. I bought my very first BIKINI. No, not a bathing suit from the Women’s or plus size section, not a bathing suit that cost almost double because of the extra fabric, not a bathing suit in black or dark navy with a long skirt or shorts. A b-i-k-i-n-i. It’s TWO PIECES. Sorry it’s just very hard for me to believe it. It’s incredibly liberating. I actually LIKE how I look in it. I will not stand there and pick apart my body. My body is toned, my legs are toned, my... Thu, 17 Mar 2011 17:09:55 EST First run of the season! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4094649 I can honestly say today was one of the best days off I have had in a LONG time partially because I am on spring break so I didn’t have to get up at 6AM for class, and because it was gorgeous out. Matt’s away and I was able to sleep in, which to me is like 8:30 but still it felt great to wake up and not have to jump up and run anywhere. I just slowly started my day, watching the news, walked the dog, made a nice breakfast. I noticed how warm it was out and decided to make a playlist and hope ... Tue, 15 Mar 2011 21:51:09 EST Ripped in 30! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4091702 <BR> Okay first off I want to say that I am starting over today. Today at work I just looked at myself and said I need to stop being happy and unhappy based on how bloated I am. I have all the tools to lose more weight and the only thing standing in my way is this horrible nightly snacking. This week because Matt is away I got rid of anything I could possibly snack on. All I have are single packet 100 calorie popcorn and 100 calorie orange sherbet pops. It’s a step in the right direction. An... Mon, 14 Mar 2011 20:07:27 EST Heavy http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4080246 I'm watching that new A&E show called Heavy and I'm only like ten minutes in but something was said in it that really made me think. If your significant other was unhealthy and overweight and it impacted your daily life, would you consider ending it because of that? This woman said her husbands weight keeps her family from doing what they want to do and they have to revolve their lives around him. It really makes you think. All the people on this show believe that they run to food when someth... Wed, 9 Mar 2011 22:31:43 EST Fire and Sangria http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4077152 I love sitting in front of the fire with a glass of Sangria. It's been a while since I've written and I keep wanting to but find reasons not to lol. Anyway lately I have been simply focusing on keeping myself on track exercise wise which isn't the hard part for me. I don't have a problem exercising and I was thinking about it the other day. I feel like that's a huge part of a lot of people's struggle is the exercise. For me it's the food. But I just explained to my boyfriend and I am trying t... Tue, 8 Mar 2011 20:15:37 EST The snacking demon!! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4061451 Today my stomach is a MESS! I have had so many issues with it lately and today I had some extra fiber thinking it would help. WRONG! I’m going to warn you I might get graphic. The gas was unbelievable. My stomach looked 6 months pregnant. I am usually proud of my shape and today I wore an apron all day at work. None of my pants would button and the pressure was so uncomfortable I had to escape to a private place to pass gas so often it was ridiculous. I eventually went…ya know…but it continue... Wed, 2 Mar 2011 19:54:09 EST Hidden dangers http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4055465 I have been thinking a lot lately about how often I work out and stuff. And today I felt really really good. I left the gym after doing a fantastic workout, ran an 8 minute mile for 45 minutes and then did 25 minutes of some toning moves from Jillian Michaels dvds. And when I left and then even going to work I felt good. I felt accomplished. Saturday is my day off from working out, and then yesterday I actually felt really really sick at the gym. I pushed through and did 45 minutes on the ell... Mon, 28 Feb 2011 20:08:22 EST I love my craziness http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4045068 UPDATE: Made the hummus without the tahini and I like it! I'm a very bland person so I just added lemon, olive oil, salt, and garlic and it's delicious! Portioned out 1/2 cup portions into my little 1 cup tupperwares so I don't go overboard!) <BR> <BR> I read an article in Oprah magazine the other day that I absolutely loved. It was a story about a mom who was driving with her kids in the car and witnessed an accident. She stopped and got out and went over to help the crying, screaming lady ... Thu, 24 Feb 2011 17:40:09 EST Snow on the grass http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4034799 It was 70 degrees Friday and I woke up to snow on the grass. WTF? Anyway.... <BR> <BR> It's been a while since I've written mostly because I am still going through a hard time emotionally. And strangely enough it hasn't really effected my working out or eating right other than the occasionally spur of the moment decision to get ice cream lol. But I have been really wanting to write for a while so I have 20 mins before I have to leave for work and wanted to update all of you. <BR> <BR> I mad... Mon, 21 Feb 2011 10:28:21 EST Waiting for spring! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4020864 I’ve had to seriously re-evaluate my calorie intake and such in the past few days. I found in the past few weeks I let myself control what I ate without counting and I did fine. I didn’t gain, lost a few ounces and was enjoying myself. But I found by not counting I wasn’t eating as responsibly, feeding myself protein and such to help with my strength building leaving me hungry at weird times. So I started playing around with my calorie tracker and fitness thing on Spark. I put in exactly how ... Tue, 15 Feb 2011 21:08:54 EST Yellow polka dot bikini http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=4007577 I had written a blog yesterday and had lost it because my computer randomly shut off to do an update. I was SO frustrated and didn’t bother coming back to write again. <BR> <BR> Anyway what my blog yesterday was about was that I had fallen on the treadmill at the gym. The fall didn’t hurt my knee, my knee hurting is what caused me to fall. I’m okay and rested my knee the rest of the day and today when I ran it was fine. And it got me thinking a lot because almost everyone I told said it was... Thu, 10 Feb 2011 17:55:10 EST Oh happy day! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3994690 Hey everyone. Today started out pretty great. I actually woke up about a half hour early and had time to slowly get ready and eat a little cereal before the gym which I always like. I perform better if I eat a little before working out. And I love how Kashi Go Lean makes me feel. I love how much protein there is in it. So anyway, I was in a fantastic mood because I found out yesterday that I am going to be an aunt! My sister is pregnant with her first child and her and her husband came up to ... Sun, 6 Feb 2011 10:22:18 EST Weightless... http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3987264 I have made a vow to begin every blog with something positive about myself. So here we go. <BR> <BR> Yesterday I felt sexy. I actually felt sexy. Matt had to stay up north in Morristown in a Hyatt for work for a week. The company puts him up and pays for his meals and mileage. It’s about an hour north and we decided Wednesday I would drive up north and we would go out to dinner and I’d stay overnight. I drove up and we had a delicious dinner. Afterward we hung out in the hotel and it was ver... Thu, 3 Feb 2011 13:32:04 EST I used to be fat http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3975586 Have any of you seen this new show “I Used to be Fat” on MTV? I’ve been watching it since it started and I definitely like it. I love shows about people changing their lives, and since I’m only 22 seeing young people struggling in high school hits home. I was that girl. I wish I’d seen then what I see now in changing my lifestyle but at the time it seemed llike there was no point to even try. And I felt so alone, sneaking food in the middle of the night, eating from the time I “went to bed” u... Sun, 30 Jan 2011 22:30:31 EST Winter just wasn't my season http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3972869 I don't think I have felt like myself now in about a week and I cannot pinpoint why. I went through some stress and anxiety this week that I feel like I am still recovering from. Had a very tough time with several aspects of my life, and then today had my car break down. My eating habits swung out of control for about three days then I got them back under control although I feel like I'm still adjusting back to "normal" for me. But I cant like give a definitive answer as to why I feel "off". ... Sat, 29 Jan 2011 22:30:12 EST A lot, I know. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3968348 I know I only posted last night (see "A glass case of emotion") but I have been reflecting nonstop and I really feel confident about some decisions I have been making even just in the past 24 hours. I was always the person who felt like if I didn't have my heartrate up at 170 for an hour that my workouts weren't worth it. I woke up this morning with no intention on weighing in. This week I had binged like never before and was very scared to step on the scale, fearing maybe 3-4 pounds. I didn'... Fri, 28 Jan 2011 09:06:58 EST A glass case of emotion http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3967210 I've been doing a lot of soul searching and a lot of thinking. I had a rough two days that sent me on a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I've thought a lot about the journey I have been on, and about the sacrifices I have made over the past year and the ways I have changed my life. I've thought about the work I did to get to where I am physically and the work I do every day to maintain it. I've thought about how those sacrifices, hard work, and organization have bled into my life in other aspe... Thu, 27 Jan 2011 20:46:56 EST I'm full of it http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3963698 I’m full of crap. That’s how I feel today. I feel like I am full of crap and the biggest liar and no one should even read my blog. I don’t know why I fell into this ditch. I’ve had some stress lately, and it brought me down and then it brought me even further down to the point where I ate so much yesterday I threw up. And that’s not me. I am not the girl who eats until I get sick. I am not the girl who just now started crying because the shed was too full. I am not that girl. And I don’t know... Wed, 26 Jan 2011 18:12:54 EST To lose control and get back on http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3957795 I had a really busy kind of stressful week. I had written that I had class Friday morning and then work until late Friday night. Well I was really nervous/excited about my very first day of class at my brand new college. I got up super early more because I woke up and then couldn't fall back to sleep. I had originally planned to get up at 6 to go to the gym. But when I couldn't fall back to sleep I decided to take the stress off slightly I would do my stationary bike at home. Now being the co... Mon, 24 Jan 2011 22:05:23 EST I'm a control freak. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3945186 Yep, it's official I am a control freak. A few things happened today that kind of concreted it in my mind. One was a fight I had with my boyfriend this morning about chores and responsibilities. I am so wired into my schedule of how I do things and how I like things that when things are pushed aside it sets me off SO badly. I get so aggravated and angry and it's not right. Just because I can get 400 things done in the two hours before work doesn't mean everyone else has that ability. Not ever... Thu, 20 Jan 2011 19:06:53 EST Stocking up for more snow! http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3941997 So today I was supposed to be off and was having a lot of car trouble so I was going to drop my car off to get checked. I was disappointed thinking I wouldn't make it to the gym today and had settled for doing a half hour on my treadmill and a half hour on my stationary bike. But things changed and I ended up having to work. I had planned my breakfast and lunch last night but had to change things around due to time constrictions. So my breakfast was a bowl of Kashi cereal with half a cup of s... Wed, 19 Jan 2011 20:03:04 EST Change of plans. http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3938173 So Much to write about!!! <BR> <BR> Let the first thing I write in this blog be me gushing about my wonderful boyfriend. We have been together for 3 years this March and I must say NO ONE gets me like he does. For my birthday I got wonderful gifts and money. And I appreciated everything I got. But the gift he gave me was the best gift of all. Why? Because it was related to fitness and exercise. Because he HEARD me saying that I felt like my family loved me but didn’t respect my new lifestyl... Tue, 18 Jan 2011 17:56:14 EST Planning, planning, planning http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_individual.asp?blog_id=3931098 So today I feel great about every choice I made. I actually calculated my calories early this morning for breakfast, lunch, and snacks at work and stuck to my plan. I went to the gym this morning and had a really hard time running. Some days I am more tired than others and I just hope my epstein bar isn't back because I have been falling asleep like right after dinner lately. I also know my slow moving tummy doesn't help my energy. I just want to be regular damn it! Anyway. I ran for only a h... Sun, 16 Jan 2011 18:45:06 EST